#even if my brain is sick

[foe-paw]

YOU THOUGHT THAT YOU COULD OUTSMART THE VERY THING THAT RUNS THE BLOOD OF YOUR KIND?

#starkid #black friday #team starkid #hatchetfield #uncle wiley #wilbur cross #foe art #my brain disease re. this weasel guy in full denim continues #in Mine own headcanon he was very similar to john mcnamara when he entered the portal - a strongly moral person and a patriot #but wiggly manages to establish that the only way for wilbur to get what he wants (to help his country even though it is sick and militaris #and poisoned with consumerism and the chase for money above all else- #(wilbur cross is an anticapitalist is what i'm saying) #anyways yeah. wiggly sells despair and wrath and convinces him that the Only Way to save the world is through wiggly's ways! #no hope otherwise! #so....... why not become a comically evil double-crossing full-denim satan archetype! #also fun fact it took me two whole watches of black friday before realizing wiley wasn't meant to be literally satan #he's only figuratively satan! #the anticapitalist activist we deserve :]

[boneinator]

Ik there are usamericans following me I have a question for yall , what the fuck do y'all even eat . Like . The typical huge greasy American breakfast has to be an exaggeration but I really can't think of meals that don't contain stuff exclusive to my country and do you guys even have that honestly

#no dulce de leche ... no pepas .... no milanesas ...... #what a sad life #/j ofc im being hyperbolic but fr what #I mean this as in like . what you usually have in your main meals not something specific #also let's not even talk about the hours y'all manage im going to get sick . dinner at 6 pm ??? ong no honor to the merienda ... #rambles #completely random post but im just really tired my brain doesn't work very well

[noecoded]

ok..view my yuri boy

#worst yuri relapse in 6months . fml #i miss asmo though nd i keep picture #picturing mae nd asmo in one img together anf feeling a little sick. like thinkiing of mixing pepsi and milk. theres something wrong #i dont even like limbus company i dont play it either idgaf about anything that isnt these 2 girls... latched into my brain bad #come chat w me eslewhere at 2400db i hide out there nd post ab my sillies despite my hatred for that app frowning emoji #faust #ishmael

[pollsnatural]

I decided I want to pit deanpeople destiel shippers and caspeople destiel shippers against each other.

Dean vs destiel poll

NOTE: destiel isn't explicitly canon in either case.

ANOTHER NOTE: this poll is meant for destiel shippers.

#polls #spn #supernatural #dean winchester #castiel #destiel #pollsnatural about destiel #incorrectly copied question #sorry my brain works even worse bc i'm kinda sick rn

[ballapa]

Guys, how to fight them? I can’t stand this anymore. I’m so tired.

No matter how many counterarguments are given to them, they still continue to believe in their fable. Even when the show explicitly says that Lloyd is an adult, they're like, "ugh, no, I don't give a damn, he's still a kid."

Oh, just shut up. The words of the creators apparently mean nothing to them either.

#I'm so sick of people continuing to spread misinformation. #and okay if they themselves thought so but they also deceive others #these people don't even try to use their brains even a little #I swear just a little longer and my patience will run out #ninjago #lego ninjago #ninjago lloyd #lloyd garmadon #ninjago dragons rising

[muzzleroars]

the aesthetics of (impersonal) love

#ultrakill #gabriel #hm. well. wanted to do something that's the aesthetic opposite of heresy #gabriel once again playing alone in a cathedral #but here unthinking and devoid of passion...mechanical if you will #yet he plays so well and knows he feels so deeply #it's just so impossible to know if the receiving end of his music returns that love or even hears it #OR maybe sometimes i just need to get the pastels out of me #doodle tag #ps i'll get back to asks soon i promise!!! #i just have been sick and my brain has turned to mush lol

[leafwateraddict]

Can we talk about the fact Horror is the biggest hypocrite ever.

Can we talk about how he doesn’t eat humans and what that implies about him, whether it be some kind of semblance of him believing he doesn’t deserve to eat in any capacity, or believes that he’s above others in some way by not doing so? (Though it’s likely the latter, considering he did take the makeshift ketchup from aliza)

Can we talk about how for the sake of revenge he essentially fucked over all of monsterkind by destroying their last hope of survival.

Can we talk about how he gave Papyrus what I can only assume was a human organ disguised as a tomato when he said he didn’t want to eat humans.

CAN WE PLEASE TALK ABOUT HOW he tricked Papyrus into eating humans so he wouldn’t starve, while simultaneously refusing to eat human flesh in any capacity.

#HE DRIVES ME FUCKING INSANE DO YOU EVEN UNDERSTAND #MY BRAIN IS MELTING #G O D #he makes me sick #i love him i hate him i love him i hate him #horrortale #horrortale sans #horrortale papyrus #undertale au #i dont think i could explain how much i love and hate him if i tried #its like i want to kiss him and throw hands at the exact same time #is this enemies to lovers #leaf posts

[aryxchse]

hello!!! can i request a jealous luffy x reader?

im so sorry im seeing this so late omg, hope u'll like it <33

you were sitting at this bar which seemed calm and quiet. you don't exactly know why you were this stressed, but you did know that you needed to get some time alone.

your energetic boyfriend luffy, who looks like he has no interest in problems of becoming the king of the pirates, told you himself that you needed to rest your head for a while. he'll eventually find you when it's time to go.

it was a small island that you guys stopped. everyone knew eachother and constantly saying 'hi!' or 'how are you doing?' to one and other. you smiled at yourself while watching this cute kids interact with eachother while their moms talk.

you were distracted until you heard someone cough right next to you. with a cold stare —which you gained this ability after joining the strawhats— you looked at the person sat beside you. tall, dark haired man with a shit eating grin.

"and here i thought i knew all of the pretty girls in this town," he said, laughing. very cheesy of him.

you just rolled your eyes and continued your drink. looking at the same spot where the children still talking.

"c'mon beautiful, don't give me that attitude-" he tried to brush of a hair of your face. key word; tried. before you could even snap, stretching arms banged the man's head into the alcohol shelfs. making a huge mess, your boyfriend appeared next to you.

"i could've handle it," you said, biting back a smile. everyone started screaming, and you felt bad a little. just because of a stupid bastard, everyones mood was ruined.

"i know baby," luffy said, staring coldly at the man he just beated the shit out of with no efford; "i couldn't help myself."

before everyone could start a chaos, you two got out of the bar, hand in hand with a big smile on your faces.

"were gonna clean your hand when we get back to the ship." you said. he smiled, looking like a sunshine. "yes ma'am."

#im sorry if this is bad or too short or doesnt even make sense #im sick and my brain doesnt function #one piece #opla luffy #one piece x y/n #one piece hcs #one piece x you #luffy headcanons #monkey d luffy imagine #luffy imagine #luffy x reader #one piece luffy #monkey d. luffy #op luffy

[tei-to-tei]

December 14 - Spare Time

1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | ...

#rottmnt #rise fanart #rise of the tmnt #rise raph #rise donnie #brains and brawn #they're sciencin' your honor #i love this duo so much even back in 2003 #“anyway journal” wise - i wanted to do so much today #like read fics and actually write again #but instead i woke up with a day-long migraine ;-; ended up just sleeping most of the day and drinking soup #i think i'm getting sick which sucks and staring at the screen just to doodle this hurt so bad #excedrin my love i need you to actually work again #whoops ramble over ok goodnight T___T #teidoodle #tei's dec23

[janjan-the-ninth]

My brain whenever I hear that Cavill is the Witcher and cannot be replaced:

#srsly #my brain saw this s2 promo and took it too seriously #if you don't want to watch Hemsworth #that's okay #if you want to continue watching for whatever reason #that's okay too #i'm just sick of people constantly demonising s4 when it's not even filmed yet #let people who still enjoy the show enjoy it #y'all had one and a half year to be upset about this #it's time to move on to fandoms and shows you actually enjoy instead of hating people for enjoying something you don't #the witcher #the witcher netflix #twn #jaskier #jaskier the bard #joey batey #geralt of rivia #mine #note: this post was made cause joey batey as jaskier is my light and joy #and i'm so happy that i'll get two more seasons with him!

[moeblob]

#fe fates #camilla #so i actually drew this a while ago but was gonna shade it and do more emoji things #but welp uh hmmmm im sick and apparently look like I'm dying #which isnt a problem until i sit down to draw and my vision is blurry and yeah thats a problem #so i just attempted to do a doodle and then failed and opted to apply a tiny but of shading to this and give up #but yup uh after a nice of body aches and misery and trying to sleep and failing #i crashed from 10am to 5pm thinking id just rest a lil bit #before anyone says oh you could have taken a day off you know - i technically can yes youre right #however my brain uses art as a coping mech and i need that coping mech really bad right now #which is why i stopped trying to draw something new for today and just went back to a past thing #im not overdoing it i promise #even if my mom and sister think i look like death walking around

[lemon-wedges]

Its been a while since I updated this little project but heres the dealio. I got "mysteriously" sick for the last 2 months and it kinda halted my work on getting this thing physically printed. BUT IM BACK and ready to start this up again. I'm really hoping i get everything done by Jan. or very latest feb (mostly anticipating for holiday slow down)

In the meantime i got a few questions on my interest check asking if i would offer a digital version of the zine. and the answer 2 months late is YES I WILL YOU CAN GET IT NOW ACTUALLY ON MY GUMROAD OR KO-FI HURRRAYYYYYY!!!! 🥳🥳 GO CHECK IT OUT ITS $3

GUMROAD | KO-FI

#the art of a lemon wedge #homumiko #baroryuu #otasune #feel like a fucking #victorian woman in a novel the way i got sick for no reason those months #vertigo. brain fog. parts of my body would go tingley. and for 2-3 hours at a random time of the day my entire body would just feel BAD #idk else how to describe it cause it was not pain #i could not predict what would trigger those 2-3 hours of BAD and it seemed to change every day #and then some days i wouldnt get them but i would still get vertigo and brain fog whenever i would go to bed #anyways #IT WAS THE WATER #STUPID LA WATER BLEH BLEH #I WENT TO TEXAS TO VISIT FAM FOR A WEEK AND ALL MY SYMPTOMS WENT AWAY #-_- #and now im on a strict distilled/purified bottle water diet #i cant even eat food thats been boiled in whatever the hell gets put into the gallons at the store.....sigh #BUT IM BETTER #and ready to get back into it #:D

[trustworthycinnamon]

Howdy Ultimate Dirk nation how are we doing today I'm sorry for my evil crimes (or am I)

#homestuck #homestuck beyond canon #dirk strider #ultimate dirk #ult dirk #homestuck 2 #hsbc #epic galleria #i dont like adding so many technical tags but if i dont organize myself i'll fucking explode and die and go Ult #one might call this yassifying. i simple call it having a Big Brain and Seeing the Truth #that screenshot is from an upload of Beatup btw. mf has like 3 fucking theme songs. lets beat him up #i was forced to draw fuckin hands. worst moment in my life. this was my own form of torture #you can see where i started to give up and go Fuck it We ball. tf is this bastard hunk wearing #what it is wrong with him. it is so attractive #i want him so bad i feel sick. i think i hauve covid. joder que bueno está el condenao me lo cargo a besos dame una noche con él #hey why dont you fuck with My narrative handsome. leans against wall with a rose on my mouth #i dont even read h:bc btw but the slay energy that panel had provoked some energy inside me in me to activate

[neptunianka]

#metal gear #revolver ocelot #kazuhira miller #art #what even is this #i am sick and my brain is melting #i wan ocelot tot be a real cowboy like in those moieves #like lee van cleef

[artheresy]

I can’t stay quiet about this, I need to scream it to SOMEBODY ANYBODYYY

Dan Heng and Blade were Dan Feng and Yingxing. “Dh and Bld are Df and Yx!” Nope, their current selves aren’t them, that lacks nuance. “Dh and Bld aren’t Df and Yx!” THAT ALSO LACKS NUANCEE they are still connected and fundamentally shaped by their past identities, they aren’t entirely separate from them while also still being separate in a way. The best way I can describe it is like a venn diagram, there is overlap, but there also are still areas where they don’t.

To expand more, I wanna talk about the way they foil each other a bit in this sense. For Dan Heng, even if he is a botched rebirth, simply a “de-aged Dan Feng” not fully reborn, he is still not Dan Feng. While Dan Feng has made up the basis of his personality and he accepts him as his past, I think we forget that Dan Heng had his own entire childhood after the molting rebirth was completed. One he spent imprisoned by the Ten Lords Commission, and then he was exiled when he was old enough leading to his whole journey until he became apart of the Astral Express crew etc etc. Dan Heng is made up of a basis of Dan Feng + All of his own memories and experiences. While he shares traits with Dan Feng such as personality aspects like his stubbornness, his technique with a spear, and being able to connect with his old items, he also is very much himself with his own outlook and traits shaped by what he’s learned rather than what he has been born with. To treat him as if he is Dan Feng exactly is a disservice to both of their characters and the greater narrative that they apart of. He may still carry the burdens and karma of Dan Feng, but Dan Heng is still making his own future.

Now, Blade. Blade similarly is not Yingxing, not completely. Though he accepts Yingxing’s sin as his own and is intent of repaying the sin of Dan Feng and Yingxing (and getting Dan Heng to repay it too), there still are distinctions between him and Yingxing. In fact, I’d argue there are more things separating them. I could talk for so long again about the layered use of craftsmanship to connect, or rather disconnect, the two identities of Blade and Yingxing, but there’s more than that. “Now, ██ had died. His first — and only — death.” “From this moment on, that body will be the one and only "Blade."” Although Blade was Yingxing, a disconnect exists between them through the death of Yingxing. He awoke with no memories of his past, no even his name, until Jingliu came along, instilled in him her ideologies, made him remember, not only his past sins but the feeling of death so that he might inflict it onto others. As she said, he was reborn and had even given himself a name…

I want to add that the specific ways in which their current identities exist in proximity to their past ones foil each other. As I said, Dan Heng, in part as his sabotaged rebirth, is built upon the foundation of Dan Feng and all of his own experiences and memories. He has the capacity to gain back more memories of Dan Feng as his DH IL character stories outline, and though he is still himself and still moves forward, we see him accept his relation to Dan Feng eventually. Though that past life of his is clouded by fog and mist, he may eventually be able to push away the clouds that block him and understand more, about Dan Feng and in turn about himself. With Blade, it is so heavily emphasized in game from his relic lore to the very sword he uses that his mind is essentially broken, due both in part to the trauma of Jingliu’s “teachings” and the mara that was brought on by those lessons. He can’t fully remember everything about Yingxing, in fact actively remembering such or seeing familiar things is harmful to him. Like his shard sword, he is made of broken pieces, put together in a way that can never erase the cracks, and continuously shattering before being glued together again. His life is shaped by Yingxing’s past, the trauma he has endured is directly caused by his past actions. Unlike Dan Heng, he hasn’t had this whole life to build up and live. Though he’s experienced new things, they don’t shape him and change him in the way that Dan Heng’s built his identity up.

Where Dan Heng basically has supplements to Dan Feng’s identity that make him who he is, Blade is the broken shards and pieces of Yingxing that weren’t lost to the waves, making him who he is. Dan Heng is a next chance, finally free from the Preceptors’ control and of the role that stripped his past selves of their individuality, meanwhile Blade is the husk left behind of Yingxing’s regrets, broken by trauma caused due to Yingxing’s past actions, forever tormented by his past until he inevitably is able to die. If Dan Heng is more than just Dan Feng which is why he is separate but intertwined with him, than Blade is less than Yingxing, in a way that has caused such a severe disconnect that has caused Blade to have his own identity still shaped. And looking at this, not to again bring up my craftsmanship post about Blade, Dan Heng can connect to Dan Feng. He can clear the fog, remembering his memories through dreams even if he can’t fully connect emotionally to him, and he finds sentiment in many of items that once were his, smth not many Vidyadhara actually are capable of doing. To contrast, Blade is forever separated from connecting completely to Yingxing’s identity. His memories will always be fragmented, his own path entirely changed. He can’t connect to Yingxing’s past goals and passions, seen through the distinct decision made in his character stories to talk about how he can no longer use his hands to forge weapons (something that completely defined Yingxing’s life and legacy, tied to his childhood trauma and hatred of the Abundance, something that became his genuine passion), and how none of that mattered to Blade.

All of this, the ways they foil each other and the separation between their past selves and current, just makes me love their dynamic and their lore a lot. Makes me want to cry most days of my life if I’m honest. And it’s part of why I do take issue with the way nuance has completely left this argument, only having two extremes of “Dan Heng is Dan Feng!” Or “Dan Heng isn’t Dan Heng!” Again… Dan Heng WAS Dan Feng, he wouldn’t be Dan Heng without Dan Feng, but he is still himself. That’s part of the tragedy between them. They are still fundamentally defined and shaped by their past selves, similarities able to be spotted if they can be remembered, but they’ve also experienced so much that has changed them, and they can never truly go back to being Dan Feng and Yingxing. It would never be fully the same again.

#okay rant over #ahahahha #i hate seeing arguments about them #especially on tiktok this is unfortunately where i see the most nuance lost #i just needsd to rant #especially once my brain finally clicked how they foil each other in yet another element #that being ofc the supplement vs fragment style with their past selves #they make me insane #i hate them sm #(i love them way too much #they make me SICK #even if hyv has fucked up a bit in the actual quest writing at times #the sheer level of detail and care put into dan heng and blade’s lore is RAAAHH #i am having allergies #my leg pain is still awful today #and think about these two is only making my health worse HELP #hsr #honkai star rail #hsr blade #yingxing #dan heng #dan feng #renheng #hengren #xingyue #fengxing #I wrote this last night at 1 am but held off posting it until now o7

[dollsome-does-tumblr]

#i probably left some out but this was the list my brain came up with at 6 pm on this random wednesday evening! #dollsome does polls #i finally chose 30 rock after several minutes of somber contemplation #but man. what a sick choice i've inflicted upon you all!