#cw anorexia

[kingprinceleo]

5/5 Vampire au/ 1000 YB I FINISHED SONICS DESIGN AND ALL IT TOOK WAS SWEAT, TEARS AND CHANGING HIM TO A DARKER BLUE BUT I DID IT, I WON

#sonic the hedgehog #sth #shadow the hedgehog #knuckles the echidna #silhouette the needlemouse #gerald robotnik #black doom #miles tails prower #tails the fox #classic sonic #cw anorexia #cw body horror #vampire au #1000 years bound

[beegoould]

Recently my therapist dropped something on me that is hard for me to wrap my head around. We’ve started talking through my issues with food and eating, and after a couple sessions she said “I think you may have a form of anorexia” And I’m like “You may not have noticed this but I weigh 250 pounds” and she was like “nah dog, you don’t have to be underweight to have it” and this made NO SENSE to me. And I said “I don’t have the willpower or the strength to be anorexic” which made me stop and think, and made her raise an eyebrow.

I realized in that moment that there had been times in my life when I was jealous of people with this devastating, potentially deadly illness. I felt like they had an ability I knew I would never have. And that’s a super fucked up way to think about it.

We talked through it and she told me that my periods of obsessive calorie counting, punishing myself for eating foods I felt were off limits, measuring things to the ounce, and thinking about food pretty much all the time was the issue. The first time she brought this up was when I told her I used to berate myself for eating something I shouldn’t have when I actually hadn’t eaten it, I’d just thought about eating it. Also when I was drinking too much I would plan my day around it, making sure I had an empty stomach and weighing what I drank on a kitchen scale. And I did research to find out what alcohol had the least calories with the highest abv.

So she tells me she thinks I have atypical anorexia. I still have the obsessive thoughts, but I don’t follow any self imposed restrictions. I still think about them, I just got too tired to keep following them. I still punish myself for eating “bad” foods.

We’re going to continue talking through this and navigate it, hopefully find ways to change some of my thoughts and behaviors. I’m still surprised at myself for my initial knee jerk response of thinking that it’s just like me to have this disorder but still be overweight. That’s not me anymore. I felt that way when I was a kid up to my 30’s, that being overweight made me useless and less than. I don’t feel that way now, but I guess it’s hardwired into my brain at a subconscious level.

To be clear, I have never had negative thoughts about people I knew or met who were overweight. They were different. I was the problem, no one else.

I wanted to share this because I’d never heard of it before, and while it’s not life changing to know this is a thing, it is helping me understand myself and some of my behaviors in a way that I haven’t before. It is also helping me be kinder to myself, at least a little.

I hope this post wasn’t upsetting or painful for anyone. This is just me sharing my experience and thoughts, I don’t know much about this topic and I’m probably shitty in a lot of ways as I’m writing about this since I don’t know what I’m talking about. I’m sorry about that. I’m going to tag the fuck out of this.

Anyway. My wish for all of you is that you can be kind to yourself however you can in whatever way you need to be. ☀️☀️☀️

#cw eating problems #cw eating issues #cw eating mention #cw eating disorders #cw anorexia #cw food

[not-poignant]

Daily excerpt from today's writing, chapter 9 of Underline the Gold:

‘There was just a day where it felt like we were fighting with your body,’ Anton said, his voice breaking. Oh, my love, Flitmouse thought, rubbing his side and frowning. ‘Temsen said your organs have really been through it. With the… With the anorexia. And I think maybe a lot of other things in your past. Your body is a lot weaker than an omega’s should be at your age. I didn’t realise how fragile you were. I don’t think Temsen did, and he’s seen the test results.’ ‘But I’m… But I’m still here, aren’t I?’ ‘Do you- Do you even want to be here?’ Flitmouse was silent for a time, and then he sighed. ‘If it’s with you, Anton, then…yes, I might want to be here.’ Anton looked up at him, though the dark room made eye contact nearly impossible. ‘Really?’ ‘Don’t tell anyone else I told you, my dear. It’s a secret. Just a secret, for now. It’s- It’s terrifying to think this way. I don’t suddenly want to live, I haven’t- I haven’t suddenly realised it’s a good thing. I just want to selfishly spend more time with you.’

#daily excerpt #underline the gold #underline the rainbow #alois flitmouse #anton valenosk #cw anorexia #cw suicidal ideation #and now it's time to feed a very tired puppy #who just had his third vaccine #i didn't expect to be writing 2500 words today! #but here we are!

[futurebird]

The "skinny thighs" photos are back…

As a short round and fairly muscular (from running) teen the skinny thigh photos used to really mess with my head. Why couldn't my legs look anything like that? In fact, my legs looked like they came out of a totally different mould. Legs from another planet. Even when I was underweight and *not* healthy never got close to a "thigh gap" -- Seeing that the trend is still around along with text along the lines of "just loose enough weight and this can be you" I want to point out that this just isn't true for some people. (If finding that out feels unfair, like a horrible blow-- as it would have to me at that age you have a lot of self acceptance work to do. And -- you might not be able to really see yourself it will take time but it's a good journey I promise!) Also, and this is probably obvious, but the shape of a thigh can change a lot based on how you hold it. I would sit wondering why my legs pressed down't didn't look like legs carefully positioned to look slim from that angle.

When I figured this out I felt like I'd be tricked! (If this makes me sound kind of naive ... well I was. ) At this point in my life I like my wide thighs. I really like that my legs stay curvy no matter what weight I'm at. Should everyone have to look the same to look good? Bean pole legs, chubby legs, maybe I just like legs in general. It's not my fault that there aren't many short people who are models or fashion icons. Why did I let anyone ever convince me of anything else?

#body image #body posititivity #thigh gap #ed thoughts #ed recovery thoughts #cw anorexia #cw ed mention #fat legs

[hecateisalesbian]

LITERALLY WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL?!

#Comparing transgender”ism” to freaking ANOREXIA is insane #transgender #trans #tw ed #Cw ed #ed #tw anorexia #cw anorexia #tw transphobes #tw transphobia

[aubreysheadspace]

Hi again!! Would you be comfortable writing a sunny x reader who has anorexia and is just going through a tough time w it? I totally get if this makes you uncomfortable or anything thats completly fine, dont feel pressured to do it or anything! Ive just been struggling with it recently and could do w some comfort lol. Anyways, thanks if you can and it’s absolutely fine if you cant, i understand!! Have a great day/night!

-🪐

CONTENT WARNING: EATING DISORDER, OBSESSING OVER LOSING WEIGHT(ANOREXIA)

SUNNY WITH A READER DEALING WITH ANOREXIA

i am terribly sorry that you’re going through such a thing right now. as someone who has a fear of gaining weight and skipping meals (unintentionally, i swear), i can at least relate a tiny bit. just remember that even though you don’t feel comfortable in your body right now, just know you are never alone and there there out thousands of people who feel the same. maybe even one day, you will find comfort in your own body. i hope that this at least helps find you some comfort somehow, and i hope you enjoy. <3

SUNNY

SUNNY probably had a few issues about his body just as he did with his self worth, but it was more about how skinny he looked. he thought he looked too skinny

nowadays, he’s trying to learn to love himself more than usual. he doesn’t really mind his body now, and would rather focus on his mindspace

but, he grows heavily concerned when you start skipping meals, refuse to go out and eat or simply even saying "i’m not hungry!" when he can’t even remember the last time he saw you eat

maybe he’s overthinking about this and you are fine. he trusts you completely so at first he wouldn’t say anything about it, but he does want to keep an eye on you.

if this keeps happening, he’ll have to talk to you about it. he can’t stand to see you hurting your body like this.

he won’t appreciate the fact that you’re acting like nothings fine at first, don’t you trust him? he heard from HERO that a good relationship will need to have good communication,

he understands that you don’t want to worry anyone and that you’d feel bad talking to them about it, he’s there as well. he gets you, and he wants to make sure to be a good boyfriend, even if he’s not really good at talking or expressing himself facially

after he finally gets through you, he’s willing to let you dump all of your problems with your body to him. he tries to offer reassurance, but he sucks at that. he’s just really good at listening quietly though

he tells you that he likes you regardless of your body, and that you might end up being frail and weak if this keeps happening. he also might just share a few experiences about his malnutrition and constant starvation from staying in his room for four years, and admitting that it really messed him up even more

with advice from HERO, SUNNY will try his best to help you with ways that he can. he’s not good at making food, so if he finds any leftover food you have in your fridge, it’s microwave time! …as long as it isn’t expired of course.

#content warning anorexia #cw anorexia #tw eating disorder #cw eating disorder #tw anorexia #aubreysheadspace!~ #aubreys writing!~ #🪐 anon!~ #omori x reader #omori #omori sunny x reader #omori sunny

[daddy-deathslinger]

Got this request from @angelcrystalfay a while back, thank you! I’ve had anorexia myself so I tried not to write it too triggering for anyone, but I hope people still take care of themselves and skip this one if it’s too much ♥ That being said, let’s get into it!

Anything in the world - Caleb Quinn/The Deathslinger x Male S/O

CW; anorexia, anxiety

“Here you go, love”, Caleb said, putting down the plate of meat and beans in front of you. “I got us the same thing.”

He sat down opposite of you, his own plate in front of him. You looked down on the rusty plate filled with pork and kidney beans. Caleb ordered food for the both of you these days, it was easier that way. If you got to order yourself, you usually could never decide what to get and that would put you down a spiral of anxiety. Seeing the dinner set in front of you now, though, you couldn’t help but notice the creeping dread approaching. Caleb really wanted you to eat all of this, now? In the saloon, filled with other people? Taking a deep sigh, you peeked up at Caleb, who was fully into his meal by now. You grabbed the fork and lifted it towards the plate, but nothing happened. The fork remained in your hand, only a few inches from the pork. You swallowed hard. Come on, Y/N, you told yourself. You can do this. Just a little bite. But as you tried to get the fork to approach the food, it started shaking in your hand. You could feel your heart racing, as the fork fell to the floor with a loud “clang!”

“Fuck…” you whispered, dragging both hands across your face in irritation before bending down to pick up the fork. 

“Hey”, Caleb said, and you looked up at him. “If ya don’t want it-”

“N-No, I do want it”, you said, the words were hard to get out from your tight throat. “I-I just need to…”

What? You needed to do what exactly? Staring down at your plate again, you could feel the sweat starting to form on your forehead. Why was this always so fucking hard? Why couldn’t you just enjoy the food, as Caleb did? It was getting cold by the minute, you knew that. And yet, here you were, just staring at your dinner instead of enjoying it. One more try. You grabbed the fork in your left hand, it was heavy as stone, and lifted it to the plate. Once again it remained floating above your dinner, and with an annoyed sigh you tossed it to the floor. Luckily, the saloon was filled with noise from the other guests, so no one heard your small commotion, but that was about to change real soon. 

“Hey, love…”, Caleb started, but suddenly you exploded.

“Don’t!” you shouted, pointing a finger towards Caleb.

The whole saloon suddenly went silent, and you knew all faces were turned towards you now. Feeling your body shake, your breath getting stuck in your throat, you got up from the chair in one fast motion and grabbed your plate.

“I’m so sick of this fucking horseshit!” you yelled, and the next second the loud noise from a metal plate hitting wooden floors rang through the silent saloon.

You clawed at your face in distress, letting out sharp breaths in short bursts. When would this hell end? Why were you being tormented like this? Feeling the tears burn behind your closed eyelids, your panic ramped up.

“Hey…” you heard Caleb whisper, and as you opened your eyes you saw him slowly getting up from his chair. “Darlin’, it’s okay, it’s okay. Let’s get out of here, okay?”

He talked calmly, as you do with a cornered wild animal, and somehow this actually made you feel a bit less panic-y. 

“I’ve paid for the food already. Let’s just go, alright?”

You swallowed hard and nodded, and followed Caleb out of the saloon in silence. You didn’t look back at the people still staring at you. As you got outside, the fresh desert air filled your lungs and finally you felt like you could breathe again. Caleb and you walked up to your horses that stood tied outside of the saloon, and Caleb turned to face you.

“Hey, it’s okay”, he said reassuringly, probably able to read the worry from your face.

You shook your head and muttered:

“Made a goddamn fool out of myself.”

To your surprise, Caleb let out a small chuckle.

“Who cares what those rednecks think? C’mon, let’s get back to camp and see what the boys are up to.”

You scratched your neck and lowered your gaze.

“Actually, I… I don’t think I want to be around the boys right now. I’d rather be alone with you for a while.”

Admitting this was to admit that the saloon happenings had taken a toll on you, but you didn’t care. You didn’t have to play tough in front of Caleb. He understood.

“Ah, I see”, he replied, nodding slightly. “Let’s get out of town atleast, shall we?”

To this, you smiled slightly, and Caleb knew that was a positive response. Getting up on your horses, you rode out of town into the hot desert afternoon. The sun was high in the sky and the summer breeze was as heavenly as ever. The two of you rode on for a while, not saying much. You knew Caleb didn’t care about your outbursts, he was used to them and knew how to handle them by now. Sure, sometimes it could take you a while to recover, but most of the time it went away pretty quickly. You had lots of other things to think about than to worry about food, but still the worry could take over sometimes. Your previous partner had thought you were crazy and left you, but Caleb took good care of you. Being the leader of the Hellshire gang, one could think he didn’t have a sensitive bone in his body, but that was wrong. Caleb Quinn could be as hard as stone and as cruel as the devil, but underneath all that there was a calm, funny, kind man who loved you. You knew that. 

“Let’s stop and rest a bit”, Caleb proposed, and pointed towards a big white oak tree.

Laying in the shadow of the tree, you felt almost calm. Caleb laid next to you, his eyes closed and his hat pulled down over his face. He wasn’t sleeping though, Caleb was a big snorer.

“Hey”, you said, and Caleb pulled the hat off his face almost immediately. “I’m a bit hungry, you got any beef jerky?”

You felt very stupid asking for his beef jerky after you had thrown the plate of food he had paid for on the floor, but you were indeed very hungry now. To your relief, Caleb only smiled and reached into his coat pocket. Pulling out a couple of jerkys, he gave them to you, and you quietly took them and started munching on one. You hoped Caleb wouldn’t comment on it, and luckily he didn’t. He knew you far too well to toss any snarky comments your way. You ate in silence, the wind in the trees and the prairie birds being the only sound. When you had finished your jerkys, you closed your eyes and relaxed onto the grass. A couple of minutes went by, then you could suddenly hear Caleb shifting next to you. Opening your eyes, you saw him scoot closer to you. With a smile on your lips, you welcomed him in an open embrace as he laid down next to you. Silence, again, and then…

“You know I love you, right?” Caleb said, and you looked at him with a big grin.

“You only say it every day”, you laughed.

Caleb grinned too and kissed you on your lips. Retracting, he looked at you, a warm smile still echoing on his lips.

“And I’ll do anything in the world to be there for you.”

You smiled, feeling your heart flutter at the words.

“I know”, you said.

#dead by daylight #dbd fanfic #dbd #the deathslinger #caleb quinn #the deathslinger x reader #caleb quinn x reader #cw anorexia #cw ed #tw anorexia #tw ed #cw anxiety #tw anxiety

[jinx-blackout-84]

please read the tags and cws on this post before reading and tag it heavily with cws if u rb

Bruh just got followed by a blog based entirely around this girl living the gym right. That's fine, good for her. I scroll a little further down, trying to make sure she's not a bot and see some pretty hurtful stuff about eating disorders :/ just sucks yk.

CW UNDER THE READ MORE THERE IS EATING DISORDER IDEATION AND ANOREXIA IDEALS. IT IS HARMFUL TO THINK THIS WAY AND NOT TRUE PASS BY IF YOU STRUGGLE WITH AN ED

Basically the post said "before you eat that, picture your goals... do you really need to eat today?"

And as a person who has struggled multiple times with an eating disorder from the age of SEVEN YEARS OLD, that shit fucking sucked.

So yeah.

Maybe be careful of who you follow, especially if you idealized eating disorders and self-harm.

#cw ed #cw ed mention #cw eating problems #cw eating issues #cw eating mention #cw food #Cw anorexia #Anorexia #Jinx screams into the void

[kingprinceleo]

4/5 vampire au/fire n water au/ happy auau/1000yb a couple more old art redraws, some meme redraws and some expressions i liked from that disgraced attorney animation

happy auau sonic has his robot hand, and now it can grow and stretch so he can cause even more problems!

#sonic the hedgehog #sth #shadow the hedgehog #metal sonic #blaze the cat #rouge the bat #sonadow #cw body horror #cw anorexia #vampire au #happy auau #1000 years bound #fire n water au

[silentfoxproductions]

TW: Eating disorders, anorexia, bulimia, & Child death

SPOILERS

I just watched To The Bone for the first time. Its about a girl, Ellen, who tackles her eating disorder in a very realistic way. Some people don't want help, or don't want to get better. The doctor (Keanu Reeves) admits her to a treatment place with a few others. Over the movie, I've felt really seen. As someone who dealt with severe anorexia...it took a lot of energy to actually break the cycle. There's some scenes where they aren't about feeling bad for not eating but...feeling good about being alive. Even thru struggles, there was hope. Eli (Ellen changes her name to Eli) befriends Luke, a guy in treatment as well who cannot perform dancing anymore. Luke falls for her and she pushes him away because (in my opinion) she feels so out of control that she just doesn't want another person to feel like she's being a burden. Near the end, one of the ladies in treatment was pregnant and when she was purging...she lost the child. It was such a hard scene to watch, but there wasn't shame. Sure someone blamed her but...the doctor didn't make her feel bad. And that's what really made it feel humane. Not forcing someone to fix themselves, but just offering the tools and hope for them. Eli runs away and returns to her biological mothers place where she finally admits she needs to be fed. The scene where her mother feeds her was so...emotional. Near the end, she had a sort of out of body experience as if she died. This makes her return to treatment. It ended there. It didn't end with her gaining weight, but her gaining hope. I've never cried so hard due to a movie.

There's a lot I didnt go over that I want to but just don't have the energy for. This movie isn't for everyone, but it was super good.

There's some stuff around saying how it glorifies anorexia and eating disorders, but I don't believe so. They don't demonize it. That's what matters.

#tw eating disorder #tw ed mention #tw ed #to the bone #tw child death #tw anorexia #tw bulimia #movie review #cw anorexia #cw ed #cw eating disorder #cw bulimia #cw child death

[not-poignant]

How would heats in omegas other than Ef's (since he is sort of a unique case) become corrupted? Is it from trauma, or something like a hormone disorder, or maybe both? Would they manifest similar to the way his did, and can they become physically dangerous to the person? Apologies for all the questions and if you've answered this somewhere before, I'm just fascinated by the depth of the biology you've created in UTB

Oooo I have talked about this before (on the Discord the most, I think), but generally they wouldn't manifest much like Efnisien's in general, because Efnisien isn't having a strictly omega heat in the first place (like you said, he's a unique case!) You can read Underline the Blue to get a better idea of a more 'classic' heat (though it's only just starting, we can see how profoundly Nate is affected by it immediately).

Generally speaking, corrupt heats can be caused by anything that has a severe impact on an omega's psyche or body. These are the things that impact our hormones in the first place (prolonged anorexia, or even the keto diet, can kill your periods and your fertility for example, it can cause severe testosterone deficiencies - putting the body and mind under stress = putting hormones under stress).

That can include physical and sexual abuse, malnutrition, prolonged illness, sudden major surgery, ongoing states of severe terror, natural disasters, witnessing / experiencing the death of a loved one, ongoing grief and complicated grief, experiencing different kinds of trauma, etc.

Not all of these things cause corrupted heats every single time, and not every corrupted heat has an obvious cause (though most do). They can absolutely become physically dangerous to the person experiencing them, and in extremely rare occasions can be fatal due to severe immune dysregulation / cytokine storms. But that's very rare.

A corrupted heat can usually be soothed pretty quickly with a combination of alpha pheromones and drugs. Alpha pheromones can completely reverse / heal a painful corrupted heat, and alpha presence alone is usually enough to take the edge off, even if the alpha is the one abusing the omega badly enough to cause the corrupted heat in the first place. Though sometimes the pain can linger and need external management.

I think Underline the Gold is where we'll see the first corrupted heat description, due to Flitmouse's anorexia. As he recovers, the heats he experiences will be very hard on his body and corrupt initially, because it's just too much for him to handle. Anton's presence will help a lot, but I believe - I haven't written it yet so I don't know for certain - that he will need medical intervention to make it truly manageable.

In some ways, Efnisien's heat was both severely corrupted in some ways (the fact that Gary's attempts at soothing didn't work for a long time, and presence alone wasn't enough), and not at all like a heat in others (he never once craved someone fucking him like omegas do), and his was influenced by swelling in his tissues creating infection re: the poorly executed surgery to remove his Lare gland/s. And this is something omegas don't have to deal with at all.

A lot of Efnisien's heat was unrecognisable to Efnisien and to Gary, because it was so incredibly mild, it's only Temsen who is like 'oh, he's actually been in heat for 2-3 days and none of us realised because we've never experienced this before??' Efnisien gets to have all the new unique experiences :D

#asks and answers #underline the rainbow #underline the black #efnisien ap wledig #dr gary konowalous #Flitmouse's anorexia is a huge predictor of corrupted heats #to the point where he's *stopped having them entirely* #as he starts eating more and slowly putting on weight again #the first heats he has will be like the last heats he had - corrupted #they will get better though over time #as his body gets stronger #eating disorders #eating disorder #cw anorexia

[futurebird]

Ana-biguity (noun)

When the people of the many ana tags that look like 90s hacker speak (#a^0rexIa etc.) post some "thinspo" photos without saying where the photos came from. Sometimes with text that could be about the photos, but it's unclear. "Maybe it's me, maybe it's not, uwu."

When you see a photo of someone you used to know online who is now dead in some kid's "thinspo" spread.

When you see a photo of someone in a thinspo spread who you know to be recovered and they'd hate it-- but also you don't want to bug them since it's triggering.

#anorexia #ed recovery #body positive #thin$po #hacker speak #censored tags #cw ed #cw anorexia #definitions #other people't photos

[buzzbuzzwhs]

#liv hewson #under my skin #cw anorexia

[mrsmarlasinger]

Fasting and low restricting and being underweight truly makes you soooo crazy insane depressed. Especially when you're simultaneously living off of chocolate, Takis, pizza, and ✨🚫NO🚫✨ vitamins or supplements 👍

#personal #disordered eating #disordered eating tw #disordered eating cw #tw disordered eating #cw disordered eating #ed tw #ed cw #tw ed #cw ed #anorexia #anorexia tw #anorexia cw #tw anorexia #cw anorexia #eating disorder #eating disorder tw #eating disorder cw #tw eating disorder #cw eating disorder #weight mention #ana tw #ana cw #tw ana #cw ana

[the-witty-nerd]

I’m so glad the old anorexia trend is over. People in the ‘90s and early 2000’s were like: “if my girl doesn’t have the body of a sickly Victorian eight year old boy I don’t want her!!” It was gross. I know fatphobia and misogyny are still a thing but at least we’re getting better as a society.

#everyone say thanks to gen z #cw fatphobia #cw anorexia #feminism #feminist #body positivity #women can be curvy now #and actually look like adult women instead of little boys #cw misogyny

[liefst]

when they say "anorexia is anger directed inwards" it sounds so stupid and fake like. oh, sure. and if you dream about a train driving through a tunnel then that means sex. but if you dare to look closely it is actually so true 😳

#tw anorexia #cw anorexia #cw eating disorder #cw ed #cw disordered eating