#can you tell i got adhd

[loverssuggestions]

I don't want to sound crazy but I need you to know that I require to be told nice things. To be reminded that I am enough. My scars may be healed but they are still scars at the end of the day, and so while it wasn't you who put them there I need reassurance you will not add more. I need to be told I am okay. That I'm enough. That I do matter. That perhaps you won't just leave one day with me confused and wondering what I did wrong.

#lover suggestion #lovers #crush suggestion #crushcore #ldr #long distance relationship #yearning #yearningcore #t4t #rsd #rejection sensitive dysphoria #can you tell i got adhd #my emotions be so unregulated i be needing reassurance #btw i am in therapy but. #its nice to hear nice things #poetry

[medicalunprofessional]

So

, What went wrong ?

#nightmaretheater #caligosto loboto #psychonauts #sorry for making the most upsetting painful fanart known to man. Its my job #Some of this is.Personal. #some personal feelinfs… ya get me? #you even ‘this is just a doodle :)’ then spend several days on it #yeah………….. I need my adhd meds #Ughhhhh..^Ughhh collapses #Thank youuu……wheoevr is reading.send me tour willpower i need it ive got actual work to do in a few hours #Bbbbwbhehehagghh… ignore some of the weird anatomy thz #also shoutouts to all those teeth studies i did only for them to be so distorted you can barely tell what it is

[marypsue]

If you're going to reblog my (admittedly very ADHD) post about, to borrow someone else's excellent summation, bees in the brain, to say 'OP check your medications', have you considered:

not doing that

#listen. you may think you're being helpful. #can you just. please. for five seconds. consider the words you say to other human beings. thank you. #anyway I block people who smugly diagnose me on that post because #it's not somehow fine and not rude as hell to tell someone they have a mental illness based on one paragraph they wrote #just because the mental illness is ~fun and ~relatable #you don't know me and you are DEFINITELY not medically trained keep your fucking opinions to yourself #(note: this does not go for 'this can be a symptom of ADHD'/'I experienced this and then I got diagnosed'/'OP have you looked into' #just the smug 'yeah it's the ADHD' #why don't you fuck off into the nearest pond with that) #(real alive people on the internet are not fictional characters for you to project onto and headcanon about) #(and we are not friends for me to take this as a fun jokey thing. you are a stranger. and you are being INEXPRESSIBLY rude.)

[ask-louis-bonnet]

oo i get to tell the bedtime stories this time.

i was asleep (honest, i was.) when i got woken up by loud banging and yelling coming from my closet. so i went to check it out.

@ask-alma-bonnet was there. she can vouch for me.

#Louis bonnets ghost stories #ofmd #ask louis bonnet #louis bonnet #izzy hands #alma bonnet #ooc: #can you tell where i gave up on this #im not kidding when i tell you i got up at 4 am to make this comic #i was in a creative haze #adhd moment #ooc to all of that i’m tired and idk how to edit tags pls forgive me

[mars-the-witch]

When you try to write a short Steve centric Steddie fic about your OCD and accidentally trigger yourself working out one of the details and basically have a panic/anxiety attack but midway through not being able to breathe right, you write down the details abt said panic/anxiety attack in your notes app bcs you can never fucking remember them after the fact and you wanna get that good content as fresh as possible so your fic can be authentic af:

#steve harrington #Steve Harrington has ocd #eddie munson #steddie #stranger things #can you tell im mentally ill #we got the ocd! adhd! anxiety! and autism! up in this bitch #it’s me #i’m the bitch #Steve Harrington is also the bitch #can you tell I love to project <3

[brittlebutch]

forgive any incomprehensibility but the notion that the world can be cleanly split between the two immutable categories of 'the neurotypical' and 'the neurodiverse' ignores the reality that any person can at any point for any reason be arbitrarily 'diagnosed' by a 'professional' and shuttled between categories with no regard for the notions of 'accurate traits' or 'specific symptoms'. nice dichotomy what lies outside of it? you understand me?

#N posts stuff #i'm reading some old issues of 'Phoenix Rising' and a line in one of the articles really caught me #''we are questioning the very foundation of psychiatry which uses mental illness; which is often just behavior that is judged strange #by some usually conventional middle-class-standard of morality'' #also thinking about that post i reblogged yesterday claiming that 'posture sway' is a Symptom of adhd like. #Embracing the pathologizing of average behaviors VS the like. weaponizing of diagnoses against 'undesirables' #idk am i making sense? lol #like people talk about this re: disability - the notion that anyone can become disabled at any time but that's usually in the context #of like. 'anyone is one bad accident away from being disabled' but Neurodiversity in particular does not even require that much #another Phoenix Rising tells the story of a woman who like. got a little sick at work and diagnosed as 'stress' and prescribed a #heavy tranquilizer that caused side effects no one had told her about; she got confused at her appointment and her subsequent #panic got her involuntarily committed as psychotic where they upped the medications and gave her ECT until the combo #caused so much brain damage that she seized and died. bc she threw up at work one day. the categories are not immutable and #the people who define them have agendas. who benefits from buying into this dichotomy? you understand what i'm saying? #anti psychiatry

[fennopunk]

I think I might have done something extremely ADHD...

I tried nålebinding once something like ten years ago, and gave up after about an hour. Since then, it's been on my kilometer long craft to-do list to try learning it and obviously haven't tried it since. I never gave hope though, I even kept my nålebinding Pinterest board and the needle I made!

So, this morning obviously I woke up full of confidence that today's the day when I will nålebind again (because I'm avoiding another task on my more pressing craft list). And apparently I have retained more info from my short stint 10 years ago and/or have acquired information by osmosis because I have managed to do this with only couple pics on Pinterest as my guide:

Yes, it not great, but considering I haven't really done this before beyond a quick try, it's weirdly good.

My actual theory is that the stitch I'm using doesn't differ from sewing blanket stitch all that much and I've done A LOT of hand sewing in the past decade... Plus, I've also gotten pretty good at knitting and crocheting too and so far the increase has worked very similarly to crochet.

#diaryposting #adhd #handcrafts #nålebinding #I seriously strugle with joining a new yarn tho #as you can probably tell from that lumpy part #gotta figure it out tho because I have several balls of gorgeous handspun 100% wool yarn #and the number reason I haven't used it because when I saw it I got it in my head that I can only nålebind it #haven't figured out why tho #but I will get this distinctly neurodivergent anguish whenever I even consider any other technique #and I NEED to be at least consistently decent at nålebinding before I can touch it #and that includes being able to make good looking join #my crafts

[neurospicyyy]

Yes, I threw fits when I was a kid.

No, I wasn’t in control.

No, you shouldn’t judge me for it.

Yes, I am aware you think I had the choice.

But surely you understand I didn’t really have one?

Surly you understand I was struggling?

That I’m still struggling?

That I always will be?

#neurodivergent #adhd #actually adhd #ocd #childhood memories #sorta vent in tags vv #I’m still dealing with the social consequences of that time period. People’s attitude towards me after those years #really damaged my mental health. Sometimes I think I’m not enough. #That my problems aren’t enough to say I was struggling. Then I look back… and yeah I can tell I was struggling #Idk wtf was going on because my adhd and ocd probably didn’t cause that. But I don’t show enough signs of autism to even #consider being diagnosed. Sometimes I wonder if I actually was in control. There was no trauma. No serious issues. Nothing. #Because I was running around like a maniac whenever I got upset. It stopped only after 3rd grade. With the help of a good teacher. #my so called “meltdowns” are probably internal now. I kinda s3lf h@rm and stuff when I don’t get my way now. When I’m seething in self #loathing because of something I did. You know. Normal behavior. #My life is a freaking mess. And it’s nobody’s fault. Except maybe my own? I don’t know. I always forget about that time period. Probably ca #se the teachers gave me a lot of bad memories during it. It wasn’t because of the teachers… but they certainly weren’t helping. #neurospicy #neurosparkly #actually ocd #neurodivergence #neurodiversity #I tell myself i didn’t have the choice though. I was young… #sorry for the vent

[arsonist-chicken]

What if I just developed social skills to be able to actually make new friends in person and then used those skills to get a new phone number and pack my bags and run away to a place where no one knows me and all my past mistakes and fuckups and started over there without going into social isolation

#i needed to hand my expose in in february and got an email about it this weekend and agreed to hand it in on tuesday #it is now sunday evening and i just got another email about it but thinking about opening it makes me want to throw up #she's so nice and i don't want to see her scolding me for AGAIN not sticking to a deadline #what if she tells me that was the final deadline and i won't receive a grade for that class and so i won't be allowed to write my thesis #until next january? I wanted to graduate this autumn. it's april and i haven't even started on my thesis and i have like three bullet point #for the expose; and idek if I'll be able skillwise and mental health wise/adhd wise to actually write the stupid thesis #like what if i can't do it and then i've spent the last one and a half years on a degree i won't get in the end and then i won't be able to #apply to a lot of the jobs i thought actually looked good #@god give me some social butterfly skills and I'll give or throw most of my stuff i don't absolutely need away so i can just.. #go somewhere new. start over. and not become even more socially isolated than i already am. #does anyone know what a panic attack feels like because i'm having suspicions that i might have finally gotten them this year #but didn't recognise them as such because it could be worse #so anyway. god grant me some social friend making skills #if you can't do that at least throw in some adhd and depression treatment. i am sick of this. #and by this i mean the way i've been living my life at least since i left high school; probably even while still in high school #vent posts #mine #i love my online friends so much but i can't meet them outside to sit in the sun or chat about anything at all or go have coffee together #or or or you get me

[ordinarytalk]

Could Symptoms Syndrome maybe chill the f out for a few days?

So ever since one of the instructors at the gym where I take aerial acrobatics classes clued me in to the fact that I'm probably hypermobile, I've been on yet another wild domino-effect ride that I like to call "What do you MEAN that's another symptom of hypermobility?!"

That hurty thing my fingers keep doing is probably subluxation and I might need to get joint braces

Opioids not working on me is part of it

The IBS is part of it

Poor proprioception/being clumsy is part of it

My shoulder is Not Supposed To Be Doing That

Me sometimes needing to punch doors open (because opening them the regular way hurts my wrist) is part of it

My fingertips pointing upwards when I extend my fingers isn't normal and it's called the Flying Bird Sign

The migraines are part of it

The random bouts of dizziness and sometimes blacking out when I stand up is part of it

Bruising all the damn time literally everywhere is part of it

The super heavy giant periods I used to get were part of it

It's comorbid with autism, auditory processing disorders, sensory processing disorders, apraxia, mood disorders including anxiety and depression, asthma, tinnitus, hair loss in all genders, chronically low vitamin D, teeth crowding, bruxism, fucking uticaria, chronic fatigue, and ADHD, aka every single medical problem I have ever had in my entire life except for maybe seasonal allergies.

Oh, and I probably have hEDS, too.

#the last time I had a Symptoms Syndrome domino-effect realization like this was when I got the ADHD diagnosis #I don't even know what to do with this information. Like do I try to get a diagnosis? There isn't any real treatment. #Also one of my sisters almost definitely also has it. Should probably tell her that. #personal stuff #hypermobility #ehlers danlos syndrome #hEDS #also hey for anyone reading this you can have hypermobility without being very flexible as an adult #just putting that out there

[iceeericeee]

I wonder how many tags i can add on to this

#there must be SOME kind of a limit otherwise posts would get suuuuuuper duper long like is it just 30? #idk but i'm going to find out by simply maxxing out the character limit for each tag and finding out the limit of tags for each post lololo #this is gonna be great. i just have to remember to type without ever using the comma. it shouldn't be too hard right? fuck i almost typed #the comma i'm already bad at this smh my head. also if your still here i commend you. you have a better attention span than i do. #i'm already starting to get bored holy shit this is not happening. i gotta power through this. FOR SCIENCEEEEEEEEEE. or somethinggggggggggg #but fr idk what else to say. maybe just saying that i don't know what to say will be good enough? but does that even count? #I don't even know anymore. ffffffffuck. this is gonna be a while huh? also holy shit if you're still here omg u deserve like. a prize or #something because u definitely didn't have to stay and read all of this bull shit. lololol i typed out bs but decided to just spell the who #thing out just to make it go by faster. i'm so lazy. this is only the nineth tag HOW will i make it to 30. i am sobbing the adhd is adhding #very hard rn. are you still here? bruh this is insane. i have somehow managed to keep ur attention this long and it's just me spouting #absolute balderdash. wait do you know what balderdash even means? i don't care if you do already i'm gonna tell you anyway. balderdash is #basically just another word for nonsense. boom. you learned something new today. balderdash equals nonsense equals this damn post. #why did i decide to do this in the first place. it was a dumb idea. i don't know if i can even keep going. this is only the *counts tags* #it's the 14th tag. we've got a long way to go boys. men. soldiers. comrads. friends. besties peeps. marshmallows. #where was i going with this? oh yeah. trying to max out the limit for tags. dang i almost typed a comma there. i haven't done that since #i think the third or fourth tag. dang that feels like such a long time ago. not for you guys probably. it feels longer because i have to li #type it all out and stuff. so it's definitely gonna feel longer for me. are you still here? good lord don't you have better things to #be doing than reading all of this? we're already on tag number 18. it feels like i should be on the thirtyeth by now. or however it's spell #'toast' you might be wondering 'why are you typing out the names of the numbers instead of say '9' or '5'?' well you see. young one. #this is a strategy i'm using to make each tag slightly longer. even if i don't know how to spell it. it'll make it just a little bit longer #anyway. i got off topic. not that there was ever a topic to begin with. unless it's about making this as long as i can. #which i am apparently good at doing. i guess. are you STILL here? do you seriously have nothing to do? i guess i'm flattered you stayed thi #whole time. instead of reading something else you stayed here. with me. listening to me talk. on the twenty-third tag. oh yeah its tag 23 #except now it's tag twenty-four. how crazy is that. this little talk is almost over. only 6 tags away if memory serves right. this's strang #i kind of don't want this to end. but i know it should. after all there is a limit. but all things must come to and end at some point i gue #i'm running out of things to say. it's probably a good thing it's almost over. hahahahah............... but i don't want to go. i don't wan #to leave this post. i've worked so hard on it. and for what. just for it to end. are you still here? yes? good. i'd hate to end this alone. #thank you for indulging me and my craziness. the end is only 2 tags away now. you can go ahead and leave. i'll be okay on my own. really... #...you're still here? i- i don't know what to say. i suppose a toast is in order. perhaps. for this journey. this stupid dumb post i though #would be fun. i'll make it short. it's the last tag after all. this was fun. but i will never do it again. so long as a i live. i'll miss y

[kitkat-of-doom]

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#lmao this is the worst #i just got denied my appointment for a formal autism diagnosis #after finally managing to send all the correct documents #their reason???? “oh your case isn't complex enough for us you should go see somewhere else” #like bitch i already have another fucking diagnosis that isn't even receivable #because no one fucking told me that you're actually supposed to go see a psychiatrist instead of a fucking therapist #and now you're telling me that i have to pay 400€ more to a psychiatrist just so they can tell me the same thing as last time #“oh we cant conclude anything cos adhd and autism are so close you're gonna have to go to the actual hospital to figure that one out” #just so i can come back in 2 years #like come on your creteria for taking people in was that they had to have had a diagnosis already #i fucking have one !!!! #im so tired of this #like i feel im never actually gonna see the end #why can't it just be easy for once #crying in class because of that shit was not on my bingo list for today

[front-facing-pokemon]

#okay i did not have to edit this one. score #shiftry #anyway i really don't like this pokémon or anything about it. SORRY but it's true it's really ugly and its mouth and the nose #and it has the same things i don't like about it that i talked about with nuzleaf. i just don't get it but this time it wasn't in psmd #so i'm not attached to it just by virtue of that. and well. that contributes to me not really liking it i suppose #ahh well. better luck next time TPC you can make a good grass/dark-type eventually (it's meowscarada) (it took 6 generations) #hi it's me from two weeks later like the actual day this post is going to post. i came back to edit the tags so i could respond to some #comments. crazy‚ i know! but i saw the tags on this one were a bit short so let's beef 'em up. the nuzleaf post got some comments #about the whole prosthetic memory thing. where i set reminders on my phone to do shit or else i will not do the shit #i literally have a reminder set for 2:30 PM today to eat food. or else i won't even do that i bet #and folks are saying it's a common ADHD experience and that i'm not a fail and i do appreciate it. i think i was joking a bit #i was probably just frustrated i had to edit the image after taking it but the gist is. i don't *think* i have ADHD? i do have autism #which i suspected for a loooooong while until i finally up and got diagnosed when i was fucking 21 years old. which is insane. so i wonder #if that's an experience that overlaps. i imagine it is bc they proooobably would've been able to tell me if i had ADHD‚ too #okay. i moved these tags over here from nosepass‚ actually‚ which is the pokémon i just queued up. so i'm gonna go remove them from there #see you in street fighter five everybody

[lochlander]

So, uh....[taps mic] is this thing on? How's everybody doing? Anybody wanna see pictures of some sims?

#do not get me wrong I have been lurking #but I am out. of. the. loop #I also have. a lot of different save files #maxis match and homestead and medieval and realistic premades and regency and apocalypse and #can you tell i got formally diagnosed with adhd during my hiatus

[neeksnicoboytoy]

PPARTY ROCKERS IN THE HOUSE TONIGHT. bokuto shows up in the worst outfit you've ever seen but hes confident so really it doesnt matter (or does it) he claims he is bringing "The Drip" to the party. no one agrees with him except nishinoya which really is a bad sign when you think about him as a person. konoha threatens to burn his closet down when he's least expecting it and that man is SERIOUS. bokuto actually briefly feels a full body chill . EVERYTHING about he's wearing is neon and mismatched nishinoya fucks with it soooo hard hes actually kind of jealous!! i think bokuto would wear a snapback i'm sorry he cant dance either. but just like with his outfit he is so outrageously confident that it does not matter all that much (to him). at least SOMEONE'S representing the bad dancers on the floor am i right? ha ha. actually no take that man away this is hard to look at. tries to do the worm and fails miserably so he's probaly bruised all over the day after!! claims the bruises are battle scars even though they are bruises and not scars!! cmon now. he attempts the worm every party everyone is fed up with him. i feel like hinata WOULD be able to do the worm which really should not be the thing that gets you impressed about someone but bokuto LOVES it and he tries to get hinata to dance with him every chance he gets. he reaaally wants the aux but all his friends are not impressed with Pitbull and bokuto IS a crowd pleaser after all so he refrains.

akaashi trailing behind the crowd wearing something so normal you wouldnt look twice at it but it looks insane when you look at the scene -> neon lights confetti loud ass music etc etc. this man is in BUISNESS casual like he's about to attend a moderately dress code wise relaxed 9-5 office job. when you ask him about his choice of dress he just blinks and wanders off to talk about something pretentious like the musical arrangement in radiohead songs with daishou (who has managed to incorperate his "edge cutting" read edgy style in everything he's wearing so he's basically gone eboy. it looks horrific but kuroo thinks it's cool either way. not that he would admit that though) he's not entirely sure why he became friends with daishou seeing that he doesn't like daishou all that much but he supposes it is nice to talk shit with someone. bokuto thinks they match (they don't) and is very excited about this. akaashi is the weirdest fucker at the entire party besides maybe kageyama. he dances shockingly badly for someone that pretty but everyone loves him and knows he's kind of shy so they support him either way.

hinata has looked up cool teenage party outfit multiple times before going so he would look just right but in the end he figured he would just go for what's comfortable and ends up wearing sport shorts and a sweatshirt kageyama gave him. the important distinction between his athletic wear and bokuto's mess is that bokuto picked something athletic on purpose and hinata just doesn't have any other type of clothes someone help him please yachi is in constant disbelief and horror. he was so nervous that he almost puked before showing up but once he arrives at the party he realizes they are in Japan and thus no omnious solo red cup will be showing up like he assumed(guys there is no alchol involved dont WORRY they are MINORS) (besides tanaka i think. that guy is insane). after that he is in his ELEMENT and goes bonkers. he talks to everyone in the house and everyone not in the house and everyone likes him! fucks up the dancefloor. good for him. starts playing volleyball in the backyard with kageyama once he's had his fair share of the dance floor and promptly passes out in the midst of a set. kageyama would be very concerned but has at this point gained so much acceptance for the miracle that hinata is that he assumes hinata is Just like That so he sort of chills besides the stiff and unmoving body of his best friend for a while

other special mentions on this topic:

-oikawa is a really good dancer but everyone tells him he's bad to piss him off. he gets so mad at this that he trips

-iwaizumi shows up in a muscle tee and the party goes quiet for a bit. sexualities are reconsidered and self-discoveries are made. it's a really ugly and ratty shirt with godzilla on it but since the focus is not really on the shirt no one minds besides kentarou who is sort of torn between feeling betrayed and proud

-kageyama bonds with kenma. kenma is not willingly participating in this but kageyama doesn't really care. he's too busy getting his ass kicked n mario kart (plays as mario)

-tsukishima doesn't like parties but yamaguchi LOVES them and dresses up all cute for them. tsukki gets dragged along every time

-tendou absolutely fucking HATES!!!! popular music. he says it's too boring and also too mainstream to appeal to him so he starts bringing along his own speaker to parties . it always clashes horribly with the already playing, louder music and everyone BEGS him to turn it off but tendou is nothing if not persistent so he just turns the volume up. what a man. i respect the hustle

-ushiwaka, sakusa and kageyama passionately talk about volleyball together. akaashi joins in for a bit but then is lovingly (read: aggresively) pulled to the dancefloor by bokuto and the group gives up any kind of rescue mission once they've caught a glimpse of bokuto's biceps. sorry buddy you'll have to handle this by yourself i guess

-yaku starts doing pushups across the room to flirt with nishinoya. it works a bit too well because nishinoya sees it as a challenge and they end up doing pushups for a while. nishinoya loses btw

-i do think that they ^ kiss later

-suga and oikawa both dress cunty and real recognizes real so they exchange numbers. i do think oikawa would piss suga off to no end but for a while he (suga) manages to ignore that. once the party is over they never talk anyone

-tanaka gets a new haircut impulsively. he and nishinoya march out of the bathroom and all of sudden he's blonde. no one really knows what to do with it but tsukishima despises that they're both blond now. the other blondes are seriously impressed and accept him into their group

#haikyuu #i just suddenly had some thoughts about them #excuse the awful writing manners here like zero attention to spelling and like two periods in the correct place #but i was working with a stream of CONCIOUSNESS baby #you can't really interupt that cmon now #can you tell i have adhd. idk someone told me once that my writing shows that and i never really got that ⁉️ #they're all fucking idiots #nico talks #inspired by @maybe-a-dinosaur's writing style that i love so very dearly

[aro-aizawa]

genuinely wish that people truly understood the severity of memory issues, especially when the person is neurodivergent because oh boy is it so scary and annoying and frustrating. i want to grab everyone i meet by the shoulders and specifically emphasize just how bad my memory is effected by two different issues (depression & adhd)

like i'll have had a passing thought about something, and like ten minutes later i'm like "did i do that or did i just want to do that?" like i have a ton of unconscious actions that i have to hold back a lot for example.

a very specific example is that when i read fanfiction if a character is expressing an intense emotion i'll usually replicate it myself. like if a character feel visceral disgust my body kind of replicates it as much as it can so my body will tense and shudder and i'll screw up my face. obviously this makes reading in public a risky move. because with my adhd if i want to process a story i have to focus on it 100%, and so i'll lose track of my surroundings and/or things i need to keep in mind so it's a struggle to remember i need to not do that in public.

but that's not even the peak of my issues w my memory issues because i'll have an added layer of whether i emulated what a character did if they yelled or made a loud noise because i suddenly have a weird feeling in my throat as if i did. but i have no memory of actually doing it, or whether i thought about doing it. who knows maybe my body is just doing the emulating thing and making it feel like i'd feel after yelling?? who knows!! definitely not me!!!!

and its so scary to have those moments of "i can't remember if i did that". it's like walking up a high staircase and missing a step, hitting the stairs if you didn't catch yourself in time. it's all the unconscious things that you do without thinking and having a complete blank on whether you did it or not.

it's having conversations with people when your brain is too tired and at the end of it you either have forgotten everything you talked about with them, or you have a memory that's so questionable you wonder if you made it up or not. thus having to repeat the whole conversation again. and because this isn't just a rare occasion that it happens either, you will irritate people with it. no matter how many times it happens, and no matter how much the other person tries to understand it will be irritating a lot of the time.

i feel like i have to wear a body cam 24/7 so that i can have a record of my life that doesn't rely on my memory that has enough holes in it you can use it to drain pasta. i want to have full recollection of my actions without having to backtrack like an hour to make sure that i actually did something or if i imagined myself doing it. i want everyone to understand that while my memory issues are inconvenient or annoying to you, they are terrifying and infuriating to me.

no i don't use "i forgot" as an excuse. i try to do everything i can to not use that phrase except for when i actually forget something but no one fucking notices because my memory is so shit that i say it so much. and people brush it off because that's the generic "i don't want to explain why i didn't do x so i'll just give a halfhearted excuse".

and the thing that bothers me the most is that it's never going to go away. sure maybe i'll find ways to deal with it as i get older and i work with trained professionals, but i'll never be able to manage it perfectly so it's not even there. i'll always have to deal with this terrifying aspect and i'll always have to deal with people brushing off my terror as me "being lazy and making excuses".

#shut up danni's talking #adhd things #okay to reblog #i know its highly specific but it would be nice to see people acknowledge this more #kind of a rant but oh my god does it scare me sometimes #you can tell :) that as a kid :) i got shit on :) constantly :) about my shit memory :) #i have trauma around being called lazy when i just have a huge fkn host of issues that means i can't be as efficient as neurotypical ppl