#destiel makes me insane

[strawberrryangel]

“there’s things, there’s people, feelings, that i want to experience differently than i have before, maybe even for the first time.” i’ll throw up. right now.

#‘maybe there’s more to it all than i thought’ #SHAKING HIM BY THE SHOULDERS #HE DIDN’T WANT TO DIE!!!!! #my god. #he literally needed cas so bad i’m crying #today was a good day that’s been taking a turn for the worse but i have this episode playing on the tv #god he makes me insane #destiel makes me insane #destiel #supernatural #spn #spn rewatch #dean winchester #castiel #s10e16 #tw emetophobia #tw vomit #strawbsposts

[lonesome-dreamsss]

his handprint may be burned into your skin but it's still the gentlest touch you've ever received.

#smth smth destiel #cas was always so gentle with dean #he knew of dean's pain and wanted to ease it!! #he wanted to be a good thing in dean's life!! #when he pulled him from hell it wasn't truly pulling #he cradled dean like he was the most precious thing in the world #and honestly he probably WAS the most precious thing in the world to cas #even as early as then #to quote 'when castiel first laid a hand on you in hell he was lost' #god they make me insane #dean winchester #castiel #destiel #supernatural #does this count as fanfic even if it's one sentence #a poem perhaps #idk it's something that i wrote so i'll take it

[warpedpuppeteer]

It's interesting how Buck's love interests are all written in a way that ends because of the reason they meet/happen in the first place and then of course, we have Eddie.

Abby, who changes Buck's view of a healthy relationship but then turns around and ghosts him, making him wait for months on end and letting him realize she's not coming back on his own.

Ali, who meets Buck during a dangerous situation in his line of work and then leaves him for how dangerous his work is.

Taylor, who lashes out at Buck for using her as a fake date and saying she thought she could trust Buck to be a friend who then ends up using him for her career and chose to put his friends in danger.

Natalia, who's there to help him embrace and deal with his temporary death but it leads to their break up because of the constant talk surrounding death when Buck's not comfortable with it.

We can't confirm for Tommy till it ends but it's important to note how he offers to get Buck into his interests like flying and muay thai yet doesn't show effort with Buck's interests like dressing up according to the bachelor party theme despite Buck being stressed about it. And we also have the fact that the entire reason they got together was due to Buck's jealousy for Eddie which he then claims to be was for Tommy. Makes me think they are either going to end because of differing interests OR because of the jealousy issue popping up again.

Funnily enough, every scene above has an Eddie parallel:

Eddie co-parents with Buck and not only does this not stop after a dangerous event but Eddie also has Buck down as a legal guardian (healthy relationship - Abby).

Eddie is in the same dangerous line of work and they have each other's backs. This happens right off the bat too.(dangerous job - Ali).

The Lawsuit era and The Dispatch era - both where they "betray" each other but manage to work through it (betrayal/lie - Taylor).

Eddie doesn't pressure Buck to talk about his temporary death until Buck's ready and is more focused about him living than in his death (death doula - Natalia).

Eddie who has different interests than Buck (poker, basketball and UFC/MMA) but also manages to show interest and actively takes part in whatever Buck comes up with; he suggests their outfit for the themed party AND ends up staying there for Buck even when others leave (different hobbies & showing interest/taking part - Tommy).

Absolutely fascinating when you start noticing that Buck's relationships keep failing for one reason or another and then we have him and Eddie who face the same sort of situations but they still come out of it stronger together.

It's clear that there's a reason Buck is able to overcome anything when it comes to Eddie (that conversation with Maddie about being there for each other even at their worst 👀) and we've already established that everything Eddie looks for in a partner is already something he has found in Buck. So really, all that's left is for them to realize that hey, the one I'm looking for is right in front of me! 🤷🏽

And yes, it's been said to death (hah) but you don't find it son you make it. And Buck and Eddie have already made it.

#character meta #relationship meta #think whatever you want it's up to you #but narratively tommy is a plot device #there's no if's or but's about it #I'm saying it like it is #the parallels between Buck's LIs and Eddie is insane #i just thought about making one about it since we mostly talk about how Buck fills all the things Eddie needs in a partner #this is my interpretation of how they've basically written themselves into a corner and the only possible way to go forward is with Buddie #doing anything else is a disservice to the characters and narrative so far #as Tim said #it's only natural and this is it #buck and eddie just naturally embody the ideal partner for each other #tim minear if you make me go through another destiel i will actually personally come and eat your kneecaps i can't do it anymore bro #it's literally all there!! #it's a masterpiece #i don't trust you enough but in Oliver ryan and jlh i trust #buddie #911 abc #eddie diaz #evan buckley #evan buck buckley #911 spoilers #I'm too lazy to tag all the characters because they're unimportant #the entire point of the post is Buck's LI vs Eddie anyways #so there

[denimshortsdean]

Cas really read dean to filth within an inch of his LIFE three (3) minutes after meeting him (What's the matter? You don't think you deserve to be saved?), threatened him the very next time he saw him (You should show me some respect. I'm the one who dragged you out of hell. I can throw you back in.), then the time after that overshared about being a good little soldier (Can I tell you something if you promise not to tell another soul? I'm not a... hammer, as you say. I have questions. I have doubts)

absolutely insane writing from the destiel show

#look i don't even know where i was going with this post #im just.... the timing of it all #like literally their first three interactions #in this exact order #im just fully insane about s4 and the way cas changes almost instantly after meeting dean in person #destiel #don't ask me to make sense of this post please it's almost midnight and i got like 4 hours of sleep last night #and lord im about to do it again #spn #it's ya boi rach

[limbel]

sometimes you just need to draw dean and cas smooching ykwim

my entry for @destieldtiyschallenge! ended up choosing this wholesome piece by the incredible magical @werepires cause it occurred to me that ive never drawn them kissing! so embarassing of me!!

#looove that i got to draw cas taller than dean lmao #hes just standing on a little footstool 🥰💫 #the destiel dynamic in this piece makes me insane btw #destieldtiys2024 #fanart #spn #supernatural #spn fanart #supernatural fanart #destiel #destiel fanart #deancas #deancas fanart #my art

[insanesonofabitch]

He was thinking about Dean wanting him back here…

#AARGRHRHRGRGRGRGRGHGHHH THEY MAKE ME FUCKING INSANE #“he may have a more objective view of the situation” HE DOESNT #AND SAM ACKNOWLEDGED THIS. AND LATER DEAN ALSO ACKNOWLEDGED THIS. BUT HE JUST WANTED *YOU* BACK!!!!! #supernatural #spn #spn 11x18 #hell’s angel #castiel #dean winchester #destiel #deancas #casdean #dean x castiel #reiotalks

[caught-a-dragonfly]

smooch 😘

#destiel #deancas #spn fanart #castiel #dean winchester #supernatural #these two make me insane

[bloodydeanwinchester]

🩸Bloody Dean Every Episode🩸- 15x18 Despair

#i would just like to remind you all that you voted for me to include this scene in this series #also sorry for so many gifs in one set but i just couldn't narrow it down to less than these 🤷🏻‍♀️ #this scene makes me feel so insane because it is SO clear that we did not get to see whatever it was they originally filmed here #bloodydeanseries #bloody dean #my beloved<3 #spn 15x18 #spnedit #deanedit #destieledit #cowboycoven #spn #supernatural #dean winchester #destiel #tusersana #usermoogs

[wickedwitchofthesouth]

I am still thinking about Castiel walking out on Dean during the divorce arc... After he apologized, after he held his tounge because I fucking know cas would have had some shit to say after Dean got Jack killed (and yes he did. nothing will ever change my mind on that)

But mostly I'm thinking about what was going through castiels head when he left. What emotions was he feeling? I'm sure he was sad, devastated even. But I wonder if he felt some tiny, distant, and undoubtedly dreadful inkling of relief at the thought of never seeing Dean again. Not because he was angry with Dean (which he had every right to be) but because not seeing Dean would have meant that he wouldn't be able to achieve true happiness

And not achieving true happiness at that point would have meant the empty leaving him alone, which would have in turn meant getting to live longer.

It would have meant getting to feel Dean's presence on earth for longer. It would have meant getting to admire humanity for longer. It would have meant getting to love Dean for longer

Even if it meant he would have only loved him from a far, Cas would be okay with that. He wouldn't be happy but atleast he'd be alive

Because god, at least he could still love him.

Maybe Cas left because he didn't want to be forgiven. Maybe he knew that forgiveness would leave him crawling back for more.

And the deal he'd made had bound his wrists in chains that read "more is less"

#i know i mentioned this in the tags somewhere a few days ago but i just wanged to elaborate on the thought #my litte saviour complex having darling boy #i adore him #he makes me insane #oh but how i love him #supernatural #castiel #dean winchester #destiel #dean castiel #deancas

[aturnoftheearth]

dean’s grief in 13x01 // in the wind (alive from whispering pines) by lord huron

#i feel like this one is gonna be kinda a flop esp since im posting it past 4am HOWEVER #its making me feel insane AND getting me used to my updated editor SO it was worth it :D #if this shows up in the band tag im running off a cliff btw. #i dont even know what to tag this as rip #jamvs #destiel amv #destiel #sort of ???

[angelsdean]

Morning Sunshine! some soft post-canon retired husbands<3 

#here they are hi goodmorning #thank u jackles for being insane and kissing ur ex-coworker like that ! makes for some rly great destiel art refs #also yes. the pinkie being Like That was very important to me. jackles why. it's so cute. #anyways. my post-canon long-haired dean agenda! #also bi nails ! grace-filled wedding ring ! hotdog pants ! #hot dog pants were so fun to do. drew a little hotdog. made a pattern. we love. #myart #deancas art #destiel art #destiel #deancas

[youchangedmedestiel]

How I see the world since I watched Supernatural:

#my optician probably made a mistake when he made my glasses #or maybe those two idiots in love make me insane enough to do this kind of photo montage #insane show for insane people #and since I watched spn they blur my vision #they occupy all my thoughts #they have taken over my life #it has been more than a year #when I say destiel changed me #I'm not kidding #I chose to do this with glasses #because it's easier #but I guess it could also work with headphones #because they interfere with them too #because I also rediscovered all my playlists through them #destiel #deancas #dean winchester #castiel #destiel glasses #my personal experience with destiel

[suncaptor]

I might not avidly post destiel anymore, but like I will never deny they were writing destiel with purpose at war with themselves and also that Dean is bisexual sorry it's just real ✌️✌️

#spn #incoherents #supernatural #destiel #dean is bi #anyways! #yes i sastiel post more now but thats not bc i think it was the writers Intent. i just think its more interesting and fun these days #destiel often makes me sad now instead of just insane

[girlwithonegoal]

sorry but the only reason destiel even works is because wincest did it first and also better

i've been thinking a LOT about this and want to get it all out so here it is. if dean was truly in love with cas, he would not have hesitated to tell him so when he literally knew cas was about to DIE. we don't see that. we see shock, grief, disbelief (an angel loves me!), we see him trying desperately to process his best friend is leaving him but nowhere does dean say, or imply, with his eyes, or words, that he's in love with cas. of course he loves cas - cas is family - and cas is not exactly his brother, (closest is brother-in-arms), despite his insistence in an earlier episode - but he's not in the kind of soul-crushing love that cas is with him. he's not in love with cas, and can't be, because he's already in love with sam.

when dean dies, he gets as close as he possibly can to confessing to sam he's in love with him without actually crossing the line. he would never to that to sam - he would never do to sam what cas did to him - because he would NEVER do anything to make sam lose his agency (sidebar: not that cas doesn't respect dean. but his love confession is almost wish fulfillment - i'm going to confess to dean i love him and go out in a blaze of glory and then leave without dean ever even having to reciprocate because i know he doesn't love me back. and he's absolutely right).

dean has already had years and years of not having his own agency from john his whole fucking life! john did whatever he wanted to dean and dean took it because like hell was he going to subject sam to that bullshit. which brings us to sam and dean's childhood - not much is known of their early years before sam went to stanford and that's fully on purpose. we can almost see dean as not only a brother figure to sam but also a father figure. john leaving for weeks maybe even months at a time - how the hell did dean and sam manage to survive? by dean doing whatever he had to do. emphasis on whatever.

you see, john absolutely knows that dean is beautiful. whether you read their relationship as purely abusive or abusive with a sexual component - dean definitely did questionable things to get food on the table for sam, an aspect that's more in fanon that canon but reads true to the heart of the show. sam doesn't know because dean wanted a normal childhood for him. and dean would rather die and go to hell for 800 years than force sam to make a choice, make any choice, of a romantic and/or sexual nature related to him.

back to dean's death. this is again the closest thing to a love confession that dean can make - my baby brother - take out the word brother and it would be not only romantic but stunningly true - he raised sam, this child who grew up to be a man, this child who loves him - waiting outside sam's dorm for hours - can you picture him pacing in the snow, waiting for the one thing he wants but can't have??? why does that sound familiar? oh, right, because that's what cas said but in dean and sam's case it would be actually true. how cruel and unbelievably insane it is to find your soulmate in your brother, the one person you have that you love unconditionally, not just because they are your family but because you are in love with them, and you can never have them as long as you live.

re: american gothic and soulmatism. very different from crimson peak where thomas fully realizes the unhealthiness of the codependent incestuous relationship with his sister and wants to be free and happy with edith. but sam and dean don't want to be free. in their minds, they already are free as long as they have each other and only each other. not getting in all the other romantic relationships that the brothers have with other people bc it would take too long, but they already fulfill that need for each other and don't need anyone else...like i'm sorry i love my sister but i want to get married one day to someone else. if you read their relationship as purely platonic, it doesn't work at ALL.

the kripke early seasons fully leaned into the gothic horror aspect of it all and incest is definitely a part of that...dean and sam literally cannot live without each other. they can't do it! sam dies in dean's arms and dean can't even wait five fucking minutes without making a deal with a demon lmao. he can't eat. he can't sleep. their love is a perpetual resurrection; they keep killing each other and bringing each other back to life. because they don't know how to stop. they are a singular mangled fucked up entity. i read a fic once where the author described sam as hating his own body because it was separate from dean's and dean's whole presence was a phantom pain. and yeah. just yeah. they can't live without each other because they ARE each other.

seasons 1-3 to me are spn at its soul. that's it. cas only works as a side character, if he's a brother (like, purely platonically) to both sam and dean or just unrequited romantic love for dean. the trope of an angel falling in love with a faithless man who can't pray only works if dean hasn't been in love with sam the whole time.

#wincest #anti destiel #supernatural #dean/sam #deansam #samdean #supernatural meta #spn #spn meta #meta #* #i actually don't hate destiel but come on....everything about destiel can be applied to wincest. everything! #“i'd rather have you cursed or not” - like are you kidding me? who is more cursed than sam #the vessel of lucifer?!?!?! #also destiel is too sweet for me. there i said it. cas makes dean better and a little less codependent with sam #but i want dean and sam to be fucked up for eternity #buried alive together. #arms reaching out for each other. do you get me #this also works SO well if you keep in mind cas was insanely rude to sam when they first met #because he fucking KNEW that sam was in love with dean #and dean felt the same way

[souporsaladnatural]

Jackles why did you put Walkin After Midnight, a song about searching for your lover, and Rebel, a song about a wanted man running while wishing his lover was with him, in the winchesters and have dean say he'll keep picking the music. Why did u do that

#anything youd like to say to me jackles hmmm #rebel makes me INSANE cuz lik thats literally dean in the winchesters!!!! he is breaking the rules and avoiding jack and looking for smth #more than peace in heaven!!! and then u ALSO hav the parts about wanting to love someone and wishing they were there!!!!!!! #at som point i gotta go thru all the songs used in the winchesters cuz lik #these 2 were both within the first lik 3 eps #idk why this in particular makes me crazy when its literally the dean/destiel mirror show but it does #spn #supernatural #spnwin #the winchesters #dean winchester #destiel #cat spirals tag

[insanesonofabitch]

I fucking love crowstiel and their shenanigans in season 6 but also whenever I watch that scene with Dean finding out what they’ve been doing all along it just it fucking breaks my heart and when Dean asks “You in it with him? You’re with Crowley? You’re going after purgatory together?” the emphasis on the word “together” just fucks me up so bad and when and when Cas asks Dean “where were you when I needed to hear it?” HE WAS WITH LISA but Dean was like “I was there, where were you?” HE WAS WITH CROWLEY and AAARRGHRGGRHRGHRGGGGHRGGGRRHHH and the fact that they that they reused those lines word for word, bar for bar with an explicitly canon couple some seasons later????????? Like???????????

#thinking about them makes me insane #please #im gonna start snorting powdered glass #it would’ve been a lot easier if they just shot me #why’d they choose the hammer? #destiel #deancas #crowstiel #drowley #deancascrowley #dean x cas x crowley #drowstiel #dean winchester #castiel #spn crowley #supernatural #spn #06x20 #spn 06x20 #reiotalks