#and then i was catastrophically disappointed

[aedemoth]

House of the Dragon is a lot more bearable and relatable of a show when you pretend that Alicent Hightower is a lesbian and just super repressed

#the repressed lesbian to slutshaming pipeline #all these motherfuckers are repressed #the only one who wasn't repressed was joffrey and thats why they had to kill him #he was too happy #fr though ep 1 i thought rhaenyra and alicent were gay 100% #and then i was catastrophically disappointed #also poor alicent girl youre being manipulated left and right #fuck these men #also fuck rhaenyra if you get the chance #i know thats not how it goes i read the wiki #man martin can you know you can do tragedy better if you just like think on it some more #like i wouldn't give a shit about you killing joffery if you had other gay characters that didn't die #why do i put myself through this #this is toxic to myself

[inkblackorchid]

I love these three so much???? Seriously, watching their duel against Team 5Ds gets more entertaining with every rewatch. They deserved to have that whole stadium cheering for them, damn it!

#yugioh 5ds #team taiyo #hot take but these guys are the best WRGP-only antagonists in the show #1. they're genuinely likeable and not dickheads who are overconfident in their strategy #2. they are perfect foils to the 5Ds boys because they come from humble origins and are trying their best #3. instead of busting out one synchro behemoth after the other they use a genuinely unusual strategy #which 4. means Zushin's reveal feels super earned and creates some well-deserved hype #5. at four episodes for a three-on-three duel they don't overstay their welcome either #very good boys all around #and SUCH a breath of fresh air between your Team Unicorns and Team Catastrophes and Team Ragnaroks #so yeah #orchid watches 5ds (again) #I FINALLY got around to watching this duel in one go #was not disappointed #(except by the streaming server being slow which turned half the screenshots into oatmeal quality) #episode 122 #screencaps

[densitywell]

anyways of all my many fears and wishes to play out we did unfortunately hit my absolute biggest fear, which was the last episode before the three week break being absolute discourse poison

#everyone on here either checkmate atheist-ing imogen or still believing she's gonna go evil. #have not even opened twitter bc i just know its gonna be absolute misery 'the hells are all going to die and kill each other' shit #orym making the deal is SO crunchy but its gonna make the people already prone to catastrophizing absolutely bonkers. hh #its certainly a damning immediate indictment of their progress and disappoints me for that reason. but im not sure if thats a group issue #or specifically an orym problem. and either way i'm in my not borrowing grief era so #crposting #cr spoilers

[blebsistired]

I love when the opening night is. normal. no disasters no nothing.. just normal

#im almost disappointed #i didnt almost die again #and there was no catastrophe or anything #almost just boring #but im not really complaining

[muttfangs]

I feel like asking for a partner who is kind, empathetic, communicative, and attracted to me is asking for the world at this point when it's. the bare fucking minimum for me. and somehow I keep finding ppl who see me as a physically unattractive emotional punching bag and expect me to put up with it bc im fat and ugly (by normative gay standards). and when I assert my self worth and my boundaries they get nasty with me. lmfao I think I'm cursed! fuck my life! FUCK! MY LIFE :)

#i'm so tired. #I want love so badly but like... this recent catastrophe makes me never fucking want to be with someone again. cause this KEEPS HAPPENING. #it feels sisiphean. I feel like I will never find someone. it's been years. fucking years. #barking into the void #crying a bit as I type this 🤙 fucking disappointed

[yunamaocaro]

one year ago, this week: São Paulo GP 2021

NOVEMBER 13TH, 2021, 16:00 (BRT):

after a string of disappointing races, lewis hamilton, second in the championship standings by 19 points, qualified in P1 for the upcoming sprint race. after qualifying, hamilton was referred to the stewards for a technical infringement; the car’s drag reduction system's (DRS) opening slot was larger than permitted. he was later disqualified from qualifying, forcing him to start at the back of the grid for the sprint race the next day.

NOVEMBER 14TH, 2021, 16:30 (BRT):

at the sprint qualifying, hamilton stormed through the field, managing to go from P20 to P5 in just 24 laps. however, hamilton received a five-place grid penalty for exceeding his quota of internal combustion engines (ICE), thus starting the race in P10.

NOVEMBER 15TH 2021, 14:00 (BRT):

during the race, hamilton had a mega start, getting up to P6 before the first lap was even completed. by lap 18 out of 71 total, he was running P2, chasing max verstappen. by lap 44, after two rounds of pit stops, he was once again P2, closing in on the race leader.  on lap 48 he attempted to overtake verstappen, moving around the outside at turn 4 – but verstappen pushed him wide, off the track. the stewards deemed no investigation necessary. on lap 59, hamilton had DRS on the run up to turn 4. he made the move around the outside on the straight, claiming P1. ultimately, lewis hamilton won the race by 10.4 seconds, waving the brazilian flag, to the delight of the passionate fans on the interlagos grandstands.

#lewis hamilton #mercedes #valtteri bottas #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #f1edit #me calling everything after russia last yr a string of disappointed races is funny to me too like by comparison ths year is catastrophic the #*then #ykw i worked hard on this so #toto wolff #peter bonnington #carlos sainz #max verstappen #a lot of these shots were chosen not bc they were ''important'' but bc i thought they looked cool and would go w the rest of the set #like overtaking carlos for example or the petronas on the mechanics suit #anyway im super proud of this :) i made this in july when i was sick #oh also i have the full race downloaded in hd if anyone is interested lmk :) just a warning the file is ~7gb #brazilian gp 2021 #sao paulo gp 2021 #brazil 2021 #brazilian gp 2022

[helianthologies]

ok ive decided im actually not gonna rewatch any fantasy high stuff or finish the seven bc it feels like homework and i dont wanna. im just gonna wait for junior year and hopefully that will reignite my interest in d20 and THEN when its done i will re/watch all that other stuff IF I FEEL LIKE IT

#i feel bad that i never finished the seven bc like...... the girls were all really nice and cool but #it was just so. disappointing for me personally from a character consistency standpoint #ill probably give it another chance eventually but i just am not feeling it rn #FRANKLY im kind of stressed that junior year is coming out so soon instead of like. in six months #if it had been announced like. two years ago? i wouldve been frothing at the mouth i would be SO impatient #but i havent been interested in actual play stuff/d20 specifically for like... a year now #and my brain is really REALLY resisting trying to shift my interest back to it #deep in my soul all i want rn is to keep thinking abt infinity train for three months at least. #but if i dont watch junior year as it comes out i KNOW my brother or twitter is gonna ruin it for me #so i cant just WAIT until im interested again #autism catastrophe................................ #bectxt #op #txt

[josouhenshin]

I thought this blurb from the trans 2 site's FAQ was cute:

my very very rough attempt at translation (read: don't quote me on this) (I had to look a lot of shit up):

is this aimed at men? or women? since our debut, we've been asked this question many times. with women's clothes, one crosses the borders of their original gender. when mingling with men, if you think about original sex, you might see it as BL. but going by outward appearance, it just looks like a regular straight couple, right? and if you mingle with women, at first glance it seems like yuri. but again, if you think about original sex, it's not impossible to call it a regular couple. because of that, this is our answer: IF YOU LIKE WOMEN'S CLOTHES THIS IS FOR YOU

looking back, I think people may have some complaints about framing, but wanting to give these often pretty divided (stateside, at least) groups equal weight comes off as good vibes for 2005. and looking through the CGs they posted it looks like the protag is spoiled for choice there.

#trans 2 #idk my impression of transfem etc groups in the mid 2000s is that pseudoscience about gender and sexuality was still hard to get away from #and most of the girlies were trying to find the most masc possible guys for the gender of it all #and trans lesbians were relatively sidelined #so this feels surprisingly even handed #...man I hope whenever I do get around to looking through the actual game I'm not like catastrophically disappointed

[prideandpen]

hey in case you didn’t know dating apps are the worst and i hate them

#the ones where i like the app itself either doesn't have many users near me #or the users near me are either not who im attracted to or have no conversation skills (or no emotional maturity) or theres a deal breaker #or i just hate the format of the app #just. can't we put all the users I might like on to an app I like that doesn't have a ton of restrictions around likes and messaging #i swore off dating for the year after catastrophe A lead to disappointment B and yet here I am

[herawell]

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#mother mention cw #negativity cw #my mom invited me to have dinner with her today #and it ended up being a ruse to convince me to seek a therapist #(in a very well-meaning and not-entrapping way than I make it sound her) #she’s pushing me to call my insurance to check out copay options and look at online therapy providers #wants me to do it by the weekend and after I’ve made my first appt she’ll step back #I could tell her now that I don’t want to seek it out and she’d respect that #But she would be disappointed in me and I know our relationship would sour #bc I do struggle a lot with inner catastrophizing and self worth and often turn to her for emotional support #and she wants me to seek out a professional for my own good #but part of me is still bitter that despite her having been in therapy for over a year herself #she still does not regret attempting to [redacted] herself in front of me in 2020 and blaming me for it #and blaming me for my parents’ marital issues ever since I was 13 #and now she’s pushing me to seek therapy #I kind of want to throw it in her face #like how well is therapy working out for YOU? #which would be a very very very very very bad and unproductive thing to do #I’m moved out and working full time so I’m not (financially) dependent on them anymore #so I don’t need her approval #but I still want it #so. Yeah.

[dark-delirium]

the irrational anger that surged thru me bc the vacuum cleaner I wanted was sold out is actually concerning....I shld be concerned right?

#personal #tumblr post #me #i dunno #it was momentary #but then i cried bc the disappointment was catastrophic #over #a #vacuum cleaner #someone send help pls

[distinguished-slacker]

Talking about uniform colours made me remember that to this day Idk whether the army uniform Goshi, Mito, Sayuri and Shigure used to wear when they were 16 was either green or red. Like, how come?? Almost 10 years of catastrophe and we still haven’t gotten a coloured art of them in uniforms…

#the disappointment… #we haven’t even gotten a grown up guren squad cover so what should I expect… #but well #owari no seraph #seraph of the end #catastrophe at 16 #guren squad #goshi norito #sayuri hanayori #mito jujo #shigure yukimi

[angstmonsterwrites]

I learned something today about the nature of confidence that may be obvious to some, but it felt enough like an epiphany for me to want to share it.

My previous understanding of confidence was that it's something that occurs in people who (rightfully or not) are so sure of their own competence/skill/charisma/intelligence that failure or rejection hardly register to them as plausible outcomes.

However, it's now occurred to me that confidence has far less to do with a low threat of failure and rejection than it does a person's faith in their own ability to handle negative outcomes or setbacks to their efforts. Knowing oneself to be intelligent or fairly competent is still part of it, but it's not the whole thing. The person with a genuinely (that is, not the product of narcissism or arrogance) high confidence level can face an incident of failure, a setback to a goal, or even some really unfair ridicule, and there's a good chance they'll have the emotional resources to shake it off, pick up on any valuable lessons, and keep moving. They possess a sort of radical acceptance of their own flawed humanity that, depending on the exact context, can help greatly diminish the experience and duration of shame and embarrassment. They don't keep an ever-present mental catalogue of their mistakes, poor or unpredictable circumstances, and rejection as evidence that a negative outcome is most probable, or feel the need to treat those things as crimes they're perpetually on trial for. Failure might be briefly discouraging or frustrating; there might be some crow or humble pie that needs eaten, but it generally doesn't spell doom.

#mental health things #musings #My problem is that despite knowing myself to be a careful and relatively intelligent person #the moment any feelings of disappointment or embarrassment or a sense that I've been rejected sets in #I get really lost in feeling that way--to the point it feels like a punishment. #...There's a reason that my top stated goal for therapy is 'reel in the catastrophizing'.

[holyshit]

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#'fandom rant' anon #yes feel free to always come to me if you want to rant <3 i get it lol #and yeah i've definitely noticed that to- i love people not blindly following their faves and having a healthy level of criticism #because that's super important! hero worship is never good! #but yeah then you get some people who fall back on that when they legitimately don't seem to like them or one of them anymore #and it begs the question why they're still here if they're disappointed by everything they do #not in a 'how dare you be disappointed in my fave way!!!!!' (because i don't care) but in the way that they don't seem happy to be here #i do think it's complex because people have complicated relationships with these kinds of things- like they used to bring you joy but now #they don't and it's hard to give something up #but there's some people i genuinely think would be happier if they took a step back so they could realize whether this fandom is genuinely #something that makes them happy or not #and then proceed from there #because they just seem to be angrier and angrier or sadder and sadder as they move through the fandom #and even though we deal with some heavier topics in this fandom- it is still a fandom and the purpose should be having fun #and yesss about what you said about expectations #i really dislike the catastrophizing that happens in fandom so often #like i understand trying to brace yourself for the worst but when you're constantly spreading the worst case scenario #it's just.... needlessly miserable. especially when the worst case scenario doesn't happen the majority of the time so you end up with so #many people anxious or disappointed about something that hasn't even happened yet lmao #and like you said- it doesn't end up being a 'bracing yourself' situation when people are just as angry and disappointed when it does happen #and also 100% about people getting mad at others for not being angry enough or sad enough- that is entirely unfair and more of #a 'misery loves company' than anything because this is a FANDOM. you should want people to have fun! you shouldn't want them to be stressed #and anxious constantly over celebrity's lives. we have enough anxiety about our own lives lmao #sorry this is making your fandom experience worse than it needs to be :/ it is hard to avoid sometimes #hopefully you find people to follow that make you more happy than sad or anxious #ily!! #asks #anonymous

[projectcatzo]

How do you take the opportunity to write a Moon Knight serialization, incorporate none of or downplay the most defining attributes of a Moon Knight story--his split personalities, the Egyptian mythology, his fraught human relationships and troubled past--focus on Moon Knight less than random side characters, add the lamest interpretation of vampires imaginable for no discernible reason, and kill Moon Knight for real in order to set up a spin-off based on those underwhelming side characters? My man, if you didn't want to write a Moon Knight series, you should've just said so!

#moon knight #comics #i take every bad/mediocre comic i read personally if it disappoints me in any way i catastrophize lol it's a slight upon my dignity

[saifahname]

want to text em to tell em that i miss him want to shoot a dm to tell him i think about him and care want to fling myself off this building with how much i still care and think about it i'm so

#perfectly fine i definitely am not disappointed in myself in how i handled this situation at all #Telling myself every person I once called best friend maybe did not in fact considered me that #If i was so easy to leave behind if i was so easy to be replaced if it's never about me if they don't consider this loss catastrophic #Anyway i will drink my coffee and then clean around the house and then write for my novel about two best friends and lovers and brothers #Because they are each other's everything and i will absolutely write it