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nicky-jr · 1 month

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shoutout gothcleats shippers o7

#rambling #idk i feel like as a dndads blog im legally obligated to make A post abt it #but idk! it was fun #sad about normal but glad everyone else got a happy ending #(warning i get like. pointlessly negative/personal beyond this point)#but idk. ive been so checked out of s2 that i feel like. detached?#like makes me feel shitty to admit this but i just dont really care #idk if that has to do with my disinterest with the season. or just not being fixated anymore #or just my own mental state as of recent #it just makes me really sad that i feel this way about a series i adore #i dunno. i'd like to do a relisten of s2 so i can really pinpoint what about it frustrates/bores me #but rn i just cant be bothered #dont get me wrong i love this season!!! i feel the need to clarify any time i get negative about it #i love the characters and most of the plot and there were things i found really really compelling #and god its SOOO FUCKING FUNNY #my venting comes from a place of love yknow #but yeah tldr i have like literally no strong thoughts on the finale atm. it was fine #but im excited for the future #dndads s2 spoilers

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kenobihater · 2 months

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of all the star wars movies, which of them do y'all 1) enjoy the most 2) consider the best quality and 3) think you've rewatched the most. add your answers in the reblogs or replies, i'm genuinely curious how much of an overlap there is within everyone's three answers. mine don't overlap at all! they're revenge of the sith, empire strikes back, and the force awakens :^)

#len speaks #star wars #revenge of the sith #empire strikes back #the force awakens #not tagging more films than that bc i cant b bothered. incoming tag ramble ahead bc i have sw brainrot rn and im making it everyones prob❤️#i rlly struggled 2 remember if id watched tfa or aotc more. i went w/ tfa bc it was formative to me as a teen and ive seen it probably 6ish #times? whereas aotc was the first sw movie i remember (specifically the scene of obiwan serving c*nt in the bar lmao) but i've only seen it #for sure 4.5 and maybe 5.5 times. the .5 is from when i got bored after obi-wan's scene ended and ran off to go play in the mud or smthn 😭#i'm sure tfa will eventually get surpassed in number of rewatches by aotc and rots bc i don't fw the direction of the ST but that's my #current ballpark estimate of my total number of rewatches #as an adult tho if i just wanna watch a star war i'll go with aotc bc it's fun and ends semihappily and i can turn my brain off for the #spinny lightsabers. it's great background noise or for if you're sick or whatever. rots on the other hand? i won't talk through that unless #i'm quoting it with my brother and i am LOCKED IN 100% entirely entranced by it all #i almost picked rogue one for the best quality answer but i think the character writing is weaker and the facial cgi is creepy. esb beats #it by a hair imho bc of that. the vader hallway scene goes hard tho!!!#also i'm not covering shows or games or books or anything else in this post - simply the films. might ask abt shows later but that might #also give me hives bc so many of the shows suck ass and i don't rlly want ppl extolling the virtues of t.bb in my notes 💀#and yes i do think one's enjoyment and one's opinion of quality are two things that often overlap. but sometimes you just like something #bad and that's awesome. like rots is the best of the prequels by a large margin and i adore the opening and characters and many of the #scenes but that doesn't mean it's the best star wars has to offer ykwim? it's my specialest most favoritest sw movie but that doesn't blind #me to the dialogue lmfaooo

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spacephobos · 1 year

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I've got so much I want to say about Polite Society. But I refuse to post anything too spoilery yet.

So one thing I will say is the way Lena's depression and mental health is written is incredible. So often when men write women with mental health issues they write this sort of "prettily struggling" womsn in a spiral.

(this infamous queens gambit scene comes to mind)

They're never allowed to actually be ugly or gross or even not have their hair and makeup be perfect.

Like beth here is in a pretty frilly top shes reclining in an uncomfortable fashion. Her makeup looks perfect and he cardigan is prettily draped over her shoulders. She's meant to be attractive. Her sadness is almost fetishised.

but then Lena looks like this

Whereas Lena's a WRECK. It's considered an achievement she showered. AND shes proud of herself for that small acomplishment. Shes angry. She destroys her work. She's dressed in sweats and pyjamas with either no makeup (if i remember correctly) or makeup that looks like it's been on for days. There's a scene where shes wandering aimlessly and just buys a duck to eat. And she does not eat it daintily or prettily (and no its not a chicken ppl seem to be confused).

I love that she spends all the first act in hoodies and pajamas looking like shes not washed in 3 days. It's just so good to see a woman direct another woman with depression. There's so much to be said about the male gaze and how it even impacts the portrayal of women going through crisis. The removal of that lens has created what I will argue is the most authentic experience of depression in a woman I've maybe ever seen. I literally cannot think of another time I've seen that.

Anyways Nida Manzoor I love you.

#Theres sooo much in general I want to say about this movie #This is just one of many things I love #womems emotions on screen rarely feel authentic #polite society #media commentary #nida manzoor #writing this bc im currently in a depressive episode and look like lena rn lmao #thinking of like 9 more points to say but cant be bothered to write them #might add more later

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manchesterau · 16 days

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this vid gave me such 2018 vibes with the editing god i love it

#no gifs from me sorrysrdtghgfd #i cant be bothered rn #even tho this vid is right up my alley and theyre so cuteeee #im glad they have editors now and i dont mind but i just prefer their editing style #phan #dan and phil

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thephilosophah · 1 month

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hit em with the outfit-fancifying beam

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tequiilasunriise · 10 months

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Okay but the emphasis on Ada being axed in the abdomen specifically?

My current headcanon fer her death is that Ada was a maid who had an affair with a rich man she worked fer and fell horrendously in love with this man who likely just saw her as a pretty toy to enjoy on the side. At one point, Richboy tries to break if off with her, and Ada persists because she so wholly believes what they have is real and special meanwhile Richboy is just tryna get rid of her before this scandal gets out to the public.

tw: woah this angst got a little dark and lowkey spiraled into a minific

Ada follows her ‘lover’ into the woods where he she knows he likes to chop wood to destress, and when she finds him she starts begging him to take her back because they’re oh so in love you can’t you see? He tries to push her away, but Ada screams out, “You, you can’t leave me!”

“Ada, for the last time, leave me alone-“

“I’M WITH CHILD! IT’S YOURS!”

A stray wind rustles fallen foliage in the distance, the silence that has befallen the pair so heavy that the man could faintly count each individual leaf. Even as he stands stunned and speechless outwardly, from within a thunderous hammering of his heart begins to stir.

“… what?”

“I am going to bear your child! Please, can’t you see? You can’t leave me now!”

Shaking his head, the drumbeat man’s heart continues to bang against his eardrums louder and louder. It’s as if the bloodied thing was trying to break out of his ribcage and run away shrieking.

“No, n-no it can not be.”

“It can, it can,” wide green eyes stare up at him with a frenzied gleam, the maid’s broad smile stretching across her features like a slash, “It’s yours, you know I would never touch another.”

Ada steps forward, clinging onto the arm of her one and only. The man tries to take a step back and dodge her hands, but it’s already too late, the maid’s fingers frantically dig deep into the flesh of his arm and pull him close.

“Ada- Ada st-stop, stop touching me-“

“This is fate!” She crows desperately, completely ignoring his plea, her grip tightening on the man who gave her light.

“A-Ada! Let go!”

“No, I can’t! This child is a sign of our lov- AAAARRGHHHHH!”

Her backside slams onto the forest floor beneath her, but the bruises that shall surely form on her back holds not even a candlelight to the wretched, searing pain races from her stomach. Ada’s shaky hands reach up and-

Oh.

Oh, she’s bleeding.

Above her, the love of her life breathes unevenly, the axe clutched in his fist stained with a cruel, cruel crimson.

The immense pain rushing from her stomach is nearly enough to rob her of words completely, yet even this physical anguish can not hold back the aching in her betrayed soul.

“B-but,” she barely chokes out, hot tears streaming from her eyes, “But why?”

“Because you gave me no choice.”

Pov Ada is crumpled on the forest floor bleeding out and STILL girly doesn’t even try to get up and call for help.

The man above her runs his free hand through his hair, disbelief and desperation laced in his every movement. His voice, once so strong and sure, now tremors as the realization of what he has done settles deep into the marrow of his bones.

“Do you understand now, you worthless fool? Do you understand?”

Ada can only shake her head. Even now, even here where she is very nearly nothing but a corpse to feed the maggots that reside in the dirt beneath her, Ada refuses to believe that this man she has devoted her whole being truly doesn’t feel the same.

“You, you didn’t mean to,” the man bellows in frustration, but Ada continues to push on with a watery smile, “It was just a mistake, I-I made you mad, and you acted out. It’s- it’s alright, I forgive you. I, I still love y-“

“NO!”

Pov when Richboy realizes that nothing he’ll do or say can make Ada stay away from him he ends up chopping her to pieces and hiding her body in the swamp where other animals have long since become carcasses, her shrieks of agony a quick yet haunting melody that echoes against the silent trees forced to witness such a brutal end to life.

Andddd THAT’S how I headcanon why Ada’s spectre form is a screaming banshee with cut up limbs stained in dirt and decorated in forest animal skeletons :DD

#me when my writing spirals into a minific but i cant be bothered to flesh it out into a more developed more detailed fic sorry yall #ur boy is just too lazy fer that rn anfmwkfmwk #like her backstory is so fucken tragic from the panels we’ve seen but what if i just filled in the blanks and made it WORSE???#ur welcome nevermore fandom <33333 #ada willing to instantly forgive Richboy after he axes her may seem too much but i meannnn #the way failgirl still tried to chase after Prospero after he exploded on her? mmmmmm yeah no yeah girly is just so desperate n delusional #nevermore webtoon #ada nevermore

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plumdale · 2 years

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my queue ended today and im still getting the failure to save error, sooo ig i wont be playing until that’s fixed and who knows when that’ll happen

#it's so frustrating #like i dont even know what to say anymore when it comes to ea #i cant even be bothered to throw a fit. it's just tiring.#btw i did see that disabling the hsy pack prevents the error from happening but my gameplay rn kinda requires that pack lol #txt post

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annoying-moth · 5 months

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Okay so I looked up how old the eggs were/are in order to draw them better and–

HOLY SHIT

Tilin and trump only lived for 10 days, 10 Days.

Less than a month, less than the time spent on purgatory- juanaflippa also only lived for 11 days. They are younger than sunny, em and pepito. Bobby only lived a little bit more than a month. Tallulah is only 12 days younger than the original eggs-

Like, I'm so shocked but also‐ excited to rethink their designs >:]]

(This is their ages in order btw for those who want to know, this is done with the help of the wiki and my math skillz)

-Chayanne, Leo, dapper, ramon = older than 8 months/ 242 days (day 13 - day 255)

-Tallulah = older than 8 months/ 230 days (day 25 - day 255)

-Richarlyson = older than 8 months/ 215 days (day 40 - day 255)

-Pomme = older than 7 months/ 199 days (day 56 - day 255)

-Sunny, Em, Pepito = less than a month/ 13 days (day 242 - day 255)

-Juanaflippa = less than a month/ 11 days (day 13 - day 24 )

-Tilin, Trump = less than a month/ 10 days (day 13 - day 23)

#qsmp eggs #qsmp #qsmp chayanne #qsmp dapper #qsmp leo #i cant be bothered to tag all the eggs imma be honest #qsmp juanaflippa #qsmp tilin #qsmp trump #qsmp bobby #qsmp tallulah #there last ones #srry if most of this is wrong #rn im just sleepdeprived #im feverish from being sick #and im avoiding studying for my exam-#i was just trying to draw the eggs how did i end up here

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kingofthecapybaras · 8 months

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brief lil fic i wrote bc i was having too many thoughts about landduo hurt/comfort

obvious warnings for mentions of missing eggs and general angst

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foolish walks out of his tower, having just finished organizing his loot from the dungeons he did today, and pointedly not dwelling for too long on anything other than the chests in that room. he still has a bit of time left today, and he's certainly not looking forward to trying to go to sleep and being left alone with his thoughts, so maybe he can finally squeeze some work in on the titan, or he'll go to spawn and run into someone else to goof around with and distract himself.

foolish gets halfway across the path to his warpstone when he finally notices bad on the shore. he's sitting on the ground outside his and dapper's first house, with his arms wrapped around his legs, knees tucked up to his chin, staring off blankly into the water as it waves and ripples against the land.

foolish pauses for a brief moment, and then turns to walk along the shore over to him.

"hey," foolish greets softly. bad turns his head to look up at foolish, but doesn't say a word. foolish notices the bags under his eyes. bad turns back to staring out at the water.

it's not an outright 'go away,' so foolish takes that as invitation enough to sit down next to him on the ground, curled up similarly to bad with his hands resting on his knees. for what feels like the first time all day, foolish lets out a deep breath, the full weight of his thoughts washing over him like the sound of the waves.

he thinks of leo. he thinks about how in the days leading up to the eggs' disappearance he didn't even get to see her, missing her by mere minutes. he thinks of the note she left in the chest in her room, he thinks about the totems left there and how wherever she is now, she doesn't have them. he thinks of vegetta, how he's probably going to come back and find out their daughter is missing. he thinks of all the other eggs. surely they'll all come back, right? the last time they went missing they came back. they have to come back, it's not fair for them to just be taken without any warning, without any explanation, without any closure.

foolish feels tears start to prick at the corners of his eyes, and tries to push the feeling away. bad is still sitting next to him, after all, and foolish can only think however he's feeling, bad must be feeling it worse, he practically took care of all the eggs. he doesn't need to add foolish having a breakdown in front of him on top of all of that.

foolish takes another few deep breaths, listening to the sound of the waves, letting his thoughts wash away with them, and he thinks he might be somewhere close to feeling normal again. and then he feels bad lean his head against his shoulder.

he looks down to find bad already looking up at him, and they share a brief glance before foolish wraps an arm around bad's back, pulling him in closer, and bad moves to fully wrap his arms around foolish's chest, and then foolish moves his other arm and they're hugging each other so tight foolish worries he might crush him.

and then foolish notices bad is crying- shaking, silent sobs with cold tears landing where bad has tucked his head near foolish's shoulder- and then foolish's carefully put up wall cracks, every last thought and emotion foolish had been bottling in rushing out in the form of tears that trail down his cheeks and fall against bad's back.

they stay hugging even after they've both stopped crying, until finally foolish feels bad push back against his hold and he releases him. bad pulls away, wiping at his face with one hand, still saying nothing. foolish has the impulse to poke fun at him just to regain a sense of normalcy, but quickly pushes it down. he has the feeling bad needed that just as much as he did.

they sit in silence again for a little while longer, staring out at the water and the now mostly set sun just barely dipping below the horizon, before bad stands up.

"uh, i should go… i have stuff i need to work on."

foolish stands up with him, feeling that whatever moment they were having before has now passed.

"yeah, yeah. me too," foolish says. bad turns to leave, and foolish puts out a hand to stop him. "uh. thanks, though."

it's doesn't feel exactly like what foolish really means, but it's close enough.

"oh. thank you too," bad says.

they go their separate ways, and they don't mention it again, aside from the knowing glance they share when they see each other the next morning.

#idk if this is worth putting on ao3 and either way i cant b bothered to fix it up enough for that rn so its just a post #qsmp #qsmp fanfiction #qsmp fanfic #foolish gamers #qsmp foolish #badboyhalo #qsmp badboyhalo #landduo #land duo #foolhalo #vaguely. you can interpret it however u want #i just have many thoughts about them being constants in each others lives and relying on each other for stability #but also never really actually saying or addressing it or even really thinking about it #also i am posting this at 2am if its shit thats my excuse lmao

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rewritingcanon · 4 months

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harry teaching dumbledore’s army the patronus charm. lavender brown being in dumbledore’s army. lavender brown learning the patronus charm. she casts it for the first time and it comes out in glaring clarity, absolutely corporeal. what is it? what sort of spirit creature shoots out of her wand? her angel in soul to protect her from such darkness? its trisha paytas.

#pretend this is time accurate i cant be bothered rn.#im very drained which is why my posts rn are so ass so just read and keep scrolling i beg #lavender brown #harry potter #lightning era #golden trio era #hp #trisha paytas #dumbledore’s army #order of the phoenix #hp ootp #rewriting

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paperinsects · 1 year

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i figured out how to animate stuff in krita, so im actually working on remaking that petscop animation(?) i did recently since i really hate how that turned out

heres some stuff from it so far, i dont really know what im doing but it’s fun!

#petscop #it will be colored in the end #i just cant be bothered to do all that rn

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puppyeared · 3 months

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adhd comix

#man i dont even have the energy to be mad. im just tired #like. dont u love it when your parents exhibit symptoms of ADHD and your sibling is diagnosed with a learning disability #and instead of thinking oh shit what if the other one has smth too. they subject you to The Horrors #i cant bring myself to hate my parents. but im tired of feeling obligated to defend them when the thing they think is working #isnt actually working and ive just found other ways to cope to avoid any sort of conflict. like lying and stealing. lol #if someone took me aside and said 'hey so your brain doesnt make as much dopamine as usual and its not a bad thing it just means you #need external stimulation and reward system to function and youre not actually secretly fucked up or lazy' as a kid #im pretty sure i wouldnt be here rn with half the problems i already have. unfortunately getting diagnosed late means u dont have a teacher #to back you up at a parent teacher conference that forces your parents to take this shit seriously instead of ignoring it hoping itll #go away on its own. but hey what do i know i have squirrel ipad baby disease. what do i know about my own symptoms #AND. AND i think im allowd to be mad bc ive been doing my own research on this for years before and after diagnosis #theyve been putting me thru the WORST parenting techniques on earth. which they could have corrected at anytime but they were #comfortable thinking they were doing it right and didnt bother to check if they were or werent fucking up their kid in the long run #and refusing to acknowledge it. i just!! they just decided one day hey lets make babies!! and just looked at books on how to make #a human being survive as long as possible!!! what the fuck!!!!#im sorry for putting this on ppls dashes but i am. so tired. of bottling this up. and im not looking for sympathy or anything i just need #to scream and clench my fists to SOMEONE about it because theyre not gonna take this well up the ass. sigh #yapping #vent

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pherre · 4 months

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the ending of the christmas special being what it was and the theme of 5x02 ("home is not a place") makes me wonder why 5x06 ended that way at all. the signs were all pointing to either the coopers leaving or the ghosts moving on, i was geniunely surprised when that didn't happen. the story would've been cleaner if 5x06 was either about the coopers' decision to leave with the christmas special as an epilogue or if 5x06 was a regular episode and then the christmas special was left as is so like.... why did this happen

#why two finales???#i promise i will stop posting about the ending of bbc ghosts i promise i will.#ghosts spoilers #bbc ghosts #i just cant stop thinking about it like 5x06 seems like such an outlier if you consider the special in the grand scheme of things #maybe i need to rewatch the season. but i won't. probably.#i really shouldn't because i already dedicated more of my brain time to this than is probably normal #also i hope im not mixing up the episode numbers i cant be bothered to look them up rn

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kraviolis · 11 months

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im god's strongest soldier bcus i've been headcanoning luz as a trans girl since before we even knew she was canonically bi

#krav talks #i think i might HC the entire hexsquad as trans. just like entirely on accident #cus i was just thinking about who is cis in the hexsquad #and at first i thought maybe willow but i love t4t huntlow too much #and obviously gus is trans. 'witch puberty' is just slang for HRT potions we all know this #luz & amity are also t4t but the specifics of that vary for me depending on the day #sometimes luz is binary trans sometimes she's genderfluid sometimes she's transfem nonbinary sometimes she's transmasc nonbinary #same for amity #all i know is lumity will always be t4t #and we all know hunter is trans. indisputable solely because we all know FOR SURE that caleb was trans #and i cant HC matty as cis bcus i relate to him using marker to give himself the shitty tboy mustache too much #i mean fuck man i HAVE the same shitty tboy mustache rn.#and vee is. shes a girl in the same way nimona is a girl #actually vee might be the token cis in the hexsquad.#but shes like. the kind of cis person who explored their gender so thoroughly that they just Get It #yknow the cis people who are honorary trans #a lot of cis ppl dont bother to explore and question their genders but the ones who do always end up Wiser and more Settled in themselves #and are some of the most empathetic allies to trans people and i appreciate them so much #vee is one of those cis ppl

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enden-k · 1 year

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im crying

#this is fgo but for some reason i imagine scara saying this in the sumeru archon quest and now i cant stop wheezing 😭#fgo tag #idk whats going on btw im just skipping through the event bc im drawing rn and cant be bothered #i just want the rewards AJDKSJX

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avephelis · 1 year

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commission of a friend's oc rhaegal (going through it)

#avepharts #umm hey everyone this is what ive been working on all week #had permission to post it so. figured i'd slap on a watermark and go.#before anyone asks still not taking comms online (dont have payment set up) but ive been thinking about doing them later in the year so #keep an eye out for those if youre interested #tw scopophobia #tw body horror #just a little bit #zoom in for better quality i cant be bothered cropping rn #oc

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