hi what do you think abt t4t kakayama (it's canon to me tbh)
:) hi ty for the question. i will do two sweet pictures of them being intimate and then under the cut there's going to be a longer very unsweet and more technical response
so i'm usually not a very shippy person! but that said i am also on the record as an occasional kakayama + kakayamagai enjoyer
i do hc them both as trans and in different ways w/ different experiences of transition and identity! i have no interest in proving my view as canon, but i do regard my reading of the text (text here including the anime) as a valid interpretation of yamato's experience of identity
yamato, for example, imo, doesnt have any real lived experience of being raised as a child of any gender. he was an experimental subject, and then he was Danzō's weapon/vessel for the mokuton, and then he was in anbu.
in a fun little word game which should not be taken seriously: it'd almost be more fitting to describe him as "adgender" rather than "transgender" since the prefix "trans" implies moving across where the prefix "cis" means to stand still, but the prefix "ad" means "to move towards" and i headcanon him as somebody who was degendered as a child, not in a cool nonbinary way, but instead in a dehumanizing, objectifying way, so his experience of creating his identity and his gender along with it is one of moving toward the concept of gender
this word doesn't and wont exist, but bc of the way english works it would probably be simplified to be spelled precisely the same as "agender" in the same way that "aggression" came from latin "aggredi" which came from "ad" (meaning to/toward) and and latin "gradus" (meaning step) (essentially the combination means "to step to" [in a threatening manner])
the only diferences is where agender (meaning no gender) is pronounced ay-gender, the agender that comes from adgender would be prounounced more like "uhgender" in the same way that agressive isnt pronounced like "ay-gressive" but instead like "uhgressive"
and then...as for kakashi? i just decided on vibes. i didn't think hard about it.
i guess i should also say that, while i draw kakayama very infrequently, when i do draw it i usually try to be very apparent about the transness in the artwork if i can?
especially if i'm drawing anything more intimate than a peck on the cheek.
it's no secret that shipping is often times the most energized part of fandom, and i kind of don't want to produce romantic or sexual artwork which will be enjoyed by people who don't think trans people can be attractive? or who find that trans headcanons make a character uninteresting to them? or worse, "ruin" a depiction of a character to them?
often i think about in terms of. IF there are people that follow me that love my work (usually) and think that kakashi or yamato are hot (usually) and love kakayama (usually) but get frustrated or even uncomfortable out when i draw them as explicitly trans? then i'm drawing all intimate artwork of them as explicitly trans.
it's a little like...nobody gets to love my work if transgender characters are a turnoff for them. that's the bar for entry, is the way i think of it, but really its more like putting onions in a dish. if you want to eat the dish you have to eat the onions. if you don't want to eat the onions, don't eat the dish. all the meals i make contain onions. i'll never compromise on my intention to put onions in every dish i make. that's my ninja way, as the kids say.
especially in the climate we're in right now.
i don't know. i have a lot of feelings about how most fandoms tend to view trans men, especially in terms of romantic and sexual relationships. I'm doing a bad job of expressing the depth of how much seeing how fandom treats trans male identity and transmasculine bodies impacts the way that i draw + write kakayama, but genuinely it's something i think about every single time i create content about them.
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hey hey!! kanera highschool au? 👀
“On your left,” comes a deep, voice from…well, her left, as Hera slides a book into her backpack. She freezes, head still in her locker.
Hera knows that voice.
“I’ve, uh, seen you around school,” the voice continues, flirtation dripping off it. “And I was wondering if you might wanna go out after sometime. I’m free tonight, for example. Just throwing it out there.”
Her back straightens.
“Can I ask you a question?” Hera asks, still staring into her locker, letting her own tone lilt flirtatiously.
It takes him a good few seconds to respond, for whatever reason. “Anything.”
Then Hera slams her locker door shut and whirls on him. Kanan Jarrus, school heartbreaker, among other things that both other people and Hera herself has called him, jumps, his grin fading. He’s handsome, Hera can’t deny that, with his shoulder-length chestnut waves that all the girls swoon over, striking aqua-blue eyes, and charming smile. But he’s got a devil-may-care kind of swagger and a complete lack of worry about how his actions affect other people. Hera intends to change that.
“WHAT ARE YOU DOING WITH YOUR LIFE?!” Hera yells, heat rising in her cheeks and anger that’s been simmering for months on end erupting out of her voice. Everyone in the hallway turns to look at them. Good. He deserves to be embarrassed for what he’s been up to.
“Do you really think that running around breaking hearts is a good use of time?” Hera asks him, her words bouncing off the school hallway walls and coming back to make him flinch. “Making girls cry? Getting their hopes up and then crushing them?”
She takes a step closer to him. He’s frozen now, and the fear of God is in his eyes.
Now that’s a better look on him.
“I’ll have you know that your actions have consequences,” Hera informs him, filling each word with venom. “Your little flings are fun for some people, but for the ones who were looking for serious relationships? Who were so giddy over the fact that you were leaving them love letters that said they were the “only one” when seven other girls got the same one?”
Hera’s voice lowers, so that the rest of the hallway can’t hear her next words. “Like my best friend, for example?” She growls, and she can practically feel her eyes flashing. Kanan takes a step back, brow furrowing as her words seem to hit home. “Were painful. Do you find causing pain fun, Kanan Jarrus?”
Words seem to fail him. For once, the biggest talker in school keeps his mouth shut.
“I didn’t think so,” Hera remarks, satisfied that he isn’t a total jerk. Not 100%. Maybe just 98%.
She pulls her backpack tighter on her shoulders. “I believe anyone can change,” she continues, her voice just as steely, but slightly less venomous. “And that everyone deserves a second chance.”
Then she levels him with another of her infamous glares, and the fear in his eyes grows.
“So I suggest you do some rethinking and some self-improvement before you ask another girl out,” she strongly recommends, her voice rising in volume again. “For her sake.”
Kanan blinks, still struck dumb.
“So, no,” Hera finishes, her voice returning to normal volume. “I won’t go out with you.”
And then she turns around and walks off, braids swinging behind her, feeling thoroughly satisfied.
this is a prequel to this fic!
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Curious, do people who play gacha games give any kind of shit about archiving the game itself? Or do they accept that the company running the game just takes their money, lets them play for a handful of years, and then fucks off?
I know I grew up playing MMOs and that has just. Been a part of the experience of playing them, but at least a lot of MMOs that have gone defunct have had a sort of revival and archiving effort perpetuated by dedicated fans.
I don't know if we'll ever see that with any kind of mobile gacha app.
And even with a lot of MMO revivals or legacy servers or rebuilds, I don't see a lot of options for playing the game entirely offline, rather, the ability for a player to experience as much as they can without the inherent need for other people to be involved. I know it defeats the purpose of the MMO, but in any case where the servers have to go offline (whether temporarily or for good), archiving isn't worth much if it can't be accessed without the need for them.
I dunno. Just having some thoughts about game preservation because I'm just very acutely aware of the passage of time rn.
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