#biggest take away is GAY and also I’m glad my sad boy got to be loved and love in return

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Just finished Day of Fallen Night and I need a prequel of the prequel now I really really do

#Status Update #IT TOOK ME SO LONG BUT I FINALLY DID IT!!!!!!! #ITS DONE!!!!!! #AND IT WAS SO SO GOOD #now I wanna reread priory #biggest take away is GAY and also I’m glad my sad boy got to be loved and love in return #also someone PLEASE hug the teenager she’s threatening Viking torture methods #ANYWAYS FANTASTIC BOOK HIGHLY RECOMMEND VERY VERY GOOD GO READ YES YES

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VIOLETTA UNPOPULAR OPINIONS, GO!

OH FUCK YES

Tomas was very whiny. I can understand how you could like him and why you’d want him and Violetta to be endgame, but tbh he was just. Always whiny and blamed everyone else. I lost all respect for him as an 11yo when I first watched the episode where he was like ”The kiss you gave Leon was my kiss. I can’t get over it”

Lara was NICE. She was SUPPORTIVE and WANTED THE BEST for Leon. She didn’t even dislike Violetta. Sure, she could make some comments towards her, but nothing was mean spirited. I don’t know why she just disappeard

Same for Braco, Napo and Luca. I absolutely support Tomas going back to Spain (lol) but the rest?? Where are you, come back!

I think Jade and Matias were just uneccessary after the first season. I feel like they were only there for comic relief, but tbh they just take up scenes I feel like other characters can get. Like BRACO AND NAPO AND LUCA.

It would have been pretty fun in my opinion if Esmeralda were out for stealing German’s money herself, without having Jade and Matias there. Like, her seeming like the perfect woman, and then as we go by, we realise something is not right, and we find out before the wedding exactly what has happened

I don’t mind the english dub, but it fucking sucks in season 1, sorry not sorry, and I think that is a reason Violetta never got as popular in english speaking countries. Plus, Violetta’s english singing voice is weird in season 1. But in season 2 her english singing voice got a complete GLOWUP, so I like that. But also, the english dub sometimes don’t translate correctly. They changed funny lines as ”Oh, a mexican” and ”What is up with this girl and astronomy?” to ”Oh, they’re arguing!” and ”I wish I learned astronomy in kindergarden”. Why??

I understand that, in season 2 when the characters were gonna sing in another language, the english dub had to come up with a new language. The only problem is that I personally don’t understand french at all and I didn’t know Camila was pronouncing everything wrong. I sort of wish the swedish dub (that I grew up with) had the original spanish songs, because we got the english dubbed songs, and swedish kids know english better than french, so I think we would understand if Camila pronounced english wrong

I did not care for Clement and Gery at all and I sometimes forget they exist

Sometimes I think Angie would’ve been happier if she ended up with Pablo

The last 10 episodes of season 2 >>>>> all other episodes

The end of ep75 of s2 always makes me emotional. Just... Violetta crying on stage, not being able to sing, LEON SAVES HER. Leonetta may not be the most stable couple but THAT IS LOVE

And also ep76-80 in season 2, where everyone is so bummed out and sad. I feel for them and I get so happy every time when they DO finish the song, Vilu DOES get her father back, everything is GOOD again.

The Roxy and Fausta storyline was always weird to me, it felt a bit ooc. But it was at the same time kind of funny. I think what I would do if I rewrote it is to still make them dress up as them, but not to spy on Leon. They... just dress up for another reason. Maybe to sneak into the kareoke bar because they weren’t allowed there anymore or something

Honestly season 3 is just in general a little off to me. Nothing is really the same. Maybe it’s this... less colorful filter it has on it? Idk it feels like s3 has this lighter shade on it. Maybe to reflect that the characters are older now. Or smth

I also feel like some characters in season 3 just changed personality. Violetta is much more stubborn and short tempered than before. They try really hard to show that DIEGO HAS CHANGED, HE IS NICE NOW. Which, yeah, I get it, but it’s just a little funny seeing him be a manipulative stalker and now he’s sweet Diego on guitar

I tbh never cared about Francesca’s love life. Everyone was like ”OMG DIECESCA IS MY OTP” and I’ve been like ”??? Fran hated him last season what?”. I’m not hating on Diecesca, they are a lovely couple, but I just never really... cared? I didn’t care about Marco much either. They were sweet? Then he couldn’t stop sending flowers and I’m like ”dude calm down”. And Fran’s relationship with Tomas wasn’t very good. The only relationships with Fran I cared about was her friendships and her relationship with her brother

Priscila is SUCH a psychopath and the second she showed her true sides I wanted to hug Ludmila. Please I hope Ludmila seeks therapy. Poor girl.

Season 3 felt like a fanfiction but the biggest fanfiction in this universe is Tini the movie. We don’t talk about that. What WAS that. I’m so confused. If they wanted to make a Violetta movie they could make a ”reunion” movie or smth, not WHATEVER THAT WAS. Though the visuals and angles are pretty nice.

Llamame with the cowboy hats are the funniest thing I have seen in my life and it felt so off from all the other songs, but ESPECIALLY the version with cowboy hats really gets me cackling

They wasted potential to have LGBTQ+ characters. I get it, it’s Disney, it’s a kids show, it was made in 2012. But I still just feel like... the POTENTIAL. There’s so many characters that gives off queer vibes and I- I don’t know. I feel like the majority is bisexual and then some of them are fully gay/lesbian and the rest are either straight or homophobic

I have since the ripe old age of 11 been a Leonetta shipper, and I still have a very soft spot for them. But recently I have been like ”Francesca and Violetta? Would make a good pair. Germán would approve, Francesca’s not a boy”.

I’m glad Maxi and Cami didn’t end up together, but I also wish they explored that storyline a bit more. Because they kind of just ended it, but then it was still a thing with Marco being mad at Francesca after she didn’t want to tell him Camila kissed Maxi, but then they just... dropped it. Never discussed it ever again. I feel like it just ended on a weird note.

Maxi and Naty are super cute, I love every time Maxi has to turn his cap backwards to kiss her. But Naty also gives off huge lesbian vibes, so now i’m conflicted

I think Gery’s half shaved eyebrow is ugly and now you know

Leon is very chaotic and I think we don’t appreciate him for that. Like, searching his girlfriend up on his motorcross to tell her ”let’s skip school and go and almost kiss at a secret spot in a public park”, calls girlfriend’s overprotective father ”future father in law” before running away, that whole ”LoVe Is LIKe a tHuNDEr” scene-

Diego had more chemisty with Leon than with anyone else in s2

I don’t remember Milton at all and I forgot he was a teacher. What did he do? Like... he yelled at students and that’s all I recall. Then he disappeared? What???

I have lots more but now I can’t come up with more

#violetta #unpopular opinion

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I JUST FOUND OUT BEE AND PUPPYCAT HAD A SECOND SEASON! GUESS WHAT I JUST FINISHED WATCHING!

Oh my fucking god holy shit, my guys! This show. This fucking show. Where do I even start! First off

SPOILERS!!!!!!

YOU DO NOT WANT TO WALK INTO THIS SEASON, THIS SHOW, WITH SPOILERS! DO NOT FUCKING LOOK, THIS IS 1000% SPOILER TERRITORY!!!

So I will be taking the extra step of taking my laptop out, and continuing this on there(and after I wake up because it's 4am and I regret absolutely NONE of this whatsoever because, guys, I love this show with everything I have left to my being, I swear, I will die for a third season)

Warning: This is a long one.

OKOKOKOK! I know I know! It’s been uh...A Month since I first posted this! BUT I am Here Now and Ready!!! I am less than 10 seconds into the first episode of season 2 and I am already So Ready to relive this!!(Dream SMP has Nothing on this show, God I Love This Show Far Too Much!!!!!!)

...First ten minutes...I have So Much I want to say...Just-just a lot of love...

okokokokokokokokokok!!!!!! I think I know how I’m going to do this now! One bullet for each episode! Let’s see if I stick with it.

Gentle Touch

In the first episode we already get a big game changer for Bee and her development. Bee becoming more responsible as a favor for Deckard. He asks her to take care of his family while he’s at cooking school and we already see her doing this. Going out to the ocean with Weasley, going out of her comfort zone for people she’s practically family to, which is why we got the beginning flashback, once again going out of her comfort zone to stop Puppycat from punching kittens, And Finally, coming out from her nap cupboard to face Howl and help pay for bills by eating ugly food.

Little Fingers

Ooh, this one has foreshadowing dream sequence. I would say more about it if it had more significance, but it’s really just what happens to Bee in the last ep. This episode brings more of Bee being responsible, trying to take her phone away from Puppycat so he stops making bad purchases. This episode made me realize what Puppycat’s role is this season, the child. Or something among those lines. He’s the same as he was last season, but it seems/is a bit more exaggerated because Bee isn’t doing the same things anymore. She’s started to care about consequences. And speaking about consequences, Toast announces she’s pregnant while confirming that she’s been staying...in Cass’s room(?)...weird, but ok, and by Tim pointing and Merlin’s reaction, it’s Merlin’s...but also everyone else seemed like they thought they were the culprit and I don’t want to think about the implications of that....MOVING ON-OH WAIT, And Cardamon’s mom is spouting magic tears that messes with the plants, so there’s that.

Snow and Violets

I’m going to be honest, I’m not 100% sure what to put here and I’m loosing steam. (I’ve been awake since 3 am...) But I think I can put something. The situation with Mr. Cup is the definition of being haunted by your past. The guilt and regret of cheating in the past has made him lose his motivation to give it his all in racing because, what’s the point? Motivation and not caring was his norm, so he just stuck with it. Until Bee, and now he can be a rainbow and sleep with less guilt and regret on his conscience. The thing with the island rapidly changing could be one of three things. Something to do with the ship that  Is the island, a metaphor for change, or something really cool the creators just wanted.

Day off Work

Not Too much to note for this ep overall. Puppycat totally did do the ‘wrecking the house in search for the owner’ thing dogs do. Finally, a dog trait! Every time I see Cardamon now I just get sad cause he’s 7, and should Not be doing landlord stuff. Bee showing worry about how Cardamon’s mom is still asleep and being worried about Cardamon himself, I’m just glad someone’s noticing. I keep forgetting that some people haven’t watched the pilot so they don’t know about Puppycat being a Space Outlaw, so when he found all his stuff under the apartment I was less surprised and more excited. The two last things I want to say is I think it’s interesting/cool/intriguing how the Wizard family just takes every weird thing either in stride, unquestioningly, or ignorance. Just trying to pretend it didn’t happen so they don’t have to deal with it(other than Crispin, but he’s coming up). And the last thing I just want to bring to light is CARDAMON BEING SO CUTE IN THE LAST SCENE! JUST BEING A CHILD! AND LAUGHING WITH HIS DOG! ON A FUNNY CHAIR! I LOVE HIM YOUR HONOR AND I WILL PROTECT THAT SMILE WITH MY WHOLE BEING!!!

My Favorite

Note, Pretty Patrick is also The Mayor. Alright. It’s definitely been a few months and you can see the relationship between Howl and Bee has gotten better, not that it was too bad to begin with, just a bit less peeved on Howl’s end. The theme of Bee being responsible is brought into play again with the train station scene. Telling Puppycat to not hit and the way Puppycat was acting around Patrick. All little kid stuff. Which also kind of clashes with what I thought was Puppycat being older than Bee by a lot, I’m honestly slowly getting more and more confused exactly how I should perceive Puppycat. THE FIRST REAL LOOK AT THE HAND GUYS! I’m still not sure what their deals are, but they have a corpse on their hands and that is already the biggest red flag. I have a guess as to what/who they are in relation to Puppycat and, by acquaintance, Bee, but I could be wrong, but I also can’t think of any other people they may be. I’ll bring it back up either the next time we see them or at the end.

Did You Remember

Grampa Puppycat cares about his granddaughter a whole lot. Don’t @ me, their dynamic is more confusing than a moving maze...Now this episode, ooh boy, it feels like a lot, but in a minimal way? First off, Cardamon finally breaks down about the stress of being a 7 year old landlord and Bee takes care of him for the day. Big Sis Bee For The Win! DON’T @ ME I MAKE UP MY OWN FAMILY DYNAMICS!!! Kind of continuing from the first sentence, Puppycat and Bee love each other(I Stand By Platonically For Them) so much already, for them it’s been a little over a year considering Puppycat fell into Bee’s life before her last birthday and now they’re celebrating another one. And I must admit, I can not for the life of me figure out wtf the deal is with the tears. They have little shapes of recent events in them and they make plants weird/straight up just make life! Like, What Even Is That?! Also, Cardamon finally gets a good sleep.

Bird Friend

Ok, so we got more ship pieces, a most likely reason as to why Puppycat was Like That in the last few episodes of season 1 and has been goopy every now and again in this season. Apparently eating things he shouldn’t eat make him Extremely off model and goopy. More hands! But not the rest of them this time around. I wonder if Sticky’s hunt for all the birds has any significance other than showing us another piece. Puppycat breaking down and spilling a few secrets after stress eating off the floor and Bee immediately saying no to someone else telling her what’s wrong with Puppycat and letting him come to her first instead of forcing him is always such a good lesson to have. Also, Cass is into weirdly shaped shiny things.

Two Clown Noses

Ah, it’s this one. The one that Really throws a wrench into the Bee/Deckard ship. THEY’RE BOTH SO CUTE! I CAN’T CHOOSE!!! This entire episode is just Crispin and Bee hanging out with the added angst of the beginning ‘story’. This world is full of such amazingly crazy characters and Crispin’s backstory is one of those crazier ones. Bee and him Lived Together and Know Each Other, he knows she’s a robot! My only question is, what happened that they broke up? WAIT- DID THEY EVEN BREAK UP?! It would be weird if they weren’t because they were living together and then they decide to live separate again would make no sense. I think I just jumped to the weirdest conclusion...Anyway! How would Puppycat get sick? I feel like that was just another thing they added to create different dynamics. The beginning birthday thing and the conclusion felt so real even though the cause was something so out there that I feel like only animated shows like this could pass, but also I feel like someone out there has done something similar, so what do I know. Yeah, not much else about this episode, it was mostly just Bee/Crispin stuff and character stuff. Gosh they’re so cute...but so is Bee/Deckard. Being a multishipper is hard...

Funny Lying

RIGHT! THEY’RE CALLED THE WARLOCKS! THAT’S THE TITLE I WAS FORGETTING! Tim knows everyone’s secrets, comes with the perk of having a lot of time and not talking much, you observe everyone else while they think you’re doing something else. I know from experience. Eavesdropping is a specialty of mine. SHIT THIS IS THE ONE WHERE CASS GETS THE MESSAGE DISSING HER FOR FALLING FOR TOAST FROM A COWORKER! I caught those vibes during the first season, but then the first half of this season came along and I was forced to drop those vibes in favor of cannon because TOAST WAS PREGOS WITH ONE OF CASS’S BROTHER’S KIDS! I’m good at catching gay vibes in fictional worlds, but I’m shit in the real world, just like everything else. And the thing is, we don’t get Any kind of explanation/closure for the entire rest of the season! We see Toast totally shocked reaction, probably moments before she was going to sneak attack Cass, but froze upon seeing that text. AND WE GET NOTHING ABOUT THAT FOR THE REST OF THE SEASON! Anyway, that was only like 2 minutes into the ep, this is taking forever. We got more Bee being responsible for Cardamon and getting rid of the tears, but the biggest part of this episode is undoubtedly Puppycat’s scenes. We got him sinking to the bottom of the ocean and getting cradled by flowers created by the tears next to the ship. We find out he was bullied and ridiculed in school as a kid and his best friend(idk what else they would be counted as), Violet, convinced him to leave their planet after they accidently summon their ship, leaving Puppycat’s mother behind. seeing how he cried about leaving her she seems to have been a great caretaker and he loved her immensely. We get the scene of Bee’s dad as a baby/Very young child on a mission, giving a presentation, and finding the candy to be a source of energy by cracking it open. Making me think, ‘Is that Bee’s fuel source? If it is, how would not taking full doses for two years effect her?’ because in the first season she splits the candy in half to share with Puppycat and in this season she didn’t eat the candy at all. Makes me even more worried for the future knowing what state she’s in when this season ends. With the last flower fever dream/memory it seems that the princess that he fell in love with was the one to make the final move to turning him into a ‘monster.’ Don’t worry tho, Bee saved him from the bottom of the ocean 

Golden Eyes

(I’m getting more and more tired as this goes one. I started doing this at around 12 this morning and now it’s nearing 6 pm. I’m loosing it!) We got another birthday and it’s Howl’s this time, though it’s not really his episode. The fish are attracted to the wish crystals for some reason and one eats a bit of it to be ‘human’ for a day. I love how the fish hated being a human and Weasley didn’t even notice it was a date. I don’t know if it was or not, but ending on that was funny. We got the return of the major douche from the season 1 finally and a mention of Moully. 

Why Don’t You Help Me?

(I took a break between episodes, aka I went tf to sleep, because I was falling asleep at the table and not really processing everything enough for what I’m trying to do) Ok, so this is a day in the life of Cardamon episode with supposed parelles to the Warlocks. We start with the red one stuck and the others unwilling to help...and then they start drawing Puppycat’s face on the 5th one’s corpse and these guys just do not care that it’s a dead body that they supposedly killed themselves. In short, they have all my fear because they are uncaring about body counts. Cardamon still goes to school on top of being a self proclaimed landlord and gets made fun of for being responsible and tattling at every chance he gets. Something I just noticed too is, at first I just assumed he was finally getting tired after being an adult in a child’s body for who knows how long, but now I’m thinking if he’s supposed to be asleep with Violet, his mom, then the reason for him being so tired is being awake too long. It could most likely be both, too. Just like Cardamon, I have no idea what all the tears mean. In the most recent one was see Moully as the charm in the center. What’s the pattern with these? Again we see Bee being responsible and taking care of Cardamon, making sure he gets home safe, tucking him in, and pulling an all night favor so he can sleep and get to school in the morning. Speaking of that, I can’t say I like Cardamon’s teachers all that much. I could rant about them, but this is already long and they’re not worth it. My only real question is, why the hell are their clothes so ragged and dirty? Do they not know how to bathe? Just, WTF? (either that or they’re Really not trying to hide their *ahem* activities from the kids, which just makes me want to punch sense into them or something)

Now I’m Really Alone

MOULLY!!!! Sorry, I just love him a lot. From what I can put together, he’s some kind of gift giving being. Giving wishes, exchanging good deeds and quick favors for other good deeds and favors. Just being Really nice and wanting to help everyone he comes across. This episode makes me see so much in common between Bee and Moully. They both want to help even when they don’t know how. Making messes and finding ways clean up those messes out of guilt and the feeling of obligation. They both have lost things they need to pick up and the knowledge that they have all the time in the world because they’ve both been alive for so long. It keeps getting hinted, but now kind of confirmed, that the Wizard’s know Bee is Weird because they haven’t seen her age. Hell, seeing how she interacts with Cardamon she could have even baby sat them. So all the Wizard’s know she’s Weird and, supposedly, only Crispin knew she was a robot. That was until Deckard found out in the season 1 finally. Once again bringing up the point of people in the Wizard family finding something out and ignoring it and hiding it. In the season 1 finally, Tim asked Cass if Deckard wasn’t depressed anymore, practically saying that Deckard has some form of depression. Depression being a mental illness that runs in families, it wouldn’t be a stretch to assume that some other members of the family have similar problems. One of the things I remember depression doing is the person will see a problem and ignore it. Something that many people in this show do with the weirdness around them and the emotional states/situations of the other people in the show. This season is about finally seeing the thing you’ve been ignoring and doing something about it. And that’s what Bee’s been doing this season, taking charge and finally getting her junk out of the ocean and getting REALLY far out of her comfort zone. She HATES water and the ocean, but she’s diving in to take back what’s hers and cleaning up a mess. There’s A Lot to analyze with this episode, the similarities of Moully’s and Bee’s situations and personalities, Puppycat being the responsible one again for the long run of things, the tears and how the wish crystals work, and the state of multiple character’s minds. Ignorance is bliss until it isn’t.

I Won’t Leave You Alone

Ok, SO MANY NOTES! Which makes sense seeing how it’s the last episode. First off, THOSE WARLOCK BASTDARDS VIOLATED MOULLY AND IF THEY WERE REAL I WOULD THROTLE THEM TILL THEIR HEADS POPPED OFF!!! I am a very protective person when it comes to things I care about. And I’m going to say it here and now incase something comes up of it, Cooking Prince gives be Colorful Vibes, if you know what I mean. You don’t follow someone home and bother them when they don’t want to be bothered unless you’re Into into them. That’s all I’m saying and if nothing comes of it, I will drop it. I’m barely hanging onto it to begin with. So, last episode we watched one of three hands punching the other hands to let Moully go, and in this episode it’s confirmed that the day Moully was pulled through the void, the 5th warlock died. My theory with that is, the 5th one was against getting Puppycat in some way and retaliated by fighting them off of Moully and then the others retaliated by killing them in some way. And the tears in this episode didn’t give life to the corpse, but grew new life over top of it, the tears can’t bring the dead back. The ship gets put back together and we see Puppycat being pretty selfish again, bringing the ship online while Bee gets scooped trying to help Moully. He indirectly helped, but only after he got what he wanted. Cooking Prince, an outsider, brings up how everything going on on the island is Weird and Cass celebrates someone acknowledging it. Once again, bringing back the ‘ignorance is bliss until it’s not’ thing going on around here. Cardamon does more childish things this episode, making a wish and crying in his mother’s arms. He got to finally let go of his responsibilities and let it out until he passed out, and now he gets to sleep again. Moully and Bee are out of commission and the Wizard’s+Cooking Prince stay one the island/ship to be with Bee even though they are mostly confused about EVERYTHING going on rn. Bee has multiple Bees now while she’s out, and so, they go looking for Bee’s dad. I have a feeling he has at least some white hairs by now.

I remember watching this season for the first time. I remember I definitely cried at multiple points, but I can’t exactly remember what points now. I didn’t cry this time, I was too busy taking everything in and trying to put what little pieces I could find together. The first season was to get us used to this world and get comfortable for a chill ride, but then it smacks you in the face with something much bigger at the very end. This season was to make you pay more attention and to question your surroundings. It was also about the first steps to taking charge of your life. If Bee didn’t do all the responsible things she did this season, the warlocks would have probably gotten Puppycat while the island went to shambles. Actions have consequences and that’s what this was about. I believe next season is why ‘Lazy in Space’ was the title. The characters are going to be in space, looking for Bee’s dad, and will acknowledge all the weird things going on while developing, excuse the pun, in out of this world ways. 

I can’t wait for season 3.

#bee and puppycat #this show is fucking amazing #it is worth the loss of sleep time and work #bee and puppycat spoilers #season 2 spoilers #bee and puppycat season 2 #bee and puppycat season 2 spoilers #now I usually tag every character that I mention but that would be imposable at this point #show review #season review #I love this show lots #it deserves all the love it can get #(I'll rb with the link I used but I'll only tag it minimally just incase)

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‘Love and Redemption’ eps 51-59 (final thoughts)

I feel empty but I’m happy. I finished it, it’s over and it’s going to my top favorite dramas of this year. What a crazy, beautiful, painful but rewarding ride! Also, that’s a huge ass poster but it seemed appropiate for the final post and it’s just gorgeous.

This is a very long post, you’ve been warned lol

First thing first: WE GOT A HAPPY ENDING. I loved the story but I knew, going into it that it was a hell of angst fest and that held me back a bit, except that I learned that it ended happily, and hey, I’m down for those endings. What can I say? I don’t do sad endings, real life is already messed up enough. Also, my boy Sifeng remained from beginning to end, my favorite character in the drama AND enters my honorable list of favorite male leads in dramas I keep thinking about making a real post with that list, maybe soon 

I love Xuanji a lot. I want to make that clear before saying what’s next. While I think that she was definitely a lot dumber and gullible that I’d liked her to be, I understood why she was acting the way she did. During  eps 41-50 she didn’t know what Sifeng was doing the way that we as viewers did. She had no idea. Could she have figured it out if she’d tried? Yes, but also, she had a precedent of letting revenge and resentment get the best of her in another 9 lives... so it was not really that crazy that she tried to kill Sifeng. Did I wanted to slap some sense into her? Totally, but I think she was punished enough for doubting him. Not only because she learned the truth of all those past lives and that she always hurt Sifeng but because our male lead himself punished her by pushing her away and given her the cold shoulder once she found him. After two years, mind you.

I think that, if you add all that up, it’s actually a bit more than what she deserved. Poor girl. Also, she totally made up for it once Sifeng forgave her, my heart melted/broke while she cared for him before and after finding out he was dying yet again, because of her, because he saved her.

And then Xuanji made the biggest, most in your face declaration of love and devotion in the whole three realms, when she found out that she was in fact not only the God of War but also the Star of Mosha aka the most terrible and evil dude to ever exist (Dijun’s words not mine) and still opened the crystal lamp... Because only by doing that she could save Sifeng’s life. She basically said “fuck the 3 realms and their peace, if Sifeng’s dead then I don’t care for anything” even when she knew she’d become a man which is hilarious to me bc what the fuck censors?

So Sifeng was no longer on mortal danger but he lost Xuanji sort of since she was now a man lol and thus we never broke the cycle of “we must make Sifeng suffer throughout the whole show”. I can appreciate the consistency of it, even if it broke my heart to see him like that.

And then the drama turned into a BL drama. Which made me laugh for a good almost 4 episodes. I loved it, it’s true. I can’t deny watching Sifeng stare lovingly at a man while holding his hands and telling him “I won’t leave you” didn’t do things to my heart and that my fangirling personality was left unaffected. I do have trouble coming to an understanding of the censors and their mystical ways because they were just not watching the drama. Or maybe they were, since they cut the ep count from 70 to 59. I do wonder what else was in that part of the story we’ll never get to see. Probs more gay stuff and hey! how dare you deprive me of it, censors?

I’m so glad most side plots and problems were resolved before these last 9 episodes, because then we had all that time to focus on OTP achieving a well deserved happy ending while exploring BL options AND the whole “God of War/Star of Mosha are the same person” was finally explained. Which, wow, it was heavy and fucking Dijun, you really are the shittiest shit excuse of a God to ever shit-exist. What an asshole. I felt really bad Luohuo Jidu, to be betrayed and mutilated in that way by a person you cared for and trusted... that’s a terrible violation to suffer. Truly horrible. He didn’t deserved any of that, he was innocent and he wasn’t going to harm anyone or bring war to the heavens. And the ending they gave to Dijun is my one problem with this drama, the one thing that I hated. But tbh no ending would’ve ever felt satisfactory to me. In the end, Xuanji’s attitude, indifference, was the best position to take, since revenge and hate wouldn’t have done any good.

I did enjoy a bit Dijun’s breakdown when the Heavenly Emperor showed him what could’ve happened if he’d never meddled in the whole affair with his stupid motivation to “save and guard the 3 realms”. It was all caused by him... and as much as I hate to admit it, without him, there wouldn’t be a drama. Think about it, had he not created the God of War, Xuanji wouldn’t exist and Sifeng would’ve never fallen in love with her. Everything was Dijun’s fault, including the love story and I feel conflicted about it ngl hahaha.

Which brings me to the revelation that Sifeng was XiXuan while in Heaven, the son of the Heavenly Emperor, a prince of the Heavens and the gasp, the shock, the screams out of my mouth!! It made a lot of sense that only someone in a high position would fly right in the middle of a heavenly execution and say “You’re not dying today, I will make them send you to the mortal realm and go through 10 tribulations. And I’m going with you.” Like !!!!!! Sifeng was SOOOOO Sifeng even before being Sifeng. Which is the reason why even Luohuo Jidu fell for Sifeng ha! 

This was just Sifeng being a sexy badass telling his bf/gf “You need me”

The whole thing while Sifeng was on hell or whatever it’s called, with the Star of Mosha, was totally a BL drama plot and I was loving it. What a way to truly love someone, Sifeng. No matter if she was a dude or a woman or public enemy number 1, he was loyal and supportive of Xuanji in whatever form. Of course no one could resist that level of adoration and ultimately, Sifeng’s fierce love is what saved his life at the end since Luohuo Jidu gave him half of his heart, which reminds me, Heavenly Emperor is really one bad father he barely showed any concern for a son he hadn’t seen in 1000 years and died like 10 times. Wtf? He was also not only a bad father, but also the worst Heavenly Emperor, since he did nothing to prevent any of the problems in the last thousand years!

That was sooo straight of you, drama ;)

I didn’t really understood how Xuanji and Luohuo Jidu got separated but since they already had an independent mind and personality of the other, I guess that was the key? Whatever, love conquers all, and always wins.

After all the big revelations and stopping the end of the world, Sifeng was also in a coma for like a year or who knows how long and poor Xuanji waited/cared for him patiently. To me, it feels safe to say she suffered as much as Sifeng did and loved as loyally as him. Their wedding and their wedding night was stuff out of a fairytale and ChengYi’s ost was the perfect song for it, I was soooooo happy and couldn’t stop smiling like a fool.

The scene with the party, demons and mortals united and celebrating like equals and getting drunk, with Sifeng following his wife around the place while carrying their baby on his arms and trying to get her to put down the wine hahaha was the perfect and a well deserved ending for them.

I like to think they ascended again after a long, happy mortal life, and were free to love and adore each other for eternity. Sifeng, Xuanji, yours was a crazy as f*ck ride, full of pain and tears, but I’m so glad you loved each other so deeply, against all odds, curses, lies and whatnot. Cheers to you and your happiest ending!

I don’t know if I want a season 2! On one hand, if it’s the same cast I’d just have to see it, no question about it, though it ended perfectly. And if it is another cast, why do a second season at all?

#love and redemption #cdrama #yu sifeng #chu xuanji #cheng yi #crystal yuan #yuan bingyan

[im-the-punk-who]

Could you post some more malex thoughts? What about that song? Or thoughts on them being endgame? Or season 3 malex thoughts?

Baby’s first RNM meta request 😭

ABSOLUTELY I can.

So I am gonna start with my S3 thoughts and endgame thoughts because everything else will tie into that.

From what I’ve seen, Roswell had 5 seasons originally planned, which is still what it feels like it needs to me. Which is cool! It also means we’re probably(hopefully, actually) not gonna get canon malex in s3.

The show has set them up as the ‘will-they-won’t they’ couple - most of their tension together focuses on *whether or not they get together* instead of if they’ll stay together. To me at least, it’s pretty clear the show’s assumption is that if they end up actually getting together in a healthy way(which they both seem to want in their relationships now), they will stay together.

If the show actually does it’s job right and takes the time to let both of them heal, grow, and experience other things that likely won’t happen until at least mid s4. It would make a nice dramatic midpoint for the season, they could play out a bit of that relief of finally being together in the late s4, and then whether or not they renew s5 they’ve told the story they wanted to. But if they do get a fifth season they can play with some hurt/comfort with Michael and Alex actually building/cementing their relationship. 

As we’re seeing with Liz and Max, tension has to come from somewhere and where RNM(as most shows do) fails is thinking it needs to come from the relationship, which is what I’m afraid would happen if malex get together so soon after making the(at least private) commitment to get better for each other. There won’t be enough time for growth and dramatic build to sustain the afterglow and they’ll have to find something else to torment the poor boys with. 

I don’t hold out a *super* large amount of hope for it, because like...this is the CW. But I do think either way malex will likely be endgame. Just from everything the show has told us and set up, I would be extremely surprised and honestly really fucking angry if they don’t. Not necessarily because they’re My Ship, or because it would be any sort of queer baiting - they’d both still be undeniably queer and I assume Alex would end up with Forrest or someone else in that scenario.

Honestly it would just be bad storytelling to set up your characters as having this deep cosmic connection, setting them up directly in parallel with our other pairs of starcrossed lovers Max/Liz and Nora/Tripp, dropping all the hints in the music choices(Holy Moly being the big one when linked with the Would You Come Home scene, but there are other small parallels in song choices - ‘Through Your Eyes’ as Alex walks away in 2x06 for example.) Especially with the literal confirmation that they both still *want* to be with each other (Alex’s song saying ‘if I got better and worked through my issues can we be together’ and Michael recognizing he’s got to give Alex the space to do that work so that maybe someday they can be together. ‘It’s not our time right now.“ “But it will be.” “I hope so.”)

Anyway! So, I would count a Not-Malex-Endgame as a bad ending, but I wouldn't be at all surprised if we get zero canon Malex content in S3. In fact given where the characters are, I think it would be an AMAZING choice to have these characters who are fan favorites and who everyone *wants* to be endgame - stay apart and work on themselves, and build all that TENSION( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) for an entire season in order to cash in for an s4 payoff.

Also, I really want to see Alex grow as a person. 

Michael really started to change in Season 2 - we’ve seen him start trying to be better, dealing with his emotions more, recognizing how bad his relationship with Alex is and trying to improve with Maria as well as building his other relationships, too. To me, Michael is already very different than he was in S1 and honestly, Alex has some catch up to do in terms of working on his fears and how they relate to how he cannot stand to be around Michael in stressful situations.

To that end, I really want to see how Alex and Forrest interact, and how a relationship with Forrest might change Alex. We heard before that Alex doesn’t really consider himself to have had a real relationship, and Forrest does *not* seem the type to be up for a fast and easy thing, so I think he could really push Alex to face his issues around commitment and his tendency to cut and run. 

Which would actually be really cool! I am not a Forrest-endgame person at all, mostly because he seems both way too put together and way too needy for Alex long term, but I do think they would be really fun to see played against each other and also just .... nice things for Alex Manes please. 

Also then we get lots of Michael making sad eyes at Alex which is just *chefs kiss*.

For Alex, his personal conflict has always centered around his trauma, his father, being ashamed and afraid of being openly gay, and having enough faith in people to believe he personally is worth fighting for and my main wish for Alex is to finally fucking learn how to love and be loved in return.

So in that vein and especially if we see Malex as endgame, it only makes sense that Michael’s journey needs to be a parallel one of him finding something worth staying on earth for. He’s started to build a family for himself fucking finally - Maria, Isobel, Sanders, hell I think there is even the potential for Liz, Max, and Kyle to be family. And of course, Alex has always been his family. But previously no one has ever had his back in the way he’s had theirs. 

From what we’ve seen, Michael has always been the one who gives with his whole self - both Maria and Alex comment on it - “I don’t doubt your capacity for love” & “He keeps secrets because of how much he loves Max and Isobel, not because of how much he loves you.” He is a character who has spent his life throwing affection and emotion at the wall and seeing what(if anything) sticks. 

He took the crayon from Max at the orphanage, told Isobel he killed the girls, dropped his plans to leave Roswell for her, he both defended Alex from his father and didn’t stop him from leaving a place he was in danger, he let Liz experiment with his blood for Isobel’s antidote. He tells Alex once that he was glad that Max and Isobel had an easier time, even if it meant he didn’t. Michael’s biggest character flaw is that he believes he has to be useful to be wanted. That he, as he is, is unloveable. Or, maybe better put, that he is not worthy of the kind of love others have.

In S3 I want this challenged, CW I will fight you. I *REALLY* want to see him have to face head on his assumption that he’s going to leave Earth at some point and everyone is going to be fine with that. I want him to realize he’s become core in someone’s life again. I want to see someone grab hold and refuse to let go. I want it to get messy, and I want them to stay, damnnit! 

I want to see Michael start making plans to stay again.

I said in a previous meta that I thought the growth Michael has gone through already would lead to him being approached by Jones with an offer to leave (so that Jones can separate the pod squad, so that he can use Michael to get to Max, something like that) and I really want to see what decision a more grounded Michael might make in a situation like that.

And what my tiny shriveled shipper heart REALLY wants is a scene where Michael is put to this choice of being able to leave and - despite being offered everything he has been working towards for his entire life - the relationships he’s built are strong enough to make him stay(again.)

(Hint, I REALLY want this to be Alex, for the plot resolution for them in S3 not to be ‘we get together’ but to be ‘we are able to recognize that we can BE there for each other even if we aren’t together’, which would lead spectacularly into an early/mid s4 get together after some light angst :) 

I have a lot more thoughts re: what I want from everyone else and what I’d love to see from the non pod-squad squad (MARIA ALEX LIZ ROSA PICNIC DATE WHEN) (CENTERING YOUR MAIN CHARACTERS OF COLOR WHEN) (TRY MAKING YOUR VILLAIN NOT A FUCKING PERSON OF COLOR!) Also like, Generyx, Deep Sky, Mr. Jones, possible connections between them and characters who aren’t pod squad oh my god can we for one episode focus on someone else, etc, but like.....this is already so long so maybe that’s for another time xD

Also as stated like....this is a CW show so this isn’t what’s going to happen, but it’s what a I *DESPERATELY WANT* to happen. My interaction with RNM is VERY much dead-plot-do-not-eat until proven otherwise and I’m just here to no-thoughts-head-empty enjoy the parts of Malex I like and ignore everything else :)

I’m gonna use this image that Diana made me because honestly this should be a disclaimer to any RNM post I make.

#LMAOOOOOOOO SORRY FOR THE GIANT POST #this should probably be readmore'd but uhhhh your assasins failed to kill me during the night #and you must now suffer another day of my insanely long meta #long post #malex #roswell new mexico #rnm meta #roswell new mexico meta #michael guerin #alex manes #Anonymous #milo answers

[helihi]

The Good, The Bad, and the Dirty: Spop season 5

I’ve stopped screaming, and I took the time to rewatch season 5 with my little brother. So, here are my thoughts:

The Good

Horde Prime - The cult™ : I really dig the aesthetics, that combo of religious fanatics + fascism hit good. The crew did a good job at portraying Horde Prime as the ultimate villain of the show. He was engaging to watch and his ideology was pretty clear. The way they played with the hive mind concept was really fun, and it was Horde Prime’s biggest strength. He was also a very good manipulator, successfully playing with Glimmer and Adora. He was unsuccessful with Catra because she had already hit her lowest point.

Entrapta: honestly, she was the most hilarious character this season. Not only was she engaging to watch and listen to, I felt really connected to her this season. The fight with Mermista hit really good and it hurt, but you could see her trying her best. I love how open she is and how accepting of everyone and everything. I’m glad we got to see so much of her this season.

Scorpia: baby, she only deserves good things in life. When she got mind control, you could see how fucking powerful she is, but luckily for us, we got to see her shine independently before that. Her interactions with Swift Wind, Perfuma, and Double Trouble made her shine. She’s smart, talented, and without an evil bone in her body. I’m happy she can move on from Catra and find love and friendship. (I hope she reconnects with Lonnie, Rogelio and Kyle in the future too)

Mermista: babe, you were always mood. She has been consistently funny, her get ups and plans are so entertaining to watch, but also: her relationship with Sea Hawk is great! They are definitely made for each other. I’m sad she was mine controlled for the other half of the season, but I’m happy we got to see a lot of her before. (Also she burned someone’s ship OMG GANGSTER SUIT)

Sea Hawk: happy to see him back. He was funny as always, and I’m happy he got his moment with Mermista at the end. 

Perfuma: “ADORA, WHAT DO YOU HAVE THERE?” “A TANK” “NO!” Her relationship with Scorpia is so good! I wish we could’ve seen more.

Netossa: I was one of those who was sad to know the 2 canon lesbians of the show were just background characters. I am so incredibly happy to see her shine this season! SHE SAID MY WIFE. She is the queen of the roasts and I stan.

Spinnerella: Dude, I didn’t know you were this powerful what the fuck. Also, your wife is super cute and she draws like Noelle.

Emotional Support Cat: Bro, I love Melog’s design. I think it was a really clever way to have Catra express her feelings and process them out loud for the audience by giving Catra a supernatural cat.

New She-ra design: I see the subtle reference to Bow, Glimmer and Catra in the design. Honestly, Adora looks 100% more badass.

Not Hordak: I really wish he had picked a name from himself. Aside from Entrapta, this might be the other hilarious character of the season. He goes through his individualization process in a healthier way than Hordak and showcases that the clones can be different from Horde Prime and rehabilitated. I wonder how he will feel about Hordak? But we got no epilogue so idk I guess.

Darla: I can’t believe they named the ship, but I love it.

The Best Friends Squad: I swear to god, when Bow, then Glimmer and then Catra interrupted Adora’s train of thought, I knew we were going to have a great dynamic. The way their characters play of each other is hilarious. Bow, who usually has the only braincell, is cautious and a total dad; Adora is the dumb jock with the heart of gold that gets herself into trouble; Glimmer is the chaotic enchantress with no patience; and finally Catra who’s got all her walls up, but gets shit done. I want a show of them together going on misions and almost dying in the process, thank you.

Catra Redemption: You wanted it, and here you have it! I was cheering for Catra this whole season while proclaiming I’d die for her (which I had only reserved for Scopia previously). Though things may be a little rushed, Catra takes her time to process things, and goes back and forth a couple of times. She deflects, lies, and runs away, but in the end she opens up and rushes back.

In general, the season was packed with content. I was never bored through any episodes and I honestly laughed outloud while watching it alone and later with my brother. There were moments when we paused the episode to discuss what had just happened or to process new information. This makes me feel even more weird about the bland season 2/3 division.

The Bad

Okay so, let me make this clear: I will never attack a ship or anyone who supports it. In this blog we multiship like adults and respect other people’s OTPs.

That being said, while this season was long and packed with content, it also felt rushed when it came to the relationships of the main cast

Glimmer - Catra: The prison episodes had barely any interactions between both of them. I wish they’ve had had more time to talk and to connect. There were Glitra moments that make me feel happy, and my brother was for a moment convinced that they could be canon. They are foils of each other after season 4. The conversation they had, where they realize they had a lot of things in common could’ve been a catalyst for both of them to grow and heal. However, Catra has her change of heart really soon and saves Glimmer, which prevents any deep interactions between them in the future. Aside from the jokes, Catra must be with Adora, and Glimmer must be with Bow, so everything else gets dropped.

Glimmer - Adora: The conflict between them after Angela’s “death” was one of the main plot points of last season. When they reunite again, their issues are solved in a couple of minutes and then brushed off. They really don’t have big interactions after that, which feels completely OOC and empty.

Glimmer - Bow: I wasn’t the only one who felt the sharp turn of their relationship. In previous seasons, it was really platonic, but as soon as they see each other again you know they are going to end up together. The camera zoomed on them, Bow was always holding her protectively, the way they looked at each other change. Since Glimmer is not allowed to have intimate moments with anyone else, it kinda dulls everything up. Don’t get me wrong, I love some best friends to lovers, but in this case it felt rushed for me. If I pinpoint the moment things turned romantic for them, it’s the first time they interact in person this season. It didn’t feel organic (contrast with a ship like Korrasami, where you can point at the moment Asami realized she had feelings for Korra, and then later when Korra’s attitude towards Asami changes after the time skip).

Adora - Catra: Honey, we all knew this was going to be end game, and I love the fact that Catra is dealing with her feelings and Adora acknowledges that. However, after the end of season 3, I’d have expected things to progress a little slower. Catra did put some resistance with the chip scene, but even afterwards, what would’ve been better paced with more episodes, was condensed in a few. Don’t get me wrong. I love that Catra redemption, but I’d have loved a better pacing.

BTW for anyone interested: I ship Glitradora, so any of the 3 ships ending up canon were good for me, and I liked Bow/Glimmer, just preferred them as bffs.

There’s a list of characters that barely show up that could’ve had more screentime:

Huntara: barely appears at all. She’s seen fighting, but there are no references to her or a storyline with her.

Lonnie, Rogelio and Kyle: briefly shown. The gay couple of the century have adopted the baby demon and are now the best dads in the desert. Lonnie is their braincell.

Double Trouble: at least they had a scene and lines, but I feel like they could’ve been more involved after they were discovered by Scopria, especially since they escaped with Sea Hawk and Perfuma.

The Star Siblings: idk man, they were part of a whole episode and then faded into the background. It was a glorified cameo for an episode where Glimmer and Bow fight.

Glimmer’s Aunt: sorry but I was asking “where the hell is she?” until she finally showed up late. She barely had any purpose.

The Dirty

Hey, guys, girls, and nonbinary pals, can we sit down and talk about redemptions?

IDK about you, but just because a show is aimed at kids you shouldn’t “redeem” all the villains. This trend bothers me specially when it touches on abuse or totalitarian leaders.

Shadow Weaver was an abuser until the end. She shouldn’t have had a heroic sacrifice, and her “I’m proud of you” line was bitter for me. I’ve said before I was raised in an abusive household and I don’t think it’s healthy to tell children that you can change your abuser or that you can expect them to change without therapy. I’m glad Shadow Weaver died, but I wish her death wasn’t in any way shape or form considered a “redemption”. A heroic act of sacrifice doesn’t erase all the pain she cause and the years of trauma Catra and Adora have had to endure.

Hordak. HEY HEY ETRAPDAK SHIPPERS DON’T COME FOR ME! I was weirded up by the ship until I realized Etrapta is in her late 20s. I’m happy they found each other but I think it’d be better if Hordak had to redeem himself through a life of service to Etheria. He can't erase the horrible things he has done, but with the help of Entrapta and others, he could give back to the community he ruined. Since we don’t have an epilogue, we just see him reuniting with Entrapta at the end and that’s it.

ALSO SOMEONE GIVE MICAH A HAIR TIE. My man, you are not in a hostile island anymore, go rock a dad bun or a dad ponytail!

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How do you guys feel about it?

I’m here looking at cute GIFs of Catra and that kiss scene on repeat. I want a Rogelio poster, he was my boy.

#spop #stop spoilers #the good the bad and the dirty #me

[lovecanbesostrange]

There was no reason for Station 19 to go that hard on all fronts, but wow they did. I honestly watched S1+2 mostly out of habit, but S3 was like cleaning house, setting everybody up as a character with their personal flashback gave them far more layers and now I truly care. Thanks. Well, and then Grey’s happened and I cried for like half the episode...........

Maya and Jack have definitely profitted the most from the shift in tone and the character development overhaul. And I liked both their storylines. Maya dealing with all that crap from her father and coming to terms with why she maybe isn’t 100% ready for this very steady relationship and sharing all her emotions was great. Can she tell Carina everything she told Andy? In almost exactly this way, please? Because being afraid of slipping and finding these moments and naming what she has trouble with adjusting to - that is all good. And Carina is one of the most compassionate and patient people (from the limited scenes we have had with her over the years). Dear Maya, if you communicate, she will be there for you.

And wow, Carina than talking about her home and her own fears. Magnificent. Early days of covid? All the horrible, horrible news from Italy come to mind. So thanks writers for building that international bridge. (I wonder how any Italian tv shows that will incorporate the pandemic will deal with this. Every country has their very unique story in this.)

Of course we will see nice side characters getting covid and probably die. Gonna keep my fingers crossed for Marsha nonetheless. Jack having this make-shift family did wonders for his character and I don’t want him to take a blow. It’s a found family on the side, not bound by trade and I like it. I love that thanks to Marcus the masks with plastic windows were mentioned (even tying back to Dr. Riley’s visit to Grey-Sloan. Good job.

Well, Miller and Sullivan. That all happened. And I am exactly 0% qualified to discuss the issues raised. I do empathise with Sullivan a bit more (not that I dismiss Miller’s points, because like Sullivan and Warren say, he is right). Because I absolutely hate this thing were being part of a (minority) group makes you the spokesperson and you get judged far more harshly. And then also taking in-group crap about it. Yes, it is how the world is. But it’s unfair. (And tbh luckily Sullivan hurt mostly himself and he did stand up and face any consequence coming his way. And yes, he was the kind of person to always tell everybody else to better not make mistakes *blablabla* and look, he fell down that high horse... I do think that is something Miller pointed out very rightfully.)

Glad Travis talked to his dad. And I do like the way he did. Just letting him know he knows and leaving that door open. His breakdown about how the church/religion is letting gay people down, while so many sins are just forgiven... damn. Hard to watch. And if just one viewer watching suddenly went like “huh, fucked up”, it was worth it.

Vic is the unsung hero of this episode. I loved how she kept defending that drugged up dude. Yes, he is stupid and it’s horrifying that he stays with his obviously abusive wife, but also keeps drugs around and just... lives like this. But she kept talking about how he didn’t mean to hurt anybody else and that he needed help far more than punishment. Travis and Vic are both good people, but in that situation I think most of us would react more like Travis. Being annoyed, mouthing back and wanting those two shut the fuck up. It’s a normal reaction. What Vic said is the harder choice. And it felt like there was an untold story there.

Okay, wow, much to say about Station 19 for once. But oh boy, Grey’s...........

I remember the “early” episodes we met Bailey’s father. And then we barely talked about her parents. They were somewhere in the background. Until in “(Don’t) Fear the Reaper” we met her mom, got that whole thing with her dead sister and got this picture of her early home life. It was really good. And last week her parents get mentioned again, because hey, elderly people. AND NOW THEY TELL US HER MOM HAD ALZHEIMER’S AND THEN SHE DIED............................................................... it was so fucking heartbreaking start to finish.

And I love all the quiet scenes we got out of this that are just so human. Sad and human. Bailey talking to Meredith, saying she misses her and relating to the whole seeing your mom withering away (so dying twice in a way). I like the use of the beach, because Meredith is semi-conscious, she hears it all, but she just can’t wake up long enough. And then Maggie and Bailey on that bench.

Two people sitting on a bench, talking. Nothing special happens. They don’t need to distract by having them in a busy hallway or somethng. It’s a whole ass conversation with no shorthand. Showing all the emotions. Having Maggie go back to that time her mother died and how she views it all in a different light now. Talking about dying with dignity. Chandra Wilson was so good in this scene. (Her best performance to me will probably always be when Charles died in front of those elevators, I can cry just thinking about that.) And she was allowed such a variety of feelings. And the pain of it all brings up joyful memories. Thanks so much for that hilarity that her scholarship came from the fucking Daughters of the Revolution. HA!

I don’t get people who still watch Grey’s and the relationship drama is the thing they care most about. This is what I’m here for first - the personal lives and relating to all these emotions (and also the mistakes and the way to do better next time).

Well, at least Tom got better quick, I guess. Nice way to give Amelia a reason to get to work for a day and thus have her confronting Teddy. Look, I am done with storylines involving cheating and all. Teddy as a character is often hard to like. But the way she is isolated and like the most contact she has is with DeLuca when he updates her on Meredith’s vitals... it’s harsh. And I liked that Amelia can talk to her without making her feel more terrible. And then I did like Teddy talking to Tom, who was his charming self in the end. Bonuspoints for mentioning that the kids are with Owen’s mom. And hey, I give this to Owen, I believe this must be hard for him, because being a dad is the biggest deal for him. Actually something to make him more likeable - if handled correctly - and this situation sucks for him as well.

Which brings me to Link. Who was left at the Grey home. With Zola, Bailey, Ellis and Scout. Wow. Who would have thought? Amelia’s pregnancy was a good thing, I guess, to give them the excuse of baby time and also Link sorta moving in to deal with all the kids. (Shipping all of them off to their own living Grandma isn’t an option. lol ) Link is a good dude. So please, okay, it was news to him, no need to hate on Tom, push through the irritation, Link! Ahahahahaha.

Jackson being so nervous about his mom being a bit too proud to always keep her mask on - wonderful. Sure, she’s a doctor, she’s also stubborn and he was so scared of losing her not that long ago. Family drama everywhere! I always like seeing Jackson and Webber together. And then they had another big talk, hammering home the fact that people are affected differently. That it’s worse for poor people and not by accident, but systemic problems, most of them are PoCs. So many black and brown patients dying left and right, and it’s clear where the problem starts... I do believe for some viewers this is actually news, because the “news media” they consume won’t talk about that.

So, well, and then there is the Jo of it all. OMG where do I even start? Now, first off, Levi and Jo living together is still hilarious and thanks so much for getting two scenes at the loft. Especially that first one with Levi pretty much pushing her out of bed. Now, I do want Levi to talk to his mom, I desperately need to know how things are. I’m sure the pandemic has shed some new light on what’s important. Second I’m also glad Levi is with Jo, so she is not alone, which makes it harder for her to fall into really bad habits and down that depression hole.

I kinda freaked out seeing Val again and was sure she’s gonna die (might still happen aaaaah). They have a tendency to kill the nice ladies. Still haven’t forgiven Grey’s for killing CeCe. So it was cool that the surgery was a success and wow, did I love when Jo sent Levi out to just listen to Val and connect. And then the baby delivery happened and....... what is going on? Jo even just casually thinking about switching specialties? TO OB?????????? WHAT?????? Dear writers, you dropped the ball on her entire medical journey so often, giving her a bonkers fellowship, having her residency take way too long and shoving her into general, because oops no mentor or anything. And now you give me this? Please, so this is how I would accept this as a set-up for an actual carthartic moment:

Let Jo stalk Carina, play out this thought “what if this thing that made me happy for a day is the thing I am supposed to do longer”. And then let her have joyous moments, but also something complicated, and finally a very distressed woman in labor. And Jo feels for the woman, is compassionate and all and when the baby is there, the woman struggles to connect. And this joyous second is withheld from Jo. And boom, full circle, this woman feels like shit for not loving that baby instantly, for the feeling of resentment and being out of her mind. And finally Jo can forvige Vicki. And that’s the end of that particular journey.

I mean we all pretend that we have forgotten that time Jo stole a baby, right? Because that was the S16 hiatus and there was a storyline set in motion that blew up with Justin leaving like that. And we have had Jo interacting with babies and new moms so often over the course of the show. While also staiting that Jo’s self-worth is tied to being in an OR, which is also her safe space. So this whole thing...

Sometimes it’s easy to forget that Addison was the attending OB/GYN once upon a time. (”I’m being stalked by pregnant women!” “You are an obstetrician.”) She was also a fetal surgeon, which was what Arizona eventually became. So it’s not like when Meredith wore pink scrubs for a few weeks and got made fun of. There could be a long interesting road that eventually does include  surgeries. But it’s just so....... dumb. In a way. Especially with Jo having so many issues. And the writers - who give out pregnancies and babies like halloween candy - constantly skipping a potential Jolex-as-parents-storyline.... which kinda bites them in the ass now. ugh F R U S T R A T I O N......... I could write a five page essay just about Jo so far this season, I’m sorry. (Also if I ever have to see Jo in pink scrubs, a part of my brain will explode thinking back to Jason for sure.............)

Oh, and then there was Ben Warren. Just existing. Being a good man. Thanks. :3

#Station 19 #Grey's Anatomy #ramblings

[bethd0456]

hellooo lovely! i loved reading your response to my last ask - apparently tumblr is messing up my asks bc a lot of them haven’t been going through :( but let’s hope this one does! i’ve been seeing that you watch cherry magic, and it’s one of my favourite shows at the moment!! 💘 who’s your favourite character? mine is kurosawa personally, i relate so much to him and his gayness. also udon chan, the cutest little cat! what did you think of the last ep, wasn’t it so cute!!! (1/2)

i hope you’re doing well!!! i also wanted to ask what your favourite shows and ships are! i already have a vague idea formulating just by browsing through your blog and over our shared love of cherry magic, but i’d looove to hear your thoughts and your favourites!! wishing you the bestest day! 💘 - your secret santa (2/2)

Hiiiii!!!! I hope life is treating you well!

Omg I'm so glad you enjoyed reading it! I hope you're ready for this MASSIVE answer and you don't get too bored reading this one!

CHERRY MAGIC!!!!!! It instantly became a comfort show for me, as it did for many others!

ADACHIADACHIADACHIADACHI. Adachi is 100% my fave. I never fully understood what a comfort character was. I was like, "yeah! I love Tine also!" But. Adachi is the definition of comfort for me. I see so much of myself in him! Everyone sees him and is like "babie. Must protecc." And honestly? Me too. How can one character be so damn CUTE??!?!? One of my favourite moments is him seeing Kurosawa after the almost-kiss. He just like, sees him, and gets so panicked 🥺 the way his arms just flail about makes me smile like an idiot.

But like, on a deeper level, this drama makes me believe I'm worthy of love. The idea that someone like Kurosawa could be THAT infatuated with you, even though you're an awkward virgin lmao. The point of watching these dramas is to get lost in a story, right? See a situation you want so badly but you know will never realistically happen? The entire premise of the show is just really enticing to me. I am Adachi, Adachi is me. Also, the thing he said in ep6 about not having a clear dream in life? Yeah. I felt that. I'm so envious of people who have passions they work so hard for, it gives them a form of purpose. Like Adachi, sometimes I feel like I'm living in a "daze". I feel like I don't really have any specific passions or skills that I want to develop into a career. Sometimes I just wish I had ambition. Adachi makes me feel so seen and like I'm not the only person who feels like this. The kinds of characters that usually make good protagonists are characters with a clear goal/passion. In most shows this obviously really works, but I can never relate to them personally. It's really special for me to see a character who's similar to me in this way.

Kurosawa is such an amazing character too!!!!! His gay little heart 🥺 on another level, he's just so?? Respectful??? 7. YEARS. 7 years of pining and he holds himself back so well!! He's been waiting for this relationship for so long but is so patient, willing to take things slowly for Adachi. He flirts shamelessly (as he should) but never to the point where Adachi was too uncomfortable.

He cares so much about Adachi :(. But also, even before he liked Adachi, he could tell he was uncomfortable with the drinking thing, so he DOWNED the wine lmao. Clearly he's just a lovely person all round who's really socially aware.

As for other characters:

• Udon my baby!!!! The cutest cat ever!! I love animals sm :(((

• Tsuge's chaotic energy is iconic

• Minato a lovely little dance machine :))

• Rokaku deserves the world, my excitable kiss interruptor :(((

• Fujisaki my love! She's so soft and cute!! Also ace coded how iconic

I ADORED ep8!!! I LIVE for established Adasawa! Adachi coming out to Tsuge :((( I'm so proud of Adachi coming to terms with his feelings and being confident enough to share his relationship with his closest friend. Coming out is not easy and he did so well 🥺

Adachi and Tsuge are so useless bless them 😂 Kurosawa really said "well I guess I have to take these two socially awkward disasters under my wing." Adachi and Tsuge are such a chaotic duo, I love that they can communicate just by touching each other, and omg when Kurosawa said his name Tsuge was "wait maybe I know everything about you already" and if that isn't friendship idk what is

Also Kurosawa making up a poem in his head about Adachi???? Peak romance. Also iconic. I'M A SUCKER FOR HAND HOLDING SCENES SO I DIED. "I like him. I like him. I like him!!" HOW CUTE CAN YOU GET FJKHDSHSKSK

I also got another arm flailing moment when Kurosawa almost got the wrong idea about Adachi and Tsuge!! CAN ADACHI STOP BEING SO CUTE MY HEART CAN'T TAKE IT. How on earth his boyfriend is still alive I have no idea.

There are so many other shows and ships I love. I feel like I'll probably miss some, but here we go. These aren't rankings at all, just like, lists lol.

Show list:

1. 2gether

This show means so much to me. It was the first time I watched a bl week by week and it made it so much more special?? I valued scenes so much more than when I binge shows and they would like, look at each other and I'd have a heart attack. They made the first part of my quarantine bearable bc I always had something to look forward to every Friday. I actually really enjoyed quarantine overall as an introvert (not to be insensitive about the literal deaths the pandemic has caused), but I really enjoyed constantly thinking about how long it was until Friday. I'm massively emotionally attached to all of the characters in this show you have no idea. Every single one. The found family of it all,, the way all of the characters have relationships. Still2gether did a phenomenal job of showcasing all of the unexpected but very welcome dynamics and relationships, platonic and romantic alike. I could blabber about this show for so long I'll spare u for now

2. YYY

Is it well written? No. Did I enjoy it anyway?? You know it! I told you how much I love the found family trope. UGH. THIS FAMILY. Also, seeing the feminine side of the LGBT+ community represented positively warmed my heart. There needs to be more bls that do that! Celebrate femininity!! There's nothing wrong with being camp as fuck! It's so much fun!!! This show made me so happy :))

3. Start up

I'm currently obsessed. It's my first Kdrama and holy shit this is what the hype is about. The budget!! The acting! Top notch. On a sad note I really wish bls got that much funding behind them. My heart aches for a complicated story with fully developed characters and plotlines, that just happens to have a gay main couple/character. Wishful thinking for now at least. Anyways, I'm massively emotionally attached to Halmeoni and Jipyeong. Team Jipyeong all the way (even tho Dalmi's obviously gonna end up with Dosan, and I'm happy for them!). All I need is a happy ending for my darling Jipyeong. Please give him one. Also, if anything happens to Halmeoni I will WEEP.

4. Cherry magic is obviously here but I've ranted about that enough already 😂

5. 3 will be free

I would never have expected gmm to make a series like this! But they went and did THAT. Wild. It was such a healthy representation of a poly relationship. The themes of feminism were so well handled and powerful, the chemistry was off the CHARTS, I was hooked from start to finish! Time for a rewatch? I think so.

6. Feel good

Not an Asian drama, but still gay as FUCK. It's written by my wife Mae Martin who also stars in it, and I have to say, it blew me away. Story time!! My friend irl recommended it to me without saying it was Mae, so I was like "okay sure I'll put it on my to watch list I guess" without much motivation to watch it. But as soon as I found out it was Mae I watched it and I've never looked back lol. Once I finished I sent my friend a splurge of messages about my feelings. The series touches on issues like addiction, sexuality and gender. "I'm not a boy. I'm not even a girl. I'm like a failed version of both." That shit HURT.

There's a scene near the end which has really stayed with me. So Mae's character is a comedian and she does a set making jokes about the stuff that happened in the series and oh my GOD. The way I CRIED. It made me realise that people who make jokes about their experiences are using humour as a coping mechanism and when people say "Haha I have daddy issues isn't it funny" we have to remember to be respectful. It's never okay to make jokes about someone else's trauma. Don't make a big deal of it but just don't be a dick.

Anyways I could go on but would 100% recommend this series!

7. HIStory 2 crossing the line

My first bl! This series is the reason I'm so obsessed with bl lmao. The main couple are so soft :( this little series will always hold a special place in my heart!

8. Sotus

My first gmm series, we've come a long way. I miss Kong and Arthit :(

9. Dark blue kiss

Such a brilliant series. I trust P'Aof (director) with my life. This series touches on issues that are so important and deserve to be talked about so much more in bls. This is what happens when you let LGBT people tell LGBT stories! They do it with such care and love!! One of my favourite lines is "I may like men, but I'll never like your brother." One of my biggest let peeves is "I don't like men, I only like x." Like, I get the business behind it, they don't want to make the character gay to make them available for girls to fantasise about. Which is disgusting. But Mork really said "no. ❤" and I LOVE IT.

10. The shipper

I could go on and on about how underrated I think this series is. This series took over from 2gether on Fridays, and while I didn't think about this series constantly like I did with 2gether, this series made my quarantine brighter. Fridays meant I was gonna laugh at least once and forget about life just for a short while. The humour in this series is so fucking dumb lmao, but I'm here for it.

I've seen people talk about the shipper as a bl but I disagree. I think it's better described as a series with bl aspects. The main themes are friendship, family, dealing with loss, respecting boundaries of people you admire, and one of the main messages is about making sure the people close to you know how much they mean to you. Don't get me wrong, the majority of the series is over the top humour, but by the end of it I was personally really attached to the characters and their feelings. Overall I really enjoyed this series but I don't see anyone properly talk about it :(

11. Gaya sa pelikula

A series made by gay people for gay people. Shows like this are so important. This show really healed my soul with how brilliant the representation was :(( "remember we talked about microagressions" the way that means Vlad is constantly educating Karl about LGBT stuff, UGH. SO GOOD. Also this show has the most realistic representation of a crush I've ever seen lmao, soft Vlad is the best Vlad.

12. My engineer

My happy little Saturday show :( I miss the shit writing, shit acting and soft story of this series so much. I'm so fond of this series, I watched it after the horrible ep12 of 2gether and it really made me happy. I'm looking forward to season 2, but Ramking's novel goes DOWNHILL from here on. I know tricreation wouldn't allow the final chapter's scenes, but the entire story is so problematic and unenjoyable :(. The only valid scene is King's coming out scene but that's literally it. And the collar scene can stay lmao.

13. Oxygen

Another soft saturday series! I love this series so much, all of the couples are so bloody healthy and it makes me so happy. The communication is amazing!! THIS is how you show healthy relationships!!!

14. The gifted

S1 was so amazing!! I loved all of it! The only part of s2 we'll talk about is timegracethird. Time best boy!! Grace a feminist queen! When future Grace said they would be friends for a long time that made me so happy :(( also pangwave canon

15. Until we meet again

So I talked about the healthy relationships in oxygen. But uwma really showed the healthiest relationship ever. DeanPharm are just the softest little humans :( I would die for Pharm. He's the closest I got to a comfort character before Adachi. I just have to PROTECT HIM. My motherly instincts really kick in when I see him lmao.

The storyline of this series is just breathtaking. And the ending? I don't think I've ever cried that much. At all. It was so fucking beautiful 🥺

16. My gear and your gown

I really liked this show! Honestly I don't think I'll ever rewatch it but I definitely enjoyed it. The way Pai just seemed to breathe freely for the first time when his parents accepted his sexuality :(((( my baby :( also purefolk were brilliant

Ship list:

1. Saratine

These two are the definition of romance. They mean the fucking world to me. The fact that their story is apparently gonna be continued in some form makes me so. So. Happy. I cannot begin to describe it. My bet is on a special episode and ugh I'm so EXCITED.

2. Aini

Thonhonchonlatee in general is enjoyable but I don't like Thon at all. It's such a shame bc I was so excited for Khaotung and Podd to be in a series together :((. BUT. Aini have grabbed my heart. I knew they would bc miketap are brilliant, but wow. They're so gay my little babies :( miketap are just so natural and comfortable to watch. I love their chemistry so muuuuuuch

3. Sunmork

Coffee boyfriends :( I miss them so bloody much

4. Ramking

One of my fave ships. As I mentioned, I'm apprehensive about s2, but s1 ramking is such a beautiful story. It's just about 2 boys falling in love, no complications. Plant boy who's afraid of dogs falls in love with quiet boy who loves dogs but is afraid of children. Iconic. Also chemistry outsold, I THINK ABOUT THE KISS CONSTANTLY. When I mentioned the acting is shit in this series (shit is harsh, I mean awkward), I did not mean Perth and Lay in the slightest. They really nailed their roles and I loved it.

5. Professor Layton x Claire

You 100% won't get this reference but I grew up with the Professor Layton games and holy shit do they hold up. They're so amazingly written with beautiful stories and the most lovable characters in the world. Layton's intellect, loving nature and surprising athleticism are admirable. Adachi is the character I relate to most, but if I was gonna choose a character to comfort me irl, Layton's your man. His voice is so comforting by nature. I'm blabbering at this point but the point is him and Claire are the only het pairing that matters.

These are just the ships that I felt should be separate from their shows. I love all of the ships from the shows I mentioned.

Oof this got horrifically long, I haven't had a proper chance to rant about most of these shows so I really let it out lol. I hope you've watched at least some of these shows and I didn't just rant to u about 12 shows you've never heard of 😂

I hope you have a wonderful day love!!!!

#secretsanta'20

[bolbianddolanhouse]

Book 3 FAQ!

Need to catch up? Heres all the previous FAQs 1 * 2 Heres the master post of all three books 1 * 2 * 3

Wow...you would think that with the whole pandemic that I’d get these chapters out faster. But alas this year got the best of me too. I’ve been a lil vulnerable in the tags with y’all and the check-in messages really touched me. So thank you very much to everyone that has checked up on me and enjoyed the chapters! I appreciate all of you :3 So lets roll out the questions!

Q: Who is Iwata based off? A: Iwata is based off my self-insert, which is also me. I know that sounds a lil narcissistic but it’s that real life reference that you’re a spitting image of your parent. Iwata was designed to look and act very similar to his mother based off that. What made him a little more original and not a copy of my self-insert is the tropes I added. I mirrored the trope of that of the relationship between Steven and his mom in Steven Universe; where he adored, then hated but then came to terms that he is not his mom but someone better. A whole journey of self-discovery and self-worth.

Q: The representation is amazing! How did you come up with these queer characters? A: Glad you liked them! Like I’ve said in previous FAQs and in the tags, all these characters were dreamt and I just build upon them in writing. So yes, most of my characters were created queer in my dreams but I make them more in depth by setting up how they discovered they’re queer. I did a bit of research on coming out stories and self-discovery epiphanies to have these characters more relatable so a fellow queer reader feels seen in a way. There’s already too much hetero works out there, I just want to gay it up in a respectful way. 

Q: The culture mixing is really good and consistent, how do you do it? A: For starters, I am latina. But the culture mixing stems from my knowledge about other cultures through language. I’ve been studying Japanese for almost a decade now and Chinese for about 4 years, so it’s no surprise that I’m referencing them in my work. Maybe what I depict isn’t what other half-Japanese half-Latinx families do, but it’s what I’d do if I started such a family. Plus there’s some overlap within those cultures and it makes it easy to put into writing.

Q: So. much. drama! Why is this book more dramatic than the previous two? A: Book 3 is were main on-going plot gets picked up more and shows signs of resolution. In book 2, it was to focus on not only Lili and the family dynamic but to remind the reader that life moved on with little resolve for the self-insert character. Iwata has a HUGE role in the resolution but in his own special way. And I’m not saying the answer is love...but it’s leaning there. 

Q: You reference specific food and snacks in this AU/ what are your favorite Cheetos? A: Like I said, I’m latina! Of course I write in the food of my home culture. Mainly the home cooked meals my mom would make for me and my siblings. It might not seem like much to the reader, but those simple meals add to the narrative of being home and traditions that help them embrace their mixed heritage. The reference of Cheetos are all over this AU because they’re my favorite hot chip. Naturally, my favorite Cheetos are the Hot con Límon with chamoy. 

Q: Love that there’s no canon character deaths in this book so far, but are there any major deaths planned? A: Just one but it’s not a tragic, hero fallen type death. It’s a natural death but it’s gonna be a tear jerker. That death won’t come until the WAY end of this AU, so I’m not gonna spoil anything yet.

Q: Can’t believe you predicted Dabi’s true identity. A: It was obvious tho. I didn’t really predict anything canon if you’re an anime only for BNHA. In this AU (without spoiling too much) there’s no Endeavor redemption and Dabi doesn’t cause that big drama on live TV. So if you’re an Endeavor hater like me, you’re gonna love what I have in store for them in the next book!

Q: I love Tenya being a dad and loving husband in this AU! Will we see more dad moments? A: Glad you like those snippets of dad Tenya! I love writing them for my own indulgence since there isn’t enough love for this character in the fandom. Plus I see a whole lot of consistent readers are Iida-stans and that makes me want to write more married fluff whenever I can.

Q: Beizu is best boi/Who is Beizu based off of? A: Beizu is the genius trope in this book. I made his character a more chill version of his mom but with that ‘who is my dad’ trope. Beizu is part of a trio that’s to mirror the agent trio of Ita, Jin and Mimi. The third member is yet to be revealed but they’re a BIG plot device in the coming book. But Beizu is one of my favorite OCs, maybe I’ll do a ranking of my OCs when everyone is introduced. 

Q: The villains and Hawks plot has me SHOOK! What’s going to happen to hero society when this case gets solved? A: Without spoiling it, the truth is going to expose the corrupt higher ups in hero society. The kids in the household has a part in taking down hero society as well but in their own, special way. Iwata has the biggest part in closing the case (but it’s spoiler if I say how), Lili and twins help tearing down minor things like education systems and laws. I will say though, the case gets resolved after the trio retires because Ita gets to return to America and found an heir to the company before they could draw to a conclusion. Which is a happy ending at the end of the storyline, no major deaths!

Q: Confirmed weddings? A: Yes :) because Lili and Iwata deserve good things and love. The twins have it easy in the coming book. Lili’s comes first and Iwata’s comes later than expected (can’t say why yet, gotta keep reading :3). I guess I can say that all of them get married but Lili’s and Iwata’s are the only queer ones. All the spouses that marry into the family take the Iida name, so Lili and Hanaka don’t change family names when they get married! Y’all already know those wedding chapters are gonna be lavish and take up most of the chapter, you’ll love them.

Q: But are the kids Joji stans? A: Oh jeez...they are the same way we like 80′s music. It’s pleasant to listen to but kinda cringe when you see your parents dance to it. I don’t really portray it, but the family digital library has all of Joji’s music in a playlist called ‘Sad hours Soundtrack’. If you ask Mr Muffins 2.0 who last listened to the playlist, they’ll snitch who and how many times it has been looped. That’s how Tenya knows who needs cheering up.

Q: I love the little references to their childhood, what else can you tell us about their pre-book childhood? A: As I said a few times in the tags, I cut a ton of stuff that isn’t relevant to the plot. Most of it was their childhood and how they manifested their quirks. Lili really liked to scream before she learned to talk, a very fast learner and at 3 years old got her engine quirk and later that year showed signs of a second quirk. Iwata was very quiet child, hardly cried or gets upset but latched on to mom a lot. His first words were in Spanish but struggled a bit with Japanese before entering kinder. Tensei was born first, then Hanaka followed 10 minutes later. Hanaka’s fire quirk manifested after the first breast feeding when she was getting burped by mom in the hospital. Mom likes to believe Tensei came out first to warn everybody that Hanaka can breathe fire. Tensei didn’t manifest his metal quirk until the age of 7, making him a very late bloomer. Though very different in personalities, Hanaka and Tensei get along and get very creative when it’s playtime. Up until the age of 5, mom would place Hanaka in kindling to get the BBQ grill or bonfire started. Hanaka has been known to randomly burst into flames as a baby, so Tensei had to sleep in a different crib for his safety. Tensei spent more time reading as a child because everyone was focused on managing Hanaka’s flames, thus making him a very studious boy.

Q: Not an AU question, but how are you doing?/ We don’t mind waiting for the chapters! Please take your time. A: I’ve been getting check ins and validation in my asks for the inconsistent schedule. Too many things came at me this year, both good and bad. I was doing well in speech and debate that I went to nationals and prepared myself for some serious competition, leaving no time to do chapters. Then I fell in and out of depressive episodes during lockdown where I’m from. In the summer my grandmother passed away from the virus in Mexico, then my beloved dog Mr Muffins passed away of old age. Those deaths hurt me and my family the most that I was having a hard time trying to cope plus trying to be responsible by adhering to CDC guidelines (I’m in the immune-comprised group). In my want to get over my grief, I trained and received my certificate in ordained ministry (yea I know that’s not the best first step, but I just needed to feel like I’ve achieved something being cooped up at home). I’ve very grateful that theres some readers that see the tags and check up on me. All your kind words gives me a little strength to write and finish every chapter at my pace.

Q: More art please? A: Yes :3 I have one coming up real soon! After the end of this book is where I’ll be releasing some art as a sort of place holder.

Q: Is the the estate drama eluding to the ending? A: Yup! And it will show up every now and then in the next book.

Q: This is a really good self insert AU! There’s complexity to your character and others...how do you write these interactions/relationships really close to actual ones? A: Thanks for the complement :3 When I first started this AU, I was in the middle of my semester of a creative writing course. Near the end of book 2 was when I finished the course work for it and by then you could see the progression in writing. ALSO, I’m a communications major as well! Writing these relationships and other social things were things that I remembered learning in my interpersonal communications class. I was a bit on fence on whether or not to start this AU because I didn’t think my writing skill was at all that good. With some encouragement from my classmates and friends, I pushed myself to write this whole AU out. I don’t plan on stopping until I finish the storyline, plus I hate leaving things unfinished.

And that wraps up this FAQ! Hopefully I got everyone’s questions since most were check-ins for me. But expect the last chapter for book 3 in the next few days. After Book 3, I’m going on a lil hiatus until the end of February. I have so many life events happening in the upcoming weeks that I’m gonna need time to recharge before resuming this AU. Y’all know I bounce back as promised, in the meantime, I have some art things queued to remind y’all that Book 4 is in the works. Only 2 more books to go! Thanks again for reading and I’ll talk you y’all again later in the tags~

-Love, Palma-sama

P.S. Heres the end of Book 3 for your connivence :3 other links are at the top of this post! 

#mha #bnha #self insert au #not canon #FAQ 3 #Book 3 #ask me anything

[anarcoqueer1994]

Best Friends Forever?: Chapter 1

Chapter 2

So this was supposed to be a dabble about Reed being a chaotic bisexual with some minor redemption parts but I got carried away. A little heavier than intended but I hope you like it.

Reed would walk the hallways of Grant like he owned the place. And he kind of did. Despite only being a sophomore, almost everyone knew who he was. He had hooked up with at least half his class and quite a few students from other classes. He loved to flirt and if he saw someone he wanted, he went for it. He had learned a few years back that if you wait too long to make your move, someone was bound to swoop in and steal them away.

As the last bell rang, he made his way down the hallway. When he nears locker 109, he hesitates like he does everyday. Out of the corner of his eye, he saw his former best friend leaning against that locker, with his arms wrapped around the brunette who changed everything. Just like the day prior and all the days since the beginning of freshman year, he momentarily considers walking up to him and maybe saying hi. 

He turns his head slightly to look over and sees TJ wave in his direction. A smile instantly hits his face. Maybe TJ also wants to be friends again? As he goes to wave back though, he stops. He sees the real reason TJ was waving. Marty and Buffy were behind him and TJ was waving at them. They walk past him like he doesn't exist and make their way to join their friends. TJ greets them like he didn't notice Reed at all. His heart drops. Instead of letting it overwhelm him with sadness, he let's anger and spite take over 

He forces himself to move forward through the hallways. Thinking about TJ always brought up bad feelings for him. TJ really hurt him. No, he wasn't mad that TJ turned him in for the gun. It was a dumb idea to play around with the gun. He accepted that. He was mad that TJ completely cut him out of his life after that. He threw Reed away like some bad reminder of his old life. Like he was just one more hurdle on TJ's journey to be a better person. But Reed had known since they were kids that TJ was a good person who just had put up a defensive wall of anger to protect himself. Reed had never doubted that his friend was good. So it made Reed feel worthless, that his best friend since kindergarten would treat him like that,  especially because Reed has always been there for TJ.

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They were 6 years old and starting their first day of first grade. TJ stood nervously at in the hall with his new, much shorter hair cut. He was wearing "boys" clothes and looked much different than last year when his long blonde hair would flow mid way down his back. Over the summer TJ had told his mom that he was a boy so she let him dress to feel more at home in his body. He had been so excited to show his class but now that it was finally time, he was nervous.

Reed walks out of the classroom when he sees his best friend nervously waiting outside. He smiles at his buddy showing off his missing baby tooth in the front of his mouth, before saying. "You look so cool! I'm glad your mommy stopped dressing you up like a girl! It was weird." Reed knew TJ was a boy before anyone else. TJ told him on their first day of kindergarten and even though he was forced to present a s a girl that year, Reed never treated him like less than any other boy.

A smile crosses young TJ's face. "Really? I look cool? Do you think the other kids will laugh?"

"Are you kidding me?! Do you see the shark on your shirt, who would ever laugh at a shark?!"

"I'm scared that they will call me a girl." TJ looks down. 

"Well I'll yell at them if they do." Reed gives another toothy smile before reaching out his hand and taking TJ's.

TJ smiles back before letting himself be pulled into the classroom. And Reed kept his word. Anyone who was mean to his friend, he stood up against. He was TJ's biggest supporter.

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But now, TJ couldn't give a damn about him. He felt like less than trash. Well...TJ may not want him but someone will. For a few minutes he could pretend that someone actually cared about him. And then he could end it on his terms. He can be the one to hurt somebody before they hurt him.

He pushes his way down the corridor, working out his plan. He passes through the school door to the outside and heads to the football field where the varsity team was practicing. He sits in the bleachers, looking for his target. Then he spots him, the quarterback, Tyler. 

Tyler was tall with shaggy brown hair and pretty brown eyes. Officially he's straight with a beautiful girlfriend to prove it. (That girlfriend by the way had been making out with Reed in the janitor's closet a few days ago.) Reed had seen the jock though stealing glances at him when he would pass by in the hallway. So he waits.

When practice is over, he makes his way down to the edge of the field. He waits as the other guys leave to go back to the locker room and then focuses all his attention on Tyler, who happens to be the last guy to walk by him.

He puts on a flirty, confident smile as he walks into the brunette's field of vision. "Hey, you looked really good out there. You really know what you're doing, don't you?" He steps closer.

"I...um guess. Thanks. Do I know you?" He scrunches his eyebrows in confusion.

"Not officially, no. But I've seen you in the halls." Reed closes the distance between them as he talks, now putting the boys a few feet apart. He flashes another smile before strategically pointing his head down slightly so he can look up through his eyelashes. He whispers. "I think you are really cute…"

At that Tyler blushes and he can barely form a coherent sentence. "I'm not gay, man."

"Neither am I." Reed smirks before ghosting his fingers against Tyler's hand.

"It's just that kissing dudes...isn't my thing." The football player says, obviously lying. He doesn't try to step out of Reed's touch.

So Reed pulls his hand away and from the look on Tyler's face, he regrets that. Reed answers. "Well okay…." Then he gets a curious look on his face and tilts his head. "But it could be your thing...you don't know unless you try."

The other boy swallows hard, glancing down at Reed's lips. Reed knows he's got him because before he can process what is happening, Tyler has his hand in his, pulling him under the bleachers.

Then they are kissing, Reed running his fingers through the taller boy's hair. For a few minutes, he feels great. Someone really wants him. But then...it comes crashing down. The euphoric feeling in him fades away like always, to be replaced by sadness. This is temporary. This person doesn't really want him. He is just another warm body. So as quickly as it started, he ends it. He abruptly pulls away. Tyler looks confused again.

"Well that was nice." The blond says coldly. 

"That's it? You're done?"

"Yea, so uh...bye." Reed turns to walk away.

"Wait…" Tyler pleads.

"What?" Reed rolls his eyes appearing physically annoyed as he turns to face the boy again.

"What am I supposed to do?" Then a look of guilt crosses his face. "Oh god...I just cheated on my girlfriend. What am I going to do?" 

Reed gives him an empty smile. "I don't know, man. How about you ask your girlfriend about how she deals with the guilt."

"What did you say?" 

"I guess you really are as dumb as people say you are. I'm telling you that now you and your girlfriend are even."

"She made out with you too?" He asks, desperately.

Reed simply shrugs his shoulders and walks away, ignoring anything else that is leaving the other boy's mouth.

He kept walking until he reached his house. As soon as he stepped in his bedroom, his icy disguise melted away. He drops on his bed, and he soon lets all the guilt, and overwhelming sadness take over. He allows his mind to wander to the memories he often tries to surpress.

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It was halfway through their first grade year. They were at recess. TJ and Reed were playing on the jungle gym, minding their own business, when these third graders came up to them and started laughing.

"What are  you laughing at?!" Reed demanded behind a lisp caused by missing his front tooth.

"That girl!" One of them pointed at TJ. "Why does she look like a boy?!

Reed looks back at TJ, who is now staring at the ground. He turns his head back to the bullies. He spit "Because he is a boy!"

"Na-ah! We know she's a girl!" They start laughing when they see TJ crying. "Look, see! They're crying like a girl!"

Reed looks back again at his best friend before stepping closer to the bullies. As they keep laughing, Reed swings his leg, kicking the leader in the worst possible place. He yelps in pain and everyone stops laughing. He starts to cry. Reed smirks, "Now, you're the one crying."

He turns away and walks towards TJ. He takes his friend's hand and says "Come on." He smiles at TJ and pulls him away from the older kids. (Who don't tell the teacher because they know they will get in trouble too.)

Reed leads him behind the tree at the edge of the playground.

"Are you okay, Teej?" He asks his still sniffling friend.

"Yea...thank you Reed. Hey?"

"Yea?" Reed replies.

"Do you promise to always be my best friend?" TJ hold his breath waiting for a response.

"Duh! I love you and your my best buddy in the whole entire world!' Reed beams.

TJ nods and says, " Thank you...and you too! Best friends forever." Then he leans over and kisses Reed's cheek without warning. Reed remembers blushing like crazy but TJ doesn't say anything about it again. But Reed will always remember that day as his first kiss.

  

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But that day was also the day, TJ started becoming meaner. He started putting up a tougher exterior. He didn't want anyone to pick on him anymore. But Reed never stopped being TJ's friend, even when he was being a jerk. He kept his promise.. best friends forever. At the end of the day, he knew TJ was a good person. He never gave up on TJ....so why did TJ give up on him?

Reed doesn't even think TJ remembers that day. Why should he? That day is part of his old life, just like Reed. He buries his face into his pillow when he feels a tear collecting at his eye. It’s been two years and he still miss his best friend like an idiot. Soon he falls asleep crying and sleeps until the next morning.

When he gets to school, he hears little whispers as he walks by. He is used to it by now. You don't just get to go around using people without at least a little gossip being spread. He liked it that way...at least he was the one in control. At least he got to be the one pushing others away first instead of them pushing him away.

"Did you hear Tyler and Kim broke up?" He hears one girl say to her friend in the hallway.

"Yea...apparently they both cheated...with the same person." Her friend replies.

"Really? Who?"

"Some sophomore, Reed, I think his name is. Kim posted about it on her finsta."

Reed frowns to himself as he walks by. He doesn't know why he is upset by this. What did he expect would happen? Still, he doesn't feel great. Maybe because this isn't the first time he broke up a couple? Or maybe it’s because in this narrative, he again is just the fuck up again? Maybe he is just feeling guilty for hurting them? Probably all of the above, he thinks to himself. Having a conscience can be such a pain in the ass.

The day dragged by slowly. Reed wanted the school day to end faster than usual. But of course, it felt like each minute was an eternity. When the bell finally rings, he couldn't be in a bigger hurry to get out of that building. But when he rounds the corner, he hears a familiar voices talking about him. Its Cyrus and TJ. They don't notice he is there so he take the opportunity to slide back around the corner so he can hide behind some lockers and eavesdrop.

"Can you believe Reed did that? With both of them?!" Cyrus asks as he looks up at his beautiful, green eyed boyfriend.

"I mean...are you surprised?" TJ retorts. "He's Reed, he has been doing this since freshman year, Kim and Tyler are just the most popular of his conquests. He doesn't care about anyone but himself, Cy."

Hearing TJ talk about him like he is just some heartless asshole hurts him more than anyone else gossiping could ever. He knows he should walk away so he doesn't get more hurt but he can't seem to get his feet to move. He stays frozen and keeps listening.

"Teej? Wasn't he your best friend at some point? Was he always like this?" Cyrus asks. His voice sounds genuinely concerned. "I mean other than the gun thing, before that, he seemed so nice to me."

"What can I say? I guess some people are good at faking it." TJ replies coldly. Hard feelings still obviously there in his voice. The negative way their friendship ended, was casting a dark cloud in TJ's mind of their entire friendship. "Reeds just not a good person."

The words cut through Reed like a blade. He always knew in the back of his head that TJ hated him but it was so different actually say these things out loud.  He can't control what he does next. He slams his fist into the locker next to him out of anger...and so much hurt.

TJ and Cyrus look shocked at the sudden interruption and zero in at where the sound came from. But he does not give them a chance to investigate. He runs the other direction. He keeps running until he finds an empty hallway that has already cleared out of students for the day. He was so busy running that he didn't hear the footsteps following.

"Reed, wait up, please?" Its TJ's voice. From the slight shortness of breath, he can tell he was running too.

Reed reels around, doing his best to keep his face emotionless and cold. This was the first time TJ has talked to him since the incident. Cyrus must have hung back because the basketball player was alone. When his eyes meet TJ's his breath hitches in his throat but he forces himself to speak. He crosses his arms against his chest, like a shield."What do you want?" His words come out like ice.

TJ takes a deep breath. "Um how are you doing?"

"Save the small talk. I know you just feel bad because you know I heard what you said."

"Reed…"

"Just don't, TJ. You're right. I'm not a good person. I know what I did was messed up. I know what I do is messed up. I'm just a messed up person."Against his wishes, his voice betrayed him and became more strained as he continued to speak. "So you can go tell your boyfriend that you fulfilled your obligation to check up on me, to see if I'm alright and we can go back to never talking again."  He breaks eye contact to stare angerly at the wall to the side of him. "TJ Kippen will once again be the good guy while I'm the moody, toxic, villain who lost his temper.:

TJ stares helplessly at his old best friend. The only thing that came out of his mouth was, "Why?"

"Why, what?" Reed spits back. He finds it easier to be mad if he isn't staring at TJ.

"Why did you hook up with either of them if you knew they were dating?" He seems to have ignored the other things that had left Reed's mouth.

"I do that all the time."

"But what makes you do it?"

"What makes them do it? They are the ones who made a commitment to another person. They are the ones who chose to break it. Honestly, if all it takes to end their relationship is some cute blonde flirting with them, isn't it better they know now and not 6 months from now?"

TJ gives him a look of disbelief. "So you're saying that you just do this to help people know their relationship is doomed? Come on, man. I'm not stupid. What else is going on?"

"What do you care?" Reed says, dropping his arms to his sides, his voice getting more broken. "You wouldn't understand."

"Why wouldn't I?"

"Because...because...you're TJ Kippen." His voice sounds defeated as he slumps against a row of lockers, taking a seat on the ground. "You're the golden boy, with a real growth story. You ditched your toxic life with your toxic, shitty friends. You have everything. A wonderful boyfriend, the perfect friends, you're the only sophomore on the varsity basketball team. I'm just part of the wreckage from your past, man." He feels a tear form in his eye. "Fuck. I just didn't want to be alone anymore. You stopped speaking to me the day of that stupid gun thing. That killed me, Teej. Do you have any idea how hard I worked after I got in trouble. I took gun safety courses and haven't been stupid enough to play with a gun since. I had made a mistake but it really felt like you cut me out completely to impress Cyrus. You never gave me a chance to fix it. But everyone gave you a chance to be a better person. Then to make matters worse, Lester moved at the end of the eighth grade."

TJ takes a seat next to Reed. He tries to speak. "Reed, I…" 

Reed interrupts him. "Please let me finish because I don't  know if I will be brave enough to do this again. Anyways. I had no one at the beginning of high school. Then this guy asked me out, Kellie Conway. And I was so excited. We had a few dates but apparently I was mopey or something, because he told me <It's a good thing you're cute because that's the only reason anyone would want to hang out with you.> So I ran with that. I flirt with whoever because it's the only thing I got going. And sometimes I hook up with people in relationships because it feels good to have someone chose me above someone else if only for a few minutes." A few rebel tears make their way down his cheek.

"Reed... I'm sorry..." TJ says guiltily staring at the floor. His voice cracks.

The sound of his ex-friend holding back tears of his own, sets Reed over the edge. Tears are now flowing freely. "Why'd you just cut me out of your life? Didn't...didn't I deserve the chance to grow and learn from my mistake?" He takes a shaky breath trying to calm himself down. "We were supposed to always be best friends forever, we promised. Remember? In the first grade?"

"You're...right." TJ admits. "You did deserve a chance to make things right but...but I thought it would be less messy for me if I just cut you off completely. It was selfish and stupid." TJ turns his head slightly so he can face Reed. "I tried to convince myself that I hated you, which I know is unfair to you. But the truth is, I could never hate you. You were my first friend and...always had my back. I'm sorry...for not trying harder to fix our friendship. And...I do remember that day in the first grade."

Reed is speechless. He didn't think the conversation would go like this. "Teej?" He chokes out.

"Yeah?"

"I'm sorry, too...I'm sorry for putting everyone in danger that day. I honestly wanted to impress Cyrus for you, like be a good wingman. Even though you hadn't come out to me yet, I could tell you liked him a lot.  It was stupid and Cyrus was right to leave. But I meant well. And...I'm sorry for not being brave enough to talk to you sooner."

TJ gives him a soft smile for the first time in years. "I'm … glad we talked now. I know it's going to take work, but if you want to, I would like to rebuild our friendship."

Reed gives him a toothy smile like they were in first grade again. "I would love that."

The two boys sit in a comfortable silence in the empty hallways for a while. Both were thankful for this first step into becoming friends again.

@abg-blah @milo-melon

#andi mack #reed with the weed #reed #trans!tj #tj trans #tj kippen #cyrus goodman

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Star Twinkle Precure Episode 48

The power of Imagination is really incredible.

First and foremost I wanna apologize for all the trash I dumped in the last episode BECAUSE THIS WAS AN AMAZING CLIMAX FOR THIS SEASON AND I LOVE EVERY SECOND OF IT.

Okay, I have a few small problems here and there, but there are so many more positive things to talk about that my problems become VERY small in comparison with all the good things this episode had.

This episode was an emotional bomb from beginning to end, even to me who isn't someone that cared a lot for most of the relationships established in this show, I was really touched by everything.

The first part of this episode felt very heavy and suffocating, Hikaru was doing those desperate faces when she saw Ophiucus survived and I was pretty much going through the same thing, I was legitimately frightened when the universe started to get swallowed by darkness, and Ophiucus imponent evil presence just helped in making that situation even more scary and dark. Ophiucus is one of the best final bosses in all of precure, hands down, look at the power this woman holds, just amazing. I also love that one of the points I didn't like in the last episode was touched in here which made me get a whole new admiration for what happened there. Because their feelings weren't united with Fuwa's, because they were hesitant at that moment, that the "ritual" failed and Ophiucus was able to come back and this is strong. If I could go back on time to last week I'd stop myself from having written those words about Hikaru's hesitance because that was obviously the right decision for Hikaru to make at that moment, and of course the show didn't let that just slip by, it had consequences so, that was perfect. Past Venus is a very dumb boy.

Following this high moment of despair, we have what was to me the best moment of this entire episode. In the middle of the darkness, Hikaru starts to shine like a lonely little star lost in the sky and she has an opportunity to let all her feelings get out, I kinda wish we had seen Hikaru trying to deal with all these emotions alone for a bit longer, I don't know maybe just one more minute of only Hikaru so that she could speak more and we could feel that sinking in even deeper, I'm sorry I like the angst in moments likes this.

Regardless of how much time we spent with Hikaru lost in the void, I really like how the episode made Lala and the girls find Hikaru and not it be the other way around because it kinda emulates what their presence changed in Hikaru's life. Hikaru has always been a lonely kid until Fuwa and the gang crashed into her life and she finally found friends and the joy of having human interactions that go beyond your family and, at least to my eyes, that was what they were trying to do here. Hikaru was alone and sad again, and then Lala came to her and said "we're here" and then in that place that was dark and empty we saw a light, we saw a place that was bright up and felt cozy, just like what their friendship did with Hikaru. It was absolutely gorgeous.

Of course, I couldn't mention this moment without highlighting one of the best moments of the season where the girls started singing the transformation song a capella. I watched this episode twice (one while it was airing, and one with subs) and in both times I had goosebumps during this part. I don't have the vocabulary to make justice to how beautiful and strong that was and all the emotions that it made me feel. This was the absolutely perfect moment to crown the first half of the episode.

The climax of the show came right after it in the best fighting scene of this season, and probably one of the best final fights we had in the entire history of this franchise. That fight was everything I could've asked for AND MORE. Up until tomorrow, I had no high opinions on the Twinkle Style, most of it because we only see it being used during the stock footage sequence for their finisher, but after seeing the girls fighting on it, GOSH HOW BEAUTIFUL THESE OUTFITS ARE! They are so big and sparkly! It's a real shame we didn't get to see it being used more often in this final arc, to hide such a gorgeous power-up behind a stock footage sequence is a crime.

I loved how dynamic this fight felt even though they were in space with no gravity acting on them, it was really something else. I know that for a yearly show they don't have the budget to spend in a lot of fights like this one, but I really wish we had seen more instances of the girls fighting on space, they were SO CREATIVE with it for this fight imagining all the fun fights we could've gotten made me sad a little 😅. Oh well, moving on. XD If I say that I really got that final speech they were giving while they were beating Ophiucus down I'd be lying, but it sounded cool so I don't really care that much. The moment where they called upon the souls? the imaginations? of everyone that was swallowed by the darkness was really good as well, though I wonder how a lot of those earthlings that didn't know about the precure existence were there landing their power too. But that's a minor thing, it doesn't take away from the moment a single bit, especially because Fuwa's spirit was there too to share her powers with the girls one last time so that was awesome, and very visually pleasing as well.

Now, one thing that I don't like is how Ophiucus was just able to walk away from that situation even though she basically destroyed the entire universe minutes before. Like, I'm okay with her still being alive, it wouldn't make sense for this team to destroy a life after everything we saw, but I think that for her to walk away with no punishment is kinda revolting. Maybe it's just me, I think it hits a bit to close to home seeing people in high positions doing horrible stuff and getting away with it, but I really didn't like that Ophiucus was able to hide on her own dark corner in the universe as she pleased.

But it's not like my discontent lasted long and left a bad impression on me, after all right after it we got another high point of the episode. I said last week I wouldn't like to see them bringing Fuwa back, but I really like how it happened here, they sacrificed their powers to be able to bring Fuwa back and even though Fuwa was revived she wasn't exactly the same, she had memories of the girls but she was still kinda clueless about everything and I think that was a good way to do this resurrection without nullifying the importance that Fuwa's sacrifice had.

But the thing I really liked was seeing their goodbye. I always wondered if they would go there and make Lala and Yuni go back to their planets after the final fight, I mean I was sure Yuni would go back after all that was the reason why she became a precure, but I wasn't sure about Lala and I'm glad they made Lala part her ways with the girls too. I know it's a sad moment and a lot of people didn't like that this happened, but I think it's important especially for Hikaru, I always wished that by the end Hikaru would be alone but not lonely anymore because she knows she has friends even if they're not together all the time and having the ending be like this may be a sign that this is a direction they'll take, at least for the first part of the epilogue episode next week. Also, it was a very beautiful moment, Yuni saying she would be okay because Eyewon would be there with her trying to find a way to revert the people of Rainbow Planet with her was very gay and absurdly cute, and seeing Lala lose her ability to speak Japanese as the power of the pendant faded was hard but it just made her goodbye with Hikaru even more touching because I could feel in my bones that she was trying her best to properly say "Hikaru, thank you". Y'all know I'm not the biggest fan of Hikaru and Lala together, but that moment was gold, I shed a tear there.

I'm kinda sad that wasn't the actual finale and we still have one more episode to go because this was the perfect ending we could've gotten and I'm afraid that what we get next week won't be as good and the final memory we'll have of Star Twinkle won't be this moment. HOWEVER, this series is written by the same guy that wrote Mahou Tsukai and we had a similar situation in that series and I really liked how they made the reunion happen there so we can get something just as cool and as emotional here so there's still hope.

I feel like this is all for now. What are your thoughts on this episode? Let me know in the comments. I'll see you all the next time. bye-bye~ o/

#Star Twinkle Precure #precure

[multimetaverse]

Andi Mack 3x16 Review

One Girl’s Trash really showcased why Andi Mack is such an important show though I wish they would have spent more time on the stereotypes plot. Let’s dig in!

Positives: 

When Andi Mack is at its best there’s really nothing like it anywhere on TV and it’s going to leave such a void when it ends and I hope something fills that void sooner rather than later. 

A really strong A plot by Elena Song, it makes such a difference that the diversity we see on the show is mirrored in the writers room. I was so happy that they actually had Andi used the word Asian when talking about the stereotypes she was facing; it was a big improvement from the more coded way they had to talk about the racism Buffy faced back in S1 in regards to her hair. Words truly do matter and being able to openly and accurately describe these kind of things is so important.

Lilan and Peyton posted on how much this ep means to them and I hope we’ll be seeing more plots like this on kids TV. 

Honestly my only real complaint about the A plot is that it felt too short and I wish Celia had been in this ep and that Bex could have been brought in to, seeing three generations of Asian woman supporting each other would have been great. 

I also liked that Andi said that Mrs. Frankel turning the stereotyping into a teachable moment wasn’t fun which of course would be true in reality. I also appreciate that the show continues to put black women in positions of authority.

It was great to see Andi so into art again and it makes for a good way to bring her story to a climax.

Andi’s art project looked like something a 14 year old might come up with and I liked that she was inspired but didn’t immediately know what she was going to do for her project. 

Hangry and resting happy face were very funny jokes. 

A rare Andi and Cyrus scene. Liked the callback to the rainbow wig and the protest and the experiment; definitely a show reaching to its past as it prepares for the end.  And we get two callbacks to the party tonight to set up the finale. It did feel a bit tacked on but that’s likely because the writers wanted to get in some solo time for this duo before they run out of time. 

Stellar acting from Trent and Lilan this ep. Bowie talking about wanting to one day see Andi get married in Bex’s dress and how it wouldn’t happen now was so sad. That was some good Bexie angst. and it actually felt earned.  I’m glad it’s all out in the open now. Bex’s biggest flaw is that she runs from her problems and she was being willfully blind to the fact that obviously Bowie wanted to get married. Now she has to face reality and make her choice. 

Jonah was hilarious tonight. Asher was killing it with the comedy. His groan when he said he’d have to breakup with Amber again? Emmy worthy. There’s really not much to Jonah other than Frisbee and dimples and I like when they just use him as comic relief; it usually lands better than when they shove Cyrus in that role. 

Jonah is definitely true to life for the average 14 year old boy but in fairness at least he recognized that he didn’t reciprocate Amber’s feelings and that he had to eventually be honest with her. 

Nice little callback to 3x07 with Jonah wearing the same blue sweater he wore when he was with Libby at the school. And a nice realistic touch since he would be re wearing clothes. 

It was good of him to actually take her on a real date and I liked the detail of him winning tickets on the radio. 

Andi really is being a good friend to both Amber and Jonah and is giving good advice, though how long that lasts remains to be seen. 

Amber was the most likeable she’s ever been. Really strong performance from Emily tonight. Disney PR posted that she actually was driving the go kart which is cool. Must have been really fun to shoot. 

I liked that we opened on community service, too often this show just ignores the events of the previous ep. 20 hours of service for trespassing and theft versus 100 hours for playing with a gun is interesting

More set up for Buffy’s injury. 

Negatives: 

Jamber is a huge mess and really not a wise use of precious screen time. Amber is clearly looking for the affection she’s not getting at home and Jonah is probably the worst possible character on the show to seek that from. I really don’t know what exactly Amber’s version of a happy ending will be; there’s really nothing the show can do to solve her parents problems or her financial problems. 

Amber has always been an oddly written character. She’s never gotten the full redemption arc TJ had and the writers never seemed to truly settle on an arc for her. I get why she was in so many eps this season: unlike Garren they had Emily available from the start and didn’t have to work around her schedule and unlike Luke she’s not playing a gay character who’s story needs to be delayed until the very end but I really don’t think we needed Amber in 11 of the original 21 eps this season.

Jonah is another character who has been woefully under developed. I don’t think the writers ever decided what exactly was the deal with his not liking labels or commitments yet also being a chronic relationship hopper. He’s right that what he and Amber have can just be fun instead of love but then why is he dating her? Just stay friends! Part of the problem is that Jonah is first and foremost a love interest and they don’t tend to get much development but because Cyrus’ story has so many constraints the writers were forced to focus more on Jonah than they would have if Cyrus had been straight without really having much in the way planned for him. 

Cyrus’ shirt at school was ugly. A really bad misfire by the wardrobe department. 

Looking Ahead:

So the original casting notice released by our friends at Yun Casting was correct and Rachel is still Marty’s current girlfriend and the official Disney synopsis describing her as Marty’s ex is incorrect. I don’t think it’s ever happened before where the synopsis got a detail like that wrong. Obviously they break up at the bowling alley so maybe that’s why Disney wrote it that way? The casting notice describes Rachel as a co-star so she won’t get much screen time. 

It’s going to be very messy making Buffy a homewrecker. Her saying ‘’oh you’re real’’ to Rachel is quite a power move but then again Driscoll doesn’t draw.  Likely we see her twirling her hair at Marty since Cyrus is there and is the only one who knows about that tell. 

Good on Rachel for seeing what’s right in front of her. She was obviously just a rebound for Marty and he’s clearly been spending a lot of time with Buffy once she reached out to him. Not a good look to have him be emotionally cheating on Rachel for the last several weeks but I’m sure that will be swept under the rug in order to get that Muffy endgame. 

Buffy seems to be hobbling a bit so clearly her foot is getting worse. Does it get injured at the bowling alley or later on since she seems to be injured before the game itself in 3x18. 

Still no hint when the new Muffy pro player plot happens. It was meant to replace their scenes at the original wedding and it really does seem like the original wedding happened pretty quickly after 3x17 so I don’t know if they can delay those Muffy scenes all that long. 

It does look like the timeline is fairly smooth, it’s only been a few weeks since costume day and the rest of the series probably only spans another few weeks or a month in universe. 

Andi goes to SAVA. Does she stay there or transfer to a school elsewhere? Is it her moving in the finale or is Jonah moving far away? 

3x17 had Ham so we’re going to see some sort of cuts or re-shoots. The texts released before this ep had a convo between Bex and Bowie and Andi about a movie night do-over that was pretty clear foreshadowing for an ‘’I Do-over’’ convo in 3x17 even if that’s now cut. Bex talked about having a movie night do-over and Bowie questioned if it was a do-over if it never happened in the first place and Bex replied that she would give Bowie the movie night her deserved. Swap in wedding for movie night and you have a rough outline of the kind of convo we likely would have seen in 3x17 before the re-shoots. 

Ham obviously had an important role to play in getting the wedding back on track but what exactly we don’t know. And how Bex goes from not wanting to get married to agreeing to get married and agreeing to Celia’s lavish wedding plan in otl is an open question. The show has always struggled with pacing and they really should have had Bex call of the wedding earlier in the season rather than rushing it like this. It will be interesting if nothing else to see what kind of Mack family scenes we’re getting next week; there’s a range of possibilities from most of them being cut to a brief Mack family only wedding happening.

Therapist Cyrus is usually pretty boring and I wonder if his advice actually helps. His meddling often backfires like when he accidentally convinced Jonah to get back together with Amber in S1. 

I really don’t know if they can keep Andi completely romance free for the rest of the season. I did wonder if her asking Jonah to share a milkshake was going to lead to something.  She’s been very supportive of both Amber and Jonah but it seems like the kind of situation where the writers would make things messier for the drama, even if they didn’t fully think it through. 

This could very well be the last time we ever see the GHC inside Andi Shack. And come to think of it we’ve never seen Jonah inside of it and maybe we never will.

These last 4 eps are going to be wild. Until next week folks.

#Andi Mack #Bexie #Jamber #Jonah Beck #Amber #Bex Mack #Bowie Quinn #Cyrus Goodman #Buffy Driscoll #Andi Mack Reviews #Andi Mack Meta #Andi Mack Season 3

[everykindofnerd13]

“I was only 3 years old when my mother left leaving nothing but her memory and my knife behind for me. I was 6 years old when my Dad left my home and never returned. I was 7 years old when I was discovered by a teacher at school and put in the Foster care system. I was 10 years old when I figured out that I might be gay and came out to my parents as questioning. They weren’t very happy and I was put back in the system. I was 11 years old when I ran away from my foster home at the time and began to live on the run from the agency. I was 12 years old when I met Takashi Shirogane who brought me home to live with him and his boyfriend Adam. I was 14 when I was finally permitted to join the Galaxy Garrison and was finally happy to be pursuing a dream. I also met my first ever crush when I was 14, not that I knew it yet. When I was 15 I realised my crush, and when I was 16, I accepted my crush...” Everyone laughed as Keith spoke, he took a deep breath, steadying himself and continued, “I was 17 years old when Shiro left on the Kerberos mission, and was presumed dead weeks later. It was at that time that Adam began pulling away, beginning to only do what was completely necessary for my health. I was 18 years old when I punched Iverson in the eye and was expelled from the Galaxy Garrison. I also left the home I still shared with Adam and began living in the shack I’d lived in with my biological parents that was only a little ways away from the school. That same year, I discovered that my older brother-best friend was alive and I rushed to get him away from the scientists. There, was when my life took a turn that I both wish could have been better, but will never regret. When I was 20, I left my brother and found-family in hopes of serving a greater purpose in a war I shouldn’t have even had to fight. I was 21 when I returned to my found-family and 23 when we won a war I thought we’d never escape. In exchange I was forced to watch the love of my life hurt over someone I had known for years as well. I was 24 when I finally admitted to my best friend, first crush, and love of my life and that I was in love, and he confessed to returning those feelings. I proposed when I was 25, and now, I’m 26, and you, Lance McClain, the guy I’ve been pining after since I was 16, all of which Shiro had to sit and suffer through, are standing in front of me at the Wedding Alter, and I can honestly say, that until 2 years ago when you said you return my feelings, I didn’t think that I’d ever be this happy. But here you are, answering all my dreams, and all my prayers, by agreeing to spend the rest of our lives together with me, how crazy is that?” He laughed, there were sniffles heard all over the room, and Lance was crying himself, “So thank you, truly, and from the bottom of my heart, for making me happy, for agreeing to live this life with me, and for being my best friend, biggest supporter, and best rival through of this crazy shit we call life. You’re the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I’m so happy that you’re here with me.” Lance’s face was covered in his own tears now, and he covered his mouth.

“God! Keith! Still one upping me, 12 years later huh?” He asked his voice hoarse from trying to hold in tears. Keith let out a breathy laugh and looked at the minister expectantly. He nodded and rose his two hands.

“I now pronounce you, husband, and husband, you may kiss the groom.” Lance immediately wrapped his hands around Keith’s neck and pulled him into a passionate kiss, soaking both their cheeks in his own tears. Cheering erupted from the crowd and from their friends lined up on either side of them, but they barely even noticed. Keith wrapped his arms around Lance’s waist and pulled him close before breaking the kiss and just holding his husband close, tears of joy running down his cheeks. Their foreheads were rested together, just smiling, as the crowd began to disperse, Keith felt a hand land on his shoulder and squeeze, he pulled away from his husband and looked back, meeting Shiro’s eyes, and smiling at him too.

“Shiro,” he muttered, wrapping on arm around Lance’s waist and holding him their to prevent him from being pulled away by his fussing family.

“Keith,” he started then looked at the ground, and Keith caught tears gathering in the corners of his eyes, “I’m so proud of you Keith. You have come so far from the scrawny little kid that I found outside the general store 14 years ago. Look at you! You’re married! You two are adopting an incredible little girl and you both co-teach a piloting class at your dream school... I guess it’s not my place, because I only came into your life, when you were 12, but I can’t help the pride I feel.” Shiro was smiling, proudly, but also almost sadly at Keith, and he reached out with his free hand to grab Shiro’s arm and squeeze it.

“You and Adam did more for me than anyone else ever could have. I said it in my vows, and I told you, my parents abandoned me Shiro, whether my mothers intentions were sound or not, that’s what happened, and my foster parents, gave me back, you two, put up with all the trauma, all the angst, all the anxiety. Everything, you still managed to raise me so well Shiro, you’re the reason I’m no longer so self destructive, you’re the reason I was able to chase my passions, despite my own knowledge of my bad background, you’re more of a parent to me that any of them ever were, okay?” Keith asked and Shiro smiled and nodded, and Keith laughed to himself, “and plus, you were deemed Space-Dad a LONG time ago.” Shiro rolled his eyes and shook his head, but still smiled knowingly at Keith, who averted his gaze to Lance.

“I think it’s great that you finally got him, considering how long I really did that to deal with your incessant pining, Adam and I both.” Keith laughed and pulled Lance away from his conversation with his mother to place a kiss on his cheek then letting him return to the conversation, but only after Lance returned to gesture.

“I’m so glad that I finally got him, I just wish I could have had the perfect teen romance, like you and Adam, j think space would have been a lot easier.” Shiro hummed and nodded and looked back at his own husband, who was still sitting in his front row seat, talking to their two toddlers and Lance and Keith’s daughter-in-the-making. A wide grin on his face.

“We may have had the perfect teen romance, but you know how Adam reacted to Kerberos, I know you heard, I saw your eyes through the crack in the door.” Keith flushes and nodded.

“Well sure, but at least he didn’t keep that promise, to be gone when you returned, because look at your two now, married, three lovely children, I can already see the protective instincts of Lani and Aki taking Satoshi over.” Keith laughed. Shiro laughed as well and nodded, looking proudly at his family. He nodded again then cupped one hand over his mouth.

“Adam!” He shouted and the man perked up, smiling brightly and standing, beginning to herd the three toddlers toward their parents. Lance smiled and kneeled down as Leilani began running toward them at full toddler speed and Keith knelt down too. He wrapped her chubby little toddler arms around Lance and Keith’s necks and pressed wet kisses to their cheeks, which they quickly returned.

“So does that mean that you guys are gonna my tatay and papa even faster now?” She asked as she pulled away. Keith smiled and Lance nodded.

“We’re already your papa and Tatay though right?” She nodded excitedly and the three year old kissed them again before turning to look at Akisuki next to her. The four year old little girl turned away from her parents and looked at Leilani excitedly.

“Can we go play?” They both asked simultaneously and Lance, Keith, Adam, and Shiro all laughed and nodded then Keith turned to Satoshi seriously, still knelt to look at him eye to eye.

“Alright Toshi, I need you to make me a promise okay?” The 5 year old nodded back, just a s seriously, “ You have to keep them safe for us alright? Leilani and Akisuki? Okay?” He nodded and Keith pulled him into a hug.

“Hey Toshi!” Lance’s newest nephew, the same age as Satoshi, and Lance’s older brother Damien’s son, Julian, called and waved him over. Toshi held up one finger to signal for him to wait then turned to Keith.

“Alright Uncle Keith, but you have to make me a promise,” all the adults present to hear let out silent laughs accept for Keith who nodded pointedly, keeping up his faux serious look. “You have to promise to keep Uncle Lance safe, and Oya, and Otosan!” Keith nodded, but the boy didn’t stop, “because if you don’t, then Julian, and Aki, and Lani, and Andrea will be sad, and it’s hard to protect people when their sad, they get... mm...” the boy looked down, very focused, “I don’t remember the English word! They get mubō when they’re sad! You have to make sure nothin happens to those guys so that I can make sure nothing happens to my guys, okay?” Keith smiles softly and nodded then leaned in and whispered in Toshi’s ear.

“You’re getting very good at English, and the word I think you were looking for was Reckless.” He explained and Toshi excitedly nodded and hugged Keith one last time before running off to join his friends. Keith stood and looked at Lance, who was just looking at him, like he’d hung the stars.

“What?” He asked when he saw Adam and Shiro giving him a similar look, this one less in love and more prideful though.

“You’re just so good with kids, I love it, it’s so good, considering my HUGE family.” Lance explained and laughed while Keith laughed back, they were then finally approached by Hunk and Pidge, the two having just gotten past the bustling 11 person family.

“You two finally did it, look at yoh Lance, marrying the crush you’ve denied since you were 14.” Lance’s eyes widened and he hurriedly hushed Pidge. Keith laughed and kissed Lance’s cheek and left him to his conversation as he turned to Shiro and Adam again.

“He’s right y’know, you’re great with kids, I’m gonna start dumping Satoshi and Akisuki on you when we have date nights.” Adam jokes and Keith laughed then nodded.

“We’ll gladly take them.”

“I’m really sorry...” Adam muttered and Keith’s expression grew into concern.

“What?” He asked, and reached out to place a hand on Adam’s shoulder. He saw tears begin to form in Adam’s eyes and began to panic, Shiro how ever just wrapped his arms around his husband and held him close. Keith’s concern only grew.

“What’s going on? Are you going away? Is there something wrong? Please tel me you didn’t put off telling me because of the wedding!” Keith was beginning to panic as Adam continued to cry before Shiro sighed and rubbed Adam’s back reassuringly.

“You need to tell him before he has a heart attack the day of his wedding.” That only further panicked Keith as his weary eyes looked Adam over for any sign of sickness.

“It’s not, anything that has happened recently, or that will effect the future, I just,” Adam took a deep breath and looked up at Keith sadly.

“I wish I would have helped you. I wish I would have taken Kerberos better, you were just a kid for god’s sake, you were my kid, and I...” Adam paused, “I failed you. I left you in your most vulnerable state because I couldn’t handle it, as if being alone in an apartment I’d shared with Takashi was better than trying to stay with people who loved him alongside me, I’m so so sorry. I’ve always felt like I could have done something if I had just been by your side, but I was selfish, and ignorant and,” Adam’s rambling was cut off my Keith who engulfed him in a tight hug.

“Adam, I don’t blame anything that happened on you, I would have felt the presence of the lion regardless of living with you, I would have gone to get Shiro regardless of being with you, I would have punched Iverson regardless, granted I may not have been in the shack, but nothing that happened was your fault okay?” Keith assures Adam who nodded. Keith nodded as well then stood, looking to see that Lance’s family had already headed to the reception location in their own vehicles and now it was just the grooms, Shiro, Adam, Hunk, Pidge, and the kids, all ready to go get back in the fancy limousine they’d arrived in.

“Alright, are you ready to go, husband?” Lance asked, putting special emphasis on the last word.

“Ready if you are, husband,” Keith responder, almost equally as enthusiastic.

Pidge sighed loudly, “You guys were already insufferable sweethearts, now you’re gonna be insufferable husbands.” She complained and turned around to wall with Hunk out the door.

“Right you are Pigeon!” Lance shouted and turned to offer his arm to Keith who gladly took it. They called over Leilani who ran over and Keith easily swept her up into the crook of his arm.

“Papa! Where are we going now? Don’t tell me we’re gonna go to another boring building?” She asked leaning over to look at Lance. Both her dads laughed and shook their heads.

“Of course not Lani, we’re going to a party! Where you get to play with Julian, and Andrea, and Satoshi, and Akisuki, and Xenia, Violeta, and Adalita,” Lance explained easily. Leilani smiled brightly and nodded, then they heard a groan to their right, where the Shiroganes were walking. They all looked over to find the Shirogane’s oldest son, 14 year oldTakahiro, walking next to his parents and siblings with his arms crossed. Shiro and Adam both narrowed their eyes at him when he huffed, but before they could scold him, Lance leaned over and began speaking.

“Don’t worry Hiro, Mateo and Mariana will be at the party, and so will Jaxon, Leila, and Macy.” He assured the teenager. Takahiro visibly perked up at the mention of his friends, but Shiro and Adam still scolded them as they left.

When they reached the car as Keith and Adam fought with the kids car seats, Shiro approached Lance to ask him a question he’d been wondering for a while.

“Lance, just how big is your family?” He asked. Lance laughed and shook his head then looked at Shiro.

“Seriously?” He asked and Shiro nodded. Once laughed again.

“Oh gosh, okay, well I guess we’ll start with my Abuela and Abuelo. They had my father, Carlos, and his brother Jayden, and his sister Maria. My father married my mother, Rosa, and together they had Camila, Damien, Adrien, and last me. Then Camila married Jacob and they had Mateo and Mariana, Damien married Elliana and they had Julian, and Adrien married Valery and they had Andrea. You still with me?” Lance looked at Shiro, who noddd with a wide amused smile on his face.

“Okay, well then there’s my aunt and uncle Jayden and Sofia. They got married and had Julio and Daniel. Daniel was married to Aleta and they had Adalita, Luis, and Thomas. Julio was married to Angelica and they had Jaxon and Elena. Still with me?” Shiro nodded again.

“Then there’s my Aunt Maria, she married my uncle Hugo, and they had Nina, Lautaro, and Esmerelda. Nina married Alexander they had Leila, Emilio, and Grace. Lautaro married Evita and they had Ian and Alita. Then Esmerelda married Mario and they had Macy and Dante.” Lance finished his sentence then looked at Shiro who was staring wide eyed.

“I know.” He said.

“You have a HUGE family.” Shiro explained and Lance laughed.

“That’s not including my mother’s side, if you’d like I could go into more detail.” Shiro hastily shook his head.

“No no, those like 15 branches are enough.” Lance laughed again.

“Yeah, just there I have 20 girls, and 21 guys. Then adding you guys, it’s 22 girls and 26 guys. Once again, not counting my mother’s side of the family.” Shiro huffed, exasperated.

“It’s amazing, so many people, so many loved ones, all here for one big wedding, and after lacking a family for so long, the bigger it gets the better.” Keith explained after finally wrestling the uncooperative toddlers into their car seats. He came up to Lnce and kissed him in the cheek before pulling him into the limo to sit down with him. Shiro and Adam day opposit them while Hunk and Pidge were driving the car and the kids were all seated near the front.

“It was a really beautiful ceremony...” Takahiro muttered and Lance and Keith offered him bright smiles.

“Indeed.” Lance agreed then leaned over to look the teenager in the eyes.

“You got your eyes on anyone Hiro? Any young lads or ladies, somewhere in between, catch your eye?” He asked, causing the teenager to blush and shove Lance back into his seat, and all the adults to laugh.

“Aw, little Hiro’s got a crush~” Keith sang and looked at the teenager.

“Who? Someone at the Garrison?” He asked and Hiro blushed even further. He crossed his arms and faced away from his parents and uncles.

“Shut up...” he muttered.

“Someone’s pouring cause he’s being found out!” Lance declares, a wicked grin spread across his features, “it’s fine, you don’t have to tell me, I’ll just keep an extra good eye on you when the school year starts up again, I’m looking out.” Lance assures, causing Hiro’s eyes to widen in horror.

“No! You can’t- you can’t do that! If she realizes that you know something then,” Hiro was interrupted by Lance.

“A she huh? Promising, is it maybe that girl with the pink hair, what’s her name Keith? Oh yes!” Lance looked at Hiro menacingly, “Brielle?” Hiro’s face was cherry red as he glared at his uncle Lance.

“That makes sense, you’re always talking about her, and you’re friends are always teasing you about her.” Adam confirmed, much to Hiro’s dismay.

“It runs in the family huh guys?” Pidge called and everyone looked toward the window confused.

“Falling in love with someone at the Garrison and making your friends put up with all the UST,” She explained and Lance and Keith practically shrieked in embarrassment while Hiro covered his ears and groaned and Shiro and Adam grumbled as well.

“Pidge!” All four adults called at once while Hunk laughed.

“She’s not wrong,” he reasoned as he turned on his turn signal.

“Still! Our daughter’s in here!” Keith exclaimed, and Pidge laughed.

“She doesn’t know what UST is!” She reasoned and Takahiro groaned.

“Yeah well I do!” He shouted back and covered his face, clearly disgusted. Lance, Keith, Shiro, and Adam all laughed at his response but Lance and Keith were still blushing nonetheless.

“Tatay?” Leilani asked as she turned to look at her dads.

“Yes Agassi?” He asked.

“How long till we get to the party?” She asked and Keith leaned to look at Hunk in the rear-view mirror.

“How long Hunk?” He asked and the other man glanced at the GPS.

“Ten minutes princess, just be patient alright?” Hunk answered Leilani. She nodded excitedly and turned back to talking to the other two toddlers.

“I got a call from the adoption center earlier, just before walking down he aisle believe it or not,” Lance explained, causing Keith, Shiro, Adam, and Takahiro’s eyebrows to furrow.

“Why? What’s wrong? Complications with Leilani?” Keith sounded extremely worried and Lance just shook his head and ran his thumb over Keith’s knuckle.

“No no, nothing bad, just, they recently had a little girl put in the system, she’s only 7, her parents were charged with child abuse and they don’t want her back after their sentence. Apparently she doesn’t have any living family. She’s of... Korean decent, her parents moved from Seoul to the Philippines, they were wondering if we wanted to look into taking her. And I know that we’re only just about to finialize Leilani but I thought that maybe it’s be good for you to have a child to share your heritage with the language barrier wouldn’t be as bad as with Leilani because she’s have you,” Lance was cut it by Keith swooping in to kiss him and throw him out of the rambling. When he pulled away Keith just smiled.

“What’s her name?” He asked. Lance smiled back.

“Araki.” Lance explained and Keith nodded, his smile never faltering.

“Well look into as soon as possible.” He says, leaning his forehead against Lance’s. There was suddenly cooing and the newly weds turned to find Shiro, Adam, and Takahiro making goo goo eyes and smiling. They rolled their eyes simultaneously.

“Shut up!” Keith exclaimed and shoved Shiro, who laughed loudly.

[paris-geller-was-straightwashed]

Just finished s3 and AHHHHHHHHHH

first things first, ROBIN IS A LESBIAN!!! SHE’S A LESBIAN THEY PUT AN ACTUAL FUCKING GAY PERSON IN THIS SHOW AND IT’S A GIRL NO LESS!!!! I WAS SO CONFIDENT THEY WERE GUNNA PULL SOME HET BULLSHIT WITH HER AND STEVE BUT SHE’S GAY I’M SO WONDERFULLY SURPRISED THIS IS THE BEST DAY

I feel kinda bad dumping on hopper after what happened to him, but it’s STILL bullshit how they handled him and el’s relationship. from ep 1 of this season, they’re showing that hopper doesn’t communicate well with el, showed zero scenes of them bonding, and was generally grumpy and/or awful to her. but THEN, they pull this bullshit at the end with hopper’s letter, saying how much he loves her, how they did all this stuff together like playing board games and watching westerns, her cuddling up with him in the mall like ?!?!??!?!? THERE WAS NO FUCKING LEAD UP. don’t sell me this shit that hopper was some good dad when you didn’t even fucking bother to show it FOR YOUR ENTIRE SEASON. if hopper was such a good dad like the last two eps wanted us to believe, then he could’ve HAD SCENES WITH HIS FUCKING DAUGHTER.

just as expected, el had next to no scenes with any of the other boys. admittedly, those hugs with dustin were so sweet and they made my heart go !!!! but still, she didn’t talk with dustin or have any connecting moments. and she got fuck all with lucas!! he did do his warrior thing and helped save her with the fireworks and the axe, but we didn’t even get a fucking goodbye hug!!! and no scenes with will!!!!! and now we’re gunna see even less of it thanks to the party being separated!!! I want a refund!!!

DUSTIN SINGING THE THEME TO THE NEVERENDING STORY

I don’t know how I feel about max being so upset over billy. obviously, witnessing any death is traumatic, especially if it’s someone you know and/or is in your family. but they really played it up in s2 max when said how much she hated billy, and showing that she was AFRAID of him. not that I’m saying she has to be glad he’s dead or anything, but since he was so awful to her, she’s allowed to feel bad but maybe there’d be relief too? I dunno, I just know that if any of you billy stans play it up like max secretly loved her brother I will personally come to your house and tell you why you’re wrong

‘bitchin.’ EL LOVES AND STILL THINKS OF HER SISTER AND YOU CAN’T TAKE THAT CANON INFO AWAY FROM ME

also, no joyce and el scenes???????? like not even joyce comforting el on the death of hopper???? REFUND

‘we all die, my strange little child friend.’

el sobbing everytime she’s forced to fight like it just breaks my heart she’s done fighting!!!! she doesn’t want to do that anymore!!!!

max standing up for el and saying she’s a person with her own agency (which is especially important when you think of how el has had none her entire life) like you’re doing amazing sweetie

listen hopper’s dead and it’s v sad but now el gets to live with the byers!!!!! will and jonathan are gunna be her brothers!!!! JOYCE IS GUNNA BE HER MOM AND ACTUALLY BOTHER TO TELL EL FACE TO FACE THAT SHE LOVES HER AND COMMUNICATE WITH HER AND IT’S EVERYTHING I’VE FUCKING WANTED SINCE SEASON 1 THREE YEARS AGO

poor alexi he was a sweet man and he’d just gotten his woody woodpecker and then you had to go and KILL HIM

and my last, biggest take/problem with his season,

the horrible sexist writing. I’ll say it again, that scene of lucas telling mike women are illogical was AWFUL and very damaging to their characters. they may be teenage boys but I KNOW they know better. but what’s worse is that the writers think they can get away with it???? they think they can get away with it by implementing ‘feminist’ things throughout the show. max and el bonding, max dissing mike while showing el wonder woman, nancy agreeing with max that el has her own agency, giving nancy her gun moment, letting robin be the smart one of dustin and steve - they put all this in to seem woman empowering. AND IT’S CRAP. no throwaway scenes or convos can make-up for how sexist they made the boys, having nancy run away from that monster thing while screaming for jonathan (I’m sorry, that’s the same nancy that cut her palm open to call the demogorgan and got right up to it to repeatedly shoot it while yelling ‘die you son of a bitch!’?), demeaning robin’s smarts by forcing her to carry steve and dustin the whole time while they fumbled over each other, turning hopper into a complete jackass who yells and demeans joyce constantly when we know he respects and loves joyce????? they think they can toss in a ‘girl power!” moment and that somehow makes turning their male characters into sexist idiots okay. and that was the worst thing of all while watching this season

#stranger things s3 #stranger things spoilers #stranger things season 3 #stranger things #as per usual there was good things and bad things #but sadly a lot of the bad things outweighed the good things #except maybe for robin coming out that's still going to be my favourite thing #it was such a smack in the face bc I didn't even think the duffers were capable of it

[klaineownsmysoul]

hello. i've just started glee (lol i know i'm super late) and i'm obsessed with klaine. could you explain why you don't like season 6 klaine? should i not watch it

First off - welcome to the Klaine fandom!  Its never too late to join. I’m pretty sure as long as this show is streaming somewhere, new people will be discovering it all the time.  I myself am notorious for wandering into a show after 3 or 4 seasons - Modern Family, Supernatural, 24 - are some prime examples of shows I was late to the party to and then lost my mind catching up on. Secondly - congratulations on having excellent taste! 😉  Klaine is really the only thing worth remembering Glee for.  

With regards to your question about season 6?  Well, I’m not sure where you are in terms of episodes and seasons and I don’t want to spoil anything for you if you don’t want to know, so consider the rest of this post as one giant spoiler. I would also never want to dissuade someone from watching, so please keep in mind this is just my opinion on things.  I watched through to the end as did all of my fellow Klainers here so its doable.  Its just not the easiest or prettiest thing.

**********Spoilers below************

I think for me, the word that comes to mind most and sums season 6 up best is waste.  They were utterly and completely wasted in those final 13 episodes. These were going to be the last eps we were going to get with them and my reaction week after week was “tick tock bitches, where’s my Klaine?”   Their storyline - if you can even call it that - went nowhere.  People’s opinions on season 6 varied - some liked it, some like me loathed almost every moment of it, some disliked it as it aired but have mellowed since - but I think one thing we could all pretty much agree on is that no one wanted to go back to Lima.  Doing that erased any forward momentum they gathered during the last half of season 5 episodes when they finally dumped all the dead weight holding this show back and concentrated solely on an NYC arc.   As off kilter as those eps felt Klaine-wise, at least they were interesting and a move in the right direction.  Watching Blaine waste away in Lima alone for all of season 4 and then ¾ of season 5 pissed me off to no end.  It shouldn’t have taken so long to get him and Kurt back in the same place and I’m not going to get off on a rant here about how they never should have been separated in the first place.  I could write a dissertation on how that one decision - de-aging Blaine and making him a junior - was the dumbest fucking thing this show ever did.  And considering the dumbass decisions this show made along the way, that is really saying something.  But I digress.  They ended season 5 in such a good place relationship wise that to decide to break them up again in the season premiere and then have their story grind to a halt for 7 episodes before they got married was a knife to my heart week after week.  Breaking them up in a cold cruel flashback was bad enough.  Having Blaine be so upset that he was kicked out of the school he worked so hard to get into, his so-called friends forgot all about his existence and he had nothing and no one to lean on so he had to move back home to Ohio was terrible.  But the worst of the worst - Blaine and DK.  That was an unforgivable sin as far as I’m concerned.  It goes against everything that makes Blaine Blaine and was nothing but a giant glowing middle finger from RIB to the Klaine fandom.  To bring back a character that was not missed, not even mentioned during season 4 and only once in season 5 and placing him in a romantic relationship with the soulmate of the boy he physically and emotionally abused for months on end was in the most appalling taste possible.  It was deliberately aimed at our fandom by RIB as the ultimate “fuck you.”  Nothing more because they are petty little assholes.  Every single time he was within 50 feet of Blaine or god forbid touched him, my soul died a little.  The Blaine I know and adore would never ever ever in a million years look at him and see anything but the guy who drove Kurt to Dalton because he feared for his life.  And Kurt?  He realized he fucked up, left NYC to come back to Lima for Blaine and then…nothing.  Nada.  Zip.  Zilch.  He spent more time as Rachel’s god damned cheerleader than he did trying to woo Blaine back, which would have been the only redeeming piece of them being apart.  Because it had to come from Kurt.  He was the one who ended things; Blaine never wanted to leave.  So the apology and reasons and the heartfelt declarations of love that we are accustomed to coming from Blaine had to come from Kurt to make this worthwhile.  But sadly, like every other aspect of season 6, they fumbled this too.  Badly.  They danced around each other awkwardly for 7 episodes and nothing was accomplished or moved forward.  I can’t get into an angry rant here about their wedding; I will be here all damn night. I have made my feelings crystal clear about that already during many a rage post, but let’s just say that ep may be the biggest disappointment I have ever experienced tv wise.  Nothing was theirs, nothing about the wedding had anything to do with them as a couple.  They were a throw in and then thrown aside just as quickly.  Their 30 second “reunion” if you can even call it that after 7 eps of pure hell was yet another slap in the face.  Blaine’s “there’s no one else” was everything that he needed to hear from Kurt and a small novel of explanation more.  But no.  We weren’t gifted with one of those trademark heart to hearts that we got during season 3; those convos that separated them from every other couple on this show and made me believe that even though they were so young, they really were meant to be.  And then once they were married, they disappeared.  Sure they were around physically, but that’s it.  Dalton burns down and Klaine is given fuck all to do story-wise.  A place that held so much importance for them as a couple was destroyed as a plot device and their reaction was limited to Blaine’s sad puppy eyes at the beginning of the ep.  We got one sentence from Kurt in some ep I can’t remember about Blaine getting into NYU for the next semester and that was the extent of their future plans.  They never had a conversation about moving back and what they would look like, what that would entail in terms of living arrangements and how they would do better as a couple now that they know what they have and how much they don’t want to lose each other again.  Nothing,  Season 6 should have built upon 5x20 and culminated in their wedding.  We should have gotten wedding planning and vows and honeymoon destination discussions and ring shopping and they should have had a wedding that reflected who they are as a couple.  It should not have been a means to end so Glee could show off their super awesome double gay wedding that managed to unite 2 fandoms that generally don’t get along in their utter dislike.  Congrats - RIB managed to craft an ep where 2 fan favorite couples got married that was panned by both fandoms.  That takes a special level of obliviousness.  

More newbies introduced in season 6 that no one needed and just took up valuable time that could have been put to Klaine or wrapping up the stories from the already bloated original cast.  I wasn’t going to invest myself in characters with an expiration date, so spending endless time on them was time I wasn’t going to get back.  Everyone and their mother propping Rachel up and telling her how great she is, how much of a star she is, and how nothing that’s happened to her could possibly be her fault because she is perfect was infuriating.  Pointless duets between her and Sam when we all knew their weird sudden relationship wasn’t going anywhere.  Having Mr. Schue and Coach Sue getting as many duets as Klaine did during season 6 is a sentence I should never type but I just did.  Neither Kurt nor Blaine getting a solo at all.  My god, how the fuck did that happen?   Why did that happen?  It was like they went out of their way to screw Kurt and Blaine as individual characters and and as a couple.  Having an entire episode centered on some bratty preteen who sang more than Klaine did.  Having 2 episodes without Kurt and Blaine at all and the only reason they threw Blaine into the 2009 flashback was because people flipped the fuck out at the idea of him not being in a 3rd episode out of 13.  

There’s a reason why during 3 @comewatchklaine rewatches, the only full ep from season 6 we watched was 6x13, the series finale.  Some kind soul pulled together the Klaine bits from eps 5 and on and all of that was only about 40 minutes long.  40 minutes.  40 minutes worth of Klaine in like 7 episodes and that doesn’t include the first 4 because those were a complete waste.  The locker scene and flash forward were the only bits that felt authentically Klaine to me.  That is what I choose to remember because the rest of it taints this show to me.   

So long story long, that is why I loathe and despise season 6 as a whole. I’m sorry I don’t have more positive things to say.  Please don’t take my words as a reason to skip the end - if you want to watch, go ahead.  I would never want to be why someone missed out on something they might enjoy.   Season 6 could have and should have been amazing; so amazing that saying goodbye to them would have been heartbreaking.  Instead, I was glad I got to see them get married and that they got the happy ending they deserved, but that was about it.  If that’s how little this show thought of them at that point, I was glad to see it end.  I will always be grateful that it gave me Klaine because I will love them always.  I will never forgive them, though, for the appalling way they were treated and its why I make a concerted effort to avoid anything RIB has a hand in now and in the future.

#klaine #still hate season 6 with a fiery passion #I guess not enough time has healed this wound #anonymous

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Chapter 12 The Bell Doesn’t Dismiss You

After about 15 minutes of Henry picking a my face I think he's finally done. He takes a step back and admires his work.

I have no idea what he did, my only clues are purple and purple lipstick. I'm not really scared because I know I will look cool, but I honestly have no clue what to expect. There is the small chance that he gives me like clown makeup as a joke.

Henry looks satisfied. He pulls out a little mirror. The anticipation is killing me.

"Ok." He turns the mirror around "What do you think?"

Woah. I hardly recognize myself. My cheekbones look stronger. My eyes look like they're on fire, if the fire was like purple. I've never worn lipstick before, but man is it cool.

"Oh my god! I look fucking awesome." This is way cooler than I would have imagined. Like woah!

Henry smiles widely. He looks so proud of himself. For good reason, because this is awesome.

"I'm so glad you like it!" Henry turns bright red. He looks so happy. I think my brilliant idea worked!

"How could I not like it?" God I look good, "Do you feel any better?" I really hope he does, because it seemed like he was having fun, and it would be crushing to find out he wasn't.

Henry nods with the biggest grin on his face.

"Good." I guess the trip was worth it.

Henry's phone goes off.

"One sec." He grabs his phone and exits the room. Who calls anyone anymore? I hope it's not an emergency. It's probably someone he knows since he picked up the phone. I hope everything's ok. I can't hear what he's saying.

He walks back in the room. I can't read his expression. He doesn't look devastated but he doesn't look as happy as he was, either.

"Is everything alright?" I hope it is. I don't want to restart the cheering up process.

"Yeah my parents are just out of town." Henry puts his makeup box away. "So what do you want to do now?" Henry sit down on his bed across from me.

He wants me to stay! He's not making me leave. I would have thought he would kick me out.

"Well I need to get a photo of myself like this."I walk over and sit next to him. I try to take a good photo with Henry in the shot. It's not the best photo I've take but it's ok. "Seriously though this is awesome."

There's a moment of silence. Henry's still blushing. My heart rate speeds up again. Why am I like this? Why does he have this effect on me? I'M STRAIGHT GOD DAMNIT.

"Why are you here, Ted? We don't know each other that well." Henry looks a little sad. He was just happy 10 minutes ago. People are so hard to understand god damnit. I want to help him feel better.

I shift my body weight so I'm looking him in the eyes. His eyes are so pretty. I don't know how to explain it. I guess the cliche they look like the ocean fits, but there's something more to them.

"In all honestly, I care about you." I think I like you, "I don't really know why, but I do." I don't think I am straight. I catch myself staring at his lips. I snap my gaze back up to his eyes. "I wanted to make sure you were ok."

"Thank you." Henry smiles slightly. God he's adorable. I want to hug him and kis-

"No problem, man." I lean forward, to hug him. Nothing else. I'm not going to assume anything. Henry hugs me back. My stomachs doing flips, my face heats up, and my hands start sweating. There is no way I am straight, in a world where Henry exists. "I'm glad you're feeling better."

He doesn't pull out of the hug immediately. He stays there, in my arms, holding me back. Holy shit what is happening. It has been a weird fucking day.

"Thanks." Henry pulls away from the hug. I knew he was going to pull away but I didn't want him too.

"Soooooo," I don't know what to do now. He's happier, mission accomplished. But I don't want to leave.

"Soooooo," Henry chimes in. He still has his dorky little smile. "Are you hungry?"

I have eaten since lunch. Not that it was that long ago, but I'm a pig.

"Yeah I could eat." I shrug.

"Cool, I'll order pizza." Henry stands up, pulls out his phone, and goes to look for a bag.

I don't know what he's thinking. I don't know how long he want me to stay. I'll stay as long as he wants, but I don't want to cross a line. He's fun to hang out with him.

"Pepperoni please," I reach into my pocket to take out my wallet. It's not there. "Damnit I think I left my wallet in my car, I'll go get it."

"No no no no no!" Henry walks back towards me, so he's kind of standing above me. "don't you dare, this is on me." Henry smiles kindly. God I love his smile, but I'm not going to let him pay.

"No way!" I stand up so I'm right at face level with him. I overestimated the distance he was from me. When I stand we're extremely close to each other. I try not to stare at his lips. "I'll be paying."

Henry laughs, but not his little cute laugh, a much deeper almost gravely voice. My knees go a little weak.

"Are you now?" He doesn't step away. He maintains eye contact. I didn't know he could be this intimidating.

"Yes." I know I'm going to lose this battle. But it's fine. I'm payed almost less than minimum wage. I don't like having other people pay for me though.

"Yeah ok," Henry breaks eye contact and looks down at my lips. He scans me up and down and steps away. Oh god what is he thinking. He walks over to his phone and picked it up. He has to know what he's doing. Like you don't just do that for any innocent reason. Is he just playing with me? I don't think I'm really opposed to that.

I kind of just stand there watching Henry tapping on his phone. I should go get my wallet, right?

"Ok I ordered it," He looks up from his phone.

"That was fast." Now that I'm thinking about getting food, I'm actually hungry. "How much do I own you?"

"Nothing." He smiles mischievously and winks. It should be illegal to be that fucking adorable.

"I'm not going to let you pay." I'm the one doing the cheering up here! He's not about to pay for me.

"Yes you are." Henry smiles. God his smile is so cute. I grumble slightly. "You're not going to win this fight."

That's fine.

The pizza comes. We settled on me tipping the delivery guy.

It's so weird. Henry has like an actual dinning room table. Not just a table that they put shit on. Like a table they eat on. We just eat on the couch in my house. But we actually eat on a table. Weird.

"What do you want to drink." Henry calls from the other room. Also his fucking kitchen is incredible, but that's beside the point.

"What do you got." It feels weird to yell back at him, but he doesn't seem to mind. Would it be weird to ask for beer?

"Depends," He tells back, "Do you want soda or beer?"

FUCK YEAH!

"Beer!" I can't believe he's actually cool with me drinking in his house.

Henry walks into the room and hands me a Budweiser. He got one for himself. Henry didn't seem like the kind of person to unwind in the afternoon with a frosty beer.

"You're cool with me drinking in your house?"

"I wouldn't have brought you the beer if I wasn't." Henry pats my shoulder. "It doesn't matter, my parents are out of town." He takes a sip and sits down across from me. It's so weird having such a sloppy meal, on such a nice table.

I watch him eat for a spilt second. He's so pretty and confident, at least he seems confident. I don't understand how he does that. I'm rarely ever confident, in anything.

"Can I ask you a question." This is probably going to be uncomfortable.

"Yeah sure!" Henry starts taking a sip of his beer.

"How did you know you were gay?"

Henry's eyes widen. He coughs and sets down his beer. I shouldn't have done that, bad idea.

"I shouldn't have asked that, I'm sorry." It's a really personal question, that I had no right to ask.

"No, it's a fair question." Henry looks like he's trying to get his bearings. "I uh well... Y'know how in middle school all the boys were fawning over Becky Barnes?"

I remember her. She was fine. Paul and I were devastated when she switched schools. Then Emma came along, and I started crushing on Char, that was short lived.

"Well I was more focused on Tom Huston." Henry chuckles awkwardly.

I remember Tom. He transferred out around the same time as Becky. They were really close. I was convinced that Tom transferred because Becky left.

"Huh." That makes sense. He's attracted to guys. I guess it's not that hard to figure out. If you have no attraction to girls, but if you do for guys.

"W-why do you ask?" Henry stutters a little bit. His face is bright red. God he's adorable.

"I don't know." If I tell the truth I'd be ruining the vibe we got going. That's fine. "You know that thing Mrs. Hawthorn says, These are confusing times." Thats worse, somehow that was worse than the truth.

"Yeah..." Henry gets even redder, which I didn't even know was possible for a human being.

"It's just," fuck I'm going to make it awkward. I kind of start to mutter. "I've been feeling stuff for other guys."

The Worst way to phrase it.

"Oh..." Henry's voice trails off, "Do I know him?"

Fuck. My heart starts facing and I can feel my face heating up. Why did I ask that stupid question?

"Uh, probably not ." I need to think of a good lie, "it's just a guy I met through baseball." That's a good lie right? "But you know I still like girls."

"Well you're probably bi." Henry looks like he's trying to calm down. I feel bad for making him so flustered.

I forgot that that was a thing. It does make sense though I guess. I could be bi. That's not to far out.

"Yeah..." god damnit I made things uncomfortable. I can't be here anymore, I'm just going to make things more uncomfortable. I can still preserve this memory while it's still pure.

It's got to be around 5pm, I can get away with the whole "I need to get home" act. That feels rude though. I also want to stay here with Henry.

"Thanks." I smile at him. "That helps." I take another swing of beer. I wish I got drunk more easily, because this right here, is excruciating.

"Well, I'm glad I can help." Henry smiles back.

We finish up the food. I pick up my plate and start helping him clean up. Not that there was a lot to clean. Just throwing away the paper plates and the pizza box.

"Hey ted." Henry tugs on my shirt sleeve. I turn to face him. He grabs my face and pulls me towards him. Our lips make contact. My heart beat is going crazy. My body feels like it's on fire. He lets go quickly. "I'm so sorry I shouldn't have done that. I couldn't help myself." Henry is completely red. He looks really panicked and all over the place.

"Don't apologize." That was so nice. Even if it only lasted a split second.

"No no no, that wasn't ok. I shouldn't have done that. I'm so sorry. I don't know what case over me." Henry's talking very fast. He must be freaking out. This is the opposite of what I wanted.

"I'm sorry, too." I bring my voice up over his.

Henry is still so a second.

"Why?" He looks worried.

"For lying." I grab the side of his face and pull him into a kiss.

Oh my god, there is not fucking way I'm straight.

#that was a chaotic chapter #tgwdlm #tedgens #the bell doesnt dismiss you #fanfic