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fluidstatick · 8 months

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We Need to Talk About Fresh Cut Grass.

I haven't seen anyone mention a certain dynamic in Critical Role Campaign 3, and it's beginning to make me dread tuning in on Thursday nights. While this batch of characters hasn't really shown cohesion with each other yet, there's one in particular that hasn't been challenged, and it's hurting the plot and the development of the other characters.

FCG is following a classic pattern of abuse.

- If someone is wrestling a nuanced issue, they boil it down to its most black and white components and argue their side until everyone else shuts down.

-They evangelize constantly, while having little to no understanding of how Avandra works or what devotion actually entails. When a party member expresses healthy ambivalence about the gods, they get pushy and whiny.

- Despite Dancer telling them, early on, that she wants nothing to do with them, they fixate on her and track her down, demanding her help with something that's above her pay grade. When she very reluctantly agrees, they tearfully love bomb her.

- FCG regularly hits Ashton with a car salesman line: What's it going to take to get you to believe in the gods? When it's revealed that Ashton has Titan blood, FCG has the temerity to ask them if the reason they hate the gods is because the gods tried to wipe out the Titans. Ashton has repeatedly said that they don't hate the gods, they just don't have any reason to be devout.

- When Fearne makes a pact with Tevan, FCG is overjoyed. They don't care that Tevan works for Asmodeus, or that Fearne made the pact purely because Tevan is sexy, and there's probably going to be unpleasant consequences for this alliance. She's going through the motions of religion, and that means FCG is Winning an Argument.

- FCG is wired, on paper and in RP, as a time bomb. If they take too many stress points they become a weapon. The party deals with this not by challenging the cleric's motives, or teaching them to maintain boundaries. They just roll over and do whatever the Aeormaton wants so they don't get sliced to ribbons.

Here's the thing: I really like Sam Riegel. I think he's a really competent actor with a nose for turning comedy into drama when it counts. Scanlan and Veth demonstrated that beautifully. Even Taryon, who was designed to be irritating at first, became incredibly endearing by the time he left the party. But we've just passed episode 69, a point in c1 and c2 where each party had found their feet and could call each other family. In c3, Orym is grappling with responsibility and grief by himself. Ashton is having panic attacks about huge revelations surrounding their identity, while Chet and Laudna rope Imogen into a dubiously legal parasailing adventure that almost gets them killed. And when Orym grieves, FCG comforts them with what amounts to "hey, at least you aren't an Aeormaton and you can experience being humanoid! Isn't that cool, and something that I'm not openly saying I'm jealous of?"

I don't have perfect vocabulary for why FCG makes me so mad. I just want someone - Ashton, or Orym, or one of Matt's NPCs - to sit down with that weirdly childlike tin can and force them to examine their own self obsession. Until they can stop self deprecating, derailing plans, and trying to control everyone else, they're going to be a truly shitty cleric.

#critical role #cr3

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socksandbuttons · 14 days

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I think the word redemption is too big for Eclipse and Bloodmoon. Even if they improve a little

Personally, I would settle for them to just stop trying to ruin the life or kill specifically the Daycare family and their friends

Do them want to continue being unpleasant? Or discover a new reason to exist? Okay, just, away from them please

-Sigh-

I don't know, just don't like seeing them around Sun, Moon and Lunar

Eh it depends on how you seem their development. we do throw the word redemption around a lot. I personally am a sucker for it all being silly family in the end however canon says No. So. AU's it is. Plus Eclipse more or less is moving past ruining the daycare fam lives. He's having a moment guys. Bloodmoon himself as well. but thats a different thing entirely. I mean u can dislike them and want them away from the main boyo's (and earth) cause in a sense it'd be good for everyone really. for eclipse and bloodmoon to get their own lives elsewhere. But also.... im intrigued how they'll be interacting in the future. it might not be them adopting the two into their family (highly unlikely), but things are weirdly getting settled. They're chillin out a bit. (Eclipse keeps having his EHEHEHE moments with moon but thats something thats been long happening)

#HOWEVER THINGS ARE GONNA TAKE ATURN HERE SOON AND IM LIKE EYEING UP THE DRAMA #youre on the blog that is a huge sucker for found family i just should let you know #terrible characters be damned... think about how silly theyd act if they lived together

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blackstarchanx3new · 9 months

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Creations AU, But I obnoxiously over explain it PT 2

Ahh Creations AU

My sweet sweet FNAF AU.

Oh how I love you dearly despite your doofy old art. ❤️

Jeremy and Mike continue their conversation,

Jeremy mentioning Michael's "Dad" as an important figure in the pizzeria and someone who wants to keep secrets about shading happenings down below.

Who is he to Freddy's?

WE DUNNO.

We already know deaths take place here so shady things going on down below aren't out of the realm of possibility.

Bonnie proudly proclaims HE knows what goes on as a friend of his occasionally visits the surface, seems like Bonnie is just friends with a lot of Freddys.

Michael's sister died at a location called "Circus Baby's pizza world" now a rental place that houses the same animatronics down below. Jeremy refutes this as nonsense.

Bonnie is firm in it being true.

Mike is shocked.

Jeremy and Bonnie continue to bicker and Mike feels solidly like he isn't in the loop about things here.

Jeremy wants Bonnie and by proxy Mike to leave so they do. Their shifts end at 6 Am.

Mike is now very curious about what else Bonnie knows and hasn't spoken about. For obvious reasons.

Bonnie feels he doesn't owe Mike information, which it seems Bonnie has a wealth of. Apparently Bonnie just, knows a lot about people around here. How does he get this info?

Do people TELL him this or does he get dirt on people?

Mike continues to use bribes to try and get what he wants.

Leading to the conformation Mike in fact: Does NOT smoke...

Which leads to the question: Why was he carrying cigarettes?

There's two explanations:

Be bought them specifically to bribe Bonnie after he saw Bonnie smoking on night 1.

He had them before that for some reason.

Bonnie continues to show he has no regard for other's personal space or comfort in the way he takes the cigarette from Mike.

Is Bonnie this personal with everyone or....? He seemed uncomfortable with Freddy invading his personal space earlier but that just could be because of where Freddy was positioned.

Bonnie why do you incessantly keep patting Mike's head. I know his hair is a complete mess but that's not gonna fix it. XD

Jokes aside: Bonnie's alright with spilling more of Michael's past as long as Mike doesn't say it came from him.

Michael's dad who we now know as "William Afton" (Conforming Michael's last name is Afton) has lost three of his children due to incidents at Freddy's.

Bonnie details how they died, but Mike is particularly disturbed by ONE in particular...For some reason.

If yall have read FSR and it's over analysis ya might have remembered me mentioning suicidal shit is a THEME in my work?

Yeaaaaah our boy Mike is flirting with death and doesn't care if he flirts back.

Makes sense, he seems to know what kind of place this was as he wasn't phased by walking talking robots.

Bonnie's weirdly optimistic here asking "Why not fight for a future?"

Bonnie's the type of guy who fights for shit he wants. Clearly. Man is stubborn.

Mike brings up he has one thing left to accomplish and said thing will happen if he dies or not. As if his mere presence here will do SOMETHING.

Aparently Bonnie has been a source of joy despite their seemingly unpleasant interactions. Likely for whatever reason Mike recognizes him.

Bonnie seems to feel a little guilty due to his actions but Mike assures him being insulted by his "Favorite" animatronic is funny.

Bonnie seems to be rather happy with being someone's favorite robot. This is a high honor evidently.

Maybe a little embarrassed too, dragging Mike along until they reach the backstage room.

Lamenting Mike should at least ACT like he wants to live.

Mike just cozies up into his hug without a verbal response. He doesn't mention he'll try which is kind of sad.

For whatever reason Bonnie is a literal comfort character to Mike.

Talking about actual comic development for a sec: You can usually tell which segments I started or stopped at. "Chapters" if you will. But the size of them VARY. Again, indie comic creator privileges.

Either way Mike rambles his plans to befriend Michael as a "Next step" he seems to have a plan in action...for something we aren't privy too for whatever reason.

This comic doesn't like to explain ANYTHING to you. Which confused a LOT of people. You gotta pay attention which is smth people HATED doing specifically on Webtoon.

A LOT as I've gone over is paying attention to dialogue from the characters as THEY reveal things about other characters which open up the story.

Knowing GENREAL Fnaf lore HELPS but a lot of people couldn't FULL detach what they knew and ended up confusing themselves by not applying "This is an idea not a firm cannon in this comic" approach I was going for.

Example: Robots are possessed thing I mentioned earlier.

In CANNON games: The FNAF 1 gang are possessed by kids.

In Creations: They are still possessed but not all of em are by kids. You can tell through context clues which ones aren't for sure based on their habits: Such as Bonnie smoking and Freddy being a sex addict.

So the IDEA of robots being possessed was kept but isn't a 1 to 1 reflection of the games.

People did not get this and it infuriated me. :)

There's also a prevailing THEORY in the fandom Michael and Mike are the same character.

Often they wouldn't use CANNON Fnaf material AT ALL to try and figure out Creations weird story: They'd pull from fan theories and FANNON/other comics.

Why? I could not fucking tell you. It makes no damn sense to me.

This comic lays a LOT out if you just read it at it's indented pace and not scroll a million miles a minute.

It's a slow burn. We establish a LOT before we get to the balls to the wall insanity. Because we're building unease with everything we learn about everyone in this building and even Mike himself.

NOBODY IS TRUSTWORTHY, NOT EVEN MIKE as Mike is clearly an unreliable person for information as the audience at least for now, considering he is a manipulator. Maybe we can trust Bonnie. But even then, Mike trusting Bonnie might be a character flaw of his attachment to the character and NOT a rational decision as we've seen he gets weird about this character in particular vs the other people and robots.

Anyways, as Mike explains befriending Michael is a good idea, Bonnie knows friendship isn't this guy's real goal and Mike is like

"Well no shit"

Bonnie's apparently "No snitch" which explains why everyone tells him things I suppose.

Well well well.

Mike's investigating this twisted place. Makes sense.

Mike self proclaiming himself "brave and stupid" is funny to me. Bro fully admits what he's doing is stupid as fuck and I love that he's self aware. X'D

Someone is established/implied to be helping Mike. So I'm sure we'll see them eventually. For now whoever Mike's working with is a faceless entity of unknown status or power.

Is Mike with the police, a private investigator...Who is he still???

This doesn't truly answer who he is FULLY here...

Either way Bonnie doesn't pry. But this establishes Bonnie isn't all muscle and no brain. Since he picks apart Mike IS working with someone with little to no info.

So right off the bat:

This is a clear lie from Bonnie. We KNOW Micheal has disclosed info with Bonnie that Bonnie hasn't yet shared with Mike. From Bonnie's little rant on "Not owing Mike info" and knowing things Jeremy Fitzgerald, who is ALSO implied to be Michael 's close friend DOESN'T KNOW.

Why is lying? Well could be for many reasons?

He doesn't wanna drag Mike into this further due to his obvious struggles with his mental health.

He doesn't want Mike to use Michael.

Either way he concedes to getting Michael to meet with him. Because a character flaw Bonnie has:

He will sell you out for things he wants.

Again we are warned about the danger of the Circus Baby's rentals animatronics specifically Michael's "Friend".

Bonnie adding quotation could mean a lot of things, but it comes off as he doesn't consider this "Friend" to BE a friend. Which could tell us a lot about how Bonnie feels about this "Friend".

And we get to see Michael we know it's the next day from Bonnie's instructions on where to meet him.

And he looks...interesting...

If ya thought Mike's pale skin tone was odd this man is lilac with purple eyes. And a a goofy hair cut. It does get better I promise.

Mike...Ya seem a tad distracted buddy.

This is Michael! Introduced properly. His name tag indicates he's also called "Mike" on occasions.

He's tall (At least compared to Mike) and is apparently friendly.

Also fun fact:

The first draft of this comic was a shitpost comic that got lore when Michael came in. Michael's OG concepts got mostly abandoned but ONE aspect of him has stood the test of time.

Bonnie seemingly has introduced Mike to Michael as somebody who wants to be his friend...

Perhaps a little white lie on Bonnie's end.

Mike says another of my favorite lines "Yes, I'm very lonely" which just sends me whenever I see it because, fuck it's funny what do you want from me? X'D

And they swap numbers.

Smth some Fnaf fans got hung up on was the technology in the AU:

It's an AU. Fuck off. X'D

They have smart phones because I said so. The robots are technologically insane what makes you think a smart phone couldn't exist??? X'D

Micheal "Talks to robots" quite frequently. William's apparently built nearly everything in the building.

Neat.

Michael wants to follow in his footsteps. How sweet.

Mike is STILL asking questions helpful to his investigation if you notice, also intentionally wording himself in a way that makes Michael and his experiences sound familiar.

Mike is clearly being a fake bitch here which I find funny. Micheal obviously can't tell as he overall comes across as naïve and eager to make friends.

Makes sense since 3 of his siblings are dead and he almost exclusively talks to robots outside of Jeremy Fitzgerald it seems. Wonder if he had a good relationship with them before they died...

Mike is shown to be genuinely uncomfortable by the mention of "Fredbears" for some reason. They both share a fondness for the Bonnie line of animatronics specifically.

They decide to meet up later outside of work.

Oh my.

You can tell I liked drawing this animatronic because these pages have BUDGET.

This thing clearly isn't a fan of Mike.

Could this be the "Friend" Bonnie warned about?

Goodness me that's a big ol animatronic. It's stripped bare of any plating so it's just an endoskeleton comprised of twisted cables... It uses said cables to it's advantage so it's comfortable with it's body. It was presumably spying on the conversation by hanging on the celing this whole time...

Did Michael know it was here?

It only wears a mask with segmented face plates. One of it's eyes appears to be completely malfunctioned. It's clearly meant to be a clown. Very different style of robot from the ones we've seen so far: Being it's a HUMANOID one...

It also skips threats and goes right to direct violence towards our boy Mike.

Which he responds too with...

THAT.

A reaction that seems to wig the robot out.

Still offput Mike makes a goof first impression, to "Ennard". Michael's "friend".

Something from older concepts from this AU:

Mike was a "badass" (Not even my words lmao readers thought he was badass. X'D I have to agree Mike's awesome I love him.) dude could go through a lot with a blank expression.

Though here he smiles and looks kinda, dead inside. But what's new.

Despite it's power Ennard appears to be insanely childish with their speech. Calling mike a "Jerk".

Ennard repeats a similar sentiment to Bonnie when Mike responds with THE MOST BADLY INTURPRETED LINE IN THE ENTIRE COMIC SO FAR:

People genuinely did not understand this scene.

"Thanks I love you. Bye. Tell 'em I said hi"

If you didn't catch WHY Mike said that:

He's clearly disassociating right now because of how much REAL DANGER he is in. You can tell from the way he slowly just stops looking AT Ennard and kinda through him. Mike's like, not fully home.

That response, is the kind of thing you'd say to someone while ending a phone call as quickly as possible with a family member or something.

It's a response that doesn't match A SINGLE THING THEY WERE TALKING ABOUT and shows an ODD amount of familiarity with someone he literally doesn't know. And it clearly flusters Ennard because he has no idea what Mike is talking about because this whole response is very weird without any prompting.

It's like something he defaults to when he can't deal with who he's talking to and wants to get away.

And he does. Leaving through the door.

Mike seems satisfied with himself as he goes back to whatever he's doing.

Michael clearly is someone of importance if he has a freakin' giant body guard.

Mike's working night shift again. That is his job...And he sees a child on one of the cameras.

Weird.

He's probably sleepy from working a bit into dayshift.

Oh. Somebody's watching you buddy.

Could it be...the same golden bear that was a giant floating head in the hallway?

They match his steps as he walks down the hall staying just out of site of the viewer AND Mike.

Huh. So Mike knows ANOTHER person here...That kid is familiar.

He's still being shadowed.

Aw.

A little baby.

"You" is apparently just who this is.

Do you know their name Mike?

Chasing chasing

Oh hello Bonnie you're getting touchy with Freddy huh?

The stage seems to have a door on it...For some reason.

Well shit Freddy you didn't have to say it like that.

HUH.

So Bonnie can't see this kid. Weird.

Again Bonnie showing concern about Mike because he's cool.

Oh my.

Oh dear.

PICTURE LIMITS ON TUMBLR I'M SCARED TOO MIKE

Jokes aside. What a cliff hanger.

The art style looking wonky there...

Wonder why Mike ran into the break room...What's in the break room buddy?

#fnaf creations au #fnaf au #fnaf comic #fnaf fanart #fnaf art #fnaf 1 #five nights at freddy's #fnaf #jeremy fitzgerald #mike schmidt #bonnie #freddy fazbear

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sprooknooky · 10 months

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Headcanons on what the Spriggan 12 smell like (something absolutely no one asked for):

Irene smells like old books. That smell when you enter a library? Opening a book you haven’t touched for a long time? For some reason she smells like it. It gives some people an unexplained feeling that they’re about to get a paper cut.

Invel just smells cold. It’s like how ice cream doesn’t smell like much. It’s really unnerving.

Wall obviously smells like metal, but he also smells like oil and smoke. Standing next to him is like standing outside in the heat at a gas station. He’s already hard to be around because he’s so boisterous, but it makes him even more likely to be avoided. I don’t think he’s ever cleaned himself. A bath wouldn’t do much for him, so he just kind of reeks.

Jacob smells like unscented things because that’s all he uses. Unscented deodorant, body wash, shampoo, laundry detergent… it makes him smell pretty clean, but it’s hardly noticeable.

Ajeel smells like a really shitty beach day, like the bottoms of your feet getting burnt on the sand. Warm, but not pleasant.

Bloodman smells like rotting, but the smell isn’t really coming from him, it’s more the scent of his curses. When he’s in a corporeal form, he smells like wet fertilized earth, like dirt after a heavy rainstorm, but as soon as his body releases bane particles, he smells like death itself.

You know that weird lotion-y smell that a lot of old people have? That’s what August smells like. It’s kind of sticky, but not in a particularly unpleasant way. He also gives me the vibes that he uses one of those generic name brand man scents of cologne or deodorant.

Brandish smells like tea and spices. She doesn’t drink tea very often, she’s more of a fan of sweets, but for some reason the smell sticks to her.

Larcade smells like the outdoors, like that fresh cut grass smell that everyone enjoys, or dry leaves.

Neinhart is probably the only person here to actually care about how they smell. He uses lavender perfume, and it makes them smell really nice. Her efforts aren’t really appreciated, though. If only the other Spriggan actually cared about that kind of thing.

Serena smells ridiculously sweet, like a candy store. Think those big oversized rainbow lollipops. He will not explain how he made this happen.

Because of the god inside of her, Dimaria smells really strange and otherworldly. People have compared it to freshly poured concrete or tumbled rocks, but there’s something weirdly off about it. She just kind of smells wrong.

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nanjokei · 5 months

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no but it honestly really is tragic how joker basically has no real identity. i think the content added in royal is really good (should have been in base game but lol)

like, there is at least a clear thesis statement for minato and souji ("being indifferent to death until its time to go and realizing you actually do love the world and your friends that inhabit it" and "whether its the city or the boonies what matters is your connections with others for better or for worse".. ofc this is my own interpretation.) and they are a little similar but they are stories written by the same guy and he's known for recycling elements though i DO NOT consider having similarities in this case to be recycling.

wtf is up with joker? society is bad? i want to reform it? but the cops are ok. and actually idgaf. also (specifically in vanilla) akechi who is a direct result of Society Bad is actually a terrible person who should die.

i have always maintained that p5 is hashino at his most self indulgent... and his most spiteful. everyone knows about the artbook exerpts where he talks about the female social link characters in weirdly disparaging ways. i think ikutsuki and adachi are also reflections of his spite, but they are also a bit "relatable" to him. despite this the thoroughline for all three of his twist villains are his hateboner for anyone who seems nice on the surface (all three) and are perfect/good at a first glance (ikutsuki and akechi). akechi he wrote fully to be some kind of hatesink, it is honestly seriously meanspirited how far it goes, if you look at it from that angle it immediately becomes clear. this is not a post about akechi but i think it is important to talk about because of how critical it is to understanding hashino. with akechi it was so... yeah no you wrote this character to assauge some kind of deep rooted insecurity.

it's the same with ikutsuki, but at least for him, he was an adult. with akechi hashino was lording over a 16 year old in an abusive situation. after a while of thinking i could not really seperate that, knowing how spiteful his writing is. even with the p4 gang! look at everyone's shadow selves. and then compare to the p2 shadow selves. it is so spiteful and it is super clear to me that it is at least somewhat influenced by how he sees other people which makes me very sad to think about. i think he needs to clean his brain for real.

because p5 is the most indulgent in hashino's spite it really falls apart... and that influences joker immensely. we can sit here and talk about how p4 can get really unpleasant but at least at its core even if its weirdly executed the message of p4 is there even if the commitment to it is incredibly questionable. the reason why royal is so good is because the addition of maruki (and kasumi) injects a much needed angle of empathy into p5. needless to say the humanization of akechi in royal whos hatesink status in vanilla was so excessive it made little to no sense also helps.

i can't even talk about joker even though this post is about him. because he is so nothing in his own story. there's nothing to talk about. his existence or lack thereof outside of royal exclusive content makes no difference. you could make mishima the protagonist or any rando really and not much would change. joker's existence might as well just be to be an actual self insert, which is insane to me, i never consider most protagonists in ANYTHING self insert unless i am explicitly told "this is You, form You however you want" (like for example harvest moon).

#rambles

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altschmerzes · 9 months

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this might be getting too far into spoilers territory, but i'm so curious about the wriggle up on dry land equivalent of that scene in 1x10 where ted sees jamie and his dad in the treatment room after the match. because like, i can kind of understand the reasoning behind not intervening or really bringing it up again when jamie's an adult, even if that probably wasn't the best way to handle it, but i can't imagine ted would respond the same way when it's a child in that situation.

the thing about me is that if people wanna know i do not have any qualms at all about posting spoilers for my own fic slkdjfs i am happy to talk about literally whatever people wanna talk about and yes that is!! yes that is QUITE the thing. i'll get into it under a cut in case anyone else happens to care about spoilers ig! but yeah overall you're right i can sorta get what the thought process was from a like, in-universe 'trying to make sense of what went on there' standpoint in canon but it is. very different when it's a 15 year old as opposed to a 23 year old.

this is one of the major changes that had to be made to that episode for the au and specifically changes made to jamie's role in the episode's story. it is still the first time that ted meets james - though it's not actually our first time meeting james in the narrative, because we will actually see him before then in the fic - and it is still a somewhat worrying encounter, but it's far less like... violent. cause like i said while i can. sort of. get my head around ted deciding that it was a better choice for everyone to not get involved in 1x10 on the show (while i do think it was handled weirdly and this is pure extrapolation bc the show literally never addressed that or referenced it again) i can't see him seeing a kid get shoved around and screamed at and have shit thrown at him and not like. doing something about it.

so when this happens in the fic, jamie came to the match with his dad rather than being in it as a player for city (obvs). after the match, he seems like he's going to get a moment to interact with ted alone but before he can, james comes around the corner and interrupts. and is very like... he immediately makes a few jokes at ted's expense, then starts steering jamie away with a hand clamped on his shoulder. he's squeezing pretty hard but ted can't really get a good sense of what's going on, one moment jamie looks like he's got something to say the next he's being pulled away and his dad is kind of. needling him about not being happy that city won. he's actually pretty upset about richmond's relegation, though he's trying to hide it (and not having much success with that). (he still had a hand in what happened with them losing that match and with roy getting taken down, though obviously in a different way lmao.) (it's a little complex and a little 'just go with me on this one' slkdfjs)

so james is giving him shit about being upset, needling him about it in a way that's kind of like. laughing at him but not being overtly aggressive but it's a shitty kind of 'making fun of my kid for being upset' that is obviously bad news. he's being steered around by his shoulder but it's not clear it's painful or anything, just kinda. controlling. so it's overall a sense of this is a deeply unpleasant person who is not very nice to his kid but it's a fast interaction that leaves ted feeling kind of bowled over and there's... it's shitty and worrying but it's not like. Alarming to the level of being able to do anything about it like what happened in canon would be. and then they're gone.

which is when ted does the only thing he can think to do which is quickly run into his office to grab a jacket jamie left behind when he left richmond in the first place, scribble a note that includes his number (just in case), and shove it and the army man in an envelope, tuck it in the pocket, and send beard with it to catch jamie before he leaves.

#gav gab #gav answers #abuse cw #fic: wriggle up on dry land #YEAH ONE'A THOSE BIG UH.... THINGS GOTTA BE DIFFERENT HERE. MOMENTS.

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leaphia · 8 months

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uh uh uh OC questions!! hehehe yesss >:] For Sookie 30. Who do they most regret meeting? For Aaron 21. Why do they get up in the morning? For Noah 27. What causes them to feel dread? For Tristan 28. Would they prefer a lie over an unpleasant truth? And for Astrid 34. How hard is it for them to shake a sense of guilt? And for you of course (and any or all of them) H) What trait of theirs do you admire most? :>

Waaaaah thank you so much for all the questions! ;v; <3

This will be quite long omg

Sookie - Who do they most regret meeting?

Aside from like half her classmates back in high school, who were bullying her for being "the weird comic book geek" I'd say… Aaron. He's not only the type of villain who embodies everything she hates (arrogance, possessiveness, narcissism, etc.) after their first encounter he wouldn't leave her alone anymore. He's planning any kind of evil schemes to lure her into a trap, to catch her attention and to eventually "make her his", as he developed a crush on her. And Sookie gets incredibly mad and annoyed by him, as the only one she really loves is Noah…

Aaron - Why do they get up in the morning?

There was a time when the only thing that would get him out of bed were his inventions and robots, he could tinker on. Now he has other reasons like his cat Giselle, who he wants to care for. (He loves her very much <3) And (as weirdly as this sounds looking at the previous question) another reason would be Shelter/Sookie and their encounters. It's the only thing that really excites him and lets him forget about his "boring" life. (As already mentioned, he has a crush on her and since he never felt like this to anyone before he wants to... "explore" these feelings.)

Noah - What causes them to feel dread?

There isn't much that Noah is scared of… except Spiders. If he has to fight a bunch of giant spiders I guess he would die of fear immediately xD But what would cause him to feel real dread is if Sookie or any other of his loved ones (his mother, his best friend) would be in danger, something that could threaten their life and he wouldn't be able to save them.

Tristan - Would they prefer a lie over an unpleasant truth?

No. He hates if somebody lies to him. And he rather wants to know the cruel reality than being under an illusion. (That doesn't mean that he hasn't lied himself before, he actually did lie to others if it was necessary xD)

Astrid - How hard is it for them to shake a sense of guilt?

It's really really hard for her. If it's something grave she feels guilty for, she would lie awake at night, thinking about it and how she could make up for it. (the first night after she started working together with Tristan - a criminal in her eyes back then - she didn't sleep a wink)

What trait of theirs do you admire most?

Sookie - her kindness and will to help. She tries to see good in everyone. :>

Noah - his sarcasm xD And I think his tolerance and acceptance towards any kind of people? He puts others needs first instead of his own, for example he also accepts Sookie's boundaries and loves her for who she is <3

Aaron - His confidence. Even though some family issues and other bad sh*t that happened to him, he knows that he's of worth.

Tristan - Everything. Uhhh I think his patience. He can stay quite calm in stressful situations most of the time. ovo (Which is funny because contrary to his fire-magic-powers, he's not impatient or aggressive xD)

Astrid - Her determination. When she sets her mind on doing something, there's nothing that can stop her.

[OC Questions from here :>]

#ask game #hjdgrs thank you again for your interest! ;w;#Me while typing this: suddenly forgets any information about my OCs ever... why am I like this x'D #oc: sookie cantrell #oc: noah hale #oc: aaron sinclair #oc: tristan #oc: astrid #I feel like I overshared a bit. But what if someone needs to know this??#(sneaking a drawing of Shelter&Aaron in there which I never shared on here owo")#I would have loved to doodle something for every answer but that would be a lot xD #also look at me gushing about Sookie and Noah I'm sorry but I already love these beans so much

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Yall I’m new to stanning football. I came here straight from the world cup and I’m not gonna lie this shit is beating my ass. Is it always in the mud like this? I chose psg because that seems like the best option because they got messi, neymar, and mbappe who are literally the three players that caught my attention during the tournament! Yall I really thought this was going to be fun. 😭 What’s going on? Why does everything feel so confused and chaotic (not in a good energetic way, more like headless chicken running kind of way) but also weirdly sluggish and slow? Yall I don’t understandddddddd. It’s like the team has four different personalities all at once? It’s so… unpleasing to watch yall it was not like this during the world cup. 😭

I hope they get better. But I’ve been reading the psg girlies on tumble and … it seems like nobody has hope it’s going to get better? I mean surely it will? Right? I feel like everybody has given up on the season and I’m scared. 😭 I hope Kylian feels better soon. I was thinking maybe we can do trades with other teams but apparently business hours is already closed and will next open in the summer? The fuck? But we dont got anyone? And almost everyone is dropping like flies? What happens if the big guy on the fishnet gets a flue or just gets sick in general? We just dont get anyone?

Also the coach looks like he should be in a martin scorsese film with robert de niro and joe pesci. The fuck is he doing on the pitch tho?

We need to bounce back QUICK! We need positive vibes! Energy! We need God to be honest but I feel like I’ve spent all my credit with him praying for Messi to win the world cup. My account with God is all maxed out. Yall. I cant sleep until I figure this shit out. Somebody do something!

Do we have a secret weapon? Like what is the plan here? What is plan b? Oh my goddddd. This parasocial relationship is with these players really do beating my ass. I’m out here worried for them!

hi anon! wow this is a doozy. ill try to break down my response but idk if it'll do ur rant justice LOL

1) Welcome newcomer! as u may have seen in the world cup, if there's one thing someone should tell u before u enter the football world is that ABSOLUTELY NOTHING is guaranteed. you could have the strongest defense, the best goalie, gamemaster midfielders, and strikers w amazing finishes and you'll still lose to an underdog team who has better teamwork and chemistry. or just one player decides "uk what? imma earn my paycheck today" and demolishes the other team.

2) psg is a joke. ill tell u right now. lose any and all expectations. we clown on them bc even if they played shit before but at least they were winning. now they're playing shit and LOSING! and thats the problem we have. the 4 personalities at once thing is absolutely correct. you have 3 well seasoned forwards who are used to being the "it" strikers of their team. on top of that we have NO MIDFIELD AND A SHIT MANAGER WHO CANT GET A TACTIC OUT OF HIS ASS EVEN IF I SHOVED IT IN THERE MYSELF!!!... sorry i lost it a bit there lol.

3) as yes transfer window closing. see that's also Galtier and that fuckin toad incharge of players who DIDN'T MAKE A TRANSFER UNTIL LAST MINUTE AND LET CHELSEA FUCK THEM OVER. and sorry to burst ur bubble but there's a chance key players might leave/retire by that summer so lets hope they promise them to bring in an actual proper midfield by then.

4) So another thing to consider if one of the reasons u chose psg was for messi... i wouldnt. This isn't his club. this is his retirement club. ramos too actually. they've finished their careers. they actually have absolutely nothing to lose LOL. messi's heart will always be in barcelona. as in he literally knows nothing else except barça

5) injuries suck. but they are a part of the game. if u play any contact sport u know the feeling. even non-contcact sports there r still big injuries. everyone is hoping kylian gets better soon. he needs all the rest he can get 🤲🏼.

6) Our secret weapon? BHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! prayers i guess. nah im kidding. but there really isn't any secret weapon unless u count galtier deciding to pick up a tactic book? or leaving and getting replaced by pep or zidane. to use ur weapon analogy we have a dented shield that still works (defense) and a bunch of bullets (forwards) but no gun (midfield) to load them.

7) ik u were joking about that last part but the parasocial relationship?? do ur absolute best to minimize it. like as someone who's been watching the beautiful game since i was a kid its okay and fun to joke about it and worry/send love to ur faves but u have to remember: those are grown ass men getting payed hundreds of millions to kick a ball around while those in their cities that pay to watch them are in heating/housing crisis. so when we eat the rich ill be cutting them up w tears uk?

hope this helped LOL.

#ask #wow what a long one #sorry yall

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Spongebob character hate list. Who and why. Let's goooooooooooo

i hate stinky because he was classist and cruel to a child clearly in poverty solely because he was an "undesirable" patron at his shitty restaurant, which is something that hits home and also because that child grew up to be my favorite character. so obviously stinky should die a thousand deaths (half joking)

bubble bass because hes unpleasant and unfunny and is continuously used for fatphobic humor primarily and has been since he was introduced but without any of the redeeming qualities of a character like patrick (who is also often used for fatphobic jokes, but like... exists as a character outside of the fatphobic jokes, and has a capacity for love and kindness that he demonstrates often and bubble bass never has) when there are so many other characters that are far more interesting and funny to utilize as recurring characters - and certainly no shortage of such characters who are more on the antagonistic side

every single stereotypical hillbilly character except for clem for just about the same reason: existing solely for fatphobic humor with no redeeming qualities to make up for the fact and like half of them are exactly the same in a way that suggests theyre meant to be parodies of something i dont recognize but isn't funny anyways

bunny and cecil just because i think they're annoying and not as cute as margie and herb, while also using bunny for fatphobic jokes periodically. this is the thing i hate most about spongebob as a franchise despite it being one of my special interests

nurse daisy bazooka for like the same thing but with transmisogyny added in like yeah in theory its awesome fred was madly in love with a woman who is buff and masculine but the way they designed and portrayed that woman is... tremendously awful and insulting. and she doesn't even really exist as a character outside of being a humorous love interest for fred or get to be humanized to any degree its just like look how funny it is that freds in love with someone so FAT AND UGLY AND MASCULINE. there were a lot of perfectly fine concept designs for her that were buff and/or fat without being such an insultingly transmisogynistic caricature so they really actively went out of their way for this. kinda hope everyone involved stepped on a lego for this one.

seriously what do the people working on this show have against fat people i just want to talk

slappy laszlo because i think hes unfunny and annoying and has nothing going on for him except, like, being another fish caricature of peter lorre but not really doing anything with that? i guess he's a servant of nosferatu now but thats kinda nothing to me. youd think itd appeal to me because i love nosferatu (both the spongebob character and the german silent film) but like... bleh

that bitch from atlantis and the weirdly human surfer bitch because theyre not interesting to me, i hate their designs, and i hate their voice actors

chum because i hate what they turned it into and it counts as a character now because theyve turned it sapient like twice apparently

lily plankton because the way she sexually harasses squidward just aint cute especially when you know that shes old enough to be his great grandma specifically the only way to come back from that and redeem her character is if you completely rewrite her as a wlw in a committed relationship with ella who exists separately and theyre both planktons paternal grandmothers cuz otherwise idk that was just too gross and weird for me to forgive

#IS THIS THE KRUSTY KRAB?

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daydreams-to-passages · 1 year

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Okay so I know this is an odd headcannon but like what I'd imagine everyone smelling like.

I may have read an omegaverse yuu fanfic which got me thinking.

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Riddle: Starwberries. But not the fresh ones. The ones that have been left in sugar so long that one would think your trying to make wine.

Trey: Flour or like sugar cookies. With a touch of mint

Carter: Popcorn? Oddly enough not sure if he's cheesy or just buttery.

Ace: Cherries.

Deuce: Pears and rubber or like hot pavement.

Azul: Parchment paper or like new books. Since he's always writing I think the smell would just soak into him.

Jade: Himalayan pink salt. For the sore reason that the salt is meant to relax people and put them to sleep and Jade I weird find relaxing and calming. (Even if I know he'll likely murder me)

Floyd: Weirdly enough my first thought was birthday cake cause he's always a surprise. But he could also smell more of salt water or even coppery.

Leona: Beach or like hot sand.

Ruggie: Soap. Due to running around and doing Leonas laundry. He'd probably have a strong smell of soap. Mainly around his hands.

Jack: Generally earthy. Probably more mountiany and fresh smelling

Vil: Vanilla. Though likely uses a heavier perfume to cover it.

Rook: Pine.

Epel: Apples and Cinnamon. Likely more like apples around his hands since I HC him craving apples like all the time.

Kalim: Morning rain. Or old textiles and an wood smell. I think the morning rain smell would probably be buried under the old textiles and wood smell since he's always playing with the carpet.

Jamil: Spices. Since he's always explained as cooking but also due to the fact that it's potent but can be dismissed as always there.

Idia: Pomgrantes

Ortho: Metal. Coppery smell but not terrible unpleasant just kind of there. Or No scent cause robot baby.

Malleus: Roses.

Lilia: Suckers/lollipops/ dumb dumbs. The high smelling hard candies. I can totally see him just eating them constantly.

Silver: Wild flowers.

Sebek: Mossy rocks near streams. Odd I know but the first stream water smell with a bit of a more musk from moss just sounds right.

Feel free to use these headcannons or suggest other scents down below in the comments!

(If you do ill probably add them cause some of these are debatable in the first place)

#twisted wonderland #twst headcanons #twst #disney twst

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auniverseforgotten · 1 year

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VERY WELL 11 20 and 24 >:3

HECK YEAH MORE TIME

11. favorite trial (sun & moon)

So I am actually going to do one for Sun and Moon and one for Ultra Sun and Ultra Moon, because they do differ!

So for Sun and Moon, I'm gonna go with the Ghostium Z trial/Totem Mimikyu trial! I enjoyed that the trials all had different vibes, but this one was the only one where the entire vibe shift really felt like it Happened. Like don't get me wrong, it's still a Pokemon game, it's not even remotely scary, but the atmosphere DOES shift and you do get to go through a little haunted area. And I mean...Mimikyu, come on. Also the very end with what Acerola says, love that.

For Ultra Sun and Ultra Moon, I'm going with the Waterium Z trial/Totem Araquanid trial! This trial differs from Sun and Moon, which is a fight against a Wishiwashi; in Ultra Sun and Ultra Moon you are herding Wishiwashi, and right as they start their school form, an Araquanid bursts up from below. It just looks so cool???? Here is someone's video of it, should be timestamped! [video by EsteeMcCrawly on Youtube] And anyone who knows me knows I love Bug types and Water types SO.

Brief runner-ups to the Firium Z and Grassium Z trials. For Firium, the "find the difference" game is fun esp when they toss in the hiker, it's just so silly, and for Grassium, love cooking for Pokemon and super love Lurantis.

20. least favorite pokemon game

Hmmm another tough one. Usually no matter the game I find things I enjoy, and I haven't ever hated any game. My gut instinct is to say the Brilliant Diamond/Sparkling Pearl remakes, but that was because the questionable Field of View blur effect they used actually gave me a headache and made it difficult to play for long. :'D

HOWEVER I think that would be cheating, so I'm gonna go with Pokemon Sword and Shield. Now don't get me wrong, I did still find things to enjoy in these games! And the DLCs are SUPER GOOD [but they shouldn't have been DLC]. However...a lot just wasn't it, honestly. Part of my disappointment was it was the first new big Pokemon game on Switch, and I feel like they could have done SO MUCH MORE. Like the Switch can run BotW but we can't have an open world Pokemon game??? TRUE open world???

That complaint aside, here's the rest. The premise overall was kinda weirdly uncomfy to me? I know it's my own issue, but the whole "hey here's all the challengers let's publicly show every single second of their entire Pokemon journey" is just so unpleasant to me. :'D Like yes there were reporters in gen 3 and it's always implied that people are loosely following the gym challenge, but NOTHING like the "EVERYONE IN THE ENTIRE REGION SEES EVERY STEP YOU MAKE" of Galar.

Also I hate the uniforms, sorry not sorry. Like yes, you get to change out of yours, which is great because mandatory uniforms just suck oops. But restricting the gym leaders to always wearing that dumb uniform? Bad take imo. Like yes they make it work with accessories and stuff but cmon. Piers woulda looked so much cooler in full punk getup. Milo in farmer clothes. Avery, from the DLC, yes I do enjoy his design BUT HE'D BE SO MUCH COOLER IN A FULL SUIT.

Dynamaxing is just dumb. Tbf I think that of most new gimmicks. Z-Moves were dumb. Mega forms were dumb. I just don't like them. I'll give them points to some of the gigantamaxes at least being entertaining.

STOP PUTTING CHARIZARD IN EVERYTHING. STOP ACTING LIKE CHARIZARD IS A GIFT TO THIS PLANET. STOP ACTING LIKE CHARIZARD IS THE BEST FIRE TYPE EVER. They make part of Leon's entire personality his Charizard and I HATE it, I hate the Charizard craze that has been going on forever and SWSH got extra hate from me because of it.

Possible spoilers but Rose is such a bad villain. He's not even a good twist villain. He's just a slimy, smarmy capitalist, and that wouldn't be bad if they didn't try to make him like. Have a Altruistic Reason behind almost ending the world??? Like no I do not believe AT ALL that this man would be after energy for Galar for a thousand years in the future (SO DUMB BTW), but if they'd played him more selfish I would have at least accepted it because he comes off as every rich "philanthropist" irl to me. Richer than they need to be and donating just so they can say "oh but I'm a good one" and hoard their wealth and resources.

Also I get it's where games have been going but I hate that what would've once been post-game was instead paid DLC.

I still have so much I could say but I'm gonna stop there. x'D

24. your favorite team of pokemon you’ve ever had

Okay so people who know me know I have. No memory. Brain is swiss cheese. So I can't remember my entire teams for any game. ;-; And I either don't own or have restarted most games so uh oops.

SO INSTEAD I'm gonna list six beloved partner Pokemon. They are not necessarily more or less beloved than others and only one of them is in specific order, this is just the best I can do.

First up, Bloom the Venusaur. Bloom was my starter in Pokemon Leaf Green, and I have traded her up through every. Single. Game. She is a female Venusaur, which little me did not understand the rarity of, but now that I do I love her all the more for it. Bulbasaur is my favorite starter, so it's no surprise how much I love her.

Now that we have First Ever out of the way, these are in no order. So, next up is Iluq the Aurorus. Amaura and Aurorus are some of my favorite fossil Pokemon, if not my top faves. I love the colors, and their call is SO PRETTY. So when I got one, he of course became a staple on my team. He defs had some weaknesses, but I adore him.

Alola was honestly a great generation for me, bringing a lot of new faves, and one led to a beloved on my team, Tatiana the Lurantis. I adore the Fomantis/Lurantis line, so I acquired one ASAP. She was great in battle AND crucial for shiny hunting: she is my false swiper.

Bumble the Ribombee came in the same team as Tatiana, and I adored her so much that when I found Cutiefly pretty late-game in SWSH, I immediately dumped my Boltund [sorry Boltund] for one to remake Bumble once again. Ribbombee is just cute and sweet and my Bumble is the sweetiest. ;w;

There are a lot of Pokemon whose baby form or first form I prefer over their evolution. Pumpkaboo is one, and when I caught one in SWSH I decided that she would stay a baby, but that she would also be on my team through the entire game. Thus, enter Pie the Pumpkaboo. Pie is my precious baby and she has pickup as an ability, so she is a littol thief as well, picking up anything from repels to nuggets. uwu

Pokemon Legends: Arceus introduced a lot of cool regional variants, new evolutions, and Alpha Pokemon. But heck all of that gimme a T A N K. Omelet the Blissey, the T A N K. I acquired her fairly late game, joked with my friend that I was gonna punch Arceus with her, and then fully committed to the joke. She is now level 100 and I still have not finished the game. Strong-style Soft-boiled is hilarious. Doesn't happen in game but I do picture that every time the character I made in the game gets hurt via falling or Pokemon, Omelet pops out unprompted ready to shove an egg.

And a couple runners-up, Cinderfella the shiny Crobat. I'm counting him as a runner-up because I didn't get him until post-game! Caught a shiny Zubat in Alpha Sapphire and loved him until he evolved. Excellent friend.

Bacon the Centiskorch is another. Adore Bug, and she worked really well as a diverse move haver! Her name is Bacon because sizzlipede and centiskorch looked like bacon to me, and then her ability was White Smoke so it was perfect. XD

Ngl every time I have a team I imagine their personalities. So. Bloom would be a motherly type, mothers anything that gets near her, forgets she is no longer a Bulbasaur and thinks she can still be lap sized when she wishes to be. Iluq is a very calm mediator type; he's ancient so he has patience, and he can freeze anyone being a Problem. Tatiana is elegant and graceful, doesn't interact much but isn't cold, but also has killed before and will kill again /j [or am I]. Bumble is SO FRIENDLY AND SWEET, adores everyone.

Pie is an absolute babby, can fight if she has to but Excuse, she is Baby. Naps a lot, while not mentioned here she is definitely carried around by the Dad of the SWSH team [who I remember all of bcus I still have the game lol], Plushie the Bewear. Omelet is very concerned about everyone all the time, throws eggs at people like GET HEALTHY. Cinderfella LOOKS scary but is an absolute sweetheart, definitely a cuddler. And Bacon, Bacon I feel is the delinquent with a heart of gold. Will heck anyone up that looks at anyone she cares about wrong [esp Pie. My whole SWSH team just Pie's family apparently lol].

Oops I talked forever haha. This is so much fun though??? Really loving these, thanks for the ask, feel free to send more if you like. XD

Ask meme: clicky

#Pokemon #ask meme #sinisterlutist #THANKS CY

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pebblethief · 2 years

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regretting my tinder experiment for dumb weird reasons i will vent about in here bc this is too much for one tiny brain to keep inside entirely

tl;dr i was just like “idk maybe i should try it” and now ive got ALL THESE THOUGHTS and its annoying and id like it to go away lol

triiiied to organise this?

i have caught Feelings. not for anyone in particular but my “random spikes of Lonely” have now become an unpleasant beast on my shoulder

but also weirdly im like.....can i even be fucking bothered? is this worth it? tinder fucking sucks

its got me questioning what i even want in a “gotta do fucking soul searching now” kind of way. like yes ultimately what i want is the same: basically a very good friend who i occasionally get to fuck? lol. which is basically what most long term relationships *are*. but do i actually care about the romance stuff? idk! maybe i actually just want friends and to get over my hookup issues. maybe i want something more open. maybe the ‘hm what if /dont/ want romance much’ is actually Issues talking? idfk!

so now i gotta soul search i guess. which is fucking lame and annoying

maybe i am just being an anxious dweeb about the whole Getting To Know people sort of stuff lol

maybe im being all ‘gonna be alone forever so lets just throw some different reasons for that into the ring’

and all of this isnt bc im like.....frustrated at lack of matchs lmao.ive barely swiped on anyone! and i keep being fussy for weird reasons so the number ive done the good swipe on is way smaller!

and i panicked and immediately unmatched 2 of the 4 matches ive got so far lmfao oops (and one of them ive not replied to at all double oops)

so i have literally spoken to one (1) guy on there and true i didnt know him but i did know he was friends with some of my friends so already knew he is at least not awful

i just hate the *format* of tinder. theres so little info and i need to make a decision from this right now?? i cant go back and change my mind?? let me think about it damn!

i really do hate getting to know people so i am being picky bc sure youre hot but do you seem like youre worth me subjecting myself to smalltalk?

and bc there is so little info i keep thinking random qs like “does this guy seem like he might at least pretend to be interested when i go off on one about the oseberg tablet weaving find?” (if u strip the specifics this is important! i got niche interests id be miserable if i couldnt ramble!)

bumble isnt much better. grindr is a hellhole

[strange positives?]

WEIRDLY (for me), actually a lot of this is more “i dont want to compromise who i am as a person” and “hm i havent checked in on myself what i actually do want rn” vs like “im too awful i shouldnt even subject myself to this. the dudes swiping on everyone dont deserve to try and coax conversation out of me” if that makes sense?

i was expecting it to tank my self esteem but eh nah not really

even when dude was like ‘not quite sure im feeling a relationship here at the moment’? i was a bit mopey til i realised it didnt actually bug me (guess id just assumed it did and got mopey automatically??) and it hasnt changed our conversation style much other than we’re not trying to impress each other any more lmao (so its actually better now?)

I DONT KNOW

i was just like “idk maybe i should try it” and now ive got ALL THESE THOUGHTS and its annoying and id like it to go away lol

im hoping this bloodletting has released some of the circling in my brain

#this is a very weird post i guess im just talking to myself

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hinge is so fucking stupid. dating apps are stupid. people on there are great sure but like i hate online dating. it’s so stupid. idk why im so angry about this. oh yeah it’s cause it gets so overwhelming to reply to everyone. like i don’t wanna reply to anyone. i feel like im being trampled on in a crowd. it’s too loud and it’s too many noises. i just wanna go on a walk and not be scared of running into my crush. mff was fucking amazing, but i’m still recovering from my hangover after the open bar at the stupid VIP lounge. like idk how i got so drunk so fast off of 4 tiny glasses of prosecco. other people had 9 drinks and were still fine, and i was stumbling. at some point in the night it got so fucking sweaty and dense w people, my glass slipped from my hand, cause of the condensation and sweat, it didn’t break but the drink spilled onto the floor. i tried cleaning it up but felt so bad for doing that. like i don’t usually get drunk drunk. maybe cause i haven’t had drinks in a while? idk man. i’m still recovering from the long weeks at mff and all the people i met and it was wonderful and exhausting and i have turned my assignments in amidst all the chaos. i should be happy but i am weirdly super miserable. like i even have money in my bank account now. a decent amount. which is so rare, because normally i have between 10 and 20 dollars to survive the week till my next payment. anyway, things are good. i’m just annoyed. i don’t feel too good. a bunch of things triggered a lot of my childhood trauma recently and i was bawling my eyes out like a child for the full 45 minutes i was in therapy yesterday. maybe i’m annoyed because i have a crush. and they kinda seemed interested in me too? which was surprising. but i’m not gonna see this person probably ever again. because in this city you don’t get to meet the same people twice. and i’m a dumbass. and i flipped a coin. anyway. today i ate a bit more than i should have. but it’s cause i was super hungry all day. and confused and overwhelmed. it’s crazy how much work and studying i do for someone who is so mentally ill. god i’m just limping my way through life but i’m actually catching up? this is success. this is how i had hoped things would turn out. this is what i prayed to god would happen. it’s happening. and yet for some reason i’m still not happy. maybe it’s cause my room is still really messy and that’s a big source of shame and guilt for me, along with it physically making life harder for me because i lose things and trip over the clutter and can’t have friends over. at least the bugs are gone. i didn’t even do anything, they just left. by themselves. how polite. anyway yeah so my messy room. and some of my loved ones are sad. and it’s just a little complicated with some people in my life at the moment. but it’s one of those things that naturally get resolved in time. there’s an inspection at my house in 2 days time. i know it’s going to be a stressful process for me but im going to do my best to clean up my room earlier so that i dont lose sleep and have a full on panic attack the morning of.

i feel like i’d be a lot calmer once my room situation is dealt with. one step at a time. for example, i don’t struggle with laundry anymore since i figured out a system that works for me. same with taking out the trash. and i assume it will be the same for cleaning. it’s just a matter of doing it well enough times so that i believe i can do it again, and that it doesn’t have to be so unpleasant and stressful if i don’t leave it all for one day and spread it out over a few days. this is going to be okay. i am going to be okay. and my health is looking better even though i haven’t taken care of my body in the last one week due not having the time, but i can easily go back. i’m not at square one, ill be restarting at a decent state this time so it’ll be easier and faster to get to health now. i should make a proper to do list. time to ease back into life and everyday chores. it’s all every difficult while it’s happening but it’s much better when it’s done. also with the difficulty starting, cause of the lack of dopamine and serotonin in my brain. but i can make it work. things are going to be fine. i am actually fine. the angels were right. i DO know how to figure it out.

costar says “Don’t start the fight. Whatever you have to say, write it down, crumple it up, and burn it. Today, anger is as clarifying as it is destructive. Your limbic system responds to an accumulation from a lifetime of conflict. Don’t give this one that kind of power.” - while anger can provide clarity by highlighting underlying issues, it also has destructive potential. the limbic system, the part of the brain associated with emotions, reacts to accumulated unresolved conflicts that can trigger intense emotional responses. the advice is not to let anger have too much power over me, implying the importance of managing emotions constructively.

Your desire to change this month depends on your ability to get in touch with your body. This is no small feat for a person who can let their need for stability stunt relationship growth. Cultivate your attraction to relationships that feed you. You have a desire for indulgence in your romantic or creative life. There will be a chance opportunity that affects your natural drive for action. Try to be more adaptable than you usually are right now. Pursue the things you want.

This opportunity will see its beginnings in significant relationships where they meet with the ways you find joy. Keep an eye on projects you share with your partner, an affair, or a casual relationship becoming more serious.

Whether it’s fate or chance, now is the time to take advantage of anything that seems too good to be true.

okay maybe this is good advice. i’m more open to getting rejected as long as i’ve put myself out there. you know when they say you miss 100% of the shots you don’t take. it’s true. i’ve been so much happier since i started taking risks. life is not about being as safe as possible. gotta put myself out there, gotta believe in good change. gotta accept that if i want to be happier i have to accept happiness when it comes my way. when im scared i only want stability and smooth sailing, but i realise im happier when i’m trying to step outside of my comfort zone and grow. i am capable of more but i can’t do more if i stay stuck at home from fear of the unknown. this is all getting a little too vague for anyone who doesn’t live inside my head. i’m gonna go take a walk soon. i deserve a good walk.

#personal #journal entry

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theloveinc · 2 months

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can you do 8, 12, and 13 for the violence ask game? i’m very interested in your thoughts on those

ofc!! thank you so much for asking <3

8. common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about

i could come up w/ so many for this question!! nd i'm trying to think of ones that aren't so controversial or related to the one i've already talked abt... hmmmmmmmmmm....

this is pretty bad of me to think but. I truly think that caring about how many likes/reblobs you get on something you posted... isn't as big a deal as people make it out to be. idk. i entirely understand it, i want reactions and and to make enjoyable posts too!! and ofc i think it's a justified way to feel if what you want is the success of your blog and more interaction or popularity in your community...

but caring about posting writing ONLY for the purpose of it getting likes + views........ idk. it just feels like an ingenuine reason to be writing in the first place. and especially when views are so weirdly skewed towards smut/specific characters/etc... that popularity of a post isnt't accurate as to how much it was enjoyed in the first place.

12. the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them

I FEEL SO BAD just responding with bnha, bUTTT--okay actually i do want to say i think mineta is hilarious. but i don't love him or anything even if i have laughed a little bit at some of his jokes--TTTTTT..... All Might definitely gets more shit than he deserves? Shoji deserves TONS more love... and Ojiro is so sweet and would make a 10/10 bf!!!

I'm not sure other than that, tho! Is anyone even unpopular these days? esp charas who don't deserve it? Like Kenjaku and Mohito def deserve their spot very low on the list😭😭

(oh wait, i do like gentle criminal for liking la brava tho! it's weird tho bc theyre def meant to be in love but that age gap is INSANEEE. lol)

13. worst blorboficiation

GOJO!!!!!!!! i practically can't even read for him anymore because i feel like most interpretations... aren't wrong, exactly? but forgo including so much of his truth that essentially he's someone entirely different.

And it's especially bad because I feel like this not only lends itself to poor, underdeveloped depictions, but also severe blorboficiation in the form of only making his content so silly-goofy that I can't take it seriously anymore.

and it's so hatery of me to say bc again, gojo is silly-goofy!!! but he's also extremely tragic in a way that affects such goofiness.... so i find a lack of a serious recognition of that slightly... unpleasant.

I'm sorry gojo! i'm sorry this was done to you!!!

(choose violence ask game!)

#my tummy hurts so imma skip tags and just go to the bathroom #but i love u anon these were tough questions!!!#and im super grateful u wanted to hear from me!#caitie answers #ask game #anon

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Flora and Son (2023) Review

Flora and Son - sounds like a name for a barber's or a chippy. "Chippy"....my-my, I'm becoming more British by the day!

Plot: Flora, a single mother who argues with her son Max in an attempt to find him a hobby, retrieves a guitar from a dumpster and discovers that one person's rubble can be a family's salvation.

John Carney's musicals aren't really musicals. Having brought us such treats as Sing Street and Begin Again, all his projects feature original songs, however, they are never flashy staged sequences, but instead very simplistic and calming moments. Carney uses music as a connective tissue between characters who otherwise struggle to click. So with his new Apple TV+ indie feature Flora and Son he sets the events in Dublin, Ireland, and its another feel-good heartwarming experience,. The best parts are the musical moments, with the song lyrics and acoustic guitar sounding delightful, however despite good intentions and solid moments, the film itself fails to fully hit the mark.

The thing with most John Carney movies is that they all feature flawed characters, with individuals going through some serious issues such as divorce or loss or being outcasted, however, that never stops these characters from being likable people whom we as the audience can root for and have that interest in seeing them get their happy ending. With Flora and Son, however, even though the story is structured in that same pattern, the characters are all really unlikeable and at times horrible. Flora (played by Ewe Hewson) is a terrible mother who rarely gives her son the time of day. She steals, is mean to everyone and overall just enjoys living her miserable life by feeling sorry for herself. We are supposed to wish good things for her character, but by acting so self-centered and unpleasant throughout most of the movie honestly made me not care for her. Only in the last 20 minutes, she makes the sudden decision to develop a consciousness, however, even then there isn't really any build-up in her character arc to get her to that stage. She just suddenly decides "Okay, I'm going to be nice now". The son too, though you do feel sorry that he's not got a solid parent figure, also is a bit of a prick, excuse my French. Weirdly it's the ex-boyfriend who we're supposed to hate, who actually comes off as the more reasonable one at times. Naturally, it doesn't help that he's played by Jack Reynor who is such a lovely man, so no matter how dislikable he tries to act I just see him as the sweet Irish-talking brother Brendan from Sing Street. In reality, the only character that seems to have a solid moral code and is actually a nice person is Flora's online guitar teacher (played by Joseph Gordon-Levitt), but again, that connects to the main musical moments of the film, which again are its stronghold.

The cinematography is fairly bland, with the only noteworthy moments being when Flora helps her son film a music video, which results in a very amusing piece. The narrative itself is standard cheesiness which is to be expected in a romantic comedy drama such as this, but the storyline is pretty basic and more tame than usual compared to Carney's previous works. Again, within the last 20 minutes, it does come all together nicely even if the ending itself is a tad anti-climactic, but overall it is a well-intentioned little indie flick, with a great acoustic soundtrack, and enough heartwarming moments to make it worth a Saturday night watch with your partner.

Overall score: 6/10

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