#anyways that quote lives in my head. rent free.

[dropthedemiurge]

Some language comments for Gray Shelter [Episode 5], just like I promised!

"Do whatever/however you want to. (literally: 'Do it the way your heart desires') You do things how you want to anyway."

"I'm sorry" - the translation is correct, it's just it's funny how Yoondae's level of apology to his friend he just lashed out at last time + he wants to ask him for HELP, and all he says is: 미안 (mian). The most informal and short way of apologizing possible. He's so teenager-minded still.

Even when he asks "Can I leave my stuff in your dad's warehouse?" it comes out grammatically more of a demand, like 'Let me do that'. Yoondae is talking like someone who has a lot of walls and doesn't reach out to people, he doesn't talk kindly but he's honest and straightforward and he cries easily but he's very angry about it.

I especially love his facial expression, even when he's at his most miserable, he'll make it everyone else's problem, as if being pitiful is the worst thing that could happen to him. "I have no one else I could ask for help but you >:(("

Fun fact about Korean's sentence structure, when you quote someone or express your thoughts, you put your sentence this way: "quoted phrase" and then + "that's what they said/what i thought/etc". So oftentimes, I see Kdramas use that trick when characters say a phrase... and then take it back with "that's someone else's thoughts" or "that's what you thought I'd say, right? LMAO". It's funny how the translators' way of transferring this was using the word "Sike!" xD

"It wasn't a mistake to me." "If it wasn't a mistake, then [what]? Since you started talking [about it], let me ask you. So what if it wasn't a mistake? What do you want to achieve with me?" "Can I do anything about it? In the past or now, you're the one who runs away and avoids me. I asked you, can I make a decision (do I have any choices)?" "You made the move but you want me to decide? Fine, then. Let sleep together once and end it once and for all. Go wash up first. I don't have time, I only left office for a short time."

The way they both care about each other but their dialogues and words are very sharp and bitter almost all the time, especially here, aaaah. That's the contrast that hooked me for all these 5 episodes. Soohyuk doesn't swear but he's talking to Yoondae very harshly and emotionless here, and for Yoondae harsh talk is the default, it's like Soohyuk is lowering his manners to talk on his level, to provoke him (or maybe that's also how he distances himself from the discovery that Yoondae has feelings for him).

And Yoondae is holding back his frustration and tears, but he understands the way such words were aimed to hurt him, so instead of lashing out back at Soohyuk, as he probably wants him to, he swallows and unusually calmly, almost softly says: "Let's talk when you can be honest. Because I will shut up and wait for you."

And it makes Soohyuk stand there in shock and contemplate.

I'll add next scenes in READ MORE since this post is getting long!

Here's the moment when the boss asks their youngest employee to write something more 'trendy' for their marketing text xD It's very true that trends in Korea come and go very quickly, they also love to invent new terms and phrases all the time. Like "MZ slang", there are many phrases, and the one trendy phrase the boss uses as the example is 킹받네 (king-pad-nae) which literally written as 'receive the king' but means "I got angry" - but with a teasing/playful subtext, like friends could say each other 'ah you're so cute, it makes me angry'.

If I'm not wrong, this phrase was widely used like 1-2 years ago and not really in its trendy peak as well right now but kudos to boss to even learning it xD And it's funny how translator chose to (I assume) use "[living in my head] rent-free" phrase as a substitute. Another fun fact, they ended up using some trendy lingo in their ad that translator gave us as "no cap!" but that part of phone msg was so blurry, I couldn't see which exact Korean phrase they ended up using x)

"Hyung, if you have any ask for help, say so. For you, 2 million... No, I'll try to give you until 3 million won in any way."

Can I just say that we had this character for one moment and I'm so not ready to let him go, I want Jeongwan to have his own storyline and everything and he's too sweet and also caring for strangers/his colleagues, and so he stole the spotlight for me xD

Yoondae said there's no food at home. But also, as you can see, there is: beer, water, rice that you can cook in the microwave, kimchi for a side dish and some other microwaved food. According to my Korean friends, typical Korean person (poor like student) can survive if they have rice, kimchi and also ramyeon. That's their the most basic food. Just a fun fact. xD

Also he was on his third can of beer, and he already made a drunken longing call on the verge of tears to Soohyuk, lying about being hurt and bringing trouble just so he'd return home. "Is that okay with you?" - just shoot me, please. :')

"I called [the cleaning service/you] to tell you to stop it [sleeping outside of home]" "Let's have that dinner [that I promised you] today. Wait for me."

After days, Yoondae was ready to give up, he "tricked" Soohyuk to return home just so he could tell him he'll move out and stop pushing any talk. And then, Soohyuk brought up the dinner (the feelings) that he kept avoiding. No wonder Yoondae looked so struck and confused. It just gave him his hopes back (and viewers too, but we probably should've known better with this kind of series haha)

Interesting cultural context: they are getting samgyeopsal - grilled meat, chosen by Soohyuk because Yoongdae said there wasn't anything he wanted to eat. And usually, the youngest one has to set the cutlery and grill meat, out of respect for the seniors. And here we see that Soohyuk is the one choosing the place, menu and even grilling the meat and pouring soju for Yoondae.

Once again, it shows that despite Yoondae's emotions and pleads, he is not mature enough, he is not ready to focus on other people. We know he can't plan his own future, he doesn't know what to do, and we see where their relationship stands now - Yoondae is still more of a burden than an equal partner to Soohyuk, and Soohyuk is more of a parent.

Even when they drink soju (in Korean drinking etiquette usually you don't drink alone, you toast together and drink together), notice how they don't even clink their glasses together, then Soohyuk is the only one drinking and Yoondae wants to follow him but puts the glass back. He's taking a shot later, when Soohyuk grills the meat again. They are totally unsynchronized at this point of their lives, and it's painful to watch.

"I said he [my father] was dead because that's the truth/reality for me. There was no other [hidden] meaning. I didn't plan to lie to you."

"I moved out completely. If I don't organize my life starting from doing this, then I don't think I'll be able to live like all the other [normal] people."

The fact that Yoondae started thinking about improving his life (the word 'organizing'), immediately made Soohyuk stop in surprise. So he started asking what does the normal life like others mean to him, hopeful to find that equal adult footing from Yoondae... but Yoondae's thoughts stopped there. And Soohyuk offered his own goal and life meaning: "to have a place to go back to, that's enough for me".

Here's when Yoondae thoughtfully agreed with him: "It's important to have a home", and took the meat tongs from Soohyuk, saying how high-maintenance he is. Yoondae embraced that realization, he took the responsibility (even a small cultural gesture) and even though Yoondae nagged him, Soohyuk smirked. Because it wasn't a completely hopeless situation. And Yoondae proved it, by saying how eating like this and going home together is his normal life as well. (and yet they were still unsynchronized until the very end! we can't have happy ending yet)

AND HERE IS WHERE I HAVE TO MAKE A SECOND POST! Because tumblr only allows 30 images in one, and I can't stop screenshotting the last conversation so I'm going to make another post that you can find in 'gray shelter comments' or 'dropthemeta' tags (upd. or here's the link to the post!)^^

#gray shelter comments #gray shelter #gray current #dropthemeta #kbl #korean bl #kactors #grey shelter #bl series #soohyuk x yoondae #language details #language #korean language #korea #korean culture #things you didn't notice

[syqy]

the man i was / what i have become

#syqy #ffxiv #fandaniel #final fantasy 14 #ffxiv fandaniel #if i stare at this any longer i Will Not post it. so here #throwing it to the winds before my self doubt can catch me #anyways that quote lives in my head. rent free. #the man i was would weep for what i have become................................................. #the self cognizance to realize ur so far off the deep end. but still not changing #rattles him in a jar

[stranger-awakening]

One Piece Episode 102 / Episode 377

"I might not have the same bounty on my head as Luffy at the moment, but I swear to you that I'm destined to become the greatest swordsman the world has ever known. Surely that must be worth something."

#one piece #zolu #i've been thinking a lot about how zoro's dream and luffy's are intertwined in his head and have been for a long time #like he's going to be the world's greatest swordsman For the king of the pirates and those two things will happen relatively simultaneously #and how he absolutely thought he was going to die in thriller bark for realsies but he'd rather that than the alternative #he'd rather give up his own dream Permanently if it meant luffy didn't have to lose his #that alabasta conversation lives in my head rent free btw that was so gay of him #anyways please ignore where you can see that i painfully tried to spot heal all the netflix stuff out of the screenshots lmao #i had to chop up the thriller bark conversation a little to make it fit in my four panel format obviously its longer than this #oh and quotes taken from the dub specifically which i know varies just slightly from the manga and probably the sub too #a:one piece #ship:zoro x luffy #mine

[supes9]

"If you were leading and you fell, and I couldn't hold you... I'd go with you."

#emergency! #johnny gage #randolph mantooth #roy desoto #kevin tighe #johnny & roy #squad 51 #this gifset was inspired by that quote from johnny to roy in s5 #when they're climbing up a cliff for a rescue #and before johnny starts up ahead of roy he pauses and says this to him in such a sweet and genuine way #and that moment has lived in my head rent free ever since #i was going to use that scene for part of this #but it's so dark and hard to see so i decided against it #anyway these two aren't leaving a rescue without each other ❤️ #nothing to it when you know what you're queueing

[thatoneweirdo14]

Okay but 10000 hours except its called 10000 years and is literally just hua cheng simping for xie lian

#change my mind #lmao you cant #listened to it yesterday and all i could think of was him #is it because it reminded me of him? #or because he lives rent free in my head anyway #we'll never know #(its both) #tgcf hua cheng #mxtx tgcf #tgcf #tgcf xie lian #tian guan ci fu #heaven official's blessing #tgcf incorrect quotes #tgcf hualian #hualian

[brother-emperors]

"when you marry off a son to the church, they're married to god's vicar on earth" lives rent free in my mind now, thank you very much! also, can't stop thinking of rodrigo borgia and giuliano della rovere as a bickering divorced couple, and it's too kinda your fault -_-

absolutely CACKLING at the idea of rodrigo and giuliano as a divorced couple because I've always envisioned them as two different types of monsters that despised each other and were intent on eating the other along with anyone else that got in their way, with giuliano coming out of that war winning. and it wasn't enough to get the throne (the papacy), he also kicked cesare to the curb after luring him back in. we love to see it! you can't buy that kind of hate off the shelves, you have to curate it and let it fester like an open wound! an absolute masterclass in driving in one final nail into the coffin of a family you despise. (there's a kind of dynastic rivalry subtext in regards to inheritance etc, between these two that makes them incompatible with the divorced framework to me. it's more of a eat or be eaten, destroy the pretender to the throne, etc etc in my mind)

ascanio sforza and giuliano della rovere on the other hand. they have an adjacent kind of divorced energy, to me. those two were rivals for so long (ascanio kneecapping della rovere by backing rodrigo in the papal elections, and it escalating from there), and only came together in the end (della rovere visiting ascanio every day on summer for conversation, hello??), and even then: that came with a hefty side of deeply unbalanced power dynamics of the julius caesar-clemency variety (fun fact! when giuliano della rovere became pope, he took on the name julius II in reference to julius caesar!)

wait--- you want to know who's literally divorced, though? ascanio and rodrigo. ascanio was one of the major players in setting up the lucrezia borgia-giovanni sforza marriage, and that annulment had implications, especially with how rodrigo kept trying to shut ascanio out of vatican politics. that didn't stop them from sharing the pastime of gambling together, though.

#actually i think i called della rovere ascanio's sugar daddy at one point. heugh. don't ever let me speak (continues to speak) #the funerary statue that giuliano had commissioned for ascanio lives in my head rent free tho. the eyelashes. wtf. #OBSESSED with how he's posed not in death but asleep instead. what's the point of being a pope if you can't commission #an artist to do a little life-death dialogue that challenges god. huh. after all you speak for god. #anyway i hate della rovere. also rodrigo. but that's to be expected. #ask tag #also re the borgia-della rovere monster conversation: what's most dangerous to a man who would be king? a conspirator #and to quote ilardi: ascanio did inherit his visconti ancestor's tendency to conspiracy #della rovere had a better handle on maneuvering that once he put on the papal hat tho #i guess the final FINAL nail in the coffin to the borgia memory might be della rovere winning over ascanio in the end #like. congrats on getting your rival-enemy's ex wife. #every day i look at myself in the mirror and go 'hey. say normal things' and then i describe catholic politics like this

[garlicbreadslice]

Jesus I’m on the frickin bus again because all my rides to school are dead

#heathers #heathers the musical #this quote lives in my head rent free #it’s just in there all the time #just chillin #I’ll be making a pbnj and my brain’ll be like: #JESUS IM ON THE FRICKIN BUS AGAIN #anyway #heather macnamara

[softfae]

Rin: And this is is my ex-boyfriend, Nezha.

Nezha: I told you to stop introducing me like that!

Nezha: I'm her husband.

#thinking about them AGAIN #literally living in my head rent fucking free #anyways this is very much canon #married rinezha has my heart #incorrect tpw #rinezha #incorrect the poppy war #fang runin #yin nezha #incorrect rinezha #incorrect tpw quotes #the poppy war meme

[centralpark1981]

my boobs have gone from a 36C to a 34B over the span of my health journey i’m literally about to weep and thank god and jesus and my mom like i’ve won best actor like ever since i was a little girl i wanted to have no titties and they’re getting smaller every day!!!!

#anyway now that quote from the social network about erica albright being a 34B as in BARELY THERE 🤓👿😤 lives in my head rent free #dear diary

[incorrectnewsies]

Les: Davey? Is Santa Claus gonna come?

Davey: Les, it’s April. And we’re Jewish

Les: Oh. So who’s coming?

Davey: I don’t know. Jerry Seinfeld?

#source: tik tok #newsies #incorrect quotes #newsies incorrect quotes #davey jacobs #david jacobs #les jacobs #the jacobs siblings #yes I am making this post after not posting for like two years without context #anyways see y’all in another two years #i’ll be graduated by then 😳 #really I saw this on tik tok and thought immediately of davey because he lives in my head rent free

[cheshire-castle-library]

Finally, NaNo is going well again x'D

#Space Opera Project #my big mouth #nanowrimo #nanowrimo 2023 #writeblr #this was the most fun writing ive had all month #its been a really rough NaNo so far #anyway bender quote lives in my head rent free #make my own with blackjack and hookers has been so enabling and empowering through college no shit

[pandora-whowalksbetween]

Ok ok ok as someone with DID I've always (well since the explanation of his birth) always seen satan as lucifers protective alter.

He took on the negative emotions, the rage so that lucifer could continue to keep his family safe in the celestial realm. He tucked away those emotions where lucifer couldn't find them. When they fell, one the rage created so much energy that he could form his own body but is that not another way he protected his host? He took the brunt of lucifers wrath so he could continue on doing what he needed to his family. I also see Satan's 'hatred' of lucifer as a form of taking on much of lucifer self loathing and self hatred

It's still there but it's bearable and lucifer can function

Aaaaaah i could write a book on this 💀

YES. YOU GET IT. THAT'S SATAN OBEYME.

I've never found it again but I read a quote from a tumblr post that said smth like "Your anger is the part of you that loves yourself, it's the part of you that knows you deserve better." And THAT is the omswd characterization of Satan.

#that quote lives in my head rent free #i also have this image in my head of like #fuck i just gotta draw it #of satan like. bursting from lucifer's back and blocking an angel's sword just as its about to kill lucifer #his first words are 'not. my. brother.' and then he fucking goes berzerk and lucifer can only calm him down when the battlefield is empty #but yes ANYWAY thank you– i've seen satan as an alter too but i dont have DID myself #anonymous #ask.tag #obey me satan #obey me

[chaosgenasi]

thinking about the creation of ruidus as we understand it so far, (i.e. an act of unification between the primordials and the gods), compared to aabria saying: “you see the blurred edges between what many know as the magic of nature and the magic of the divine. and you see they’re not distinct and separate entities. there is overlap. there is a blend, a mix.”

#basil.ramblings #i can't articulate it so this is going to be SO messy and i know this quote is kinda more dunamancy/power is power aligned #but it's so fun to compare the idea of magic before anyone gave it or was even around (??) to give it boundaries or labels #and the gods seeing exandria as pure chaos and potential & the primordials + the gods working together #(abandoned creations helping creators; which is so wild when you look at the betrayers joining the primordials) #vs the schism & all that followed regarding Literal Separation. i want to learn more about the primordials SO BAD #anyway the magic of exandria and this quote lives in my head rent free sdfjkg i love magic systems

[sangcreole]

i am once again here to push my own theory that louis’ dark gift was empathy all along

#i'm sorry but that one marius quote lives RENT FREE in my head #'the GIFT OF KNOWING OTHERS' SUFFERING with which louis had probably been born' #it makes SENSE #and it also makes sense why louis had such a hard time with his first kills and why lestat never understood #like yes louis has empathy but i think his turning made him into a literal EMPATH #(which is also why he connected so much with armand bc armand to some extent possesses similar powers w. his mind gift) #and i think it just makes his hunting style that much more Terrifying #because he is able to flip that empathy off like a fucking light switch #i think thats why i've always been drawn to louis in the first place though bc he's just full of dichotomies and contradictions #every other vc vampire describes him as 'the most human of us all' but then he turns around and he's a fucking MONSTER asdfgvhkgvf #ANYWAY sorry that's my rambling for today #louis being an empath and having no control over how many Human Emotions he soaks up but also accidentally spellbinding random people #i wrote a longer and more articulate post on my archived account but i cant be arsed to find it #*【 ❛How pathetic it is to describe these things which can’t truly be described. ❜ 】 ➤ Meta

[neverendingford]

.

#finally got to show my friend SAO abridged and he appreciates it omg I'm so validated #I watched that shit in high school and it's lived rent free in my head ever since #actual SAO is such shallow gamer-fantasy vanilla isekai but the abridged series actually gave them character and chemistry #like. yeah some of it is classic abridged series 7th grade humor. but then they have an actual emotional moment and you're like oh shit #anyway abridged! Asuna and Kirito give me perpetual brainrot and I want to yell about it so here I am #look. maybe two immensely fucked up and antisocial people can actually find someone who understands and loves them #you ever think about that? huh? maybe we can all find human connection despite how much we desperately push others away #maybe it's okay to crack a joke about your friend killing himself and the cry into the shoulder of someone who cares about you #wow I got way too personal over a fucking anime abridged series. you're welcome. #I just basically repeated what Yui says. I'm not original I'm just quoting the source material they literally spell it out #they're on YouTube each episode is like 12 minutes long you don't need to know anything about the anime to watch it #if you liked actual SAO I'm not sorry for dishing on it that shit sucked #both versions made me laugh at the 'let's get married' bit but sao wasn't trying to make it a joke

[victorluvsalice]

Yet Even More Not-Incorrect Valicer Nonsense: Occasionally Saucy Edition

Smiler: [throwing themselves dramatically over a couch in front of Victor] Draw me like one of your French butterflies.

Victor: [unable to help himself] Put you under a glass jar and do detailed sketches of your head and legs with annotations?

Smiler: . . .whatever turns you on.

--

Alice: [poking through Victor’s book collection] You seem to have a variety of “supernatural romances” in here.

Victor: [blushing and shrugging] Y-yes, well. . .

Smiler: [also taking a look] No judgment! Just -- well, we do have to ask a certain question now.

Victor: Yes, I tried Twilight. No, I didn’t finish it.

Alice: Ah, good, because I wasn’t putting on body glitter for you.

--

Smiler: We should do matching costumes for Halloween!

Victor: What did you have in mind?

Smiler: Well, with the new movie out, Batman’s on everyone’s mind -- and I think you’d be great as the socially-awkward Battison.

Victor: [small laugh] Gee, thanks. 

Alice: I suppose that means I have to be some version of Catwoman. . .and you’ll have to be the Jok--

Smiler: CLASSIC RIDDLER. THE JOKER IS A MURDEROUS ASSHOLE AND UNFUNNY TO BOOT.

Alice: . . .had a lot of people tell you that, huh?

Smiler: JUST BECAUSE SOME DICKHEAD HAS A BIG SMILE AND WEARS PURPLE AND YELLOW --

--

Alice: [leaving the house, gives Victor a hug] Bye darling.

Victor: [returning said hug] Bye love.

Smiler: [opening their arms for a hug] Bye bestie!

Alice: [giving them a hug] Bye goofball.

Smiler: [stands there frozen, arms still spread]

Alice: . . .you cannot possibly believe you didn’t have touch privileges by this point.

Smiler: I don’t know what to do with this information

--

Smiler: [examining Victor’s head] You know, between your love of having your hair petted and the way you react when someone sucks on your neck, I think your head is actually more sensitive than your --

Victor: [bright red] Can you stop talking now?

--

Smiler: [on the same couch as previously, only naked this time] How’s it going?

Victor: [hiding behind his sketchbook, in a small voice] It’s very hard to draw with all your blood rushing southward.

#valicer #victor van dort #alice liddell #smiler alton #the smiler #incorrect quotes #except not because all from my brain #not incorrect quotes #this trio now just lives rent-free in my head #I mean Victor and Alice always did #but now Smiler's freeloading on their couch #occasionally naked #and with opinions on the Joker #seriously they hate the comparisons #on the other hand #Smiler: I'd put on body glitter for you Victor! #Alice: Yes but you'd do that anyway #queued