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aesthetically-dying101 · 4 months

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TW vent abt some ableist shit i got hit with today (maybe?) i need advice

This is a genuine question to every disabled person on this app cause idk if i'm the one going insane, but basically i was sitting at lunch with some friends today, and this other girl i didn't know (jessica for the sake of online privacy) started talking to me.

Then she pointed out my hearing aids (signa, they're pretty discrete but are visible) and asked about them.

So i explained my disease and my nervous damage and whatnot... (i'm hard of hearing, as in 80% loss in my left ear, 70% in the other)

She then told me she related to me, and for a second i genuinely thought she was either deaf or hoh... BITCH I WAS SO WRONG

She told me that during this summer she went scuba diving and water got stuck behind her eardrum. (she has no issues now, she recovered 100%)

So she knew how i felt, she then went on a tangent about how hard it is to lose your hearing.

???

Is it wrong that this pisses me off??? Like you can't relate to me?? You barely understand what it's like to lose you hearing.

So uh yeah, this feels so weird to say to someone who's disabled, like idk, to me it feels like telling someone who's lost a leg that you relate to them bc you broke your leg.

Yeah anyways, am i being dramatic? Cause i feel like i'm justified but it could be coming from a nice place?

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lyn-ne · 3 months

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pjsk memes but it’s mainly akikoha

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quadrantadvisor · 1 year

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The Owl House takes place on a corpse. That's clear from the beginning. The people we meet, the fantastical things we see, every part of it is life that comes from death, and it's beautiful. Luz says that, the first time she's far enough away to see the bones. It's beautiful. The Titan was so full of life and magic that what he left behind could be passed on and made anew, and the people who sprung from that, who rely on it, understand that and are grateful. Everything they have is built on the bones of a god.

But what grows from the bones of children? Nothing. Nothing at all.

The Titan hunters killed children. They said they were monsters, but they were children. Children who played games and laughed and from their first conscious moments wanted to be loved and belong. And they hunted them to extinction, and kept their pristine skulls as trophies. An entire room full of them, of tiny skulls that could've become something wonderful and terrible and life-giving but never had the chance. They wear them, as a badge of honor. Look what I've done, look what I destroyed.

Philip Wittebane had been making grimwalkers for hundreds of years, sure, but even knowing that, there's so many of them. How many could've reached 20? There's piles of them, of bones and identical masks, scattered at the bottom of a pit, and god, were they dead, when he threw them down there? It's clear that he doesn't care, that the only thing that matters is disposing of them once they wear out their usefulness, moving on to the new model. Children tossed aside, left to rot and decay, and when we see them the bones are all clean.

#i just watched all 11 episodes of season 2B in one sitting and I'm #having some feelings #the owl house #toh #toh spoilers #just in case #this is why I don't watch shows lol like this shit gave me heart palpitations #how am i even going to survive season 3? the answer is i won't #anyways everytime philip fucking wittebane is on screen i am screaming and crying and throwing up #if i saw him in real life i would strangle him to death with my bare hands. it would be ON SIGHT #he's too real is the problem like the harm he's caused and the way that he talks and the way hunter reacts to him #he gives me the same sick feeling as real life self righteous liars #and you know that this is a person who will never change and never listen and never admit they were wrong #and that the harm they've done will never matter to them because to them they can deny anything and justify anything #ANYWAYS.#idk if anybody'll see this post but i needed to exorcise it from my brain #god........... that show sure has a lot of fucking bones #my rambles

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of-chaos-and-flame · 3 months

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So I’ve been thinking non stop abt the Somewhere Else is the Life Series AU and I’ve legit started planning out a fic

I decided to have them in Double Life as soulmates, but with the twist that they (along with all the other DL players) have no memories from outside of the game

Of course, Jon’s connection to the Eye means he does Know things that he shouldn’t, but it’s being restricted by the Watchers, who are very curious about the last minute additions to their game.

Both Jon and Martin Know they’re out of place somehow, that they have something Important that they need to do, someone Important they need to find, but are both too scared of potential consequences to bring it up to anyone, so they both settle for teaming up with different groups and hope the others don’t realize something is wrong.

(A certain avian already has, but he’s not about to tip his hand quite so soon…)

I know I want one of them to team up with Martyn for shits and giggles, tho I’m not sure which.

Plenty of confusion and angst potential if it’s Jon (only calling him Littlewood because referring to him as Martyn somehow feels wrong, making an offhand joke or reference and feeling weirdly upset when Littlewood doesn’t Get It, always having someone by his side yet always feeling strangely Lonely)

but also I love the idea of a Martin and Martyn power duo (LittleBlackwood (as Scar so kindly dubbed them) are strangely effective at setting traps and causing chaos, and people were quick to associate an incoming blanket of fog with the troublesome pair)

I’ll have to rewatch DL before I make any concrete decisions, but the Thought Machine is going

#I also need to work out how much I wanna incorporate the Entities into this #do the Watchers let them in to cause chaos or do they keep them from meddling in their precious game?#CAN they keep them out? or do the Entities sneak their way in?#also how do jmart react to the non human players?#I think they’d avoid Cleo like the fuckin plauge #they don’t remember Why but they know for a fact that something that LOOKS human but ISNT is Not To Be Trusted #tma #the magnus archives #tma somewhere else #somewhere else au #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #mcyt #the life series #double life #double life smp #trafficblr #Grian @ Jon: you feel like a Watcher but you’re Not. WTF ARE YOU???#Jon: IDK MAN IM JUST LOOKING FOR MY BOYFRIEND(?)!

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bugdogg · 7 months

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thhinking, thiking, thinkking wippp

i havee an idea but i am unsureeee if i am right aboutt things so like...

im sleepy so i may change my opinions later but immm pretty sure non of them could ever imagine themselves dating another person or beinggg in genuineeee love?? they havent experienced anything that lasted very long... so i assume they have a skewed idea of what love iss, yeah thats what im thinking rn, idk i am confusing myself again teehee

theyre thinkin bout love!

#do they understand love idk #does it matter NO #everyones perception of them is so fun #i like reading how people think theyd be in a genuine relationship #or howd they react to being likeddd #its all correct to me all of that is possible boehbah!#its funnn but ig im going w just what i think based on canon #my canon ig #they all have diff ideas of it of courseee #but i dont think any of them are confident in what they think #cause that’s how I feel as an inexperienced little creature #i project “thumb up”#doodles

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hotmess-exe · 5 months

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it's not my story to tell, so i won't be writing it, but i sincerely hope to see an interactive fiction someday where the protagonist is a felon. specifically, i'd like the protag to be someone who has served their full sentence and just gotten out.

there is so little respect and empathy for that perspective, so i just would love a well-written IF about it

#maybe there is one and i'm unaware?#if #just thoughts #writing #was just thinking about the stigma that ppl who kill during psychotic episodes face once they are approved for release #and ofc the skepticism and wariness of the general public makes sense esp of whichever community was actually affected by the crime #but like #what do we believe y'all #wtf do we believe #is psychotherapy real or should ppl be locked up forever for doing something while literally out of their sane mind #do we believe in reform or do we keep everyone locked up bc it's more comfortable to treat people like refuse #do we believe in live and let live or do we want ppl to never live on if we personally deem them undeserving of peace or life #is psychosis a real thing or are we all pretending to understand and empathize with mental illness #fr fr #i just really hate how ppl are so comfy reacting in certain ways to that specific sort of perpetrator idk lol #gut reactions are one thing and using our brains and what we objectively know about psychology in combo with that is another #and when it comes to criminals ppl are very happy to abandon the latter and fully embrace the former #but claim to still be good decent people like...............#do you truly believe crimes committed during a psychotic break should be weighed the same as ones not?#cause if you do like... fuck you???#and if you think they shouldn't.... then we *must* apply that logic to how we treat and perceive ppl cleared as not a danger #there's no perfect system anywhere but i hate how individuals are so quick and willing to disappear people we view as problems #the constant war on the unhoused is a good example too #mh #at capacity #the great sham #abolish prison anyway yknow

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buckieduckie2 · 1 year

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ngl yesterday when noah came out, it felt so unreal that i partially convinvced myself it wasnt real and that it was all a dream, and continue to have multiple random moments of realization that ... "omg noah is gay... hes GAY this is real? this isnt real holy shit this is real"... yk as per usual when i find out something shoking that makes me feel euphoric.

and uhhhhhh

i can already tell... if this is how im reacting to noah?? omg its gonna be SO much fucking worse when Byler comes out. I might genuinely convice myself it isnt real and then force myself to rewatch 💀

#byler #noah schnapp #like idk bruh #do other people react like this?#i mean not just to like noah n stuff #but like other stuff too?#cause this is always how i react when something absolutely FLABBERGHASTING happens and i just cant wrap my head around the fact that its #REAL #EsPECIALLY if its something ive been excitedly looking forward to or like something thats like #“I TOLD YALL THIS WOULD HAPPEN”#like byler #and then it happens and i just cant even begin to believe it #ahahahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

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todayisafridaynight · 1 month

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tw // suicide

on twitter some ppl were talking about THAT jo scene from iw again and someone commented fucking "you know he was thinking about using that gun on himself" and im not sane anymore !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! added something something his faith in ichi kept him hopeful enough in the moment but then when he went to jail oh. ohhh !!!!!!!!!!!

nooo cause if That Jo Scene is the flashback scene with hoshino's death that really had to be SUUUCH a low point if not top five lowest points for him i wanted to throw up watching that <- replays it in my brain constantly

#iw spoilers #snap chats #UGH I WANNA REPLAY IW SO BAD i still wanna see the scenes with english dubbing but i wanna finish lost judgment first #in any case no i love that scene. like you can see the will to live leave jo's body as he goes to sit down #god naw cause i was laughing (read: crying) over how jo really let that dog comment get to him. loved that really ....#i do enjoy the added context to sawashiro and his relationship with ichi even if its sort of one sided #like ichis never really harbored ill will towards him- hes not happy about how sawashiro treated him back then LOL #but it was still clear he respected him #with sawashiro- like once you know the whole locker mix up secret then it contextualizes their relationship (from jo's pov anyway)#but just sawashiro having actually MET akane and speaking with her and listening to her wish .. idk.#its a nice thought that- for as hard as he is on ichi- he is trying to look out for him for akane's sake #emphasis on For As Hard As He Is like my man you dont gotta take his finger off 💀💀 in any case ...#maybe thats just optimistic thinking but its a nice thought. This All In Relation to having faith in ichi to Not game end himself 💀#god but sawashiro in jail .. i really wouldve paid money just to know what was going through his head #how he reacted to aoki's death the moment he was told- like he already knew aoki never valued him but still... fathers love and all #ive rambled long enough vjlLKVEJVLKEJ BYE

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dabruzzy · 7 months

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When I first watched Onyx Equinox I thought Yun's behavior was a bit inconsistent. He spent most of the first half of the season trying to get K'in and Izel to stop fighting and trying to keep K'in in check, but by the end of the season he was picking fights with everyone except Izel, even K'in. Now just because he's the heart of the group doesn't mean he can't have his disagreements with other characters, or that he should just be the peacekeeper and nothing else, but you'd think the guy who never held a grudge against the boy who broke his leg and almost killed him would be more understanding of Zyanya's situation, or that he would be more willing to give Xanastaku the benefit of the doubt, but he isn't. And after rewatching the show many times I think his problem is that he has trust issues and that they probably stem from Maak.

Putting the rest under a read more cause it got kinda long.

Yun straight up called him out in episode 3 about all the things he's hiding from them. Also "Honoch Maak" means "Old Man" in Yucatec Maya, and if I remember correctly Sofia Alexander said that's not his real name in the podcast, so that's another thing he's hiding from the twins. And then they find out that he sold children into slavery, and you can see that Yun was more affected by that than K'in. So because of this he's probably wary of people who keep secrets.

This is especially obvious with Xanastaku. He's had mixed feelings about her since they met. Every time they make one step forward something happens that makes him doubt her again. Even in episode 10 he's still suspicious of her despite saving Izel's life because she didn't tell them she had that power. Even when she's helpful he still has a problem with her because she's not being fully honest with them.

Now Zyanya is a bit different because she did betray them and almost got them killed, and that's reason enough to dislike someone even when you don't have trust issues. But like I said Izel almost killed him and he never even got mad at him, he worried more about Izel's wellbeing than his own. So I do think that the fact that he was willing to trust her and she broke that trust and that she hid so many things from them played a part in why he had such a hard time forgiving her, and even after he did he still didn't really acknowledge her or interact with her. Even in episode 8 Xanastaku told him "Trust us. Trust Izel", possibly implying that's something he struggles with.

And on the other hand this could be a reason why he and Izel mostly get along. Izel is an open book, he wears his heart on his sleeves and he never lied or kept secrets from the team.

#onyx equinox #yun #probably stating the obvious here #or maybe i'm pulling this out of my ass idk #maybe he just hates women /j #but i saw someone say he was being an asshole in ep 10 and that got me thinking #also if it's true it's a nice contrast with izel who is too trusting #and i also wonder how he would react if he found out that k'in knew about xana's power #and kept it a secret for like 5 minutes lmao #i mean he should know technically right? cause yaotl heard them so yun should've heard them too #and probably didn't have the time to process it cause things were constantly happening #anyways. many thoughts about these characters

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rivalsilveryuri · 2 months

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let’s him walk around on my palm

ruby and sapphire

#VOICEMAIL #funny 2 me that viz just. made his reoccuring...........bathroom joke into him pourign a can off of rooftops. but everyone else is still #reacting like he's killing someone while he's likr 'i love recycling :)' and emptying a can of pepsi or somethign #sorry that its what first comes 2 mind with him.#but i DO like emerald.... he's kinda the only hoenn dexholder i ... like??????????????? not in the way i DONT like the other 2 i just don't #have much 2 say on them. but also because reading rs may actually trigger my ptsd i think. a little. ummm. so i dont remember basically any #of rubys half.. i remember saphs just fine thoguh. but yeah what was i on about. umm. oohhh yeah i like emerald thr best #kinda makes me mad how people just infantilise him and look over. basically everythign about him. like his sibling relationship with crys #+ his backstory + the shit under the surface for the way he acts..#+the interaction they have as a trio because i find it kind of fascinating but its honestly the shortest amount of time 2gether a trios had #idk. it feels likr 2. people out there are actually interested in *emerald* himself #and everyone else just likrs. ............how everyone else sees him in universe.... and the rest see him how emerald wants to be seen. idk #always shy about character analysis cause i always worry im pulling at nothign and cooking nothing but i feel decently confident that-#-thats the whole point of emeralds character and his childhood and behaviour n etc.#i have NOT read oras though. umm. heard mixed things about it but who knows. itll take me 50 years 2 get there n e ways...#also emerald and wally. wish they interacted at LEAST cmon. unless ive brain fogged it but whateva........#how did me talking about piss jokes turn into character analysis

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mymultifandomhell · 6 months

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#im having very weird feelings rn #cause its not that i dont like how it ended with the inn and iz etc its just how we got there didnt feel right to me ??#like the pacing and things didnt feel fleshed out well idk idk im really bad at putting my feelings into words #its this fucked mix of wanting to be really happy for them but also being kinda disappointed and heartbroken in how we got there i guess ??#i dont think we got the show that was intended from s1 b/c of the cuts and the uncertainty around renewal and thats gonna haunt me forever #ofmd 2 #ofmd spoilers #good omens #ofmd #our flag means death #rav reacts #mygocontent #me.

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inmenanswiththejaffacakes · 18 days

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Every time I venture outside of the 10 safe accounts that I know like Plane, I always get jump scared... like... you're telling me that people are still calling this bitch a bully?

#this fandom is tiring #also... im sorry #idk maybe im a bully too but what palne said to A was like...#it wasnt good!!! but my god i thought the birch slapped A in untucked wth the way some people acted 😭#bitch* reacted* i can't spell #like genuinely was the way plane acted with A good? no! but i was expecting something so intesne and it just... wasn't #also i just dont know how people take Olane seriously... the bitch is so unserious! i feel like she has a very like #almost british sense of humor? idk #anyway this all generated cause i saw a clip on yt about Plane and A from about a week ago #and people in the comments were like “plane is creeoy for being at rosc0es she is obsessed she spoke about A at the ep13 rosc03s”#and then some were diagnosing her with shit like 😭😭😭 LET'S CALM DOWN PEOPLE #also plane has barely spoken about A publicly since she left the show... god this fandom gives me headaches

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purgemarchlockdown · 6 months

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Thinking about cycles again...

#sorry was looking at Cool Games and now in Cycle Mode #anyway are y'all normal about being trapped in cycles?#I think about Muu a lot actually around this #it's like- Muu's trapped in her own self-destructive behaviors and toxic environment #she cant really Leave the School and yet she cant really change it either #she does the queen bee stuff as a way to 'escape' the bullying and be given love but it really its just another web she's trapped in #Muu causes her own destruction but the only reason Why she's in a situation that causes her to react like that is because #of a toxic and unhealthy environment that no one can really get out of #there's this one really good quote from one of my favorite shows about how no one can really foster healthy relationships in the school #everyone is in because the environment is simply so hostile to any sort of possible healthy connection between people #its not just that bad behavior its encouraged its that good behavior is Discouraged #if that makes sense #idk im just in a cycle mood again

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arklay · 8 months

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my disability support pension got approved

#leah.txt #it’s been like half an hour since i got the message and i’m still in shock like idk how to process it #like it’s been so many months since put in the claim and had all the paperwork from my specialists and everything and it just doesn’t feel #real rn like i’ve been dismissed and brushed off by so many doctors and then this government contracted doctor that i had an appointment #with last week assessed my condition as severe and like i just felt seen for once…and her report obviously working cause now it’s been #approved like i’m just like i don’t know how to react at all i’m wow like it’s been so so long of doctors mistreating me and brushing me off #and just people in my life not believing that things are really difficult for me and just idk it’s validating? it’s reliving? idk

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dramamines · 6 months

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YOOOOO NEW LIVE BODYS PERFORMANCE

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Tw for flashing lights

THIS IS ABSOLUTELY SICK I LOVE IT SO MUCH, BEST LIVE BODYS BY FAR

ALSO NEW LIVE ALBUM IN DECEMBER OMG???

HE'S PERFORMING IN HIS MORTIS SUIT WITH TRAIT MASK I LOVE IT

#Need to see them live at some point #when they come back to aus #but ill go w dad cause he loves the band too #and im kinda scared how he'll react to the furry stuff #like he knows abt trait but not much #idk he'd prob be fine #anyways #AAAAAAAAAAAA #ballena rambles #csh #car seat headrest #bodys #trait csh #mortis jackrabbit #csh live #car seat headrest live #Youtube

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wanders-in-stars · 10 months

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im fucking cackling, my camera mod can sometimes swap to first person perspective of not just my character but also the npc I'm talking to, and this is how Gore and Tamar see each other:

small

tall

#yaz yaks #skyrim oc #oc: tamar #skyrim #skyrim gore #no i will not shut up about him and you cant make me #to be fair he is standing on a bit of an incline here but like #i didn't realise i made her THAT short #like in my last save with her i found out she's even shorter than Khash who's like.... 5'4?? ish??#like damn is tamar 4'8 or something??? what did i do to her lmao #also tho. gore's expression. is killing me #he's like.... this TINY THING just saved me??? how far have i fallen #and can we talk about his new look??? *chefs kiss* so good #and already new dialogue when he reacts to the thalmor jumping us; think his intro may have been recorded too? sounds a little different #but not in a bad way! i only noticed cause i'd done it literally yesterday on 1.4 with another character #what am i even babbling about at this point idk man #off i go

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