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letters-from-eros · 3 years

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I know you don't have rules for that already but can I ask for relationship hc's for Chuuya and Dazai with a fem or gender neutral s/o?😳❤

A/N: Am I foaming from the mouth for my first BSD request? Maybe. I hope this is good though. I added in a short part on how they asked you out cause I wanted this to be different and unique from most dating HCs.

Pairing(s): Dazai Osamu, Chuuya Nakahara x GN!Reader

Warnings: Slight mention of suicide in Dazai's, cursing

Form: Headcanon

Also: These ran super duper long I'm so sorry

You managed to cuff the suicidal maniac, huh?

Well done, my friend, well done

It took him so long to ask you out, and even when he did it wasn't planned. In all honesty, he never planned to tell you about his feelings. The excruciating part for him is that he did fall pretty fast, and realized he was falling even faster.

He didn't deny them, that wouldn't make it go away. He knew that. He sat and let it festered, hoping it would just disappear at some point.

Had the mindset of anything he loved he'd lose, y'know? Sad but so.

The way I'd imagine it happening is that you both are either working late at the ADA (with just the two of you there) or just at his place hanging out into all hours of the night.

Both of you are laughing at some dumb joke Dazai made and as the laughter dies out he feels.. Bittersweet. You make him feel genuinely happy, like there's no need to put on any mask or facade. That was not a feeling he had with anyone else.

Once silence fully overtakes you both it slips out of his mouth, purely on accident.

"I love you"

"More than suicide?"

"Y/n I'm serious!"

From that night forward you had the pleasure of being the partner of Dazai Osamu, with his feelings being released in an extremely cliche coming-of-age-movie way.

Okay, onto actually dating Dazai

Still goofy as all hell. Honestly the only thing that has really changed is the he lets you in a lot less hesitantly on small things. Its easier to put cracks in his walls, per se

Unbothered by PDA and will probably make out with you in public and not see why that isn't a thing that should be done or why you wouldn't like it.

(Just tell him if you don't, he'll get over it eventually)

Will kiss you everywhere, doesn't exactly have a favorite place, but where he does end up kissing you the most is your forehead for convenience. He'll kiss your wrist if he's holding your hand, too.

Clingy as all hell, always wants to be touching you in some way and becomes the biggest dramatic bitch when he can't be around you.

Kunikida will actually punt him if he says he'll die if he's away from you for another second. For the tenth time

No more suicide attempts once you two are dating, and doesn't ask for a double suicide with you because he knows it'll upset you quite a bit

He flirts with you like he's trying to get you to date him lmao he will never ease up, especially if it gets you bashful.

Dazai would NOT be dating you if he did not trust you a whole lot, so thats something that is pretty vital to the relationship.

That being said, please be understanding of the pieces of Dazai he keeps locked away to never see the light of day again and trust him just as much as he trust you. Its important especially if you don't want the relationship to be one-sided

Also with the high amount of trust he places in you, he doesn't get jealous easily. I mean he may get pissy that you're not giving him any attention but jealous is never the right word to use

Mf finally washes his fucking clothes once he starts dating you. Doesn't smell like the bottom of the ocean on a regular basis anymore.

Dates are always chill and rarely super extravagant. Park dates are often but Dazai's truly preferred date is snuggling inside, watching a few movies and slipping in and out of naps.

Belladonna is his go-to petname for you, of course, but he may bounce around with other petnames for kicks.

He will start calling you weird shit if you ignore him for to long.

Never raises his voice at you unless its in some joking manner. On the rare occurrence that you two have an argument he would need to get extremely riled up before he resorts to raising his voice. He tries to have patience and usually succeeds.

Dazai gets SO soft and SO loving sometimes, and it can be out of no where or something minuscule could have sparked it. All I know is that its nice and cute 🥰

He's usually pretty vulnerable himself when he gets like that so match his energy, alright? If you don't he might end up a little sour for some short amount of time and be more hesitant to get like that

10/10 Lover. This is by no means an effortless relationship, its a constant battle of figuring out boundaries, running into walls and respecting them. Dating Dazai isn't toxic if you treat him right and when you do? It definitely pays off.

(This got so long. I've had so much pent-up Dazai love and all around BSD love and I finally had an outlet to completely let it out)

HUSBAND. THE LOML

Okay, sorry. But this man is the love of my life, and he will be yours as well.

Took him a while to really figure out his feelings for you, or to better put it, it took him a while to label the feeling he had towards you "love"

But ONCE HE DID mans was practically whipped before you officially started dating omg.

You could notice the shift in attitude when he figured out his feelings. He got nervous, went stiff and blushy all against his will. Maybe a tad bit more snappy.

He'd try to keep his cool and then just eat shit and become a babbling angry mess.

After every encounter and interaction with you he'd end up overthinking all of it and when he catches himself doing that he gets so upset with himself. It's really when he realized that he won't be able to keep his feelings a secret forever.

Definitely started avoiding you when planning on the 🌈perfect🌈 way to ask you out and blamed work if you asked him why he was avoiding you.

Anyway, the way he asks you out was almost as calculated as a proposal.

He asks you to meet him at the port and dress comfortably towards the end of the day

When you get there, Chuuya has a nice place set up for you both. A blanket and a bottle of expensive wine because we all know he's lowkey an alcoholic along with a very nice view of the ocean/port.

Chuuya made sure it didn't radiate too much romantic energy to give his plans away; also, he wasn't that nervous. Once he gets truly determined to do something, he doesn't let something like anxiety get in the way of it. The idea of being rejected was essentially an afterthough

Made an effort to make sure he didn't drink too much and neither did you. He didn't want to take advantage of the possibility of you being drunk by the time he asks you out and he knows he himself has a low tolerance

Once the sun began to set is when he asks. Stutters a little bit towards the beginning but smooths it out.

"Y/n, I uh.. I brought you to tell you that I love you."

"Have you drank too much already, Chuuya?"

"No! I'm completely sober!"

It was overall super cute and unforgettable, just as he planned.

Honestly, being in a relationship with this boy is just 🥰

Spoils you so much. You'll deadass be dripped out head to toe purely in stuff Chuuya has bought you.

Dw, he has an alright sense of fashion

Don't try to discourage him, that'll only get him to buy more stuff.

Chuuya's short and the concept of a size difference doesn't bother him at all, he'll find a way to kiss you regardless lol

On the topic of kissing, his favorite places are your lips and hands

He takes of his gloves whenever he's with you and let me tell you his hands are the softest things ever. Albeit his knuckles are a little calloused sometimes.

If you're anything like me, you'd want his soft hands on you 24/7 and y'know what? Chu would happily oblige.

He isn't like the biggest fan of PDA but certainly isn't against it. He'd rather keep things behind doors as much as he can. Holding hands and small kisses on the cheek are very fine by him.

He isn't like the biggest jealous type? He doesn't become overly irate or anything but certainly doesn't take any pleasure in watching you talk to other guys.

Chuuya does have some form of self restraint when it comes to that. Him getting a lil jealous is one of the only things that'll have him completely make-out with you in public or smth

Chuuya is very snuggly and touchy behind closed doors. He practically becomes Dazai but a lot less goofy

Oh yeah he definitely rants about how much he fucking hates Dazai now n again

Isn't huge on petnames but definitely calls you them every now and again.

Princess, babe and baby are his top few.

Chuuya definitely has a morning voice where it drops 2 octaves and its just 🥰

Never yells at you, its pretty shocking. The only times he's ever raised his voice with you is when its very obvious that he's not genuinely upset with you. Almost for comedic affect because it is angry short boy Chuuya

One may think arguments are often with Chuuya, but they're sort of not. He may be a pretty stubborn individual but he never argues to argue unless its Dazai-

He always works towards and agreement to end the argument as soon as possible. He keeps his cool and will never raise his voice. You can barely call them arguments because of how much he tries to keep his cool.

When he's stressed or had a bad day he gets extremely quiet because he doesn't even want the opportunity to open his mouth and take it out on you. The only words he'll say to you while he's in that state is that he's stress and you didn't do anything wrong just to make sure you're not worried over it.

All and all? Chuuya is the best and there's no way around it. He has his faults but always tries to improve and be his best self for you :)

(I had even more pent-up love for Chuuya and it got even longer, whoops-)

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chickennoodlesoupfortae · 5 years

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Bts imagine

Summary: members being mad at you reactions.

Warnings: angst(duh)/fluff

A/N; i don’t even know its 12 am. Also sorry for joon’s story he’s not really mad and I don’t know where that whole story came from it just feels like something that would happen to him.

Word Count: 3.6k

Jin

Very passive on his feelings

Would stop being touchy and soft with you

You had laughed at one of his old interviews and teased him in front of the members.

You obviously didn’t know he was mad at ou since he was a baby and would be very passive aggressive hoping you would notice.

Once you didn’t notice he would be very pissy about it

It would end up blowing over when you confronted him

“Jin sweetie are you okay you’ve been being a little removed my love” you were concerned wondering if there was tension between him and the boys.

“I don’t know (y/n) is there anything else you’ve noticed you seem to care very much what I say and do” he spat out in a tone. You were worried about two things.

Jin always used your name when he was mad

Two he was being unusually bitter when he usually was joking or sweet

Instead of being mad at him you sat down next to him and placed your hand on his lap

“Okay jinnie what did I do to upset you, let’s talk about it babe”

Would immediately feel bad for being mad at you because you were such a great girlfriend

“Nothing, I’m sorry I was just being petty cause you made fun of me in front of everyone” he looked at you with his puppy eyes

You deadass started cackling

He would change his puppy eyes into mad and dark ones real quick

“Wow really (y/n)”

Proceeds to gently push you off his lap

You composed yourself though a few giggles managed to escape

“Sorry… sorry”

Continues to laugh

“Okay, okay I’m good now” you would look up to see his frown faltering a little into a smile.

No matter how mad he was at you, your smile always made him smile

You would hold his cheeks in your hands making him look at you and tipie toe to kiss his nose causing him to blush and laugh

“I’m sorry jinnie I only make fun of you cause I love you”

He loved you too

Yoongi

He would rarely get angry at you

I mean it would take a lot for him to get mad

He just loved you so much that whenever you did something he didn’t like he’d forget when he looked into your eyes

So when you did get him mad it was, well it was bad to say the least

In this situation you had gotten mad at him first because he stayed out all night and had forgotten to tell you he wasn’t coming home

You had called him the next morning when you woke up to the apartment empty

“Min yoongi I swear on the lord above if you don’t tell me where you were last night

I will kill you resurrect you and ask you again”

You had a flare for the theatrics

“Shesh (y/n)” he had responded in his morning voice

He had crashed last night at Hoseok’s house after a late night of celebrating

You took a deep inhale “where are you sweetie?”

He was feeling edgy that morning

“Who says I need to tell you.”

“Fine don’t tell me, stay where you are and when you’re ready to explain yourself you can come home, no sooner.” you hung up the phone

Yoongi got home half an hour later

He opened the door to you fuming

“Wow look who decides to come home. Did your side chick get tired of you?”

He was more saddened by your comment then mad.

“Come on (y/n) you know me better than that.” he told you in a blatant manner no fluff to it, just stating the facts.

“You still haven’t told me where you were.” You then slammed the door to your bedroom

That's when all hell broke loose.

Yoongi was pissed.

He was triggered that you would even think that he would cheat on you when he loved you so much.

“You know what (y/n) I haven’t told you and I won’t tell you because you should trust me” he yelled

He never rose his voice

This just fueled you

“How should I trust you when you leave me alone on tours for months and then don’t bother to shoot me a text when we are together.” you sent back his way after having swung the door open

“Wow (y/n) bringing my work into this to prove your point I can’t believe you”

He would lock himself in the study to mope.

When he didn’t come out after a few hours when you had already calmed down you would go inside to make peace

You knocked on the door softly “I’m sorry baby. I love you and I trust you…” you didn’t even know you were this choked up until you felt the lump in your throat grow “I just get worried sometimes, you work so hard and I get scared that you’ll leave me behind or find someone new in the commotion.” you had been sitting on the floor leaning against the door frame when you heard the lock click

Tears were falling down both of your eyes.

You because you realized how much you cared and yoongi cause he realized how you were being affected

He would bend down to sit next to you and end up laying his head on your lap and laying down on the floor

“I’m sorry too” he would break the silence looking up at you

You would wipe away his tears and lean down to give him a soft peck

“I love you (y/n) and no matter where I go, who I meet, or how long we are apart I will always love you and only you.”

You heart exploded to say the least.

“God yoongi you’re gonna make my heart burst.”

Hoseok

Like yoongi it would take a lot to get him mad since he was a ball of sunshine

He was soft when he was mad unlike yoongi

He would get all sad and in his feels when you upset him which basically had the same effect on you

So when the both of you were fighting your house would be a mess and gloomy

What had happened this time was that you wanted to go to your mother’s house over the holidays but he wanted to go to his because it had been your tradition since you started dating

“But hobi we’ve been going to your moms for the past four years. My moms beginning to think you don’t like her and she’s gonna be mad if we stand her up a fifth year.” you were putting your foot down this time

“No (y/n)” he had the same thought

“What do you mean no…” you were raising your voice. He hated it when you raised your voice because it was implying that you were mad at him and that a fight had to start.

“Stop, I’m so tired please honey let’s not”

You were beyond mad

“I am no chore Jung Ho-seok” you yelled

He let out an exaggerated groan knowing he was in for a long day

“God please let’s not.” he was so over this disagreement but the reality was that he got to see his family so little since they had gotten big that the tradition of the two of you going to his parents had been the only steady thing

“Ohhhhhh we are going too” you said. To say you were being difficult would be an understatement

“No. no. no (y/n) we are going to go to Gwanju. End of story, no discussion, thats it are we clear.”

You scoffed “You can go.”

He was taken aback

That’s when in his feels hobi would come out

“Fine (y/n) if you don’t care enough to go with me than you can stay here or go wherever.”

“This isn’t fair. You know I can’t not go with you. You know I love you too much to leave you alone and waste our holiday.”

Basically that's how it always went

Hobi would get mad and put his foot down and you would show that you could get just as mad and do the same.

He would give up on you and get sad saying he would do his thing alone forcing you to do it too.

You noticed the pattern by now.

So you decided to stop playing into it

You walked towards him and looked up to him placing both hands on his shoulders to get his full attention. “I know you want to go back home but I want to go home too.” you sighed looking into his puppy eyes trying not to let yourself cave in. “Why? Please baby tell me why this is so important to you so I can understand and try and see your point of view”

He was surprised that you were so calm instead of just running off in anger and caving in.

“It’s just so much has changed and I feel like if we don’t go everything will have changed. It’s dumb but it’s the only constant”

You were saddened by the tears pooling in his soft eyes.

You wrapped both your hands around him tightly listening to his heartbeat slow.

“I’m here and I’m not gonna leave. Just cause we go somewhere different this year doesn’t mean that everything has changed. I love you and you love me and that will never change.” you gave him a big cheesy smile causing him to smile too giving you a peck on the lips

“You know you’re the cheesiest person” he hugged you

Namjoon

God was he hot when he was mad

Sometimes you would try to get him mad just for fun to get it a little harder

This wasn’t one of those times

You had been trying to get home when a car started trailing you

You knew it was probably paparazzi but you were too tired to deal with them now.

It wasn’t the press it was a crazy fan who was intent on hurting you

Why joon was mad was because he had gotten you bodyguards and drivers for situations like this but you had fired all of them

Today you had just sneaked out of the house and taken your old beat up car instead of the new one.

The car slammed into you causing a minor accident to happen

You were livid when you had to pull over until you noticed who was driving the car.

As much as joon loved the army there were some known fans who could be too eager or excited.

This person was a known offender to follow the boys and behave abnormally.

“Hey (y/n)” that’s when you knew you were in trouble

“I’m sorry do I know you? I suggest you get back into your car while we wait for the police to come and record the accident” You tried to seem as agreeable as possible

“I know you haven’t called them yet.” she lunged forward but you got into your car fast enough

You immediately called the police explaining the situation

The person was now banging on your window calling you names and telling you to unlock your door

The police said they would be there in fifteen minutes since you were in a remote place

You called joon

“Hey honey. You almost home the cleaning lady said you’d gone out for food… wait are you okay who is that in the back screaming? (y/n) are you crying baby where are you I’m coming to get you?” he was talking so fast while trying to get your location from the find my iphone

“I-I don’t know joon” you were interrupted by a shattering sound

You screamed as the window started to crack from the banging and the knife the person had been hitting it with

“Joon please hurry there’s this person and they are breaking the window and they ran into me and I don’t know but I’m pretty sure it’s the same one who attacked us in Singapore.”

You were talking so quickly and your sobs made it hard to understand

“It’s okay baby I’m almost there you’re only two minutes from home I’m on my way” he was driving way too fast.

That’s when the window shattered and the person reached into the car you screamed causing Joon’s heart to leave him

He drove up seconds late seeing you running away from a person holding a weapon

You were screaming for help

He jumped out of the car grabbing you and pushing you into your other car. You both began to drive quickly as you pointed to where you car and now the police were.

*later that night driving home after filing a police report*

The car ride was silent, you had already cried your eyes out and now you were just tired and shook at what had happened.

Joon was scared out of his mind but mad at himself and you equally because there was more you could’ve done

“(y/n)” his voice was low which made you turn too him as he pulled over on the side of the street.

“(y/n) I hired a security guard and drivers and people to keep you safe for a reason” he hit the steering wheel raising his voice

He was now looking at you

“(y/n) please this” his voice cracked his bitter tone from before fell away to reveal the broken boy he had become. He coughed fiking himself “this is why you have to let me help you. I love you so much I couldn’t live with myself if anything happened to you”

You reached your hand out to stroke his face wiping away the tears that began to flow

“This isn’t your fault joonie. It isn’t my fault either. It’s that sick persons fault and no one else's. I love you and I’m not going to get hurt or leave you all alone. You’re stuck with me forever.” you laughed but he stayed quiet looking at you

“(y/n) promise me you’ll stay safe. I love you please promise me baby”

“ I promise”

Jimin

Such a soft boy let me tell you he would literally die for you

When he gets mad he just shuts down

So when you told him he had to come home cause he had been working to much he didn’t return your calls and left your messages on read

He had been in the studio working on a couple of the last songs of the upcoming album

He was super stressed because they required him to sing in an octave he hadn’t done as much

You walked into the small studio that was empty except for Jimin who was seated on the stool in the recording room going over some lines

You buzzed in the microphone

He shook in shock looking up from the paper which no doubt held the lyrics to the song he was practicing

“Baby it’s time to come home.” you were looking at him through the glass door which separate the rooms

You could see him mutter things but since it was a soundproof room you couldn’t understand

“Come on Jimine you’ve been here all week, you need to come home-” your voice was cut off when he turned the microphone off

You could see him begin the sing again

You banged on the glass which caused him to come over motion for you to stop and close the curtain

You weren’t even annoyed it was more amusing to see him act so childish

“Wow okay” you muttered and stood outside the door slowly lowering yourself to so you were seating back on the door frame

You took out your phone and texted him

I’m not going until you come out and leave with me xoxoxo ;)

Your excessive use of flattery was meant to annoy him and show urgency since you rarely used any in normal texts

You heard a little bang on the door and then a slide which meant he had started seating on the opposite side

You lightly knocked on the door

He did the same back causing you to laugh

Your phone went off

You need to go home baby xoxoxo :))) :(((

You laughed and quickly texted back

Just open the door and we can talk SwEeTiE

You heard the door lock click and it open slightly where you couldn’t get in but could hear him

“Come on (y/n)-” you cut him off by throwing your hand in the little gap between the door

“Your not gonna hurt me are you?” you said in a mocking tone

“Shesh (Y/n)” he chuckled

“Come on honey we can just go home and I can-” you slide a container of food through the crack “feed you” you hastily took the food back to your side “but only if you come out”

“Wow (y/n) new low bribing me with you and food how can I say no” he replied

“This is a serious hostage situation Park Jimin come out now and no one gets hurt” you said in a tone so serious it was silly

He opened the door and stepped out to sit next to you

“Okay give me the food” he reached over but you raised it out of his reach and stood up barricading the door so he couldn’t get back in

“My terms were clear” you laughed extending your hand so he could get up

“I need to stay here (y/n) I’m not joking anymore” he sounded more aggravated

“I know that you care about your work and you want to be the best for everyone but you need to rest or you’ll get hurt or god forbid collapse again.” you knew it was a low hit to bring that up but he was getting to a point where it was necessary

He stood up his eyes were dark and sunken both from being exhausted and angry you reached out your hand too hug him but he pushed it off

“Jimin don’t be this way please” you were more stressed being that once he got in a bad mood it would take a lot more than food to cheer him up

He grabbed you and moved you from the door you were moving your hands and feet trying to stay in front of the door

He put you down

“Leave now”

You ran into the room and sat down on the stool

“No if you're gonna stay here so am I” you opened the food and started eating it

Jimin just stood there at the door frame and then walked out of the room

You smiled you had won at last

You ran out to catch up to him wrapping your hands around his torso and feeding him a spoonful of the food you had

He smiled down at you his dark eyes fading into tired ones

“I love you let's get you home so you can rest my love”

Taehyung

He would get flustered often but would always make it up to you when he did

In this situation he had a reason to be mad

You had been stopped by the press and talked to them which was one rule he had told you early on

It’s not that you said anything bad it’s that you said anything at all

You weren’t from korea originally and you weren’t accustomed to the culture of the k pop community and unspoken rules

Where you were from it was completely normal for stars to answer questions asked by the press

Obviously this was a much different for idols in Korea

The reporter had asked you about your relationship with another idol and you had responded with

“I’m sorry sir but it’s not any of your business”

You had come home late with a bag of take out

“Hey tae I bought your favorite! I think if we start watching now we can finish season five of game of thrones.”

You heard the television click off

“(y/n) do you have something to tell me” he asked you

“No babe do you have something you wanna hear?”

“Shesh (y/n)” he brooded

“Come on tae don’t be childish. Tell me”

“That video of you talking to the reporter asking about your friend has gone viral. What did I tell you about talking to reporters? This is what I was scared of, think about how it makes me look.” his voice sounded more hurt than earlier

“Come on why does this have you so upset?” you asked him concerned

“No. You can’t turn this on me. My own girlfriend isn’t denying having a relationship with another guy”

You laughed. You weren’t even trying to be mean it just came out and the whole thing sounded crazy

He just turned away and started heading to your room

You ran and hugged him from behind.

You arms were around his torso and your head was against his back hearing his heartbeat

“Aigh Taehyung what am I to do with you?” you snuggled into his back “I love my jealous baby.” you heard him snicker

“Me I could never be jealous-I have nothing to be jeal-me-no.” you let go and stood in front of him

“You’re right, you have nothing to be jealous of.”

His boxy smile had you weak in your knees

“I love you (y/n)”

Jungkook

Wouldn’t get mad.

Would see your face and forget.

Periodt

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nuttmegg · 7 years

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Story time

So this has been an interesting week, it kinda started on Tuesday. Night Hawk and I went to the local baseball game. While we were getting ready my friend Mike was basically asking me to ditch Night Hawk and go out with him. Which is never going to happen. I will never ditch my friends for a guy. I straight up told him, “don’t count on me” but he just kept bugging. I ended up hanging out with the guy I’ve been talking to for a while.(I need to come up with a nickname for him.....)He picked me up from Night Hawks house so I didn’t have to drive home drunk. I was so drunk/hungover I didn’t go to work the next morning.

Anyway fast forward to Thursday night, Im out at the bars with my sisters and Mike keeps texting me to hang out again. I told him he could come hang out with us at the bar, but he refuses. Saying something about being in a bad headspace. And don’t get me wrong I totally understand a bad headspace. But I shouldn’t be the person you always call when you’re having a bad day, and mind you, my friend isn't the greatest person in the world. He’s kind of an ass and doesn't have many friends because of it. And I always seem to be the person who picks up his pieces when he falls apart. I just didn’t want to do it again. Especially since Thursday was Sparrows last night in town, before she moved back to Socal.

Friday night, bars with sisters again. Mike calls and asks again to go out drinking with him, I’ve already made plans so I tell him this. He asks to tag along and I say “yeah thats totally fine, But I might meet up with *insert nickname for new guy here* later so I’m not gonna stay out all night.” Then he gets all pissy and says “well if that doesn’t work out for you come get drunk with me” before basically hanging up on me. Like boy why!? your’e my friend why are you getting mad at me for hanging out with someone. Literally every time Mike and I hang out we talk about the girls he’s seeing and I ALWAYS try to help him. So I don’t hear from him all night, then about 1ish, plans have fallen through with my guy, and Mike sends me 5 texts rapid fire. Saying how life sucks, he hurts and then the kicker! “I like you meagan, I have feelings for you.” BOY NO!!! JUST ALL THE NO! He continues by saying that he doesn’t feel so chaotic around me. Which is literally not what I’m looking for! I don’t want to ever have to fix someone again. Fuck that. Also I don’t feel the same way about him. My sisters all came to the same agreement, that Mike was reaching for straws because I wasn’t giving him attention and that he probably does have feels but was saying it as a last resort. I honestly just couldn't deal. People can be so stupid sometimes. Also on Friday I kinda got into a shouting session with this guy who is an acquaintance of some of my sisters, he had some choice words to say to me and I was not having it. (my Mexican was showing, as my friends and I like to call it) The two good things about Friday night.... 1. I looked freaking good! lol and 2. After the bars we got burritos from the taco truck behind the bars! yum!!!!!

So its now Saturday and I don’t respond to Mike, I honestly didn’t know how. How do you as a good friend knowing tell someone something that is going to hurt them, when you know they are in a bad mental state... I did eventually. I just hope i didn’t hurt his ego to bad. So Saturday I spent the rest of the afternoon with the new guy *alias coming soon* went to the beach, got greasy diner food, listened to country music, and watched friends like all night.(i don’t think I’m the biggest fan of the show, sorry). We talked about baseball, and he put this awful Cubs hat on me and took pictures!!! UGH seriously like blasphemy!! No Dodger fan should ever be subjected to that kind of torture. Any ways it was a pretty fun night. I woke up before him this morning and was playing with the camera settings on my phone and got some pretty good pictures of him. I might post one or two just cause I’m proud of my photo taking skills.

But yeah that was my rollercoaster of a week in a short abbreviated version. hopefully this week is much less eventful.

Also stay tuned for new guys alias and pictures....lol

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what asshole?? 👀👀👀👀👀

WHOOO lemme tell you this is a long one (sorry about any spelling errors i was tryna get this done quickly)

it was actually that guy that we played overwatch with together once.

ive known him since about december, but he was saying lots of homophobic and racist shit, so i was like eh might as well try to make him a better person, but to do that, you gotta get close, and i started liking him (literally @ past me why?????)

so i flirt a little here, giggle a little there, and he falls in love with me. i liked him too, but he liked me to a point where it was obsessive. he was telling me i saved his life and that out of everyone on earth im his favorite. i come out to him as trans one day, and after a lot of thinking, he was like “okay yeah im okay with this” and i was happy

however, like i said, he was really obsessive. he wouldnt let me play games with anyone else unless he was there, and when i tried to watch a show with one of our mutual friends, he gets all upset about it.

eventally, even though he liked me, he started being a real ass. i told him that i didnt really like him anymore and that i wanted to stay friends, and he turned it into this huge fight and ended it with “Forget it... Good night.” - and he used that phrase every (and “goodbye”) every time he wanted a conversation to sound final or like he was going to die if i didnt give him all my attention right then and there.

the fighting continued for a few months, during which he called me a sociopath, narcissistic, not worthy off being called a human being, and all that typa stuff. he started feeling suicidal - even though he felt that way before i met him, he started feeling it stronger because he didnt have me constantly fawning over him to ease it out - and he straight up told me that he blamed me for his feelings.

the fights got reaaalllll bad, and eventually he had a set day and time, and every time i said i was going to call his mom about it, he got really defensive and acted like i was attacking him, saying “dont test me” and shit

he became really emotionally manipulative and just flat out malicious tbh

the day came around and i blocked him because i didnt want to hear about it, and he started yet another fight. he didnt do anything though because half an hour later he came crawling back saying that he needed someone to talk to and that he had this whole change of heart and that he realized what his friends were worth and how he acted really shitty and that he was sorry

but he didnt change his behavior at all lmao

he kept arguing with me, so i started just. not joining as much and not talking to him as often and he got really pissy, asking me if i was talking to other people and accusing me of talking with this guy who he hates (the guy he hates left to make another server with all the people this guy was an asshole to so they could have a place where he wasnt there being a dick and the guy im telling you about acts like the victim whenever he talks about it like?? literally if u were a better friend they wouldnt have felt the need to?) (and i totally was talking to the guy bc the enemy of your enemy is your friend and all that) but he was a real ass about it.

and saturday!! this saturday!!! he was an ass the moment i joined the call so i left and he got mad saying like “you know how i get upset when you leave the call” and i was like “i just??? dont wanna be there if ur gonna be mean to me the moment i join??” and he said

THIS BITCH

said

“its a guy thing to be mean to your friends. but i guess you wouldn’t know about that ;)”

so i blocked him. he texts me saying that hes been mean because his dads been on his back about college, and i said it wasnt an excuse. a few minutes later, someone from the server messages me sayin that nick said if i dont unblock him hes gonna ban me. so i unblocked him and asked for a reason why i should stay. this bitch. this ass. says “because i thought we were friends” LIKE BIIIIIIITCH PLEAAAAAAASE YOU KNOW DAMN WELL WE AINT

anyway we fought for 3 hours and rather than giving me any good reasons to stay he called me stupid and said i misinterpreted the message like?? how else am i supposed to interpret it????????

so im staying, making him fall in love with me again, then leaving.

bonus: i made a list of the highlights of some of the shit things hes said to me

"Forget it... good night." "i used to trust everyone then the thing happened with my cousin so i stopped sharing myself or exposing myself. then i did over the years with kii then she backstabbed me. then ness and it happened again. i didnt trust anyone and still wasnt ok with sharing myself. then u stepped in and made me feel happy and wanted and like i could trust people. then you said you loved me like you did. i opened up and pursued and got lead on for 15 hours a day for a month up until i got enough courage to try to stand and speak open heartedly and with courage and the next day you lose all interest." "you know what? you obviously dont like me anymore. im over it you win. im done chasing. the goalposts always change. its over." "i cant stop chasing you. you are literally my favorite person on earth." "im doing this once a day from now on. wanna go out" "1 reason i got on ow. *1 reason i got on ow off my psych. guess it doesnt matter to you." “For the record the reason im mad all the time is because im fucking pissed at you but cant take it out for some reason.” “reason im so shit ight now is caught i thought i was at rock bottom and you took me up the mountain just to fling me off. forget it. good night." "youre still online. just gonna pretend im not here?" "hope this doesnt wake you up but sorry for being a cunt." "i still want to die haha. life sucks" "im sorry." me: you purposely did something to make me mad and then get upset when i get mad "im hald zoned in rn im getting killed by bad vibes but im not gonna make you mad ever again." "why did you fool me. i fight with you a lot now and its because of what you did to me and how ive lost my sense of self and all emotions because of you. but then i remember this is just how i usually am and being happy is what people are supposed to be like and im not so this is normal and only my fault so. i forgot where i was going with this but take care friend." "if it was the concept thing then why do i still love you." "i get upset because i have to actively avoid falling for you." "im only angry and mean to you because i dont understand my emotions." "im gonna kill myself saturday at 7:32 pm" (<<<this was two weeks ago hes fine now) "im not gonna do it i just want attention" "to keep it 100 i just said that so you wouldnt call anyone." "dont test me" "eat shit" "if youre trying to make me unfriend you its working" "actual human beings dont pull that bullshit. they suck it up and stick to their word or break the news to the other and dont drag them along." me: every humans a human regardless of whether or not they feel "theyre a human. not an actual human. theyre a human but not worthy of being called one." "in 3 months you managed to fuck with my emotions and make me want to kill myself more than kii did in 3 years." "i think this is the last conversation were gonna have. if you got anything important to say speak now or forever hold your peace. alright youre in overwatch and missed your chance." "have fun with your game hope its worth losing me over."

me: im going to call your mom and tell her right now "and say what? 'im a bad friend and now nick wont talk to me?'"

me: no. 'nicks planning on killing himself.' "and ill just say its someone im amd at trying to get revenge on me" "im not convinced that its not a whole thing made specifically to drive me to suicide." "in queue rather than fixing problems. typical. goodbye, asshole." "what if by trying to stop the outcome u saw you just pushed me away from one of the only people i trusted and now im on a path that ends in my inevitable self destruction." "no thats the depression but i am saying u took away what made me happy." "forget it, ill catch you later. apparently no goodbyes either lol." "bye oats." "the only thing you will ever love besides yourself is overwatch. bye." "are you there i just got back and i really need someone." "beause youre the middle man i guess and it was a test of allegiance i think in my mind." "idk i just feel like not many people actually like me deep down and its a shit thing of me to put that on others." "hows ness doing" "because im done walking on eggshells for you, snowflake. "its a guy thing to be a dick to your friends. guess u wouldnt understand ;)" "sorry for being a jerk. dad has been riding me all week and im mad all the time." "maybe you would get it if your dad ever punched you or woke you up by throwing shit at you." (i know for a fact his dad doesnt do this. there was a whole week where we were in a call 24/7 to see how long we could get one to last and his dad brings him dinner and plays xbox in the same room sometimes. i get that from an outside perspective this may seem mean to overlook, but if you knew this guy, you wouldnt put it past him to lie about shit like this just for attention.) "youre being such a baby over this. its not a big deal, its an argument." "considering you didnt write it id consider it awful stupid of you to think you can interpret it better than the author." "you dont know me"

#babbbles #just like #fuck that guy?#legit thinkin about ruinin his entire life. telling future employers hes racist and stuff.

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