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makabray · 3 months

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some postal dude gender headcanons since someone was interested hehe (i'm mostly talking about p2 here, but these could apply to any of the dudes probably)

trans postal dude is really fascinating to me cause i think he'd be quite a different character from a lot of modern trans rep. like, dude is a (relatively) older guy from from rural arizona, who was likely raised in a fairly conservative and religious household, so i think it's safe to assume that he wouldn't have access to much of the resources or terminology that we have now. growing up, he might've known a little about queer people from word of mouth and the few magazine articles he could find on the topic, but for the most part it was a lot of figuring things out on his own.

his adolescent years were really messy and all over the place, he definitely did a lot of experimentation during that time. a lot of sneaking out of his parent's house after dark to hang out in the back alleys with the other weirdos like him. during this time he was still closeted and figuring things, i don't think he really started presenting and identifying as a guy until his mid 20s when he moved away from his parents, and even then he had to go stealth. though keep in mind that's he's a broke bastard living in the middle of nowhere, so he had to DIY a lot of shit.

surgery of any kind is not an option, so that meant he had to work with what little he had. fortunately for him, he's able to pass fairly well with a sports bra, some rolled up socks, and baggy clothes. it's why he almost never takes off that huge trench coat he's always wearing, aside from it just generally being a source of comfort and pride for him. he also started taking hormones when he moved away from his parents, which i like to think uncle dave helped him acquire (albeit through dubiously legal means).

so maybe dude wouldn't make for "good" trans rep, but he's alive and himself against all odds and that's what i love about this headcanon

for dude, transitioning has its ups and downs. on one hand it's incredibly liberating to dress and act and be the way you've always wanted to, but on the other hand it can be quite lonely and difficult too. dude already has to constantly keep his guard up, constantly be vigilant of the people around him and how he's being perceived, but being one of the few queer people in a small town compounds that even further. plus i imagine that he probably has a lot of complicated feelings about his gender and sexuality that he doesn't really know what to do with on account of being really repressed and all that.

#postal #maka mumbles #i have more thoughts but this is getting really long so i'm gonna end it here #i have many hcs but this is one of my favs #it brings me a great deal of comfort as a queer person who spent a large portion of their life in the conservative south #i also have some art related to this hc i wanna clean up and post sometime... maybe Soon #SORRY IF THIS DOESN'T MAKE MUCH SENSE BTW its late and my brain is kinda scrambled #anyways. yea. i'll stop rambling now

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vvanessaives · 10 months

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so uh did some of kind of pre-interview for a job. i felt like they poured cold ice on me but the boss was surprisingly very nice to me i guess bc he knows my brother pretty well and the other girl taking my info was nice so idk why i'm still shitting myself about this. anyways next week they will give me a call or smth and we'll do an actual interview and yea. just hope everything goes smoothly

#rena.txt #first job interview of my whole life yea. i feel stupid for this. never worked a day of my life while i was busy with uni and this makes me #feel incredibly incompetent and shitty and stupid x2 but we keeping going forward u know. i really need soooo badly money to pay for a #master and i also regret that uni also meant inexperience for me but anyways i'm just rambling at this point #i'm not doing anything big (girl in unemployable degree) i'll work for this kinda bistrò/bar if everything goes well and yea!! idk.#i just wish for the best that is all. i'm scared of this thing but it's mostly a fear that i will never be able to do what i really want to #do and studied for. it's dumb idk. i'm not smart or good enough for this world actually!#i'll stop now aldjslfks

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u3pxx · 4 months

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WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT'S 2024?!?!

next, you're gonna tell me it's gonna be some made-up year like "2025" next. tch, imagine that.

anyways, whoo! 2023! compared to both 2022 and 2021, i gotta say, my art style took a hard swerve in some direction this year. i mean, look at that klavier from january and that butch kim from just this december! (granted, i heavily referenced the portrait of butch kim but still, i didn't use to paint! mama mia!)

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the way i drew faces has definitely changed, that's what i get for getting into something that's live-action and into smth that has realistically proportioned art lol

OH! OH! HOW COULD I FORGET!!! IT WAS (and still will be) THE YEAR OF THE OLD MAN!! i really learned how to draw aged faces this year! ach fraulein, i have not stopped drawing people in their 40's-50's! i would say "send help" but i'm actually having a lot of fun ASKSKS

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i think a funny thing about these art summaries i've done is that they're mostly ace attorney but then there's just a month where i become a different type of ill LMAO this year it was four months for the price of two new interests!

cheers! here's to 2024!!! hope y'all have a fun art year!!!!

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i'm gonna ramble more below about like, other art things i did this year but i'm gonna put it under 'keep reading' bc this baby is getting way too wordy now WHEEZES

1. FAVORITE THINGS I'VE DRAWN THIS YEAR (IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER)

⚖️ mea culpa comic [x]

drawing this one was so time-consuming and ambitious but boy, do i love the end result! i had fun doing the inks for this one but was it a lot! i usually color in lineart and render everything but i had to stop myself from doing it for this one bc man, i'll die asksks

this also has some of my favorite apollos i've drawn, definitely

also! the part about the lineart not being colored and no rendering ended up being a deliberate stylistic choice for this one bc i had like more freedom to do just shadows with inks without it looking too out of place.

💐 my lawfully wedded zine spread [x]

now this one isn't out yet but take my word for when i say that this is one of the most craxy things i've ever drawn for this year, on account of drawing a comic AND group shot all in one!

also literally one of the prettiest things i've rendered this year, lookit that klav...

🎉 aa4 redraw - 2022 anniversary [x]

kind of like my wedding zine piece, group photos are insane, and rendering like uhhh [looks at drawing] 11 CHARACTERS IS ALSO INSANE if i try and draw a group photo again you have to stop me DFGHDJ

🎨 my art fight stuff [x] [x]

was possessed in the month of july or smth bc i pumped out like how many drawings so quickly (before i got burnt out that is pftt)

pace yourselves and don't be like me pls ajshgdghhjk

💥 people park day [x]

my friend told me that it was very obvious i watched across the spiderverse when they saw this FDFGHJD

but yea! this is when i started getting really into like, thought bubbles or just like, panels or drawings within a drawing when coming up with layouts

i still love the colors on this one...

🪩 fem disco portraits

ok so i haven't uploaded these yet but you have to trust me when i say that something was in the water DFGHDJ

who knew that all it took for me to learn how to paint was butches

2. ALSO DID YOU KNOW THAT I SOLD STICKERS THIS YEAR IN OUR UNI'S ART MART?

THE ONLY GOOD THING ABOUT THAT SCHOOL I SWEAR PFTTT this experience has also awaken the merch beast in me and i need to make more physical things for my brain to be happy, that's just how it be pfttt

hopefully next year i can actually start like a shopee shop or whatever lmao

3. ART FIGHT

i'm actually quite happy i got to participate in art fight this year! very delighted for all the art i've gotten and very fun to have drawn for others too!!

4. ZINES

i got invited and joined so many zines from 2022 continuing to 2023 that i kind of got burnt out from participating for now ngl ASKSKSKS not gonna be joining much this year oopsiessss! (unless i lose self-control [very likely])

5. SCHOOL

i don't actually like a lot of the stuff i draw for art school bc i tend to cram and not have fun pftt <- adhd moment, tragic! but here are some that i actually kind of like lol

6. THAT'S IT!

i think that's it! thanks for reading all the way down here!! o(*￣▽￣*)ブ

#art summary #art summary 2023 #sunnysidedraws #sunnysiderambles

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silassinclair · 1 month

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Hello there! So this is my first time requesting since i just started following you. So let me tell you, your Yandere Wild West Outlaw got me absolutley smitten and obsessed! i love your writing so much!!

Anyway back to the main subject and on with the request.

What about Maddox with an EXTRA Sassy darling. Like, full of and fluent on sarcasm (the kind that makes you go: DAAAAMN). The darlin' has a sharp tongue and retorts for any kind of bad words might be thrown towards her (and maybe, way later in the relationship, towards Maddox too). From really polite f-u's to tge sthraightfoward ones, she can reply and roast anyone.

Oh and a bonus head cannon (a little something that came to mind) after reading about the wedding rings. I can totally imagine the darling going from questioning about where Maddox "buys" all the weird gifts to just becoming immune, later in the relationship. Let's say Maddox comes back (to the temporary) home with a very strange object, like A very expensive porcelain/china vase and the darling just goes: "oh thank you. Please put it on the table. I'll be done with the soup and then take care of it"

Yea anyway i'll stop rambling now.

Sorry for the bad english. It's not my first language and it is past midnight here.

Have a great day/night ✨

We love sassy girlboss Y/n’s here. Thank you for submitting this request anon!! Hope it is to your liking <3

Yandere Wild West Outlaw x Sassy Reader

CW// Y/n is a bully, Maddox gets his ego hurt, Maddox gets angry, Maddox is dumb

Masterlist

Maddox immediately knew that you were a spitfire when he first had a conversation with you. You weren’t the typical damsel in distress who when captured by the evil outlaw you’re forced into submission.

Oh no. There’s not a drop of submission in your body.

Maddox thought you would be useful to have around. You’d be his own personal maid! Maybe even like a housewife. But no…

“Clean my laundry if ya’ wanna live to see anotha’ day.”

“Alright alright, calm your tits. What should I clean first? The shirt with sweat marinated into the fabric or the undies with shit stains?”

“THERE AIN’T ANY SHIT ON MY UNDIES MISSY! IT’S DIRT!”

You’re a total pain in the ass. Whenever he tried to act cool or intimidating you’d immediately shoot it down with your words.

He hates it when you ruin his moment in front of other people.

He got really pissed after you made a jab at him in the middle of a duel.

“It’s just you an’ me boy. But we both know who’ll be standin’ by the end of this.”

“Hopefully it isn’t you.”

“SHUT UP Y/N! GET YOUR TUSH BACK INSIDE, I’M TRYNA’ HAVE A DUEL!”

Punishes you by tying you up and leaving you outside for the night.

He ignores your complaints about coyotes or rattlesnakes. He needs you to shut your mouth and give him some peace.

After that night of punishment though he noticed how you wouldn’t really talk to him often.

“Go shine my boots. And I don’t wanna hear a single complaint outta ya’.”

“Okay.”

“…”

Okaay so he fucked up.

The days drag on so slow without your quips and jabs! He never realized how funny the things you said are now that you’re gone.

Well you’re not gone, just more closed off now. But you may as well be gone. This isn’t like you at all to be so quiet and reclusive!

Maybe he was too rough in you? He did kill your Father and force you to be his housewife maid.

So doing what he does worst, he apologizes.

“Hey, ‘bout that one time I left ya’ outside. I realize that was silly of me cus ya’ coulda gotten eaten. So that was my bad.”

“So you’re sorry?”

“Yeah.”

He’s brushing Jasper’s fur, telling the horse how good he is. Cleaning Jasper is the only chore Maddox likes to do himself.

You’re sitting on a tree stump watching the man talk to his horse.

“You know Jasper’s a horse right?”

“Oh really? I thought he was a dog.”

The small smirk on your face after his little quip made Maddox feel like a million bucks.

That’s when he learned that he likes seeing you happy.

After the “Marriage”: (Read about it Here)

“Uhm what’s all this?” You ask your unofficial husband.

“This-”

He puts a brown sack down on the table. The sound of the contents inside clang together as he dumps it all out. A dozen chipped fine china plates come out.

“Is how we make our house a home sweetness. I hear housewives go crazy over fancy dishes n’ shit.”

Maddox stands there with a proud grin underneath his masked face. (He still hasn’t showed you his face yet btw.) He was like a dog showing his owner how good he is at retrieving sticks when playing fetch.

You look at him with an unimpressed quirk of your brow. “And where did you happen to come across such fine china may I ask?”

He shrugs and comes around the table to wrap his arms around you from behind.

“A buddy gave em to me.” His deep voice reverberates in your ear.

“Did you hold your so called buddy at gunpoint?”

“Would you be mad if I said yes?”

You groan and shakes your head back and forth. “Maddox you know you can’t just go around taking people’s stuff! Now the sheriff was probably alerted and is looking for you now. And why did you steal a bunch of plates!? Jasper can’t carry all this shit! We should only have what is necessary for survival you brute. Are you even listening to me!?”

But he only looks at you with lovesick eyes as you complain about how stupid he is.

“Princess did I ever tell you how sexy you are when you’re mad at me?” His hands go lower down your waist.

Rolling your eyes you smack his hands and leave his embrace, leaving him standing by himself like a kicked puppy.

“I have a meal to make so set the table with those plates you got. And no more stealing people’s things!”

“Yes ma’am.”

I appreciate all the requests that come in!! But I just want to remind all of you about my rules and that I do NOT write Y/n as a specific race. My writing is for everybody to enjoy!! She’s race ambiguous. Many people request that I write a Black Y/n but I’m not black so I won’t be doing that. If I write for a specific race then I feel like I’d just be stereotyping what black people are supposed to act like. So please don’t ask me to write for a Y/n that is a specific race. Thank you.

#yandere #yandere x reader #x reader #yandere imagines #yandere x you #yandere oc #yandere oc x reader #obsession #western #cowboy #maddox graves

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starluvsx · 4 months

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★𝐀𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐜

𝐌𝐚𝐭𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐨𝐥𝐨 𝐱 𝐟𝐞𝐦!𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫

Proofread:kinda...not rlly

Wordcount:2266

WARNINGS:throw up/emetophobia , panic attack, crying, this takes place before they’re like famous or wtv.also this is very long.

A/N:ntm on the banner idk what happened😭

“Guess where I’m going tonight”I said to the boy I was on the phone with.my best friend Matt.he was playing video games while I got ready.probably not paying much attention to what I was doing but definitely listening.

“Where?” he questioned as his face twisted into one of frustration.most likely because of the game he was playing.

“I’m going to hailys party” I cheekily said.smiling just at the thought of what tonight would be like.

“Isn’t that like all seniors?” he asked, concern lacing his tone.even though we were both the same age he always acted like my older brother.

"uh yea, i'll be fine dont worry.im not gonna like get fucked by a 20 year old or end up passed out in the street.im a responsible person matt."i rambled on

"i know you are but- shit...seniors can be pretty intense sometimes" the boy on the other line explained

"ill be fine dude, ok anyways, what outfit do i wear?" i said while show-casing two outfits that lay on separate hangers.

"im kinda in the middle of something right now"

"i dont care, just look for a second"

"y/n i litterally cant"

"matthew bernard sturniolo turn your fucking head this direction and help me pick out an outift or i swear to God"

"ok ok jeez" he said as he hesitantly turned to face his phone screen. "i don't like either of them"

"oh fuck you" i said as i put my phone onto its back so i could change into one of the outfits.

✧At the party

a large smile was painted on my face as i swayed my hips to the beat of the music. I've never felt more alive.the freshly poured drink splishing and splashing around in the cup i was holding, small droplets finding a home on my wrist. despite this being me being only a junior i was mixing well with the crowd.not feeling awkward or like i didn't belong for a second

a tap on my shoulder stopped my movements abruptly.i turned around to where the feeling came from only to see the girl that i came here with, Serenity. she looked deepyly upset which wasnt usual for the cheerful girl. "hey sese, whats up?" i yelled over the loud music.im not even sure if she could hear me.

"i feel sick" serenity answered. i quickly grabbed her hand and bee-lined it to the bathroom.she had been drinking alot.way more then me.and i was sure that what she mean t by 'i feel sick' was 'im about to throw up' and i want that to be no where else but the toilet.for her dignity and my sanity.

i banged on the door of the first bathroom i came across. "occupied!" someone yelled from the other side, forcing me to practically drag serenity down the crowded hallway to another bathroom.once we made it to the white door i realized there was no point in knocking because i could hear two drunken people going at it as if it were their last night on earth.

panic began to set in at the same pace as reality.no more bathrooms in sight. shit shit shit i mentally cursed to myslef as i looked over at a half folded over serenity. "y/n i think im gonna throw up"the blonde girl stated

i quietly mumbled "no no your not, please don't, not here" but my pleads were to no eval as once the words left my mouth so did all of the drinks serenity had earlier.it was all over me.my shirt and jeans and even my white shoes. i screamed in panic. tears spilling out of my eyes almost automatically.

as my eyes darted all over the place i noticed the bathroom door where the couple once were fucking was now open.i put my hand on serenities back and shoveled her into the bathroom, careful not to touch any of the vomit on my shirt.she dropped to her knees and went head first into the toilet at the sight of it.the sounds making me gag internally.

i slid down the wall behind me and sobbed.not being able to escape the vomit.i pulled my phone out of my back pocket and opened my contacts.i was about to call my mom to pick me up before i looked at the time. '1:48' it read. she was most definitely asleep. the scrolled through my contacts looking for someone that could come pick me up.

'Matty boy' was the name my eyes locked on, not even waiting a second before calling him.the phone rang longer than i would've liked it to as i pressed it up to my ear. please pick up i mentally begged "hey y/n." a sleepy Matt said on the other line.

i wasted no time "Matt please-please come get me"i choked out through cries.

"what?whats going on?are you ok?"he asked.now sounding more alert and awake

"serenity threw up on me and i-i don't know what to do.please just come get me.please Matt"i begged through the phone.tears sprung out my eyes and rolled down my face, leaving marks of dripping mascara to stain my cheeks.

"ok ill be there in a few minutes.wheres serenity now?"Matt asked.i hadn't even noticed her.i looked down from the ceiling i was staring at and locked eyes with her body.

"she's passed out...o-on the bathroom floor"i slowly got out.

"ok y/n listen to me very carfully,i need you to call haily and tell her serenity is in the bathroom passed out and that you need a chnage of clothes okay?do not leave serenity there." the boy on the other line stated very seriously. i mumbled a small 'okay 'before Matt began talking again "ill be there in a few minutes, don't move from the bathroom."he said before hanging up.silence now filling my ears.

✧Some time later

serenity was now gone after being taken to hailys room so she could sober up.i have a change of clothes on, some large sweat pants and a 'the smiths' t-shirt. although my clothes were now in the washer being clean from throw up, i couldn't get the thought out of my head.

this night, my first real party, had gone to shit.i was tried, scared, my makeup was ruined, my back hurt.i just want to go home. then as if my thoughts were read a knock came at the door. "come in"i lightly shouted.

as soon as the door opened and matt was visible i sprung up from my spot on the floor.hugging the boy before either of us could say anything.sobbing into his shoulder. "its okay.its okay.im here."the brunnete boy said into my hair

he held my back as we walked through the sea of people in order to make it to the exit.drunken others staring at us we walked by.i grabbed my coat which had somehow not bee touched the whole night, a dark blue zip up hoodie.i felt goosebumps go up my arms a I put it on.

the cold air hit my face unexpectidely.the winter weather sending shock through my warm body.a smile krept onto my face for an unidentified reason. i brought my arms over my chest and folded them. "why are you smiling?"matt asked while looking over at me.a smile on his face aswell

"i dont know" i answred with a small giggle.once we finally made it to the car i hobbled myself into the front passenger seat.the car was practically silent as he put the key in the ignition and started it.not much being needed to be said.

Once we pulled out of the carefully chosen parking spot I advised Matt to not drive me home seeing as my mom would probably kill me.a small hum of approval being the only noise to come from him.

This silence was soon followed up with an unexpected “thank you”from Matt. “For calling me when you needed to and not being stubborn”he clarified

A vocal response didn’t seem to fit the situation so I simply nodded in acknowledgment. “My parents are actually out on vacation so there’s no harm in you staying the night by the way, went to Maine or something.” He began to speak.I didn’t respond.only looking out the window infront of me.

“So what was it like?your first senior party?”the driving boy asked as he focused on the road infront of us.the street lights and cars illuminating his pale face.

“Well besides being thrown up on and having a whole panic attack it was pretty good.the drinks were alright and a few guys hit on me but besides that it was just alright”I answered his question.

“Not everything you dreamed of?”matt asked teasingly. Shaking my head no in response “Bummer.well now you get to spend the night with me” he continued as we pulled into his driveway.i never realized how close he lived to Haily.

Once we entered the house I was met with Chris sitting at the kitchen table. “Woah what happened to you”Chris asked.looking up from his cereal and phone.

“A party” I weakly answered.

“Oh is that y/n?”Nick asked from the couch as he turned his head around to face me. “Hey baeee, had a rough night?”he greeted and questioned.

“Rough Night is the understatement of the century”I grumbled as I opened their fridge searching for water.

“You went to hailys party right?yea those seniors are crazy.are those your clothes?”Nick rambled on.

“No these are hailys,serenity threw up on me.”I casually answered,shuddering at the remembrance of what happened.I stretched my arm out to grab the advil in their top shelf.

“Oh gross.you sleeping here tonight?”chris chimed in and asked.

“Yea, no point in going home and getting my ass beat.”I exaggerated

“Where you sleepin?”chris asked again

“Not with you, last time you punched me right in the boob, painful as fuck.”I retorted as I swapped the pills and water.

“Dude it was an accident!i was sleeping!”he answered as he threw his hand sup in defense.making me giggle.

“Not taking any chances”

“Well you can’t sleep with me.”Nick stated suddenly

“Why?”

“My bed is fucking lopsided and I have to sleep on the couch till it’s fixed” Nick said

“Just sleep in Chris’ room”

“He fucking attacks me in his sleep!”

“What about Matt?”

“He’s up too late for me, I need my eight hours but I guess this kid only needs 8 minutes” Nick answered my few questions causing me to lightly laugh

“Ok then I guess I’m sleeping in your room Matty boy”I said, turning to the boy who had just been listening to this conversation silently.

“Ok then cmon,I’m going to bed right now”he tiredly said as he walked in the direction of his room.

“I find that hard to believe”Nick shouted from his place in the couch.

I hugged Chris and Nick before following Matt into his room.

Upon opening the door I saw Matt face down on the mattress. “Jeez I didn’t think you were that tired” I joked as I sat down on the bed next to him.the calming blue led lights coloring us and the rest of the room around us.

He turned his head sideways to face me “I’m always tired”he mumbled.I situated my body so I was now laying next to him more comfortably.we then gradually moved ourselves to face each other while laying on our sides.his eyes staring into mine deeply.

"your beautiful" I whispered under my breath. ive always though Matt was attractive.not in a sexual way but the same way I think Alahna is pretty.but tonight was different.the way the blue lights bounced off his face, and how his messy hair rested almost perfectly on his forehead, or maybe it was how his dark, tired, eyes never seemed to look scary or weird on him.nonetheless he looked a way I don't even think I could describe if you put the words out in-front of me.

"your angelic..." I found myself say as my heart was taking action before my brain.i brushed some hair out of his eyes delicately with my fresh painted nails.he didn't respond, only giving me small smile.i caressed the side of his face with the back of my hand.tracing his facial structure.

"I love you" he abruptly said.the three words causing blood to rush to my cheeks rapidly.my heart besting faster almost as if on command

"I'll always love you more"I solemnly said.not exactly wanting to see his reaction to my words i moved in a little closer and closed my eyes.curling up and grabbing the covers.to my surprise though, after a few minutes I could feel his arm sake over my body and pull me closer.my head resting under his chin lightly.

then we fell asleep peacefully.silently hoping that if we were to never to wake up again that we stay together in the next life

#influencers #sturniolo triplets #x reader #youtube #celebrity #fluff #matt sturniolo #matt sturniolo x reader #angst #angst with a happy ending #chris sturniolo #chris sturniolo x reader #nick sturniolo #cute

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delicatereader · 6 months

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No Way! (flashback) - Anakin x reader

summary: you have a fight with your brother and his bsf Anakin comes to comfort you...

warnings: anger, kissing, family history

a/n: here's a little flashback to help you with part one. I don't thought of this really quickly and just rambled on. Haven't proof read it so yea.

"You always do this Ben!" you shout at him

"I'm only doing this for you..." he reacts calmly like always.

Ben has always been protective of you and he took some measures to make sure he fulfills his "duty". Your family comes from a line of jedis, who protect others and never have a negative emotion (or that's what you know). That kind of practice is ancient now, your beloved ass brother keeps it at heart to follow these customs. You've been the angry, negative black sheep of the family forever. Your brother says "be patient" everyday to you ,you don't know why though.

You went to a "family" gathering today (meaning seeing all the people who didn't give a shit about you and your brother and only invited you because of some stupid dna). You begged your brother, and tried your best not to go. However, your brother insisted on going. The minute you arrived at the event all of them your aunts uncles, cousins started degrading you and your brother to nothing, so your stormed out.

"How can you let them talk like that?" you ask him concerned for both of you

"It's just life, you have to ignore these things" he replies

"Why did we even-"

Suddenly the door opens, Anakin.

"Oh sorry! I'll come back later" he says frozen on the door step

"No you stay, I'll leave" you run to your room slamming your door in anger. You curl up in your cozy bed, letting tears fall from your face.

Few minutes later, you hear a knock on your door.

"Go away Ben!" you shout

"It's not Ben" the door opens creaking, revealing to be Anakin. His tall frame walks over to your bed and sits down before you could slam the door on his face.

"He told me what happend, he's sorry" he explains for Ben

"Then why isn't he here, apologising himself? huh?" you fight back

"You know how he's like!" he supports Ben more

"I do. He should know what I'm like! What I want! I told him we shouldn't go there but he took me to that shit anyway!" you yell. "He didn't even flinch at the things they said about us!"

"They said things about you?" he asks

"Yea! About me, him, our parents! basically called us orphans right to our face!" you explain

"Shit I'm sorry" he moves back up next to me, to the wall I'm leaning on crying.

"Anyway, why are you being so nice?" you blurt out

"When am I not nice?" he asks, then pauses to finish his own answer. "I don't know..."

"I haven't had a great life either..." He continues

"I've heard..." you whisper

"Hey savour your moments with him whilst you can-" he advises. Never knew he had deep advises and emotions like this.

"I know he can be an ass but he's your brother, he loves you!" Anakin explains

"He really is an ass!" you mutter

"He is" you both laugh, turning your heads to each other.

Suddenly, the moment stops. Slowly your heads close the space between you. Both of you are breathing heavily, you could feel his eyes on your lips and yours on his. You close your eyes, bringing your lips onto his. You look at each other before he kisses you back. His hands move from his lap to your cheeks, intertwining with your hair. You like the way he tilts his head and how soft lips are.

You run your hands up his arms and land it around his neck. As you move close to him, you both snap back to reality.

"I should go" he says after a brief pause

"You should" you confirm

Quickly, he gets up from your bed and runs to the door. Before he closed the door he looks back at you.

"Bye" you signal him to leave

You let out a sigh as you hear the door close.

"What just happend...?"

#anakin skywalker #anakin x reader #anakin skywalker smut #star wars #star wars smut #jedi #obi wan #hayden christensen #fanfic #hayden christensen fanfic #smut

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kaphzzz · 4 months

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i love your art so much! your bio says that your work is not created to be references, does this mean you don't approve of their use as such? i've referenced your art in the past, but i'll stop doing it if it's not what you want. keep up the great work!

tl;dr: I appreciate anyone wanting to use my work for reference but please ask me for permission before you do because i own it and it's basic artist etiquette. (also i may not grant it.)

hello again :)

ah! perfect opportunity for me to explain this whole thing! that was me throwing a tantrum in response to one particular case which was an artist copying one of my photos exactly as it is and was like hmm i'll sell this as a print, and i saw it by chance and was like no wtf thats not ur work to sell... and granted they did credit me but this, along with a few others things both recent and long bothering me, pissed me off enough I put that in my bio. like. there are ways to respecfully create something based off other ppl's work and ways that don't. also ways that just straight up aren't technically legal. i get walked on so much i forgot my rights to my own work.

with that said tho as long as my work is credited or its noted that the art is reference practice and not original art, and not like... further edited or interpreted in the same way an artist wouldn't want their art to be tampered with, especially the fake cgs i sold my soul to make, im mostly fine with it. also ask me for permission before hand bc there are things i don't want other ppl touching. i think i know what ur art blog is and im pretty sure you've been crediting and being very supportive so im okay with it :)

i could write a whole thing about how originality and effort and creative ownership in VP is overlooked but in short, my work are all individually a complete photographic piece that i intend for to be viewed as is. if, say, i blur an image or have little lighting or only include half a subject's face or whatever these are all intentional choices i make in attempts to create emotion and atmosphere etc. idk if i managed to communicate that clearly. basically what im trying to say is, judge me if you will, but i don't think it's selfish for me to want my work to be viewed the way i want it to and for ppl to recognise the effort i put into making it a creative original piece.

now this is just me rambling but in general, while i do appreciate that others will look at my work and think the composition or lighting or whatever is good enough to be a reference, i'm still bothered when thats all they can see (i.e. sees a vp work and think oh hey look what a good ref for my art!!1!), especially if they like see it reposted on pinterest and think its free for the taking…? baffles me how some artists are so aware of the ownership of their own work but fail to give others credit where its due.

a few links for anyone interested enough:

anyway wordspew over. sorry if this whole thing sounds angry but like. i'm angry. have been for a year ever since i started doing vp. mostly bc of the resposting but still. but yea anyway thanks again for this ask and for being considerate and the support! <3

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skyrimissol · 8 months

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Welcome to Skyrim.

How do I start this? Dear Diary? no that sounds like I'm some Nord child writing about a crush. Look, I don't know who you are but if you're reading this, you're either very bored or have a morbid sense of curiosity. So, let's just start at the beginning.

I was trying to cross the border and the imperials picked me up. To their mind, everyone not with them is a storm cloak. I mean, unless you're a Dunmer, then lumping you in with the other side just makes a convenient excuse for your murder. You may not want to read that, but it's true. In war, if you're not an ally, you're an enemy. No one is neutral. At least, not to the stormcloaks or imperials.

Anyway, I made my way out of Helgan and made my way to Riverstead. Now, I don't know about other people, but narrowly escaping death by rampaging dragons, really makes me consider what's important in life. And random drunks blubbering in the street does not even move the needle on importance

A random ranger making some comment about my ignoring said drunk ramblings did get the sharper edge of my temper though.

Come to find out his name is Bishop, and he was looking for his long-term companion: a wolf. That makes a lot of sense for his grating nature. But hey, I wouldn't want to leave the animal that I was super close to alone in the hands of bandits, so I agreed to help him.

The local merchant asked us to stop by a place called Bleak Falls barrow and recover some golden claw thing for him. Yea sure. why not. I'll add it to my list of things to do.

ANYROADS: We headed off to find Karnwyr (that's the wolf by the way. And I called it, he DOES like me more than Bishop, but I digress). On our path to find Karnwyr, we stopped off at Whiterun. I needed to pick up some spells and I had it on good authority this guy who worked for the jarl had what I wanted.

I was going to stop and talk to the jarl too, but he was busy in some sort of courtly meeting thing, so I just left.

I figured Skyrim was relatively civilized, you know, minus the giant magical lizards flying around. I was wrong. On our way to find Karnwyr, we were attacked by necromancers, wolves, and bandits. BANDITS! What the heck are the soldiers patrolling the roads doing? Does the Jarl know how useless his men are? Oh! wait! that's what they're doing! Bishop just reminded me of the Falkreath soldier and the Whiterun soldier that were fighting over a prisoner on the side of the road. *sigh* He got away while we watched. Their loss.

Along the banks of the river, we found a broken-down house with a shrine and a dead body. I did the sensible thing: looted the body and prayed at the shrine.

We were passing some ruins of a stone tower and might have walked on by if we hadn't heard some cursing and sounds of pain. I absolutely had to investigate. It was required. It seems this old, abandoned prison was a hidden Thalmor torture dungeon. Not Dibella's type of dungeon either, this one isn't fun, or consensual.

It seems the Thamlor's latest victim has a pair of lungs on him. We rescued and healed the guy, Kaidan by name, and helped him get his gear back. Many Thalmor died that day. I regret nothing. I probably should.

Oh! Here's something I remember that makes me shake my head. Bandits have zero sense of self preservation. Look, I expect wolves and other wild animals to attack us out of nowhere but BANDITS? IF you see three armed and armored travelers, they would not normally be the first choice of "targets" but bandits man, I'm telling you. So yea, we killed them and freed their prisoner because we've decided we're chaos incarnate now.

Kaidan helped us rescue Karnwyr. it was a very touching reunion. Bishop tried to be a tough guy, but you could tell he really loves that wolf.

The nearest town was Riften and we all wanted to sleep in a bed that night, so we made our way to town and the inn.

Riften, now here is a story worth preserving. The guard at the door said some drivel about "visitors tax" Kaidan offered to distract him while I picked his pocket. I opted to make the guard piss his pants instead and got him to open the door.

We made it to the local watering hole with little more than some local thug's attempt to intimidate us (the boy can't help himself but spill the beans about everything going on in town. I wonder how he gets off calling himself an "information broker". )

I got us rooms and was about to indulge in a mug of Black-Briar mead when I noticed a note. Something about someone waiting for me in Riften Jail. Well shit. Now my curiosity is piqued, and we all know that is never a good thing. So, I pack up and head to the Riften jail.

Some fast talking and a quick look around later, and I'm staring at a blue Khajiit who is convinced he tried to kill me. I don't know this guy at all, but he's absolutely convinced. Since I'm not one to kill an innocent man, even if he asks, I tell him if he wants to pay back some debt, he can work it off.

I gear Inigo (that's his name by the way) up with some stuff I looted from the bandits who jumped us, he grabbed a dragonfly in a jar, and we made our way back to the inn.

I'm going to get a bath and sleep in a bed. Tomorrow our band will make our way to Bleak Falls barrow.

#skyrim #modded skyrim #kaidan 2 #inigo the brave

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filmophilea · 9 months

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lost letters from the past.

if you’re reading this, i think i’ve officially gone mad.

maybe all those years of joking about it finally caught up to me and it's official, i am insane. cause there's no other excuse why i should be nervous in handing you this letter when i've already confessed my feelings to you. what do i got to be scared of anyways? i know how you feel about me. you’ve told me. but it’s been a long time since i’ve done something like this – because labels are something i don’t usually care for but with you it’s different. with you i want to make things clear. draw a line on where things are at. make it more.. official.

but if this letter finds you.. somehow.. when who knows when... know that i can’t stop thinking about you in days in which we’re apart, in the middle of my work day at 3pm, when i’m on the verge of falling asleep because this meeting is making me fucking doze off (yea, i’m writing this letter during a work meeting so what). now can't promise you that i won’t get on your nerves or that i wont make you cry. i might. i don’t want to, but i know i could be a pain in the ass sometimes. and i can’t guarantee that we’ll always see eye to eye on things. but i can promise you that i’ll behave today, on your special day. and that i’ll be on my best behavior when i finally meet sen. and that whatever you and your children (kiwi and the gang) may need, i’ll be there. i’ll be by your side when the birthday festivities subside. just to talk, if that's what you want. to say nothing at all from the high of the day, if you prefer.

what am i really trying to say here? i feel like i’ve just been rambling on and on and on.. i guess what i’m asking from you is if you’ll be mine? y’know.. officially. or something like that. would you be my girlfriend?

and i'll understand if you decide to burn this letter instead, to forget about it all. i'll be here regardless, just in case.

love you, always. ej

#written feb 12 2023 #keepsake for the sake of keeping?#iykyk #he actually might burn this one out but today wont be the day for it lol #inner monologue

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whumpshaped · 3 months

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your confusion is totally warranted! maybe I'm being dramatic when I say it's a dead language, I just mean literally nobody speaks it unless your family does. like it's very hard to learn, as there's like no translators or websites or anything. obviously I learned it because my mom spoke both of my languages. also I was forced to learn English, I can elaborate on that if you want but it's not A Nice Story. anyways my languages are Tsalagi and whatever Cajuns speak (Cajun French) i can totally elaborate on those languages if you want but I'll stop blabbering now

🐘 (i learned all the other languages I know when I was a teenager/adult)

AHHHH okay i see i understand what u mean now. yea that sounds like theyre endangered languages maybe? i think thats a term that exists? yeah thats rly rly sad that u have all these beautiful languages that r going extinct,,

i dont think i wanna go into detail on the Not Nice Stuff on the blog but im always interested if u ever wanna shoot me a dm! either on here or on discord :) and also u know i love language stuff, if u ever wanna ramble abt ur native languages i am Your Guy

#asks #elephant anon

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thatonewatching · 11 months

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Church Boy-Long ride

I walked down to the bus stop. I quickly realized it was way too cold for October. Freezing my dick off outside, I heard some footsteps behind me and immediately spun around.

A greasy-headed brunette approached at a weary pace, examining me. He eventually got to the stop and tried to peer down at me without being obnoxiously obvious. "Hey..." he muttered, not even looking down. Guess he was trying to give off the 'badass teen who doesn't care.' look. You know, he pulled it off.

"Hey..." I replied, just as monotonously as him. "So, you new?" he asked, stealing a swift glance. "Yep. Just moved into 402." I informed, shrugging my shoulders. "Nice, you believe in ghosts?" he asked simply as if it were a normal conversation. "Woah! That was quick!" I exclaimed. "I know. Just thought I'd bring it up. Kinda surprised you haven't seen anything yet." he admitted.

"What do you mean? Are the apartments haunted?" I ask, now very intrigued. "I mean, yea? I guess so. I've seen some shit. Especially with what happened to poor Mrs. Sanderson..." he let out a long sigh, obviously waiting for me to say something. "What? Who's Mrs. Sanderson and what the hell are you on?" I asked. "Did you meet Charley yet? Once you do, you'll understand. Anyways, Mrs. Sanderson used to live in 403, before she got murdered, that is."

"Murdered?"

"Shh, keep it down! And yea, murder. Charley did it. I was in there fixin' her toilet and he burst in screamin' like a psycho. "I know what you did, bitch! Herman told me everything!" she tried to calm him down, but he was already slitting her throat. Then he left." the brunette admitted.

"What the fuck... are you high?"

"I wish...This is some heavy shit, man."

"No shit..."

"Anyways, change of subject!"

"Alright? I'm Sal, I just moved here from Jersey."

"Nice, name's Larry. My mom's the janitor here. She gets a room in the basement rent-free with the maintenance gig. You should come down sometime, we could hang out. "

"Sounds good. Would today work?"

"Yeah, sure."

"Nice."

"..."

"Bus is here!"

"No shit."

"Don't be an ass, sit with me." Larry offered. "Fine, dork." I agreed, sitting down after him. He looked out the window and sighed, leaving a foggy mark on the cold glass. He then proceeded to draw a penis. A light chuckle could be heard from the giant of a man, then he turned to me and smirked.

More like a shit-eating grin if you ask me.

"Really?" I asked, giving a sarcastic eye roll. "Yep." he answered, shamelessly. "Dumbass." I retorted. Larry theatrically wiped his eyes. Through fake sobs, he muttered something. "That's...the nicest thing anyone's ever said to me!" he sobbed, burying his face in his hands and continuing to fake sob.

"Shut up." I exclaimed, punching his arm. "Ow, damnit." he retorted, grabbing where I punched him. "Pussy." I mocked. He smirked down at me, and we started rambling about stupid shit. Bands, school, favorite teachers, hardest subjects, crushes, video games, and more.

The bus stopped again, and Larry's demeanor immediately changed. "Fuck..." he whispered. "What?" I ask. "Travis." he answered, pointing at a blonde with tanned skin. He walked to where we were and sat directly parallel. "Larry, I didn't know you had a boyfriend!" the boy exclaimed. "Fuck off, Phelps." Larry responded, grabbing at his jeans and balling his fists.

"Or what, faggot?" Travis asked, smirking wildly. "Or I'll break your fucking jaw..." Larry answered. When I tell you a shiver went down my spine, I meant it. "You said that last week." Travis retorted, shrugging his shoulders as if not even concerned with Larry's threat. "And you call me and my friends a slur every day, get some new material, church boy." Larry responded, anger stifling. "Well, it's true. You and your friends are a bunch of homos!" Travis exclaimed, clenching his fists.

"Not all of us..." Larry muttered, giving me a glance considering he thought I was a twink. Which I am.

"All of you? So, some of you are fags? Gross." Travis jeered, stifling a laugh as he scoffed. "No, they aren't fags, Travis. They're people with names and lives. Now, shut the hell up you pussy." Larry threatened. "Fine, fine. Sorry that I offended you. I'll leave you be so you and your freaky ass boyfriend can eye-fuck some more." Travis retorted, attempting to sound serious. "First off, not my boyfriend, I'm straight. Second, didn't you kiss a boy? I think I remember-"

Larry was quickly cut off by Travis' words. "No! I didn't!" Travis exclaimed, drawing more attention from the other kids on the bus. "Just, shut up, Phelps." Larry exasperatedly said. "Whatever, queer..." Travis muttered, turning back to the window and looking out.

Larry had been looking out the window when I tugged on his sleeve so I could grab his attention. "What the fuck was that about?" I asked. "Nothing. He just likes to pick fights n' shit. I put him in his place when he tries me." Larry answered. "Badass." I mocked. "Hey," Larry murmured. "Yea?" I answered. "Let me know if he fucks with you. You're an ass but I won't let you get bullied." He said, a small chuckle coming after

"Says the one who draws dicks." I teased, punching his arm. "Yeah, whatever. You're just lame!" he mocked. I rolled the eye I could and laid my head on the back of the seat. I felt Larry stand up and so I did too. "We're here!" Larry sung. "Yeah, Hell." I finished. "It's not all bad, except Travis, he's a little piss baby." Larry mocked, making sure Travis could hear. "I am not a piss baby!" Travis yelled. "Whatever..." Larry said, "Piss baby..."

I chuckled but my mask muffled it. "Alright, I'll show you to the office and classes and all that."

"What are you? My dad?"

"Nah, but I am used to being called Daddy."

"Gross, dude."

"Whatever, dork."

"I hate you."

"You know you don't!"

"Is it too late to back out of this friendship?"

"Yes."

"Damn..."

He walked me to the front office, and I grabbed my schedule from the woman sitting at her desk. "Thanks, Mrs!" I called out.

(Originally posted May 13th 2023 on Wattpad)

"Church Boy." - Long Ride - Wattpad

#sally face #salvis #travis phelps #larry johnosn #fanfic #fanfiction #angst upcoming #nockfell #steve gabry #smut upcoming #wattpad original #wattpad link #fiction

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starboundsingularity · 1 year

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Um- hello there! Nice to see you guys stopping by my blog.

So uh- I've got some unfortunate news......

You see, as I'm writing this post, asks that I have yet to answer are slowly piling up in my inbox. And I'm starting to lose the motivation to write the prompts out. For awhile now, actually. I seemingly have no more ideas and don't have enough creativity juice in this noggin o' mine to actually produce anything else.

So, it is with great displeasure that I must announce that this au might be- discontinued. Which is really sad to me, because new people that are expecting *new* stuff are piling in! But I truly don't have the energy to continue this little project.

Well, now that it's kind of...over, for this. What happens next?

I figured that since I'll most likely not use the leftover concepts that's been cookin' in my head for this au- I might aswell share it with you all right now! So buckle up, buttercup. We're going out with a bang.

(WARNING: EXTREME RAMBLINGS INBOUND)

Okay! So, one of the more prominent concepts that I was planning on expanding involved mask and the rest of Team Cyan! For those who saw the post involving his headshot, you would have noticed that he was a bit...melty. And that's cause he is! And the rest of his team too!

Managing to survive the Nils Statue that started it all, Team Cyan stayed in inkopolis since day one. Surviving off of scraps and scavenging resources from abandoned apartments, they found no reason to leave. They were sneaky after all. Falling into whatever slime coated the city was the least of their problems. (And since the early stages of the ooze were relatively harmless, they were almost completely unscathed.)

Of course, the ooze slowly started to develop over time. And so did its potency. So without realizing- (or maybe they just didn't care) Team Cyan were exposed to the effects of the hive in an extremely slow process. By the time the hive reached a point where it could actually move around and "hunt", Mask and Co. Weren't even considered potential targets. To the hive, they were so close to the edge of joining that it cant even tell them apart from itself.

So yea! They're slowly yet surely becoming one with the hivemind. Woopsies.

Second major concept!!!

One of my favorite perspectives during the blog was with Prince and N-Pacer, and that was mainly because I was planning a huge story thing even before I started the whole blog!

For those who remember, they weren't able to recover Emperor and the rest of Team Monarch when the Nils Statue hit- as they were the only two together during the massive event. Prince is in denial, while N-Pacer assumed the worst. (Which played into her overprotective nature of his brother.)

So the thing is- Emperor is actually dead. Just gone. One with the cephalopod smoothie. And I wanted a moment where Prince snuck away from N-Pacer in the middle of the night to try and scavenge for himself, leading him to be isolated in the woods of Mt. Nantai.

And guess who's there with him!!!! That's right baby!!! The ooze is there!!!! And what can mimic voices????? THE OOZE!!!!

So using emperor's voice, the sentient Mt. Dew slushie almost lures Prince into an ambush- before N-Pacer manages to scare it away at the last second! She scoops up Prince, and a chase ensues.

They would escape, and would leave Mt. Nantai due to the fact that their safe space was now infiltrated. The duo would eventually meet up with Aloha's group, but that's about it.

And the last concept that I kinda scrapped rather quickly but I thought it was cool enough to include it anyways- there was a point where there would be a major twist in the blog where you guys: the askers- were the ooze all along!!! Trying to gather information about our protagonists to hunt them down! But unfortunately, it didn't make that much sense to me. How would they connect to the character's communication line? What would happen once they figure out the truth? Stuff like that. Alas, it was neat.

So! That's the end of it!

You all were an absolutely amazing audience, and I had a blast with the little time we had together. There's no end to the amount of thanks I need to give, truly! But this story needs to come to an end.

(Unless someone wants to continue it *cough*)

So, yeah. It's been fun everybody! I'll see you on the flipside.

-The Author

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iwaasfairy · 1 year

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Fae fae when did you learn to draw digital? Like do you have any tips I’ve been practicing but honestly it’s so hard haha

I remember sometime early 2021 I think you did a lot of haikyuu art and it was amazingggg wow

-🪐 anon

fAE FAE pLS dgusgfus I LOVE THAT??? heLP but uhmm honestly i think the main reason why my art looks better now is because i've been practicing my basics a lot? and like, its a constant battle to get better and hate your old art yk,, but i'm glad i did it and i can't wait to see how much i'll improve in the future! BUT! as for practicing tips, i would recommend splitting up exactly what you want to tackle first.

digital drawing is a very different skill than sketching. coloring is a very different skill. backgrounds are a skill in itself. drawing bodies,, etc etc etc,, and it was really frustrating to draw sometimes bc it feels like they all go hand in hand? but splitting them up and practicing solely on that- can really help make it feel more doable yk

also drawing on paper is v helpful to me personally. get urself a practice sketchbook, even tho they are two separate skills they kinda are tied together. if you improve one it will also show in the other

and yEA i did do some art in 2021 that i was really proud of. but i do gotta say looking back, those arts took me like 72 hours and so much references that it always felt extremely overwhelming and scary to draw. i like them a lot still, but i dont remember finding it very fun to draw back in 2021

and sometimes it's embarrassing for me to look back at old art and not shudder in shame, but the fact is,, that i was happy with my drawings back when i made them. he reason i'm not happy with them anymore is bc i've practiced, and become better, yk? for fuck sake, atsuko used to look like this (left) and now he looks like that (right)

be a little kind to yourself. it's hard to admit that you can be good at and suck at something at the same time. your improvement will be directly linked to how often you can stomach to be bad at something tbh hahahah i stopped coloring the way i used to in 2021 because i loved doing it but i actually sucked at it. and im still in the middle of practicing coloring, and most of what i draw is ugly and i hate it,, but thats okay. i hopefully will find value in it once i start noticing some improvement

anyway sorry for the ramble the point is, find your weak points and target them. and then, practice. practice practice practice. dont believe these tiktok artists who say "oh i started drawing in 2021" and bust out the most amazing portraits in the history of ever. that isn't the reality for most people;

#i just realized i didnt even answerthe first q: so 2015 is when i got my tablet #i only drew like 3 times a year back then bc of phone addiction #i think i started drawing a liiittle more in 2018-2020 #and then bc of my friends encouragement mainly 2021 had more art #my areas of improvement were 1) more complex body positions #(i used to only draw bodies standing bc i couldnt draw anything else)#2) hands and feet #3) coloring #and im still working on all of those but i'm having a lot of fun #honey mail #🪐 nonnie #im sorry i rambled so much itS late my brain is poop

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crazyf0rswayze · 10 months

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Darry x Reader: Fixer Upper pt3

Y/N POV

It was the day of my date with Darrel, and surprisingly my parents approved. My brother...not so much.

"If he fucking hurts you, I will make him regret it" Jack said.

"He's not gonna hurt me!" I say

"Does he have any siblings?" Jack asked kind of randomly

"He has two kid brothers" I say

"How old is he again?" Jack asked

"He's 20...this is completely legal ok?" I say as I pull my jean jacket on. I was wearing a (your fav color) dress that nicely hugged my curves near the top, and was a loose flowy skirt below my waist. Just then the door bell rang.

DARREL POV

I walked up to the door, checking to make sure my hair was still good.

I rang the door bell and took a deep breath waiting for the door to open. Y/n opened it. Gosh she looked so beautiful. She was wearing a really pretty dress that hugged her curves beautifully.

Y/N POV

"Hi Y/n" Darry said nicely. He was wearing a black tee shirt, with a nice pair of jeans. He had a tuff looking leather jacket on top. I softly bit my lip

"Hi Darrel"

"For the last time, can me Darry!" He said with a pretty smile as he chuckled.

"Hi Mr and Mrs Y/l/n" Darry said

"Hello Darry" my mom said shaking his hand

"Hello Darrel" my dad said shaking his hand as he gave kind nod hello

"Hello" my brother said from behind me, arms crossed. He slowly and hesitantly walked over and shook Darry's hand. Darry pulled him in for that hug buddy's give each other where you have your connected hands between you, and you pat each other's backs.

DARRY'S POV

"I promise I'll treat her good. I'm not gon' hurt her" I told her brother before releasing him from my strong grip. I smiled at him.

Y/N POV

After the awkward hug Darry gave my brother, we both started to walk to the Dingo for some dinner.

"What was that all about? The hug?" I asked the tall man.

"Oh that. Just wanted to tell him I wasnt gon' hurt you. The way he was standing was all defensive, so just made sure that he knew you're safe with me" Darry said looking down at me.

"Oh ok. Yea, he's really defensive and stuff" I replied, looking down and laughing

"I know youre not supposed to talk about exes on first dates but ...."

DARRY'S POV

As she said ex, I got worried. I don't know why, maybe I was scared she still had feelings for someone else?

Y/N POV

"...but there was this one time, at my old house, you know. I had my then-boyfriend over for movies. My brother INSISTED on watching with us, and there was no stopping him. He sat down RIGHT between Ryan and I. Ryan was his name." I explained

"My brother got up to get a drink, so I sat next to Ryan, and got close ya know. My brother walked in and saw me with my head on Ryan's shoulder. He picked me up, put me up in my room, and locked me in. I don't even remember how he did that! I heard him yelling at Ryan, and then he made Ryan get out. We continued dating, until he um...he stole a valuable necklace from a jewelry shop. I found out and I broke up with him."

By now we were walking into the diner. Darry opened the door for me, and we sat down at a booth.

"Sorry" I said

"Why?" Darry asked with a chuckle

"B-because one, you shouldn't talk about exes on first dates and two, I just kept on rambling. You didnt even get one word in!" I explained with a light chuckle, looking down

"It's ok. Don't worry about it. My youngest brother P-po" he cut himself off with a laugh. He started uncontrollably laughing. I started to laugh too because it was just contagious

"What? Why can you say his name?! He's your brother!" I ask looking at his pretty eyes.

"...my two brothers have REEAALLLLYYY weird names! Anyway....P-Ponyboy...that's my youngest brothers name, never EVER stops rambling about all the movies he watches and books he reads. So I'm pretty used to listening to people ramble. And I don't mind you talking about Ryan...this time. Next time you talk about an ex, you can go home" he said jokingly, as he pointed a finger at me

"Ok ok Mr. Curtis, it won't happen again" I say holding my hands up.

"Tell me more about your self Darry" I say

Just then the waitress comes over

DARRY'S POV

"What can I get for you two?"

"I'll take a cheese burger with a side of fries" I say

"I'll have the same as him" Y/n said

"Ok! I'll get that in for you two!" The waitress said to us. I turned my gaze back to Y/n.

"You could have gotten anything ya know" I said

"Yea...I know" Y/n said looking at my eyes

"Ok so! You wanna know more about me. Ok um...I have two kid brothers. The older one is Sodapop..." I paused waiting for her to laugh. She let out a breathy chuckle and then looked at me to continue

"And then the younger one is Ponyboy. Um..." I thought about something to tell her

"Oh! I played football in highschool! I was captain"

"Thats actually pretty cool!" Y/n said.

"Yea...I had a pretty nice scholarship for it." I said with out thinking

'shit...now she's gonna ask why I'm not at collage and I have to talk about my parents'

"Why aren't you at collage?" Y/n asked curiously

"Um...m-my pa-" she cut me off

"If it's something sensitive, you don't have to tell me Darrel" she said reaching her hand across the table, placing it on top of mine

"No no...it's ok. I feel like I should tell you...my parents died in an auto crash eight or so months ago, and I decided not to go to college, so I could take care of my brothers. And even with the scholarship I'm not sure I could go anyway because of financial stuff....parents gone or not..." I explained

Y/N POV

I felt really bad after he told me about his parents.

"I'm sorry Darry. I'm sorry that happened to you" I said, rubbing my thumb back and forth in his hand. He looked down at our hands and smiled lightly.

"It's not your fault..." He said

"I know, but loosing someone sucks"

"Yea...h-have you lost anyone?" Darry asked me

"Yea my-"

We were cut off by the waitress delivering our food

"Thank you!" I said with a kind smile

DARRY'S POV

Y/n smile was so pretty ...her cute little smile.

"As I was saying, I lost my grandpa 5 years ago, and a little before that I lost my great uncle who I had a nice relationship with. Then I had to put my dog down the same year as my grandpa died. She was really sick. We think she had some kind of cancer" Y/n said looking down

"Wow um...th-thats a lot to handle Y/n. I'm really really sorry" I said, squeezing her hand

"Can we um..can we talk about something happy?" She asked, her voice breaking

"Of course we can! Um...not to brag or anything but uh" I said with a jokey smile

"I got voted 'Best Boy' in highschool " I said playfully running my hand through my hair and winking

"Oh gosh that was stupid!" I said laughing

"Maybe just a little" Y/n said laughing

"Is it true though? Did you really get voted best boy?" She asked

"Yep. I did...my senior year" I said, taking a bite out of my burger. We both started eating.

"Do you think your parents would mind if you stayed at mine tonight? We wouldn't do anything, but we could continue talking a little." I asked looking in her pretty (your eye color) eyes.

"No, I don't think that they would mind!" She replied

"Can I ask you why you're not in college" I ask looking in Y/n's pretty eyes

Y/N POV

"My parents don't have the money to send me. I had an amazing scholarship for theater, but money has been really hard to manage." I replied looking down

"Wait...theater? You were a theater kid?! That's actually really cool! I always really admire people who act because...it's a hard thing to do. You would know...like... switching emotions with the snap of a finger" Darry said holding up his hand and snapping ."and putting on accents for so long. What were some of you favorite roles" Darry rambled

"Wow...and I'm the one who rambles?" I ask with a chuckle, looking into his sparkling eyes.

"How about we go to your place, and we can continue talking about our passions" I suggest

"Yea sure" Darry said. He payed for our food, and we started walking to his place, until a car pulled up next to us...

#fanfic #the outsiders #the outsiders 1983 #darry curtis #greaser #kisses

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Hi hello I hope you saw my tags on your most recent artwork, but I’ve been stalking your ship tag for Murdoc & very animatedly reading your fics. I am in love w this concept. He deserves love. Your personal post about not having anyone to gush/rant to was my final straw in debating whether or not to send you an ask, so here I am to say that’s over now!!! We’re going to be best friends bc apparently, you’re already best friends w my husband, so I’m adopting you. You’re my friend-in-law. You can’t get rid of me. I’m inviting you to our house for dinner (I have a whole thing about being the dinner party couple w Mac 🥺🤧)

I will let you get to this & maybe find my tags before I continue rambling, but I’m so excited!!! I haven’t been able to stop thinking about this since I found you!!! I can’t wait to have a new buddy & swap lore. Also, Ezra is one of my favorite male-oriented names AND was the name of my main f/o from a couple years ago, when I first found out what self-shipping was!!! Obvi Mac is my main now haha. But yeah, I’m stoked :’) talk to you soon, hopefully! <33

HELLO!!! OKAY LOOK

so first off, i didn't answer this quite as soon as i saw it because I was busy happy-freaking out a bit at having another MacGyver selfshipper find me!! BUT as soon as THAT was over, I got right down to being as normal as possible (read as, combing through a good portion of your blog to see your ship with Mac) about meeting you!!/lh If you'll excuse the mildly creepy behavior on my part, I'd LOVE to be friends with you, Emily!!!/gen

I don't even know where to start with this but I'm SOSOSO psyched that MacGyver has someone as cool as you to love him!! He deserves it, such a sweetheart of a guy!!/p

AND even though my bf has a history of trying to kill your husband, I promise, I've mellowed him out enough to interact with you two without fear ahaha!! (in my selfship AU, Murdoc is still very very unpredictable and highly lethal but he's definitely more domesticated now, thanks to Emmett, my self insert LOL)

And yea!!! Im so happy you found me!!! Im super excited to have someone to chat about this with and you seem really cool overall too!! And aww, thank youu!! I like my name too, haha!!

ANYWAYS, now that I'm done rambling a bit haha, I'll post this and hopefully you see it soon enough bc if you're comfortable with it, I can hop into your dms and we can talk some more there, if you want!!/nf But, I wanted to ask first just in case!!

Stay safe and happy!!! :D

#i love you just a little too much #selfship #selfship asks #asks #mutuals tag #friends tag #mutuals #friends #stargirlships

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