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satoruwiki · 3 months

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Naoya nsfw and sfw relationship headcanons pleeeaasse . He's a terribly guilty pleasure and not many people write him (probably because he's a toxic sh*t)

omg anon you’re so right bc who would want an absolute toxic misogynistic fuck of a man (me, i do/j) i was supposed to post this yesterday but i forgor, sorry! btw i may or may not be working a second version of the atrocious fic i did a few days ago abt him… if its of anybody’s interest…

͏͏͏͏ ͏͏͏͏ ♡₊˚ Naoya is the type of man to…𓈒 ˚ ⟡

content: jjk headcanons; half sfw/half nsfw; afab!reader; glimpse of the horrors you’d be going through as his partner lol

n/a: i’m making more content for naoya than my glorious blue eyed king lmao ;-;

these are my hcs! feel free to agree or disagree :b any request/interaction supporting this post is very much appreciated <3

sfw ver! ୨ৎ

Naoya is the type of man to… spoil you rotten. Not because you deserve it—maybe you do—but because one of Naoya’s biggest weaknesses is his pride and reputation, and yours affects his. He can’t have his gf/fiancée/wife wearing low-quality or average clothing, you have to look worthy of him (at least on the outside). So he will gift you kimonos made with the finest fabric and the finest accessories to pair with. If you’re smart enough, you might be able to take advantage of that and manipulate him to buy you whatever you want, but you better be kissing the soil he walks on afterwards.

Naoya is the type of man to… be overprotective and ridiculously jealous. You won’t be able to go out by yourself. Not without him being there or at least one of his servants, what if another man tries to have a conversation with you? What if you flirt back? He doesn’t trust you or anyone but himself. He has to make sure you aren’t fooling around. Besides, you’re so weak—or at least that’s what he thinks—you need someone to protect you. What if someone disrespects you? He can’t let that slide, the only one allowed to treat you poorly is him.

Naoya is the type of man to… secretly like your praises. He won’t tell you, of course, but he does like having someone recognizing his strength—the main reason he’s so protective of you, trying to look like a knight in shining armour—and how great he is on his day-to-day basis. He will be pissed whenever you get mad at him and don’t praise him. He won’t say it directly nor apologize for whatever he did, but you might find an ‘apology’ gift on your side of the bed. If it’s a mistake you did—which to him is always going to be your fault—an easy way to get him to be in a better mood is stroking his ego with lots of praise.

Naoya is the type of man to… expect you to be the perfect wife. Naoya is a very demanding man, he expects nothing but perfection. He expects you to always look pretty, cook, and clean, like your typical traditional wife. Being a conservative man, he will expect you to not speak when gathering with the other clansmen—or outside in general—unless you’re allowed to. It’s for your good, he’d hate for you to embarrass yourself.

Naoya is the type of man to… only marry you for benefits. In matters of love, he is quite unfeeling, however, to maintain his position as the head of the Hei, he must get married and have offspring. This burden, as he would call it, is likely to be done through an arranged marriage. Just because you were chosen over the other bachelorettes doesn't necessarily mean you're at the same level as him—you will always be below him, and perhaps unworthy of him to his eyes—but you're definitely better than the rest, or at least you were the prettiest one. You might be of use to him.

nsfw ver! ୨ৎ

Naoya is the type of man to… degrade the hell out of you. Naoya’s degradation IS NOT for the weak. If he already treats you relatively poorly daily, it gets worse when he fucks you. He’s also going to fuck you rough, so don’t even try to ask him to go slower, he won’t comply. Don’t worry though, he might make sure that you cum (even to the point of overstimulating you) as it boosts up his ego, it makes him think he’s so good he can have his partner squirting for him and begging for more—this is only when he's in a good mood though, otherwise, he couldn't care less if you cum or not.

Naoya is the type of man to… head push you on purpose for you to gag on his dick. He likes the messy and filthy look on your tear streaked face and drool running down your chin, it makes him want to shoot his load on you (which he will).

Naoya is the type of man to… slap you, during or outside sex. Naoya is very ill-tempered, he’s prone to get physical and slap you (just look at how he used to bully maki and mai) or have angry sex with you. Whether it was your fault or someone else’s, he’ll blow off some steam fucking you stupid, and expect you to have bruises frequently.

Naoya is the type of man to… punish you while fucking. Like I said before, Naoya is very prone to angry sex and will punish you as he fucks you. Expect lots of choking, spitting, clit and face slapping and probably your ass bruised as well as your scalp, he wont take in consideration of his strength and yank it hard.

Naoya is the type of man to… use you as his cum dumpster. He doesn’t care if you’re in the mood or not, that’s what you’re there for, basically. He just got back from a meeting with the clansmen and he’s stressed? Get on your knees and suck him off. He's mad? Bend over or spread your legs. You better not object or make any sort of complaint, just take it like a good girl. Chances are that you end up pregnant (because he’s the type to forbid you from using birth control), he hopes it's a boy or he’s gonna blame it on you. (even if he’s the one responsible for the baby’s gender but ok)

Naoya is the type of man to… have a feet kink. I literally have no explanation for this one, just look at his face and tell me he does not have a thing for feet 😭

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am-i-the-asshole-official · 4 months

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AITA for not supporting my best friend? (tw: suicide mention, sexual stuff)

so I(24 F2M) and my best friend Kat(28 F, not real name) used to date for 12 years, so a pretty long relationship and pretty much all of our teenhood and adulthood so far. We've lived together since I turned 18. About six months ago Kat left me for someone else she'd met, Carla(26 F). It was a nasty breakup but we made up and decided to remain best friends afterwards. I'm still very heartbroken over this, but I've tried to sit it aside for Kat's sake. Kat has since moved out to live with Carla but we still live close to each other and spend a lot of time together.

Our entire relationship, physical affection was a low. We tried having sex, but it ended up not working out and we refrained from doing anything else. A few years into living together we started sleeping in separate beds, and there was no kissing or cuddling. That was fine, I didn't want to pressure her into doing anything. The instant Kat and Carla started dating, she would not stop talking about how much she wanted to fuck her, hold her, and kiss her. Now that they're living together, it's all I hear. All of our conversations tend to be about Carla one way or the other. And that's fine, everyone needs a friend to chat to about their life, it was just hard for me to balance all this while still nursing a broken heart and feeling inadequate for being inexperienced.

I tried to tell Kat that these conversations were making me uncomfortable, but it made her angry. She was upset that our relationship had degraded to the point where we couldn't speak frankly about what was on our minds, and that I understand. I let her resume in earnest. I admit fault in this - after we broke up, I basically became a shut in. I have severe depression and I've attempted multiple times before, so I stopped communicating altogether for a while out of grief. I wasn't there for Kat when I should have been.

I ended up having a psychotic break that long story short ended in an attempt, and landed me in the hospital. Kat and Carla came to see me and sat with me for a while, and the conversation turned to their plans for marriage and children. Carla left for work and Kat continued on without her. I wasn't in the best state of mind, and I snapped at her that I don't want to hear this right now and that Kat constantly talking about her relationship with Carla with me wasn't helping me out. I didn't explicitly say it played a part in my attempt because I didn't want to send the message that I would have killed myself if Kat left me(it was multiple compounding reasons that resulted in the break that led to the attempt), but I may have sent that implication regardless. Kat seemed hurt, and I apologized and asked to be alone.

She then blew up at me, cursing me out, saying I was a horrible friend for not supporting her in her life and plans, that I was the one I she could trust and now she can't tell me anything because I'd react this way. It devolved into an argument where I admitted to her that I can't stand her talking about Carla so much and that while I understand if she chose her over me, I was still mourning the future I had with Kat and needed time to grieve. Things calmed down, Kat said she understood, and we had a few talks in-between nurse visits that eventually turned back into her talking about Carla in sexual detail. I just accepted at the time, but once I was discharged and tried to go back to living my life, I stopped talking to Kat more and more. She still leaves walls of text messages about her and Carla that I now ignore.

Where I might be the asshole: Ignoring Kat and getting upset about her trying to share her life with me post breakup. I don't like how I behaved and I should have supported her more than I did. She was in a period of her life where she needed me and wanted someone to share her joy with and I tried to take that away from her. I also might have implied that I attempted due to her leaving me for Carla.

Where I might not be the asshole: I wasn't in my right mind for a great deal of this, and Kat could have been more gentle with me when I was recovering from the attempt. I wouldn't outright call her an asshole for her behavior, I don't honestly think she did anything wrong - I agreed to talking with her about her life and supporting her, she was only utilizing that. Carla has absolutely nothing to do with this otherwise, and she's actually quite nice herself.

So, am I the asshole?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole #suicide cw

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crypticjackal13 · 1 year

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Hello! I was wondering when you have time, can I request wukong,macaque,nezha and Mk with an Angst to fluff with their s/o who got possessed in the fight with Lbd but then un-possessed s/o leaving them injured bc the attacks didn’t do as much damage as she thought?

I think I understand what's being asked but if I got it completely wrong please correct me! Also this is going to be Headcanons because it makes more sense for my brain ;-;

Wukong, Macaque, Nezha, and MK x S/O who was previously possessed by LBD (Angst to Fluff Romantic HC's)

Wukong - a wreck. Absolutely furious at himself for letting this happen to you, how could he be so stupid and let you be possessed by his enemy? Even worse, she had abandoned using you as her host and you were hurt! Probably trying ridiculously hard to keep up a positive front but he is breaking down on the inside. After it's all over he takes you back to Flower Fruit and gives you the best healing magic he can find. Lots of attention, and you'll have to reassure him you're okay and that it's not his fault because he 10000% thinks it is. He loves you very deeply, so the thought of losing you is just super overwhelming for him. He stays as close as you'll allow him to be while you recover, and is at your beck and call. This is a perfect time for you to either exploit this and get whatever you want OR coax him into doing self care with you. Or both :)

Macaque - beyond pissed. If anyone should've gotten hurt, it should've been him! You shouldn't have been anywhere close to this situation, and there you were being used as her host! As soon as he sees your discarded body he gets you someplace safe until the fight is over, and then he takes you home to help you recover. He might pretend to be a bit mad at you for having been involved but just know he doesn't really mean it, what he means is that he is utterly relieved you're okay. Once he has you set up with whatever medical supplies are needed, a drink, and a warm meal, he cuddles up to you and keeps watch while you get better. Apologizes over and over.

MK - this poor boy DOES break down. If he had done better, if he had been stronger, he could've stopped the Lady Bone Demon before she was able to possess you! He's crying a bit as he's fighting because he knows that you're probably in so much pain, just like he was whenever she was speaking to him. The fight ends, and he's absolutely RUSHING to get you home so you can get medical attention. He doesn't leave your side, he feels like if he does then something bad will happen to you. Similar to Wukong, he will find a way to get you anything you want, because you deserve the best, especially from him. Very clingy afterwards, but if you ask him to he will back off a bit so you can breathe.

Nezha - so so so concerned. How could he have been so blind? In dealing with Wukong and getting his ass handed to him he left you vulnerable! He feels incredibly guilty like he's let you down and multiple times throughout recovery he asks if you honestly want to keep being with him. He gets you to Heaven's best doctors, and urges you not to lift a finger until you're completely healed. He's super protective and may overreact to small things, just make grabby hands at him and he'll soften up and give you cuddles or whatever it is that you want.

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yanderestarangel · 1 year

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Yandere Adler Russell ☆

Tw: Yandere themes.

Yandere Adler Russell! Who will spoil you with gifts and sweet words like "My good boy.","You are so good to me...","I want you here so bad baby please I need you." Yandere Adler Russell! Who will protect you from the whole world by placing you as a beautiful and rare sculpture in his farmhouse away from everyone and everyone, no one will even know about you, he can't take that risk of trying to take your sweet treasure.

Yandere Adler Russell ! Who just wants you to behave and know your place, you just have to not try to run away, Adler won't ever, ever hit you. On the contrary he lets you hit him if your frustrated or angry he understands but will never lift a finger at you but nothing stops him from doing worse darling things.

Yandere Adler Russell ! Who buys everything you want, you just have to ask lovingly and make the pout that only you know, if you do, it's yours.

Yandere Adler Russell ! Who loves when you call him "Daddy", "My Lord", "Owner", "My darling." He'll never make you call him that, but if you do, he'll practically melt in your hands right then and there.

Bonus: If you call him that in sex he'll come right away.

Yandere Adler Russell ! Who fucks you all over the house, making you ride him with all the power in your hips, (Like I said, he won't force you into anything, but this man is so charming and seductive, you'll bend to him.) He loves to see you on top of him, fuck in the sunset it's practically routine for you two, he doesn't have as much breath because of the cigarette but it sure lasts practically 2 rounds in a row. He also loves to fuck you from behind, shoving it in your hole while holding your waist tightly burying you even more, definitely

Yandere Adler Russell ! He'll mark you completely, hickeys, spankings and bruises will be routine on your skin, he'll take good care of you afterward, telling you how much he loves you and showering you with compliments as he takes your shivering body to the bathroom.

Yandere Adler Russell ! That he will never let you escape, he knows that deep down you still want your freedom but you can't let the only spark in your life go away just like that. He will gently talk to you and ask you not to do anything stupid or rash and that everything he did and does is to keep you safe with him by your side.

Yandere Adler Russell ! That if you really want to try to run away, in a lot of pain it will chase you all over the forest at night, finding you in a matter of seconds and taking you by the wrist, trying not to squeeze so hard, it will also be the only time you will scream at you. He'll apologize when you get home, bandage your wrist and kiss away your tears, saying it was impossible for you to leave his side.

Yandere Adler Russell ! That if you really manage to escape (luckily) you'll go into despair and call all your contacts, did you really forget? He's America's fucking monster, you won't find shelter or employment, your face will be in multiple intelligences and you won't be able to escape, if you're still lucky, and find some friend to give you shelter you're plotting a death horrendous for him, Adler will do nothing to you but torture his friend to death in the worst possible ways.

Yandere Adler Russell ! Who surrounded his friend's house with several armed men and cars everywhere, he would talk on the intercom for you to leave if you didn't want your friend to die or for him to hand you over and take your freedom, he didn't call Russell crazy, soon you saw someone come in and lock you up, taking your friend dragged away still alive. You would wake up being carried by Russell, blood all over him, with a cigarette in his lips soon waking you up, he would happily explain that your friend endured 13 hours of torture alive and that it was your fault for being so naughty. You couldn't do anything, if you tried again more people would suffer, deciding to just accept their fate at Russell Adler's side, until the end of their days.

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sebastiansluts · 2 months

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hi, I know ur not taking requests rn but hopefully you’ll at least give this a chance?

I’m just feeling really low and sad this week because stuff with my bio dad and icky trauma feelings and also trying to navigate being an adult on my own and not doing a super good job at it :(

It just makes me really wanna come home to seb and have him tell me I’m not doing a bad job and that even tho I’m 23 I’m not doing that bad and idk I just wanna feel his strong arms make me feel better with big bear hugs and have him kiss all over my face and giggle because his beard tickles :( other stuff that’s comfy and soft like that but idk I’m just really sad and yucky feeling rn

Sorry you're feeling yucky love, and that this is so late- hopefully it still helps <3

Sebastian Stan x Reader; really just fluff, kisses, hugs, praise,

ANY HATE WILL BE DELETED THIS IS A JUDGEMENT FREE ZONE DON’T LIKE, DON’T INTERACT; MINORS DO NOT INTERACT 18+

“Hey baby, you’re home,” Sebastian said warmly from where he sat on the couch. You stood in the middle of the room, hesitating, and he frowned. “Come here, sweetheart, it’s okay.”

You sighed, walking towards him and sitting next to him on the couch, letting him pull you into his side.

“What’s going on, sweetheart? You know you can tell me anything,” Sebastian said, tucking you under his chin and swinging your legs over so you were sitting on his lap.

“I just…I feel like I’m doing everything wrong, that I’m doing a bad job at everything, and it’s all my fault,” you said quickly, trying to get it all out in a rush.

Sebastian immediately wrapped you up in his arms, a tight bear hug that lasted for minutes. He rocked you back and forth, humming softly, and you realized that tears had slowly been leaking out of your eyes, wetting his neck and shirt. You tried to sit up, to apologize, but he held you back, shaking his head.

“You’re fine, sweetheart. You’re more than fine, you’re amazing, you know that? No, I don’t suppose you do right now. But baby, you’re doing such a great job, especially for someone who’s only twenty three, and I’m so proud of you.”

You were hiding your face in Sebastian’s neck, secretly loving and craving his praise, but he tucked his head down and kissed your pink cheek, beard scratching lightly and making you smile.

“There’s my girl, there’s that smile I’ve been waiting to see,” Sebastian said, grinning down at you. “What, is my beard making you ticklish? Is it my kisses? Hmm?” he asked as he pressed more kisses to your face, beard tickling you more and more until finally you giggled.

Sebastian pulled back, smiling so wide his eyes crinkled, and you giggled again, pressing your face into his chest, smile wide. “I love you Seb,” you whispered, and his arms tightened around you, making you feel safe and secure.

“I love you so much sweetheart,” he replied, pressing a kiss to the top of your head, breathing in deeply as he sat back in his seat, bringing you with him. “Should we watch some old tv? Let’s see what’s on today.”

You and Sebastian spent the next hour watching retro tv, laughing at the silly plots and goofy characters. Afterwards, he helped you in the kitchen making cookies, although he was more of a hindrance than a help. He somehow ended up with flour all over his hands and face, handprints down his clothes, and his once dark hair was now stark white.

You were laughing so hard you were crying, holding onto the counter for support as Sebastian just stared at you, still not sure how he got so covered. You dusted him off, then he helped you clean up all the flour somehow covering every surface of the room. Cookies baked, you took them out, and ate enough to get a stomachache, Sebastian carrying you upstairs to the bedroom, laying down with you and napping.

#rose writes #sebastian stan #sebastian stan x reader #sebastian stan x you #sebastian stan x y/n #no y/n #no smut

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psychoc1ty · 7 months

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✧.* - "hey there."

summary: you run into johnny at a bar, and he's already wanting to know you more.

warnings: drinking, smut, sort of (??) rough sex, dirty talk, aftercare at the end

a/n: this song has me on my knees. enjoy. also thank you river for giving me this smut idea i love u sm. and also if this is short I'm sorry </3

wc: 1146 words

sdt: @riverstalents and @annapresley8 !

you went to a bar with some of your friends, and it was a popular one in town. it was crowded, and the music was blaring. your friends were constantly having to yell at each other to talk.

you wore a laced dress, and you didn't put on much. what was the occasion?

your friends already had drinks with them. you didn't. you only got one for right now, because you don't wanna get drunk right off the bat.

when you went to go get one, you saw women hardly wearing anything, and they were full on drunk. running into people, making out with other guys, etc. you looked away, and you finally made it to the bartender.

"one shot, please," you asked. the bartender got right to work. he was quick with it. he had it done a few seconds right after you asked. you only wanted just a swig of alcohol. the bartender looked at you and saw the shot was small, "do you want another? or a beer by chance?" you didn't mind a beer, you took it.

you grabbed it and tried to find your friends, until you ran into a guy. some of your beer spilt, and so did his, "oh my god. i'm so so sorry." he tilted his head at you, "oh, you're good, doll! no worries." you didn't even know him, and you already started to feel things.

you looked up at him, and he was very attractive. black haired, brown eyes popping out his sunglasses, and a nice body shape. he smiled at you, "so what's your name?" you replied back, "y/n, you?" his smile formed into a grin, "pretty name for a pretty girl, i'm johnny."

you felt yourself start to blush a bit, from the way johnny was flirting with you. johnny apologized for an action you mostly did, "i'm sorry if i got your beer on your dress." you looked down, "did i get my beer on you? because you didn't get any on me. i mostly think this was my fault."

johnny rubbed your shoulder, "you're good, hon'."

you two talked for a bit, and you forgot about your friends. you were so focused on you and johnny's conversation. but all you could tell is that johnny was scanning you up and down.

"also, quick question, do you have a ride home?" he asked, and you took a sigh of relief, "i'm so fucking happy you asked that, because i don't." that's when johnny got you and him out of there.

you both got into the car, and he left, "that place is sometimes a torture, trust me." you nodded at him. the skirt of your dress started to ride up your thigh as he was driving home, and of course, johnny noticed. he just gave a quick smirk.

once you two got to his house and left the car, you went inside. you looked around, that was until you were picked up by johnny. you gasped, "johnny!" it's like he ran away with you. he took you to the bedroom, laid you down, and got on top of you. he started a makeout session with you. johnny seemed desperate for you, and he was.

he moved down your body, leaving some love bites on your neck and chest. your moans were letting out like crazy, "marking me already?" johnny released a chuckle, "oh yes, baby."

afterwards, the way he was rubbing on your body up and down, could tell you that he was desperate for you, it was definite by now. were you that perfect to him? yes. he was rushing to take your clothes off, then went back up to you, "wanna take this off for me? let me see this pretty body, yeah?" you shot a smirk at him, "anything for you, johnny."

he got up off of you, and he just watched you slip your dress off. you only wore panties under your dress, and another smirk decorated johnny's face. he ran his index finger from your lower abdomen, reaching under your panties.

"you're so wet.. so good," he moaned in pleasure. you looked at his lower body, already seeing him start to rise. the way johnny rubbed you, hell he couldn't resist himself. he took your panties off, and he let you kick them off, "good god, doll.."

you whimpered as the air hit your naked body, add in johnny rubbing you. he took his fingers away, and you whined. it was only so he could take his pants off. he couldn't restrain himself anymore, and you knew he couldn't. you watched him as he did.

he took it all off, and looked down at you again. johnny smirked, "i wanna fuck you so badly." you bit your lip, "do it then. i want it rude." he chuckled, and caressed your thigh, "i think i can do that."

johnny aligned himself with you, then going in. you felt a coarse of adrenaline run through your veins as you felt him in you for the first time.

he held onto one of your shoulders, as started to rock his hips back and forth into you. you already let a moan elicit from you, and your hands reached his back. johnny nibbled your earlobe, "your pussy wraps so good around me." you grinned.

his change of pace starting to raise, your nails digged into his back. your head tilted back, with your teeth biting your lip, "fuck, johnny..!" all he did during this time was make you feel good. you never felt this way in a long time.

"i'm glad i'm making you feel good, baby. a girl like you deserves this," johnny groaned as he continuously pounded into you. moans kept escaping your body, "k... keep going.. please!" you always used your manners like he wanted. and he kept going.

your orgasm kept reaching further, getting you close to the edge. johnny's pleasure was overstimulating your sensitive spot, but you still felt the best you could. you let out as much moans you could as you were close, "johnny! i think i'm getting close.."

johnny nibbled your earlobe, "mm, well tell me when you're gonna cum, okay?" you nodded in understanding. johnny continued to pound into you like some crash dummy, and that only made your orgasm grow quicker.

you gave him a warning, "i.. i'm gonna cum!" then you did. he smirked, "good girl.." then he came right after you.

johnny pulled out of you, both of you out of breath. you were panting, johnny went beside you and did the same thing, "you did good for me, i hope you know that." you chuckled, "thank you for making me feel like something. you did it exactly the way i wanted it."

you already knew johnny was good at this stuff when you took the first look.

#johnny knoxville #johnny knoxville x reader #johnny knoxville smut #idk what else to put here

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dancingskeleton-wishingiwasghost · 7 months

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Bestie

Disclaimer/edit: This is my first fanfic Ever so please don't be mean. I have never played COD and I have no idea how I ended up in the fandom but I'm here now. Also I typed this on my phone so forgive me for that.

CW: cursing

The silence is... comfortable, all things considered. You, curled up in the corner of the couch with a book you finally have time to read, and Ghost, looking over some papers in the armchair that's seen better days, with a steaming "cuppa" as he likes to call it. You want to tease him about it but well... it's Ghost, your superior and probably the most intimidating person you have ever met and you'd rather not find out the hard way that he doesn't have a sense of humor.

But you two have gotten into a kind of routine where, when there was down time between missions that was just a little too quiet, you'd both end up here in the common area and do your own thing.

So when Soap does a double-take when walking through, asking "Right, what's all this then?," you knew you had to fuck with him.

A glance at Ghost before looking back, "What are you talking about?," sporting a confused look on your face.

"I mean you two hanging out. I've never seen you two together in the same room outside of briefings before."

Back to Ghost and you share a look, hoping your eyes convey that he go along with what you're about to do.

"Of course we'd be hanging out, we're best friends," you give an incredulous look.

"...fuckin' what," Soap gives an incredulous look back.

"Oi! Manage that," Ghost growls.

"Oh fuck you, I was talkin' to Gaz for 5 minutes outside that door and I haven't heard a Sound come out of this room that entire time," Soap says, becoming frustrated.

"That's because our friendship has surpassed the need for words. We're comfortable just being in each other's company," you respond, leaning back into the couch.

"I think you're full of shit 'cause I've never seen you two together or meetin' up except for when necessary," Soap very pointedly says.

"What are you, their mum?" You couldn't be fucking happier that Ghost was going along with this as Soap sends a look his way.

"Yeah! And not that it's any of your business, but we went to karaoke just last week!," bringing the attention back to you.

"Karaoke? Him!? You expect me to believe that?!" You do feel Ghost's stare on the side of your face, probably wondering how you're going to make this in anyway believable.

"Well it's more me singing and him indulging me by coming. He doesn't sing unless I have at least 5 drinks in me but I never remember much afterwards..." trailing off and scrunching up your face, hoping you look like you're trying to remember these made up nights.

Soap glares at you for a moment, trying to find some kind of fault on your face before letting out a sigh.

"Yeah, that actually sounds like something he'd do. Now what was this comment about her mum?" Soap asks, turning towards Ghost.

"I was facetiming her when he came up behind me. Scared the absolute bejeezus out of her enough for her to scold him. When he was finally able to get an apology in she started asking questions as if this was school and not the military! All 'how're they doing?' and 'they getting along with the other soldiers?' It was mortifying! I might as well not have been there the way she was talking. And then- oh and Then! She asked for His number! Can you believe that?!" You deserve a fucking oscar the way you have Soap's attention over this performance.

"'S not my fault she likes me better. Says I'm a delight." The mask gives nothing away but the look in his eyes tell you he's having the time of his life, his arms over the back of the armchair, looking more relaxed than you've ever seen him.

"Oh now I Know you're fucking with me. No offense Ghost but you're about as delightful as steppin' on a pinecone barefoot!" Soap practically spits at him.

"'S not what her mum thinks. She even sent me some treacle tarts."

"She sent you treacle tarts?! She doesn't even make me those!," you get in before Soap can say anything. Never mind that she's never made them before. Ghost gives a shrug while Soap looks back and forth between the two of you, looking like he's trying to grasp at straws.

"Bu-but you're American! You've even said before that both your parents are American!"

"And my mom could have travelled and decided she wanted to have them for the rest of her life after trying them once, you ever think of that? And really? 'I'm American' is the best you can come up with?," you give a pitying look.

"This mean you believe us then? That we're best mates?" Ghost interjects in his gruff voice. Actually hearing him actively going along with the bit and not just throwing in a line or two while you ramble gets your heart racing for some reason. You hope it doesn't show on your face.

"Hell no, do you see that look on their face?!"

Fuck.

"That's because this is the first time I've ever heard him say it and I'm trying not to get emotional, don't ruin this for me," you have no idea where that came from but you barely know what you're saying any this point, "Anyways, as much as I would love to keep listening to you doubt the validity and integrity of Ghost's and my friendship, I have this thing I need to get to that starts riiiight abouut," looking over Soap's shoulder at the clock, "now, at anywhere else but here. So I'm gonna get going. Ghost, you coming?," you ask getting off the couch. You actually feel your heart drop to your ass when he actually gets up too, gathering his things.

Soap's eyes are impossibly wide as he watches the both of you make your way out, flabbergasted. And it is taking everything inside of you to keep yourself neutral, but there's just.. one last thing you have to say before you leave.

"Honestly, I'm really disappointed in you. Acting like we'd do this as a bit just to mess with you. For shame, Soap, for shame. After you," a small smile slips as you hold the door open for Ghost. He nods his head in thanks and, dare you say, almost saunters out.

Soap's eyes widen further and shouts, "Hey!," but the door's already closed.

You and Ghost walk in silence for a period until you're sure you're far enough away.

"You think that last bit was too much?," genuinely curious to how he'll respond.

"I think it was just enough for him to question if the entire thing was a sham or not. He'll be scratchin' his head for weeks after this," his low voice giving away the smirk that's in there. You both stop and look at each other for a pause before you dissolve into a fit of giggles.

"I have - never Seen - Soap look so mad before!," you manage to gasp out, clutching your sides as you fall against the wall, "Oh my God I wonder how long I could have kept that up for! Thank you for going along with me."

"Are you kidding? That's gonna be putting a smile on my face for the next month." And that sends you into another fit, doubling over almost sending you to the ground. Entirely missing the quiet chuckle he lets out.

"I think we could milk this out for another week. What say you? Wanna keep the bit going?," he sticks out his hand, his eyes more playful than you ever knew they could be, that you completely forget to be surprised at his question. A grin creeps up onto your face and you give his hand an enthusiastic shake, wholly ready to commit to the bit.

"Bestie, I think we can make it 2."

#they actually made it to 3 weeks #price joined in on it #thought it too funny to pass up on #straight up telling soap 'yeah i see them together around base all the time. how have you NOT??#ghost also cringed at being called bestie #told them not to do it again #call of duty #cod #cod fanfic #fanfic #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #self reblog #my writing

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imminent-danger-came · 10 months

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Hi there! Anon sent reeling by S1E6 again! And I would just like to say that your response to my ask made me So Normal. Especially you bringing up S2E6, which is why I’m currently setting up a lawn chair here on the brink of insanity, because apparently I’m not going anywhere anytime soon.

Because yes, you’re completely right about S2E6 demonstrating this cycle of pushing others away while pushing themselves towards greatness and accidentally leaving pain in their wake that MK and SWK have managed to stick themselves in, but ALSO now I can’t stop thinking about how we get Shadow Play IMMEDIATELY afterwards.

Like… how much do you think Macaque had seen? Obviously he could see MK getting too caught up in his own head (*cough* and trauma *cough*) and shutting out his friends, but… how much had he seen seen, you know?

And now I also can’t stop thinking about how immediately after Shadow Play, we get To Catch a Leaf. Which is obviously an incredible episode in its own right, but it’s also the first episode since Minor Scale where MK is surrounded by his friends and he lets them help him. Because in S2E6, Mei and Sandy are with him, but he’s not really with them. He’s focused on getting stronger, to the point where he ignores them telling him exactly how to do so. And in the beginning of Shadow Play, we learn that he’s been further isolating himself off screen and blowing off activities with them so that he could focus on ‘[being] ready’.

But then To Catch a Leaf happens. And it starts off with MK surrounded by the others, having recently done something fun (curses aside) with Mei, and it’s not a big deal. He’s not stressing about getting stronger or being ready, he’s just… there with them. Present and in the moment, at least as much as he can be, and it’s fine. He’s fine, and more importantly he seems to be letting them in and being a bit more open with them.

And this carries on into 72 Transformations! Because obviously he still hasn’t told them The Thing, but he does go from ignoring/avoiding them while trying to get more powerful to calling them all up so that he can involve them. Figure at least some things out, together. And it drives me insane because he was getting better! He may very well have worked his way up to telling the others about LBD! But then she came a-knocking with more trauma, and it blasts him two steps back and it’s just… AHHH! He was SO CLOSE!!!

Also, side note: Do you think MK believes he has a body count? And I don’t even mean the nebulous potential casualties from all the recent disasters that MK blames himself for, I’m talking about Spider Queen specifically. Because MK isn’t an idiot. If he didn’t know she was dead (or whatever getting sucked into the furnace counts as) immediately after the sewers, he would have put two and two together after Destiny Fulfilled. And considering this is the guy who blames himself for DBK getting out despite knowing that SWK was right next to him in bird form the entire time, I don’t think it’s a stretch to say that he probably thinks it’s his fault. So… do you think it’s possible he sees himself as a murderer? Or, like, murderer adjacent? And if he does, how much more layered and messed up do you think that’d make the potential ‘Wukong reveals he killed Macaque’ moment?

Sorry for the long ask, the monkey show has changed me for better and worse. I will never be the same. *reclines on my lawn chair, gazing out over the precipice of madness with a thousand yard stare*

One: never apologize for a long ask, especially when it has so much good stuff in it! Two: I KNOW RIGHT. The monkey show really does change you for the better or for the worst. I'm still reeling from s4 and it's been 4 months, and then the s4 special came in and permanently altered my brain chemistry once again. I have a house next to this abyss.

ANYWAYS.

The back and forth of MK's character is one of my favorite things about lmk (of which I have many)! He takes 2 steps forward and then 4 steps back, and I think that's a testament to what getting better can look like—it's not linear. Sometimes, it's not even moving forward, and that's hard.

I think a great example of this "2 steps forward and then 4 steps back" phenomenon is MK's growth in Revenge of the Spider Queen:

MK starts believing in himself, smiling at that face in the mirror. It's not a strong belief, not yet, but it's a start. You can even see him making this attempt to improve in 2x01:

(this got a little long so everything else under the cut!)

MK: "Ah! Ugh, come on MK you can do this! Self-confidence! That's Monkey King 101!"

"Wait! I am worthy! Definitely worthy!" I'm Monkie Kid! Basically the new Monkey King—might have heard of me? You know, the next chapter? I'm totally worthy!"

(2x01 Sleep Bug)

MK's even trying to mimic Monkey King here, the person he thinks he should be:

But then, as you've mentioned, LBD and 2x05 comes along.

And it's funny, because now we know MK did become more like Monkey King, just like he wanted, but it's in all the wrong ways.

((Kind of a side note: We also know that Monkey King couldn't have "picked the wrong successor", because there honestly wasn't another option for a successor to begin with. MK grappling with like, 3 levels of Wukong lies is what makes s2 so delicious to watch))

And then we have 2x06, and THEN 2x07, and I'm sure that's exactly why Macaque stepped in! He saw MK going down the same path Wukong did. The drive to become stronger, pushing his friends away—Macaque in Shadow Play knows exactly what he's talking about:

Macaque: "Well, with ol' Monkey King not around I thought someone should teach you a lesson! Ah MK, you really are dense, aren’t you. Haha, you saw a story about a hero who got handed everything, who didn’t have to work for anything, and you thought you were the other guy? The second the hero got real power, he couldn’t care less about his friends. That’s you bud." (2x07 Shadow Play)

("Everything I did was for us!" "You did it for yourself!" *head in my hands .png*)

Wukong leaves. That's what he does, and that's what he did to MK in both Revenge of the Spider Queen (leaving MK to fight Spider Queen and her mech alone) and 2x01.

And honestly, MK in s2 is simply doing his best to pick up the pieces, to be Monkie Kid alone, without SWK or even his friends. But it doesn't really work—hiding LBD's return from his friends didn't save them in 2x10, and it didn't stop the Lady Bone Demon, just like Wukong hiding LBD's return from MK didn't protect MK from any of it.

This pattern, of walking in Wukong's footsteps and making the same mistakes, keeps repeating itself.

MK's 2x08 parallel to Wukong in 3x10 is another good example of that.

MK's terrifying of hurting the people he cares about, so he leaves. He runs off, and this only hurts his friends further. ("Can't you see you're hurting the people who care about you the most?" and "I can’t risk hurting the people I care about—the one’s I have left.".)

And so, tying this all back to the s4 special, we're starting to see MK take 2 steps forward again:

MK: "You ever wish things will just stay like this, like they are right now?" Sun Wukong: "Pssshhkk, where's the fun in that?" Tang: "Uh um, Monkey King, we need to have a serious conversation about your idea of fun."

Mei: "At least we fixed something for a change, instead of destroying it!" MK: "Yeah! So long as we leave the world in better shape than we found it, then it's all good right?"

(4x14 Better Than We Found It)

And I'm waiting for the eventual 4 steps back.

Because well..."At least we fixed something for a change, instead of destroying it"...it's not that they didn't fix anything, but plenty was broken:

Flower fruit mountain was destroyed. Azure died. Whoever orchestrated all of this is still out there.

So, MK's current answer to "doing what you think is right" leading "to pain" might just not hold up. Because well, MK can try, that's for sure, but all that effort might still not make it a net positive, you know?

I think MK will blame himself for Azure's death, for SURE tough. He might have residual guilt about Spider Queen and everyone else harmed along the way, but Azure is the one I'm certain on. MK feeling like he's a "murder adjacent" and that compounding with the "Wukong Murdered Macaque" reveal and being "just like Wukong"...OH BABY. IT'S ALL COMING TOGETHER.

Like,

MK: "I just- I just want to be me. To be MK!" Curse MK: "Yeah well...we all know exactly where that leads." LBD Voice Over: "To pain."

(4x07 Pitiful Creatures)

Identity and destiny are very much intertwined in this show, and MK doing what he thinks is right and being himself leads to pain. That's exactly what happened to Azure—he took the Jade Emperor's throne to try and make the world a better place, but all he managed to do was barely fix what he himself had broken.

MK: "Yeah well...I'm kinda always the one getting the world in trouble to begin with so..."

(4x01 Familiar Tales)

All it's going to take is one antagonist speech towards MK that hits a little too close to home, and everything else is going to come crashing down.

I am very much getting geared up for my s5 lego tragedy, thank you very much!

#legitimately SO ill over it #Like MK is going to go full harbinger of chaos. I don't see any other way this will shake down #*sobbing* IT'S ALWAYS TO PAIN #MK tries SO hard to have positive character development but he always gets struck down #this is probably my favorite ask ever thank you anon #it seems like you enjoyed the monkey show. I'm glad we're all enjoyin' it #brb I am gonna go and rewatch 2x08 because I can #one of my favorite episodes #Like. Sandy accidentally destroying the bear mountain DRIVES ME INSANE. INSANE. HOW COULD THEY DO THAT TO ME.#Like Sandy's answer to ''to pain'' was very similar to MK's. He was choosing not to fight so he couldn't hurt anyone #But that didn't work out!#And this is imp's continuing adventures of going insane over Sandy and MK parallels #''I AM a monster! That's what the world wants me to be—so that's what I'm gonna give 'em!''#Okay jan #Thanks #This will have no implications down the line #lmk meta #lmk #lego monkie kid #monkie kid #asks #lmk MK

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transmogrified-in-the-void · 10 months

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Hey 18-20 year olds? You’ve only just started the hardest part of growing up: learning how the hell to do that and how to be an adult. And yeah, I’m in the same boat, here’s some things that have helped me so far

- a friend who is older than you

My best friend is 7 years older than me, and he’s been able to give me so much advice on personal philosophy, how to work on personal issues, etc.

- a friend who holds you accountable/is very honest with you

having a friend who will take you aside and tell you “x thing you’re doing is actually making y hard/unfun/stressful/etc.” is more valuable than yes men friends. These are the friends who will question life decisions if they seem to make you unhappy, in the pursuit of making sure you’re exactly where you need to be.

- learning how to make accountable apologies

Here’s how I structure my apologies now, and I’ve had not only good reactions and conversations afterwards, but I’ve had to use them in various ways. “I’m sorry about x. Y was happening, and instead of doing x thing I should have done z thing. Again, I’m sorry.” It not only has removed the loathed “but”, but it also allows for explanation and a plan on how to avoid it. I will also sometimes add “I’ll try my best to do z thing” if I know I’m going to need some time to fully erase the mistake if it was a habit, but in general that helps a lot.

- start trying to find who is a small dose person and who’s a large dose person

What is a small dose person? For example: I know someone who I can only be around for maybe an hour when with other people before I become irritated by their presence. Is it their fault I’m irritated by them? No, and they’ll never know I am. Because I’m only around them for around an hour once every few months. That’s small dose. It’s the “you’re not a bad person I just cannot be around you for long periods of time”.

- if things you read on social media/the internet make you emotional, restructure how you spend your time

Here’s a really hot take. For those who were tuned in for the dungeons and dragons drama, I’m about to tell you guys something crazy. The draft that was leaked was actually incredibly lenient (I can’t remember what it was called haha). How do I know this? I could tell I was getting a little heated and sent it to a friend who knows way more about that sort of stuff and asked for his opinion, and he told me about other examples of it that were more harsh but not lambasted. If you read a headline or a post or tweet and get up in arms, take a step back and take a breath. You don’t have the time to get emotional about every little thing, you’re too busy growing up.

- make friends or acquaintances who don’t believe the same thing as you

My best friend is a centrist who leans more right than left. I am more left leaning than he is by a good amount. We both have very enlightening conversations because of that. Here’s the funny thing, I do hold some right leaning beliefs anyways because that better supports the area I live in. I don’t want the government grabbing the land around me because they’ve proven to be incompetent. I’m fine with looser gun control because there have been times where mountain lions just. Appear in my city. We have an overpopulation of wolves right now. A few other ones I don’t feel like sharing. My friend has changed how he views certain issues and so I have I because we talk about what we disagree about. If they respect you, they’ll debate but not argue

- not everything is about you

Building off that last point, not every counterpoint is an attack on you. It can feel like it, because you’re still expanding the telescope you see out of into two working eyes (I’m still getting there too), so being able to say to yourself that this is either a) bigger than you or b) not about you at all can help you get through more conversations more levelheaded

- you’re in puberty

Final thing: your body is still a hormonal war zone. Emotions are heightened, thought processes are everywhere, you are still growing up. Give yourself time. And grace. And kindness.

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femininefutbol · 2 years

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call your girlfriend

transferred/modified from my wattpad and based on this song

prompt: alexia putellas admits to you that she has been cheating on you and has fallen in love with someone else

word count: 3.5K

‘call your girlfriend, it's time you had the talk’

You groan hearing your phone ringing out loudly, you turn over seeing your clock displaying the time, 11:11pm. You tap around your bedside table attempting to find your phone, once securing it you answer quickly and close your eyes not having a chance to view the contact name due to your blurred tired vision.

"Yes, who is it?" your voice is soft and slightly muffled as you are already close to falling asleep once more.

"Oh I assumed you would have kept my contact" the immediately distinguishable voice of your girlfriend, Alexia Putellas rings through the phone.

"I would never delete it" you sigh, you have been avoiding Alexia for a week or so just trying to work out how they could overcome the current disagreement. "I just got back to Barcelona and your call woke me up which is why I didn't know who it was, I'm sorry babe".

"Ah yeah I guess that makes more sense, look I'm sorry for calling at such a bad time. Mapi didn't tell me you were coming back so I assumed you were still in America and I thought now would be an okay time to call since it's day time there" Alexia hurriedly explains sounding slightly nervous as she rambles on.

"Hey, no you're fine really, I didn't tell Mapi I was coming back, I was going to wait until tomorrow to start contacting people" you explain.

"Well I don't want to keep you up now but I think we really need to talk about some things, can you meet up with me for coffee tomorrow morning? Nomad at 10?" Alexia asks, the nervousness still evident in her voice.

"That works for me, goodnight mi amor" you sigh, almost completely asleep at this point.

"Ahh yeah night (Y/N/N)" Alexia states quickly, immediately hanging up afterwards.

If you were slightly less tired and slightly more awake you would have mulled over the tone of the conversation and lack of affection all night but due to your current state you were able to forgo a night's worth of critical thinking and fall asleep instantly.

‘give your reasons, say it's not her fault’

You happily struts into your and Alexia's regular coffee spot, smiling at the barista as you walk in.

"The usual for you and Alexia?" he asks sweetly, making the correct assumption that the two were meeting up for coffee.

"Yes thank you, I'll be over at our table" you state simply pointing towards the table in the corner of the store where yourself and Alexia always sit.

Knowing that Alexia will be arriving soon you take the time alone to script your slightly overdue apology in your head.

Your thoughts are cut off by snapping fingers in your face, you look up spotting an amused Alexia smirking at you. You get up quickly hugging your girlfriend, it was brief and definitely not the type of reunion hug that would be expected from lovers who have not seen each other in months.

"I guess let me begin" you state, knowing that if you don’t immediately apologise you probably never will. "I am extremely sorry for reacting the way I did, I know that going out of my way to ignore you was horrible of me and especially after we've had all that talk about healthy communication, that was completely wrong. I also see now how ridiculous it is for me to be so uptight about your friendship with Jenni. I don't know why seeing you with her makes me feel so insecure because I know deep down that you guys are just friends but it still affects me every time someone posts about the two of you. I am really hoping that you can forgive me and that we can work together to rebuild us, I'm moving back to Spain for good this time and I really do think without the issue of so much distance we can work this out"

Alexia sighs and this causes you to look up at her for the first time since the beginning of the apology.

"Look, I appreciate the apology a lot and I'm really happy that you've taken the time to reflect and understand your feelings and actions, but I don't think we should be together anymore. We are both on such different life paths and I think that while we both want it to work so badly, it won't. We keep hurting each other and wanting things to be okay but they aren't and they haven't been for awhile, I think you know that as well as I do. This is in no way your fault, I've been thinking about whether we really are right for each other for quite some time and while I wish we were, I just don't think that is the case for us. I'm really sorry (Y/N)" Alexia explains, leaving out a few key details that would definitely aid in your heartbreak.

"Um no yeah, look you are probably right, I'm really glad that you were honest with me and I wish you all the best" you reply in a voice that is just above a whisper. You quickly wipe your tears with your sleeve, grab some money from your purse, placing it carefully on the table and walk out of the cafe, you don’t dare look back at Alexia as you leave.

‘but you just met somebody new’

You walk into Ciutat Esportiva Joan Gamper, the training facility for Barcelona Femení. You are excited to see your sister Mapi and Spanish national teammates, not so excited to have to see her now ex girlfriend Alexia though.

"Mapi!" you yell, sprinting to attack your sister in a hug. Once in each other's arms you hold on tightly, feeling a sense of comfort for the first time in quite a while.

"Hey pequeño" Mapi laughs, smiling down at you, as you are still holding onto her tightly.

"Is that my favourite defender?!" Leila yells across the pitch, making quick work of heading towards the pair of siblings and pulling you into a hug.

"Hey, what about me? I thought I was your favourite defender?" Mapi asks, clearly offended by Leila's favouritism for her younger sister.

"Nope (Y/N) is so small and sweet, she wins" Leila states proudly, pulling you back towards the group that she was standing with.

Upon arriving at the group you are subjected to the sight of Alexia and Jenni completely wrapped up in each other's arms.

"Ahh hi" you wave awkwardly at the girls, Alexia snaps her head in the direction of the sound.

Seeing her ex-girlfriend causes Alexia to detach herself from Jenni, feeling extremely guilty about the predicament that has occurred.

"I'm gonna head back over to Mapi, her and I are going to lunch, wouldn't want to keep her waiting" you state, wanting to be anywhere but where you currently are.

"Hey (Y/N)! Wait up" Alexia calls as you swiftly walk away from the group, leaving them all confused about your exit.

You turn around, face to face with Alexia. "I think it's pretty clear what is occurring and while I'm not surprised, I am a bit hurt, did you at least wait until we broke up?" the question is barely whispered.

"Ummm '' Alexia is caught off guard. She contemplates how to inform you that all your suspicions were in fact correct and that over the course of the months that you had been overseas she had been developing her relationship with Jenni.

"How long?" you sigh, Alexia gives you a blank stare. "How long have you been with Jenni?" you clarify even though you really didn't have to, Alexia knew exactly what you were asking she just didn't want to answer.

"Four months" Alexia grumbles lowly.

"Four months?! So you barely waited for me to leave the country" you exclaim, furious and extremely hurt.

"I really am sorr-'' you don’t wait around to hear what Alexia has to say, you make your way towards Mapi informing her that you will meet her in the car park before quickly making your way out of the training centre.

"What the hell was that about?" Mapi yells, everyone looks around confused at what is happening while Alexia walks away not wanting to face the consequences of her actions.

‘second-guessing everything you said and done’

You watch the traffic go by below you as you sit on the balcony of Mapi’s apartment bawling your eyes out.

"She would get on facetime with me daily, telling me she loves me and can't wait for us to be together again and what as soon as she hung up she would go and be with Jenni?" you ask no one in particular, as you continue ranting, not allowing Mapi or Leila to even formulate a response to your rhetorical questions.

""Oh come on (Y/N), Jenni will never be anything more than a friend, you know I’m not interested in girls like her anyway" she would say" you are clearly mocking Alexia throwing around statements that your ex-girlfriend previously used to reassure you.

“She has told me so many times that she isn’t into dark headed girls, tall girls, immature girls and so much more and what? It was all just a lie?” you ask yourself, all the times you doubted the ‘friendship’ between Alexia and Jenni overtaking your mind. You feel so stupid for having believed that they were only friends.

“You know she had planned a whole trip to America just to visit me, she cancelled the day before and told me that she couldn’t risk travelling because she was sick. During the time she was ‘sick’ she was with Jenni every single day. She literally cancelled her trip to see me just to stay here with her new girlfriend. I can’t believe how much of an idiot I am” you cry louder, the two defenders that are with you wrap you in a huge from either side, neither saying a word, both just holding you while you cry.

‘tell her how you never meant to hurt no one’

Voicemail One: "Hey (Y/N), um call me back whenever. I think we need to talk and this time I have some apologising to do"

Voicemail Two: "(Y/N/N), I never meant to hurt you and I wish I could take it all back, you are important to me even if it's not in a romantic capacity. Call me back when you are ready"

Voicemail Five: "Mapi yelled at me today, she told me to stop calling you but I can't leave us like this. i'm so sorry that I caused so much hurt, it was really messed up and I want to tell you how much I regret it and how I never meant for things to happen like this"

Voicemail Eight: "heyyyy sexyyyy, remember when I used to call you that just before I-" "Alexia seriously? Mapi told you to stop calling her" "Jenni noooo i'm trying to apologise okay" "I'm sorry about her (Y/N), goodnight"

Voicemail Twelve: "Um sorry for drunk voice-mailing you last night, that's another apology I'd hope to make in person but it seems the chances of that occurring are slim. If there's any possibility of you being open to talking at some point, could you give me a sign, please just give me some sort of sign that I may possibly have my best friend back"

Voicemail Twenty: "Okay well I've really lost all hope that you are going to contact me but I assume that you are listening since Mapi is continuing to yell at me about the voicemails. So here is my real and genuine apology that I wanted to give you in person. (Y/N) nothing will ever be able to change what has happened or how horrible I have been, my intention was never to hurt you or break your heart. If I'm honest I thought we were going to break up months ago and I went to jenni one night upset about the fact that this could occur. One thing led to another and god I'm sorry you probably don't want to hear that. Look it shouldn't have happened and I'm so sorry that it did especially while we were together and while I continued to reassure you that nothing would happen with jenni. I understand how betrayed and hurt you must feel and I will spend that rest of my life apologising for making you feel that way. In saying that I wish only the best for you in the future, I want you to find an incredible love and I want you to be so unbelievably happy with someone who adores you, I really pray that you find happiness (Y/N), again I'm so sorry"

‘don't you tell her how i give you something, that you never even knew you missed’

Arriving at international camp there is already a clear tension within the group, most girls not knowing what to do about the situation that has occurred between Alexia and yourself.

The team is at dinner, some girls are clearly on your side sitting around the table with you, including the likes of Mapi and Leila. Other’s on Alexia’s side, granted this group is smaller but still existent. Most of the other girls have opted to stay out of the situation and spread themselves through the rest of the dining hall.

"Should I just talk to her?" you ask the table quietly, heads snap, most of the girls not believing that you would have ever said that.

"Do you want to?" Mapi asks, obviously just wanting the best for you.

"I don't want camp to be awkward for everyone and I think I'd want to hear why she actually did it" you explain to your sister, and Mapi nods understanding the predicament that you are in.

"Well, just as long as this is what you want, I'm happy enough to ignore her unless we are on the pitch" Mapi explains, the rest of the table quickly agreeing with the sentiment.

On the other side of the room, Alexia and Jenni participate in a hushed conversation.

"I don't think it's wise to talk to her unless she initiates it. I understand that you want to explain things to her but it will just make it worse. Just let it go for now and wait to see if she comes to you," Jenni tells her girlfriend.

"Okay yeah I think that is fair, I don't even know what I would say to be honest. Anything that I can think of to tell her kind of screams ‘Jenni is so much better than you’ which is not the way I'm trying to come across" Alexia sighs, knowing that if asked to explain herself any explanation given would involve having to inform you that Jenni is the person that Alexia has always dreamt of being with and in a roundabout way that would mean that you just weren’t good enough.

"You will just have to cross that bridge when it comes up. You loved her at one point, Alexia, I'm sure you could come up with a way to spare her feelings. I know that I had a part in this too, but I would have never agreed to date you if I knew that the both of you were still together, this is your massive mistake and you need to find a way to be sensitive to her feelings. She is a great girl and even as your girlfriend I can admit that she deserves a lot better than what you did to her'' Jenni states, the end of her statement accidentally ending up a lot harsher than she intended but she knows that Alexia needs to hear that in ways she did screw up.

"I know, I know. and I'm still so sorry to you and to her, and just to everyone, I didn't mean for all this to happen" Alexia replies, beginning to cry, overwhelmed with the situation that she has created for herself and the people around her.

‘it won't make sense right now but you're still her friend’

"Hey, can we talk?" you grab Alexia's arm as the team hangs out in a games room they discovered after dinner.

"Yeah of course, I've been wanting to speak with you but I've been told to wait for you to approach me" Alexia explains.

"Jenni told you to wait, hey? She's wise when she isn’t being a clown. I probably would have ignored you if you tried to speak to me” you laugh lightly. While it still hurts you that Alexia betrayed you in the way that she did, you want to be able to move on and you know that Jenni and Alexia are good together. Everyone has thought for years that it was just a matter of time before the two found their way to each other.

"Yeah she did. Look I know that nothing I say will ever be able to fix what I did but I really am so sorry. I lied to you and I also lied to Jenni" Alexia states, she goes to continue but is cut off.

"Wait, Jenni didn't know that we were still together?" you ask in shock, you don’t know whether to be happy that Jenni didn't also betray you or sad that Alexia would be so devious as to date the both of you at the same time without either one of you knowing.

"She thought we had broken up, she actually only found out that we were still dating when you visited training that day" Alexia explains.

"You are lucky she stuck around afterwards, I don't think I would have in that situation" you shake your head. You always knew that dating Alexia was risky, everyone told you that there was always going to be something going on between her and Jenni but you decided to look past that, which was clearly a mistake.

"Yeah, I am. Anyway I know that I must have caused so much hurt and I can't even imagine what that did to you. But I hope that one day we could at least be friends again? You were my best friend in the entire world and I miss that a lot. I will do anything in my power to prove to you that I can be a much better friend than I was a girlfriend" Alexia rushes out, almost as if she didn't say everything in one breath you would leave and not hear her out.

"I think we can work something out, we can't be besties right away and it will take a lot of free lunches and coffees but I'm sure you will find your way back to my friend list. I have definitely missed having you as a friend, being your girlfriend was rough, maybe I should warn Jenni to step down from the position she still can" you laugh, sprinting off in the direction of the group.

"Don't you dare!" Alexia yells, catching up with you, wrapping you in a hug. "Thank you for forgiving me, it means the world, I'm bringing you breakfast in bed tomorrow as my first step in rebuilding this friendship" Alexia smiles, you give her a goofy grin back.

"So are we all a team again?" Mapi yells.

"Yep we're all good, everyone can openly communicate with each other once more" you proclaim, sighs of relief are heard from multiple teammates.

‘the only way her heart will mend, is when she learns to love again’

"So leila huh?" Alexia asks you during your warmups for the morning field session.

"What are you talking about Lex?" you scoff, slightly blushing as the two of you jog around the pitch.

"You like Leila, duh. I can be your matchmaker” Alexia explains, excited about the prospect of helping you find love again.

"I'm pretty sure Leila still isn't your biggest fan so I'm not sure if being a matchmaker would be the best course of action. Also I don't like her, you are just trying to hook me up with someone"

"Come on (Y/N/N), there has always been something there, you two are like Jenni and I, everyone can see that you are meant to be together. Also she likes you back, I know it, she was always jealous that I was with you" Alexia smirks, waiting to see your reaction to her statement.

You push Alexia lightly before responding, “she could do so much better than me"

"So you do like her!" Alexia yells, this causes teammates to turn their heads in the direction of you two.

"Nothing to see here!" you call back. "Shut up loud mouth, maybe I like her but nothing is going to happen so drop it!" you groan, taking your opportunity at the end of the warm up to put distance between you and Alexia so she will stop talking about you and Leila.

#alexia putellas #alexia putellas x reader #alexia putellas imagine #woso #woso imagine #woso imagines #fcb femení #woso x reader #barcelona #fcb femeni imagine #espwnt #spain wnt

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blysse-and-blunder · 9 months

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In lieu of a travel journal

2am my-time, monday, july 24, 2023

Awake and giddy and trying to calm down after completing what I think may accidentally actually be a decent conference paper, a few short hours before I need to present it—some thoughts on the things that have kept me entertained and sane while on necessary breaks from writing! writing this on my phone so there’s no read-more, apologies.

reading

having a very good time alternating between after Sappho, selby wynn schwartz, and an angela carter short story collection called the bloody chamber. both very ~feminist~ but in ways that are subtly distinct—you can tell which came out in 2021 and which did not—but both so interesting. I think I may DNF this other unnamed spy-urban fantasy, unfortunately, which sucks because the premise was good, the execution is just very grating. assorted other libby holds include italo calvino’s the baron in the trees, ty @morrak and carmen maria machado’s in the dream house.

listening

yws gwynedd and the resulting welsh pop / rock mix on 24-hour lockdown repeat. it’s been extremely good to me, high energy, low engagement, except I’m also getting better at listening comprehension slowly but surely, there’s no downside. Stuck in my head currently, perpetually:

watching

the first episode of d20’s starstruck odyssey, which despite all the potential for getting bogged down in new mechanics and bad stats and dysfunctional team dynamics was really lovely? It is filling the sweet spot right between being in the mood for fantasy high and being in the mood for Neverafter, and plus I like! just getting to hear them play! I also watched the first few minutes of disn*y’s strange world on this airbnb’s d+ account, and will hopefully be able to go back—I was looking for something I could have on in the background and ended up getting interested, so, task failed successfully! I also watched, and slept through, amsterdam (2022) on a plane recently.

playing

fallow week. shoutout to the game I tried with friends a few weeks ago and forgot to mention, genesis noir, which was so gloriously atmospheric and moody and interesting, right up until it was slightly too buggy and/or unintuitive to get past the first fifteen minutes or so. though that could have been the fault of the internet connection, which had been slow that whole night and did crash immediately thereafter. we laughed ourselves to absolute fucking tears over gangbeasts again, afterwards. but I’m still thinking about the celestial noir vibes and hope to get back to this one soon.

making

fallow week! making plans and achieving them, making memories and taking pictures, making virtual friendships into realities. making more homecooked meals, hopefully, now that I have real kitchen access! making some professional connections??

working on

the last week has been all about either working on said paper, or getting a mental refresh by getting as far from it as possible. it’s been hard to get back into work mode after some of these full days off, but also, I did budget my time and I *did* put enough in, early and often, that by the time the eleventh hour came around it was possible to actually finish. i don’t think i could have gotten to this version, which i’m pleased with, with any less effort—but spending all day thurs at the library, working in the morning or an hour before bed, or between lunch and dinner tonight—and a lot of time the week prior—it all added up. it all contributed something. this is my memo to myself: the long boring slog leading up to the exhilarating last minute is just as necessary. it helped that I have other (dissertation-based) uses for every idea and sentence and quote I had to cut tonight, and I still think this paper is stronger without them.

#in lieu of a commonplace book #ilcb #weekly roundup #when I’ve slept and actually printed the paper #we’ll see how much I agree with tonight’s feelings of victory #does the rush of the last minute make up for the dread of the whole evening prior? much to consider #but as of tomorrow I can be a bit more relaxed!#and catch up on…gulp…email

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thegeminisage · 4 months

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ok, i have a lot of extremely important stuff to do today, but nothing and i mean nothing is more important than this latest tng update. sunday we did "first contact" and "galaxy's child" which was so bad it came close to making me skip my first tng ever and then last night we watched "night terrors" and "identity crisis" which sent me to fucking mars. let's do this

first contact: what a wild episode. my favorite bit in the world is "humans are aliens." it's never not funny. it was funny when they did it in farscape and it's funny when they do it in star trek. i was having a great time. they hold up one of riker's hands and wiggle those strange alien appendages (fingers). gasps all around. "what ARE these?" "a birth defect." points for trying, buddy. he stayed with it until the bitter end

i do wish this had been a funny episode instead of a serious one about space bigotry and alien republicans. the premise is hilarious and the seriousness of the tone, and knowing that in any other context i WOULD have been taking it seriously and enjoying it, kind of brought down the mood a little.

i have mixed feelings about riker's whole deal with that alien lady, tbh. i love watching riker suck and fuck his way out of situations. i love how down to clown he is. unfortunately he didn't seem very down there which turns what could have been an outrageous and fun riker slut moment into a close encounter of the space babes, and i don't really want riker to have any close encounters with space babes. i just want him to have a good time. like did they play it for laughs? yes. and was her fetishisizing him as an ~aaallliiieeenn~ hilarious? also yes. but he literally put his boots back on. and so i just have a hard time finding it as funny as the writers did. i would have been over the moon if this happened to kirk though we could have added it to our slideshow

that said watching him lift up that huge bench preparing to break the window with it was great. he's really strong. good for him.

galaxy's child: i think the only episode worse than this one was code of honor. and at least during code of honor i knew what to expect. i knew everyone said tng seasons 1 and 2 were bad. this blindsided me. it made me incoherent with with rage. catherine straight up stopped watching and let me do the back half on 2x speed.

speaking of seasons 1 and 2, i went and checked and the writer for this episode wrote primarily season 1 and season 2 episodes. they they let this person back i'll never fucking know.

the b plot to this was passable, actually. i liked the pregnant space whale thing even though i thought picard was kind of holding the idiot ball about it. i think it could have been really good in a different episode.

i can't even begin to articulate my thoughts on geordi and leah. it's easily one of the worst examples of star trek aging poorly...in 1991 they had no idea we'd be fighting these battles for real, but today in 2024 we absolutely know it is wrong to use a version of a person's face and body, without their consent, for your own emotional and physical gratification. and the fact that they had kind, easygoing geordi not only do this but then be a huge creep once he met the real woman is already bad, but they didn't even use it as an aesop moment where the moral is not to do that, because even though she yelled at him and told him how violated she felt, she immediately apologized afterwards???

it's just like the barclay episode. fucking real women in the holodecks is embarrassing but not immoral??? but this is totally different from having fantasties in the privacy of your head. he pulled information about her from the fucking computer! christ i'm so glad she turned out to be married. i'm going to try to forgive geordi bc it's not his fault they gave him this shit plot device twice but eeeugh.

night terrors: i literally deserved this. i EARNED this. after the sheer torture of last episode i needed nothing more than whatever the FUCJ this was

firstly for context i had had about two hours of sleep and been awake since 5am while watching this episode. that everyone else in this episode was also profoundly sleep deprived was a source of unending fucking joy to me

i spent half this episode shouting JUST LIKE THOLIAN WEB and then was briefly devastated when it was not in fact the tholians but they delivered in the form of scaring me silly

people hearing things that werent there. picards doorbell pranking him and then the KNOCK AT THE DOOR. the elevator trying to squish picard. SPACE GHOSTS. i was so happy

untill. the scene in the morgue

if you havent watched it then well don't read any further. but beverly is in the morgue and she's looking at all the bodies and then all of a sudden all of them sit up. in the body bags. they moved and they weren't supposed to be moving because they were dead. i may have screamed out loud. i definitely had to pause the episode. i will be thinking about it for the rest of my life. the episode ever. i can never watch it again because what if it's not as good when i've had an adequate amount of sleep? better to leave it as an extremely fond and terrifying memory.

anyway whatever cgi they did to put deanna in that dream was so funny. i hope it looked great in 1991

OH AND I NEARLY FORGOT. her talking worf down from suicide. fueling my riker e deanna e worf ambitions <3

identity crisis: this one was also scary because 1. geordi was with a woman and 2. that invisible shadow thing

luckily the woman brotherzoned geordi within the first 5 seconds (wise) and geordi almost turning into an invisible blacklight guy did a lot to redeem him in my eyes. cuz i dont WANT to dislike him yk thats like the reading rainbow guy

anyway the little invisible shadow in the footage/the holodeck got me bc at first i couldnt even see it. and then i did see it and i got scared about what it belonged to. and then geordi made that little invislbe blob and AAAA it was STANDING THERE even though nobody could SEE IT and i hated when he did it in the holodeck and i hated that planet and

oh yeah everybodys uniforms kept getting shredded. i thought the planet was trying to fuck them or something i didn't like that. but they were just naked bc they had to be naked to be invisible. and i didn't like that either but it was better than the alternate but it was all very frightening

anyway the makeup/special effects in that episode were VERY good, 10/10

TONIGHT: "the nth degree" and "qpid," which i am dreading already <3

#personal #star trek blogging #tng lb

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threadsun · 7 months

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🌊 anon here! after two bouts of illness and a disability flare I'm back and stewing in weeks worth of horny malaise

anyway I've chosen to use my powers for evil 💅 I come offering morsels.

Joseph hits me right in the size kink but in such a dommy way- like this precious babygirl is literally SO sensitive that he couldn't possibly take more than a few fingers from his (much smaller) partner- wrap a little hand around his throat and he's already gasping for air, shove his chest and he's boneless in an instant, there's no way he'd be able to handle a big, strong, meanie dom! his big ol body can hardly keep up, heaving and sweating and shaking with every tiny movement. too bad you're gonna make him take as much as you can give him anyway :3 he might cry but he won't complain!

Meanwhile Jean has my disabled ass in a headlock because can you imagine the manipulative potential of this bastard in any kind of caregiving position for a chronically ill sub? forcing his victim to work past their limits and watching as they're helplessly bedbound when he finally gets them to their breaking point, criticizing them for every dropped dish and missed deadline, forcing them right where he wants them when he comes up with the perfect way for them to "make up all those lost hours". Screwing with their meds and intentionally only providing painkillers, sleep meds, muscle relaxers, etc when he can make sure they're gonna be around him so they can associate him with care and relief no matter how badly he screws with their body and their brain afterwards. changing up their special foods and causing flares as punishment for acting out, "losing" braces, chairs, canes, and other mobility aids when it looks like they're gonna hightail it. the potential for Evil Fucked Up Nurse outfits?!? like this is an acquired taste for sure but damn there's no element of control QUITE like medical gaslighting and malpractice.

moving on if I don't see Ian pushed to the point of a complete mental breakdown but make it sexy I'm gonna scream. like. toy with him, lead him on, offer conciliatory dates only to take them away for real or invented 'wrongs', leave him constantly on the edge of relief of finally having his partner back, get him so worked up that when his partner finally dropkicks his heart into hell and tells him it's never gonna work he just. breaks. slams them against the door and sobs, pounds his fist on either side of their head and won't stop apologizing but MORE IMPORTANTLY won't stop shoving his cock between their thighs, mascara running down his face begging for answers, begging for reasons, threatening them to shut up if they want to see the sun rise all in the same breath type shit. forcefucking them on the spot and screaming as he cums, alternatively choking with laughter that they can never leave him now that they're knocked up like a common whore and cant-catch-his-breath sobbing that he's worse than the dirt beneath their feet and he can't believe he assaulted them and he should just go off and die and fuck he can't help but get hard again when theyre squirming like that and it's their fault for making him like this so why don't they go ahead and just bend over like they knew they should have all along? I can't be the only one that knows that when this bitch breaks, he breaks, right?

also 👀 ?!?! damn dad dom you think you can just flirt with your followers and have us leave our minds and our panties at the door?? you can and its phenomenal, a thorough round of applause for you

anyway your writing and general degenerate vibes have been giving me life blood, bless. thank you for getting me off getting me of- getting me through these trying times, hope you're happy and well!

I'm glad you're feeling better!! Also all of these are soooooo sexy you're so right about all of them!!!

Joseph is so desperate to be bullied, he'll let you push him around and hit him and he'll take it as if you're bigger than him no matter how small you are. And don't even get me started on how tight he is! How he'll never adjust to getting fingered or fucked by you, it'll always be an overwhelming stretch for him in the best way. He'll always feel filled by you!

And Jean as a fucked up caretaker 👀 that's a concept I always find sexy!! He fucks with your meds so hard, giving you fake ones sometimes or ones that do other things. Sometimes he'll replace it with stimulants or sugar pills just to see what happens. And he learns all of your weaknesses to exploit them and keep you with him. He'll make sure you're never well enough to leave, that you're stuck at his mercy forever. And he'll make you crave it, make you associate him with relief and comfort, as much as with pain and abuse. He'll even seek out legal means to give him more control over you as your carer until you have no rights of your own and can never leave him >:3c

And Ian snapping... oughhhhh I love him!! He's so pathetic about it. He's flipping between apologising and justifying it and blaming you, all in the same breath as he sobs and rapes you. Promising he'll make things better, begging you to forgive him, telling you he wouldn't have to do this if you'd just been kinder and more forgiving. And you know he'll never let you go after that. You'll be his captive forever~

You're so cute! I'm glad Dad can help you out, sweetheart 😘

#sunshine #18+ only #🌊 anon #sdj joseph #sdj jean #sdj ian #hiiii welcome back I missed youuuuuuuuuu!!!#also :3 glad people like my degenerate vibes!! Legit one of the best compliments I've ever gotten!!

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