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[etxrnaleclipse]

Character Development - Honesty Asks @radicalrascals said: 𝖍𝖔𝖓𝖊𝖘𝖙𝖞 𝖉𝖆𝖞 ask ideas for Cris: what are some things you fear? | choose: music or poetry

what are some things you fear?

"I wish I could say not death, considering my circumstances, but I'm still terrified of dying. It gets closer every day, I know I'm not going to make it to fifty and as much as I've tried to make my peace with it, I just can't. I'm also quite scared of clowns, blame my childhood when I got lost at a local carnival as a ten year old and got spooked by one of the resident clowns. Never really got over that."

choose: music or poetry

"I do love them both, but I think I have to say music. Music can speak without even needing words, it can create so much emotion just with a few notes."

#radicalrascals #cris morales || about #cris morales || answered

[zillychu]

Consider this: ghosts are actually exactly what the Fentons think they are.

They're snapshots of a longing so strong, unfinished business so deep it reaches out beyond life. Lingers just a bit longer. And if it happens to meet a dense cloud of ectoplasm (invisible to the naked eye, but omnipresent even in the mortal realm), it coalesces. The ectoplasm fits into the shape of it. Which, when the desire is strong enough, it's got a rough idea of its self-image. This tends to mean a more humanoid figure, though it's more often warped in some way–a self-reflection, skewed by said desire. The warping varies on the dead soul’s perception of themselves, the intensity of their desire, how much time passed after death, and how much ectoplasm was present.

In short… no matter how “normal" a ghost looks or acts, it really, truly isn't human. It's animated ectoplasm with a single goal: an obsession. Nothing else. They're more akin to plants than animals, following a single drive with no emotion. They react to stimuli, recognize threats (including other ghosts), and can even imitate human speech and mannerisms to obtain fulfillment of their obsession.

Not “evil" by any stretch, but they're entirely driven by instinct. A tree doesn't pause to consider the rocks it breaks with its roots. A cordyceps doesn't torture its host for fun, or kill with malice. It just does. It follows code in its DNA to survive and multiply–And ghosts just follow the code in its ectoplasm to fulfill its obsession. The more powerful a ghost, the better it's able to overcome obstacles preventing this–whether through brute force, or manipulation. This power is always directly proportional to the amount of ectoplasm present at the time of formation, and how much time passed since death.

What then, does this mean for Danny? Danny, who's previously come to the conclusion that he's only half-ghost, which surely explains how he retained his mind? His independent thoughts and emotions?

What does this mean for Phantom, who experienced an entire world’s worth of ectoplasm condensed as a singularity, at the exact time of his death? Whose strength only grows and begins to exceed every limit they previously thought possible?

If a ghost was as strong as him… could it mimic a human perfectly? Down to a molecular level?

Could it, in its desire to fill an obsession… trick its own fake mind into thinking it was still human? Or half-ghost?

#Danny Phantom #zilly squeaks #it's the greyed out morality for me dude #on one hand it shows how dangerous ghosts are. how you can't reason with them. how they aren't *people* #and yet. you can still find ways to work with them. there's reason to show them mercy when possible #even if it's not really 'pain' it still cries out and bleeds when struck #i just love this kind of angle where there's a solid reason to find co-existence but also like #knowing full well these creatures are more or less. potentially deadly trees. do u feel me #when does sentience bloom from code? #what caused our ancestors to become sapient? #Danny getting Real Fucked Up about possibly being a full ghost who's just really good at pretending to be human #when really... does it even matter? #(for double the pain: add headcanon that ghosts feed off of human life for additional power)

[kanrix]

How do you think Danielle and Clay would be if they met at kids ????

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#ask #anonymous #moral orel #clay puppington #danielle stopframe #kid clay probably cried once thinking about dan going to hell

[mockingspider]

i think my emotional attachment to ghostflower is extremely concerning

#oh what happened you askrd? #i cried fucking again #and i dont feel good #bc i cried #bro i have never been so invested in a non-canon ship its actual insane #im not gonna survive btsv and ive warned everyone i know about that #across the spiderverse #gwen stacy #miles morales #ghostflower #erin talks abt random stuff

[meadow-moth]

OH MY GOD??? I HAVE CHRONIC PAIN AND I JUST USED A CHAIR AS A SUPPORT LIKE YOU WOULD A CANE, REALIZED IT DIDNT HURT TO WALK, AND PROCEEDED TO DO 3 LAPS AROUND MY TABLE BC IT WAS ABOUT THE HEIGHT OF A CANE. OH. MY. FUCKING. GOD. I FUCKING NEED A CANE NOW I HAD LITERALLY 0 PAIN WALKING FOR THE FIRST TIME IN GOD KNOWS HOW LONG IM GOING TO CRY /VPOS

#chronic disability #invisible disability #disabled #disability #chronic pain #mobility aid #bro oh my god i genuinely cried for a minute when i realized #i was thinking about getting a cane but i never decided to go through with it because i was like #“oh its not THAT bad” #it is that bad #moral of the story is if you think you need a mobility aid you probably do #pure joy i genuinely stood in the middle of the room open mouthed staring into dead space like a dumbass #because i wasnt in pain for once

[klanced]

lance: yeah so this is earth. it’s kind of lame but like also very wonderous. there’s something to be said about finding beauty in the smaller moments-

pidge: do you guys want to go to build-a-bear?

coran: build a WHAT?

pidge: .. honestly did not think it would warrant that kind of response

coran: do you promise.

pidge: ?

allura: oh that sounds like fun! 

coran: can we go.

pidge: yeah sure!!!

(later)

coran: (sulking on the ship)

lance: .. coran, what did you think build-a-bear meant-

coran: i don’t want to talk about it.

#shitpost #voltron #lance #coran #pidge #allura #i jsut think . this is super funny. to me. #when i was a kid my dad's favorite bar was this place called the miracle of science in boston #boston also has a museum called the museum of science #i was like 7 years old so you can imagien the misunderstanding when my dad said oh we're having dinner at the miracle of science #and i was like DINNER WITH THE DINOSAURS???????????????? #i was so excited. i was so excited. #i did not have dinner at the museum of science. i ate a burger while my dad had an ipa or whatever. and i cried into my burger that night. #i wanted to eat with the dinosaurs :((( #hunk: okay but the moral implications of building your own bear… #Coran: maybe I was talking about MYSELF. did you ever think of that. HUH. #can we just let this man fuck in peace. bah gawd. #voltronpride

[miguelunited]

Eventually

Probably gonna make another part of this. THIS IS EARTH 1610 MILES GUYS!!!

It’s been a year and and little bit over six months since you’d met Miles. Ironically, you two were just like siblings, until you developed a playground crush on him.

You thought it wasn’t real, brushing off the fluttering in your stomach when you’d see him as something you ate. Or ignoring the increase of your heart rate every time he moved slightly closer to you than usual. But then it got worse. So bad, to where you could no longer go over to his house because the next words that you would say to him would be “I’m in love with you.” So you just chose to cut him off. Speed-walking, almost *running* away from Miles whenever he would walk your direction. Turning away or hiding your face in class when he’d look at you.

So Miles thought you didn’t want to be friends with him anymore. He never knew why, and it was drilling away at him, bit by bit. He’d spend numerous nights awake, staring at the ceiling,

questioning if it was something he did or said that made you cut him out of your life completely.

————

“Papi, what happened to your friend? Why haven’t they been over?” His mother asked him, she loved you, so much. She’d pinch your cheeks, kiss your forehead, squeeze you in a tight hug every time she would see you.

Miles face was cupped in his hands, sighing groggily at his mother question. His head dropped onto the table, fingers tapping on the table as he continued to ponder in his sorrow.

“Don’t know Mami, don’t know.” He spoke bad, he sounded and looked visually upset.

“*Oh*, Miles what’s wrong Papi? If you’re feeling down you can talk to me, Tu entiendo?” Her hand slid up into Miles’ hair with much care and pity.

“Sì Mami, entiendo..” He sighed in response, turning his face to his phone.

Suddenly he got a text from Gwen saying; “Come up to the roof Miles, I’m here.”

His face practically lit up, finally someone he felt super great with talking to. Miles quickly stood up, explaining to his mother that he was gonna go to the rooftop to “clear his head”, in reality it was to talk about you.

————

Message from “Mama Rio🩷🌸” :

“Hola Mi quiero, do you want to come over and help me cook? 🫶🏽”

You were going to refuse, but you loved her too much to let her down like that.

“Si Mama, I’m on my way right now!”

————

When walking to their home, all you could think about was Miles pulling you into his room and blowing up on you. ‘What did I do??!’ ‘You can’t just up and leave me like that! especially when i didn’t do anything wrong!’

You knew that if Miles *did* yell at you, it would be your fault.

When you’d go there, Mrs. Morales opened the door beaming with joy. She hugged you, squeezing you tightly after not seeing you for so long.

“My baby! How have you been? Are you hungry? Unwell? Tired? Thirsty?” So many questions all at once, took you some time to process them.

“Hola Mama, I’ve been good!”

“That good then Mija/o. Uhm, Could you speak to Miles for me? He’s been upset lately and I don’t think he wants to talk to me, but maybe he’ll speak to you.?” She asked you. Of course once again, you could not refuse.

“Okay Mama, I’ll tell you what he says after we speak.”

“Thank you! You are a lifesaver Mija/o.” She kissed your cheeks before hugging you once more.

You sat your things down, tucking your phone into your pocket.

While walking up the stairs that led to the roof, your brain flooded with thoughts again. How mad he’d be at you, how he would berate you with a plethora of questions.

Across the roof you, of course, saw Miles..and some..other girl. Curiosity got the best of you, so you inched close enough to them to hear their conversation, but far away enough to stay hidden.

————

“I think they don’t wanna be friends anymore.” Miles said

“Why not?” The girl asked. You prayed that Miles would say her name so that you could memorize who she was.

“They ghosted me on *EVERY APP*, avoid me at school, and now they won’t even look at me in class! I mean— what did I do? I seriously don’t know WHAT I did?” Miles sounded heartbroken, voice cracking as if he were on the verge of a breakdown.

The girl inched closer and closer to miles, her right hand on his bad and her head resting amongst his shoulder.

“Maybe its for the great or good Miles. Besides, you’ll always have me to talk to.” She said.

“Yeah *Gwen*, I guess you’re right.” He sighed shakily, leaning in closer to her.

————

Gwen. Gwen? GWEN? How come you’d never heard about her or met her?

You weren’t even upset about the fact that he was with another person, but the fact that he felt close enough to her that he’d lean into her. practically like a couple.

You inched, feeling your face head up with embarrassment and what not. Your small, subtle movements eventually turned into you *sprinting* down the stairs and back into his home. You quickly grabbed your things, feeling tears trickle down your cheeks.

“Mama Rio I…I really have to go, I’m sorry I couldn’t help you cook. Please forgive me.” You explained, She could hear the despair in your voice as you shut the front door and ran home.

Now she was upset. Not with you, but with Miles.

PLEASE REQUESTS

#across the spiderverse #miles morales #miles morales x reader #gwen stacy #angst #i cried thinking about the next part #Spotify

[idealisticrealism]

TCL 3x06 thoughts (and many feelings)

Well, as expected, this ep basically broke my heart into a million tiny pieces- but still, they really did give Arman the best send-off that they could given the circumstances, and I’m so, so grateful for it.

Breaking the recap up a bit differently this week because I have a lot to say about everyone lol

But of course, I have to start with my beloved boy Arman, and Armony. I always knew that this ep was going to break me, and man, they didn’t waste any time doing it… less than 4 mins in and the tears were already flowing from hearing him saying the Reloj line, because seriously, knowing that this was his one chance to pass on a message to the people in his life, and that he chose that??? God it was powerful seeing Nadia and the others incorrectly assuming the message simply meant that he was running out of time, vs seeing Thony's jaw clench on hearing it because she knew the truth, knew that it was meant for her alone. In some ways, it was a “I think my time is up and I'm the one leaving forever in the morning, and that's okay” kind of message, but it was also a “this is me telling you I love you, because I never got the chance before”, and a “no matter what they do to me, in my mind I'm there, dancing with you by the fire.” No wonder she reaches for a beer the moment she gets home, knowing that there’s the chance she will be able to hold him in her arms again in only a matter of hours, but not being able to do anything to make it happen except just sit and wait for news. Well, at least until the moment she sees the report and understands Dante’s involvement, and then there’s no holding back anymore, no more trusting others to save him. Her blind determination to go find him and bring him home is exactly like how she acted when Luca was dying or when Fi was deported; it’s the way she always responds when someone she loves desperately needs her, and I love that Arman is so clearly in that category. (Okay gotta break this up bc of Tumblr's character limit lol)

Anyway ugh the entire time she was at the apartments I could feel my heart in my throat, because god, she got so close. (Oh and the way she instantly recognised the jacket and then knew with a single sniff that it was his?? Help???). But anyway ugh when the kid pointed them to the apartment, and she saw him right there through the window, only for him to be stolen away again in the mere couple of minutes it took her to get back around to the apartment’s front door.... Ughhh these two have been star-crossed from the start, but it was so hard to watch the final acts of their tragedy unfolding. I'll never be over the fact that for days, he was kept in a haze of drugs and pain, and yet we (and Thony!) know from his message that he spent that time thinking of her, escaping his reality by living in the moments they’d shared. And her own drug-induced hallucination of him was equally heartbreaking… god, to see her be so honest and unreserved in the way she looked at him and held him and spoke to him ("I’m gonna take you home, I'm never gonna let you go again”)... like damn, in that moment we really got to see the unfiltered, uninhibited truth of her feelings for him, the truth she never got to tell him and that he never got to hear.

But still, I’d like to think that he knew it anyway, especially when he saw her there in that car– saw that she had come for him, that she was trying so hard to save him, even at risk to herself. (Naturally I wish that we could have had his real face for that heart-wrenching moment of goodbye, but it was close enough, and when it comes down to it, that moment was still truly Arman and Thony no matter what). And while I’m sure Arman would have wished that he could live, that he could have stayed and built a life with her, we also saw multiple indications in the past 2 seasons that Arman knew and accepted that an early death was likely for him, if not practically inevitable, just like it had been for Mateo and Carlos and Bosco. And so for him to get to go out on his own terms, and in the act of saving Thony? It was exactly the death that he would have wanted. (On first watch I was sobbing too hard to notice that he didn't just knock the gun away and cause chaos in the car, he actually also grabbed the wheel and deliberately drove them off the cliff, meaning he truly chose for himself how he met his death). Honestly, it was literally the exact kind of ending I'd been predicting for him ever since s1– both the culmination of his hero arc, and also the ultimate fulfillment of his vow to protect her.  I'm so, so thankful that he got to have that, got to go out fast and painlessly and like the hero he was, rather than dying in the hangar or alone in that grungy apartment, and I’m even more thankful that he got to see her one last time, got to have that final goodbye with her. He died knowing she loved him and never gave up on him, and knowing that his death would ensure she got to live on; and for him, that would have been everything. And as devastating as it was to see Thony on her knees on the cliff, staring up into the sky as everything faded into white and El Reloj began to play... it was also heartbreakingly beautiful- seeing them dancing together again truly felt like getting a glimpse into his heaven, like it was telling us 'This is where he is now. This is where he'll always be"- and though it'll still always hurt to have lost him, I can be at peace with that.

(Though ngl, this ep was full of 'if onlys' that are going to haunt both us and Thony forever... If only Chris hadn't blocked the toilet today of all days. If only Thony had called a different plumber. If only JD's friend hadn't gotten him the arrest report. If only Ramona hadn't put a tail on Thony that caused her and Fi to have to rely on Jeremy for a ride rather than going on their own. If only Thony had been able to trust that Jorge wasn't involved and had called him instead. If only Nadia hadn't sent her the address for the meet location. If only if only if only. The show has always centred around this theme (all the way back to 1x01 and ‘if only Thony hadn’t encouraged the underground fighter to make her own choices, then the fighter may have done what Theo ordered her to and deliberately lost the fight, and then Tarik wouldn’t have killed Theo and Thony wouldn't have witnessed it, and none of this would have happened’), and it's a vital aspect of both the storytelling (because if none of that had happened, then there's no story at all) and also of Thony's character development. But obviously in this instance we all know that the writers had no other choice, and that there was no way this ep could have gone differently anyway, not after the loss of Adan. We know that, but Thony doesn't, and so it's going to be devastating to see Thony blame herself for yet another death, especially the death of someone she loved so deeply.)

But alright let’s talk about who is actually responsible for Arman’s death, because while Thony inadvertently contributed to it, she absolutely wasn’t the one who directly led to them being in that situation! Let’s start with Dante: firstly, I knew it was very suss that he ‘accidentally’ killed that guy in the last ep! And then when I saw the BTS pics for 3x06 last week and saw that Thony and Fi were going to go to the same apartment buildings that Dante got arrested at, it was clear that he was definitely involved in Arman’s abduction somehow. So either it’s option 1, and that giant bastard knew just how deeply Ramona wanted Arman back in their lives and figured he could not only give her what she wanted, but could also use the opportunity to score a fuck-ton of money without Ramona ever knowing of his involvement; or it’s option 2, and he abducted Arman on Ramona’s orders so that she could a) get her hands on a bunch of Nadia's money, and b) receive Arman's gratitude for saving him, which would then lead to his return into the family. Personally I think that option 1/Dante working alone is much more likely, and I'd also prefer it to option 2, because if Ramona was involved it would completely ruin the enjoyment I’ve been getting out of her character and her sibling relationship with Jorge. So I'm really hoping that it was all just Dante’s plan, and that Ramona and Jorge believe Thony when she tells them about Dante’s role in Arman's kidnapping (and therefore his death) and then they fucking murder him for it. 

Speaking of murdering, that brings me to Jeremy Fucking Dolan. (Yes, I literally looked up his last name on IMDB purely bc I felt the need to put a curse word in it). It’s funny, but from the very first moment his character was announced and it was mentioned in his bio that he would befriend Thony while hiding a dark secret, I had an almost irrational level of hatred for him, even more than I had for Jorge’s character, which was definitely odd and inexplicable given that Jorge’s bio made him sound like he was purely meant to be an unwanted ‘Arman 2.0’/potential love interest, which I obviously did not want in the slightest. But if I’d been given the option to get rid of one of them before S3 even started, it would have been Jeremy with no hesitation. The moment he made his appearance, I called it that he was actually an undercover FBI agent who was using Thony to get to Arman, which was maddening enough because she just didn’t deserve to be manipulated in that way, or to be betrayed by someone whom she had been isolated and vulnerable enough to risk trusting. And then that undercover bastard not only uses her, but ends up being the very reason that the FBI shows up right at the worst moment– not only preventing the exchange, but also causing the chase that kills Arman??? I don't care if he was only doing his job and trying to catch criminals, goddammit, I still hate him so much, and it's going to destroy Thony (even more than she already has been destroyed after losing Arman) when she eventually puts it together and realises that her trusting Jeremy directly contributed to Arman’s death. Which is why I’m over here violently daydreaming of a moment sometime late in the season where Jorge and Ramona finally manage to capture Jeremy, and then they bring Thony in and let her pull the fucking trigger and end him. (I mean, is it at all likely that she would go that dark, even to avenge Arman? Well, no. But thinking about it certainly gives me great satisfaction so I’m sticking with it lol)

Anyway, moving onto something more positive– if you wanna find the MVP of this ep, you only have to look at Fi!!! I loved her for the kind and understanding way she addressed Thony's connection to Arman, and the way she almost got Thony to acknowledge her feelings for him. Though I guess in that moment she could see that Thony still wasn’t ready to talk about it, and so she tried to ease Thony's mental discomfort by shifting focus to jokes about Jeremy (gross). Still, throughout the ep she was just so completely ride or die for Thony, like she has always been, and honestly Thony needs that, needs her. And not just for her badass lock-picking skills haha (taught to her by Paolo maybe??). Basically, Thony is like the Frodo of this series, carrying a huge burden and going through unimaginable things, but Fi is like her Sam, and it’s only with Fi’s support that Thony is able to keep pushing forward through everything. Obviously the loss of Arman, the other vital person in her life (does that make him Gandalf??) is going to be absolutely crushing for her, and I think Fi is going to be even more incredible in the coming episodes as she supports Thony through her grief and devastation. Ngl, I already had a fic idea about Fi going and getting Arman's jacket back for Thony, and it makes me cry just thinking about it ugh

In addition to Fi and Thony, I did love the whole De La Rosa fam vibe early in the episode, with Chris and Jaz bickering, and Thony and Fi making a fuss of Luca, and then Chris gently telling them to ease off when Luca got overwhelmed– it felt so nice to have them all reunited again and just getting to be a ‘normal’ family getting ready for school in the morning, and for Fi and Thony to be dealing with problems like blocked toilets and wet clothes rather than threats of deportation or dangerous cartels or the FBI. Chris worrying over missing Camila’s call was super cute too; I’m glad we got to have another mention of her and I hope we get to see her again soon. As for Luca, I’m really happy he’s started school, mostly bc it frees up Thony’s schedule haha, but also because it’s an important step for both him and Thony in moving forward with their lives. Thony has lived in an endless loop of ~My Child Is Dying~ for 6 years, and finally (thanks to her and Fi and Arman, like she said in the ep) that cycle has finally been broken. Luca will always need careful monitoring of his health, of course, but Thony isn’t trapped by his illness anymore, and I’m excited to see what potential  paths that will open up for her. I will always wish that one of those paths could have been a relationship with Arman, and I'm sure she does too, but as long as she finds happiness and purpose, I'll be satisfied.

Okay, so Jorge showing up at the school was pretty great honestly; like he says, it kind of is their thing to just show up uninvited into each other's spaces, and plus I think he actually truly did want to help make the moment a little easier on her by being there and distracting her/reassuring her as a fellow parent. I also loved the sweatshirt mention lol, it was a good throwback and I enjoy that he’s comfortable enough with her to tease her. Just shows how much their relationship has changed in the week or so since he first tossed that sweatshirt at her in a different school parking lot!! And he definitely won points with me here by going out of his way to get the info for her about the legal/CPS stuff without being asked, and though he explained it away as basically just him buying her influence over Arman in regards to the Sin Cara business, again I think he just genuinely wanted to help. Like Arman, he doesn’t get the opportunity to do many things that are purely good and noble, and so the feeling of getting to help her and Luca clearly has somewhat of an intoxicating effect on both men haha. Even with the loss of Arman (and so the loss of his supposed reason for helping Thony with the CPS stuff) I don��t doubt that Jorge will still help her with it once he’s satisfied that she had nothing to do with Arman’s death. But ugh speaking of Arman, the way Jorge questioned her about her connection to Arman… he already knows that Thony’s husband only died a few months ago, and as far as he knows from Nadia's behaviour, her and Arman’s marriage was solid, so it’s understandable that the intensity of Thony’s loyalty to/concern about Arman is a bit confusing to him. And because he doesn’t understand it, he’s always going to view her with at least a trace of suspicion until he learns the truth. Which may even be as soon as next ep– it looks like Jorge and Ramona are going to be demanding answers from Thony about how Arman died/ whether she betrayed him to the Feds/ how she was even there in the first place etc etc, and honestly I'm desperately hoping we'll get some kind of "I would never betray Arman! I LOVED him!" outburst from her that makes both Jorge and Ramona stop in their tracks because of how clearly heartfelt and honest it is. And ngl, while we’ve seen Thony indirectly state or demonstrate her love for Arman multiple times now, it would really mean a lot to me to hear her just say it openly without holding back. Not to mention that I think it would also really help pave the way for her to be accepted into the Sin Cara/Sanchez family, which would make for interesting viewing for the rest of the season.  

Speaking of the Sanchez family, I enjoyed the flashback and getting the backstory about the caddy, and seeing more of the Eduardo/Ramona/Jorge dynamic. (I’m trying so hard not to be nitpicky about the fact that young Arman's hair was straight and young Jorge's was curly, when it should have been the opposite, lol). But I’ve been thinking a lot about what Eduardo says to young Arman in that moment about how the only way to be a good man is to work hard and make an honest living, and I think that before we meet him in S1 Arman had really internalised that, and didn’t see himself as being a good man even though he wanted to be, which is why it hurt him so much to have Thony reinforce that belief during their argument at the wedding in 1x03. But then through helping her and forming a connection with her, he sees that even though she’s witnessed him at his worst, she genuinely does believe he is a good man, and it allows him to start believing it of himself for the first time. The flashback also definitely gave us more of a sense of Arman’s relationship with Ramona and Jorge, and really added another layer to him not selling off his caddy despite the direness of his debt to RK. What Nadia said to Ramona about the caddy being Arman’s dream car seemed to prove to Ramona that Arman still loved her and Jorge, and never truly turned his back on them… and so hopefully her sense of family and honour will mean that she will now consider Nadia and Thony– Arman’s family– to be her family as well. I also really enjoyed the scene of Jorge and Ramona sitting together in the caddy, discussing their business choices/differences in their life plans, and also talking about Arman and his good heart… they’ve definitely both grown on me, partly because they’re well written, but mostly because they've helped Thony and they genuinely care about my boy Arman. I’m sad we'll never get to see an Arman and Jorge brotherly reunion, because that could have been truly great. But tbh what I’m really wondering is what will happen to my beloved caddy now that Arman's gone... will Nadia want to get rid of it because seeing it is too painful?? Will Jorge offer to take it? Will I get my dream of Thony being the one to keep it lol? Doubtful, but one can always hope.... (and I guess there’s always that fic I’ve been planning to write about it for like 3 weeks lol)

Sigh, poor Nadia gave me a lot of feels in this ep. She is working so hard to get Arman back, and handling herself amazingly well under incredibly stressful circumstances. She dealt calmly with the kidnappers (which Ramona was clearly very impressed by... a potential protege there, perhaps?). Nadia also politely yet firmly declined Ramona’s plan for Arman to be basically kept in their home, despite knowing how powerful Ramona is and how risky it would be to piss her off.  She also insisted on being at the exchange to get him back despite the risk to herself (and possibly partly because she still doesn’t trust Ramona’s intentions). She trusted Thony with the meet location, despite their complex history, despite knowing that it meant that she would have to share her reunion with her husband with the other woman he loves. Even if she only gave Thony the address because it meant getting to have a highly-trained doctor there who could be trusted completely with Arman’s life, it still means she put Arman’s wellbeing above her own wants. Honestly I respect the hell out of Nadia, and literally the only consolation I have about losing Arman is that at least I'll never have to watch her go through the heartbreak of Arman still choosing Thony over her despite all their history and everything she’d done for him. Of course, we still have to watch her going through an absolutely horrific heartbreak of a different kind, but at least instead of being alone in it, she has Thony to share that pain with. (Or at least, she will, when she gets past her initial anger and blame towards Thony). It's almost a certainty that Thony and Nadia's connection will continue and even strengthen throughout the rest of the season, and I strongly believe that Thony is going to do everything she can to support and protect Nadia now, not only because she genuinely does care about her, but also because it’s the only thing she can do now to honour Arman and give thanks for all he did for her.

Okay, last couple of things: I loved that even despite her desperate search for Arman and the ticking clock that was hanging over their heads, Thony still stopped and helped the kid’s grandfather. It was very true to who she is, and how she can’t not help the people in front of her that need her. And tbh in terms of TV medicine, this instance actually wasn’t too bad haha, even if her Epley manoeuvre was a bit off. The fact that the man turning to look at the clock helped her diagnose the vertigo was also a cool reference to the ep’s title/theme as well. But anyway the reference that I can’t quite figure out yet is the word Thony saw written in the dust on that mirrored platter thing; I’m assuming Arman wrote it as a clue in case someone found the apartment? It seems to say something like ‘Marin’ which means nothing to me rn, but they very intentionally included a shot of Thony seeing it, so I guess its meaning will become clear in the next ep or two? 

Anyway, this has been many many words and feelings, so I’m just gonna end it with this, the prayer that Thony spoke as Arman walked out of prison in 2x02, because it feels even more tragically fitting now:

Now he is freed Through your blood on the cross Through the blows to your face And through the crown of your thorns that pierced your head Deliver him from all evil From the rigor of injustice From the torment of conscience And from all darkness Welcome him into Paradise Where there will be no more sorrow No more weeping or pain Give him the blessings of the life to come As he enters into the kingdom of peace and light.

#The Cleaning Lady #TCL recaps #Armony #Arman Morales #Adan Canto #God this ep is definitely in my Top 3 Most Traumatic Episodes of any show ever #I don't think I've cried that hard over a character's death since I was 18 and just lost the Blorbo I'd been obsessed with for like 4 years #but at least in that instance we didn't lose the actor too #ugh #anyway #if you manage to read this whole thing I salute you #and you're welcome to come talk to me about it! #let's suffer together lol #TCL spoilers #The Cleaning Lady Spoilers

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

'yandere sebastian' 'yandere abigail' 'yandere wizard' give me yandere clint 🖐✊🖐✊

#random thoughts #stardew valley #love the idea of a clint who slowly loses interest in emily and starts fixating on the farmer #it wouldn't get violent so not REALLY a yandere he just gets kinda stalker-y and really passive-aggressive #about you talking to and romancing other people #i just wish more stardew mods kept the original kind of asshole-y personalities of the nonromancable characters #don't make morris a sympathetic guy whose dad died and he's 'just following orders' give me reasons WHY he thinks pelican town sucks #and make me be able to kiss him anyway #a character doesn't need to be morally good for me to understand their motivations!!! #GIVE ME ASSHOLE WIZARD!!! #actually you know what i love the idea of clint killing someone and immediately regretting it #like in a heat of the moment 'my crush's spouse is arguing with me while im forging and well.' #'i got mad and i had a hammer' #immediately freaks out but OBVIOUSLY he can't go to harvey about this!!! #so he takes the body (were they still breathing? he was so freaked out he can't remember anymore and he hates it) #and buries it in the grove of trees behind his house where you get that one statue #goes inside and cries himself to sleep or smth #gets all jumpy for a while until you trigger his next heart event #when you go to his shop while he's visibly upset and he's like #'would you still like me even if i did something really wrong? would we still be friends?' #and depending on how you answer he either gets moderately back to normal or kills himself #the ghost of your spouse starts haunting him btw. visible only to him #you can see inside his house before you enter during the cutscene and you (the player) can see the ghost #but when you go inside it's gone #if he kills himself you find a note saying to check out back to see what he did #my guilty pleasure is really fucking edgy character mods can you tell #anyway if you get married and have a kid after this the kid has your deceased spouse's name by default <3

[gemkun]

i just think about ratio instinctively acting on the urge to protect aventurine when strangers see his playful façade as an invitation and positioning himself as an unofficial bodyguard especially with his stature and intimidating presence

#* ✦ 𝐈. ❮ ooc ❯ ⸻ ❝ #* ✦ 𝐈𝐕. ❮ isms ❯ ⸻ ❝ #* ✦ 𝐕𝐈. ❮ muses ❯ ⸻ ❝ 「 veritas ratio 」 #this thought is brought to you by omen showing me art when i wake up #okay but listen he has probably listened to aventurine’s silent cries and trauma regarding his appearance #and how others see it as something to take advantage of #due to the false rumours being spread about avgins and how he is literally a sigonian thrall #who sees the mission as more important than his wellbeing #so logic dictates that there must be someone to uphold the balance of justice and moral grounds #and i don’t think anyone is going to oppose veritas when he grabs your wrist and grips it in a manner #where he knows exactly which sites to apply pressure to cause non fatal but at the present moment a burst of pain

[rowenabean]

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#just saw a post that was like 'if you have religious or moral objections that stop you from providing certain types of medical care maybe #you shouldn't work in healthcare' (paraphrased) and... #what a way to look at the world tbh #like. they're talking about me i think - i am a conscientious objector when it comes to euthanasia #(which granted has come up exactly twice and both cases in a theoretical capacity only this is not a frequent request to me) #and... i am also a good doctor #last week i told someone that her weight doesn't matter to her health with receipts to prove it and she cried #no one had ever told her that before #and that was something that came from me specifically. that was something i would not trust all of the GPs in my practice - a practice of #excellent and compassionate GPs! - to say #i am verifiably doing good in my job that is coming from specifically who i am as a person #i cannot put that down when it comes to issues i care deeply about #fundamentally the fact that i cannot put it down is what makes me a good doctor #i think that's what i'm trying to get at #the reason that i do well by my patients is that i practice out of my values and my ethics #if i did not stand on that core i would not stand at all #so you can't have it both ways. you can't have engaged and active and compassionate healthcare providers without sometimes those engaged an #active providers having things they do not feel comfortable doing #and it is to everyone's service if they are up front about it and do not try to hide (i am suspicious of people who try to hide this) #i am literally figuring this all out as i type hence the v long tag ramble and also being nowhere near the post that started this train #(honestly in med school we talked so much about ethics as like. abortion! euthanasia! trans rights! and the ethics in practice is the littl #things. do you apologise when you mess up. how do you manage a consult with your patient with paranoid dementia and her child in the same #room at one time - or one by one bc that's fraught too. (that one's on top i had one of those today.) how do you act with grace when #you're a bit stressed and your patient is a bit stressed and the nurse wants to add five more things to your book. the day to day ethics is #SUCH a bigger thing when you come to actual practice.) #this is obviously entirely about me and leans on the fact that i largely do think i am doing a good job i am really feeling my own way #to a Thought. but i think to a certain extent it is generalisable

[etxrnaleclipse]

Sinday Headcanons@thefvrious said: 🧑‍🤝‍🧑🧑‍🤝‍🧑 ben & gen, 🌙 charlie & jimmy, 🛏️ cris & isabella, 🕒 eric & hollie, ❤️‍🔥 evan & harry, 🤪 katrine

🧑‍🤝‍🧑🧑‍🤝‍🧑how do they feel about having multiple partners at once? have they ever done it?

Ben: He is a one person man. He would never even give the suggestion any thought, always one for monogamous relationships 100%. He wouldn't judge someone for enjoying it, but it's definitely not for him.

Gen: Yes. Absolutely yes, she would be down for whatever as long as everyone was into it. One, two, five - she's in. And yes, she has definitely done it before, but only with two people at the same time.

🌙do they need an emotional connection or are one-night-stands an option?

Charlie: She likes the idea of emotional connections, however she isn't really one for letting anyone get close to her that way. It only could allow for someone to use it against her and she finds it easier to do her job with minimal emotions.

Jimmy: He is completely a one-night kinda guy. He doesn't exactly have time for emotional connections, nor does he want them. That's not to say he would be opposed should it happen, but he's just not that into it.

🛏️what’s their favorite position?

Cris: It kind of depends what part he is playing in the intimacy. If he is topping, he enjoys seeing his partner's face, but if he is on the bottom, he likes to be taken from behind.

Isabella: She is all about the emotional connection and loves to face her partners when they make love. Generally missionary is her thing, but whether that is on the bed or not is an entirely different matter.

🕒what’s the longest time they went without engaging in sexual activity with a partner? [masturbation doesn’t count]

Eric: After he left the life of killing for hire, he went quite a long time due to his inability to let anyone near him. He wouldn't know the exact number, but he's fairly certain that it was over a year. Nowadays, he will allow himself to fall into bed occasionally, but he still isn't keen on letting someone in that close.

Hollie: Three months. If that.

❤️‍🔥what’s their most erogenous zone?

Evan: The obvious, really. He enjoys touches just about anywhere, but he doesn't have anything that stands out a great deal.

Harry: His ears and neck. He will turn to butter.

🤪what’s the wildest place they’ve ever done something sexual?

Katrine: An elevator in a hotel when she was in Kyoto. She has zero shame about it either. Also there was a time in her office, but given the lock on the door and the frosted windows, it wasn't that risky.

#the mun || answered #cris morales || about #charlotte moore || about #ben hernandez || about #gen romano || about #jimmy russell || about #isabella perez || about #eric carlson || about #hollie gamble || about #evan gamble || about #harry jacobs || about #katrine arthur || about #usfw content

[the---hermit]

Thanks to Ethics Town for seding me into the biggest existential crisis spiral of my life.

#that's what you get for chosing to listen to a moral philosophy based podcast i guess #i have so many questions #both about the podcast and about actual morals #how dare you make my poor brain think this much #ethics town #cris speaks

[sexually-confused-goblin]

Lmao, just saw a tweet where someone was basically like "if a movie has themes of something bad in it without actively criticising it - it's endorsing it" ... Is the media literacy in the room with us right now?

#when did shows stop writing plots you had to think at least a bit about the moral of the story and didn't have it literally spelled out #it's almost like a toddler's object permanence - as soon as it's not held right in front of their face it doesn't exist anymore #had we brought that level of media literacy into our German classes our teacher would have probably cried #media literacy

[mockingspider]

my favorite ships are a blonde and brunette who both became friends, then some shit happens and their relationship is in shambles but they (are working on) fix(ing) it and that all happens in the span of a few movies.

both are doomed romances and one of them is supposed to die so they cant really be together but fuck that, because they (will probably) end up together!

#ghostflower #everlark #i really have a type dont i? #i have cried over both multiple times #both watching the movies and thinking about them #(and reading the books for thg( #across the spiderverse #gwen stacy #miles morales #the hunger games #peeta mellark #katniss everdeen #erin talks abt random stuff

[bumblingbabooshka]

#EMH #st voyager #st voyager art #bee doodles #Kes #<- performing it #I don't want ANY comments about how pap smears would be a medieval method of medicine by voyager's time - I know #this comic was inspired by me going to get one (failing - cried too much) and thinking in the midst of it all: #'Oh my god do you think the EMH knows how to perform pap smears??' and that made me smile on an otherwise miserable day #this is also inspired by that one episode where Kes convinced the EMH he was dying of fever as a morality lesson (she's tough but fair)