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xebastii · 5 years

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ik the triwizard tournament like died after the cedric incident but i keep imagining what it would be like if a next gen kid ended up being a champion and now im obsessed with the concept

in fact time to headcanon (they’re all seventeen)

albus: we all know this dude would put his name in, whether it be to stick it to his dad or prove something to himself or probably both. he might win? but i feel like his own unbridled ambition to really just.. make something of himself and do better than his dad did in the tournament would get the better of him. probably runner up. IF he won, harry would kinda just.. aha that’s my boy? bc he’d still feel kinda awkward showing affection towards him. also the press would be the worst about it when comparing him to harry so that’s a big OOF. anyhow harry would try to find a personal way to show how proud he was, like prolly a father-son bonding trip or smth bc the Blanket didn’t do well. if he died.. harry would grieve. like really bad. for forever. that’s his kid. and he’d have so much regret that he chose to pursue something just to break out of his old man’s shadow like FUCK. also scorpius would cry for literally the rest of his life over it, so... h.

scorpius: fear? FEAR? i feel like scorpius wouldn’t willingly put his name in bc a.) it’d scare his dad shitless and b.) it’d scare HIM shitless and c.) it’d scare albus shitless, so it would either have to be done on accident or through a dare or when he’s drunk or smth. he probably wouldn’t win tbh, but he’d have a fighting chance bc to BE chosen means you’re a great wizard??? like AMAZING? he’d doubt himself too much to really like do his best tho i think. IF he won, draco would be so proud? but also like “why would you put your name in you’ve caused enough gray hairs i love you but jesus christ child”. if he died...... sad draco hours. like. REALLY SAD. not just sad, devastated, depressed, grieving, destroyed, shattered. that’s his only true family left man. albus would also be fucking devastated for life bc god that’s his........ best. friend. bf. boyfriend.

james: yeah this guy has winner potential. he’d def put his name in himself (maybe on a dare but prolly on his own whim), and his confidence would go a long way. if he won, harry would fuckcing!!! GO FERAL! bc that’s his son and he has the Coolest Kids in the world and ugh. harry loves being a dad (fck you mr “sometimes i wish you weren’t my son” I DONT KNOW YOU). he’d be more open w his congrats and affection bc james is more outgoing than albus. if he died harry would be a lot more open w his grief, bc he knows that james is reckless and that’s prolly what caused his death ultimately? albus is too “ugh,, dad,,,, i don’t need you” for him to be entirely open in the case of his death but he’d be sad if any of his kids died, none more or less than the others. he loves them??? more than. anything

teddy: BIG WINNER POTENTIAL. as he’s a hufflepuff and head boy and just generally a great kid, he’s got so much skill?? like definitely?? he’d probably also honor cedric’s memory bc hufflebuddies!!!!!!! so that’s sweet!!! if he won, his whole house would like shake the freaking roof- w congrats- and love- and other hufflepuff things idfk im a slytherin. and harry would just KAODHOWJD! bc he’s more insecure about if he raised teddy well enough bc his life was split between andromeda and him (plus he was super young), so that’d just be a massive Proud Dad Moment. and remus n tonks r like :) from up there too. if he died, literally so much devastation? i feel like teddy would be super well respected amongst students like cedric was, and it’d just.. cause ripples. but hey at least he’d get to meet his bio parents who love him so much :’). might write a fic for that

lily: would put her name in, but probably as a joke or to be like “ugh to heck w you @ older brothers/cousins”. i get a winner or runner up vibe from her? like she’s wild. feral. would snap ur fingers off if you touched her awesome red hair without asking. if she won, harry would just “oh god, she’s crazy,,, that’s my daughter” and his chest would just swell w pride and KOWNDOWJISSHJDBTHE CURSED CHILD IS INSANE HARRY WOULD BE A WICKED AWESOME DAD. if she died, fck. fUck. Man. like teddy, i have a feeling she’d be really popular and respected, so it’d also make waves. and i hc lily as wanting to be a HECKA AUROR and that she’s like bomb at potions. so harry would just,,,,,,,,, h. at all those lost dreams. like albus hadn’t quite settled on what he wanted to be other than “not dad” and james’ was constantly changing, but lily was so.. outspoken.. and determined abt it..

rose: she seems the most likely other than teddy to be a HUGE contestant, and would def put her name in and study and train and just get swole w knowledge. if she won, hermione would actually keel the fck over like shit. ron would lose his collective mind. just proud parent moment. def a party. lots of high-fives. if she died, jesus fuck,,,,, hermione, first of all, would probably have twenty eight and a half mental breakdowns, bc hermione is a fact driven woman and the anguish of losing a CHILD is,,,, its a lot. it’s literally the worst thing. she wouldn’t know How To Deal. like she CANT deal. ron would be a lot more,, “agh” about it. hurt to his fucking core but he appears aloof and uncaring because that’s just. a piece of him. gone. and ron is very common sense/gut feeling driven and him and hermione together dealing w it would be,, better than going through alone, but not ideal

thnk u for coming 2 my angst fest, im crying.

#scorbus #scorpius malfoy #lily luna potter #albus potter #james sirius potter #teddy lupin #rose granger weasley #harry potter #draco malfoy #hermione granger #ron weasley #hp #cursed child #hp headcanons #cursed child headcanons #mine

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iseulmm · 5 years

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hello!! i’m kit ( i also write for @sungmm ) & i finally caved and brought my second character!! introducing to u all my oversized toddler won iseul: a 1st year at yosul that’s in baek ho even though he’s literally the softest boy in the world. i’ll provide more information about him under the cut, but please feel free to add me at kit #9499 to plot for either of my characters or just like this post and i’ll come to you instead! ♡

won baby!!! his older sibs are @mmchangmin and @mmjiyi who are definitely a 100 more times cooler than him b/c they have blonde hair but he’s Boring and just kept his hair black 😔👊 he’s extremely sorta insecure abt the fact that both of his sibs are happy extroverts and he’s just... Not. very shy!!! hates talking to strangers even though his parents force him to!!! if u didn’t know him well you would think he’s aloof n mean but rly he’s just a babie who can’t even talk to girls

not the smartest but is v determined to do well in school and tries hard in everything that he does!! the type of person to ask questions after class ( but only b/c he’s scared of appearing dumb in front of his peers!! ) and spends way 2 much time in the library. ( also place #1 where he hides from his bullies lol )

he’s involved in some extracurriculars such as:

prefect :~) iseul’s a stickler for rules!!! don’t ask him to bend them for u b/c he won’t!! lowkey played himself tho since he just gets picked on more... haha... plz do not tell either of his sibs this :// he’s a dummy that won’t stand up for himself but will for other ppl in need?? otherwise ₕₑ ⱼᵤₛₜ ₜₐₗₖₛ ₗᵢₖₑ ₜₕᵢₛ and suffers silently

quidditch editor for the yosul ilbo! he’s not even that into quidditch but he basically learned all that he knows from jiyi so he gotta be useful with that knowledge somewhere!! catch him @ all the games... doesn’t play since he’s not really competitive but he is a natural at flying ( he learned from the BEST after all !!! )

part of the magical creatures club!! can’t take the class yet so he’s in the next best thing :”) ever since he was little he’s thought about being a magizoologist or even a dragonologist but tbh he’ll probably be forced into the family business once he becomes old enough so it’s just a pipe dream of his. he has a pink pygmy puff that is constantly rolling away from him and getting lost!!

doesn’t have that much house pride tbh?? he doesn’t think he’s v similar to his housemates at all or that he even belongs in baek ho so he’s very :((( about it b/c what if the gat made a mistake?? he’s rly worried since all the wons atm are in ju jak so a v Troubled boy,,,

anyways classic plots i would Die for:

childhood friends!!! someone who has stuck w/ him thru the yrs not for the ~ won fame ~ but b/c yknow they geniunely like hanging out w iseul... alternatively a best friend PLZ!! he has like two friends and u have the spot closest to his heart

a hyung/noona to dote on him and he’s always like “stop it ur embarrassing me” but the truth is that he’s a baby that needs to be babied

or u used to babysit him and he’s MORTIFIED... pls do not tell anyone about the time he cried ten times watching finding nemo it would ruin his cold reputation

he’s too young to be in love but u have a crush on one of his sibs and u want him to wingman and he’s just like. haha what

ur convinced he’ll be gr8 at quidditch so u keep pestering him abt it... leave him Alone

idk i don’t have that many ideas mostly b/c i prefer to hash out dynamics in dms!!! hmu plz :(

lov u

#& ooc.#mm:intro #mm:plotcall #( ty shu for enabling me

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tinybeanhealing · 7 years

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Could I possibly get a description? Gemini Rising , Cancer Mars in 1st, Cancer Moon, Virgo Mercury and Sun, Libra Venus in 5th? (I also have Scorpio Jupiter in 5th).

Hiiii ! Yes yes here we go (:

U are a genius learner, u are hungering for knowledge. U talk a lot or often or both, u can communicate when u need to ! U can write pretty well but communicating with other ppl might be harder for u. Yr either talking a lot or not at all. Gemini has a duality to it so u are often This or That n not often in between. Generally u can multi task pretty well. Schedules are difficult for u to adhere to ! U are ambitious n u are a hard worker. U are sympathetic to others n very empathetic. U can be moody n defensive. U are extremely intuitive n psychic, yr a witch basically n u should listen to yr intuition esp when unclouded by self doubt n self pity. U feel every little thing. U are independent, assertive n can be impulsive. Caretaking is sort of key to yr personality. u have strong organizing abilities n details don’t usually scare u, u just have to keep them all str8 in yr head. When u rush u tend to injure yrself due to clumsiness. U are very intuitive abt what ppl need. Some ppl would categorize u as nagging but everything u say n do for ppl isn’t abt making them feel bad it’s abt getting them what they need. It’s hard for ppl to understand it comes from sweetness n love in u bc it’s hard for u to tell ppl that’s what it’s abt. U tend to just take care of things without thinking abt it or asking or explaining. Or u over explain the details n ppl feel sort of bogged down by it. Either way u are trying yr best n I see u ! U are very selective as to who makes it into yr friendship circle, even more discerning abt yr inner circle. It’s hard for u to delegate to others bc honestly if u wanna get something done right the first time, u usually have to do it yrself (as a triple air sign, i’m so sorry bc i’m the reason u have to do everything yrself whoops). Virgos are usually associated with a deep intense desire for cleanliness, who knows if u feel that way but it’s been true in my experience. My sister n my best friend of 10 years are both virgos n i can actually see them absolutely losing it when their space can’t be or isn’t clean after a few days. It might feel hard for u to let go sometimes. U have strong mama vibes in yr chart with yr cancer placements. U have a strong connection to yr original home/original mama/original family, whether positive or negative. U can make any space homey n feel good. U crave security n stability. U absolutely canNOT have disruptions in yr home, it’s meant to be peaceful n all yrs. U remember every thing. It’s hard for u to let go of hurt but in letting go u will find more peace (lol i don’t always believe this, as a scorp dominated person but i hear it’s true). U usually just want peace n quiet but u attract the spotlight, yr not always happy abt that. U have a magnetic way abt u. U relate well to others, probably have a strong connection with the arts. Esp music. U are romantic n loyal. U will stick it out thru fights with a partner(s) but u would rather just avoid that altogether. U are very easily hurt, which u might feel insecure abt. Partnership is ideal for u. I mean this in multiple ways. First, yr ideal is to be partnered in some way (whether romantic/platonic/sexual/combo). Second, u have an idea of what partnership should look like n that is an ideal as well, sometimes u hold ppl to that ideal so hard n fast that they end up always disappointing u. U have a need for some kind of permanence in yr life (doesn’t mean u get married for sure, but if u want that it will probably happen). In love u are affectionate n creative. Ppl love to love u. U are efficient n hard working. U are resourceful n not afraid to work hard. U are secretive but not cowardly, u have an intense inner strength. U call for ppl to unveil their inner selves. U have the opportunity for self transcendence. U should be connecting with sex/death/magic/taboo/occult to expand yrself. U have strong healing abilities once u do. U should definitely be practicing some form of witchcraft if u haven’t already. Whatever u feel drawn to, u should look into n start opening yr heart n body n mind to it so that the universe can help u delve deeper (how it was for me n astrology). U want to make a difference in society thru yr creative self expression n it’s totally possible. U might want children (it’s a 5th house thing but it doesn’t mean u actually do, it could mean that u loved being a child or u love other ppl’s kids it would depend on some other parts of yr chart). Definitely watch out for dangerous risks u wanna take.

I hope that description holds some truths for u ! let me know if u have other questions abt yr chart (:

#astrology #description #sun #moon #rising #venus #mercury #mars #jupiter #gemini #virgo #cancer #libra #house positions #houses #5th house #leo #Anonymous

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no-rx · 7 years

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body and food and life rant, i dont request anyone read this bc i don’t like to spread my anxieties too much i just need 2 vent or at least write things down

i have this hope that my on-and-off availability of hormones and food over the past year just means that my boobs will be well-rounded but i have like no clue, idk where to even look for anecdotal evidence of this sort and it varies so much per person. i know some girls don’t really even get anything, and my mom herself is only like a B, but idk my mom has also been at best borderline anorexic her whole life and i KNOW diet and body shape & size are not necessarily related even long term but idkkkkk. my hope is that i started off super skinny and so hopefully i just try to work at eating enough and not binge/purging and being less skinny (which has been.. idk i have more than just pure muscle on my gut now) and things will go in the right places but things have been so unstable.

then there’s also the problem that my guts like,,, they’re not that bad but i need to really pay attention to my diet or my body starts to shut down, but i also just like… don’t know what’s a healthy diet, that i can afford, that i will enjoy. and like all these things are necessary bc otherwise im just not gonna eat (except if someone gifted the food to me each day in which case id compulsively eat it regardless of how i felt that day… and would that really be better?)

the only way i know how to get in touch w my body (which is like a key daily component of diet imo) is by pushing it to its limits physically, like usually thats been thru running but i cant rly afford running calorically nor physically/monetarily and also its contradictory to what i want, but i don’t rly know any other mode of pseudo-health than pushing my body to exhaustion as often as possible. tbf im tired 24/7… also i partially blame that on the shitty food i eat here, which is like half just whatever and half organized around state food guidelines which are fucking bullshit and dont even get me started on my paranoias abt these things but i dont rly have control of most of what i eat rn and like i mentioned i have a lot of trouble denying free food, ill eat until i get sick, idk idk idk idk i need a therapist who’s actually gonna help me not these CBT idiots who just reenact the same pseudo-interrogation and brain washing shit i had to deal with my whole life, like i’ve pretty much been exposed to an even more sinister CBT my whole life i really really don’t need more it isn’t gonna help, yughhhh

anyway i might not be so impatient but because of where im living and because of how bad i want intimacy (which chest dysphoria definitely cuts into my confidence super significantly) i just idk ugh

i think itd help if i start going out again more, cause also ive started collecting unflattering skull angles again, and everything worse makes everything worse, but also going out where? im such an absolute bum at this point. i know this city in some ways better than ppl who have been here for years but in other ways its completely opaque. and i know by the end of the summer ill turn 21 but idk that bars are rly the solution i should b looking for (and $ is still an issue). cities are too social, idgi.

oh and then there’s the issue that it seems like everyone here is an art queer and it’s like… i appreciate that a lot, i admire it, but that is definitely not the world im coming from, and i love art and queer art, i think its the most important stuff in the world but also uhh idk i don’t think that means i have to understand and appreciate queer art culture.

but anyway it’s like a major insecurity also, like all these (post)college queers who r becoming-person and i know im only 20 but on the contrary i feel like im dissolving. like i read all these niche books but honestly im still trying to grasp at any fragments of a life i can, i have no real connection to my high school friends, im not sure what happened w my friends at the first college i went to, it was like the liked me and i was connected w diverse groups but i was always rly auxiliary even w the ppl i spent the most time w and i think those ppl ended up having something against me(?) bc they ended up being way closer to my ex-gf and her annoying racist and homophobic family, u know what good for them actually, and then the second college i went to i still am connected to my gay friends but its like…. not rly a thing that shows up materially and i rly don’t feel like i can go to them for support. or like i try to and they’re sympathetic but idk it doesn’t feel right.

and then! i used to be a major computer geek, specifically i was on my way to being super knowledgeable in computer languages themselves (i was trying to write a post-grad level paper on macros w ppl in france and sweden @ 18) but that fell apart for a bunch of reasons, now i have trouble focusing on computers at all. so i tried to move more into my skills w math and develop those but thats rly impossible w/o a lot of resources and space and teachers tbh! and now im reading all this philosophy but honestly its awful, and the thing is none of this stuff is practical or interesting unless yr already in a certain position of privilege which i was trying to get but now i feel like is impossible not just materially but after having butted my head against the psychological barriers too, and its rly against what i want

so im hoping to get better at music and maybe learn to speak new languages, bc these are things i have some aptitude for (i can’t understand spoken word in any language well, but melody and written word i have skill at) but also as much as i want to dedicate myself to these things they feel so fucking gross mostly because even tho ive resisted it ive still been told my whole life that humanities type things (philosophy doesnt count bc its supposedly analytic) are like a horrible thing to invest in or actually enjoy, and also anyway i need cash now 877cashnow which makes it feel even more like a self-betrayal

and like i know i should feel worthwhile and interesting regardless of what particular interests i have but i rly dont, its so hard for me to get comfortable enough for me to talk to ppl and even then it's like.... there r issues. idk i just wanna have my humanity validated

so.

uh holy shit i need a therapist

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cognizantlyalive · 7 years

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went to sch today for lunch w ben. then i went to the lib to take a look at what to study for my licensing exams and i just realised - THERES SO MUCH TO STUDY?!?!?! and it looks fucking technical also and like it rly requires a lot of memory work regarding the entire SFA and nitty gritties omg. while it is DEF good to have an overview, def v helpful and relevant for my job, I'm rather apprehensive. becos i went online and the study guides aren't available. plus it seems like FNCE101+ Corp rep+ CFA lvl 1+ external studying regarding different securities and calculations+ external knowledge of the regulations and definitions. OMG i am just so scared. i mean i def can study for it and i don't doubt my ability, but I'm just afraid tt i won't be able to juggle studying AND work... esp w my eyesight condition which rly limits the time i can be awake for. i can't like do all-nighters consecutively anymore and cram.

i bought a couple (100) practice questions for $30 cos it was cheaper than the test bank which costs a whopping $299?! that’s mad. for 400 questions. god. i am scared. i am anxious. i wanted to run and find comfort in grld again. which is so wtf. because i know it would be emotionally draining for me. insecurity compounded. he can't be my sense of security anymore. i learnt that last sem, and i must remember that now :( maybe God is rly doing me a favour. if i hadn't confronted him it would be more anxiety-inducing for me right now. perhaps i really just need to trust in God’s closure of the door and FOCUS ON STUDYING NOW (by myself). sigh. sigh sigh sigh.

i wonder how grld is doing... if he’s scared and stressed.... :(

anw ben said he thinks grld broke up w his ex cos she wasn't christian. she is most definitely toxic. also bn didn't tease me abt grld which he usually does, so I've a feeling grld alr bore the brunt of it and answered up to it. so yea. we are friends.............................. for this chapter?

I have absolutely NO CLARITY in my life right now. I can only see as far as ONE STEP ahead and it is driving me crazy. but at least, i know my steps are secure? slowly, slowly... but surely. sigh. :( i know God provides. 2 Corinthians 9:8 And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that having all sufficiency in all things at all times, you may abound in every good work. So far I really HAVE EVERYTHING, thanks to God. He has rly provided every single thing for me:( from job to holidays and what not.... if only I can endure a little and be more patient :(

Romans 8:24-30English Standard Version (ESV)24 For in this hope we were saved. Now hope that is seen is not hope. For who hopes for what he sees? 25 But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience.26 Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. 27 And he who searches hearts knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because[a] the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God. 28 And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good,[b] for those who are called according to his purpose. 29 For those whom he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. 30 And those whom he predestined he also called, and those whom he called he also justified, and those whom he justified he also glorified.

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