#and ive been having paranoid and intrusive thoughts

[fiendishartist2]

i cant speak and i cant move and i cant stop thinking

#im okay guys #smile #i dont feel this bad rn but i was kinda close earlier #when i get overwhelmed and im really stressed i go mute. idk if thats the right word for it but its like i cant talk #and i had that episode last week that was kinda like dissociation #and ive been having paranoid and intrusive thoughts #but im okay. i just have to get through the next 3 weeks. im almost done im almost done im almost done im almost done #my art #my face sort of #text says: im so sick and its so loud in here #tw eyestrain #all my self portraits turn out like this lol #digital art #artists on tumblr

[theforesteldritch]

god I am very mentally ill and tired and I don’t let anyone know and it’s killing me

#tw suicide #moth vents #ive been suicidal off and on for months #And I’m struggling to take care of myself and do shit like brush my teeth let alone responsibilities #I can’t get the idea of drowning myself out of my head sometimes #And I’ve been getting bad intrusive thoughts about stuff stabbing through the bridge if my nose #To the point where I can’t look at nose peircings for longer than a glance because I can feel it in the bridge of my nose #I’m paranoid about that too I’m paranoid for no reason that someone or something is going to shove something through the bridge of my nose #I feel so irrational but I feel like I can’t trust myself or anyone around me #And I feel so lonely #I don’t really have friends anymore #I feel like I’m watching myself destroy my life and I don’t even care #I don’t even give a shit because there’s too much and also not enough going on in my thoughts #It drowns out everything and I don’t even understand myself

[permanentementesuyo]

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#been having soo much paranoid and intrusive thoughts lately :/// #i almost wanna talk to a therapist again but i dont trust anyone #and i dont trust tiktok lol i think it can read my thoughts too #i deleted it #and ive been in a slump im a diff way #but ive also been motivated for something Im working on.. #but extra paranoid about it #just been feeling kinda crazy again lately #maybe its time to see a therapist again even just every month ? #hmmmm #but no i dont wanna talk to them about what im paranoid anout #remind me to make a to do list tbh #personal

[actualbird]

SPEAKING of my bipolar, it is now well over a month after ive been on my new combo of meds and my current review of it is a solid 4/5

pros that have happened since ive been on the meds:

has generally stopped or dampened all the Worst Bits of The Way My Brain Is (not going into random crying jags out of nowhere anymore!!! not scratching at my face in a delirious rage that came out of nowhere anymore!! and much more not being done anymore!!! not as immensely paranoid and having vividly visual intrusive thoughts anymore!!)

has upped my productivity like CRAZY (i wrote two whole new fics and updated a fic i left on hiatus for over a year, i finished the dang nxx vol 2 analyses compilation)

has made me less of a raging fucking bitch when sensory overloaded. (now im just......a little bit of a raging fucking bitch when sensory overloaded. which is progress!!!)

cons that have happened since ive been on the new meds

the Not So Worst Bits of The Way My Brain Is still persists, but i assume i actually need like uhhhhh coping mechanisms for that. coping mechanisms that arent chain smoking dshfksdffs

the 100mg lamotrigine pill is fucking huge and i keep choking on it

#i know i shld be in therapy but i cannot afford it <3 #still this is going way better than i cldve hoped so //pops bottle of champagne WOOOOOOO #anyway thats ur daily dose of me oversharing my life HAHAHAHVLHJVKH #dootdootdoot

[pasta5284]

whenever i see posts talking abt like. fandom. like "whats ur unpopular opinion that will make the rest of the fandom mad" or "whats ur fav thing abt ur fandom" or "sitting in bed rotating my blorbo in my mind" or whatever im like. lol. i have not felt passion in so many years. ihave not had the brainspace to get deeply involved in any sort of media/fandom/content in so many years. i have spent the last few years especially an empty shell for anxieties. a body that walks arnd and does stuff and talks to ppl and technicalyl engages in interests but there is no real engagement anymore. its all going thru the motions. and this is not an entirrly unfamiliar feeling 2 me ive been depressed+ since like middleschool. but at least when i was younger i had shows and games and hobbies and i coulr lose myself in them. i haad anxious thoughts impulsive thoughts intrusive thoughts etc but my head was also filled w fun or interesting thoughts abt my ocs, the media i was into, my hobbies etc. but now there is nothing. i barely even listen to music unless im driving. when i am laying in bed all i think abt are the problems im facing or my own insecurities or whatever. anxious andd depressing and paranoid and. yeah. even when i consciously try 2 think abt things i like there is nothing. i feel nothing its hard to think of things to think abt. headcanons silly jokes analysis none of it comes to me even when i try. i would say this is just a part of growing up but most ppl i follow and are friends w r all within my age range. and plenty of them r mentally ill or traumatized or being actively abused/hurt but they still find escape. they can still watch a movie and then think about nothing but that for the next week. they can see a thing they like ans get excited abt it. tbey can get high and play video games and actually just think abojt the game and how much they like their fav character. instead of. physically doing the action but constantly arguing w someone in their head or debating if theyre a good person or not. or whatever. ad nauseam . every day. now that ive moved out and am working on myself the rumination is a bit better but now when im not constantly worrying abt interpersonal issues or whatever theres just a blank. the now freed up space hasnt gone back to thinking silly fun things its just blank or boring. my brain used to be a place i could escape but now i cant escape anywhere ever at all. even smoking weed or drinking or whatever doesnt help in any capacity. i am both trapped in my head and unable to be there anymore

#uwu #sorry long ramble that is still somehow not very detailed #not entirely accurate to my experience but i hsd to put it down somehwere #not.new thoughts just getting 2 me a lot rn #ty 2 everyone who made my overthinking reach such insane constant levels the last few years that now ive got like #brain damage from it LOL #tysm ty ty ty ty ty i love it its great thansk!!!!!!!!!!!! #not aimed @ anyone im just #upset

[deviantartidentitydisorder]

so for months ive been stuck on what the difference between intrusive thoughts vs psychotic thoughts/delusions are specifically because i was constantly like can't tell which im experiencing and i think i finally figured it out for me, my delusions are paranoid and prosecutionary, my fear isnt that i internally may have dome something without knowing or that i may secretly be something or that something to me is happening, my fear is that OTHER people will come to that conclusion and hurt me because of it, even if it isn't true, and the fear isnt that them believing it mwans something its judt that they will react before they even ask

#ive been stuck on this thought a lot recently so im glad i solved thag

[cursedmystic]

design + rp notes, inspired by all my lovely friends

matsuba is another in a long line of characters i play / write that involve discussions of death and spirituality. to learn something new about me: i suffer from extremely intrusive thoughts about death at basically all hours, and playing characters who have a fairly positive connection to them lets me deal with those emotions without becoming paranoid or obsessive about them.

hes also an effort in the gifted child to depressed adult pipeline that i unfortunately also suffer from LOL. learning to navigate a world that wasnt the walk in the park you were told it was going to be.

i have made a conscious decision not to make him the same matsuba as the one who bonds with ho-oh in pokemas, because of the aformentioned struggling.

little things: i gave matsuba the family name of mōri for a few reasons. one is that it keeps the meaning of his name to 'a grove of pine trees' echoing the tree naming conventions of many characters & also means 'a gathering of evil spirits' at the same time. there is also the english associations with 'memento mori' and a way for him to also be called morty (a mispronunciation that he would just roll with.)

his entire story that ive been pursuing is someone steeped in tradition and trying to figure out how to honor that tradition and live outside of it in his own way at the same time.

yes, i project a lot of my own issues on him. it's tumblr rp, it happens.

#out of town. / ooc.

[hometownrockstar]

This is just a post ruminating on my own feelings and experiences, not an advice post or me declaring anything as the true way to recover... anyways ive been thinking a lot lately about my intrusive thoughts and squeamishness. and when they were the strongest in my head, i would be so distraught by them all the time and feel like i was sick in the head. but later in life, when i stopped caring abt them or ruminating on them too much, their power lessened over me more and more. and Now i am thinking about how when i used to try to look at scary media it would make me highly paranoid and worried, but since ive read a lot of horror media the feeling has lessened more and more to the point where any "nightmares" i have of scary events happening dont even distress me that much IN the dream. but even though this should be a positive for me, that im not as frightened by my intrusive thoughts as i once was, i feel like other people will think less of me if i say i "desensitized" myself to this stuff. its not like it doesnt evoke emotions in me though, more like i am able to analyze and understand them and my feelings better without it being distressing for me. but the word "desensitizing" has connotations and people might assume things about me based on it...

#i havent gone to therapy or got any professional help so i dont know how they would treat my ocd... #i didnt even read any of those things as a treatment i did it bc i like horror #these were just side-effects of it i suppose

[transbipolarbaddie]

im feeling so paranoid right now. my roommate just left the apt and a few minutes later the door buzzed and i thought maybe my roomie forgot something so i went to the buzzer and asked “who is it” because i wanted to be able to let them in if they needed. “delivery” he said, i buzzed him in but i was quickly anxious about how easy it would have been for that man to have lied and held ulterior motives. especially considering the amount of times i've forgotten my keys and and buzzed every apartment in the building until someone let me in, my excuse being “Amazon” as to not provoke suspicion and as not to have to speak more words than i can because amazon delivers to my apartment building multiple times a day, it's just easier. but now i’m thinking, ‘anyone could just say “delivery”’

i’m paranoid because:

1. the present moment seems odd and im suspicious of my surroundings

2. im worried someone is stalking me and wants to break in and rape me because:

a. i am transgender

b. my computer realistically could have been hacked quite easily, my techy roommate told me there were warning signs but i shut them down and didn’t listen

c. i frequently leave my curtains open and there is a likely easily accessible balcony adjacent on my room with huge windowed glass door

d. liberally use grindr and seeking arrangements without much anticipation of potential safety issues and there are creeps who message me relentlessly

3. it feels like a halo was shoved into my skull or that a weighted rubber band is strapped around my forehead, squeezing the thoughts out of the top of my brain like a bottle of ketchup

4. i can’t stop the constant intrusive thoughts of myself being harmed by someone who would want to break in

probably more things but, after experiencing these thoughts i knew i needed to calm down. so i grab my juul and creep to the shower still stimulated and on guard, in fight or flight. i make my way to the shower which is usually a cure-all but in this case just made be afraid to be as idiotic as the first murder victim in that one alfred hitchcock move u know with the shower? and the bates motel wow i know this but it's impossible to recall the title of this movie in my current headspace. it's making my brain glitch so i have to move on. so i lay down in the shower subtly waterboarding myself because it's relaxing (that's dramatic really i just lay under the spray bouncing up from when the water hits the bottom of the tub with my mouth open because the feeling is calming for some reason). anyways that didn't work.

my thoughts still racing, i rush to my bedroom, close my blinds, check outside the door one last time, and take 2 seroquels and get in bed and then write this. even now as im coming down i have the thought “but what if he’s waiting until i fall asleep”

i've decided to sleep with my taser in my hand. i cant find my taser so i grab the first knife i see because i need to check outside the door and the peephole is noisy for some reason and the door is paper thin so i have to be prepared if someone is hiding right outside because ive seen way too many horror movies im not gonna be a fucking idiot. all clear. i look down and in my hands is a serrated knife. “lmao,” i think as if it would’ve been very helpful if i had needed to stab someone, but i knew the rage within me would’ve been enough to get the job done.

whenever people ask me what i do in my free time, i feel like i should send them this.

#writing #narrative #bipolar #trans #paranoia #manic #intrusive thoughts #tw paranoia #tw sa mention #tw harm

[bl00dybat]

im ao lonely everyday

i want to get out of my situation so bad i want to make progress i don't want to feel alone anymore ive worked too hard to end up right where ive started again

hahahahhahahaha why wont anything fucking work out we're doing everything right!!!!

partner got fired from a job because of their shitty manager constantly changing shit around gaslighting manipulating piece of shit i was so proud of them and theyve been working so hard to get a job in this shitty area

i just don't understand

i just got this $9.25 part time job im grateful for being able to work and make money but it all feels so pointless when i can barely support myself or anyone else

did we make a mistake moving here? i made good money at my old job but i was with my mom and her constant mental and emotion torment and the job led me to so many breakdowns constantly

i wanted a new start i wanted better opportunities im trying everyday to make something work im not giving up just waiting and waiting and waiting but nothing works

i relapsed with self harm about a week ago and everyday i get graphic intrusive thoughts of me being beat to death for being a failure

i dont want to die i just want something to be okay i want something to take the pain away so badly

weed hardly helps anymore nor does my meds or the daily self care ive become more consistent with

i keep my mindset positive as best as i can but nothing. so much nothing. im more alone than ever and paranoid every second that this is it that i will die without ever having accomplished anything in this life

i just tell myself keep starving and keep going

i cant afford to take food from their kind family when i can hardly afford to pay them back. i dont want them to be mad at me anymore that im restricting. theyre about to help me repair my car and ill have to pay that back i already have so much debt and its crushing me

it all just feels more and more debilitating as the days go on

i want to work harder on my art so when i have transportation i can show my portfolio and get closer to an apprenticeship but my constant back to back depressive episodes leave me feeling insecure in my abilities and i just play games and try to distract

please please somwthing work i want to be a better person i want to be independent and responsible, trustworthy, someone people are proud of

someone I'M proud of

[moomoomooing]

mild rant? mostly thoughts :)

yk ive just not been a fan of how quickly my mood and possible depression is flipping from eberythings fine and im only a little stressed but its ok! to jesus fuck let me rot (projects and deadlines are suddenly piled up and its overwhelming, but i also feel like this when i have nothing i can do)

i try to keep on a shower schedule cause of my class times (i have night classes half of the days so i shower on my off days) but it means i gotta be nasty for a day on sunday till i shower that night. and i never have the willpower to go to the studio feeling nasty,,, even if it wouldve been great to get work done and satiate the restlessness i get from being in my dorm all day

but i didnt and now im plagued with guilt and more stress/ anxiety yippees

on another note my roommate is really REALLY good at finding ALL of my triggers for anxiety or fight or flight responses. so far they nailed using my mirror/being TOO close to my belongings without asking (they eventually asked and i gave permission out of being nice but i severely dislike it and it makes me hyperaware of everything she does when i hear her close to my dresser). they got my i will tense up and not breathe till its over response to alarm sounds (i hate them theyre incredibly anxiety inducing and i always wake up before my alarm usually out of fear. thankfully now my alarms a last resort/reminder of time if i dont wake up early). and!! they let the door slam (boo loud noises), are constantly on a call they often dont wear earbuds for and talk really loudly half the time, or is on call past 12 am (i feel intrusive and also please i cant sleep if youre on call)

theres also other general icks that are hopefully getting better? im noticing less of smth that i hate that they do (its a not cleaning after yourself type deal) but it could just be coincidence

oh also im trying to apply for jobs (remote part-times or internships) and frankly im scared. the reason it took me so long to get a job in highschool was also straight fear and anxiety lmao

i would love money tho (pssst i have commissions open :D)

OW SHARP RINGING NOISE WHERE DID YOU COME FROM????????? ALL OF THE WHITE NOISE DISSAPEARED AND ITS ONLY THAT

anyways i got another strike of hypersensitive skin??? no idea what causes it but it made the underneath of my forearm feel like i scraped it across concrete. 0/10 i didnt have a pleasant showering experience

oh on a better note being so far removed from my family and the fact we basically never call or text has been quite freeing

its like when i was actually at public highschool and had agency over myself in a way i didnt have when my mom was around (basically her presence was usually STRESS)

on a lesser note i havent been talking with my two other friends (ill call em the trio, them plus me) and its been kinda radio silence from everyone? i havent exactly been great either but my infrequent requests for vcs are usually ignored or not responded too which sucks. it makes me more paranoid than id like to be

our time difference definitely makes it way harder too tho, im ahead by a few hours. ik weve gone months without talking before then picked it right back up, but im always scared during the radio silence anyways

im always scared and curious abt other ppls opinions on me, usually the ppl i consider friends. ik one of my friends likes me? but their friends (the 4 of us will be rooming together next year, theyre also technically my friends but my usually point of contact with them is through my friend) i cant tell how much they like me? its probably my unfamiliarity with them but it makes me nervous for no reason

anyways if you actually read all of this, sorry for taking away your time? i reccomend soft gepard x sampo (hsr) fics to soothe the mind, theyre cute.

also hey haha if youre one of the two friends, literally the nickels, are reading this? erase it from your mind please and thanks

#maybe thinking abt giving your cat a signed consent form to allow them to eat your corpse should you die and the baby has no food #isnt exactly a normal and perfectly sane thought #but what if the baby needs it bc someone tried to be mean abt it :( #jesus ok maybe i should fight with my mom again for some diagnosis #i got told that my level of anxiety is totally normal and i just need to deal with it

[caecilians]

ocd sucks lol

#mine #ive been compulsively combing my hair with like. a lice comb because i get paranoid about having bugs in my hair and i hate dandruff #and ive apparently been digging it too far into my skin bc parts of the skin under my hair are like. getting scabs on them #nd theres a big mole on the back of my head that ive had for my whole life but the comb keeps fucking catching on it and i just want it gone #and whenever i feel an itch on my body or see a black speck on something im immediately tense for the next hour #thinking that bugs are crawling on me #and while my intrusive thoughts arent as bad during the summer as the school year ivr had a few that have just. #made me go emotionally numb bc theyre so vile #vent #text #ask to tag

[pinkdovess]

#having intrusive thoughts #my friends hate me im gross and mean #ive been paranoid about it all week #that they hate me but dont want to say

[fabulouslygaybean]

it was,, fine. please complain to me, i wanna know, and you can always talk to me. i will literally come off anon to make sure you're okay. 💫

i don't wanna make anyone annoyed/upset, so uh. im just gonna ramble in the tags,,

so you're doing alright though? im here if you need to talk

#asks #just. hm. ive been in a very bad place today #my intrusive thoughts have been rlly bad. specifically the paranoid ones. and a ton of things are just piling up bc of it #a lot of other stuff is going wrong and making it worse but. thats whats up #i dont wanna make anyone uncomfy by going into details #just. idk. ive been trying not to do some bad things ill regret today and im exhausted so im just having a veey rough time #sorry for rambling #im just gonna stop there before i start venting about everything

[pleckthaniel]

okay i had to move to desktop because this is going to be a lot

onestar’s relationships with his family headcanons time

(cw discussion of death and grief; detailed and in-depth discussion of emotional, psychological, and arguably? sexual? domestic & child abuse. i had a hard time determining what specific warning tags to put on this post so if you think ive missed something dont hesitate to point it out please)

morningflower: not necessarily the closest siblings in the world for much of their childhoods, but when she had gorsekit at a very young age and his father died suddenly, they suddenly became much closer as onewhisker stepped in as her primary support system. (their parents were also already gone at this point.) remained very close throughout their young adulthoods; morningflower specifically requested onewhisker mentor gorsepaw to help get the apprentice out of his shell. however, after gorsepaw died they both reacted very differently. morningflower struggled a lot with her grief and also had a hard time not holding it against onewhisker. onewhisker, meanwhile, blamed thunderclan for letting their interpersonal fight ‘spill over’ to the other clans, planting the first seeds of his resentment towards them. as a result of this divergence, after gorsepaw’s death morningflower and onewhisker/star were never as close again.

ashfoot: not bio siblings. she was born a rogue and came to windclan at about 8 moons, and at some point she and onepaw/whisker became close and basically adopted one another as siblings. (in my headcanon version of wc, this kind of relationship is not like SUPER frequent but not entirely uncommon.) however, after a series of incidents (the prey-stealing stuff in tnp, him getting with whitetail, the whole mudclaw drama) she slowly realized he was no longer the cat she thought he was, and maybe never was to begin with. at first she tried to stand by him, ignoring her growing doubts, but after he became leader and grew increasingly irrational and paranoid she started to just openly defy him. she now resents him with that special flavor of betrayal that comes when you used to genuinely love somebody. however, she stays on as his deputy out of a belief that she, and perhaps she alone, can manage his irrationality. for his part, onestar still calls her ‘sister.’ if you asked him, he couldn’t tell you why. (it’s out of the misguided belief that if he pretends their relationship hasn’t fallen apart, she’ll one day come back around to him again.)

crowfeather: onestar sees crowfeather as family, because he’s ashfoot’s kit, and especially because they were still close when crowfeather was born. onestar’s protective of him, though also deeply disapproving and generally expects to be disappointed in crowfeather’s behavior; this means he often comes off as very patronizing to him. for crowfeather’s part, he is very annoyed by what he perceives to be onestar’s intrusions on his life. they are not as close as onestar thinks they are, or wants to think they are.

whitetail: he mentored her, and he wasn’t even bad at it, though perhaps a tad overprotective because of what happened with gorsepaw. whitepaw had a crush on him, and he was kind of dimly aware of it, and, at times, probably semi-subconsciously manipulated her with it. i... don’t know if i would call it grooming, but it also wasn’t not grooming. there was no intent involved on onewhisker’s part - he simply liked attention and here was someone giving it to him, someone who happened to be vulnerable to his tendency towards emotional immaturity. soon she became a warrior, and that might have been the end of it. but shortly after, the thing with smoke & darktail happened and onewhisker panicked and went to the one cat he knew would basically mother a litter for him immediately no questions asked. whitetail was sort of.. uneasy about all of it? but also delighted that he finally returned her feelings, so agreed. by the time they get to the lake and the kits are born, they have both sunk into deep, deep denial as to the utilitarian nature of their relationship, convincing themselves they’re actually In Love.

heathertail: of all his children, heathertail is certainly most unambiguously onestar’s favorite; he saw himself in her pretty much from day one, on account of her looking just like him, and she was very much His Little Girl. he sees her as something to be protected, puts her on a pedestal. has very high standards for her, but she is generally capable of meeting them, so neither of them are at all aware of this until the first time she actually fails him (post-eclipse battle, when she responds to trauma with essentially catatonia and starts to fall behind in training). despite adoring her, he is never genuinely emotionally vulnerable with her, always concerned with saving face; as a result, they aren’t as close as they could be and he is sharply aware of this, and can’t completely figure out why it is. for heathertail’s part, she started off completely idolizing him as a child and was proud to be similar to him, including intentionally and unintentionally modeling her behavior after his. over time, as she matured and started to see more and more of his sweeping bad side, she started to subconsciously dislike him more and more, but, since she still idolized him, this manifested more as self-loathing. after the darktail revelation (and the subsequent revelation of the origin of onestar & whitetail’s relationship), she just hates him openly, having been given what she subconsciously feels is a “real” reason to do so. at the same time, because they are so similar, she can generally understand his motivations and even sympathize with them, which she hates.

harespring: kind of another golden child, in a more roundabout way. onestar sort of made harespring the Responsible One from day one, expecting him to look after his siblings and his mom. onestar sees him as something to be molded, something that can be shaped into the perfect son and successor. he has very high standards for harespring as well, but harespring is pretty much unable to meet them from day one, seriously straining their relationship. it’s like, onestar wants to be coming at harespring from a baseline of approval, but harespring continuously fucks up in such a way that onestar feels like he cannot be approving. eventually, this disapproval becomes habit so that even when harespring actually does perform up to onestar’s standards, onestar cannot help but be sort of cold and weird about it. the desire to keep up with his father’s expectations is what initially caused harepaw to turn to the dark forest for more training and better mentoring. he is very aware that he has been deprived of a genuine, warm and loving father figure and is definitely jealous of what he believes heathertail is getting from onestar. after the dark forest battle, onestar makes harespring deputy partly as a strategic move to make it clear that there is no weakness within windclan nor within his own family; partly as a show of approval for harespring’s development as a warrior. in this one thing, onestar is sort of willfully blind to harespring’s having fucked up, which is deeply disorienting to harespring. from that point on, their personal relationship is sorta overtaken by their professional one.

kestrelflight: onestar just doesn’t really care that much about kestrelflight. he’s glad, theoretically, that one of his kits is a medicine cat; that’s something to be proud of. but he just didn’t vibe with kestrelkit, focusing more on his more outgoing siblings, and that lack of care built into habit built into the foundation of their relationship. at this point, the best case scenario on a given day is that onestar remembers kestrelflight exists long enough to get annoyed at him. for kestrelflight’s part, he’s deeply hurt by his father’s complete lack of regard for him. as time goes on, he learns to cover this with a kind of feigned apathy towards onestar, but he’s also a fundamentally very compassionate person and can’t help but to be somewhat sympathetic to onestar for having driven away virtually every other person in his life.

#warrior cats #onestar #onewhisker #morningflower #ashfoot #crowfeather #whitetail #heathertail #harespring #kestrelflight #abuse #uhhh god that was a lot of tags #anyway uh blame mallowstep for this i think he and i may have like locked each other in a kind of co-vortex of WindClan Thoughts #because every time i see him post about it im like Fuck those are good headcanons now i have to go think about mine for 2 hours #so yeah #q #scout talks #scout.txt #yeah fuck it this counts as writing #headcanon #silver linings

[flecks-of-stardust]

Okay sorry im sendi g an ask but the character limit worries me so im doin this here! Trigger and squicks list for bugsnax is as follows:

-alcohol-esque drinks are mentioned and consumed several times

-unnatural changes to bodyparts occur

-this is more a squick but theres a fair bit of romance, idk im aro and you have the flag so idk how much it bugs you but theres three relatively healthy relationships (two are queer if that means anything) and then one thats sorta uncomfortable and iffy

-bullying of other characters (just in case)

-paranoia, theres a character who is very paranoid and afraid and he discusses these things with the player, if you have problems with intrusive thoughts or fear that someone is watching you, this could trigger that

-theres some yelling, notably from a man in the game which may bug some people. Its not super serious and hes got a goofy accent but be warned

-a woman also yells at you in a gruff voice and hits stuff early in the game, though she doesnt appear again, just in case

-there is cannibalism in this game, though not depicted on screen it is mentioned snd the effects of it can be seen

-unsanitary warning, i think thia is minor but im trying to be comprehensive, the characters can sometimes be seen running to the bathroom in game and there is a sidequest where you collect someones poop, not explicit and its all in like a little bag and everything but still a bit icky, and your character is implied to have thrown up at one point, though not shown.

-theres lots of mention of death as a whole and lots of remonders of it. If death scares you, or existential questions and that sorta thing bug you, theres a character that can be found whos sidequest really ventures into that and it could be rough

-sort of melancholy ending no matter what

Overall the game is definitely aimed at kids, but there is darker stuff and its pretty prominent. Sorry for being thorough about this, but im thoroughly hyperfixated on this game and also want more people to enjoy it while being safe!! I hope you do get into it and enjoy it, and even if you dont drop 20 bucks on it, theres a couple people who have streamed playthroughs. Theres also a free dlc coming out in a bit so if that sweetens the deal then go wild.

Sorry to bug you! Have a nice day!!

OH also a couple minor sexual innuendos!

no no this is great, thank you so much!! i really appreciate it! and this is really helpful tbh. im very grateful you thought to mention the unsanitary stuff, because i have fairly severe emetophobia and info like that is really useful to me. i also appreciate you warning me about the romance; for the record, i Am romance-averse to an extent, but unless the romance is front and center itll probably be okay.

it sounds like it might be the paranoid character who might pose the biggest problem, tbh, cause fuckin same. my paranoia is wild and that's the biggest reason im worried about playing any games heavy in psych horror, though cartoony graphics and silly themes help cushion it (and ive been told bugsnax is heavy on the silly). im willing to try it, at the very least!

im still guilty about never finishing one shot but holy hell that game Fucks with me hard, with how meta it is and how anxiety inducing it is to quit out of the game. maybe ill watch a playthrough of that at some point,,

#bugsnax #putting it there so i can find it again #and also so other folks browsing the tag can see it #thank you again! #also 🤝🏼 fellow aro #haha..... bug me.................