#every time i look at this art i want to cry

[m-jelly]

I want to say a massive thank you to those that follow me. The reblogs, comments and #'s on my recent art of Levi have been incredibly overwhelmingly sweet and wonderful. Thank you.

My mental health is a lot better and I have spent some time getting to know myself, hanging out with friends and messaging one of my best friends that I made on here years ago ❤️ thank you @ladycheesington for being there on discord and making me smile even when I was crying every day. You kept me sane.

I feel better and things aren't fully fixed and I'm still not allowed my best but I will be back with oneshots on Monday. All the oneshots I've been sent are amazing and I look forward to making all of them.

I missed Levi. I missed making stories. I missed being creative. I missed it all. I have some ideas and my brain is starting to work again. I look forward to making things again.

[wizardofrozz]

The Magician

CT-1409 Corporal Echo:

The Magician represents willpower, the manifestation of one’s thoughts and desires.

I picked Echo for the magician almost immediately after reading through each card’s meaning, especially after TBB season 2. Echo is the epitome of willpower after what he’s been through ❤️

Taglist: @sleepingsun501 @sexy-rex

Major Arcana Masterlist

#star wars #the clone wars #star wars fanart #arc trooper echo #tbb echo #ct-1409 #the bad batch #every time i look at this art i want to cry

[altades]

You know, the guy

#trigun #trigun stampede #trigun maximum #vash the stampede #digital art #artists on tumblr #i thought about vashs scars again #every time i draw him i have to think about them and i want to cry #he looks like hes been mauled by a bear #several times #but its really bracing against the entirety of humanitys cruelty #i cry

[nuggies69]

Sentimental

Update:

Wanted to share what was going on in my head while drawing but most of em were just flashing images and not words. So here are the words.

My idea was that the 1st image was a photo Genji loved so much, he always had it on his person. Unfortunately, this also means it got caught in the crossfire of that fateful night. Genji would continue to hold on to the photo even through BW period, tho at that time, he wouldn't look at it and just keep it somewhere in his room.

Young Hanzo wasn't one to keep photos like that because who would've thought he'd have to k1ll his bro! So he still took things for granted as everyone would before losing something important.

Fast forward to the present time, Hanzo finally turned sentimental and appreciate every moment they have together. He got that awkward standing pose in the 2nd image cuz Genji pulled him in for the photo. Neither are as daring as they used to be, but they're trying to re-connect again. Now they both have a new photo to keep.

#genji shimada #hanzo shimada #overwatch #nuggies art ow #overwatch2 #genji #Hanzo #My uni class resumes tomorrow and I wanted to do smth nice for myself so I printed that first one to put into my phone case #so I can cry every time I look at them #Also look at my baby Genji smiling

[carma-tjol]

“To know you is to love you.”

#one punch man #OPM #fubuki #psykos #fubukos #psybuki #fubuki x psykos #psykos opm #fubuki opm #carma art #take my heart dont lose it... listen to your heart #do you know how fucking long i spent downloading glaze for this #or uhhh drawing it in general #worth it. this is my lockscreen now. every time i look at it i want to cry. like in a good way. WAHHHHH #everything i draw gets a massive improvement from the last #probably because i was taking a life drawing class at the same time #something about drawing naked people constantly makes you better at anatomy and shading. who knew. #10/10 do recommend. take a life drawing class if youre an artist (and not a perv) #color work has always been my weakest point and im taking a painting class next quarter. none of u are fucking ready for me

[ganondoodle]

a wild assortement of comic wip screenshots and a random doodle that i posted to twitter but not here

(this doodle here is of Raal (aka demise before he became a deity) but whatever happens here isnt anything 'canon', i just randomly doodled him to try a loosen up my painting style bc when i work on the comic i tend to concentrate too much of rendering it perfectly and i dont like that)

#ganondoodles #doodles #art #i am so very tired #too tired for tags #btw i do love and read every ask i get but damn i just dont have the energy to reply to most #and i feel so guilty #i wish i could make a warning show up when someone wants to send me an ask #that just says -yo i love and cherish and reread all asks but unfortunately have zero energy to reply but chances are it made me cry- #given the asks isnt mean spirited or straight up bots #which my impsoter brain sometimes still tries to make me think #like either woo look at all those people LYING to your face #but i have grown alot since those days and now its mostly just #so look what a nice and lovely absolutely beautiful ask this person send you and you disrespectful fool are not answering it shame upon you #thats most likely why i have been getting less and less and man i feel so bad #like when its asks about drawing advice i either dont know what to say bc i dont have any idea what im doing eihter #or bc i plan a giant response with a big ass illustrated tutorial even tho i know i neither got the time or energy for it #but still cant answer then bc wait you wanted to make a tutorial you cant answer it just like that #and when its a super nice compliment about my art i just #dont know how to express my gratitude and silently reread it time and time again never answering it bc then it would be gone from the inbox #;__; #alright falling asleep brain better not have written sth i will regret reading tomorrow #i think this is the longest tags i put on a completely unrelated post of mine #if you have read all these tags send me an ask only containing the name of your fav fruit and i will make you a little pixel sprite of it

[whatthefuckisasweep]

figuring out / experimenting how to draw these 2 in my style and how i want them to look!!!!!!!!!

God i LOVEEEE THEM !!!!! It is so interesting to see how the aging looks in my style wahhhh i usually dont draw lil kiddos so

also to those who liked my past IT art, thank you. It has made my week rlly good, everyones comments warm my heart, and even the smallest ones ive shown to my friends!!!! Thank you sm!!!!!!!!

#IT #it movie #it 2017 #it 2019 #richie tozier #eddie kaspbrak #losers club #the losers club #my art #i still want my eddie to be a bit more scruffy #and maybe older richie to be more dog-like energy #but wah!!! LOOK AT THEM!!!!!! #dude i will never get over these two #aawaahh #i need to actually draw more other losers #bc i love them all sm #aaaa #once again thank you all for your comments #you dont understand how much it means to me #im literally at my computer like. abt to cry every time LMAJFJDKFN

[sophieswundergarten]

@nobody33333333!! I can't seem to find it, but you had a silly poll up the other day about fanart for S.O.S. (Which is a fic everyone should go read!!)

I cannot do art, so I've been really hesitant to try and make fanart for anyone's work (Even though I desperately wish I could, because y'all are amazing and thoroughly deserve it).

However, today I drew up some little sketches for what kind of stuffed bird I think Pedalian might have made for SQ, because I really love that detail :)

I hope you like them!

They're supposed to be kind of cartoony since they're stuffed animals, and I think these kinds of birds are good shapes/colours for a kid's toy. Also, I feel like Pedalian wouldn't just... make a stuffed animal that's a vague approximation of what might be bird shaped? He seems like he'd be more careful with the design, because honestly a lot of "bird" stuffed animals are ridiculous. But that's just me!

#There's a question mark on the chickadee because its colours got kind of muddled and dark #So now it's just some vague bird in the Paridae family #Because that's NOT how Black-capped chickadees look #Also I can't draw bird feet :( #But I've been meaning to try doodling again and I really wanted to do art for someone's fic #Unfortunately every time I try to draw humans the result makes me want to cry #So I did birbs! #Maybe someday I'll figure out how to do fanart that doesn't involve humans... #And then y'all better watch out!! #s.o.s.

[meymeyzart]

crazy anthem!!

#low effort but I wanted to draw them!! #and this is the first time I draw kohaku. Very fun experience #annnyway anyone else rewatch the mv a bajillion times to look at every single detail and cry at how perfect and cute it is #honestly I think it might be the best mv we've gotten so far #and I love roadtrip stories I can't wait for the story huhuh #crazy:b #enstars #ensemble stars #fanart #amagi rinne #yeah I'll only tag him. congrats on ur event big boy #my art #also do ignore the fact that I did not even attempt to draw their little bee brooches

[medicalbasils]

Herrscher Of Human : Ego !! :D

#digital art #artwork #artists on tumblr #elysia #hi3 fanart #honkai impact 3rd #elysia hi3 #herrscher of human ego #art #illustration #honkai fanart #fan art #i want her so bad #she is gorgeous #every time I look at her I feel like crying she is so gorgeous omg

[medeiart]

he’s my wife and i love him very much

#he’s so beautiful i want to cry every time i look at him #i want to hold him gently because he deserves it #arthur morgan #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #rdr #rdr2 fanart #my art

[randomminty]

If i dont get scarlet and violet news soon i might explode

#im having the hardest time drawing fuecoco but its also quickly becoming my favourite so #pokemon scarlet and violet #pokemon scarlet #pokemon violet #fuecoco #sprigatito #quaxly #pokemon #the protags dont even have names yet. or the region #anyway i like the girl protag designs. her hair looks like she tried cutting it at home but completely ruined it #so she threw it into a plat and called it a day. perfect #they look so young too??? these kids are like. 11. theyre toddlers #im seeing people i havent seen or spoken to since i used my ask blogs. whats up #art tag #looked back at the old presents and thought this month was the 6th not 5th. heartbroken crying #analysing every little thing in the reveal trailer. npcs can eat #ALSO i hc the protags as twins. just wanted to say. definitely do not ship them #pokemon sv

[j-esbian]

genuinely at the point where. i know it’s unfair. but i am angry to the point of distraction whenever i read anything, watch anything, play anything, look at anything, listen to anything. i have so many desires and not the faintest idea how to act on it. any skills i once had have degraded because i don’t have any time to do anything and i get jealous and resentful that there are people who can. or else what is wrong with me that i can’t create great art in my 1-2 hours of free time a day. why am i spending most of my life at work, i still can’t support myself, and there’s people who do less than me for more money, so they have time and energy to do things. the creative drought has gone on so long that the well has been filled in. i can’t even get off from work to refill my meds.

#i had to cancel my appointment in october so i knew it was coming and tried to taper but still #i ran out a few days ago which is probably. not helping this mindset #ppl who can go to therapy every week. who can go to the doctor. who can make art #who can exercise and make new friends and go out and have a side job #i envy you so much i want to throw up #and everyone always says the key to building a skill is practice. how are you supposed to practice when you have no ideas #THAT is the advice i’m looking for and no one seems to understand #even shit like critical analysis. everyone is so much more insightful than me #like i write poetry sometimes but i can FEEL how immature it is #and it feels like i’m just. skimming off the top of my thoughts #truly feels like something in my brain is broken and not in a brain fog way #in a blown fuse way #catch me crying in the bathroom at work for the third week in a row ✌️ #and i feel like it just makes me a drag to be around. which exacerbates all of this #i just. don’t have anything going for me. this is all i can think about #and i know it’s frustrating for other people but i just #and there’s people out there who have kids and do more than me so like #what the fuck is my problem #i would just like a break. some time to myself where i don’t have to worry about being too loud and disturbing my mother #the room to stretch my legs

[redhotarsenic]

Blank/Valantinez, they/them pronouns

#blank is a fake name they give out if asked #you know that ship of theseus thought experiment? #that’s their problem #except it’s about their humanity #<- they have a severe existential crisis every time they think too hard about it or look in the mirror #‘I don’t deserve to cry tears are meant for humans​‘ and similar themes are going on in there #oh yeah the blood ammo WILL kill them if they pump out too much at once #there’s NO failsafe on those things #they also are almost always wearing the coat but they take it off when they have to use the handguns because the coat’s white #and they don’t want to get blood on it #it would be Very Irritating to clean #oc art #sketch #my oc #blank

[ournextdoorneighbor]

#

#im tired. am i going to get my period soon #probably. #but its not like i havent been feeling like shit the last 3 months so i cant exactly blame my tiredness to my period cycle #im being so so brave about my job. im being so brave abt the idea of going to the office for 3 days straight #i feel like if i stop to think even for a milisecond im gonna start crying and no one wants to see that #at the same time i dont have time for it. #i keep thinking abt all the times they told me that you’d have to actively look for a job in the art industry #to constantly be advocating for yourself if you want to stay and i am trying so hard. im applying im submitting im rewriting my statements #im brainstorming im reaching out im making content. jesus christ im so tired. im doing so much and theres no pay off at all and im stuck #in this job that i hate will every fibre of my being. i just want to do something im happy with again. i want to wake up and be excited abt #doing work again. be happy abt going to work and talking to ppl i like. im doing so much but nothings working #what is the point #bestie i am so fucking done. i wang to curl up in bed all day and cry

[crossbackpoke-check]

wait you got me so invested in the stammer & heddy tailor au....

this is my standard disclaimer that i have never posted a fic on ao3* and for however much i say “au” i truly mean that it’s a universe that lives in my head & i am absolutely delighted to tell you all about, all the time <3 if it helps i ALSO got me so invested in the heddy & stammer tailor au

ok now that the author’s note is out of the way here’s some notes about the not!fic heddy & stammer tailor au:

stammer as the tailor from gent’s playbook, very reserved, quiet, with an excellent eye for details (honestly the evidence i have for his style sense is just that he’s best friends with pk subban so it has to be there somewhere if only by proxy irl) is hired by victor hedman, star of the tampa bay lightning who is every other tailor’s nightmare to dress (huge, opinionated, fashionable)

heddy is decently well-known throughout the league for being very well-dressed & becomes quietly well known for also being one of his new tailor’s favorite loyal customers [heddy has the nicest fabrics. he has his suits the first day a new collection drops & e v e r y o n e is jealous]

stammer’s business booms after heddy takes a chance on him as his first big client & promotes him, heddy sees him grow in popularity & get more clients

heddy also moonlights as a model for stammer’s suits on instagram, initially to help him grow his business because then he won’t have to pay for a model and then because he’s over there all the time anyway because they’re dating (that’s why the model’s face is never in the pictures)

there’s not really a plot to this besides the vague idea of a plot where stammer makes heddy his lucky suit that he wins the cup in & sews a special little tag into the lining of his jacket that says i love you

because love sometimes is picking out the perfect right color pocket square to match your husband’s beautiful suit that you fitted like a kiss to the curves of his huge body

& also sometimes love is making your beautiful husband who makes you beautiful clothing enjoy nice things for himself once in a while, like the fancy watch you bought him or the nice suit you custom-ordered for him (from him) just so you could take it off of him

#*i did very much post a zine on ao3 that was part of a really fun exchange that i loved doing (thank you leah for organizing!!!) #& had a fantastic time with however i have not strictly speaking posted a fic. one day i will. eventually. hopefully. pray for me :) #also one time my horoscope told me i was a ‘neutral projector’ & i’ve never felt more called out (‘loves making up things’/‘will not #actually write or plot but will explain every intricate detail of their world & character relationships’/‘hype up every member of the #writing chat & give good advice but never follow it’) like HI CAN U NOT DO THIS TO ME HOROSCOPE THANKS i was read to FILTH #liv in the replies #i do LOOOOOVE me a good one of them plays hockey the other one does not au sometimes they’re so fun to explore dynamics outside/inside sport #at the time i came up with this stammer was out on IR & heddy kept showing up to the playoffs in ridiculously nice suits what was i to do?? #the gent’s playbook tailor will sometimes model his own suits w/o showing his own face which made it look like he had a secret model come in #heddy canonically says his suits make him feel better when he plays esp during playoffs & if he wins in a suit he’ll keep wearing it #oh also the truth of the love is in the pocket square bit? angela price i will never forget. anyway that blue suit i posted in the last ask #with the perfect pink pocket square? that pocket square is a pair of stammer’s boxers heddy took To Me. in my brain #me about the beautiful clothing: this is like daisy crying in gatsby’s silk shirts except it’s baby alpaca fur & also it’s not sad #it’s simply decadent & the inherent intimacy of a fitting mapping the body yada yada yada knowing the ways to flatter someone is a form #of loving them etc etc. love is art love is food love is given love is stored in the custom three-piece suit and tie #is this an enemies to lovers? workplace drama? is the secret plot i only just now invented & added that heddy is ‘difficult to work with’ #but it’s just because he wants to look good & in the words of his own (real) tailor the hardest guy to fit because he’s so big? OHHH HOLD IT #I GOT THE PLOT IN THE TAGS Y’ALL AND IT’S STAMMER TEACHING HEDDY TO LOVE HIS BODY heddy who’s been told what to/not wear & you know. #the commodification of the body in hockey (but we’re not getting that deep) but stammer with a mouth full of pins tightening heddy’s pant #leg down even further as he listens to what heddy wants for once & lets him pick fabrics (this is the daisy shirt moment but it’s heddy #looking at fabric swatches dozens of books of them stammer helps him pick out matching linings &outsides &squares) & stammer compliments him #& they’re in love & idk NEARLY enough abt fashion but there r like codes? messages? to wearing suits i think w/the etiquette so that too #should this have also gone under a readmore? yeah probably. whoops #victor hedman #steven stamkos #tampa bay lightning