#bc im the worst

[reallybadblackoutpoems]

your eyes (1996) - original broadway cast of rent (article from genius)

“in an arc that has spanned from ‘one song glory,’ we see roger finally write and perform ‘one song to leave behind.’ unfortunately, it’s bad.”

#rent #roger davis #broadway #LMAO #anyway #guess what show im working on #i fucking hate this song #i hate the end of la vie boheme #just fucking tell each other #you dont have to sing for so long #my fav song is la vie boheme tho just not that part #second is tango maureen #bc im the worst #its just fun to sing #blackout poem #blackout poetry #author #book #poetry

[daydadahlias]

Is Jess short for anything?

Her Majessty

#anyway yes! #my name is ~Jessica~ #but it's a little bit long and i kind of consider it more formal and for the real world #i dont really like people online calling me ~Jessica~ #the only person who does is anna #jess is just like !! more fun!! more intimate !! #it's a nickname #it's like we're all on a nickname basis yknow #but Jessica is the official royal title #pigeon #1loulu5 #i look like a jessica too #u see me and ur like 'yeah that's a jess alright' #i want to be honest that i made this joke abt 'her majesty' and like #started actually crying over it i thought it was so funny #bc im the worst #like i was actually wiping tears away #no one will ever think i am as funny as i think i am

[your-local-ruebit-hole-detective]

man tomorrow is gonna suck

#im supposed to go to school. except im not going #rue rants #bc im the worst

[inkskinned]

he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.

except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?

at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.

except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.

about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.

he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.

#i used to think it was romantic too and then i was like. now i see it as a HUGE red flag #writeblr #it is also almost EXCLUSIVELY said by immature ppl who think this is normal #fyi even if u think it's funny and ur like 'im an introvert it's just TRUE' like. you need therapy (ily tho) #healed introversion is just ''i would prefer to be by myself'' not ''i hate every person'' ... hate is not normal. that is not healthy #im sorry. i know it feels accurate. but if you're walking around with that kind of rage.... #1. you're making a LOT of assumptions about every single person u have ever met. which is often unfair and unkind #and also usually involves judging people based on their worst moments or little mistakes #2. you are being unfair to the person who is ur ''exception'' #3. there is a VAST difference between ''ur my favorite person'' and ''the ONLY person i like.'' #idk i think this is just a personal bias thing tbh #im sure there are people who have this experience normally #but i have YET to find a man who thinks like this and ISNT absolute DOGSHIT. although tbh.... like. im sure he exists #when u hit like 30 some of the things that were once kind of hot now just sound fucking exhausting. like ''im in a band'' #edit in the tags: i used to kind of be like this too. but the thing is that like. my life became so much more peaceful #once i started believing that people are generally good. like yes i am mad at the world at large #but it's just.... a very hard way to live. you're not a bad person or wrong for the ways other people hurt you and taught you to be angry. #but that anger will continue to hurt YOU. it will punish YOU. it will prevent YOU from making new deep connections. it will protect you yes #but it will also cause MASSIVE blowback. bc if you lose the One Person... your life will fall apart. i know this personally. #i really recommend just trying to be... cautiously optimistic instead. like. yes #people can be horrible and cruel and there are some communities (incels for example) that aren't worth that optimism #but i think like... most people will hold a door for you . most people want to help you find your wallet . #i hope one day you are able to find peace. i hope that rage eventually smooths over. i know how hard it is PERSONALLY #and i know what must have happened to you. and im deeply deeply sorry we share the same wound. #but i promise - sometimes we all need someone else to help us carry the weight. eventually the rage has to die so that we can let help in #i had to spend years biting at outstretched hands. i still often do. im still very wary . and my heart breaks that you flinch too. #here's the thing: i don't blame you. but we were both acting out of fear and pain. .... not out of healthy behavior. and ... change #was needed. i needed change too. rage was useful for a while. then it just left me isolated and bitter. i had to (with effort) #choose to let that rage go. and let people in . VERY SLOWLY THO LOL

[tasenwrobots]

they're proud of you.

#Im so tired #click for better quality #3 hours of non stop drawing bc of hyperfixation is the worst #My back feels like its non existant #No regrets however. Viola #Tmnt #Rottmnt #Wma #Future!leo #Future leonardo #future donatello #F!donnie #F!mikey #f!leo #rise of the tmnt #rise mikey #rise leonardo #rise cassandra #rise casey #Rise raph #rise donatello #Rise movie #Rottmnt movie #casey jones jr

[your-turn-to-role]

moment of appreciation again for what is possibly my favourite later game percy quote that everyone always forgets about

(said to vex, of course)

#another thing tlovm hasn't touched on yet that i hope they do (bc next season would be a great place for it) - #both percy and vex struggle so much with anger issues and holding grudges #and the reason they work so well together is because literally a few minutes before their first kiss #they make a commitment to helping each other learn how to forgive even when it's hard - because that's the only way to grow #percy had orthax and vex had saundor both who fed on those impulses and tried to turn them into their worst selves #and they both could very easily have fallen to that! but they don't want to. so they're going to keep each other on the right track #and this is really the pinnacle of it #percy being able to recognise when he really wants to hurt someone and going hmm nope vex seems to be objective here im gonna listen to vex #cr1 #c1e99 #percy de rolo #vex'ahlia #perc'ahlia #cr thoughts

[lilyvines]

went down an ao3 rabbit hole and this is the first time in my life i’ve seen a dni against women

#i mean tbh based on the tags this dni is not the worst thing abt the fic #but like it’s prob the most baffling #edit: I do not care abt discourse!! im not condemning or supporting the author for putting this in their dni!! #i don’t care!! i just thought it was funny bc it was my first time ever seeing a dni against women and I didn’t know they were such a thing #i just wanted to have a little chuckle and move on with my day :( #1k+

[lesovyart]

((shows up to Willow 2 yrs late)) I LOVE THEM

#no fR DISNEY ARE FUCKING EVIL FOR CANCELLING THIS SHOW AND THEN STRAIGHT UP REMOVING ALL EPISODES FROM THEIR PLATFORM???????? #the wORST #willow #willow tv show #willow 2022 #savewillow #kitjade #kit tanthalos #jade claymore #ruby cruz #erin kellyman #fanart #they deserve 2 more seasons!!!!!!!!!!! #also while i was drawing this I imagined that kit was having a big bitch about some new dumb thing Airk has done (which she does constantly #and Jade is just like. yes my princess of course my princess (giving kit the eyebrow and trying not to laugh) #Jade is just helplessly fond #and Kit keeps telling the story bc she loves it when Jade smiles #ok im done #theyre in love ur honour #tanthamore

[opens-up-4-nobody]

I crucify the birthday boy as a treat

#im not sure if it doesn't quite count as a crucifixion bc hes not hanging in the air but like even on thr ground u r gonna get the same #effects. genuinely maybe one of thr worst ways to die. this is how u kill an enemy of the state #i cant remember a single god damn birthday irl but ive had this one in my head since high school #tw blood #roronoa zoro #one piece #zoro on the cross is so god damn funny to me for reasons i cant explain

[yuzuuu4]

stickers i once made for a small event

#cutting the borders was the worst part (i hand cut most of them) #these were all made in the middle of me taking exams <3 #the event passed a long while ago so i think its safe if i post these now #my favorites are based on what and apartment complex bc i drew them good #i still dont have my own copy of these im so sad #dan heng #caelus #alhaitham #kaveh #genshin impact #honkai star rail #hsr

[hotdogstandz]

Getting out of the house might help…

#drawing #comics #undertale au #undertale #utmv #utmv fanart #bad sanses #dust sans #dusttale #horror sans #horrortale #killer sans #lust sans #lusttale #pixel art #context: #teehee #nightmare shares a duplex with the bad sans gang #think…regular show vibes honestly #this duplex is in lusttale. bc I said so #bipolar killer #butcher horror #schizophrenic recluse dust #nightmare their narcissist boss next door #killer and his bfs #drag queen/aromantic/club owner lust #LOL im fr just rewriting characters that I found stupid when I was 13 #you can be the worst of the worst and somebody will love you. plz remember that

[daydadahlias]

it is so hard to be hated by the masses bc there’s so many beautiful gifsets i want to reblog but i am so blocked by so so many people

#just saw the most delectable ashton gifset #ofc i cannot reblog #bc im the worst #and in 2021 i made bold and bad choices #and i suffer the consequences to this day #oh my godddd #i made a meme abt this once hold on let me go find it

[tibli]

people treating either dirk or jake as the 'villain' of the relationship fundamentally misunderstand that they were isolated teenagers with social issues who both contributed to the relationship's problems, and neither of them are evil

#homestuck #dirkjake #dirk strider #jake english #im not a huge dirkjake person. i like it but not super actively or anything #but they BOTH did things wrong #dirk can be manipulative and overbearing #but hes not some evil mastermind hellbent on ruining jake lmao #his worst offense was like. building a fighting robot that jake explicitly asked for #and then going too far with it #on the reverse side #jake is not some unfeeling uncaring monster #hes socially anxious and has a hard time standing his ground on personal matters #his worst crime was mainly just. being kind of inattentive and unintentionally a little callous #i think postcanon (ignoring the epilogues and hs2) dirkjake could work fine if they both just like #got a little therapy and counseling #i think this is kinda why the epilogues make me bitter bc they really just like. completely bastardized the both of them #dirk is a hypercontrolling obsessive ultrabastard #and jake is a dumb thoughtless himbo who for some reason is a constant punching bag #also im p sure jake canonically has brain damage like i think thats stated in plain text in hs proper #i mean that could probably be healed but for a while he was kind of like. airheaded and unfocused #and i think its kinda insulting how hes treated in both timelines #im not a jake scholar like i am a dirk one tho so jake lovers i need someone to back me up on this pls

[ursickandmarried]

On codependent friendships and their inevitable demise.

V.E. Schwab, A Conjuring of Light // Sally Rooney, Normal People // Benjamin Alire Sáenz, Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe // Isaac Fellman, Dead Collections // Elliott Smith, Waltz #2 (XO) // Mitski, Why Didn't You Stop Me? // one of our last conversations.

#worst thing is im posting this on an alt bcs he follows me on my main. ha ha ha. #web weave #on friendships #on love #codependent friendships #web weaving #webweave #novel quotes #webs #collection #i wish i could have stopped it. i miss you #on breakups #on heartbreak #on grief #grief about something not quite dead. #i hope ur okay.

[born-in-hell]

Edit: 20/04/2024: PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD STOP LIKING THIS FUCKING POST. THIS IS FROM LAST YEAR B4 ALL THE THINGS ON FOREVER CAME OUT. I just keep it up for the sake of archiving.

IM BLOCKING EVERYONE WHO LIKES OR INTERACTS W THIS POST

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btw for all u 4haloers and eclipsedoers out there aparently forever's been signing ppls badges w a heart and telling them to ask bbh to sign his name near the heart

heres one of them!!

another one!! this is for the 1st pic

THERES A FOURTH ONE NOW

#btw the first one forever actually signed after bbh but he added the heart #i hate them sm theyre the worst /pos #the second one if im not wrong bbh drew the heart bc forever told the badge owner to ask him #forevers a menace #qsmp #qsmp badboyhalo #qsmp bbh #qsmp forever #badboyhalo #forever player #qsmp vegas meetup #vegas meetup #4halo #eclipseduo #ill add the originals links as i find them #i just realized this post has several grammatical errors and typos forgive me im dumb

[skunkes]

#a doodley #i cant draw his hair shine anymore without thinking abt the ask saying it was so Rooster #so trueeeee my rooster boyyy *sobbing* #also always torn bc i like drawing haggard talon with big ears but i think fed talon wld have bigger ones ykwim #like when kittens have huge ears to grow into #also while im rambling here i wanna restructure his whole history again #vampirism being the result of a curse and negatively affecting him in a way he'll have to carry for the rest of his long immortal life #as well as forgoing feeding to Age and him physically feeling the ails of aging isn't enough... #im trying to conjure up smthng else that wldve happened to him in one of the worst times in his life but thats hard bc i cant explore it to #much bc the subject matter makes me sad LOL and also dont want to seem like those ppl who throw in stuff like that gratuitously