#and also the guilt at the end

[astrhae]

"I'm very good at forgiveness. It's one of my favorite things."

#michael sheen had absolutely NO RIGHT to go that hard #and break me like this #it's all the emotions aziraphale goes through #like he's not even done processing the kiss #it's the anger and the love and the confusion and the disappointment and the heartbreak #and also the guilt at the end #and him covering it all up #i'm really really never going to recover from this #good omens #good omens 2 #good omens spoilers #good omens 2 spoilers #goodomensedit #my edits #ineffable husbands

[pbnmj]

tfw the man you love against your better judgement gets a kid to help him with his photojournalism and dies trying to expose the criminal he's been blackmailing and then the kid puts on a uniform that's way too big for him and calls himself spider-man after ben urich and you know he's going to get killed trying to serve justice to all the criminals in new york. and now there's a sixteen year old kid bleeding out on felicia's doorstep and again despite her better judgement, she cares. how much of that is a misplaced sense of responsibility for her dead lover, and how much of that is the deep feeling of injustice over how this child is the one fighting, and how felicia knows that she could never turn him away. what then </3

#we need more jaded old man who hates everyone and is overly harsh to the young girl theyre protecting but they end up like family #except the its a jaded old woman and a young boy. and i think noir peter felicia could be set up like this :) #especially bc i rly dont think felicia has a parental bone in her body. the dynamics get better/worse due to this #i really really need that feeling of guilt and helplessness and the 'YOU ARE NOT MY MOTHER' fight with them #i also think they need to have an awkward touching talk about ben and the mess he leaves behind and EVERYTHING #first thing that is coming out of the drafts in so long and its deranged noir takes what else did anyone expect tbh #spider-man noir #spiderman noir #peter parker #felicia hardy #my art #noir #felicia

[guinevereslancelot]

what was with cameron house md she spends 90% of the episode saying she wants their patient to die bc he's a genocidal dictator and her colleague husband says "babe it bothers me for ethical reasons that you want our patient to die :(" and she said "hm maybe you're right :/" but when it comes down to it the genocidal dictator lays a finger on her in an aggressive manner and chase instantly commits medical malpractice to murder the guy and then when he tells her she LEAVES HIM bc boo hoo he's a murderer now like GIRL he killed a man for you!!! he's wracked with catholic guilt!!! he's being crushed beneath the weight of his sins because he chose his devotion to you over his devotion to god!!! he literally could not get any sexier at this moment in time!!!

#girl what are you doing...... #also just in general she did not deserve him honestly he was so good to her and for WHAT #just to be abandoned at peak devotion and guilt and hotness 🙄 #girl get OUT of my way i'm stronger than you #if she cared she could fix him or make him worse but i could love and support him no matter what 😌 #his muder is a part of him and its SEXY #robert chase #house md #malpractice md #i know the actors broke up irl or whatever but wtf..... #i should have ended my rewatch w their happy lil wedding at the end of s5 #s6 everything instantly goes to shit #and stays shitty #chase should be happy fr #he's supposed to turn into house basically but they should have made him the well adjusted version of house #like how nightwing is the well adjusted version of batman #anyway i have no real point here i just lowkey dont like cameron bc of this arc #also her obsession w house is so weird i wish they hadn't made that a thing #this has been a shitpost #anyway she left chase at the absolute peak of his sexiness wtf....... #anyway since this apparently needs to be said its not that deep this is a silly post if you send me hate messages i wont answer #i block and ignore anon hate bc i am too busy touching grass to be rude to strangers over a tv show

[lovestory]

i loved that taylor was very touched by the pictures of marjorie being held up and she was very very cute about it with her little speech but at the end of the day...it could have easily gone the other way? the people who did that just did it hoping they could make viral content out of it, without even stopping to consider why it crossed a boundary...just very weird vibes around it all, people are so desensitized

[tomurakii]

I know I have a semi-popular post about how Gale would not have made a good teacher and that's why I'm so happy that it does happen canonically. It shows so much growth in him: not only does he learn to love himself regardless of his magic ability, that love extends to others. He can now educate students in the field of magic that has always clearly been his true favourite without being "irked by their ineptitude". He shares the art he loves and his enthusiasm, talent, and newfound patience make him a great teacher. With Tav by his side he becomes a happier, less guarded, more caring person and I can't think of anything better for him.

#hes also so cheeky ugh the teasing before the kiss followed by the fucking nose boop he is GORGEOUS TO ME #like it just shows how unburdened he is. we've always seen him dulled by the weight on his shoulders. his guilt. his uncertain future. #and its so lovely to see how free and full of joy and wit and sarcasm and jokes he is without all those burdens #plus I had always envisioned him becoming a professor alongside my galemancer tav Redeema so I am happy that thats the canon ending #they live in waterdeep together. gale teaches illusion at blackstaff academy and redeema teaches kids to FIGHT in the STREETS #bg3 #gale dekarios #baldur's gate 3 #baldurs gate 3 #baldurs gate #baldur's gate #gale of waterdeep

[ronanlynchbf]

#rereading trc while simultaneously falling back into aftg stuff by virtue of reading tsc and thereby transporting myself back to when i #was sixteen but it's fine it's totally fine like it's whatever 😁👍 #r.txt #anyway. me when – me when i – me when i'm trying to tell my best friend that i'm gay but i'm also trying to tell him i can take stuff from #my dreams and i took my now pet raven from my dreams like from my head i'm a dreamer but also that's kind of the same thing but also it's #really not but also it is bc it's an allegory but also that's not the only thing the dreaming is an allegory for and also i'm scared to tel #him like i'm terrified actually and i don't want to tell him but also i need to tell him but also he already knows but i don't know that he #knows and also i was goinggggg to tellllllll himmmmmm arghhhhhhh #this scene is soooooooooo like. like AOUGH. ARGH OUGH AGH AOUGHHHHHH #<- sounds of a guy taking minus xp damage with every word read of this stupid scene. he literally was going to tell gansey 😕......... #trc #ronsey #like i need 2 lay down. he came out there to tell him......the timbre of his voice being described as strange&initially unrecognizable.... #i read this part like. 2 weeks ago idk. smth of the sort. and i'm STILL thinking abt it....you came out for something.....when you'd made u #ur mind to confess but ur mouth betrayed you in the end......associated with secrets and guilt......MAN.....

[tarantula-hawk-wasp]

Sacrificial Lamb

another little symbolism moment with my oc inquisitor maera modeled on 'innocence' by William Adolphe-Bougueraeu

#my art #dragon age #qunari #dragon age inquisitor #qunari inquisitor #inquisitor adaar #adaar #inquisitor maera #lamb #artists on tumblr #art #wow another painting of maera looking UP how original ik anyways parts of this are great parts i rushed bc it is 2:40 am #and i wanted this to be done tonight #OUGH I MISSED HER i missed my babygirl #obsessed with the role of the inquisitor as like figurehead and also sacrifice #also martyr also saint like i love leaning into the cult of the herald idea tbh and like since shes like 10 theres is a level of #child sacrifice to it like the loss of innocence the child of omelaswhich like if i ever get the energy for fic writing again we WILL be #exploring everyone's feelings about that (many flavors of guilt) #i told myself I wasn't gonna do a gold foil background but gradually we ended up with that. I also told myself no halo but

[anyoldfandom]

I am actually. I am so emotional over the Salazar parents and I need to share this to tumblr too.

A lot of stories where the MC is adopted I feel. Either dismiss the biological parents and the impact they have on the kid's life, or makes them evil and abusive, framing the loss of the bio parents as a good thing, or at least something we shouldn't think about just look at this new family.

But Genrex doesn't do that. From the start, Rex wanted to find out more about his parents - it's one of his primary character motivations, next to helping people. He loves them, even though he doesn't know them.

And the more he finds out about them, the more he realizes they loved him. Rylander is consumed by guilt but as Rex's first connection to his pre-Event life, the first thing he does is hug him. And when he tells Rex about his parents, the two things Rex knows is that 1) they were scientists, and 2) that when he was in danger, they were desperate enough to use their secret, experimental technology to save him. Technology built from their desire to help the world, to save countless lives and end countless suffering.

And then. When he finds out that they were dead, he doesn't stop caring. It'd be so easy, too, to tie it up there - his parents were good people, he got his answer about them, the end. But they don't. He doesn't. Because the show is saying once again that they are his parents. He still calls them mom and dad, even as the show makes it clear Holiday and Six adopted Rex as their son. Even as the show even parallels Six and One with Rex and Six (and I will talk about that more later if I don't forget, trust me), to really drive home how much they're family. Rex even says he considers the two of them family, and later that he considers Noah, Claire and Annie family.

He has new family, the show tells us, but his old family still matters to him. He's upset that he never has the chance to meet his parents, that everything he hears about them, about his time with them, is secondhand knowledge. It tells us clearly that not only does Rex still love them, but that he still wants to know them. And everything we find out about them reinforces the love that they had for each other.

We see Abuela and the family in Mexico, who connect him to his birth family and tell him that he was so loved back then, and still is now. We see their office in Abysus through Rex's eyes. The picture of him and his dad on his desk. The drawing Rex drew, proudly pinned to the wall.

We see it in the familiarity of the drawing. That that robot, that build, was what Rex created when he was lost and scared and alone - that it was made to keep him safe. That it first appeared in his mind in a place he felt safe.

The show says, tenderly and softly, that the love is still there. That the fact these people died was nothing but a tragedy, that their love is a big part of what made Rex who he is today - that every molecule in his body is filled with their final gift to him. That every time he cures someone, every time he uses a build, every time he makes a machine - we see the love that they had for him.

And the way he quietly absorbs his father's face. The way he freezes and whispers "Mamá?" when he finds out Zag-Rs has their mother's voice. The fact that she even has her voice as a testament to Caesar's love, too - that it was meant to bring comfort and safety. The way Rex yells at Caesar when he finds out they have a family property, a connection to their past, the way he fights to protect it.

And, none of this takes away still from Six and Holiday being Rex's family too. None of this removes the work either set of parents did for him, the love either set has - the show says that it was unfair that the Salazar parents were lost. That Six and Holiday are not replacements, that they still love him as parents but play different roles in his life. They can not, and have no desire to, replace the Salazars. But Rex needs parents, he needs protectors, and so they will do what they can for him - at first out of necessity, to keep this kid they barely know safe, but then out of love. They aren't replacing what was lost, but are doing their best to do what Rex's bio parents would do. And they do mess up in it - they mess up in ways Rex's bio parents might not have. Six is clearly bad with showing affection, affection we saw the Salazars give Rex so easily, and Holiday is overworked and stressed constantly, sometimes breaking under the pressure and snapping at Rex and Six, things we never saw the Salazars do.

It's just. It's about how sometimes things will not be the same. They will be different. That doesn't mean the people you lost aren't still with you.

#This is also. Why I dislike the 'Rex was secretly made for the nanite experiments the accident was a lie' theory so much #Bc it assigns malice where the show says over and over again there was only love. #That this was only ever a tragedy of good people whose good intentions were manipulated and twisted. #And I think giving them something shitty to have done in the past especially goes against the message of the show's perspective on adoption #The family we choose is not always stronger than the family we are born to. Sometimes they are equal in different ways. #Rex's bio parents are gone but not replaced. They have also shaped who he is #Six and Holiday are just picking up where they left off. Because they have to. #Also I don't like the theory that Rex's parents are EVOs somewhere bc I think it diminishes the impact of the tragedy too. #I get. Wanting them to have a happy ending. But I think it's important to realize that this is the closest they can have to a happy ending. #Some things cannot be replaced. Or fixed. Sometimes life takes what we love and what loves us. And that is okay. #It is okay to be upset at that and it is okay to never fully move on. #'What about Caesar?' I have. Another post's worth of thoughts about him. #But I think he's also a character who is defined more by Rex by their relation and defined by the story by his guilt #I think he is the closest thing Rex has to a shitty bio family member and he is shitty in plenty of ways #But he's also a parallel to Rex in a lot of ways. He fails where Rex succeeds bc of it. #generator rex #genrex #Anyways. Sorry for the big post.

[andi-o-geyser]

“cody only has under an hour of screen time in all of star wars” maybe to you he does. to me he's the main character

#he's my most special little guy don't you GET it #in my mind's eye he also has at least an hour more of screen time from being in the kenobi show #because that's canon. FOR ME #bickering like an old married couple protecting luke and throwing bodies into the sarlac as a personal murder disposal on tattooine #everyone raise a glass for the first draft of the kenobi show that had cody chilling in the desert with obi wan as his secret buddy #where we would have had a deeper focus on themes of guilt and sacrifice and repentance and hope for a better future #by virtue of cody being there and exploring his new relationship with obi wan where they're foils for each other both driven by guilt #“my cody was so fun” yeah of course he would have been he's post war scrappy uncle cody killing bounty hunters every other thusday #how is that not the most fun thing ever #he's just so sunshiney like asfdsskk #he's my rotten soldier #he's my sweet cheese my good time boy #this is what i get for hyperfixating on clone wars for months on end #strong opinions on the rich inner lives of copy paste men and their 3 million brothers #*deep sigh* this is my life now and i love it and cannot save myself #star wars #the clone wars #the bad batch #tcw #sw #commander cody #codywan #tcw cody #clone wars #cc 2224 #(thinking of any more tags used for cody) #(nah i think we're good) #andis thought geyser

[lunarharp]

when an obsessed orufrey person plays ace attorney for the first time in a while

#witch hat tag #orufrey #you know those times when the defendant is still in shambles at the end of a case because it was not a clear-cut thing #but you get to present one Special Sentimental piece of evidence that proves not all is lost #qifrey's breakdown would be like... he turns up calm and pleasant like dahlia kristoph gant etc but very quickly: #well first he's hiding his scar so you have to use the bracelet and also you find out about the seal on his hat using that. #eventually he is throwing water that comes out of nowhere like that coffee prosecutor guy. and his cape starts billowing #the more he breaks down his neck thingies start coming undone btw. To represent his descent into guilt and his LIES becoming undone. #course as the player i have already used my magatama and seen his 35894 psychelocks. but theyre those BLACK psychelocks #representing his repressed memories taken by the brimhats. also his glasses shatter out of nowhere when you keep presenting evidence #and tartah's testimony etc. and the player is like UHH this guy is A PUPPET MASTER but coco's heartfelt testimony commands the tone #and of course he's someone who has been twisted and damaged by trauma like adrian andrews. the mastermind is of course the brimhats #only me with my magatama knows that... only i can do it. It has to be me..... #just like how as the reader i can see everything about qifrey and i can hold him dear as much as i judge him #whereas if i were oru things would not be ok unless memories can be restored and mentally ill decisions can be illuminated #WELL ANYWAY !!!!! what i appreciate about ace attorney is its ability to mix silliness with seriousness #i cant usually make jokes about serious heavy heartbreaking stuff in witch hat because it is all very intense emotions for me #but i appreciate ace attorney's mix of sincerity and psychological pain and the inherent silliness to being a character in a situation #so.....Get Iguin on the stand. Now. BAILIFF.. TAKE OFF THE MASK #i would most love to be able to prove qifrey's eyesight is failing. hed be like I have no reason to pursue the brimhats (smiles pleasantly) #and it would be like You're lowering your gaze.. proof that the court lighting is too harsh for you..! #his glasses would crack at that moment btw. I used apollo's bracelet and saw the glyphs on the glass. #I know all about u. and i will save u

[dimonds456]

It is not okay to speculate whether or not someone is suicidal. If they claim to be, you should 100% take that shit seriously and give them the benefit of the doubt.

That said, if someone is using their own suicidality as a weapon to gain sympathy, emotionally manipulate someone, or to push other people down, GENUINELY fuck that person. While it's not okay for us to doubt that statement just because they're weaponizing it, that also doesn't mean we need to ALLOW that manipulation to convince us of something.

If you feel the need to use your terrible mental health as a step-stool in a conversation to make your side more heard than the other, you need to take a step back and re-evaluate yourself. And I am saying this as someone who ALSO has shit mental health and has been in the trenches with it before. I get it. I understand. But also STOP.

It's tempting to want to save your own ass over recognizing where you've gone wrong, but just a word of advise: recognizing where you've gone wrong WILL save your ass and give you better mental health and wisdom down the line.

However, emotionally manipulating people absolutely will not.

#suicide mention #tw sui ment #tw suicide #suicide tw #tw sui #tw sui talk #james somerton #k with all that out of the way i do wanna say that this is a response to james' apology #im honestly glad he deleted the vid and also that he's going to genuinely get into a better place #that is GOOD #i mean this genuinely i hope he gets better #but also the fact that he opened the video with an emotional guilt-trip is something i have just been wanting to talk about for a long time #it's manipulation 101 #if you wanna tell your audience you're struggling with mental health that's one thing but not in a fucking apology video #and if you do need to mention it DONT MAKE IT THE VERY FIRST THING YOU SAY #that's such a shitty thing to do #what you need to do is apologize to everyone FIRST and say everything you need to say #and THEN bring that up #but even then i'd disclaim the shit out of it and make sure everyone knows it's not a guilt trip it's just true #but like. at the end of the day dragging your own mental health into an apology is a double-edged sword #tjhat really just depends on the situation #like i said i genuinely hope he gets better #but it's not just him doing this shit. i've seen like 3 cases of this shit in just the past few months #i guess james is just my excuse to finally say something about it

[palmtreepalmtree]

My mom bullied me into going to a Passover seder at some semi-related family members, and I agreed cause she's old and I don't have many of these left.

They sent out an email instructing people to bring a photo of someone that we would like to have at the table but who otherwise could not attend.

As someone who has lost a father, all four grandparents, an aunt, an uncle, and a cousin, this is like telling me to bring a freight train of emotion to a stranger's table, and I am so annoyed by it. I understand that it's a nice gesture, and I'm sure as we go around the table talking about who we would like to have with us who can't be there, that it will be a meaningful moment to a lot of people, and I hope that I will somehow manage not to burst into tears (no, I will, I am getting teary about it now just thinking about it), but FUCK.

I don't know. Maybe I'll bring a photo of Harpo Marx. Nothing says 'we were slaves in Egypt' like the occasional interruption of a honking horn.

#if i end up bringing one of you #i will let you know #i'm gonna be mad about this seder for a while #when i suggested to my mom that she could go without me #she guilt-tripped me #she did the 'nevermind then #i won't go' #which is so fucking manipulative i could lose my mind #but it works cause also i don't want her driving that far alone at night

[stagefoureddiediaz]

Thinking thoughts about Abuela being back and with this backstory about her being taken in by charlatans and Eddies whole catholic guilt thing and how the two things kind of play into one another as an exploration of faith and being taken in by something.

Abuela giving all her money to the tarot card readers etc because she was searching for something - for connection (with Abuelo) - trying to recapture what she had lost, and How Eddie has spoken about trying to re-find the magic he had with Shannon - how Eddie hasn't actually fully reconciled the Shannon of it all when it comes to relationships and how his Catholic guilt connects into that.

How Marisol as a physical representation of Catholicism is part of that narrative - how Eddie is entering a place where he has to chose his path - in order to move on from Shannon he needs to fully square the hole - catholic or non catholic. And how that needs to happen first - before he can begin his queer journey!

#this is so incoherant #I'm also thinking about how Marisol fits into this narrative and how this idea of being taken in or fooled by a person plays into what we #know of her - how she wasn't upfront with Eddie (not saying she had to be right from the off but before moving in!!!) - how she is kind of #representative of secrets - especially around faith and ones connection with faith because she is essentially a stand in for catholicism #which (sorry to all the catholics out there) peddles in magic and secrets in order to keep the mystery of faith alive and therefore keep #people believing. How Eddie's reckoning with himself and the ghost of Shannon ultimately means choosing either to follow the path of #catholicism or non catholicism #How Marisol is a tie to religion and therefore his reasons for not having successful relationships after her (or even with her) and how #Eddie letting go will ultimately mean letting go of Marisol - how he can never fully move forward while catholicism still lingers #how I don't' think we'll be seeing the queer aspect of this narrative this season - that dealing with this first part is key and only once #he has figured it out can he then be free to know himself - is true self better - and accept and move into his full self as a queer man #so yeah - catholic guilt arc 7b and 8a - as its really a two parter - finally dealing with the remnants of Shannon - and its connection wit #his faith and then when truly free of that exploring his queerness! #So yeah - Marisol will possibly be here until towards the end of the season because she is meant to be the trigger point for Eddie in #relation to Shannon - its why they made the difference (and similarities) between S and M very obvious in 7x01 #they have the time to build this story arc more fully now with the s8 renewal - to do it justice and unfortunately as part of that it means #she'll probably be around longer than any of us would like! #I don't know if I even make sense at this point #but I do want to reitterate that the show is goig out of its way to contrast her with Buck as well #to really show how close and right for each other Buck and Eddie are so no one needs to panic - she's here for the narrative not forever! #911 abc #911 spoilers #eddie diaz

[cobaltfluff]

Arajin observation notes so far:

- good reflexes? (dodging the trip in ep1)

- strong enough to hold up Matakara??

- is the punches to Matakara's kicks :3c

Kid was definitely serious about becoming strong back then 😂

#bucchigiri?! #watch and yell #spoilers #honestly i think arajin is still very strong on his own #but he's likely hampered by fear and his sense of guilt #also might tie in with the best friend stone and how he feels like he doesnt deserve it?? he probs still has it tho #i am SEEING the VISION #everybody loves Arajin except the one person who he wants to love him back LMAO #ALSO THE VERY END OF THE ENDING SONG?? #WILL EVERYONE GET TO DO THE HEART POSE??? #this feels so old school in such a good way i love it SO MUCH #also i am glad i was right that WAS matakara's brother #now why is he in jail(?) is the real question #running theory that arajin feels responsible for it #maybe big bro was protecting lil bro when arajin ran off and it got serious #something like that? #i am thinking way too hard about this #but I NEED TO KNOW

[tubchunk]

al im saying is if qtubbo actually caused the formation of a cursed team in purgatory just cuz he glitched through and spun the wheel when he shouldnt have. ans is now burdened with leading a ship doomed to sink..... his main character energy is INSANE.

#like imagine the silly guy's shenanigans ended up in the biggest canon event of the server #but also the guilt he will feel knowing that if any eggs die therr is something that he had to do sith it #i love him sm #my silly guy i love you #main character protagonist energy #came in became a main character and slayed #qsmp #tubbo qsmp #qsmp tubbo #q!tubbo #qsmp purgatory

[vellichorom]

setting things right // prequel + sequel to THIS animatic, 

( ft @tomi-chuu‘s stanley & “ timekeeper “ )

#uwu art #The Stanley Parable #The Stanley Parable Ultra Deluxe #TSP Narrator #TSP Stanley #TSP Settings Person #TSP Timekeeper #skip button ending #// ask to tag #FOR CONTEXT... skip button ending happens - my narrator remembers next to nothing about it ( repressed it really good ) #but stanley's left feeling guilt beyond BELIEF because she remembers fully #eventually the ''timekeeper'' also known as Nobody possesses the narrator & digs through the deepest parts of his mind to allow her some #* closure #& from there they both forget about the ending almost entirely #THE FIRST IMAGE PROMPTED THE ANIMATIC FUNNILY ENOUGH <3 #anyway sorry about the whiplash #you ever have old man bathwater & skip button madness in the same day #SOMEDAY i'll elaborate on the events of the skip button as well but today is not that day