#anyway breakdown over

[introspectivememories]

the funniest possible thing that could happen is if mercedes keeps hiring childhood best friends for their team and everybody's holding their breath waiting for them to tear each other apart like brocedes except it doesn't happen bc everyone else is normal about each other and brocedes is just that fucked up that they would've torn each other apart even if they were on different teams

#i like to think that in this hc both nico and lewis were waiting for the new team to tear each other apart just so they could feel like what #happened to them was an inevitability. except the new team doesn't tear each other apart and now they have to deal with the fact it was #their faults. not competing for the championship or the stress of being on the same team but just them. ripping each other apart for even #the slightest advantage. just them digging their fingers into the rotting carcass of their childhood friendship to hit each other where it #hurts. just them cannibalizing their childhood dream for even the most miniscule chance of beating each other. and what do you do then? #when the reason your friendship fell apart is bc you two couldn't put each other before the trophy? and what do you do when you know that #you wouldn't be you if you chose each other? what then? maybe it was inevitable. maybe it was fate. #auugh i love the inevitability of tragedies!!! this all came bc ppl kept saying that albon in merc would be brocedes 2.0 and like no!!! no #will ever be brocedes 2!!! nobody has the drama or the ethos/pathos/logos to be brocedes 2.0!! you dont have the frosties or the dreams or #greece!!! you dont have greece!!! and more importantly!!! nico and lewis were /weird/ about each other!!! no 1 else on this grid is weird #about each other the way nico and lewis were/are!!! nobody else is obsessed with each other the way they were!!! #anyway breakdown over #nico rosberg #lewis hamilton #brocedes #f1

[cubedmango]

toyota-sensei's halloween 2022 AUs (case1, case2, case3) — english translation

#cherry magic #my translation #i am So normal about these :) especially the third one :)) #ough i didnt reread it until recently and good lord (pun unintended) it hit me like such a train all over again #THE FORBIDDEN DOOMED LOVE....... WHAR THE FUCK #what happened to ''they will find each other in every universe'' . sensei please im gonna have a breakdown #anyways uhhhh enjoy im gonna . go look for other comics she posted i could maybe tl

[shima-draws]

Ghost Cora AU where he’s actually been following Law around ever since he died but nobody has been able to see him, so all he’s able to do is watch Law get hurt and suffer in silence. UNTIL, miraculously, the battle of Dressrosa ends, and for some strange reason—through some supernatural bullshit or maybe just fate—one person is finally able to see him.

Law is sitting on the deck of the Yonta Maria watching everyone party when Luffy comes trotting over to him. And Luffy plops down beside him and says, “I’ve been meaning to ask, Torao, but who’s that really tall blonde guy with the funny makeup that’s been following you around?”

And Law’s just like

#Meanwhile Cora is absolutely THRILLED. LMAO #Eventually Zoro calls Perona over and since her devil fruit power deals with ghosts. She makes it so that Law can see Cora too #(And by some bs he’ll probably be brought back to life somehow idk) #One Piece #Trafalgar Law #Donquixote Rosinante #Cora #Corazon #Luffy #Law: Ha. Haha. #Law: You’re shitting me right. #Luffy: ??? What? No? #Cora: LAWWWWWW 😭😭😭 #Luffy: He’s crying your name this guy CLEARLY knows you Torao #Law; having a mental breakdown: Uh. Uh-huh??? #Shima speaks #Sorry I’m coping. I’m coping really hard rn #Actually. I feel like I was more upset about Cora’s death than Ace’s. WHICH LIKE. YOU’D THINK IT WOULD BE THE OTHER WAY AROUND BUT #I’m very. Very weak for the unsuspecting father figure who dies trope #(Sideeyes Tony and Harry (who didn’t even die anyway but it was still Traumatic for Eggsy to watch)) #COUGHS

[fcntasmas]

the thing about ted lasso is it drove up in a bus, slammed right into me, and didn’t even stop to ask if i was okay because tonight’s episode took me by the face and said “our parents aren’t perfect and they never have been and it’s okay to love them the way we did when we were little and still be angry with them for the people they made us into and all we can try to do is be better and lead with the love before the anger” haha

#and i think that’s just mean! #since i’ve been literally having a breakdown over parental relationships recently! #woohoo! #ted lasso #ted lasso spoilers #anyway i’m sobbing

[i-dont-r3member]

Gotham war doesn’t exist Gotham war doesn’t exist Gotham war doesn’t exist Gotham war doesn’t exist Gotham war doesn’t exist Gotham war doesn’t exist Gotham war doesn’t exist Gotham war doesn’t exist Got-

#why yes I did just see pics of Batman 138 #ahahahahahaha this is fine guys I’m totally fine and not about to have a mental breakdown I’m the bathroom over this #*in #idk why I corrected that no one’s gonna care #anyways maybe if we all chant it enough DC will also just pretend it never happened and alls well that end well #<-delusional #DC can suck my big fat Richard #dc #batfam #batman #Batman 138 #Gotham war #Jason Todd #red hood #batfamily

[laylakeating]

PERCY JACKSON AND THE OLYMPIANS APPRECIATION WEEK DAY THREE | favourite episode → 1.05, A God Buys Us Cheeseburgers [insp]

#pjoweek24 #pjoedit #pjo #percy jackson and the olympians #pjosource #userstream #userrajan #userneptune #userneve #userjustine #tusercj #userbecca #usersadie #* #*gifs #*gfx #the absolute breakdown i had over this set.....jfc #anyway that is laughable now bc this is lowkey one of my fave things i've ever made HSJHSJHS #like idk i kind of ate this ???

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

some hasty Laughingstock ft. butterfly!Howdy for your mild enjoyment...

#i have this... scene in my head #where howdy is having a bit of a breakdown over his Yassification™️ #he just destroyed half his store w/ his wings and etc etc barnaby finds him curled up in the Back #howdy's all like 'i was such a handsome green.... now im this horrible blue w/ ugly black forearms blah blah blah' #and barnabys all '??? the fuck are you talking about youre literally stunning??? shut up lmfao ill make out w you' #and then i also thought Oh so butterfly howdy cant really fly #but what if he like.... does this cute lil flutter when he kisses barnaby #and it generates enough Lift that it makes him way lighter and lets him aaaalmost hover #because i think it'd be ADORABLE and im RIGHT- #anyway those are my thoughts behind these silly scribbles #scribble salad #laughingstock #yassified howdy <3 #i have soooooo much affection for laughingstock + butterfly howdy #barnaby and his girlboss gaslight gatekeep gorgeous husband <3 #he's ken & howdy's barbie #and he is Kenough <3 #and howdy is. uh. Barbalicious <3 #do i sometimes wonder why i lean towards viewing howdy more Feminine than the others? yeah #and then i immediately go 'bc its rad as hell and objectively Correct' (delusional) #and then i high five myself and move on with my day

[mob-choir]

If I ever end up wanting to curse someone... If I ever end up using my powers for evil... If I ever end up wanting to eradicate people rather than spirits... I wonder if there will be anyone to stop me.

Mob Psycho 100 | S2E03 - S3E10/11/12

#mob psycho 100 #mp100 #mp100 spoilers #kageyama shigeo #hanazawa teruki #kageyama ritsu #reigen arataka #i've had this in my drafts for exactly two months. when i tell you i lost my mind when i caught this foreshadowing during my rewatch #apologies to shou and his dad for not including them. i had a limited number of pics i could choose #so i went with the body improvement club over them bc the club was there out of concern for mob #while touchirou was there bc he was sent to deal with this and shou was there for his dad #not that that discredits the value and importance of their contribution! #anyway i'm off to have a breakdown over the final episode i'll see you guys in 3-5 business days 😵💫 #post.txt

[worm-on-the-moss]

I just want to fold them up in paper and keep them in my breast pocket

#i draw her different every. time. how!! #anyway the priest's collar came to me in a dream #as these things often do #as i was drawing i was imagining a “harrow and nona identical relations” au #gideon and pyrrha shoving them together for those awkward distant cousin photos you had to take at holidays #pov you're a 17 year old silver bullet who can meet a lyctor in battle amid insomnia and mental breakdown #and you are faced with incontrovertible evidence of your own babyness #meanwhile nona is skittish around harrow but camilla is holding a brand new 2b pencil over the camera to reward her if she stays and smiles #they're just!!! babies!!!!!!! and bombs!!!!! :(((( #the locked tomb #the locked tomb fanart #tlt fanart #tlt spoilers #the locked tomb spoilers #nona the ninth spoilers #nona the ninth #nona palona #harrowhark nonagesimus

[doctor-octiddius]

Rewatching "Our Man Bashir" and completely forgot about this. WHO DID THIS AND WHY.

#i don't think i've ever mentioned that i've been going insane over ds9 for the past month or so #and i'm still not finished with it. dodging spoilers for a show that ended decades ago is a skill #but #i need him in ways i cannot put into words #maurice's monthly gay breakdown #tw gun #maybe ? #i'm not sure. anyways. #i do NOT have a thing for guns but man. #i am going THROUGH IT tonight babes #deep space 9 #ds9 #star trek ds9 #our man bashir #julian bashir #my gifs yeehaw

[atomicnumber47]

i dont think he's used to it

#pokespe #pokemon #dexholder silver #pokespe silver #pokemon adventures #johtoshipping #idk if that counts tbh this is more him having a mental breakdown over people being nice to him #ah well #i imagine the shift of. his childhood straight into doing. Normal. Kid Things. would be the most whiplash inducing thing. #being invited to a Home with someones Parents. i dont doubt he was shitting himself the first time gold invited him over #plus i think there'd then be a whole load of messy feelings about it too. i dont think ... he's jealous.. if you are to understand me.. #its hard to describe. not necessarily jealous.. but it leads him to probably think of what ifs for the entire night that day. yearnin n all #anyways. is this too edgy.... i always liked these style of ....... things

[cookie-shmookie]

Regret.

#cookie draws #mk1 #mortal kombat #syzoth #art #sometimes I think about him in a way like do you think he actually hates eating ppl #I mean like yeah sure he do that in his fatalities n stuff but #He have the nicest eyes I think he regrets times when the bloodlust takes over #Anyways this was vent sketch I made durning breakdown might as well post for others to see

[that-was-anticlimactic]

[ID: a paper poster that says: “have you seen him? / now you have  :)”. there is a picture of Kenji from Bungou Stray between the lines of text. the picture of Kenji from the chest up. he is looking forward and smiling. he is dressed in his usual overalls. /End ID.]

☀️now you have☀️

#bsd #kenji miyazawa #bsd kenji #i: love him #sunshine child #i had a breakdown over him today and wrote about how he would be the element of laughter during the creative writing exercise #i love him sm #today was a rough day lol #not particularly great lol #anyways #take this #i love have you seen them posters #so much

[bisexuallsokka]

Sokka spots a weakness and lunges. He throws himself against Zuko, his hands on Zuko’s wrists, one of his knees moving up to help push him down. Zuko lands on his back with a surprised oof, and Sokka beams in victory from above, one knee bracketing each side of Zuko, pinning Zuko’s wrists to the ground above his head.

“Aha!” Sokka says, but the sound dies in his throat almost immediately as he looks down at Zuko, his eyes wide, his pupils blown wide, his chest heaving.

His stomach plummets somewhere fifty feet below them, and Sokka feels a little lightheaded.

“Uh,” he says intelligently.

(or, a Choose Your Own Adventure fic. featuring...love confessions? sparring? angst? choose your paths wisely and find out…)

#thats right folks we got choose your own adventure zukka!!! #because i have had parts of this as a wip for literally ages but i couldnt decide where to go w it so i am making you all decide for me! #anyway i am two hours late to valentines but uhhh heres my valentines fic #is it my best writing? no. absolutely not. in fact i will probably go back and change a lot at some point #but did i have fun writing it? also no. i had like two breakdowns and lost like six hours of sleep over two days #but also yes i had fun <3 and i hope you guys do too <3 i hope that makes up for it lmao #anyway. #zukka #zuko #sokka #atla fanfiction #my writing

[thebluestbluewords]

re-reading Mal’s Spellbook

Evie should be meaner, actually??? But also, a) Jay has totally fine handwriting in the spellbook, the font they chose for his writing is way more legible than the one they chose for Mal, and b) is this what the kids are mean about these days???

#me writing a silly little fic where Jay has genuinely awful handwriting due to like. undiagnosed dyslexia. #which is important for his school character arc because he genuinely believes that he’s bad at school #and also relies almost completely on his verbal memory of whatever they went over in class #he can debate just fine!! His logic is sound #he’s just #really slow at reading and his handwriting is genuinely atrocious #he dictates essays to the school laptop they ‘stole’ from the library #the others read assignments out loud for their shared classes #and like. He’s not stupid. He can cover for it. But the thing about being in school full time and covering for a learning disability #is that it’s exhausting and unsustainable #and going to lead to a breakdown eventually #even if that’s just failing a test #and being found out #anyway if anybody is still reading my older fic this is why Jay’s in the offset testing blocks in my ongoing cinderellaverse #he gets extra time on tests because of the dyslexia #he probably also uses a red filter over the page when he reads because that’s the breakthrough that helped my irl dyslexic sister #anyway someday I’ll actually write all of my school thoughts into a real fic

[even-disco-baby]

SOLA — Her Innocence, Sola— the anti-innocence— turns to face you. In the distance, you hear the tattoo of propellers, turning, sucking all the air. A strong wind whips her long, dark hair around her face. Her simple black gown billows behind her. The same gown she wore the day she resigned.

She has your eyes.

“Hi, Kim,” she says simply. “You don’t look well.”

PAIN THRESHOLD — Her voice is so familiar, and yet the moment she stops speaking, you cannot recall its sound, no matter how hard you try. And you have tried. Innumerable times.

AUTHORITY — What makes her think she would even *know* the difference between you looking well or unwell? She’s being presumptuous. She doesn’t even know you.

INLAND EMPIRE — She never will.

“I’m doing great, actually. Never been better.”

“Hey, I’m trying my best.”

“I’m *not* well. I’m so fucking unwell. I can’t take it anymore. Please, help me…”

“I’ll live.”

SOLA — “Hm…” She smiles apologetically. “Well, that’s all we can really ask for anymore, isn’t it?”

EMPATHY — She wishes more than anything that this was not the case. That you could ask for the world and have it.

RHETORIC — She tried to give it to you, and this is how you repay her? You’re gonna be in *deep* shit trying to explain that insignia you stitched onto her jacket.

“Um, about the jacket. It’s not what it… well, no, it *is* what it looks like. But I don’t— it’s— there’s nuance.”

“Is that really all you have to say to me?”

“I don’t know what to say to you.”

“Where are you going?”

SOLA — Her Innocence looks away from you, toward the wind. “Away,” she says, her voice distant and strange. “Yes… I’m stepping down, you see. The world doesn’t need me. It never needed me, really. It’s best for humanity to think for itself. No… it already *does* think for itself.”

She turns back to you with a small smile. The thought brings her peace.

PAIN THRESHOLD — But what does it bring *you?* She’s leaving you forever. Abandoning you for lofty ideals.

AUTHORITY — Let her go. Let her see how little you care. Don’t give her any satisfaction.

HALF LIGHT — Stop her. You won’t be able to live without her.

VOLITION — You have already lived almost all your life without her. You don’t need her. You have *never* needed her.

“What if the world *does* need you? Who are you to make that decision for the entire world?”

“Fine. Go. It’s none of my business.”

“So you’re just going to leave me behind again.”

“Please, don’t go. *I* need you.”

SOLA — “What else is an Innocence appointed to do?” Her smile turns wry. “You see? This is why I’m stepping down.”

Distant propellers turn and turn in endless circles. She glances toward them.

YOU — “Fine. Go. It’s none of my business.”

SOLA — “I suppose not.” Her voice and her face betray nothing. No sign of remorse.

YOU — “So you’re just going to leave me behind again.”

SOLA — “That was never my intention,” she says softly. “Surely you know that.”

INLAND EMPIRE — You will never truly know. No one will.

SOLA — She stares out at the horizon through the tendrils of hair that almost seem to threaten to swallow her. Her expression is strange and ambiguous, shifting every time you try and look directly at it.

YOU — “Please, don’t go. *I* need you.”

SOLA — She looks at you, and her eyes are full of what might be genuine sadness. But they could also be full of anything else.

“Oh, Kim… You must make do with what you have. I don’t know what else you want me to say…”

RHETORIC — What?! There are a million other things she could say! Forty-one years worth of possibilities! She could say *anything!* Anything at all… Even if she’d only left you a single word, it would be better than this…

VOLITION — It’s pointless to wish. Please, no more of this. It’s too sad.

“You could say that you’re sorry.”

“Say that I turned out all right.”

“Say that you’re proud of me. That you love me.”

SOLA — “Then I’m sorry.” She closes her eyes. “It was terrible of us to leave you alone.”

Her voice is utterly calm and emotionless.

PAIN THRESHOLD — No… Wrong, all wrong…

YOU — “Say that I turned out all right.”

SOLA — “You’re a good man despite it all. That is all I ever hoped for you.”

Again, there is no warmth to her words. No conviction.

VOLITION — Lieutenant… Please, don’t do this to yourself.

YOU — “Say that you’re proud of me. That you love me.”

SOLA — “I’m so proud of you and everything you’ve accomplished. You wear that jacket well.”

Her eyes have nothing behind them. A pair of two millimeter holes in the world.

“I love you.”

PAIN THRESHOLD — Your lungs seem to constrict at her words. Your chest hurts more than it’s ever hurt. This wind is hard to breathe in.

YOU — “No! Don’t you fucking get it?! You don’t love me!”

SOLA — “Then I don’t love you.”

YOU — “You should be *ashamed* of me!”

SOLA — “Then I am ashamed.”

YOU — “I betrayed you! I betrayed everything you stood for! I’m a fucking cop!”

SOLA — “Then I am betrayed.”

She proclaims it as dispassionately as she proclaimed her love.

YOU — “For god’s sake, *say something real!*”

SOLA — She just looks at you. The propellers keep on turning.

DRAMA — She can’t speak for herself, sire…

LOGIC — Of course she can’t. Of course…

PAIN THRESHOLD — Your lungs feel like they could collapse. Empty, crumpled, dark. Hot tears prick your eyes for the first time in what feels like a long time.

SOLA — “Do you understand now?” she asks gently.

LOGIC — She cannot speak for herself because you do not know what she would say.

There are many memories that you have been slowly recovering, little by little. Your mother will never be one of them. Her, the revolution, the aerostatic brigade— they all died before you could even comprehend loss.

AUTHORITY — You did not become a detective so that you could find your lost mother. You became a police officer because you did not want to end up like her.

VOLITION — She can neither forgive you, nor condemn you. She is dead, Lieutenant. She can only be what you make her.

RHETORIC — You’re asking your own echo for answers…

SOLA — “Humanity must think for itself,” she says again, turning again toward the wind. “What point is there in asking me where to go from here? I’m a failure. We all failed…”

RHETORIC — The revolutionaries failed their children, and the children are failing their parents, and all of them are dying, dying, dead… What’s the point in any of this anymore? I cannot argue in favor of any of it.

VOLITION — There is a point. There is a way forward. But you won’t find it here, Lieutenant.

“I hate you. You made me everything I am and then you just *left.*”

“I miss you… How is it even possible to miss someone you never met? It’s like someone ripped a part of me out and all I can do is bleed.”

“I don’t know what I am. I need you to tell me what I am.”

SOLA — One last time, she turns back to you. She slowly bridges the gap between you and reaches out a hand to cup your cheek. Her fingers feel like your own.

“You are whatever kind of animal you choose to be,” she says, so quietly that you don’t know how you can hear it over the distant roar of engines. “I cannot make that choice for you.”

EMPATHY — She died hoping that you would grow up with the freedom to choose to be whatever you wanted. Instead, the world that raised you hardly let you dare to want anything.

VOLITION — But you can still make a choice. Humanity can still think for itself.

#disco elysium #kim kitsuragi #swap au #should i tag sola? i kinda doubt i’ll ever need to use that tag again LMAO #anyway um. yeah. #tbh as fun as the swap au stuff is i wasn’t all that interested in it until my brain was like. SWAP DREAM SEQUENCE #and now suddenly i have like. lore for swap kim. #his breakdown isn’t bc of a breakup it’s over a crisis of identity #at first when he wakes up and starts inspecting stuff like his jacket and his notes #he starts finding out things abt his mother (a revolutionary aerostatic pilot who died and passed down the jacket to him) #and at first he’s like ohh i see im investigating her disappearance! #but he’s not. she’s dead. she died when the moralintern crushed the commune #kim grew up resenting both his parents for dying in a failed revolution #leaving him to grow up alone as a gay disabled seolite orphan #he became a cop and drank the moralist koolaid bc he didn’t want to be like his parents #and also bc he wanted to not be so powerless (and to be able to take shit out on other ppl just like canon kim) #but also just like in canon his experience in the rcm was just more of the same shit #he felt constantly humiliated and like a hypocrite and just compartmentalized hardcore #then he came to martinaise and saw the scars of the failed revolution and finally just snapped and broke down #he doesn’t even know what kind of animal he is other than he doesn’t want to be it anymore #so he pulls harry’s epic mind wipe binge and etc etc #anyway. coughs