It can also be really hard to make and keep friends while being aware of your limitations and energy levels. Like you turn down an invitation and explain that it was just too short notice for you to handle, and then you don't get invited again. You say you're not good at phone calls because that's true, and you say can we text instead and they never do (and why is an avid gamer around your age so into phone calls anyway?) And the best guess you can come up with is that while you meant "these are the accommodations I need to socialise with you", maybe what they heard was "I don't want to socialise with you". Or maybe they thought this is weird or too much work or I don't know I don't know how allistic minds work I'm just guessing.
Or maybe they tell you to your face that they can't hang out with you because their other friends think you're too weird, or you keep in touch but it's always so stilted and you don't know how to get beyond the superficial how are you fine script, and the one time it seems like you're getting somewhere you misunderstand something, not even in a way that causes offence, but they just stop replying after that. Or they're your childhood friend who tried but did not understand, and you didn't understand like half of what was going on for most of your childhood anyway, and the last time you saw them you cried in front of a bunch of people at a party because you couldn't interact properly and felt like you didn't exist.
And then you're sitting with the very specific worry that maybe if you manage to move into uni halls for the first time at the bright young age of 30, maybe your new dorm mates will want to have a social gathering that night, and it feels very plausible because it happened in the Choices phone game story The Freshman, and of course things in reality always perfectly mimic the specific fictional situations you're familiar with! And you will have to decline because you won't be up for socialising just after moving in, but then they'll think you're not interested in being friends at all, or in them as people.
Like just hypothetically
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Having thoughts about Toshiro I don't know how to articulate, so here's a messy rant, I guess!
Yes, a bunch of people dislike him because of Farcille. No, I don't think there's anything wrong with that. Straight people have committed real-life violence against gay people for being gay for ages, and they still do, so I think we can handle shippers of a fictional wlw ship disliking a fictional male character for having feelings for one of them. It's not that deep.
Laios and Toshiro's conflict is more complex. We have been following Laios for a while now, and we've only been hearing about Toshiro up until two episodes ago. It's natural that people will tend to take Laios' side. I also think it's a bit malicious of people to talk about racism here when the setup for the disagreement is shown to be between Laios and Toshiro as individuals, and the clash between Laios being austist and having a lack of social skills, and Toshiro keeping his feelings and thoughts to himself. Is it because of his culture? We have Maizuru freely opening up, and Inutade is very extroverted, so that's not the impression I got.
To say Laios' was committing racist microagressions by talking to Toshiro and being interested in the land he came from and the monsters they have there and seeing him as a friend, and for calling him Shuro after he misunderstood his name and Toshiro did not correct him, I mean? It seems a little disingenuous to me.
Not to mention, Toshiro was intended to be a polarizing character. His negative reaction to the party's use of black magic, while can be understandable as it is born out of concern, is extremely antagonistic to the main characters. You know, the people we have been following since episode one and came to care about? Them. We, as an audience, don't want Laios and Marcille handed over for using forbidden magic. We don't want Falin to rest in peace. His stance goes completely against everything that we care about as viewers, and we haven't had the time to know him, to grow to like him.
To act like it's unfair for people to dislike him? Idk. It's really not that unexpected.
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(plz do not reblog my absolute idiocy lol.)
SO. This is the most ADHD Snzfucker rabbit hole ever and I had to share. I watched a movie about a fictional rock band. I think to myself, "GODDAMN, that singer is HOT."
Stay with me.
I find out he's a REAL singer for a REAL band. I check the band out. I instantly love them. I'm developing a stupid crush on this man who is an actually adorable human. And hot. He's fucking beautiful. It's been such a LONG TIME since I had "The Feels©️" 😂
I listen to their music a bit more and YouTube shows me a "hey, guess what! They're playing a few hours from you!" message under a video.
Whaaaaattt.....
I immediately get tickets. I get a VIP meet and greet so I can meet this insanely gorgeous man who writes powerful, soulful lyrics, has longish black hair, icy blue eyes, wears guyliner and spiked leather, and giggles like a shy child when people compliments him.
✨But wait! There's more!✨
On a whim, I Google his name plus "sneeze."
The first 3 results are literal videos of him doing the snz.
There are pictures of him doing the snz.
There's a thing where he says that he "sneezes violently" whilst looking at the sun.
His snz is also FUCKING ADORABLE and I am absolutely BESIDE MYSELF at 3am, feeling higher than a fucking kite.
What. The. FUCK. Just. Happened.
🤣🤣🤣🥴
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it really does matter so much that fringilla vigo is nilfgaardian, beauclairoise, for many reasons, but let's start here:
her entire role is that of an illusionist; one which she would not be were it not for her family lineage, rooted in beauclair:
There was a corridor in Beauclair Palace, and at the end a chamber, the existence of which no one knew about. (...) The corridor and the chamber, disguised by a powerful illusion, were known only to the palace’s original elven builders. And later–when the elves had gone, and Toussaint became a duchy–to the small number of sorcerers linked to the ducal house. Including Artorius Vigo, a master of magical arcana and great specialist in illusions. And his young niece, Fringilla, who had a special talent for illusions.
and since her talent in illusions is well-defined in the series, as it is her who grants geralt the very silver-mounted chrysoprase amulet which saves his life in the final fight against vilgefortz:
Geralt clenched Fringilla’s medallion in his fist.
The bar fell with a clang, striking the floor a foot from the Witcher’s head. Geralt rolled away and quickly got up on one knee. Vilgefortz leaped forward and struck. The bar missed the target again by a few inches. The sorcerer shook his head in disbelief and hesitated for a second. (...)
‘I didn’t know …’ Yennefer said at last, scrambling out of a pile of rubble. She looked terrible. The blood trickling from her nose had poured all over her chin and cleavage. ‘I didn’t know you could cast illusory spells,’ she repeated, seeing Geralt’s uncomprehending gaze, ‘capable even of deceiving Vilgefortz.’
‘It’s my medallion.’
‘Aha.’ She looked suspicious. ‘A curious thing...’
that talent is something which cannot, by far, be separated from her character. and returning back to her lineage, it is again her familial relations which place her in beauclair.
she was positioned there, ready to intercept geralt, as early as the autumnal equinox in september, by which time geralt had barely just left the town of riedbrune:
The world over, the autumn Equinox was a night of spectres, nightmares and apparitions, a night of sudden, suffocating awakenings, fraught with menace, among sweat-soaked and rumpled sheets. Neither did the most illustrious escape the apparitions and awakenings; (...) In the huge castle of Montecalvo the sorceress Philippa Eilhart leaped from damask sheets, without waking the Comte de Noailles’ wife. The dwarf Yarpen Zigrin in Mahakam, the old witcher Vesemir in the mountain stronghold of Kaer Morhen, the bank clerk Fabio Sachs in the city of Gors Velen and Yarl Crach an Craite on board the longboat Ringhorn all awoke more or less abruptly. The sorceress Fringilla Vigo came awake in Beauclair Castle*, as did the priestess Sigrdrifa of the temple of the goddess Freyja on the island of Hindarsfjall.
* Slight correction - As explained in Chapter 3 of Lady of the Lake, Beauclair is not a castle, but a palace.
and she's only invited to beauclair in such a capacity because she is a relative of the duchess:
‘I’m in Beauclair because the largest, best-stocked library in the known world is here. Apart from university libraries, naturally. But universities are jealous of giving access to their shelves, and here I’m a relation and good friend of Anarietta and can do as I wish.’
(whom, you may note, she stands by and jointly receives geralt with at their first meeting, and participates in the festival of the vat with)
and therefore, she was in a perfectly strategic position to delay geralt, keep him captive:
‘(...) Please at least tell us … has the Witcher calmed down now? Are you capable of keeping him in Toussaint at least until May?’
(…) ‘No,’ she answered at last. ‘Probably not until May. But I’ll do everything in my power to keep him here as long as possible.’
because fringilla is not just an illusionist literally, as in the magic she is naturally gifted at, but 'illusionist' is her entire identity as a character.
and as her family hails from beauclair, this specific identity is compounded with the fact that beauclair itself is the center of illusions, a dreamland, a fairytale:
‘There’s something bewitched about this place, this fucking Toussaint. Some kind of charm hangs over the whole valley. Especially over the palace (...) no two ways about it, there’s something bewitched about this bloody Toussaint.’
fringilla is an illusionist because she is beauclairoise. she not only hails from a long line of illusionists, but hails from, is related to the ruler of, the very city of illusions and dreams.
she is the illusionist not just in a literal sense, but in the entire narrative role of casting an illusion over our hero, because it is the illusion of love which keeps her and geralt in beauclair. (the tricky trick is that geralt, taking a page out of yennefer's playbook of seduction, cleverness, patience, was able to cast an illusion upon the mistress of illusions herself, free himself from the witch's spell, awake from a pleasant dream to face the harsh reality).
(sighs) and even if you want to forget fringilla's beauclairoise identity and erase her entire positioning as the illusionist which poses a threat to our heroes, entices them to complacency, her role as nilfgaardian in the sense of her academic identity and imperial service also defines her.
because it is also fringilla, the illusionist who casts the wool over people's eyes... who blinded yennefer at sodden hill.
‘We’ve already met,’ Yennefer spoke again.
‘I don’t recall,’ Fringilla said without looking away.
‘I’m not surprised. But I have a good memory for faces and figures. I saw you from Sodden Hill.’
‘In which case there can be no mistake,’ Fringilla Vigo said and raised her head proudly, sweeping her eyes over all those present. ‘I was at the Battle of Sodden.’
(...) ‘Occasionally one happens to see another person for only a split second, right before going blind, and one takes a dislike to them instantly.’
‘Oh, enmity is considerably more complicated,’ Fringilla said, squinting. ‘Imagine someone you don’t know at all standing at the top of a hill, and ripping a friend of yours to shreds in front of your eyes. You neither saw them nor know them at all, but you still don’t like them.’
‘So it goes,’ Yennefer said, shrugging. (...)
fringilla's (proud!) participation at the battle of sodden is a crux of the lodge, because she alongside her good friend, the scholarly assire, they are nilfgaardians who, owing to their nationality, find challenges meshing with the northern sorcereresses. the lodge brought together representatives of magic across nationalities in the midst of a raging, bloody war between them all.
and it's so integral to fringilla's character that she has imperial biases, that she approaches even the international lodge with an imperialist view.
with no factual basis, she initially exotifies and sexualizes the northern sorceresses, despite her own prior denial of these base stereotypes:
Fringilla Vigo was putting on a brave face, but she was anxious and stressed. She herself had often reprimanded young Nilfgaardian mages for uncritically yielding to stereotypical opinions and notions. She herself had regularly ridiculed the crude image painted by gossip and propaganda of the typical sorceress from the North: artificially beautiful, arrogant, vain and spoiled to the limits of perversion, and often beyond them. (...) Her untrammelled imagination offered up images of impossibly gorgeous women with diamond necklaces resting on naked breasts with rouged nipples, women with moist lips and eyes glistening from the effects of alcohol and narcotics. In her mind’s eye Fringilla could already see the gathering becoming a wild and depraved orgy accompanied by frenzied music, aphrodisiacs, and slaves of both sexes using exotic accessories.
she even has a difficult time understanding why the northern sorceresses are upset about the nilfgaardian invasion, believing it to be a boon to their society. only through their discussion does she just barely begin to grasp the meaning of "invasion" and why she wouldn't want to be on the receiving end of it:
Some were clearly anxious about the close proximity of Nilfgaard. Fringilla had mixed feelings. She had assumed that such educated people would understand that the Empire was bringing culture, prosperity, order and political stability to the North. On the other hand, though, she didn’t know how she would have reacted herself, were foreign armies approaching her home.
all of this indoctrination into imperial beliefs, at the same time that she is an educated woman, and herself, as an imperial sorceress, known for being rebellious and an upstart within her own culture:
‘Stop staring,’ Assire said, touching her bouffant and glistening curls. ‘I decided to make a few changes. Why, I just took your lead.’
‘I was always taken as an oddball and a rebel,’ Fringilla Vigo chuckled. ‘But when they see you in the academy or at court…’
this is such a chaotic rambling post, but all i want to say is that fringilla's character, like most of the minor characters in the witcher series, was not invented through random generation, a roll of the dice, a spin of the wheel. her specific traits - such as her nationality, lineage, talents - all relate back thematically. everything is relevant, specifically chosen to create a specific character.
if once changes her backstory (e.g., to place her at aretuza... though i don't know who would do such a thing for no reason) they would change her entire character, the series' commentary on imperialism, and because of her role she takes later on, even the entire ending of the story.
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I love thinking about the concept of Nations (as seen in Hetalia) and thinking about how they would actually work in an alternate real-world reality, and a lot of the time I tend to disagree with what we've seen from Himaruya's canon.
I like to think that there are actually different kinds of Nations - those that are a combination of land, history, and culture, and those that are a combination of history and culture. The former won't fade even if their people stop becoming 'part' of them, and this is what I think happens to Prussia. Rome, Ancient Greece and Brittania were the latter type, and faded when their people did.
What the two types of Nations have in common is that they have deep care for those living on their land. This is why I don't think it would work to have Nations working with the government.
I do think older Nations would have made this mistake, but they would have quickly realised that ruling over the people =/= caring for the people. (The French Revolution's bloodiness being France's way of wiping his existence from the minds of an entire line.)
Different countries definitely have different stories, but by "modern" times, the only country who has any ties to their government is England.
Each country 'helps' their people in different ways, separately from the government, and despite all of them having different levels of closeness with other nations (that don't have much to do with politics), they tend to take their work of protecting the land and people seriously.
Their 'world meetings' are not government sanctioned, they don't have bosses - it's all just meetings of how they can effectively work both separately and together to keep their people and the lands safe.
Nations are protectors, guardians, and historical observers, but it is always humans who precipitate events.
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