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yelloworangesoda · 3 months
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gotta get off the internet and only interact irl with people who were 30 before they got their shit together i cant keep doing it like this
#like this being. feeling like i have no future and nobody likes me#‘youre only 19’ only goes so far when i dont know any other fail 19 year olds#im not gonna be a damn dentist for sure but like. and ive said this a thousand times. what am i gonna do. i cant live a worthless nothing#life where i work a shitty job i hate. i have to like something#i hate my art. i hate my lack of creativity. my art is so bland i just dont think its in me anymore#i finished. and i hate it#i have other hobbies. i like to cross stitch. i like to sew. i like to paint. i like to make dolls. do you see the common theme here#i have a few more than that i technically could do but i cant create anymore and it kills me. i want to. i constantly want to but i cant#it doesnt help that even if i havw ideas i dont even want to do them#i was gonna draw some characters from a game i played when i was little but i just#didnt want to. at no point did it not feel like a chore#ill try to go to new mediums! its fun to mess around and then itll feel boring again and going back doesnt feel any better#idk. googling it is useless. ive tried all the things. for years. ive been TRYING to draw consistently and like. doodles are fine theyre fu#but theyre not what i want to do i want to make something im proud of. i drew almost every single day for like 2 years#and its not burnout bc its been like. 2 more years! and ive barely wanted to at all!!!#i want to be creative and i also want people to recognize it. different complaint but it sucks so bad#i feel like nobody likes me. still. nobody cares about what i do. nobody would care if i stopped#like except me but i can only support myself so far!!!! im so tired of it!!!! someone PLEASE be here for me and just say ‘hey i love this#drawing :)’ like you have no idea what that would do for me#not always. but yknow especially if its been a while. if you like it. if you dont like it :( idk. you should tell me that too i guess#yknow so i can have some confirmation so i dont feel like im crazy. idk. dont actually id never go online again. i would probably. well.#i dont like to say the words#simons spouting#vent :(
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bmpmp3 · 2 years
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in theory im very good at reading but in practice i cant read SHIT unless its in the perfect font with the perfect spacing so buying physical non-comic books is So difficult. why do online listings never put a picture of the page layout. i need to know how bad your paragraph spacing is. can i email my local bookstore and ask if they can take a pic of a page. is that allowed
#comics im mostly fine with (although ive realized i read some things like particularly manga easier than others)#(like if you tell me to read a superhero comic i'll die. mostly because of 'creative' font choices (whatever was going on in batman year 1))#(but comics with clear simple fonts and generous spacing between the text and the edges of the speech bubbles helps a lot)#(and a lot of translated manga is formatted that way so maybe thats why? just theorizing tho lol)#but with written novels im a MESS#i need large spacing around the text to the edge of the page (1.5-2cm in mass market paperbacks is okay but if a trade paperback doesnt have#at LEAST a inch or an inch and half around the text blocks i'll die irl)#i also need the font to be a good solid medium or smaller size so large print books are out for me#also the spacing between letters needs to be standard but the spacing between words and ESPECIALLY the spacing between paragraph breaks#needs to be a little bigger#USUALLY  sans serif fonts are better for me but a good standard ass serif like times new roman works like as long as its clear and blocky#and the printing of the words needs to be CRISP like okay i wanted to read no longer human because of its influence#so i went to the store to check out the translated copies but then i was killed on impact when i saw how fuzzy and fucked up the text was#girl i cant read that. girl help.#AND LIKE the solution is obviously just reading more ebooks BUT I LIKE reading books physically 😔#easier to remember what books im reading and where i am in them that way jfklskfjdsa#sorry its just i love reading but my reading ability is mysterious and unpredictable HJKFLDSHJDKF#im trying to get a copy of phantom of the opera and im dying. not only are there 1000000 million translations. there is also...#100000 million different printings of the oldest public domain translation JFKLDSHJDKL:Ss#pray for me#luckily 99% of the books i read at least are from the library or borrowed from someone so i can check the font beforehand#but my library doesnt have everything RIP
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sstvrnioloo · 1 month
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stone cold - c.s pt.2 of "i'll beat her bitch ass."
pt1
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femvolleyballplayer!y/n x comforting!chris
warnings: cursing, crying, intentional lowercase, no grammar used (intentional), detailed brutal fighting, mentions of death, ig triggering topic, use of y/n (sorry?) ig angst???
summary: somerville won the semi-finals and amelia's team goes home. amelia should wish that she hadn't said that because y/n doesnt play when it comes to someone talking about her boyfriend. shits about to go down.
this is set in some random ass au that i can’t really explain😭
p.s sorry to people named amelia, no hate to y’all !💗
also be kind to others please !!
don’t like don’t read !!
find some other shit to do.
not proofread (a bitch don’t got no time for that shit)
this is my creative work and i do not approve of plagiarism in any way. i also do not approve of reposting my work onto other apps or anything of the idea. SSTVRNIOLOO 2024.
a/n: HEYY , so this is your surprise fic series ive been working onnnn ~ also my laptop stopped working so i don’t have the option of typing anymore, so it’ll be on my phone or ipad. (mostly ipad though) 💔
wc: 2k
enjoy !!
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im going to beat this motherfucker up.
how dare she slap me, tell chris is only dating me because im just a "good fuck", and saying didnt love me.
im going to beat her so bad that her nose is so fucking crooked. so bad that she cant speak. that shes hospitalized just as long that i was when she injured me.
after she slapped me i pounced on her. yanking at her hair & jaw to get her to look at me.
"whos laughing now, bitch?"
laughing, i bitch slap her right back and punch her in the nose. nobody even dares to fucking touch me. no one.
i jump on her pounding her head onto the glossy gym floors. throwing many punches at her nose and face, practically drilling my knuckles into her faceーwith. no. absolute. mercy.
i didnt care how bad her injuries were gonna be. i could actually care less.
my white jerseyーwell, previouslyーwas now splattered with her blood.
"yeah get her ass !!"
meghan yelled from the bench. i love meg.
nobody was really going to stop me. i probably looked like a monster.
"please stop!! im sorry !"
amelia yelped and screamed. i heard herーloud and clearーbut didn't give no fucks.
throwing punches directly at her nose, hoping to complete my goal of making her; already hideous nose; crooked as hell.
her face drowned of ruby red coloured blood. her mouth draining of blood and face bruised and cut.
i could practically kill her. but do i want murder charges though? no.
i looked at her twisted nose in proudness & enjoyment. he nose was perfectly crooked how i wanted it to be.
all this timeーwith out realizing itーi'd also been fighting off the refs and amelia's teamates. i was also tuning out the repeatedly blown whistle.
well too late. the damage was done. she was definitely fucked up.
its called payback, bitch.
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she surprisingly got up, stumbling around before she threw a hand at me. she punched my nose and scratched my cheek.
i felt the burning sensation on my cheek and my blood sprinting down my cheek.
“you motherfucker!”
she furiously yelled at me, with tears running down her face, mixing in with the blood.
my eyes shot down to the gym floor. it was one big puddle of blood. i grinned crazilyーlike a fucking serial killer.
we were both standing in fighting positions, ready to quite literally kill each other.
i caught chris’ big blue orbs staring at me. he was also grinning. he knew the rivalry that me and amelia have; that’s why he never stopped me.
the crowd was chanting my name. they all backed me up on this rivalry comepletely.
our faces were both decorated with blood. but mine didn’t have tears streaming down them.
i knew i was going to penalized for the tournament. i most definitely was; without question.
this beef wasn’t with any of our other teammates, it was only between me and her. though everybody knew what amelia did to me last season.
the referees and her teammates finally pulled us away from each other. both screaming profanities at eachother.
but suddenly whilst she was walking back to her bench. she fell. its all because i knocked her outー
stone cold.
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as my coach walked me to the locker room, i heard cheering, applause and more loud chanting of my name. they all knew the beef between amelia and i.
i got to the locker room with my coach and sat down.
“you’re expecting me to yell at you or something, hm?”
my coach monique said.
“yep.”
“well i’m not. i’m so proud of you for beating that bitch up.”
coach monique laughed.
“thank you! i thought everybody thought i was a monster for doing that”
“you’re a monster on the court. but thatーthat was just handing pure business.”
“thank you coach”
coach monique walked back out the the court to settle my team and talk to the refs.
suddenly, chris walked in to the locker room.
“oh hey chris”
“hey baby”
he went in to hug me but i gestured no.
“unless you want blood on your shirt, i don’t think you should.”
“i don’t really care”
he hugged me tightly and i hugged right back.
“so how’d the fight even start y/n?” chris questioned
“well first she slapped me because i was supposedly “cheating” then told me that you were only dating me because i was a “good fuck” and you didn’t love me”
i explained calmly.
“that little bitch.” chris said low-toned.
“and that’s exactly why her nose is crooked as fuck”
i grinned, remembering how her nose looked.
“i’m gonna go back to the stands and get to car.” chris said.
“okay see you in a bit baby”
he gave me a swift kiss on the lips and walked out the locker room.
i grabbed a wet towel and dabbed at my cuts and bruisesーa burning sensation each time i dabbed at them.
changing back into my clothes and taking my sports bag. i head to the car and greet my friends.
i hated the media. and now they were following me.
i stepped out the door and walked to car where all my friends were. i ran up to nick first.
“hey babes!” nick said excitedly.
“hey nickk” matching his same energy.
group hugging lauren and angelina (angie) happily while getting tons of dumb questions from the media that was previously following me.
also greeting matt aswell, making sure to make him smile.
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parking into the driveway, me, matt, chris, and nick got out the car and heading inside the house.
nick and matt went to their rooms, leaving me and chris to go to our shared one.
“i need a shower” i said.
“okay baby i’ll go after you” chris said.
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i closed the bathroom door and started stripping my clothes off. once fully done, i stepped inside the shower, turning the water on and letting the water stream down.
the water mixed in with the little blood that was left on me. falling on the shower tiles.
i took my loofah and put soap on it and watched it grow soap suds on it. i got lost in relaxing feeling of hot water and sudsy soap. it just rejuvenated me.
..
hopping out the shower, and drying myself with my towel. i threw on my clothes that were laid out on the counter. i opened the bathroom door and felt the cold air rush past me.
i stretched out on the shared bed and get a call.
it’s from my aunt. she never calls me. why now?
“hey y/n it’s me”
my aunt sounded like she was crying. but why?
“yes auntie?”
“y/n y-you’re parents died.”
i dropped my phone on the bed.
no. this is some kind of sick joke.
my eyes darted everywhere, trying to register what i just heard.
they couldn't have died. i saw them last night when they flew to London.
when they disappointed me telling me they couldn't make it to my game. i had totally forgot about that when i looked around in the stands.
then, i broke out into a loud, ugly, sob.
chris’ eyes immediately shot to me.
“what happened y/n??” his voice laced with worry and concern.
"my parents- they-" i couldn't finish my sentence.
"take your time ma" chris said gently.
i could hardly believe my parents died. it just wasn't possible.
chris hugged me tightly and kissed my forehead, trying to get me to calm down.
i sobbed. i loved my parents so much. sure we weren't on the best terms with eachother lately. but i still loved them dearly.
and the worst part is, the last thing i ever said to them but "i hate you both"
"chris the last thing i said to them wasn't even i love you!" i wailed, still sobbing.
"shh y/n" chris calmed.
then chris just held me there. no words. no sound. nothing.
just silence.
he knew what had happened by the hints i dropped.
i just couldn't bring myself to say it. not yet.
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i awoke, wrapped in chris' arms. i looked over the time,
1:56pm
a solid 13 hours of sleep.
yet i still felt tired.
i had no energy. so many missed calls and texts.
i knew what they were all gonna say,
"We're so sorry for your lost! If there's anything we can do to help let us know."
well you most certainly cant fix those empty parental figures;
hell, i'm an orphan now.
so bullshit.
i opened tiktok bored out of my mind and started scrolling.
i saw a tiktok of a girl who looked around my age with both her mom and dad , doing a dance.
why cant that be me?
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i was at my desk a couple minutes later, hatching a plan.
because what if my parents really weren't dead,
what they faked it?
well its time to find out.
chris woke up groggily,
"morning ma" he yawned.
"morning baby" i answered swiftly.
"what are you doing?" he asked.
"we're flying to london."
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extra: soooooooooo this took so long for no reason but here it isssss.
school was beating my ass fr fr
but thank you for reading !!!
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ive been obsessed with the concept of merlin who actually runs away with freya because after she got injured he panicked and healed her right in front of arthur. so he panicked, again, and ran away with her to live next to the lake. and they do build their lil cottage and have a strawberry farm and some cows. and they also have time to explore their feelings.
and its the funniest thing, because merlin has also been slowly crushing on arthur, and that much is clear whenever he talks abt him to freya. it doesnt make her jealous or anything, just sad that she knows they'll probably never be together. that the only time that merlin and arthur do "interact" is when merlin secretly saves his ass every week or so. like merlin technically never left, but now he gets creative, uses glamours, learns shape shifting after helping freya with her own curse.
he gets to meet with morgana now, because freya urged him to not leave her alone in this mess, so now we don't get evil morgana (yay!). merlin also tentatively tries to do the same with mordred whenever they do meet with the druids, especially when they were figuring out freya's curse, and mordred grows on merlin, so we also dont get evil mordred (great bonus).
and another thing that ive also been obsessed with thinking is that when the great purge began, nimueh tried to sought out balinor since i think they were friends, being 2 magic users with special abilities (high priestess and dragonlord). and she ended up at ealdor just in time to see merlin be born.
and then they meet later on, and nimueh kinda doesnt believe that that's merlin from ealdor since hes in fucking camelot. but then the questing beast happened. and when merlin goes to kill her, she manages to shield herself last second. and feeling that great power that she felt when merlin was born, because he was almost glowing golden and so potent she almost dropped him when she held lil merlin, her brain fucking stopped. she cannot kill merlin. and so she does something that she almost did when she met hunith, and she understood in that little time why balinor had stayed with her, and nimueh decides to use the power she has for her immortality to ensure arthur lives. so now she will age like a normal human, gaius is alive, and so is arthur. and now merlin and nimueh are very awkward with each other.
especially when a bit of time later they end up meeting with the druids to help freya and theyre also helping nimueh. she felt as if her powers were weaker, but merlin was like "yh no ure lying u feel exactly the same" n leaves thinking nimueh is plotting. when in reality she actually did think her powers were dying and that fear made it seem as if it was actually happening. her mind played tricks on her, and she almost believed her magic was dying.
so after this lil nimueh interlude, lets go back to freya and merlin.
the funniest thing abt theyre situation is that. while merlin is obviously crushing on arthur (and brooding abt it cuz yknow), freya is just. "merlin, i think im crushing on gwen." "???? have u met her?" "no but ive seen her and she smells like a good person and also i like what i know abt her from you." "ok-" "also im crushing on morgana." "freya." "also elyan." "GWENS BROTHER????" "HES. PRETTY. YOU CANT TELL ME THAT NOT TRUE CUZ LAST TIME I CHECKED UR EYES ARE WORKING FINE."
i do think that when freya finally gets control over her curse and has her lil space with merlin, her true sunshine gremlin nature comes out and she manages to be more chaotic than merlin, just also more sweet. and dangerous. she can turn into a literal monster.
also. merlin and freya getting married. and having babies. twins. its been on my MIND non stop yall, this has never happened before idc abt kids-
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whiteoutzz · 4 months
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so this post... yeah i am having alot of fun. yeah nobody can stop me and once im done with the script i might just get to the longfic i have planned. yeah its fun
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[id: drawing of Arctic and Darkstalker standing in front of eachother; both of them have pointy shapes, with darkstalker's mane being much shorter and covering only the neck, while Arctic's covers the whole chest. Both of them have tufts on their foreheads and are looking at eachother angrily, Arctic bit more reserved while Darkstalker's anger is louder. Arctic has his wings pinned down while Darkstalker's are standing up. Arctic has blue string tied around his snout, while darkstalker has blue stitches around his mouth. Behind them there is a blue web on top of a purple background; but what covers most of it is a silhouette of Queen diamond, pure white with blue eyes, her wings spread out, iron crown with blue gems embedded in it. / end id]
(putting the story under the cut; cw for torture)
the general story is; before darkstalker kills arctic, he gets a vision clear enough it makes him stop. he sees his mother foeslayer, knowing she is alive. arctic still confessed but isn't physically harmed yet; clearsight confirms the vision but looks bit sad and confused, like she is hiding something from him, but can't tell why. darkstalker rips out bit of his scroll, but rest is confiscated so he can only cast few spells (breaking it would have similar effect; his spells would be very limited and small). he lets arctic go but follows him to the ice kingdom, enchanting himself to be invisible. he follows him for a while before getting distracted and eventually finds the tunnels; he frees foeslayer but almost as soon she is gone (and protected; he made sure to word the spell so she can't be taken back. he put it directly on her after all) and is caught by queen diamond. arctic is forced to marry snowflake again, and both of them are very miserable about it. its horrible. meanwhile darkstalker gets tortured in the caves. first diamond couldnt hurt him physically, but quickly she figured that one; he didnt make himself unable to feel pain, and two; he forgot to enchant his insides too. spell loopholes and all that she enchants him so his organs regenerate no matter how damaged, so he cant die trough that type of injury then stabs him through the mouth. she figures out more and more creative ways to hurt him later. one day she brings arctic, thinking that would be his final push, to kill his own son, but she is almost surprised how little arctic cares about darkstalker. he stabs him trough the mouth but inside arctic feels bit weird about it, especially seeing his son bleed blue. but he does not think about that. or tries to atleast.
but he tries to figure out a plan, especially that he was allowed to visit darkstalker after that, seeing that care wasnt there and he could be used as a tool of torture. but maybe he doesnt want his life to end like that. he offers darkstalker to make a plan to escape, but first he refuses. also maybe tries to talk with snowflake and while both still hate echother and snowflake is still rightfully angry for what arctic did to her, maybe they have shred of solidarity for once. and you know the whole thing with both of them already having partners and you know. things look bad but maybe darkstalker at some point will want out enough that he will agree to the plan, but for now; to be continued
(also "oooh why arctic now wants to escape even if he came back willingly?" sometimes u forget how bad things were until you experience them again)
(meanwhile in night kingdom there is a civil war happening, but i dont have details about it yet. but its fun)
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jackienautism · 11 months
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Do you have any ideas on what the counselors would do/be like post-canon?
i actually don't have much thought on this unfortunately ): im not very creative with this sort of thing
BUT. i will share this:
im a sucker for a kaitlyn/abi/emma relationship but realistically i just cant see them maintaining anything unless what happened at the firepit is addressed! abi doesnt necessarily seem like the person to be immediately outright with her grievances (esp relationship wise) but we DO see her finally snap a bit w/ emma in the storm shelter. so like. YES they absolutely have more to worry abt and deal w/ (especially after enduring that night), but!!!!! i hate that theyall never talk abt the goddamn CATALYST of the night's events! they teamed up on abi and that should be talked about more! and you cant tell me that abi doesnt feel like ??? a bit betrayed and shit by kaitlyn and emma?
however the self indulgent side of me thinks they remain together. esp as a trio. i also don't think really any of the romantic relationships among the counselors last
also see kaitlyn and emma sticking together if abi is killed. i have more depth opinions on this but. they feel connected through guilt i think
but yeah. in my heart all the characters remain close / keep in touch after the game but i unfortunately dont see how realistic that is. especiallt since most of them only really knew each other for 2 months before this night
i can of course see laura and max sticking together, i have a feeling after ALL THAT, they feel like they cant NOT be together yk? i also think the severity of the situation and laura's own actions actually finally hit her once shit settles down. and what Travis subjected them to. i think after a bit of being away from camp and away from the hackett's, things finally hit her and they hit her. hard. like. this girl will definitely need some therapy. but at the same time. who is she to turn to? i bet she would feel bad for using max as her therapist, so she probably avoids it as best she can. but theres really no one else she can turn to bc they just wouldn't understand
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lorillee · 10 months
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i present you the question of when during aa4-1 would phoenix have had the time to forge the evidence having been in police custody and unable to contact his daughter… plus half that case is parallels to spoilers so
real quick i would like to preface this with a comment on spoilers/implied spoilers: PLEASEEEEE do not spoil me 😭🙏 the fun of liveblogging is knowing like nothing and going in completely blind and the wording of this aggressively implies phoenix did not forge the evidence. to be clear im not mad at you or anything but if i am under a grossly wrong misconception. and im mad about it. please let me be grossly wrong and mad so i can be embarrassed about it later in the liveblog 😭😭😭 especially if that misconception is clearly something the game wants me to be under 😔🙏 like something like this is fine
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because it doesnt tell me anything about how im wrong or in what direction and ive already gone on record saying theyd better give me some sort of a reason for why he is the way he is. and if this ask had come from somebody who i knew hadnt played the game then id be like "well thats a valid question let me think about it for a minute" but this is very clearly "he didnt forge the evidence bestie 💀💀💀" it... its definitely a spoiler 😭😭😭 all i ask is that yall use a little bit of discretion and let me figure it out for myself (even if the text has to walk me through it personally. never forget my aa3 liveblog to my friend where i figured out godot was mias "dead" boyfriend as soon as diego showed up and did not piece together that he was mistys real murderer until phoenix literally said the thing about there only being some things you could see in the dark. and even then i was in denial about it 💀🙏)
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to be fair. at the later point it was almost 4:30 am and my brain had completely shut off and the amount of critical thought happening here was in the negatives. but still. actually wait since we're here i want to share my most favorite bit of dramatic irony from the entire liveblog
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to be honest my aa3 liveblog slayed and my biggest regret is not subjecting everybody here to it. REGARDLESS. since you have posed this question i do, in fact, have an answer >:]
consider, for a moment, phoenix's canonical messing with the crime scene. it doesnt take a terrible amount of creativity to figure out how he feasibly couldve forged evidence - he looks around, and with the added knowledge of the removeable bookcase and the fact that nobody else was in the room or has come up or down the stairs he's been in front of the whole time, figures that whoever killed the victim did it from the position of the secret entrance. he looks at the table for any signs of a struggle or blood and notices that one of the cards has been switched out. considering the drama that just occurred and the fact that he is a renowned poker player, he recalls exactly the cards that were there before and realizes that the criminal took that particular ace with him.
he checks the replaced card and notices that the back color is different - this is incredibly importance evidence incriminating the true murderer (somebody who is colorblind and/or was not present for the game in any capacity), so its critical that this remains as is. guessing the stolen ace had blood on it, he procures another copy of that exact card (you cannot tell me they only had two decks in the entire bar), gets a cloth or gloves or something and takes the murder weapon and presses it to the wound to get blood on it so that he can drip it onto the card. knowing that his time is running thin, phoenix hides the forged evidence somewhere in the bar so trucy can come back and get it for him. phoenix is taken in by the police for being the prime suspect.
like any good daughter, trucy comes to visit him in the detention center. phoenix tells her to go get something for him at where he's hidden the card in the bar (you cannot tell me that he cant do this because the guard would be paying attention to what he's saying - our clients have said all sorts of crap and never faced any sort of consequences for it) and asks her to give it to apollo during the trial. seems pretty cut and dry to me tbh
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gorematchala · 1 year
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I came back to Elden Ring for the first time since April last night and after giving it a lot of thought, I just dont like that game and I probably won't finish it. A lot of the problems I have are because of how I want to play the game in particular but theres some core design issues that bother me too.
I'm a DS3 lover but my biggest gripe with that game was that by the time you hit the Ringed City enemies do so much damage that theres no point in even having a health bar, and they take so many hits to kill they dont feel worth fighting. Elden Ring is the ringed city as a full game.
I had been trying to play the game as a dex/faith character with light arcane. Like just enough arcane to use dragon miracles and for the blood damage. The problem I ran into is that you need like 50 points in vigor minimum to play the game at all. Which at level 94 doesnt leave you much room to get creative with your stats. But theres no need to be creative anyway because I want to use the frenzy flame incantations, and they only work against other players. So I went on a big side journey last night to get the frenzy talisman, I met the 3 fingers, they taught me the truth of the universe, I promised to incinerate all that divides and defines, and then I redid my stats and shot eye lasers at an enemy in the beginning of Limgrave and did like 20 damage. Frenzy incantations are not viable for an offline playthrough. So why are they in the game at all?
We've been doing cosmic horror for a bit, and the King in Yellow has been around, so now you combine the two and let me embrace the chaos of a universe without order and you introduce this new type of magic as a completely worthless set of like 5 miracles. I get that its for PvP but I dont remember ever being completely barred from using something cool because it was meant for PvP before. I've played all the other souls games and never ran into this issue.
So okay, I concede and I give up on the fun stuff I wanted to do and I respec to all health and dex. And as I'm playing I'm like man it sure would be nice to have fireballs. But if I wanna add faith to my mix theres no room cuz I need to have 50 health and at least 40 dex and 20-25 stamina, but then I'd need a decent amount of faith; and mind in order to have enough bar to cast.
But then the "I hate open world games" kicked in and I was like wait why am I doing this
At 100 hours in I dont give a fuck about the story, at all. Half of it is too vague or confusing to mean anything to me, and the other half has been spoiled either by twitter or by me having to look up where on the giant map one specific spell or sword is. I dont know what a tarnished is or what the elden ring is or why I want to be elden lord or any of that shit. But i also did the whole Ranni side quest already, and before meeting the 3 fingers I was all on board for that ending. So like you get an ending in the first 50 hours and then you get to see that ending like 100 hours later? After going to gather great runes which are something, in order to repair the ring which is something? All just because Godwyn, Godrick, Goddamn, Godmeyer, Godfuck, Mequelliea, Mycelia, Micolash, Myrecideia, Melania, and the dung eater had beef with eachother 5000 years ago?
In DS1 an old lady tells you here's what happened, here's why its happening now, here's what u gotta do. And I go okay got it. Age of fire, rekindle that shit, say less. Elden Ring says okay youre a tarnished and I'm like what does that mean and the game is like ;)
The ultimate result of games telling you that you can go anywhere and do anything is that going places and doing things either ends up being overwhelming or pointless. Especially in a Souls game where I'm trying to piece together lore that I'm receiving out of order because of the open world. So I cant play the way I want, I dont understand or care about the story, I dont feel that seeing things is a good enough reward for playing a game like this, and I dont think I'm having fun at all anymore. I really just wish they would put Bloodborne on PC.
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hahahha
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Project Silence (2023) Official Trailer with English Subtitles | Korean Movie
silence for them
after fucking everyones brain up
no fucking way woodies
i got your award
800 dogs together will just kill people
and inject them with speed and set them on fire
and throw sharpened steel and blow up the brooklyn bridge again
and shoot your dad
and his 3 wives
and your child died
fight me now
and meter read her
17 gas stations brian would go to
and crack drop all of them
every other store had another wife
and fucked his great grandson zachy every other time
to shit
and pull his pants up
brian shit
to show he was gay
brian is gay
wont love agian doesnt give a shit
gives up his wives after
zachy takes them
and shoots them now
but zachy would mate with them before
i told him to shoot them
youtube
The Sadness (2021) Red Band Trailer | Zombie Horror Movie
holy shit
cut through tendon, she aint hurting me, cut through esophagus completly
knife scene
how to do it
with speed esaphogas, thought he was fucking me at the time
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uN-uCYFQCvo whole town of 1,400 of these giant men
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Mr. Incredible becoming uncanny "You wake up and see"
i would scream, and these people would run up then run away
it meant rape her
about me
and now the screams of those men in cars police sirens
fucking girls
to be 18ft tall after
then in the olympics to kill you
and stadiums to kill you
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BRGTVvOfzjs and gunner guys in their houses to kill you
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Best Death Scene Ever
getting one girl to do it was asking her on a date
and will follow you to steal yours until she is dead
fuck she knows it
i had to film it
with chuck
laughing my ass off
they would run them like steer to use them for meat too
first sex
then that eat them
and live
no society
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T973BPI4ZDY they would look like this, one who would say it
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sex then no society
and eating them, black teeth
meet them with that, and they will stand there adn talk to you
women sit on the ground, but will go up to you really fast to give you oral
that guy would say, wont talk
about what she just did
each area needed to do it
in his family
find them young and do it
hitler would
if motorcycles and scooters only last a few years
it might be smaller to bigger
to live
they will show up as anyone again
"got that kid" andput rocks in their face
to look like that person
i know, i know you know me too
they read what i wrote and say it after
guys say i know
the men in womens clothing say i know you know me too
the men in dresses say i know you know me too
and turn around
the old man with black teeth
and send the men in womens clothing at you
to go down and bite your genitals
on both men and women
with claw hands on it too
to grab it
for you to stay
one night in bandcock
and the older man brings out a oyster
opens it
and shows you pearls
got them out of older women, no men
tell me the tale
it was abortions of raped xenomorph
oysters
now shock them again
say no it wasnt
they blow it off and leave, wont listen
thsoe are the men who do it, the oral
yyounger
older are able to control them and take advantage of them
did it young wont do it again
then run at you to claw grab at your throat
if she did it young she was raped young
i would strangle people
and look like me
men talk to them all day
from different areas
it was what they were talking about how they would talk
and i get to go there now
and they leave on boats
wh osays it
really
black teeth
cant tell?
oyster
we rape you more
stupid to her
they would worship me
war ship, get it
now anyways or its different
i can be him
and send them at you
someone stole my cake decorating kit
fatima did and hobo bag gave it to anne marie
where
i said it
what drugs to se
x
are you only of
scottish, i cant talk i just go to fuck
or wht neighbor find them and kill them
or they war ship at you
you know scottish by now
what those people are
they are called scottish
biggest thing there
them
in the stands
all of them
for court
the judges chair isnt a stand
he is taking one at them
officers cant look it
where do they go to attack the officers
straight at them to claw choke them
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Awesome Cake Decorating Ideas
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these cakes are beautiful
then i heard i cant get any after
so why do i send it to you
and after the theft, lets give her big ears now
can we do it
no
she said yea
fatima should be shot
fake mask girls
matildas line with the full house girls
her line means descendants
cant understand
you are huffing something
illegally
i can kill you for my own safety as an officer
and other officers
your group is the only thing that surrounds you
the rest are assassins
who can legally kill you
and your family
they will be
and what cakes wont you see either
or be allowed to
you wont see this beauty in your life
and i dont need you to build me a house
rip up your own face you fucking nuts
i wont give you anything
anddd fuck yourself up
for doing it
crrack heads will
dont like you
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moonbinscirera · 1 year
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I feel like you would be the perfect passenger for me then because I always get lost even with a GPS when it doesn't work...
Omg taste... I would love to pick up more books with a woman of color centric character and YES bonus points for good gay rep pls 🤌🏼 I really do love fantasies as well 😩 omg an angst lover 💪🏼 honestly haven't read a lot of angst lately but >:) when authors aren't afraid to kill off a character I have got to say that's super refreshing 🍿
Ahahaha fake dating got that good spice to it...will never tire of that trope but I'm giggling at the kid fics... I can definitely see why you would not want to touch those with a 10ft pole 😂 👍🏼
I'm loving your ao3 search so much!! That's so detailed slay I'm just lucky if anything I like pops up for real - at this point I think I will just read anything out of desperation when I'm bored 😅
Slayyyy I think I'll continue looking into them maybe as a potential Christmas gift!! I'll also have to loon up ToonrificTariq then 👁 I'm loving the name already 😂
Screaming at how cool you are... Honestly watched GoT off and on only for the dragons 😩 - I'm cackling at how you can do it without looking although I'm sure you didn't miss *too* much 😂
I... am a fic writer 😩🫣 I don't think my stories are all that cool unfortunately... Most of the attention/notes have gone towards nsfw content rather than the sfw I used to labor over 💔 such is the woes of writeblr 😔
Thank you for thinking I'm studious 😂 I'm studying IT 🤓 I'm pretty sure I'll be graduating right before the gift giving starts off for this event hehe.. I cannot wait to be done for now 😭 homework and lectures are sooo boring at this point but the 24/7 working life... Ew! What about you (if you don't mind me asking hehe) 😳
xhxydhddhd at least if the gps breaks well be lost together shsbsshd
sometimes it feels like its a lil hard to find books with woc protags that arent realistic fiction and i hate that 😭 cuz alot of time the "realistic" setting they pick is one i cant relate to cuz i didnt grow up in the city or i wasnt the only black family in a whyte suburbs u know? so it takes like triple the digging to find something to connect to and it feel fun and not like racism porn 😭
anyway! angst is so good like its so satisfying and isnt there just something so so so like brain itching good about a homie being like please play pretend with me and then going oh shit wait its not pretend anymore actually?
im generally a rarepair shipper??? like in most fandoms i get into so its like i gotta be methodical and double back alot or else ill run outta content 😭 like even my favorite dynamic in svt is wonhao which barely anyone is checkin for 😭 (but quite honestly any less talked about hao dynamic imma jump thru hoops for like any of 95 line with him?????)
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can u tell hao is my ult like is it obvious? i prommi i like him a normal amount like an absolutely normal amount like i swear on go- [gunshot]
do it do it do it doit³
im telling u i was in s2-3 and kept being like who tf is that??? by s4 i was like if this unknown person is here its no worries theyll prolly die soon anyway dont stress dont stress
ah creative ppl are always hard on their own work tho! (i am too) i bet its cooler than u think! that sucks tho when attn doesnt go to the works u really want them too 😔 like nsfw is fun but sfw should still get some love 😔
ooo and luckily! u caught me in this month because i just applied to an online school to study health IT so i can actually say imma be studying something! starting in January im nervous 👉🏾👈🏾 BUT CONGRATULATIONS ON UR GRADUATION
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You know, I think we should all take a step back and remember that a good, finished, singular piece of media can actually be. Just that. A finished piece of media.
A good book or movie doesn't need tons of sequels or a whole series or show based on it.
Honestly I think we lost something when everything had started to be made with thought about how much you can make out of something instead of how good you can make it. I mean, many pieces of classical cultural works are exactly this, oneshots, singular novels, one single movie that this director did well.
And I don't mean it as some kind of attack on fanfiction, because I love fanfiction, I write fanfiction myself and I have committed a few "fan continuations" of stories. But well, we should remember that sometimes, fanfiction is best left to be just fanfiction. And it's not like this is a completely made up compliant, I mean think about how many times a sequel or a spin off ruined something? Or have a series started to get worse and worse with every season? Or when a sequel/spin off/continuation completely didn't meet the hype and expectations? If a story leaves you wanting more then, perhaps, this is what it was meant to do, it was meant to make your brain work, get you imagination running. An open ending is still an ending! Even if it leaves you unsatisfied, sometimes this is what the author wanted.
Really, the whole point of fanfiction is that it's not made by the original creators, that it's something that fits you. So if what you want is to see the story go a specific way, see a specific scenario isn't it better to just write/read fanfiction than ask for an official continuation?
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Hello! I really like your headcanons, and I'm excited for your fics. If it's possible, can I request some headcanons for Karl's lover getting hurt/killed by Ethan in a way similar to Dimitrescu's daughters? I have a serious thing for angst, and it seems like Karl's a goldmine.
oof nonnie ur gonna give me feelies with this one. 
Karl reacts to his S/O's death at ethans hands
-what can i tell you? he reacts about as well as one might expect. in private he breaks down, screams and cries out your name, cursing ethan winters with every fiber of his being.
-In public he seems more composed, but scratch the surface and you'll see he's become worse in every way without you. he's more violent, more sadistic, shorter tempered and angrier than he's ever been. He chain smokes, refuses to eat and drinks more than he ever did with you. If he showed up to a lords meeting drunk as a skunk i wouldn't be surprised. Simply put, he's coping badly and without you he just doesn't care anymore.
-things go flying and i don't just mean because of his magnet powers. When Karl first hears/sees the news, he throws things like alcina threw her vanity ( must run in the family), anything he can get his hands on until wherever he currently is looks like a bomb has hit it, total unbridled destruction.
-Karl is nowhere near as good at keeping composed as Alcina. when she's around ethan she makes jokes and although she's angry, she's still vaguely flirtatious (in a black widow sort of way)with him. in private we see she's still able to think with reason, telling cassandra , the families best hunter, to bring her his head. Karl however? Reason and logic go out the window, he's going to hunt ethan down himself and rip out his spleen with his bare hands.
-finding that Miranda has already killed him however, just sends him spiraling down. He wasn't strong enough to protect you, he wasn't able to convince ethan to kill miranda, he couldn't kill either of them himself. He feels inept, incompetent, inadequate and weak. every negative thing miranda has ever said to him comes to the forefront of his mind.
-Miranda has the gaul to mock Karl while he's in this vulnerable state. Really grind her heel into an open wound. she berets him for being too weak to protect you and take out ethan, makes jokes about how she's cleaning up after her children. i see her being motherly in a very harsh, condescending way. She tells him to be grateful you were killed before he had a chance to get attached and that he should be happy she's taken care of ethan for him.
-I see things going one of two ways. Either karl snaps or he falls into numbness and gives up on revenge:
- If karl snaps under the stress, miranda is going to find out what he's been up to: the army, the coup, trying to steal rose. She goes through him for a shortcut, karl fights like he doesnt care if he lives or dies. without you, theres no point. He loses, unsurprisingly but i dont think the fear comes until miranda refuses to deliver the killing blow. He cant fathom living without you, he wasnt counting on surviving long enough to have to find out what thats like. Sadly for Karl, miranda has gotten quite creative with her punishments over the centuries.
-If he lets himself succumb to despair, he simply becomes miranda's puppet. He has no interest in revenge anymore. whats the point? the whole point of being free was to be with you. and since ethan is dead too his life has no purpose. He gives into his fate at mirandas side, simply because he doesnt care enough to resist anymore
And then karl woke up from his nightmare, you were still lying there very much alive and everything wasnt terrible <3
i love angst nonnie but now ive just made myself sad so im going to write some comfort stuff for myself.
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You know I never saw anything relating to this series but what are your thoughts on Iron Blooded Orphans?
HOOOO BOY. places my hands on the table
(Sorry that I cant put this into a readmore bc Im on mobile;;)
I fucking hate it. Like honest to god it was so disappointing and depressing that I didnt even finish it (I do know how it ends and it doesnt make it any better). I literally never shut up about this but I'll never not be mad that it had the most beautiful ost and animation and the coolest worldbuilding (the whole story about the colonization of Mars and the poverty of those who lived there, the set up of an army of child soldiers who couldn't read, even the alaya-vijnana system??? All of it creative and so full of potential) and then they made the story shit
Why is it shit to me? The fact that it's just straight up suffering porn. I'm no stranger to sad gundam I have watched almost 40 years of gundam content in the last 3 or 4 years, I have cried my share and I know gundam is well known for being tragic. But IBO? Nooo IBO had to be sad as shit and it gives just little morsels of joy that it immediately kills off, literally. So instead of the theme of gundam, which is about human beings learning to understand each other to leave behind armed conflict, IBO is just like. Hey we're just gonna kill all the characters you like for pure shock value bc wr don't know how to writr
Another reason was the characters. A huge thing in gundam is that characters aren't good or bad except in a few specific instances because it's, well, war, and we're often made to confront the antagonists as people, flawed but also human and it's not that hard to even relate to them because of it. But IBO antagonists were straight up disgusting. The main antagonist was a literal pedophile, his best friend and all their army treated the people from Mars as literal rats. They were openly contemptuous of them for being children, for being POOR and for being disabled too. Like their only motivation is to squash everything that the story had that brought joy
Not even gonna get into how it really said "we're gonna drive in the point that children, women and the poor and disabled are the first and most affected victims of war and systematic economic oppression by showing children, women, the poor and the disabled explicitly suffering just because". Like the destruction of the Turbines and the deaths of Lafter were just. For the sake of hurting the viewers. There's none of the nuance you'd usually get in gundam, just outrage and no catharsis
And don't get me started on Mikazuki? People talk mad shit about Kira not having a personality (which to be fair, besides "fucking other ppl's girlfriends", he doesn't) but Mika's ENTIRE FUCKING PERSONALITY was being an enabler to Orca. He had potential too (I liked that he wanted to learn how to read! That was genuinely wholesome) but they had to just. Not do anything with it. Before you come to me and tell me Setsuna also had a serious, aloof personality🍰, allow me to remind you that Setsuna was traumatized, he was flawed, he was also impulsive and angry. Mikazuki had 2 modes, Orca and Horny.
ANYWAY I have more thoughts but I think that's the gist of it.
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minecraft endermen are really weird. theyre unnatural and make me feel off.
when i was a small child like seven years ago i would always play minecraft on creative mode and i made an ugly ass enderman "farm" made out of bricks. i had an enderman spawn egg and id just spam it and the enderman couldnt get out (so i thought). anyways having them in this enclosure was probably so i could feel "powerful" over them because to date theyre still the only mob in minecraft that makes me anxious. even above skeletons(which i used to have a horrible fear of (the real life ones not mc ones)) and spiders (which i still have a horrible fear of (again the real life ones not mc)). anyways the endermen just ended up completely teleporting out of the farm and i checked on my world the next day and they were all gone and i didnt appreciate it (this was the same world where my brother blew up my pets but thats a different story).
anyways back to endermen. besides the fact that i just didnt like dying and i did like building ugly structures, one of the main reasons i didnt play survival much for a while, or if i did id put it on peaceful, was because of the enderman. every time i passed one my heart would drop and if i happened to look it in the eye on accident my throat would feel like its closing up and idk why. if it sounds like im bullshitting you or not remembering correctly i swear im not because it still happens actually.
i play survival a ton more now simply because i enjoy it more, it feels like theres actually a goal to achieve, but i never really make efforts toward said goal(ya know, beating the dragon). none of my worlds are really created with the intention of beating the dragon, and therefore i dont have to worry about endermen. if i happen to be outside my house and theres one there, no worries i just wait for it to go away. it may spook me for a sec but im fine.
but recently me and my sister started a world with the sole purpose of beating the dragon. we may have cheated a little (like putting on keep inventory cause honestly we both suck at pvp and have died so many times) but its okay cause thats it. we still have to fight endermen to get pearls for the end portal. and so we were hanging out in the nether and made a little two block tall hidey hole and id stand by the front and taunt endermen to get them to come close so i could kill them without them being able to get to me and it worked really well actually. except for the fact that to get them to come near i had to get them to aggro onto me and to do that i have to look them in the eye and you know where this is going. and so i was like "it has been so long since i looked an enderman in the eye surely i cant still be scared of them" and i turn to my sister like "<sister> you stay in the hole ill get us some pearls"
so i go out and taunt the dudes and guess what bitch got the pit in their stomach from these fuckers!! thats right bestie and my throat started to close up and i started talking to my sister again but i could tell me voice was off from it and i dont know why it happens but it pisses me off. like theyre not even scary looking theyre just a bit odd. and i continue to do this and kill the endermen and it just. doesnt. stop. my throat keeps closing up and im not "in pain" or anything just inconvenienced like what the fuck dude its a bunch of fucking pixels. i dont know its weird.
and now this part is gonna sound super fuckin stupid but ever since i started watching dsmp i immediately got attached to ranboo (cc! and c!) and knowing that c!ranboo was half enderman made me really think "hm endermen arent that bad. granted i havent interacted with one in a while but still not that bad. perhaps my favorite hostile mob" because you know people get attached to characters and think dumb things. and then again ranboo's character straight up existing and also this one specific headcanon i saw that was like "endermen use telepathy to talk so when a player looks at them all their thoughts get projected into them and it hurts their brain :((" makes me feel kinda bad for aggro-ing them and killing them again even though its literally just some pixels dude. my brain is not kind to me about this stuff and its really dumb.
i dont know what about the endermen staring back at me sets off the sort of fight-or-flight that makes me unable to breathe for a second but its something. its not the fact that their jaws basically unhinge when theyre mad because the throat closing up sensation happens before that. it happens when i look at an enderman and it looks back up at me and holds my gaze. i dont know. i dont know why im worked up(even slightly) over a video game. theyre still my favorite hostile mob i think (not just because of ranboo honestly the other hostile mobs just kinda suck).
and also i like the idea of how humanoid they are. not human. humanoid. they have the basic aspects of a minecraft human- square, head, torso, legs, arms, eyes. most mc skins dont even have mouths anyways just eyes. but the endermen have these features differently than us. their eyes are unnatural, legs and arms too long, body all one color, one that can blend in, and you can only see its purple eyes staring you down from a distance. theyre basically just cryptids.
despite skeletons and even zombies looking closer to the player than the endermen, they still seem the most human-like of all of the mobs. they arent aggressive unless provoked. they dont like eye contact(socially awkward). they like picking up stuff and moving it around. theyre curious (i cant explain this one they just are, okay?). even the sounds they make are just phrases like "hey" "hello" "whats up" distorted and in reverse.
i want to know more about them.
i want to know where they came from.
why theyre found in every dimension.
why they sound like us.
i want explanations, i want to know why they scare us.
i want to know if they know.
if they know that we're like them in some way.
that some of us dont mean harm, but for others thats all they want to do to the endermen.
i saw a post once that said "what taught humans to be wary of things that look human, but arent?" i believe the phenomenon is called uncanny valley. what if in the minecraft universe, the thing that taught us that was endermen. or rather, the thing that taught the endermen that was us? because again, the endermen pose no threat to us unless theyre provoked. by one of us. the endermen try to communicate with us- "⊑⟒⊬" "⍙⊑⏃⏁⌇ ⎍⌿?"- but we kill them without reason. thats why they dont like eye contact, its been ingrained in them through evolution that eye contact with a human/player will end in death, and they dont want it to be theirs, so they attack first.
we- or rather, the first minecrafters, maybe (in the lore(?)) people before the game, taught the endermen to fear us. i mean we literally kill them, use their remains to enter their home dimension, and then kill their leader/mother. they do their best to stop us, but we can respawn and they cant. and then, some people even go as far as to make farms, having them all spawn in one place, crowded, cant teleport out- their only defense mechanism gone- and then are slaughtered for their pearls. and due to the mass of these farms there will be chests upon chests full of pearls that no one's using, i saw someone the other day ask what people do with them and someone straight up said they just burn them like god what a waste.
"but izzy, players make mob farms all the time and not just for endermen!!!1!!11! why are the endermen ones so bad why are you only talking about those1!1!1!!!1" 1) because i can, 2) this is an endermen-themed post, and 3) i dont like the other mobs. and of course im not actually mad at the players who like beating the game and making endermen farms and such, i mean thats what it is its all just a game just a bunch of code, 0's and 1's, so why does it matter why bother writing a whole post on it?
because when you look paste the game, when you read in between those ones and zeroes and discover this non-intentional lore, it can make things so much more,, interesting. this is fanfic material. hell, its probably fanart material too. its all for the content to see what the community can create i guess. or maybe i just really like talking about endermen and this has been on my mind for two days now and once i started typing i couldnt stop.
but yeah, thats my final thoughts.
we, humans, experience uncanny valley about the endermen.
but the endermen experience uncanny valley about the players.
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Chara, the fourth Blook cousin:
A crack theory that accidentally become way more serious than it should have because it somehow, despite my best efforts, ended up making sense
Brought to you by my idiot conspiracy brain (affectionate) and by encouragement from my Tumblr followers
Under the cut for the sake of your dashes and sanity
Ok here we go my very elaborate accidental theory, because in order to answer the complex questions simply you must first make simple things more complex or something
First, you need to know that Chara became a Blook cousin by adoption.
All of the Blooks are adopted.
Ghosts are not born into families, they make their own.
Got it? Great, because we’re about to start running
so first, im gonna make surprisingly uncommon claim in this fandom, and I am going to say that undertale ghosts are all dead
I’m taking the tiny details we know about ghosts and sprinting with them to new places
Ghosts also do not have souls I decided
Undertale souls do not work the same as souls in traditional mythology
So every ghost is soulless Unless and Until they become corporeal
Evidence: Monster souls cant exist without bodies, and ghosts are monsters, therefore ghosts cannot have souls without bodies
Further evidence: Asriel doesnt steal blooky’s soul, blooky is unkillable, we have no concrete evidence that blooky has a soul
What about mettaton? He only has a soul after he has completely committed to being corporeal and to a specific body.
Also maddy and mettaton are both only killable while corporeal
Im also connecting the dots we have about souls in a new creative way so let me live for a second
Additionally, i am going to claim that there are a lot more ghosts than just the blooks, some evidence given below
Theres like actual scientific knowlege of ghosts in the undertale verse which seems unlikely if theres literally only three or four
The underground is so much bigger than you think, theres that giant forest in snowdin, a large town in the ruins, the huge city of new home, who knows how much space in the large open areas of waterfall etc. Its really really big okay
Also based off evidence of blooky, we can conclude that ghosts can turn invisible whenever they want to and/or haunt objects to hide
So I personally think that ghosts are, generally speaking, extremely reclusive
And the blooks are just a special exception, a beautiful family, amazing for them
So anyway im going with typical ghost lore for now, for the sake of ease, so im gonna say ghosts generally come from monsters who are particularly restless or unsatisfied when they die
HOWEVER i dont think they remember being monsters or anything before being a ghost. They just kinda fizzle into existance with a fully formed personality and immortality while being unkillable and feeling vaguely uneasy
ALSO i personally think that chara was a ghost for a long time before they became a blook by adoption
Based on game lore, i think ghosts can possess any inanimate object and just kinda wear it? But it takes a lot of strong emotion to become corporeal
And chara is the super weird exception because they were a human not a monster.
They dont have a soul (i headcanon that their soul got destroyed when asriel died)
And they KNOW this, which is a huge part of why they kinda just... give up
Because they lost their ability to fulfill prophecy
Also, without a soul, they lost their ability to reset, so for the first time since falling underground, theyre subject to the relentless march of time
But theyre still weirdly strong and powerful and more emotional
ALSO they DO still remember being a human but they catch on pretty quickly that other ghosts dont have memories and because chara is stupid they just lie to fit in
Theyre too tired to explain themself, they just want to be alone and feel awful
Now back to ghost lore
Emotions are a lot harder for ghosts??? I decided
And they dont know why,, they tend to blame it on the soul thing
But realistically its actually more of the immortality thing making actions not have consequences and/or or not having a body so they cant have a sense of touch or have physical effects of emotion
They all know that ghosts just tend to be way more floaty and bored and numb
And thats part of why the blooks are so special
Maddy’s rage and Mettaton’s yearning and Napstablook’s misery are like... not great all of the time...
but theyre also way way more emotion than most ghosts have,,, they are just a family supporting each other, being as functional as they can,, just an emo(tional) ghost family
most ghosts barely do anything except like stare at walls but the blooks have their snail farm and that helps them have purpose and it is good
And they hold each other accountable and it is nice
So anyway chara just chills and is in a depression coma for a few decades before the blooks find them and are like “our child/baby cousin”
and they raise them for a cool minute
They are all very protective of the new baby emo blook
And chara doesnt get therapy but at the very least they once again have a family, and they decide they want to try to become corporeal eventually just like mtt and maddy
So anyway chara starts hanging out in the ruins a lot more and they finally tell the blooks theyre leaving to go become corporeal in the ruins
This is actually because they are trying to hang out with toriel
because they miss their mom ;;
but chara’s not gonna admit that to anyone, especially not to themself
And because theyre still repressing their emotions constantly and pretending to be fine, they cant become corporeal
And they hang out in the ruins for a long time because they feel guilty lying to everyone about everything
They still feel like its their fault that all the monsters are stuck underground, because they were SUPPOSED to save everyone and they COULDNT and it HURTS
But again, they are doing too much repression to use this guilt to become corporeal,
so instead they just kinda hide and watch toriel from a distance and cry
Blooky visits them the most, thats why blooky is chilling in the ruins so much at the start of the game
Theyre just there to visit their shy baby cousin ;;
Ofc they wont tell frisk about this because chara wants space and privacy and blooky respects that
but maddy and mtt also visit them a lot
Oh also when mtt and maddy start dissapearing, blookys mental health plummets as their family and support system starts to dissolve
Blooky was actually doing extremely well (for a ghost) for a long time, i headcanon,
but theyre doing the worst theyve been in a long long time during the game, because of family issues
So anyway, chara dissapears when frisk shows up, and maddy assumes this is becaude frisk hurt their fragile feelings
Maddy spends hours desperately searching the ruins for chara and cant find them and assumes that they had their heart crushed and went to hide and disappear in a depression coma for another few decades, and thats part of why maddy is so furious with frisk
Like,, to be clear, maddy is still jumping to conclusions and throwing blame around with no proof, but also, its a logical conclusion to come to
And mettaton has already disappeared too and been gone for a while, too, by this point, so it hurts even worse
But anyway, what actually happened to chara is that;
Because chara is a human ghost, not a monster ghost, normal ghost rules dont apply to them
And they can possess living things too they find out
Maybe they knew it a long time ago, maybe its a new discovery, but for whatever reason they end up possessing frisk and theyre like “what the heck”
And frisk still has most of the control
But now chara is like,,, “this is my chance, im a human again, gotta save the world for real,,,”
and they cant explain this to anyone without revealing their past
so they just chill in frisk’s mind while being super crypic and trying to figure out how it works
Pacifist route, this is pretty much exactly what happens
They manage to help frisk save the day
And in my headcanon, the no mercy route is started by frisk who is scared when faced by monsters attacking them
And then chara, who was aready hiding in a semidepression coma for a while, immediately transitions to a panicked “gotta protect this body, gotta protect my chance to be human, i died and threw away my chance to save everyone the first time, i CANNOT lose this chance again”
And so the combination of both frisk and chara is the genocide run
Because frisk kills in self defense, and whenever frisk hesitates, chara jumps in
Also theres leftover feelings from the whole asriel incident
Because again, ghosts come from monsters who died unsatisfied
And chara’s main source of unsatisfaction is how they were trying to get asriel to kill people before he died and then he didnt
So thats a strong strong feeling ruling them
So anyway by the time they both realize how bad its become they figure its too late and also the amount of LOVE has made them numb
And thats when chara who, despite everything, still has idiot hero complex and thinks they need to save the world
So, while panicking, they step in at the very end, and erase the timeline and delete everything
And also to clarify
They DONT HAVE this power at any other point in the game
Because, guess why
They become corporeal
Just like maddy, the no mercy route is the only thing that gives them strong enough emotion to spontaneously become corporeal
So they become corporeal and as soon as they have a soul again and can reset again, they just erase everything
Ok back to fluff
Post pacifist route, they are still a non corporeal ghost
They can still float around and look just like the other blooks
And it takes them a while to open up about things, but they do end up moving back in with blooky so that blooky isnt completely alone
And also they do way better with a family
Also they can float through the mountain and talk to flowey down below and bring him news
And now that they know about him, they can bond with him and explain that they dont have a soul either but that doesnt mean theyre worthless
Oh ALSO
The other dead humans dont have ghosts
BECAUSE
ghosts only come from restless dead MONSTERS
and chara is the weird special exception
Because they were a monster when they died
They became a ghost and asriel didnt because they were way more restless and stressed than asriel was when both of them died
Like sure, asriel felt awful, but chara was the one who was way more like “this is my fault, i CANT die now, the world NEEDS me”
So anyway
charablook the emo tween ghost and asriel flowey the eldrich goat daisy are siblings once more and they hang out and eventually they are okay and have a family again
Thank you for reading, this has been my thoughts on a crack theory that accidentally went too far
This isnt even everything, maybe i’ll make a part two eventually, but i promised to have this post out like two days ago, so i wanted to post SOMTHING
Anyway leave your thoughts if youd like
Im not looking for people to disprove it, i already know its crazy, i dont think it was intentional by the game writers, but i do think its a fun concept
thats the fun of it, so if anyone wants to run with it im all for it lol
Thanks again! Have a nice day!
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Yeah. That video. A liveblog by me.
• “we’re here, we’re queer, and the rest of it” love that energy Phil
• “do you know think we look like a couple of guys” boy you sure do
• Dan listen don’t make faces okay we all know what that sounded like there’s no need to make faces you’re making it worse
• haircut review: they’re fine
• “as a lifestyle choice, we were already locked down with each other” fuck OFF
• pineapple liquer and coke??? Bruh no wonder they were fighting at the liquor store that one time
• so Phil’s a fruity drinks man and Dan’s a hard and bitter drinks man. Somehow I agree with both of them
• “sugarfreak” ow. Ow ew ew ew ow ow
• oh my fucking god they’re really gonna do joint live shows twice a week I thought we were killing this brand boys can we go back to killing it
• I will not be listening to that you guys are just gonna have to tell me if I need to cross shit off my list
• a giveaway? Like the ones you did on rize where nobody ever got their shit??
• they’re... giving away... their belongings. Okay
• “the things it’s seen 😏” Phil I won’t hesitate to unsubscribe and unding your bell don’t fucking test me
• for fuck sake it’s been five minutes already can we please get to the video I’m dying
• Naiomi and Nia I’m coming for your fucking knees
• the HORROR MUSIC that starts playing when Dan starts talking about him and Phil on YouTube I’m crying
• “acknowledge the creativity of our audience and their unique way of celebrating their enjoyment of us” Dan it’s okay you can say we’re gross and weird
• yeah Dan stick your hand in that plush box. And other euphemisms
• obsessed with Phil letting Dan get the entire fuck out before censoring.
• “I’m a serious published author” 🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪
• “the coke is hitting” wow
• “Phil’s awkward hand” NOOOONONONONONO EW FUCK NO EW BYE BYE BYE BYE I CANT DO THIS
• PHIL DOESNT REMEMBER THE HAT FIC SCREAMING CRYING PUNCHING
• “we love that we’ve encouraged so much creative writing and art” Dan it’s okay buddy you can tell us it’s gross you don’t always have to try and justify it
• thank god Phil had the Phil card that’s all I’m saying
• so Dan would choke his clone to death out of fear and Phil would... make sure his clone had a good time. I cannot stress enough how much I hate it here
• “it’s not like it’s your twin” Phil for Christ sake
• “Dan vs Phil season 2” Dan it’s okay you can say it’s dead
• why is minion yaoi ringing a bell what does that mean what part of the Dan and Phil lore does that come from
• Phil shut the fuck up challenge
• no kick me again Phil knock me over put me out of my suffering
• okay Netflix and dying alone did give me a laugh this has been my quarterly Dan chuckle
• conflicting opinions about death in the Dan and Phil house
• I’m always whining about bringing back draw Phil naked but the sexy end screen dance can stay dead
• Dan was really obsessively into DDR and Phil is now building a house with him something doesn’t add up here
• “that’s such a Dan one” there was no need to say that... like that... god
• lapdancing... DAN FUCK OFF. OFF. FUCN IFF
• PHIL SHUT UP SHUT THENWFUCK TUP
• I hate it here I hate it here I hate it here I hate it here
• this stripper story feels illegal to listen to end me end my life
• okay this buzzfeed question wasn’t terrible it was pretty funny maybe the video is saved
• Dan Phil’s meaty legs have been trending around here for a long time don’t get it twisted
• okay Dan you’re ruining it shut up
• “it was in my head and I had to release it” the drafts would have been great, Phil
• dude we’ve been in the dark timeline for a while
• I think Phil really thought that onlyphans would mean “Phil onlyfans” to literally anyone but him
• “you want to do something to replace this as soon as possible” I’m glad to know Phil is also on team “make a fucking video for fuck sake it’s been three years”
• a bonsai tree under the stairs oh my god that’s so ugly I hate it
• oh my god the fake Dan made one is worse it’s somehow worse
• it’s literally falling apart Dan please you’re a millionaire just buy one
Fuck it’s finally over okay final review: it was kind of funny. Only a couple parts made me truly upset. Thankfully there was not any major curveballs. Overall, not a bad video, but please never do it again
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