#and yet it fucking hurts so fucking bad i fucking hate it i hate that my brain has put aside the friends who actually care about me

[sunlit-mess]

consumed by the inevitable

#messyr #you know- I kept thinking: One day. The cage will be open but I feel like I'll stay. Because if I run- I'd wind up dead from their bullet #so I just- tend to- follow as much as I want to rebel and put sense into this fuckass household. I hate seeing the others in pain as well #and it hurts more that it feels like I can NEVER be the one to break this cycle of abuse- when I knew from the start- when I knew too much #but here I am ending up like the rest of them- helpless and unable to do jackshit about the situation. I cant say or do anything at all! #I dont want to end up like them- if anything I want to BREATHE- i want all of us to LIVE without this pain that has existed for generations #I want to help so bad no matter how much I know I am unloved. #no matter how much hate i carry- no matter how much burden- Underneath it all- I'm devoted to them- that's how fucked up I am #i know i'll never be enough. I know how often I think of death and wish it. #But I have a dream to achieve and I am not planning to die until I reach it. Not yet. If pain is where I strive best then so be it. #doodle #vent art #artists on tumblr #bpd #toxic behavior #learned helplessness

[inkskinned]

he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.

except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?

at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.

except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.

about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.

he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.

#i used to think it was romantic too and then i was like. now i see it as a HUGE red flag #writeblr #it is also almost EXCLUSIVELY said by immature ppl who think this is normal #fyi even if u think it's funny and ur like 'im an introvert it's just TRUE' like. you need therapy (ily tho) #healed introversion is just ''i would prefer to be by myself'' not ''i hate every person'' ... hate is not normal. that is not healthy #im sorry. i know it feels accurate. but if you're walking around with that kind of rage.... #1. you're making a LOT of assumptions about every single person u have ever met. which is often unfair and unkind #and also usually involves judging people based on their worst moments or little mistakes #2. you are being unfair to the person who is ur ''exception'' #3. there is a VAST difference between ''ur my favorite person'' and ''the ONLY person i like.'' #idk i think this is just a personal bias thing tbh #im sure there are people who have this experience normally #but i have YET to find a man who thinks like this and ISNT absolute DOGSHIT. although tbh.... like. im sure he exists #when u hit like 30 some of the things that were once kind of hot now just sound fucking exhausting. like ''im in a band'' #edit in the tags: i used to kind of be like this too. but the thing is that like. my life became so much more peaceful #once i started believing that people are generally good. like yes i am mad at the world at large #but it's just.... a very hard way to live. you're not a bad person or wrong for the ways other people hurt you and taught you to be angry. #but that anger will continue to hurt YOU. it will punish YOU. it will prevent YOU from making new deep connections. it will protect you yes #but it will also cause MASSIVE blowback. bc if you lose the One Person... your life will fall apart. i know this personally. #i really recommend just trying to be... cautiously optimistic instead. like. yes #people can be horrible and cruel and there are some communities (incels for example) that aren't worth that optimism #but i think like... most people will hold a door for you . most people want to help you find your wallet . #i hope one day you are able to find peace. i hope that rage eventually smooths over. i know how hard it is PERSONALLY #and i know what must have happened to you. and im deeply deeply sorry we share the same wound. #but i promise - sometimes we all need someone else to help us carry the weight. eventually the rage has to die so that we can let help in #i had to spend years biting at outstretched hands. i still often do. im still very wary . and my heart breaks that you flinch too. #here's the thing: i don't blame you. but we were both acting out of fear and pain. .... not out of healthy behavior. and ... change #was needed. i needed change too. rage was useful for a while. then it just left me isolated and bitter. i had to (with effort) #choose to let that rage go. and let people in . VERY SLOWLY THO LOL

[angelsdean]

seeing a post that gets some things right (interesting complex john thoughts) but other parts dead wrong (bad dean takes) has me like *eye twitch*

#reducing a complicated plot to dean hates all monsters and thinks every monster needs to be killed is um. first of all not even canon #do i need to bring out all the posts abt dean's monster ethics and how he thinks a monster is someone who hurts / kills innocent ppl #and that definition includes humans who do monstrous things too (a theme explored in multiple episodes in s1 !!!!) #but anyways. no he did not think jack should be killed bc he was ~not human~ he thought jack was a Dangerous supernatural being #since ya know. he Was. literally thee most powerful being after god / amara. and they had no idea what he might do. he was not their Baby #or their Kid yet. he was a stranger. a strange new supernatural being that they might have to stop. #s12 finale literally leaves off on a cliffhanger positioning jack to potentially be the new 'Big Bad' #so he's a stranger AND the son of lucifer (they had no idea how that would affect jack yet) AND he seemingly brainwashed cas and kelly #bc remember cas was all about Free Will and Choice and Fuck Heaven / Paradise / Peace #and then suddenly he's going against his core beliefs talking abt paradise on earth and jack needing to fulfill his Destiny like ??? #i'd be sus af too if i were dean #dean had no reason to trust jack right off the bat. 'oh but he should've trusted him bc cas did' ok and cas is dead now so ?? #then there's the soulless jack stuff which is a whole other complicated beast. and dean was not the only one trying to stop jack then eithe #but anyways. no you cannot reduce dean's complex feelings abt jack to simply 'lol dean hates monsters and wants them all dead' #he doesn't. half his family and friends are literally monsters. anyways. #vic.txt

[significant-ace-nnoyance]

every day i weep for the people who haven't read king of scars

#IM LOSING MY MIND #LEIGH BARDUGO LOML #IM ACTUALLY BURSTING AT THE SEAMS I CANNOT TAKE THIS GLORIOUS WRITING #I HAVE NO ONE TO RANT TO ABOUT THIS IM LITERALLY RUNNING UP THE WALLS EATING THE PLASTER #ASJGDKLSJGSAIJDFG #welp! off to get emotionally wrecked by rule of wolves AGAIN #king of scars #rule of wolves #grishaverse #zoyalai #AJSGKLFSJBKLDFBJ I GENUINELY CANNOT TAKE ZOYALAI THEY ARE LITERALLY DESIGNED TO HURT ME AND HEAL ME #TWO SELF SACRIFICING SELF HATING DEEPLY INSECURE PEOPLE HIDING DEMONS FROM THE WORLD #WHO ARE SO DEVOTED TO EACH OTHER THAT IT MAKES ME ACTUALLY INSANE #THEYRE THE ONLY PEOPLE THAT SEE A GLIMPSE OF THE OTHERS PAIN AND DONT SHY AWAY FROM THE MONSTER #PLUS THE BANTER #AND YET THE WALLS BETWEEN THEM THAT THEY WANT TO REACH PAST SO BAD BUT THEY DONT KNOW HOW BECAUSE TRAUMA AND VULNERABILITY ISSUES #CALL ME ZOYA THE WAY I BE LEAPING OFF OF JURIS'S HIGH TOWER #CALL ME NIKOLAI THE WAY I BE LEAPING OUT OF MY BEDROOM WINDOW TO RAMPAGE THE TOWN #also #fuck the darkling #hate the darkling #all my homies HATe the darkling #literally vibrating rn with how much i despise that mfer #GET HIM AWAY FROM ALL THE WOMEN HE ABUSED #KILL HIS ASS DEAD IN THE DIRT #MAKE HIM SUFFER #anyways #im really normal about this series #:D

[quinn-pop]

happy cringe day wednesday guys here’s another thing i have no idea where to put <3

…i was trying to figure out their dynamic lol

#kirbyposting #swearing #i have been so sleepy ever since the time change it’s making it impossible to get anything done ugh #i just want to see kirby snap at him #just once #but im not a big Marx guy (yet?) so my bias is probably showing #kirby can say fuck just this once it’s the only way marx would listen #probably because he’d be so shocked and then go ‘LMAO what did you just say huh???’ #and then idk kirby could say something dramatic and Marx would realize he actually does need to shut the fuck up #but it would be very short lived because *sighs* it always is #marx is such a strange character to me i want to understand him so bad but i guess probably no one can??? #it just hurts my head #not that I hate or even dislike him im just having a hard time actually liking him lol #but whatever #happy cringe day wednesday #my art or something #kirby #marx kirby #kind of a weird cringe day Wednesday post but i think it fits

[dennisboobs]

ok at the point now where looking at an image of dennis makes me want to smash my head through a wall

#ada speaks #idk how ppl exist in this fandom who don't feel bad for him tbh #which is the last thing den wants bc being perceived as weak and pitiable is devastating to him but #chasing this mfer down to give him a hug #he is so. fucked up. he has been fucked up by every adult in his life. #i think the fandom perceives him as this spoiled rich kid who had it better than most of the gang but the reality is #he was failed just like the rest of them and it's almost worse because he doesn't – and almost CAN'T – recognize this #letting the protective ego-boosting and boasting drop leads to him having to confront SO much baggage and i don't think he is mentally able #i think he DOES know deep down that everything is a lie and he has been hurt because we see that self awareness in ptsdee and tends bar #but his relationship with everyone in the gang is so strained that i don't think he would be able to have a moment like charlie did in s15 #even in tends bar there's a moment where they all recognize something is going on with him but immediately place him at the center #because he's the problem with him. anything done to him is his fault. it's not only something he reinforces. the gang does too #this must be because *dennis* has no feelings and he hates valentines day because everyone else is unlike him which makes *him* mad #the entire gang has an issue placing blame on themselves but to not even be able to conceive of dennis being hurt by them is. telling #because he's inhuman to them. it's how he's propped himself up and yet simultaneously hopes that they will see through that act #the way he reworks things in his mind so that everything is a consequence of his grand plan #means that he is always at fault regardless of whether he brushes the blame off #so he is not a *victim* of anyone else. because this was all under his control. he wasn't raped because he was initiating it. #klinsky was His Conquest. he was fourteen and she was in her fifties but he forced himself on her so that makes it His Fault. #it was a two way road. he's fourteen. and he 'entered' her. he's fourteen. but she was uncomfortable with his advances. but he was fourteen #cw csa mention

[alligaytorswamp]

Im kind of feeling like i can't take it anymore

#vent #bad sad sleep-deprived and mentally ill #i am currently crying myself to sleep just fucking sobbing because everything hurts #my brain is failing me my body us failing me #i dont know what to do with myself #so many things are happening so many things hurt and i have no body to talk to #i have never felt so utterly alone #i hate myself for even writing this because i feel so pathetic and as if im just whining for attention #because i probably am #some lame ass cry for help because i really don't know how to function at this point #truly i am just so fucking alone #and there is just so much that is happening and i cant share it with anyone so it just all stays in my stupid brain and #probably makes me more mentally ill or smth #and for however long all i do is keep myself from crying during the day bc i cant let my family catch me having mental breakdowns #yet i have all of these painful thoughts that are plaguing my mind all the fucking time #i am just so so tired #and i keep thinking about death and it's so fucking scary #i just wish i wasn't myself and i had a different brain i could be better than this because maybe then i would be fine #at home im in toxic hell #in online spaces i have no one actually close to me #in my brain i have horrible thoughts and hardcore daydreaming distactions that dont fix anything #in my course i think im not doing well enough and im scare dthat my the end of it im still going to be a useless unemployed moron #on my silly blog i think if i dont make content i have no value and ehatever i make is not even that good or interesting #so i better cover it up with quantity but i dont have time or ability to do so #which again makes me into a fucking Nothing #god my head hurts so much #that's what u get for wailing at 4 am #anyways i am doing horrible and i can't take it anymore truly reaching my fucking limit #all my fault tho so ☺ #delete later and if someone actually reads it Um sorry for this i am hashtag unwell 😋💫

[voidimp]

anyway heres a funny little thing that happened to me today. for context im experiencing some uh. routine bleeding. u know

#im so mad ig i havent been back on t long enough for it to stop it yet #i had to go home sick from work bc this shit hurts SO FUCKING BAD #literally the only thing that has made me actually genuinely cry from pain since i was like. a child. fucking unbearable i hate it here #(yes ive talked to a doctor about it) #anyway u can rb this if u want

[murdoc]

before taking my road test i did genuinely think everyone who said some of them will try to trip you up or be overly harsh were just sorta stretching the truth, but after how stupid my test was i understand.

i ended up autofailing bcz it was a two lane (same direction) parking lot where there were signs and cones saying one side was for the road test & one was for regular vechicles EXCEPT FOR ONE VERY SMALL AREA ONLY AT THE BEGINNING. but then she proceeded to make me continue on and do a parallel park, making me assume i didnt do anything wrong, and then have me circle back to the beginning and THEN fail me.

not only that, but she.. lied? about me not using my blinker when either going in or leaving the park????? which i straight up did do????? 🥲

#i think id have been less devastated by the fail if the just immediately told me to turn back around bcz i failed at the bad signage #i genuinely think that if anyone else saw that signage theyd be confused too. in fact im pretty sure my instructor didnt even know #bcz we needed to turn right but instead of going over to that tiny area that clips into the road test section #we went the long way around so we didnt go in that lane #the lesson i went to before my test was two hours and heavily inconvenient for my sponsor so to go through all of that and autofail.. #odds are w her id have failed anyway. i genuinely dont see why she lied about the blinkers but AT LEAST if i went through the whole test & #failed it wouldve hurt but at least i could walk away knowing it wasnt as stupid as it was #now i have to renew my id bcz i wont have a license. and renew my permit. and pay $200+ for another test bcz i dont have #a car that can be used for the regular rmv. and now im paying rent for a place i cant even go to yet bcz the next rmv appt is in MID MAY #(the rent thing is normal and i did plan for it. but if you havent experienced rmvs 'post' covid.. you dont even do the test there. #you 'check in' and leave to do it at your house.) #i may try to beg my ride that i now 100% need to drive me to a further out one but. sighs. who knows #i ❤️ lifeeee #diary #sorry this is so long lol. im not as inconsolable as yesterday but now im just annoyed #i also wish to stress that while i love my car i fucking hate driving #my reward for getting my license is high car insurance and paying a ton for gas? YIPPEE!!!!!!!!!!!!! #AUUGGHHHHHHHHH 🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣

[solomon-tozer]

.

#it was my birthday yesterday #and it was not very nice lol #hardly anyone remembered and said anything #first time in my life not getting a card from my uncle too #my mother also didn't bother to send or leave me a card which... well okay i guess #she has everyone's birthday in her calendar apart from mine and her own (she detests her birthday) #my dad didn't get me anything either but he did buy some food to bbq and spend a few hours with me so that's okay #then i was just gonna chill on my own at home with the cats but my ex fucked that up ofc #then got mad at me for being upset and crying #so yeah yet to have a birthday where i don't end up in tears :') #i hate this so much i want a do-over #i cherish the things i did get i need to see if i can print one of them so i can gaze lovingly at it #but ugh when a server i've been in for over 10 years doesn't even remember... hurts kinda #i don't feel worth much to anyone at all #rhubarb crumbles #i have not been okay lately (well for a while) lol #i also wish i knew what was going on with my uncle #it's been a good few days and my dad hasn't heard anything back #no one's got in touch with him with news either #but my dad said he sounded really bad and - for the first time ever - scared #i don't like not knowing #anyway gonna curl up bc i'm cold and haven't got anything to eat so it's all fun and games #might watch more terror i was doing an armitage watch #which is just watching all the episodes he's in

[ice-reblogs]

If there is a God

I want to rip out my uterus with my bare hands and devour it like a rabid animal in front of him

And after I'm done, I want to stand up and look at him, blood dripping from my jaw; and tell him to pray for my forgiveness for making me suffer in the wrong body

#bite it strike #this is not meant to be offensive. but if you take offense to it- well im sorry #my cramps are fucking killing me this week- they hurt so bad and i havent even actually started yet #i desperately want to get a hysterectomy- but because i was born a female. i cant. i either HAVE to have kids (which i dont fucking want--- #----its one of the reasons i want a hysterectomy in the first place) or i have to be dying of cancer or some shit #being a female at birth is miserable when it comes to health care =] #i hate it here #anyway! i want to fucking die rn- just curl up and rot away #i meant to say month instead of week- but i do usually cramp a week before i start

[neverendingford]

I have made my peace with being forgotten

and yet you think of me.

I have made my peace with being unloved

and yet you continue to try.

I have made my peace with this silence

and yet your knuckles rap at my door.

I have made my peace with letting go

but you continue to hold on.

what do you think of me?

what do you love?

who do you speak to?

what are you holding onto?

is it me you perceive?

or a shape of something you thought was real

created from dreams and wishes and the promise of a thousand people before you.

#poetry #color says shit #this just in. staying at my parents house while they're gone is bringing up the same old pain #pushing on the same old healed over scars. #heartbreaking. someone you know doesn't conform to rigid black and white good/evil morality #how to build distance when they keep trying to hold you close #when that closeness brings up every single moment of pain #when they're determined to hate the sin but love the sinner. #when your dad still quotes transphobic rhetoric at you. #when your mom is still convinced your queer identity is created from trauma #when they still genuinely care about you as a person but are still fundamentally arrayed against everything you've built for yourself #when their love is a constant wish for transformation. regression back to a more malleable obedient state. #I hurt so fucking much because the only way to make it stop is for me to be the bad guy #for me to tell them to fuck off #otherwise I constantly fight against their gravity. #constantly fight against the expectation that I become something else. #that I drop this childish delusion and pick up the ways of a grown adult instead #and yet they celebrate me. they celebrate my name change. #the change that rejected both their last names. that transformed the entire thing into something apart from them. #I orphaned myself and they celebrate me for that. I'm going to hit post now because I can't keep typing cause I'm gonna go cry instead #I just. what the fuck do I do with this situation.

[toytulini]

mental health just straight up plummeting

#toy txt post #everyday the smallest things have me spiralling into such stupid despair #constantly fighting myself cos every single thing has me wanting to throw up my hands and walk the fuck off bc theres bo point #whats the fucking point!! just despair and exhaustion and burned the fuck out and gnashing at the fucking walls and then spiralling into #a stupid little self pity self hate spiral cos im just a weak stupid little baby who cant handle the real world. plenty of ppl have it so #much worse and havent given up yet so whats my fucking problem? which is so stupid. but i cant logic my way out of this one #so i am simply sitting here feeling so god damn bad #and i dont even really have. a good reason for it. idk. like i dont have a lot of concrete quantifiable reasons i can present about why #i am so goddamn miserable at my job. im just. going insane i need out im performing badly its not worth it theres no fucking point #every day im fighting the urge to just fucking walk off over the stupidest tiniest things that are definitely not worth that kind of #reaction. like yea maybe i do need like mental health meds or smth but i also know. i need out of this fucking. job. but i dont know #like. idk its like my options are just kore of this same stupid bullshit or retail/food service. and like. shout out to retail and food #service. i fucking could not i fucking cannot. but like im reaching that point here too. everything hurts all the time with no reprieve and #all my options just feel like its gonna be ! even more stupid repetitive motions that wont help! like idk! idk what to do. i just #wanna read about stupid little fucking worms and fish but doing that professionally im not sure im up to it and #between me and that career path is thousands of dollars and homework. so #now im the rat instead now im the rat instead now im the rat instead now im the rat instead #trying so hard not to display idk red flag behavior but im Going Insane. i should just start crying at work. why bother hiding it. whats the #point #vent #ig #i should go eat. and waste the rest of my stupid fucking night playing zelda trying to soothe my brain enough to function except im not #functjoning cos then itll be 5am again and ill have done nothing but play zelda and be up too late and go to bed and not get enough sleep #and be a little to a lot late and be miserable and the cycle just fucking never ends #not enough fucking podcasts about worms out there for this #i opened several academic papers on tongue eating isopods to cope and barely read them bc i cant do that at work it takes too long and i get #lost and my productivity is already in the shit and i need to stop being on my phone and i know that but like also if i dont fucking #distract my stupid fucking brain right fucking now im gonna start throwing things and crying #anyway. thats how im doing. bye

[hopefulyellowlamp]

it really hurts to see the people i trusted and loved more than anything in the world just move on from me as if they never knew me

#lamp vents #aka my exfriend posted on tiktok and i havent unfollowed them yet... #and im still not over how he just... cut me out of his life with no warning #he was like 'yeah i get that youre autistic and has a panic disorder and a severe depression. but also all your symptons for these are unac #ceptable and i hate u' and not only cut me out of his life but also turned several other of my friends against me #like i cant get over the fact that they used moments where i was in distress and having panic attacks or severe sensory overload against me #as if i would have sensory overloads and panic attacks just to manipulate them or make THEM feel bad #jeez im sorry i didnt realize im not allowed to have emotions #i know i snap when im overwhelmed which is why i usually always would deafen/leave call on discord immediately and try to jreathe or calm #and somehow theyd still turn it to be avout them #i was trying my damnedest to be the best friend but jesus christ man they expected me to do SO MUCH when i had two panic disorders and so m #uch mental health issues #most of which i tried to explain to them... they were all neuro spicy ot mentally ill too so i thought theyd understand #i thought theyd at least not think the worst of me when all ive ever done is look up to them #the worst feeling ever is having someone i looked up to and wantef to be like so much it fucking hurt #say everything they hated about me after 4 or so years of friendship where i trusted them enough to tell them anything #it still makes me doubt myself #anytime someone writes to me about how we need to talk i immediately expect loads of pent up anger at me #i always expect my friends to finally be done with my bullshit and tell me theyre tired of me #ive always had doubts about wether or not im a good enough friend or not but lately its just been so much worse #and i keep getting so angry and frustrated because i still miss them and i still wanna try and make it up to them #even tho theyve made it clear they already made up their mind about me being the bad guy #i just feel so helpless and alone #i used to be able to go to him about all my problems but i guess he really saw that as bothersome... i did so much for him and for what #i spent so much time with him and i knew his parents and i knew his pets and i knew his routines #we CUDDLED while sleeping in the same bed multiple times we took naps together and i #i showed him my favourite childhood game #and he bottled up all his emotions until they spilled into hatred for me #for what? for nlthing. and then he teams up with another friend WHICH I INTRODUVED HIM TO #he fucking replaced me after all those nights of quick typing and crying and reassuring him that i loved him and would never replace him

[sk3l3t0n444]

.

#yay im still not okkkkkkkkk #i have legit resorted to playing solitaire #thats how fucking bored and unmotivated i am #i cant even get out of bed most days...i just sit in my room and rot away... #yk its been like 7 months already...and im still not over it #like it still hurts...it hurts so badly... #id it bad that im still not over it yet? that i still think about them every day #i cant listen to some songs anymore...that was our song...that was our song...that was our song...i cant go to some places anymore... #i cant look at some things the same way anymore...sometimes i wonder if it was for the best...i wonder what life would be like... #i wonder a lot about if they even remember me...if they think of me as much as i think of them... #i just want things to go back to how they were...i was happy then...why does everything go to shit for me...did i do something wrong...? #is this my punishment for whatever sins ive commited? is there even a god out there? and if there is why do they want me to fucking suffer?! #i miss so many people that i cant have back cuz whatever higher power if there is one fucking hates me...what did i do wrong? what did i do? #am i just doomed to fail at everything? cuz it sure as hell seems that way... #idfk... #i just want to be ok again

[zannolin]

Mia Winters 🤝 Ashley Graham

Being too amazing for people to comprehend.

:)

maybe some people...but the real ones get it.

genuinely it's so wild to me as someone who got into resident evil without ever really being exposed to the fandom beforehand and watched playthroughs/learned stuff while very isolated from it and am Just Now getting into the fandom and fan-content to see how like. widely hated they are? because, what, they don't like ashley's game mechanic and a bunch of people can't seem to comprehend the way the ethan is molded and mia knew reveal is supposed to totally recontextualize what we see of her behavior in village? um....okay lol.

and here is where i started typing out an entire rant about why it makes zero sense to me that people hate on mia so much despite the fact that she is pointedly not written as the villain of the games and ethan clearly loves her a lot and she clearly loves him a lot, but then backspaced it all because actually if i go down that road i will never stop. one day i'll do an art stream again where i just sit and rant for 2 hours about it. just know: i think about this so much and it makes absolutely Zero sense to me why people hate mia when she's such an easy to understand and CLEARLY sympathetically written character. RRRRR.

and then ppl who hate ashley bc she's "whiny" and "helpless" ok well what would YOU be doing if you had been kidnapped, infected with a parasite in an incredibly violating way, were essentially a ticking time bomb, and had no training in weapons or defense to deal with this shit MUCH LESS while in a totally different country. um. i think you would be begging for help too. and half the battle is just her game mechanic it's not like it's her fault jfc.

#answered asks #precambrian-sea-pancake #ONCE AGAIN i say hm isnt it funny how people seem to love ada but hate mia when they share MANY similar characteristics #(questionable backgrounds of working for mercenary groups; have hurt people; betrayed the trust of those close to them; committed #(lite) atrocities etc etc) #and yet mia is the one who has shown consistent regret for her actions and worked to change and she isnt perfect FUCKING DUHHHH no one is. #esp no one in resident evil YOU KNOW IM RIGHT ABOUT THIS! #but adas just fine going on exactly the way she is but mia has shown remorse and worked to change and leave that life behind #so really who is a 'better' character here #<- trick question i love them both ada is fun being morally bankrupt and mia is fun being a character who grows #you thought i was pitting women against each other didnt you! you thought i would make two bad bitches fight! #okay sorry i got away from myseslf here ive been watching too many snap cube streams #my point being. mia and ashley are literally fine. i cant speak to ashleys character writing esp with the remake not out yet #but mia despite the disaster that was villages writing at times. is a GREAT and SYMPATHETIC character who is clearly not the villain #u guys just hate women idk #sorry tumblr user precambrian-sea-pancake i have just gone on such a tangent which is just directed at the empty pews of a church #i will get off my soapbox now