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spacebabe51 · 2 years
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genuine pet peeve of mine is people who act like every person on planet earth grew up with video games because they did. "what do you MEAN you haven't played __??" "what did you DO your whole childhood if you weren't playing ___??" "you dont even have 50,000 hours on ___??!" like not everyone's family had money growing up, jfc. Equally annoying are people who act like they're superior because their parents didnt/couldnt buy them games. shut up all of you. im plenty happy to experience the joy of thirty years + worth of gaming ive missed out on as an adult. but i WILL suck at them.
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trickstarbrave · 10 months
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brave lore: my first special interest was the lion king. i watched the VHS tape of the first movie so many times over and over just rewinding it the second it was done to watch it again until the tape was almost destroyed and then my family had to buy a new one bc i wouldnt stop crying. after school when i was 6 i would come to my great grandma’s house and watch the lion king 2 on the bed almost every day and sing every single song. when the special edition dvds came out i begged and pleaded for all of them. i played all of the games and bonus content over and over and over. most of my days in summer at like age 11 was just doing that. i think i only stopped when i got into my edge anime phase (post naruto) at like age 13 and then deep into ygo again which was another special interest of mine at age 6-9. when i was 3 my parents got me a simba halloween costume and i wore it until i couldnt physically fit into it anymore and then i cried and wailed like i was being killed bc they didnt make anymore lion king costumes.
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m-jay-gee · 1 year
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kinda mad that i grew up in the late 2000s early 2010s and didnt get into games until i hit my early teens.
like i owned a wii and a DS but my mum didnt think the official nintendo games were actually worth the money. so i had like,,, a cheaper racing game instead of mario kart which meant i couldnt really talk abt it with friends bc they had no clue what i was talking about. which just meant i fell out of love with games.
until i got my own phone and was able to watch people playing them and talking about them on youtube. but even then i didnt have money to pay for games and my mum wouldnt buy them for me. so now i can afford games i do, and i play them on my 4 year old laptop and i really really want to have a proper pc but they're SO EXPENSIVE idk how kids convince their parents to get them gaming pcs at like 12 years old that is insane to me.
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soft-boi-eli · 3 years
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okay I literally just made this acc bc there's no anon requests and I have an idea that I asked someone else but they turned it down and I'm lowkey embarrassed that they denied my request. I PINKY PROMISE ITS NOT BAD, HERE ME OUT
do you think you can write a lil bit about schlatt ending up having to "babysit" the reader (even though she's dead ass 18 lmaoo) because her parents are strict and don't trust her and they think Schlatt is a good influence because his parents are "🇺🇲🍟🐟🐷" but he's genuinely nice and respectful of other peoples views and opinions (unlike his other family). Basically Schlatt was like "aww hell yeah we're gonna play video games until 4am and watch action movies and be homies there's no parents stopping us" but the reader gets her period and she's just like laying around in misery and schlatt literally doesn't know what to do (bc yk periods are supposed to be a secret shhh) so he looks up what to do when girls get their period so while she's sleeping he just goes out and buys a bunch of stuff for her and its just fluffy (DONT FORGET PLATONIC) and the reader wakes up to all this stuff and its just 🥰 anyways she ends up falling asleep while watching Schlatt play COD.
(the reader is afab and uses she/her pronouns)
This is amazing. I have one other request but I am going to hop right on this one. Also sorry about the anon thing. I'm still newish to tumblr and I have no clue on how to turn it on. I've been trying to but i seriously cant find it. 😭
If this takes a bit I do apologize sincerely.
Pronouns:she/her
Warnings:periods cursing, strict parents.
Schaltt with an AFAB bff reader that he 'babysits'
Your parents. Thay dont know when to let you go.
Teaching you everything about females are supposed to be like this or that. Periods arent supposed to be talked about. They were the strict, bible Americans.
The best way to put it. Periods meant sin. And you were supposed to hide it. You were 18 in their eyes you're still a child. A child that worked 2 jobs just to hopefully live away from them.
But there was that rare day where you had it off from both jobs and could just relax.
That was until you heard there was someone coming to babysit you. You're a perfectly capable 18 year old. Not a toddler.
Yet your parents didn't trust you. You have a bed time of 10pm. And they got a baby sitter just for that.
He was there on time. And he looked you up and down in confusion. "This is who I'm babysitting right?" He looked the same age as you. "Alright. There will be no problem. They'll be in bed by 10pm. They'll have dinner at 6PM. And shower at 8pm." Your parents nodded in agreement and he watched them walk off. Shutting the door he looked at you. "Yeah. No. You are a grown woman and I'm not going to force you to do that. Also you're not paying me. You like call of duty? Action movies?" Perking up you nodded. "Yeah!"
He smirked. "Yeah. You up for a long night of movies and games?"
That day bloomed a friendship. The fourth time he came over you two were like best friends.
But the fifth time you seemed like you were dying. Laying around. Not wanting to play games. Not wanting to watch movies.
He was so concerned about you. Like deadass he thought you were dead his parents never saw the importantace of him learning what a period.
When you said the word period he was confused he searched it up and felt dread. You went through what every momth?! You can have so many symptoms yet nothing to help it?! What the fuck!
"Bro you want anything? Need anything?" You looked at him. He looked so concerned for you. "Heating pack. Dark chocolate. Please." He was quick to nod and start the heating pack.
Looking around the kitchen he couldnt find any dark chocolate and there was a store across the street. "You want strawberry ice cream and dark chocolate?"
The quite yeah was heard and he was off and back the heating pack fully heated and the ice cream that perfect texture. And a huge ass bar of dark chocolate. Along with a huge gallon of three flavored ice cream.
You know the neapolitan shit. You were so confused.
"Movie marathon or watching me play COD?" you thought for a sec. "COD." he nodded and sat next to you.
As you ate the sweet strawberry cream with frozen strawberries. Turns out he was preparing for when you finished you ice cream with the gallon.
When he saw you pint empty and you getting slightly sad he paused the game. In the middle of the campaign. And got you a huge ass bowl of the three ice creams.
You had never seemed so happy. Half way through the bowl you rested your head on his lap. You just wanted to sleep now and that's what you did.
You didnt know that schaltt left once more. Buying popcorn, your favorite candy, he felt embarrassed about this but he took a picture of the pads you use, like brand, size and everything. Got you quiet a few packs of them to be safe. Chips, chicken nuggets, even stuff to make your favorite meal by scratch. Stumbling into the stuffed animal aisle he scarned the shelves.
Finding a huge one with a zipper in it you had mentioned your parents have been trying to take your money and you could technically hide it in there.
Checking out the cashier gave him a weird look. But he didnt give two shits, he literally carried it back to your place. No car to help. He took that mile long walk with the bags and got back right before you woke up. Pads in the bathroom everything set up so it was easy access. And the stuffed snorlax was huge.
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Like a fuckin bed huge.
He didnt wake you. Just started up his game again.
When you did wake up you were covered in a blanket, snacks set out in a nice array of candy to chips.
Four drinks. Two waters and one coke with the other being your favorite kind of soda.
Then the heavenly scent that came from the kitchen. And before you could even get up to see what it was schaltt came out two (bowls/plates) of your favourite food.
"You didnt have to do this." He shook his head. "I wanted to. You're in pain and all that shit. You need to relax, keep hydrated, stay warm. All of it. And I might as well take care of my best friend."
I have finished. I do apologize if this isnt fully what you wanted!! And the other person was quite mean. I dont reject unless I fully explain it and tell them gently.
But I hope this is good. I have been quite busy as of late due to it being the first and all.
But yeah. Nearly died today and all. Roller coasters, indeed fun, but sometimes unsafe.
It's all good though had lots of fun at a fair, keeping safe with covid and all, I even got a shiny rock I am very happy.
Anyways have a good day!!
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mariesocuniverse · 3 years
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Relationships: NCT DREAM
Look for Mark and Haechan: here
RenMae
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Okay RenMae is one of the top if not the #1 among NCT
fans are like almost 100% sure they’re soulmates
Like there was no awkward small talk when they first met they just talked and ended up each other’s best friend
You would think they’d be childhood friends or at least friends before they became trainees with the way they interact even though they met at SM
she did confess to him before debut that she had a crush on him but he thought she was joking and now none of them talk about of that
Whenever she has a hard time sleeping and wants to sleep with someone, the first option is renjun
she also steals his clothes a lot and renjun’s pretty sure half the clothes in Mae’s closet belong to him
he just stopped fighting her about it because of how stubborn she was and let her do what she wanted
there was this one time he ran out of shirts to wear so he just walked to Mae’s closet and took one out
there was also this one time Renjun was in China and Jaemin posted a pic of Mae taking a nap with Renjun’s sweater on saying that she missed him so much so she wore his sweater
yeaaaaah nct twt broke that day and Renjun’s phone was blowing up with notifications
they dressed as peter pan and tinkerbell for halloween and have each other as that for each other’s contact name uwu
okay enough with the corny stuff
just because they’re close doesnt mean they’ll hold back on each other when it comes to teasing each other
like you wouldnt want to get in their crossfire unless you want them to turn their attention on you instead
MaeNo
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you would think he’s older than her because of how protective he is of her
He has eyes like a damn hawk when they’re going somewhere
whenever they’re doing schedules you can see Jeno holding her hand as they make their way through all the crowd and glancing around to see if anyone has any bad intentions towards her
If it weren’t for his status as an idol you would think he was a bodyguard and he would beat up someone for Mae’s sake
whenever they record Jeno always waits for her to finish so they can go home together no matter how late at night it is
there was this one time sasaengs kept calling her phone during a live so he just grabbed her phone and turned it off and threw it too the side without saying a word
Second person Mae goes to when she has nightmares
they’re also have a really playful relationship
like there was this one time she wasn’t paying attention to him so he just lifted her and put her over his shoulder like a potato sack even though there was staff watching them Mae has tried and failed to do the same to jeno
You know how jeno says he likes being called no jam bc of how it makes him feel less burdened? Yeah she always throws him under the bus when it comes to variety shows
she has a samoyed plush on her bed when she bought when she went shopping with him bc it reminded her of jeno
Sometimes she hugs the plush instead of jeno just to annoy him lol
“I’m right here you know” “well the plushie is more huggable for you information”
Yes he did tackle her after that comment
MaeMin
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okay this man right here
you know how he melts at everything jisung does? yeah the same goes for Mae
only that she openly accepts his affection and lets him cling to her whenever he wants like his personal teddy bear
you know how at fansigns idols sometimes get gifted cute headbands and plushies? he openly yelled “i love you!” to her when he saw her with a cat ear headband surrounded by plushies
she’s also like really impressed by him
she never thought she’d meet someone who would do aegyo so willingly and so shamelessly
like that one episode of weekly idol where they did the ottoke song and jaemin did a duet with everyone? yeah she couldn’t believe someone like him existed
he basically acts as her parent if none of the 127 members aren’t near them
Whenever they’re on reality shows and the prize is food he always put someone on her plate regardless of whether she lost or not
third person mae goes to when she has nightmares
would not leave his side for a week when he was put on hiatus and couldnt perform with the rest of the dreamies
she didnt want him to feel lonely while everyone else went to promote without him :(
All in all, they’re very affectionate and if they’re together you’ll have to pry jaemin’s hands off her
ChenMae
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Mae’s child #1
he got lost in the company building and was too shy to ask the staff so mae approached him and brought him to wear he needed to be
accidentally called her hyung once when he was still learning korean but it ended up sticking so now he and jisung call her hyung instead of noona
When he first joined she helped him adjust with her broken Chinese and now they help each other with the language
one time she visited his house for dinner and his mom made her eat a lot of food because of how skinny she was chenle didnt stop her bc she needs sustenance >:(
wants to give her a personal tour of Shanghai when they’re given enough time for vacation
you know how chenle gave 00line watches when they became adults? he had to fight mae to get her to keep it bc she didnt want him spending money on her
legit he tried to buy her stuff but the only thing she accepted was the watch and this cute charm bracelet that says NCT on it
he put one of his photocards in her phone case (the WGU one with him by the water) and she hasn’t removed it since
he’s really smug abt it and brags to the others about it jisung retaliated by putting his photocard too so now she as to make both of them visible
fights jisung for favorite child position and he wins 50% of the time even though she says she doesnt have one
MaeSung
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Mae’s child #2
took one look at him and decided to protect him
she’s used to other people taking care of her so it was nice to take care of someone else for once
i said he also calls Mae hyung but it’s also because he forgets that she’s a girl?
sometimes he hears someone call Mae ‘noona’ and he just gets whiplash because he got reminded that his “hyung” is really a girl put in a boy group
they were honestly really awkward when they first met because Jisung didn’t know how to react to a girl joining the group and kinda avoided her until she cornered him
calls him a tree whenever he teases her about her height
mae when jisung tease/pranks her: i’ve fed and raised you and this is the treatment i get?!?
jisung: you’re only two years older than me….
he gets pouty when Mae doesn’t pay attention to him
theres this one video of Mae talking to another member during Resonance filming and you just see him pouting in the background before walking to her and giving her a back hug
definitely uses his status as a maknae to his advantage
she’s not even subtle about it she’ll buy or cook food for him or yield whenever he loses a game
whenever she’s not around he always brags that he’s her favorite nct member haechan and renjun get so salty abt it lmao
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heyitsyn · 4 years
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Complicated
Shirabu x Reader
a/n: im not very familiar with shirabu on a spiritual level like i am w the other characters but ill try my best!! 
request:  okok haikyuu hcs: shirabu is reader’s childhood best friend and messed up their last game in middle school because he changed his setting style to accommodate ushijima,,, and reader, as the manager is very very pissed and they get into a huge fight,,, so once they get to stz they’re academic rivals, reader became the vbc manager just to spite him (oh yea they definitely still have crushes on each other but it’s hard with the current situation) only if it’s ok!! not a lot of ppl write for him :
this is kinda the best friends-to-rivals-to-friends again-to-lovers
requests open!!
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lets get our inhalers bc this finna be a wild one luvs
so, basically,
you and him were actually childhood friends since he lived next door to you
lets say you met when you were 5 and you just stuck on to this slightly cold and dismissive boy who was the shy type
idk bout you but i actually like that type
ppl dont really understand how yall got along bc you were the extrovert and the laughing type of girl
he only stuck around bc you were actually a smart person who helped him occassionally w your organized notes
but he still appreciates your time and efforts to be his friend despite his personality
plus, you also liked volleyball and together you both would watch volleyball matches in his house where you would see him with a smile that he unconsciously wears
like when yall were 8, you gave him a volleyball for his birthday since he lost his old one when he was playing by the river
at first, he was like, ‘oh, thanks, i needed this’
but then as he started tossing it up and down, you could see that bashful smile starting to surface
you shrieked, 
bc you rarely see it and you think its super cute,
and just wrap him up in a hug and he turns all shy again but with a soft smile and a soft blush
‘thanks, n/n-chan’
uh oh, feelings
stinky
since he mainly focused on doing homework or studying, not a whole lot of kids really approached him to hang out since they thought he only lived to study and play volleyball
but you didnt care bc youve been friends w this bun for a long time and you know hes not really like that
he has fun moments too
since you were the manager of the volleyball team, you always try to showcase how fun he was by trying to take the team to bonding places 
the team does think that shirabu has fun but only if its w you
anyways
one afternoon, you naturally just go to his house w him since your mothers know youre practically best friends and so you basically live in each others houses
yall were about halfway through middle school so shirabu has been studying more to get scholarships for schools
he was studying on the little table while leaning against his bed while you were just lounging on his bed after studying
‘ken-channnnn’
oikawa 2.0
‘hm’
you pouted at the distracted reply before sitting up and wrapping your arms around his shoulder from behind him and placing your chin on his shoulder
‘lets do something fun!!!! im boredddd’
he wasnt really fazed by the skinship bc youve been like that to him since day 1
but thats going to change soon
‘i have a new sudoku book over there that you could do’
omg what
‘ken-chan!’
you shrieked in betrayal before leaping off the bed and grabbing his arm to stand him up
shirabu was actually annoyed that you were distracting his studying but seeing a wide grin on your face made him double stop
am i,,,, catching feelings?
nah, he just going through puberty
‘lets go to the fall market! yuki-chan told me theres a new food place that opened and theyre handing out free samples!’
you excitedly told him and continued shaking his arm to persuade him in going
‘n/n-chan, this is my only free day from volleyball to study. i need to pass the test on friday’
you rolled your eyes at that lame excuse
‘i know. i set up the schedule differently bc you have a big test on friday! but you would still have time to study!’
‘but im still unfamilair with the topic-’
‘cmon, ken-chan! youre so smart you could rival buddha!’
‘i dont think,,,,, thats a right comparison’
‘either way, we’re going to hang out and have fun!’
he honestly didnt know why he was at this crowded market w you
shirabu is a whole simp
‘omg ken-chan! look! takoyaki!’
you dragged him to the stall and the nice old lady smiled before taking your order
‘1 box please. ken-chan, you want?’
he shook his head no and started taking out his wallet to pay
but you stopped him
‘no, you dont have to pay since youre not eating’
‘but i want to’
‘ken-chan! you need to save up for college!’
‘no its fine im pay-’
‘here ya go, dear. free of charge’
you both stopped at the nice lady’s sentence
‘b-but’
‘no it’s okay. its cute to find a boy who’s willing to pay for his girl since that doesnt really happen nowadays. i hope you have a great rest of your date!’
‘it’s not a da-’
‘thank you, maam’
shirabu takes the box and leads you out of there
you smirk and poke his tummy
‘you want to go on a date with me, ken-chan~?’
he turns red and looks away
‘no. it wouldve taken longer to fully explain the situation so just go along with it to make it faster’
you giggled
‘hm sounds fake but okay’
you both continue to walk around the market and even buy a few things like a mini buddha statue or a pair of cat ears for both of you
with everything you bought, shirabu payed with it all
you were pouting as you walked and he noticed so he nudged you with his elbow
‘oi, what’s wrong?’
you crossed your arms
‘hm.. i dont like that ken-chan is buying and spending money for me on things that symbolize our fun. i want to give ken-chan something to remember this day too!’
shirabu grows flustered but hes really confused
youve always been a thoughtful person who tries to be independent but unconsciously ends up depending on others like him
but your thoughts of wanting to do something in return for him just sounds like heaven right now
lmao what a simp
he looks around for a place that could have something that sparked his interest but nothing caught his eye
until he caught a photo booth by the corner
‘oi, n/n-chan, let’s go there’
you followed his finger and you gasped
‘thats perfect, ken-chan! let’s go!’
you drag him to the booth and you giddily enter the coins for the machine to start
but he was starting to think this wasnt a good idea
he was in a cramp space with you pressed against him
but youve always been glomped to his side since yall were kids so what was the difference now?
bc you catching feelings, fool!
‘ken-chan! its starting!’
he finally snaps out of his flustered state and he raises a peace sign with a smile
with all the pictures, there were funny pictures of you and him,
well mainly you
but he was happy to have them w you
‘ken-chan, you know i love you, but when will you fix your hair?’
he glared at you
‘i like it so its staying that way’
you giggled at his attitude
‘okay, ken-chan. at least it would make you stand out in the crowd so i dont have to look for you!’
you hugged his waist and he froze up, suddenly feeling awkward with this familiar position
its okay, shes naturally like this so calm down
dontcrydontcrydontcrydontcry
after your hang out, he didnt even bother going back to studying
he just laid on his bed, looking at the strip of pictures with a fond smile
he was happy that you only showed that true, bright, happy grin to him
it was only for him
and he only showed his to you
bc you were you and you were the greatest thing, next to his parents, that he has in his life
omg that thought
he freezes and the picture falls on his face at that realization
omg, does he like you?
youre a great friend and his best friend and he wants to be your friend forever
but then, he realizes
youd separate one day and youd have a boyfriend and get married and have a family without him
no, he wasnt going to let that happen
he didnt like that thought
and thus, began his crush for you
and you were the same thing too but you noticed it later than him
oof, when this one girl confessed to him at the back of the school, you cried to him when yall got home
‘when ken-chan has a girlfriend, he wont hang out with me anymore! hes not going to be my friend anymore!’
it took some reassurance from him and more from your mom, when you got home, to realize that you liked your best friend
and thus began the skinny love stage
the whole volley team knew of your pining and tbh, they thought yall were dating but you were just like, nah, we friends
if anyone were to look at you, they would think the same thing
but ofc, yall are insecure hormonal teenagers who think that the other doesnt like them and if they confess, they would be rejected and that would ruin their friendship and they would not be friends anymore and they dont think they could handle that so its better to keep the feelings hidden and remain friends bc if theyre happy, theyre happy
oml my entire love life
this continued on until the last year of middle school
bc not only do you suddenly stop being friends, you became rivals
so as volleyball manager, you helped the team with whatever they needed in return of them doing their absolute best and winning the game
the last game of the year, you were slightly confused at the way shirabu was playing bc it wasnt the normal way he sets
before, his sets were so good that he could give it to any player and they would spike perfectly
but now, it was so different due to the simple, almost lazy, and very high tosses
the team was slightly irritated bc they couldnt keep up with the high tosses so they couldnt hit it
in between the sets, during break, you pulled him aside as you wiped off his sweat
‘ken-chan, youre not setting properly to the others. theyre getting angry because it doesnt allow them to spike right.’
he glares at you, with almost manic eyes
‘its their fault for not being able to jump high enough. in order to get a point, the ace must get a high toss to aim a quick spike’
‘but theyre not able to jump that high, ken-chan!’
you whispered, worried that he was going too intense and they would lose the game
all the hard-work the others put in, all to waste
‘i dont care. i must start early and change early so ushijima could hit my sets in the future’
‘but they’re not ushijima, kenjiro!’
you whisper-yelled
‘right now, theres no ushijima, no oikawa, its just you and the team. your team’
he was shook that you used his first name and the way you were actually telling him off
youve never been like that before
but he was blinded by his goal in the future
‘why is he our ace if he couldnt even hit tosses meant for an ace?’
‘because hes not the ace you’re hoping him to be!’
‘kenjiro, listen to me, these boys have worked their asses off for years to even come close to playing against seijoh or shiratorizawa. im going to do everything i can to make that happen and im not going to let them lose just bc you are too busy focusing on the future rather than the present’
with the way he looked at you, you really thought he would listen to you and play the way his team needs him to play
but no, he played the way he thought ushijima needed him to play
in the end, due to the foreign and unfamiliar tosses, they were unable to hit as much points causing them to lose
you could never forget the looks on your fellow classmates, who were also going to graduate this year, as they watched the ball that shirabu tossed, hit the floor right next to them
to say you were pissed was an understatement
you were F U R I O U S ™
you held the hands of the first years as they were devastated at their first loss
but you caught the eye of your ‘friend’ and he was biting his lip in irritation and anger
as your team was walking to their locker room to get changed, you pulled shirabu aside
‘what the hell’
he stared at you
‘we lost. we lost bc they couldnt keep up’
‘kenjiro! are you not listening to yourself?! you lost because you couldnt accept the fact that your teammates arent ushijima wakatoshi! you couldnt accept the fact that they’re not tall enough! strong enough! ace-like enough! and for what?! for the future?! the future where you’re going to set for someone like ushijima?!’
‘i vowed to set for a player like him, y/n! i want to toss a ball to someone as powerful and as talented as him! thats a promise i intend to keep’
you were dumbfounded 
he was acting on his own reasons and selfish intent, even costing them a game, for his preparation in the future
‘i cannot believe you right now. i didnt know you were so selfish, shirabu. of all the years i knew you, you were never like this. so what changed?’
at the almost betrayed look on your face hurt him bc weren’t you always there to help him? to support him? wasnt that the reason you became a manager in the first place? 
‘you dont understand, y/n. i need to change the way i play now because it will greatly benefit me in the future’
honestly, you didnt even know why you were so angry about this
sure, it was volleyball and it was just a game
you had high school to win it again
but maybe it was the fact that he wasn’t being the shirabu you knew
the ken-chan you grew up with and harbored feelings for for years
he was turning to someone that worked not for himself, but for some guy he has never even spoken to
you blinked away the tears and looked off the side, away from his face
‘right. the future. yanno, if youre already like this, i dread to think about how you would act once you get that goal of yours. but i know one thing. im not going to be there to see it happen’
god that last sentence
he felt a piece of his world crumble bc were you saying goodbye? were you leaving him?
‘i cant see you torture yourself into changing into a new person, kenjiro. so good luck finding someone who can’
‘oh yea? well, i dont need you! i’ll be perfectly fine on my own and find someone better than you! youre easily replacable!’
that was a big booboo love
that fight costed him more than a decade of friendship and a few years of love
despite living so closely together, you refused to even acknowledge him and when your parents got together, you’d find some way to be out ofthe house or you’d lock yourself in your room
he tried many times to get to you and even cried to you, begging to not leave him
but you willed strong and you left him alone
omg she handled this so bad and i cant w puberting teenagers
eventually, he got tired of chasing you and was now angry at you for picking a team of people youve only met for a few years over him who’s been there for you since you were 5
he was betrayed, cold, and sad
however,
without each other to be there, you both studied even harder and eventually, you were both able to get into shiratorizawa
initially, you wanted nothing to do w that school since you knew kenjiro was going to be in it and that bastard ushijima wakatoshi was too
um,,, babygurl ushi did nothing to you
but your mother really wanted you to go to a nice school since she wanted you to go to a nice college
since yall werent friends anymore, he didnt know you wouldn’t be in shiratorizawa
so imagine his surprise when he saw you entering his class with the girls uniform on and a completely new hairstyle and hair color and were you wearing makeup?!
lmao she acting like they broke up
anyways, all he knows, is that boys were already looking at you and vying for attention and dear god, he didnt know how to handle that
for the first month of school, youd think you would just be ignoring each other like you did back in middle school
but nope!
somehow, yall were now talking again!
except it was a mean type of talking
you see, shirabu studied as much as he breathed and you were just a naturally smart sister who didnt study as much
but you still were able to make it to the top and currently, you were the 1st in your entire class
‘ara ara? 1st again? better luck next time, shirabu-kun~’
he glared at you from his seat as you passed by with a smug grin
this fueding is giving me vertigo
‘shut up. at least some of us work for our grades’
that was so weak lmao
but you turned around to blink your eyelashes, slightly mocking him
‘eh? are you saying that i’m naturally gifted? yanno, shirabu-kun, naturally gifted people are much better than those who have to work for it. you play with ushijima-senpai, right? so you’d know the difference between you two.’
bringing up ushijima always pained him but he kept repeating it to himself that he was doing it so that he could go to nationals
sensing his silence as defeat, you waved your hand and went back to conversing w your other friends
this continued on again for a while and he was already sick and tired of it
not only was it beginning to get annoying, it was beginning to hurt
he cornered you at your locker
aaaaa kabedon!!!!!!!
‘listen to me and listen well, y/n’
yessir im listening
‘whatever the hell youre doing, cut it out. youre not going to rile me up anymore and im not going to give you the reactions you want. i dont understand why youre doing this to me but you need to stop before i make you’
ohgodyessir
ngl, that tone of his voice was the lowest youve heard and it made you so red bc that was just hot
but you gulped before grinning wolfishly, hand pressed against his chest and the other snaking around his neck
you pulled him down to your level so you could lean close to his ear
‘now you listen to me and listen well, ken-chan, youre not my best friend anymore so you can no longer tell me what to do, kay?’
shirabu was just flustered at the close proximity between your lips and his ears that he completely missed your warning
he only snapped out of it when you walked away, heading towards your next class
you sat in class that day, wondering how to tease him more
clearly, just words wouldnt make him irritated
gurl why you doing this
and you were stumped until you saw a red-haired looking guy accompanied by a gray-haired looking guy coming up to you
ofc you recognized them from the volley team since you’ve,,,,,,maybe seen a few practices
you thought theyd just pass by but they stopped in front of you and you looked up w wide eyes
‘can,,,, i help you?’
‘wow shes cute!’
the red head shouted and you shrunk under the gazes of these tall men
‘sorry about him. im semi eita, second year’
you shook his hand and you introduced yourself before soon finding out this other guy was tendo satori
‘so what do you need me for?’
‘you see, we’re kinda in need of a manager. and i think its better to have a manager who is close to a player in the team. i apologize to say this but i saw you and shirabu-san by the lockers the other day and i think its best to have his girlfriend as our manager’
‘g-girlfriend?!’
you shrieked, shocked that they thought you were
at this mention, you got a flashback from the festival and you soon turned bright red at the label of you being kenjiro’s girlfriend
‘and youre so cute y/n-chan! i can see what our darling kouhai sees in you!’
‘no, you got it all wrong its-’
then you stopped
omg this was the perfect opportunity
no gurl stop jesus take the wheel
shirabu would hate it if you were a manager bc that would give you more room to tease him
holy
then you smiled
‘i accept, senpais. i want to see my baby in action after all’
they were ecstatic since it was a hassle to find a manager who wasnt infatuated w ushijima
you exchanged contacts and soon, you were brought to meet the team
oh boy when kenjiro saw you at the door, he dropped the ball on his head
what in the hell were you doing here
‘guys, this is our new manager!’
you peeked out from tendo and waved at them
‘hello, my name is l/n y/n, first year. and im glad to be your manager’
noticing shirabu’s shocked form, tendo and semi shared a look and interpreted as, hes so happy that his senpais chose his girlfriend for him so now he could show off and play better and that could hopefully turn his attitude to be more grateful and respectful rather than this dismissive and disrespectful behavior
but shirabu was dying inside
oh god, youre totally going to tease him during practice and hes not going to be at his best and hes not going to be able to prove himself to ushijima
‘oi! shirabu-kun! come be grateful to your senpais for letting your darling girlfriend as our manager!’
‘hey baby!’
omg, what
again, you have a loud and expressive personality so you were kinda shameless so you just ran up and hugged him
aaaaa this is so embarassing wth
‘didnt you miss me? oh, youre so cute!’
god, he knows youre only here to spite him
right on point, good sir
ugh you were practically teasing him as the manager and you were having so much fun making him all flustered
but he was also spiteful 
sometimes, he would stick his foot out whenever youd run towards a player and hed laugh at you embarassing yourself in front of them
youd return the favor by accidentally throwing his water bottle at his face
‘oh, gomen, ken-chan’
the entire time, the team was baffled to see the usual stoic and dismissive shirabu so freely laughing and actually teasing you
they think its just for good fun and not the aim of hurting each other since yall are dating and youre just flirting
combined w being academic rivals and now rivals during the team, you both were unintentionally becoming close again
the brutality was slowly simmering to a low heat
and turn the over on at 350 degrees
now, it was just to make each other flustered
the crush that you thought was gone, was slowly digging itself out like the zombies in plants vs zombies
and my god you were annoyed
from now on, you were nothing but rivals and a parasite on his side
him feeling the same
dating would cause too much and the hurtful words would eventually come back up and you concluded that you were just too different
you didnt conclude shit
one time, the team was walking from practice to a nearby convenience store to pick up food
ofc you were picking out a billion foods and you just shoved them all to his arms
‘my darling boyfriend would pay for it because he loves me. ya know what they say, make his pockets hurt’
he glared at you 
‘as far as i remember, i wasnt dating a pig’
ngl, that hurt a little bc hes calling you a fattie
but he still went up to pay for it and you intentionally bumped him with your hips to annoy him but it caused him to drop his wallet to fall
and out came his money and that picture
the picture from nearly 3 years ago
you bent down to pick it up before he could even move 
god, yall were so happy and young back then
it was awkward silent since you didnt give it back and yall walked out of the store and the team was sensing the weird vibe around you two
‘oi, what happened? its so tense!’
‘did you fight?’
‘did you get caught making out by the aisles?’
‘ong shut up, kai!’
yall kai is a third year senpai that i completely made up since we dont get insight on the senpais before ushijima
but the team noticed the weird aura around you two and decided to walk away to give yall some space
‘can-will you hand it over now?’
shirabu mumbled
you nodded and pushed it in his hands
‘why,,,, why do you still have it?’
‘you gave it to me. of course id still have it’
you were silent before coughing
‘can we talk?’
‘its about time we do’
yall walked away from the team towards your home but were taking weird turns and corners to prolong the walk
you looked up to see him and you laughed
‘this is ridiculous. its not fair’
‘what are you talking about?’
he whispered
‘i was so angry at you for saying that you dont need me and that you could easily find someone better because i knew that and i didnt like it. but i was so hurt that it came from your mouth. out of everyone, i would rather die than hear you say that to me. i think thats why ive been like this. i dont know, im being stupid. i was being stupid.’
he stopped walking and clenched his fist while glaring at the ground
‘you told me you were going to leave me. you were telling me that you wouldnt be friends with me anymore. i had to choose between you or volleyball and i wasnt at the right state of mind at that time so i chose incorrectly’
you noticed him not beside you anymore so you went behind him to rest your forehead on his back so he would see you since he preferred to be honest while not looking at you
‘ken-chan, we messed up big time, didnt we?’
his body shook as he laughed
‘i guess we did’
‘it was only over a game. i was so mean and dramatic and ive called you names and said bad stuff about you and im sorry’
‘im not innocent either. i said those words to you and im sorry’
despite slightly making up now, you both knew those feelings would have to wait because you were only getting each other back
‘can we start over, ken-chan?’
‘you want to?’
‘yes’
‘then we will’
omg the whiplash this is giving me
so yall are finally becoming friends and your families are relieved yall made up again bc wowza those dinners were torturous
‘now that they made up, we can go back to planning their wedding’
‘MOM NO!’
slowly but surely, everything has been going steady and your friendship was getting better
but you didnt admit to the club about everything bc again, shirabu was like, ‘i dont feel like explaining everything’
you both still kept a rivalry but it was friendly this time with cute wagers like treat me to milk bread or banana milk
tOOrU oIKaWA’s fAvoRiTE fOod iS MiLK bREaD
he came over often and studied w you and yall would end up actually just watching a movie or watching brain games, unconsciously cuddled up on the couch
however,
this new closeness was doing damage to your heart bc you were again reminded of how much you liked this boy
initially, you thought it would just go away and never be seen again but it said
sIKe biH!
every time you saw him, youd unconsciously sweep away a stray hair and fix it to his weird crooked style
but whenever you do that, shirabu would get a close view of your face and omg you were freaking beautiful
and thats saying something from a guy who saw you through your awkward phase
hes unconsciously touching you more and showing more affection, even more than when yall were young
just being w you was emotionally exhausting as he holds himself back from doing drastic things but he was over it
he was done with all the years of pining for you so finally found the balls to do something about it
you were over at his place to study for exams and he was coming back up with juice
you were slumped over your calculus textbook with your hair in a bun and glasses on wearing his clothes
god theyre practically dating already
‘ken-chan, come help me with this’
he nods and goes to sit behind you
with his tall height, he was able to look over your shoulder and place his chin on it and tbh, you were so frustrated w the problem you didnt care about the closeness
‘you misplaced a decimal so everything got all wrong’
he mumbled
you gasped and made a noise of agreement before changing your answer
he didnt move though, instead wrapping his arms around yourwaist
‘oi, n/n’
‘hm’
this is a familiar scene
‘wanna go to the market tomorrow?’
at the mention of the market you stopped and leaned back
oh god your heart leapt at the feeling of his chest behind you but you composed quickly
‘should we?’
you turned to gauge his reaction at your closeness but he gently smiled
‘yea’
‘okay’
you havent been back to the market together since that day and it was so nostalgic as you both did the things you did back then
from the takoyaki to the stalls
it was so fun
but your heart was beating so fast
his smiling face and thoroughly enjoyed face was doing palpations in your heart
you looked away to stop staring at him and found the photo booth
‘look, ken-chan! the photo booth!’
he chuckled at the thought
‘should we go get another one?’
‘yes! come on!’
you quickly inserted the money and shirabu had flashbacks
but this time it was going to be different
‘okay lets start!’
the first picture, it was a peace sign
the second one was a wacky one
but the next one, was different
‘oi y/n’
‘what?’
the shutter went off just in time of him kissing you
the bright light caused you to close your eyes and you soon forgot what was happening
all you knew you were kissing ken-chan
your best friend
turned enemy
turned friend again
and now,,, were you lovers?
this rollercoaster is quite loopy
he pulled away and rested his forehead against yours
‘im sorry if-’
‘no balls, do it again’
and this time you lunged back for another
and again, this time, not only did you give him another photo, but you also gave him your heart
la fin.
yall what did i just write
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babysizedfics · 3 years
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For the ask game, what's people's favourite memory? -T
*sweats because thid is so much more serious than i was expecting* aha okay
edit: oh wow this got long shshhdhdh
vee
during the first few weeks of living at the lightsides house, he was shy around roman and logan and hid in his room a lot, so patton asked if he might like to get some fresh air and help him do some gardening. it was autumn, they raked leaves and pruned pumpkins and picked last of the last harvest of berries and patton was constantly cracking jokes and being kind and gentle and explaining to vee what he had to do to help when he didnt understand something.
it was the first time vee felt like he was really being given the care he needed in pattons patience with him and the fact that patton was constantly smiling and clearly happy to be with vee made him feel much more secure as a part of the household
roman
probably a few years after finishing high school before vee lived with him, he got the starring role in a community theatre play and on the closing night both pat and lo came to see him perform then the cast had a massive party that roman invited patton and logan and his best friend seraphine to - he had a ton of fun with his friends, patton was so proud of him, and he got to see logan get tipsy and dance so its just a really funny energized memory for him
but if u wanted his fave family memory then probably one of his and vees sleepovers where bee got to wear a skirt in front of roman voluntarily for the first time, roman talked about writers block and it was instantly solved when vee just listened and didnt say anything, and later they ended up wheezing with silent laughter so hard that roman had to literally carry a squeaking cackling vee into the closet because she couldnt stop laughing and they didnt want to wake the CGs up in the next room
patton
this is the HARDEST i dont know if i can decide... so im doing one for each of his family
his favorite vee memory is probably a couple weeks into being vee's cg, it was the first time vee got in a giggly mood with him and kept babbling and bouncing and giggling and patton found it so deightful to see vee so happy from being little
his favorite logan memory is definitely the first night they confessed their feelings because they just eneded up kissing and cuddling and talking for hours
favorite roman memory..... maybe their shopping trip that only happened a few weeks ago - because for the first half of it roman was little (for the first time outside of the house) and so cute and excited bc patton was buying him a new stuffie, but in the second half of the trip roman was grownup and they hung out like adult friends for the first time in months and it was just a really nice day to remind them that yeah sometimes theyre daddy and son but theyre also sometimes just great grownup friends
logan
this one is a lil unexoected, but logans fave memory is the night he realised he liked patton romanticaly. it was actually about two or three years ago, somewhere between 1,5 and 2,5 years before they got together. you would think logan would panic and feel insecure about such vulnerable feelings
but on that night he realised that the way his eyes lingered on pattons fluttering eyelashes when he looked doen to sip his tea, and they way his cheeks suddenly felt hot when patton laughed big and chesty, and the way he felt his heartrate pick up the moment patton patted his knee softly before getting up to go to his room
and as soon as he was alone and realised what he felt for patton he just paused... then smiled so big and couldnt sleep that night bc he was practically giddy
its a strange one bc the memory is maknly of him being alone and reflecting on his feelings, but he just felt such immensely giddy and flustered and happy and hopeful, it really changed his attitude in general since he started to notice the little things everyday like he consciously acknowledged his feelings more. like noticing just how much he loves when pattons eyes crinkle when he smiles and acknowledging that consciously. and from that he in general started to notice more things about his loved ones like the way romans eyes light up when he was praised and the fact that vee tended to knock on his door quietly to hang out and clearly found logans presence comforting - idk it just generaly made him more sappy once he acknowledged his feelings for patton
janus
honestly, that day when vee still lived with him and janus and the three of them gave each other stick n poke tattoos - at that point it was only a year before vee ran away from home and he was so secluded, he never left his room and hardly ever spoke to janus and especially not remus. it was for the best because remus was just not great with vee he was way too loud and obnoxious and lowkey mean and janus thought vee was just going thru a natural teen thing of not wanting to talk to their parental figure.
but the day they did those tattoos was genuinely one of the very rare times (as in like u can count them on two hands) that they all actually got along and had fun together - there were some unsavoury comments from remus and vee did end up slightly anxious at one point but in general it was a fun day
and honestly... when janus was giving vee the tatto, it was the first time they had touched each other in literal months maybe even years. physical touch is a massive thing for both janus and vee but they werent comfy enough to ask or seek it out when they lived together and their relationship auffered bc of that - thats why bby vee and nana jan are constsntly cuddling - but this time janus got to hold vee and even tickle him teasingly at one point. it was subtle and dodnt last long and it was a lil awkward bc they hadnt touched in ages but to janus it just meant a lot to him that he got to look after vee like that, even if he didnt realise thats why he enjoyed it at the time
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friendlifyre · 4 years
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story time bc i got a little emotional getting to this point
ive loved zelda for as long as i can remember, from watching my brother play OoT when i was just 2yo. breath of the wild (then known as zelda u) was first showcased in the e3 of 2014 aka a couple of weeks after i graduated high school, and even with prom turning out so much better than i thought, it was the highlight of my summer. this short 2 minutes of link galloping a non-epona horse through a gorgeous field while fleeing a guardian became my lifeforce. back then the game was planned for 2015 and i was hyped beyond imagining for it.
i digress. the point is, i was looking forward to it. then it was delayed two years. when it came out, i couldnt buy it.
i’ll spare the details of my situation back then; long story short, the previous january, i spent hundreds i didnt have to fly out and visit someone very important to me, who then broke my heart a few days after i got back home and had to face reality. basically, it was Bad, financially but also mentally and emotionally. not getting to play this game when it finally came out because i’d splurged on visiting someone who betrayed my trust as soon as i was gone was a lot of salt in the wound.
i wasn’t completely unlucky, though. i had two incredible friends who cared a lot about me. a lot more than i deserved, admittedly, considering how i’d been treating them in recent months. though i tried my best not to burden them with my problems, they could tell i was not doing well, and in an attempt to cheer me up, and despite neither of them being very financially comfortable, they pitched in to buy me the game on wii u between the two of them. this gesture, along with the game itself, probably saved my life at the time.
i’ll always remember the first couple of days i had it in hand. my parents were gone on a vacation and my brother to his girlfriend’s for the weekend, so i got to shamelessly stay up playing it until 7am, only stopping to get a couple hours of sleep, get my short weekly shift over with and being back at it without restraint. i got to do so while chatting with our small discord friend group, two of us being in the midst of playing for the first time while three other had experienced it since launch.
i made a beeline for sidon, i wont lie. the zora have been my favorite since majoras mask and it was so rare that wed get a main zora character that wasnt a princess crushing on link. me and my friend group were already talking about botw rp/AUs, and i knew sidon would be my muse and i wanted to get to know him asap.
thet only thing that distracted me from that goal was this little guy. this pony i spotted all the way from the plateau, right outside the magnesis shrine. im an equestrian so the horses were obviously a part of the game i was also really looking forward to, but this pony really appealed to me in a way i never managed to explain to my friends. i didnt pay attention to anything the king said because i knew what i was gonna do the second i was gonna get off the plateau. 
i spent all of the few stamina food i’d managed to cook with those measly plateau stamella shrooms getting this guy. i could tell he was upset with me trying to tame him so i’d keep trying to get off, grab apples and feed him, except he’d always start walking off immediately as i got off and i’d panic and get back on.
the sun set, the keese swarms spawned. i was completely lost as to where i should go, whether stables or story-wise. anxious beyond belief because not only did it feel like my pony was gonna buck me off any second but also because i confused the night riding music for guardian spots you music.
i begged my friends to give me directions as to where i could find a place to register this guy. just follow the road, they said, one will show up. the road seems to be leading to the castle, i said. follow the road the other way, they said. after a major heartrate spike from spotting a stalker over the hill near riverside stables, i managed to get him there. with not a rupee to my name. with my friend’s recommendation to look for beedle, i left him in one of the pens shoring the river, hoping i could sell some things before he made his grand escape.
finally i managed to register him. i called him trickster, for all the trouble he put me through. he’s the one i fought dark beast ganon with. he’s never stopped being my favorite horse i ever caught, and, in a way, the token of my finally embarking on the grand adventure that is this game once and for all.
with me saving up to afford the switch a few months later, i hadn’t gotten to see trickster in a very long time until today. but after struggling with setting up all my new hardware, i was able to dump my wii u save file on an emulator, which means now i can see trickster right here on my computer whenever i want. and he looks great !
thanks for the adventure, buddy.
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mreugenekrabs · 4 years
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personal, dont needa read
i saw a video where this girl said her parents always invalidated her feelings and told her she had no reason to cry or have emotion for anything, and i just started bawling. it was just so stark to how i feel bc my parents have NEVER taken me seriously when i explain how they treat me it's always "ur sayin we're bad parents then huh" when obviously they provided me a roof over my head and food for which im grateful for. like yes, they did all the basics but forget to realize that they CONSTNALY held it in front of my face like it wasnt something they were required to give me. like the whole i can take u out of this world retoric (which was advanced for her, i did ALL THE CHORES on some cinderella shit while my brother didnt/ doesnt have to still. i did laundry since i was 12 he doesnt, had to buy all my own school clothes he doesnt, i wasnt allowed to join band cos i was too dumb to practice but he gets piano and drum lessons. i got guitar lessons as a gift once i was 16 from my grandparents but i was like they said, too stupid and too lazy. i never got anything new like an xbox one like he has or xbox money throughout the month "just cos." as a kid. things like this just ended up making me hate and resent my mother. they were tirelessly strict, taking away cable, selling all of my games when i didnt pick them up ONE TIME, taking my phone every night at 8 pm or when i was sick so i couldnt speak to my friends. like im not ungrateful but to this day i dont feel like i have love the way my bfs mom loves him or lena/quens mom loves them. then they say theyre proud of me but proceed to tell me i have no ambition and im doing nothing w my life. it hurts to be called irresponsible by them when ive done nothing but work since i was 14, buy myself my car bc they guilted me after gifting me one of theirs. then was told they wanted me out by 18 and then i do and it's constant shaming over me struggling. constant shaming over my place of work. "are u really gonna be there all ur life." constant shaming for not eating meat. i have things holding me back but the pandemic and a state wide power outage didnt help, but nevermind that. ashley is a piece of shit who has to prove everything in the world to deserve open arms when i need help. i owe them 500$ because my tire blew out and i was short for insurance but never mind my otherwise 100% payment history. i a l w a y s pay them back and it's not unreasonable but it hurts so much when i see others' parents giving money at their poor kiddos with no payback expected and im just left to drown and give away all my tax money every year to them. legit every year ive owed them chunks of tax money just because the year was paying rent car insurance etc etc. they ALWAYS offer to pay and then its PAY US BACK RN. theyve gotten better but im sure if i only get 500$ for taxes she'll take it all no matter how broke i am. just like when i was in the middle of moving and had 1k saved but because she OFFERED TO fix my bad tires of the time, i did it, offered to pay back HALF of the total bc she offered for FREE FOR ONCE and she demanded the full anount a few months later and took ALL MY SAVINGS. :( as soon as i have the means and the time and the stability ill go back to school and move the fuck away but until then i wish theyd leave me alone. really missing being a state away. i sound like an ungrateful brat amd maybe i am i just am tired of seeing everyone around me w such loving mothers while my mom comes over to critique my weight, my YARD, my habits, hanging out w friends / drinking at 21. what she doesn't understand is even my bf is helping me survive. i live off of ramen and potatoes like...... spare emotional intelligence? spare affection beyond a hug after hitting/insulting? she tries to make up for it now, believe me they try but theyre so far up their own asses that im just an annoying brat who they just yell over. months ago bought me new shoes out of nowhere, it seems like she wants to like me but maybe im just the worst child she has :c i had to beg her to admit im a good kid. anyway.
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sirvalrigard · 4 years
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genuinely cannot figure it out. cann you please tell me what the fnaf series is about
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OK OK so like we’re extremely off our shits rn but lets try to make this coherent
edit: this actually turned into a fucking wall of infodump bullshit so adding a cut lol
1970s. a gay furry dad named henry emily decides to make a furry restaurant cause he’s passionate abt animatronics and making kids happy. he opens the restaurant with a man named william afton as his business partner. henry makes animatronics and william handles idk being fucking creepy and handling money is my best guess. the restaurant is called Fredbear’s Family Diner, featuring Fredbear and Spring Bonnie (after a year or two it becomes popular enough for henry to have money to build bonnie, freddy, chica, and foxy too!) 
ok so shits fine and normal until william billiam is like ‘hmm im gonna be a child predator now’
on a rainy night one of henry’s children, Charlie Emily, is locked outside the pizzeria somehow, where william finds and kills them. the security marionette that henry built to protect his kids drags itself outside to their body, and thus is possessed by their spirit
obviously henry is fucked up but no one knew who the killer was, so henry was able to reopen another location, this time under the new name of Freddy Fazbear’s Pizza, with the now familiar friends Bonnie, Freddy, Foxy, and Chica to join the original two! multiple locations are eventually opened, and things are going just fucking fine until WILLY billy does his bullshit again!!
this time he lures them into the back by wearing a Spring Bonnie suit, and kills four children and stuffs their bodies into Bonnie, FReddy, Foxy, and Chica, where Marionette (charlie) finds them and binds their souls to the animatronics
but even though willish addon was employed at the very location he killed kids at, AND he was even convicted as the killer, since police couldnt find the bodies (and are useless) he didnt go to jail which is honestly so accurate its the scariest part of the franchise
so like henry at this point i imagine is like “fuck this” and sells the restaurant line to—you know what? honestly? i would love to know who runs Fazbear Entertainment. with the way help wanted was going i rlly hope we get an expansion on that with them as the villians (destroy capitalism) ANYWAY–
“Fazbear Entertainment” becomes the parent company of this mess now and theyre like :)……oh lets hire that william guy again hes fine
and at this point wwillus is making his OWN fucking pizzeria and his OWN animatronics and is actively kidnapping, torturing, and killing children to steal life essence from their souls! during the process of testing this, he gets his own ‘daughter’ Elizabeth Afton killed!! yeah im not fucking making this up!! (ppl in the fandom really defend this guy lol)
1983. so as Freddy Fazbear’s Pizzas are expanding,  Willard Afturd somehow? got himself some children. like to raise. like as a “““father”““. personally i do like 2 think a mother was involved but honestly he totally coulda just fucking kidnapped some random children to raise as his own and im starting to think thats more plausible  actually BUT ITS NOT GAME THEORY TIIME
one of these kids he is personally torturing! his own “son”! incredible! long story short this traumatized child ( unofficially named CC Afton ) is forced into the mouth of Fredbear by his brother Michael Afton and his friends, aaaand he dies ( and is guided by Charlie to possess Fredbear )
even after years of rumors about dead kids being hidden in animatronics, its this accident is the last straw for Fazbear’s Pizza and they are finally shut down. then WILL rubs his nasty hands together and tries to open his OWN pizzeria with his original OCs do not Steal™, Funtime Freddy, Bon Bon, Ballora, Circus Baby ( possessed by Elizabeth) , and Funtime Foxy and theyre all. probably possessedtoo cause theyre used 4 his kid torture fetish
uh ok so Aphton is like hey michael go clean up my child abuse for me anyway brb so his son Mwanders into his father’s Pizzeria to find his sister elizabeth . long story short…………he finds her and she does the “we’re brothers but closer” spongebob meme but also with her friends
ANd they leave! hooray! from then on the story is about Michael, whos zombified now after being used as a husk to hide an amalgamation of 5 animatronics fucking trying to find his shitty fuckass dad, and to help the anguished and vengeful spirits inside
but the first location to reopen after having been shut down, Wilson AAAAA is employed AND KILLS SOME MORE KIDS who would have guessed omg amazing..stunning.. and michael is employed there JUST a week too late like it happens RIGHT before he’s employed so Wumbo Man gets away again and Fazbear Entertainment gets shut down AGAIN, in 1987
not too many years later Fazbear Entertainment tries to open restaurants yES AGAIN and theyre still using the original animatronics that are still rotting and bloody on the inside . somehow this place stays open for a bit, and michael is employed there still looking for Worst Father Ever, and the children attack him due to rage and confusion, and when they kill another employee, the restaurant is shut down for like the trillionth time
but then for some reason Whenwillhedie Afton is like im gonna go try to dismantle the other haunted animatronics at the shut down pizzerias cause i dont actually even know i have shit for brains and also probably wanted to melt them down for life juice BUT
theyrelike FUCK OFF and the spirits of the children materialize in front of Wellington Well Done and force him into the old crusty spring bonnie suit that he’d murdured in before nd spring is like FUCKy ou and crushesAlton with their animatronic parts aand smush him. trapped now #springbonnieisgoodguy
the spirits go to rest in animatronica, the events of fnafworld happen when: 30 fucing years later in like the 2010s some jackasses thought it would be a good idea to mak e a haunted hoiuse attraction based on fazbear’s pizza and use actual shit from the restaurants and of COURSE this fuck shit up hardcore and disturbs the spirits from the rest that they were in ( until it turned intp the events of FNAF World ) and then they were ripped back into reality when Fazbear’s Fright was built
also! they found WWWacky smacky Acky all rotting away inside Spring Bonnie (now called Springtrap) and were like yeah this is good. definitely not a robot struggling to hold back the influence of a murderer predator and definitely wouldnt haev a problem with being set free
basically michael hears about this thing when it opens and is the first employee there and proceeeds to burn the whole place down as soon as he sees Willmont stuck inside ofs Springtrap
buuuut it doesnt work and Springtrap and other various spirits and haunted robots are still wandering the fuck around and Henry at this point is like Okay I Need To Do Something About This Cause This Is Entirely Out Of Fucking Hand and he reopens a Freddy Fazbear’s location himself, but advertises for a manager who wants to build their own pizzeria
you know who pounces on this like a purple cat? MIKE hes like FUCK yeah egg boys gonna kill his dad and be ann egg MAN today
with the help of Henry’s use  of luring mechanics and michael’s endurance and survival skill they gather Scrap Baby (elizabeth), Lefty (charlie), Scraptrap (springtrap, unfortunately  who has a rotton raisin inside him ), and Molten Freddy (the remaining animatronics that  had jumped into michael’s skin lumped together)
soon as theyre all there ? boom . henry lights the place on fire just like mike had and THEY BOTH JUST SIT THERE AND DIE IN IT TOO LIKE ITS SO METAL and it burns everyone else as well
and all the kids are like
uwu
owo
and drag william afton into HELL!! and they get to torture him for a while together and get the revenge they deserve hell yeah tbh UCN is so iconic
BUT Fazbear Entertainment drinks the capitalism so theyre like…. :((( we’ve been so bullied we totally didnt haev an employee who killed countless children… .pleas,e,e,, buy our mehrch, , n,,jdn
SO they employ an AU version of scott cawthon to make, essentially, the games that we’ve all been playing, but like, in-universe, – so the company in universe has fnaf video games made in order to make light of and cover up the actual murders that happened in the canon. is this too meta yet?
okay i lied this is also the scariest part of the franchise bc of how accurate it is to corrupt business hGJFSKDLHDSS
therefore, they create Help Wanted, the recently released VR game (also a game in-universe) and they use salvaged circuitboards and shit from all the old animatronics to program the game, but of course that just ends up transferring everyone’s soul into the game – the kids, the animatronic AIs, and BASTARD MAN
spring bonnie, now called Glitchtrap, is in a deteriorated mental state and is weak to Afton’s influence, and the fuck is able to manipulate an unknown amount of people into helping him out of the VR game and into the in-universe real world. one of these people was jeremy fitzgerald, michael afton’s childhood friend and a former employee at Fazbear’s Pizza during 1987.
he was involved in a lawsuit against the company making the game, and we don’t know what has happened to him yet. but he’s very important. evidence points to him being one of the kids that helped michael put CC’s head into Fredbear’s mouth, and that in 1987 when working at freddys he was bitten and is somehow functioning without a frontal lobe (but like, michael at this point is functioning with insides made of pudding and rotting skin so . basically theyre both too gay to die )
but we DO know that theres at least one person communicating directly with Glitchtrap, who he seems to have convinced to help set him free, someone whos made their own rabbit mask but doesnt seem to be willingly doing this, and might be brainwashed
also, currently, (this is really weird because we are currently living in the same time as the fnaf timeline is at right now) Fazbear Entertainment is planning on a “service program” that is basically sending personal animatronics to peoples houses and GUESS how fucking well THAT works out bc theyre STILL ALL HAUNTED YOuf g
and it seems like theyre planning on opening a new location in 2020, and that might be when we can learn more about the reluctant follower of springtrap and who has the camera while everyone moshes on william aftons corpse
basically the games are about childhood trauma, recovery, the love of family and friends, and justice against many kinds of evils
also where the fuck is sammy
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kattimariias · 5 years
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movie sonic hcs bc why not
hes 12-14
sometimes makes snort noises when looking for something
purrs when relaxed
can speak the language of just normal ass animals, mainly owls
his owl mom tried to teach him how to swim once when he was younger. he got a little too carried away by trying to swim further into the lake, which led to him almost drowning. hes had a fear of deep water since then and refuses to go anywhere near it
used to living in nests, trees, and eating weird stuff
tended to stress his mom out due to being rlly active during the day, and she did not want him getting into possible trouble
initially he was really scared of humans due to his mother telling him that they were dangerous, especially since they werent used to his kind. tom and nan help him get out of this mindset tho
speaking of said tree? it was harvested, and while he managed to get out of there safely, his mom didnt make it (i hc her as a spotted owl since they have a subspecies in california, and the species in general’s main threat is timber harvesting)
his fear of humans worsen after that and he occasionally has nightmares of both the swimming incident and his mother’s death. he refuses to talk about both to anyone since its too much for him
he really wishes he could’ve done better to save his mom. its why he always tries to save parents so no one has to go through what he went through, and to make up for what he did “wrong” (there wasnt really much he could do since he wasnt there when the trees fell)
generally more emotionally sensitive than modern and classic sonic, since he isnt a well known hero yet and he doesnt have much of a reason to hide things, and plus hes like. in his early teens
half of this is so angsty already jfc me
car rides bore the shit out of him. he wants to Run
anthros in his planet have primarily elemental powers, but also secondary powers that connect to primary! hes basically electric/speed
his first attempt at spindashing led to him bumping into a wall
he loves carnivals bc he is keen towards places with lots of movement
doesnt know that swears are bad until he randomly said “fuck” once
whenever hes anxious, his quills tend to fall out (but since he has ~powers~ they quickly grow back in)
whenever hes in water thats not too deep, he floats on his back
most of his noises are rlly cute squeaks
chilidogs are so DELICIOUS to him that he feels like hes on another planet whenever he eats them
saw the sonic restaurant once and couldnt stop cracking jokes about it
walked on all fours often when he was younger and he still occasionally does it (usually whenever hes sitting somewhere and it transitions into just walking/running on two legs)
secretly likes ear scratches
tom buys him a phone and he plays mobile games everyday. sends memes to tom and nan every five minutes, overuses XD and keysmashes a lot, and fuckin eats up old ass memes
then he got fortnite and took note of all the dance emotes
also ofc he has a tiktok account. his first one was him running around and lipsyncing blue by effiel 65
sometimes wishes that other anthros like him lived on earth. even though hes under tom and nan’s care now, theres still slight loneliness lingering
he pays more attention to the beat of music, so when hes asked why he listens to gangster’s paradise hes like “because it’s catchy???”, then hes told about the meaning and hes just like “o_o”
he has fangs and hes not afraid to bite idc about what the currently known model tells me
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zombeamik · 5 years
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OKAY LIVE REACTION TO RIKAS BACKSTORY DLC HERE WE GO
okay so spoilers again lol
okay so i thought when you played the scret ending 1? riaks backstory was free? e-e
HAHA NVM WAS JUST THE FIRST EPISODE time to go buy 330 hour glasses ANYWAYS
okay seriosuly thing for people who dont like Rika, for what she did. You should honestly play her backstory.. it really could clear some things up for you, and it may chnage your mind, just abit hopefully.
you shouldnt just say no to story, just because you don’t like her.
Of course, if you really dont want to read it fine, but it can probably really help.
Episode 1
this god lady sounds like Jaehee tbh SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE OH Mina is Rikas real name :3 How cute already liking this. WONT BE ABLE TO AFFORD THE RETS OF IT THOUGH
Mina/Rika, they really didnt deserve what happened to them.
HOLY FCUK I HONESTLY THOUGHT MIKA WAS FUCKING RIKA BUT IT WAS THE OTHER WAY AROUND OKAY OR AM I GETTING TI MIXED UP?
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okay gotta buy 330 hours glasses but THEN ILL CONTINUE MY REACTION
OKAY IM BACK TO REACT AND TO CRY OKAY COOL
the game didnt like me buying more hourglasses o it decided to messwith mu audio.
okay had to restart my phone THANKS ANOTHER SETBACK
Episode 2
okay so, i like Mika back here. BUT WHAT I SAW IN THE V ROUTE, thats not cool Mika. you were kinda okay? you were already a little manipulative to a three year old. “My little sister, should always have short hair” how about you shut up. Twins? All she ever wated was to be loved and not taken away from her “Twin”, Maybe thats why she cared so much for Saeran and Saeyoung before she ddi what she did. Mika no, no. You’re the one who put those awful things in Minas/Rikas mind ugh okay i go back to not liking her, that was very fast.
Okay grown up Rika/Mina, okay rika i like you when you arent doing ur creepy eyes. UGH honestly im so mad at Mika, honestly the fuck. CUTE PICTURES OF V AND RIKA YES okay i know, i like V and all but tbh they were cute together.
excuse me V you shouldve said THATS WHY I ADORE UR SUN BC THATS ALL SHE NEEDED TO HEAR, she didnt want to hear that you loved her because of her darkness.  She wnated someone to love her, or show her a tiny bit of warmth so she could find the light inside her. So, so far, Mika is the one who introducded her to this “darkness” SO UNLESS RIKAS BACKSTORY CAN GIVE ME A REASON TO NOT DISLIKE MIKA AND FORGIVE HER I WILL GLADLY TAKE IT.
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Episode 3
THATS THE FIRST THING I OPEN UP TO? 
UR SO CREEPY, WHY DID GOD SEND YOU? THE FUCK WHAT KIND OF ASSHOLE ADOPTIVE PARENTS ARE YOU
sorry what?
Mina, Serena
Im glad she went with Rika, I like Mina, but Rika ive gotten used to it. Maybe she’ll go back to Mina one day?
Oh. Okay i dont like Rika/Mina/Serena’s Mother. and the pastor, no wonder she started a cult, i mena look at his outfit. WHAT KIND OF SHITTY PASTOR ARE YOU
NO WONDER SHE STARTED A FUCKING CULT, YOU ARE ALL DOUCHEBAGSSSSSSSS
“NEEDS ALOT OF PRAYERS” how about you shut up, man,  Pastor my fucking ass, Devil worshipper is more fucking likely.
excuse me pastor, your voice in my ears IS FUCKING CREEPY DO YOU MIND
UR LIKE A PERVERT
“ your body has grown, is it satan?” HOW ABOUT YOU MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS AND LEAVE HER ALONE
yep, i fully understamd now why she created a cult. okay im only on 3 of 8 but still
EXCUSE ME LADY, YOUR DAUGHTER CLEARLY SAID NOT O GOING WITH THE PASTOR LEARN SOME FUCKING MANNERS AND DONT BE A RUDE BITCH
I THOUGHT WE WERE LOOKING FOR HER FATHER?
WHY DID WE FIND MIKA IM SO CONFUSED
oh, her dads the head of the hospital, okay. all good.
YEAH YOU TELL HIM MIKA
YEAH THANK YOU NURSE KICK HIM OUT P[LEASE
WEEE THANKS NURSE
she just wnated to be free from hatred? 
BUT NOBODY WOULD ALLOW HER, THEY KEPT PUSHING HER FURTHER INTO THE DARKNESS
okay gone back to not liking Mika just abit
oh.
now i dont know?
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Episode 4
THATS NOT WHAT I WANTED TO HEAR EITHER
Mika had cacner in her eyes.
Mika lived a while though, so her dad must have paid the bills.
MIKA LIED ABOUT THE PHONE NUMBER AND THE ADRESS THE FCUK
Did she really grow up at the orphange? PROBABLY FUCKING NOT
I was just feeling sad for her, but then she did that.
WAIT RIKA HONEY NO ITS NOT YOUR FAULT OF WHAT HAPPENED.
Oh.
so she made V blind because of that?
PUPPY
okay no, no new puppy then.
MS. HEAD OF THE RFA
no v, shes brainwashed him.
THE BOTANICAL GARDEN
No V you should focus on saeyoung because ive turned saeran into somebody i regret now.
Rika no.
you didnt have to shut everyone out, 
he asked you to leave?
Ugh im so confused?
WELL MIKA WAS RIGHT TEACHER THEY WERE BAD PARENTS
GROSS PASTOR PLEASE DONT SAY LITTLE LABM AROUND MINA, THATS CREEPY
Oh.
right yeah, she only separated saeran and saeyoung because of their parents.
Mika, why. 
she didnt have to lie about the orphanage, and then why you said you made Rika think it was all her fault, and then ugh
A FUCKING PUPPY 
WAIT SALLY
SHUT UP MOTHER, ITS A CUTE DOG AND WE BOTH LOVE IT
YEAH SALLY YOU GROWL AT HER
Oh.
I KNEW IT
the pastor is a creep, a pervert, child molester
EXCUSE ME MOTHER?
THATS THE FUCKING RITUAL TO GET SATAN OUT OF HER? 
EXCUSE ME THAT IS FUCKING ILLEGAL PASTOR OR NOT
dont fucking freak out, you told her to leave because you didnt want sally in the house and now your like THE FUCK YOU GOING SERENA HUH? ugh
Rika no, that isnt the right choice.
EXCUS ME MIKA DIED?
THEN WHO THE FUCK WAS THERE WHEN RIKA WAS OLDER
DID MIKA LIE ABOUT DYING?
SALLY UR SO CUTE
oh bad momesnt to mention sally being cute.
listen, all rika every wanted was to love someone.
defo a cult, Believer’s? This some sort of god cult.
WAIT NO SALLY DONT CRY
oh she was 16.
oh dear.
well that was a roller coaster
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Episode 5
great she started working a church, and became a nun. even more fantastic
OH SWEET HER NAME IS FINALLY RIKA
I do like the names Mina and Serena but still Rika.
well wjat she thought she was doing was okay. Not wanting anyone to be abandoned?
she just uh turned it into something alot bigger than helping out at a church
She only treated people the way she did was because she didnt know how loving parents acted, so what she thought she was doing was right to her, since she didnt know anything else.
okay so shes 18.
and she wnated to shoe people her light instesd fo her darkness
AN THEN SHE MEETS V
OH THE CLOUD PHOTO, man when she looked at it she said Mother, because thats the first thing that came to mind. 
SHE JUST WNATED TO BE A SUN BUT DIDNT KNOW HOW
SAEYOUNG
WHY DOES TINY SAEYOUNG SOUND LIKE BIG SAEYOUNG
oh
yeah she thought that of she didnt protect saeyoung he’d rot just like Mika.
heh
Oh.
she could see her and mIka in him so she grew attached
she onyl wanted to do good
Rika the Angel but she thought of herself as Rika the Devil ok
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Episode 6
YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOSUNG
okay so she didnt want yoosung to find out about her darkness
Rika honey, its okay. he still would ahve loved you.
Okay so Oh got it okay.
Yoosung is the son of rikas mothers sister,
SHE WAS SO WORRIED HE’D BE RUINED IF HE STAYED CLOSE
RIKA NO DONT OUT YOURSELF DOWN
YOU’RE EQUAL TO YOOSUNG D:
REUSING PHOTOS ARENT YOU CHERITZ OK
BUT HYE V
she couldnt feel anything? well V is both light and dark rika.
man v still doesnt know rikas real name BUT WE DOOOOO
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episode 7
Man v ur kinda smooth with words but at the same time like you just met.
V MAKE UP UR FUCKING MIND
okay so she modelled for V and then when she was doing that they didnt talk much? man V atleast tell her she did good. how rude.
ZENNNN
v the fuck you didnt even say goodbye, just IM GONNA GO GRAB MY CAMERA AND THEN FCUKING WALK OFF
V no.
you didnt even compliment her or anything, you just said heres lets take pictures but we aint gonna talk and thn when your done, i aint gonna say you did well or anything like that.
V you kinda an asshole.
NO SALLY
okay shes fine.
V was just curious about me because im not like the rest”
kinda sounds like it,
YES RIKA YOU DO DESERVE THE SUN HONEY
YOU ARE THE SUN I THOUGHT WE ALREADY ESTABLISHED THIS
oh so it was Mina that wanted to be loved.
well shes still a prt of you rika, so that measn you wanted to be loved aswell.
okay so she stopped visiting V
V came to visit her
make up your fuckingmind V
“Heathen Cult”
well yeah basically.
JUMIN
V WHAT THE FUCK
“ can you show me how dark you are?”
HOW ABOUT A FUCKING NO
SHE CLEARLYT SAID NO V
YOU BETTER NOT FUCKING PUSH HER TO SHOW YOU
okay all good
she told V everything
and she scared she;ll end up like Mika.
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
ANOTHER V AND RIKA PHOTO
HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGS
WAIT HONEY DONT CRY
MINA YEEE
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LAST EPISODE 
wow thats fast.
okay so saeyoung went abroad and then she stopped disagreeing when saeren was saved
then she met Jumin a year later, sweet.
HAPPY ENDING
WELL YOU HAVE ONE NOW RIKA UR HAPPY AND YEEE
okay so then she got her aparement
and then she dint know if things to turn to the worst or the best
well id say the worst but you did save alot of people.
you may have brainwashed them but they would ahve probably died without her help.
MIKA UR STILL ALIVE
UR BLIND THO
OH
YUP OKAY GOT IT
MIKA DIDNT TURST V SO RIKA WAS LIKE OK YEAH I DONT EITHER BC UR ALWAYSSSSSS RIGHT
right.
Mina believed her.
so she agreed.
SO CUTE
WHAT
MIKA NO
USE SAERAN AND YRUN HIM INTO A HACKER
HOW ABOUT YOU SHUT UP MIKA
IM BACK TO NOT LIKING YOU
MINA 
YOU
YOU MANIPULATED MINA INTO DOING YOUR DIRTY WORK
SHE TRUSTED AND YOU
AND YOU USED HER
“I must not use that boy. I must save him”
WELL THANK YOU RIKA
what kind of bullshit is that.
WELL YOU SHOULD DEFIENTLY TELL V BUT WHEN MIKA SAY NO YOU GOTTA AGREE BECAUSE MINA TRUSTS HER
EXCUS EME RIKA
MINA WAS THE LIGHT
mika is the dark
mika just please shut up.
okay she died. thats sad but like
NOT AFTER WHAT YOU DID
CUTE PHOTO OF RIKA YES
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Thoughts
thst was um
one crazy ride
AND I WAS THERE FOR IT
so glad i read it.
even if you dont like rika at all
please do
its worth it.
as you can see my thoughts were jumbled in the actual live reaction
but it makes alot of sense kind aof?
im to lazy to write a review so thats the best you’re gonna get.
Its really good, to actually understand why Rika/Mina/Serena turned out the way she was.
i mena i already forgave her in the V ending
but even though she did those bad things, if someone just loved her and didnt feeed her with horrible views of the world, she was still a caring girl even though the darkness took a hold of her,
Im not glad of what happened to her, but if it didnt we would have never even met anyone. so as mucha s i hate to say it, im glad of what happened, and 100% glad we could help her through with it.
Okay, well that was fun.
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flairandpassion · 7 years
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tagged by @moreracquetball thanks for tagging me c: this is like the longest post ive ever been tagged in so that’s fun :D
I tag @subtleglories @chickenmerengo @stephaniejblockmotherme @eldertwelvecupsofcoffee @elderandrew @weisenbxchfelds @nikolaevna-romanova @whizzerbrwn @strengthsbasedmediocrity @wihzzerbrown @livefortissimo @whizzerbrowne also if you wanna just go ahead and do it and tag people, go right on ahead! you can consider yourself tagged by me haha
last 
1. drink? five alive mango citrus
2. phone call? my mom
3. text message? my dad
4. song you listened to? making a home (falsettos)
5. time you cried? it was in may, on my road trip to ~ orlando ~ and it was ‘cuz my cousins were bullying me and usually it’s good-natured teasing but it was getting a bit much so i ended up crying in front of them lmao (but i had a lot of fun, and i definitely sang kevin’s “ORLANDO” way too much)
have you ever
6. dated someone twice? nope
7. kissed someone and regretted it? no
8. been cheated on? no
9. lost someone special? no
10. gotten drunk and thrown up? lol yes
favorite colors:
11. red
12. golden yellow
13. navy blue
in the last year have you
14. made new friends? yes!
15. fallen out of love? nope
16. laughed until you cried? i think so? probably; i laugh a lot and i laugh often
17. found out someone was talking about you? yes
18. met someone who changed you? no
19. found out who your friends are? kind of? in this last year, ive kinda been finding out who *i* am, and as a result, im finding out who really appreciates me for me, and that’s nice
20. kissed someone on your facebook list? nooope
general:
21. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life? most of them
22. do you have any pets? nah, but i live with a dog who belongs to my ex-roommate
23. do you want to change your name? no, i quite like it :)
24. what did you do for your last birthday? i cleaned my room in the morning, my parents sent me these delicious chocolate strawberries, i watched the newsies pro-shoot with one of my best friends, we went out to eat korean food, and then bought drinks and came back home to finish act two of newsies--it was one of my favourite birthdays!
25. what time did you wake up? 10am? i had an alarm for 8am but it just didnt work out lol
26. what were you doing at midnight last night? i got frustrated i couldnt sleep so i pulled out my tablet and reread the second chapter of @moreracquetball‘s “the games i play” because honestly it’s such a good note to end the day on
27. name something you can’t wait for? ive decided i want to go to a sparring class on friday and the instructor’s kind of cute, so if im being completely honest, then that! but there’s a lot of other things, like dodie’s new ep, and im heading to skyzone, and falsettos being on broadwayhd! it’s been a good month of exciting things
28. when was the last time you saw your mom? on monday (two days ago)
29. what are you listening to right now? the sounds of the city outside; i live by a highway so i hear cars passing all the time and it’s soothing
30. have you ever talked to a person named tom? yeah! it took me a bit to remember, but i knew a guy in high school names thomas so i guess he counts? although now im second-guessing his name l o l
31. something that is getting on your nerves? my inability to take care of myself and my eating habits; i always forget to eat and it’s so bad
32. most visited website? ao3
34. long or short hair? short
35. do you have a crush on someone? the closest thing would probably be finding that instructor cute, but i dont think it really counts as a crush
36. what do you like about yourself? my enthusiasm! i’d also like to think i’m pretty open-minded and good at listening
37. piercing? just my ears
38. bloodtype? O+ ?
39. nickname? my name is basically already a nickname, so i dont really have one that has stuck
40. relationship status? single
41. zodiac? cancer
42. pronouns? she/her
43. favorite tv show? bbc merlin (find me on my main blog @reineyday if you like merlin as well #shamelessselfpromo)
44. tattoos? yep! a merlin on my left arm, a crown (king arthur’s tbh, but it also kinda refers to my name as well) on my right arm, a small stick-and-poke umbrella on my right heel (it’s a pun), and i kinda want a fortissimo tattoo on my left ankle bc falsettos tbh, but i want to know how to read music properly before i get it
45. right or left handed? right handed
46. surgery? yeah ive had surgery on my ears multiple times (my ear drums, to be specific)
47. sport? taekwondo, and also rock climbing
48. vacation? yes please! right now, i most want a new york trip to see more broadway shows, but i’ll honestly take anywhere new
49. pair of trainers? im not exactly sure what trainers refer to, but i wear those standard red converse
more general
50. eating: nothing rn, and im wondering if that is a correct move to make
51. drinking: nothing rn, but i just finished my five alive
52. i’m about to: finish a cover letter, download some stuff, buy tickets to a thing, and head to bed... lowkey thinking about putting off the cover letter tho
53. waiting for: the perfect time to listen to the last act of “36 questions” cuz ive been too tired to listen to it and properly appreciate it, y’know?
54. want: a falsettos movie poster
55. get married? maybe? probably? ideally? who tf knows
56. career? something artsy; the pipe dream right now is musical theatre--being on stage singing, or being backstage doing lighting or set designing--and even though the pipe dream changes from time to time, it’s always in an artistic direction
which is better
57. hugs or kisses? hugs? i havent really kissed enough to make an informed decision
58. lips or eyes? eyes
59. shorter or taller? taller, but short is good too
60. older or younger? older
61. nice arms or nice stomach? arms are the more visible of the two, but nice stomachs are great too, so can i say both?
62. hook up or relationship? relationship
63. troublemaker or hesitant? both have their appeals
have you ever
64. kissed a stranger? nope
65. drank hard liquor? yeah
66. lost glasses/contacts? yeah lol
67. turned someone down? yeah, but it was like, the fourth grade l o l
68. had sex on the first date? lol no
69. broken someones heart? nah, unless my mom counts (sorry mom)
70. had your heart broken? i dont think so, no
71. been arrested? nah
72. cried when someone died? no, but i think it’s just cuz ive been lucky enough not to have lost anyone close enough to me to prompt tears (unless we’re talking fictional deaths, ‘cuz i’ve cried at many of those)
73. fallen for a friend? yeah :/
do you believe in
74. yourself? on most days, i do :)
75. miracles? yeah, i think so
76. love at first sight? nah
77. santa? no, but i like thinking he exists--i believe in him like i believe in angels (see #79)
78. kiss on the first date? sure c:
79. angels? only in a fanciful way? i believe in angels like i believe in anything else i come to know about through stories
other
80. current best friend’s name: robyne; kristine; carolyn; elaine
81. eye color: brown
82. favorite movie: about time; eternal sunshine of the spotless mind; tangled
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akagoddammit · 7 years
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AKA Letter || Solo
summary: jessica writes a letter to trish
trigger warnings: death (obvs), implied past abuse, suicidal ideation,  nothing graphic 
trish,
you goddamn promised. you swore i wouldnt lose you.
but i guess we’ve broken a lot of promises to each other over the years. like when we were sixteen, and i promised i wouldnt let your mom find out about that party you threw when she was gone. but at least then i was there. i stopped her. kept you safe.
im sorry. christ, trish, im so goddamn sorry. and if you could actually read this stupid bullshit pointless letter, you’d tell me i have nothing to be sorry for. but i do. i heard it, i heard you say my name, and i wasn’t there. i wasn’t there to be the hero you wanted me to be. the hero you always thought i could be.
idk if i can. idk if ‘heroes’ are supposed to write letters like this on a legal pad, with hands that wont stop shaking. (idk if thats bc i havent had a drink since that night or if its... shit.) idk if heroes are supposed to be this goddamn screwed up. you werent. whatever you mightve thought. i know you, i know you still thought you’d never be good enough, that you never quite got her voice out of your head (i know how hard that is, too, how loud they can be). i know you wanted to save all those girls, all those people suffering and lost, because you were still so ashamed of what you went through. but it wasnt your fault. it never was.
i dont think i told you that enough. idk if a thousand times wouldve been enough, bc jesus, how many times did you tell me reva wasn’t my fault? that hope wasn’t? or ruben or wendy or his parents, or him. and i never believed you. i didnt listen. you were trying to pull me out of the water, but i was too busy drowning myself in goddamn pity.
christ, i still am. but im trying, trish. i really am. im sorry, sorry i was too -- whatever, stubborn or stupid or blind, sorry i didnt do this earlier. im not drinking anymore. trying not to. i know it bugged you, but we didn’t talk about it. i used to downplay it around you, believe it or not. i didnt want you to know what a goddamn mess i was. 
you probably did anyway. you knew everything about me, even when i couldnt say. christ, theres so much i didnt say. so much i didnt say enough.
i love you.
im proud of you.
i missed you too, all those months you were missing me. 
you were my hero.
you still are.
i googled this twelve steps shit. i didnt remember them from when you used to go. but this one, this thing about a ‘higher power?’ thats one ive always had an issue with. but this one site, it said a higher power doesnt have to mean god. it can mean ‘recovery itself’ or the meeting, or your support system -- whatever you need it to mean.
my higher power is you, trish. it always has been. i ask myself all the time, what would trish do? you were always so much better than i was, better at comforting people, better at being a person. hell, you were a better hero than i was too. you had the heart for it. you believed in it, more than i ever did.
but you believed in me, too. and thats going to have to be enough, at least for now. bc im gonna be the hero you wanted me to be. im really gonna do it. im not wearing the stupid costume, i still say jewel is a stripper’s name... but im gonna do it. shit, i might even use the name. just for you. 
im gonna find who did this to you. and im gonna do what you wouldve done -- im gonna do it right. im gonna make it right, trish. you deserve that. you deserve so much more.
you know the one thing i never told you, about kilgrave? (his name isnt so goddamn terrifying in my head anymore. his ghost doesnt even goddamn matter.) he got me pregnant. right before the bus crash. i didnt even know at first, but i figured it out. and i took care of it myself, made the appointment, because i couldnt look you in the eye and tell you about it. i’ve never told anyone, but i especially couldnt tell you. bc i know somehow, you would’ve found a way to make even that okay, you probably wouldnt have even been mad that i lied to you about why i was so goddamn sick back then. you always knew exactly what to say. im gonna miss that. 
im gonna miss a lot of shit.
i used to think those street names, main street, birch street, higgins drive, cobalt lane, that those were the only happy memories i had left. but they weren’t. i had you, too. sitting on your couch and throwing popcorn at the screen. growing up with you, breaking god knows how many of your hair brushes. the way you used to look at me whenever i showed up on your balcony. that little smile like you were trying to be annoyed, but you really goddamn weren’t. the way we used to pretend id eventually buy you dinner one day. how you kept fixing my door, even though it’d just be broken again two weeks later. listening to you on the radio. falling asleep on the couch, in the middle of gone girl for the thousandth time. 
i’d give anything to watch it one more time with you. i’d stay awake the entire goddamn time.
but that’s just what if, if only. and i know how pointless that game is.
thanks for trying to put me back together. for never giving up on me, for always giving me whatever i asked for. for being there, that night on the docks. for driving me around in your car and not caring when i bled on the seats. for wrapping my ribs and tucking me in on your couch, and for never letting me throw my life away completely.
thanks for being the best goddamn sister i could’ve asked for.
i love you. 
im still pissed that you died, but i love you. so much.
maybe i’ll even take your other bit of advice sometime. maybe after this is done, i’ll let myself be happy. it’s hard to imagine that without you. you should be here for it. 
your sister,
jessica jones
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bi-dazai · 6 years
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like i am TRYING!!! so hard to get back on good terms with her!!! and honestly with the shit she pulls i shouldnt even be giving her this!! but im fucking caring and generous and i always give too many second chances, but often it turns out okay bc in that time the person can realise what theyre doing and apologise and try to change!!!
but oh man!!! 
lets just start on the shit that she did that made me move out:
1. call women “dykes” - even after i told her that, as a straight woman, she couldnt fucking say that word
2. was emotionally manipulative and selfish when i opened up to her, leaving me permanently afraid of ever being vulnerable
3. when i confessed that my anxiety and stress was so bad i literally hadnt had a sex drive for at least two years, her solution was not “let my daughter vent about her troubles” but “i’ll buy you a vibrator” and then not listening when i was visibly uncomfortable and repulsed by this and going ahead and doing it anyway, then getting offended when i got angry at her when she revealed what shed done when it came in the mail and she tried to give it to me
4. going off 3 - never actually respecting my fucking wishes. i said i didnt want a therapist bc and she booked me an appntmnt with a therapist. i said i didnt want to see her at all when i went to live at my dad’s and LITERALLY the next day she came in and tried to talk to me. it took WEEKS of my dad arguing until she actually fucked off. and it extends to the small things as well - eg my brother went to get a massage, my mum asked if i wanted one too, i said no, next thing i know shes booked a double appointment anyway. she really does NOT respect what i say, she thinks she “knows best”
5. about no 2 - confessed all her problems (i mean ALL) to a 10 yr old me, and then whenever i tried to vent to her bc i thought we were close she would speak over me, play the “my suffering is worse than yours” game, and then proceed to never let me actually talk about my feelings bc she used MY TRUST to vent about her own problems when id come to talk about mine. 
6. is a fucking ungrateful bitch. stayed at my dad’s house for a wk after an operation bc my dad wanted her close to the hospital and with someone else in case she needed to be rushed to the er. we cooked for her, looked after her house while she was at ours - my brother spent the night of his own 14th bday sleeping on the couch so she could sleep in his bed - and her thoughts?? “i hate being under ivan’s [my dad] control”. dismisses any kind action. 
7. would guilt trip me and my brother by saying “you dont love me” “you dont appreciate me” “you dont do enough for me” etc while i’m literally the one fucking dealing with her own problems on top of mine, AND the one who talks to her the most, AND the one who actually stood up for her when my dad or my brother were being genuinely nasty to her. and that doesnt even cut it to the fact that being a parent is not going to be an equal fucking exchange between parent and child - the child didnt sign up for being born. AND let’s not get to the fact that, when she started saying shit like this, i was about 12 and my brother was 9.
8. threatened to leave home and me and my brother behind via a fucking text. while at school. this year (my last year of hs). causing me to have a breakdown and an anxiety attack and having to get the school police officer to BREAK INTO her house to talk her out of it.
9. spanked us as kids, threatened to hit us with a wooden spoon, once did with me when she was drunk off her ass (which was fucking often in my childhood), would apologise for it the next day (so she remembered it happened) but end up doing it again some time the same week, mostly to me bc i was oldest and also probably autistic at that stage so didnt quite function the best socially with my brother, but then denies that she ever did it now. i would remember being physically abused bc i yelled too loud for your drunk ass when i was 7, thanks.
the list goes on and fucking on!! im so FUCKING done!!!!!! i cant stand being in this shitpile anymore with her! bc its just tension! every day something has happened which is just honestly a microcosm of how it was when i properly lived w/ her! and tonight it was the lesbophobia and the talking over me and my brother and her ganging up on me, nights before it was just random statements shed say (lets not mention the onslaught of racial slurs which she “justified” when i told her not to say them by saying she was parodying the ppl who use them), and i dont want to fall into the pit i just fucking got out of! so as soon as my dad has his free days then im returning back to my home and avoiding her for the next week. 
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