#can’t wait until it gets here!

[writerfae]

I’m one of those people that lived and breathed the Percy Jackson books when I was younger and therefore regularly forgets that not everyone has read it as a kid

#someone around my age will tell me no they didn’t read the pjo books and I almlst get offended #until I realize that my experience is not universal and not everyone my age has made these books their entire personality as a kid #dare I say Percy Jackson formed my character in a way no other media ever has #it literally sparked my interest for mythology and for writing among other things #I wouldn’t even be here and have this blog if I wouldn’t have started writing pjo fanfics cause I loved the books so much #can’t wait to watch the show tbh but I try to be patient and wait for all episodes #writer speaks #percy jackson #tagging this probably was a mistake :|

[darthenderson]

Me at The Umbrella Academy’s latest instagram post:

#I’ve missed you all. so much #looked for that gif and couldn’t find it so I said it here #saw the post and started sobbing ngl #so excited for 2024 now #I can’t wait until we get the actual date :) #HAPPY BIRTHDAY HARGREEVES AND LILA #ben hargreeves #allison hargreeves #klaus hargreeves #tua #the umbrella academy #netflix #umbrella academy #season 4 #the umbrella academy season 4

[foreverfearlessred]

Charles’ non-racing passion project being ice cream is just so quintessentially Charles™️ like of COURSE Charles Leclerc is out here selling ice cream with flavour names like vanillove and pistachi-oh

#like girlie’s out here carrying a tiny puppy around like a purse #signing whatever you put in front of him no questions #locking himself in a dark room in Maranello and not getting off the sim until he’s fixed the tyre issues #and he’s started an ice cream business cause he loves vanilla ice cream #he does the most random side quests out of all the drivers #and I love him for it #can’t wait to see the next random side quest #f1 #formula 1 #charles leclerc #cl16 #ferrari

[butchfeelings]

I desperately want to hear a butch groan with their cock in my mouth. Gently pumping in and out with their hands in my hair. Letting me worship them as they deserve. I want to taste them, on my knees, with my hands roaming their thighs. feeling their muscles and moaning with a mouthful of cock because I’m so obsessed with their body. They feel so good, they taste so good, they look soo good. I want to sink into sub space adoring their body.

I want to feel them getting rougher. Feel their hands tighten in my hair. A firm grip at the back of my head putting me right where they want me. Hear them chuckle when I make cute little noises trying to adjust to the sudden change. I want to feel myself sink deeper into sub space as they use my throat just how they want. I want to taste them cumming in my mouth look up and see their face twisted in pleasure and know I was useful for them 😳

#p #uuhhhhfhdhdhxhehdhjejdhdhdhwgsgdgdhdnjrhfhdhd #hhhh 🥺🥺🥺🥺 #when will my butches strap get here is the fucking question #when will he feel better is also the other question 🧡🧡🧡🧡 love him so much I can’t wait until he’s feeling better physically #he says that mentally he’s there but his body literally won’t let him which totally makes sense with what’s going on #anyway I’m poly tho so butches need to interact with me before I die sjdhdhhdhd

[daphne-miles]

happy funny story release day to those who celebrate 💜

#i have been waiting for this day FOR SO LONG AND ITS FINALLY HERE!!! #i can’t wait to get back from work and start reading it <3 #i have no clue how i’m gonna fare at work because i’m pretty sure i’m going to be thinking about the book all day long #and the thing is i’m going to try really really hard to only start reading when i have time to sit down and properly enjoy it #and i can’t WAIT until i get my signed copy 🥹 #funny story #emily henry #m*

[fluffypotatey]

back in my car again :) don’t you think it’s funny??? don’t you think it’s interesting???? don’t you think it’s fascinating how the song after Luck Runs Out is talking about how you “never really know who you can trust” and also “sometimes killing is a must”????

don’t you think that’s interesting????? i think that’s an interesting decision for Jorge to make

#epic the ocean saga #epic the musical #this is what i get for playing all 3 sagas whenever i commute #but seriously tho!!!! #Jorge your foreshadowing game is 👌👌👌👌👌👌 #i aspire to be this much of a menace with my foreshadowing #all the callbacks to Just a Man btw it so *chef’s kiss* #it’s like the musical ALSO cannot wait until Ody snaps #AND! ANNNND!!!! #Eurylochus previously questioning Ofy but out of distrust but bc he can’t see two steps ahead like Ody can and needs the reassurance that #his captain and most trusted friend knows what he’s getting them all into #BUT THEN TURNS OUT HE DOESN’T AND MESSED UO SO BAD AND WE WATCH AS EURYLOCHUS GRADUALLY LOSES HIS FAITH #ough #love it here

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

skipping class for the first time in my life bc my professor has covid and he sent out an email saying we’re having class and he’s asymptomatic and will wear a mask per cdc guidelines even tho he’s past the 5 day required isolation period. like. great whatevs but have you actually tested negative

update: the answer was no he had not

#stressed as FUCK #it’s fine we have a textbook and he doesn’t take roll #hoping he doesn’t do an extra credit activity but if i miss it for the sake of my health so be it #i have to go home afterwards anyway bc i have an appointment the next day with my thyroid dr #stressed abt that too bc my mum has dropped all precautions as if she isn’t in her 60s and didn’t lose her husband to covid #and idk what my sibling is doing but i know they’ve stopped masking at their practices and i wouldn’t be surprised if they stopped masking #all together. they also only wear cloth masks but at least it was something #idk i just feel like im the only one not ignoring it. like. when my dad got sick i asked him early on if he could smell and he was like #‘I’m just congested’ and my mum was like ‘no he’s just sick it’s not covid’ and then we waited until it was too late #like. i tell my mum that there’s nothing we could have done bc i don’t want her to feel guilty but like #idk. part of me thinks that if people had just listened to me and gotten him tested earlier and not lived in denial that maybe he’d still be #here. and my mum is pretty healthy but again she’s in her 60s. i don’t want to lose another parent to covid. or if she gets it and has it #bad or ends up with long covid then im gonna have to come home to take care of her or. idek. like i don’t live at home anymore so i can’t #pick up the slack if something happens to her. and my sibling definitely can’t #it’s so stressful. did we not watch the same process of my dad rapidly deteriorating. by the time we took him to the hospital he looked like #a corpse. he was completely grey and his eyes were glazed and he couldn’t even sit up or wave goodbye. has she just forgotten that happened #am i the only one who remembers watching my dad deteriorate in front of us #vent tw #covid tw

[milo-is-rambling]

I can’t even imagine living without anxiety. Like. How. What?

#I mean if I woke up tomorrow with a normal amount of anxiety it would be a shocking difference to my daily life. and I am medicated!!! like. #what? am I missing something here? #my mom tells me that meds can only do so much and that they’re really just meant to make it so you can get out of bed every day #but now I’m wondering like is that true or is that my mom is on the wrong dose herself and something could be done to help us both #gahhhhh idk I just feel helpless bc I’m scared of making big changes and the big changes have to make are scary and large and I need a #bulleted list made of things I can do (and break down into very small steps) to actually progress in a positive way in my life instead of #being SO afraid and SO stagnant. it’s been six months since (ptsd diagnosis causing thing) and I don’t feel like I’ve made any progress even #with a therapist. I’m working towards a more intensive program but I feel like it’s almost making me feel more alienated bc I’d have to like #go be surrounded by other mentally ill people and medical people which brings dad dying trauma and like I know I’m running from it bc I’m #afraid to face the changes I need to make and the feelings that are going to come up but fuck man can’t I get some fucking meds that make #this easier to deal with!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grief and ptsd and long term isolation and anxiety and chronic pain like fuck it’s #so exhausting!!!! I feel like I’m fucking fighting thru life and then from the outside it’s like I’m doing nothing cause I stay in my room #and get stoned and play animal crossing and watch tv and cry and over eat and sometimes I drive around in circles so I can scream sing until #my throat burns and I get a headache and everything finally quiets down in my head for a second. I know I look like I’m doing nothing and #that’s because I am doing nothing but waiting for the next time a mental health professional will talk to me for an hour like it’s so sad #anyways. you ever take a big dab and then start crying and type all of this like it’s an epiphany even tho it’s things you already know. #honestly crying in front of the air conditioner is so slay slight breeze over my face cooling the tears the white noise calming me down

[floral-hex]

So this chick has been on-and-off again stalking me since high school. I could go into paragraphs of detail (I was about to), but no one wants to read all of that. Suffice to say, I guess she’s had some kind of crush on me for about 15-20 years or so (why??), and every few years it seems she pops up somewhere contacting me to try to persuade me to give her a chance. I should mention we never talked in high school, I actively avoided her, told her I didn’t like her, etc. nothing doing.

Anyway, somehow she’s been on one of my social media pages and saw I was having a hard time lately, so she found my phone number (what?? I hate that you can just find that online) and texted me out of the blue yesterday. Usual protocol is ignore and block so I don’t piss off an unstable person, but they decided to be gross, so

I wasn’t planning on posting anything about this before. If they were creeping around on my pages, mentioning it would only feed into them. Maybe. I don’t know. But this just kind of made me really uncomfortable and their response was shitty. I could have been a lot meaner. I wanted to be. But whatever, that wouldn’t have helped. So I just blocked them and hope that this time it sticks. If they see this, then hey… not cool.

#and then I post this for what? attention? #I dunno… this just made me feel really shitty #like… you can’t just leave me alone? #you know I’m having a rough go at it and you think this is the perfect time to insert yourself into my life? #I don’t care about your puss! #I really really have to reiterate I have never ever had a real conversation with this person #we’ve never talked or hung out and I always avoided them #god this is such high school bullshit. I’m in my fucking 30s. I don’t need this teenage drama. #and I want to imagine all this as just someone who never grew up buuut… #they found my phone number. they went looking for my personal information. they’ve been stalking at least one of my social media pages. #probably twitter but who knows maybe here too #this is like… 15-20 years of this. why? why are you still obsessed with this? #and maybe these texts don’t seem so bad but I’ve had to block them on Facebook too #and that was after my ex and I broke up a few years back #it’s like she waits until my life gets extra shitty and then tries to convince me that we’re old friends & she wants to date finally #fuckin… just… not really cool ya know. damn. #stalker lady… I am not worth all this pining. just move on. #lol but I have been saying “my puss is so wet right now’ to myself all day so that’s a positive #anyway… sorry to post this bullshit. just wanted to vent. #sorry if you read all of this #text

[piizunn]

a terf just liked my artwork….y’all are losers

#riel text #what are you doing here #i’m a proud butch transsexual boygirl 2spirit #can’t wait until i get harassed again…

[lavender-femme]

someday i won’t have to cry myself to sleep. someday i’ll feel warm and loved and wanted and i’ll be wrapped up safely in my beloved’s arms and there won’t be anything worth worrying over. someday i’ll be loved. someday i’ll be seen.

#just not today I guess #god I’m tired and I’m sad and annoyed and idk I just wish holidays didn’t give me this awful melancholy mood #i miss magic… any level of it #but most of all I miss connection and having people to spend the day with #I’m working (in 5.5 hours 🙄) because it’s giving me something to do #otherwise what is there? #i’m no longer welcome at the place I used to spend the holidays #thanks to a former best friend who fucking ruined that four years ago now #this year I thought I’d be building my own new traditions with [redacted] in New Jersey #but here I am #working because I can’t stand to not do SOMETHING #guess I’ll take myself to a movie or something #maybe just embrace it all and sleep until evening when I get to finally see my friends #(sibling of that former best friend… bc again. not welcome there so we have to wait) #idk y’all #I’m just feeling incredibly unloved today #unloved unwanted etc etc #and I fucking hate it #also if you’ve gotten this far please just send love #and know I appreciate you so much #I’m talking #broken petals

[tariah23]

Fucked up in the crib starving for days because my sister made me come over to her place to cat sit but didn’t leave any food in the apartment for me to eat-

#I’m trapped I can’t go home until she gets back here on Tuesday I’ve been starving since Thursday orz #I don’t have the funds to run around buying shit either I can’t wait to go home and make me a juicy burger #she got mad at me when I mentioned this to her and was like ‘you’re the one who spent $10 on Taco Bell-‘ like man that’s not the point #I shouldn’t have had to spend my last few funds to fill up my stomach anyway when I’m doing you this favor #how do you have someone come over to watch your apartment and pet and not leave anything for them to eat #rambling #she’s bogus as hell for this #on vacation in Vegas rn #it’s more like she can be really irresponsible 😭… she’s not selfish or anything but she can be stupid af #she could’ve bought a loaf of bread and some lunch meat and cheese and I would’ve been good #she mentioned that she was gonna make me some food but didn’t have time #there’s barely anything here to eat or make anyway #she left me a can of soup like what was I gonna do with that 😭 #I’d leave now in this - degree ass weather if I didn’t have her keys

[the-terrible-theys]

(trans!)zach and aviva were bunkmates at science camp. i know because i was there

#imagine them both at their first year of science camp! young and excited but also nervous and already feelin homesick on the first night #and they take comfort in each other and bond over their shared love of engineering #and become best buds practically overnight #and they keep getting each other as bunkmates every year and they pair up for everything and it’s all GREAT until it isn’t anymore #tfw some kid you met at summer camp becomes your lifelong sworn enemy. oops! #i have SO many thoughts about this concept #look. aviva being able to list out facts abt zach in mystery of the weird looking walrus can’t be just some plot-convenient intuition thing #those were things she learned over YEARS of friendship and staying up late at night trading whispered secrets #you can’t convince me otherwise #these two’s relationship has so much complexity to it actually. idc if canon barely touches on their history i’ll do it myself #hrnsgdhghh just imagine them sitting under a blanket together with flashlights after curfew because zach is afraid of the dark #aviva on her very first night of camp realizing that Uh Oh! she misses her family! and she doesn’t know anyone else here! and what if maybe #science camp isn’t gonna be as fun as she’d thought! only for the oncoming tears to stop in their tracks in order to comfort #this distraught bunkmate of hers. she adopts zach on the spot #them being penpals after camp ends PLEASE #wild kratts #zach varmitech #aviva corcovado #i also imagine that zach conveniently has his “wait i’m a dude” revelation at abt the same time their friendship ends #so they get new bunkmates for the first time that year #and also that their friendship ends at the beginning of their last/one of their last yrs of camp

[arthur-r]

(wrote this song before i left for college but it’s sure applicable to life right now!!!!)

lyrics: falling from grace, i’m a rusting lace artifact / tears down my face as i break my immortal pact / trust me, i want to be healthy / trust me, i want to be special and loving and sweet / trust me, i know that i’m broken / please, i just want one more chance to prove that i could be the— / best friends know how to reveal me / best friends know how hard i try to have something to say / best friends know that it’s not helping / can i just go far away to where there’s nowhere else to— / turn around, up and down, i’m melting!!!! / turn around, i have something to say!!!! / color bleeding, heartbeat leaving, need a place to lay my head / arms are folded, fine print bolded, everything is overloaded!!!!!!!! / color faded by the sun, i bite my tongue, i’m coming undone / color faded by the sun, i bite my tongue, i’m coming undone / color faded by the sun, i bite my tongue / trust me, i want to be healthy / trust me, i want to be special and loving and sweet / trust me, i know that i’m broken / trust me, i know that i’m broken….

#when i write a song and don’t know what it means and then i have a breakdown and suddenly know what it means #turns out i have been compartmentalizing since i was a VERY young child as if there are two parts of me completely separate #and one of them is this golden child perfect person always so ready to please #and the other one is a literal fucking monster. that’s how i’ve been thinking about myself since i was a little kid #and i sort of. i had a breakdown about that last week and then yesterday i was so upset about not being able to separate myself from illness #how i’ve always been treated and treated myself as if there’s a perfectly healthy person in there somewhere who is just plagued with demons #so i’m constantly reaching for this person that doesn’t exist and never has and never will #because i can’t accept myself as a whole being complete with good and bad parts of me #it’s also just autism/POTS venting shdhdhdf but i knew that much #it wasn’t until i thought about my childhood though that i realized i’ve always been autistic i’ve always had mobility issues (though less) #and that i have never let myself integrate those aspects of myself into my permanent identity. like i’m waiting for them to go away so i can #prove myself and show how good i can be at just being normal. so i don’t know. anyway here’s a song #P.S. i processed my emotions so good and i’m normal now. gonna get dinner with that guy today and have a normal person conversation #so don’t worry about me. i pretty much fell asleep after i posted and i’m doing a lot better now #anyway i’m not great at this instrument shdhdf and i’ve also been crying so like as a piece of music this isn’t great #but as an expression of a feeling and idea. these are the feelings and ideas i’ve been thinking about #of all the things to theoretically be overheard by a ton of neighbors though. living in a dorm is nerve-wracking!!!! #most people don’t hang around my dorm at this time of day though i’ll be alright. hope everyone is doing well #me. my post. mine. #ask to tag #music

[coconut530]

🎵All I need is you

Be a crime to continue

Without you in my arms🎶

Crime - Private Island

#6 #Trigun #Trigun Stampede #Vash the Stampede #Nicholas D. Wolfwood #like #so many people have been making such good Vashwoods these days you think imma NOT try my hand at one #Imma try and make a cooler one next time #Not that this isn’t cool but like it could be ✨better✨ #I’m also kinda getting sick of the blue lighting in these so we’ll change it up next time #But yeah can’t wait for ep. 3 on Sat #Was very confused for all of last Saturday until I found out the dub would be delayed a week due to weather at nearly midnight #And then I got sad #But it’s okay the Texas ice storm is an important thing #Ok yeah here y’all go byeeeeeeee #UPDATE ALSO I finished the ‘98 anime #It was so good I cry