#fear no mortal being

[luck-of-the-drawings]

THIS THING IS SCUUUFFED AS HELL & ITS ALSO THE BEST THING I HAVE ANIMATED THUS FAR. IM SO IN LOVE WITH EMIZEL. JUST WISH I GAVE HIM MORE STUPID TATTOOS. NEXT TIME THO. NEXT TIME. I ALSO LOVE VEX&VIV SOOOO MUCH. charlies flavor of Deranged is my FAVORITE!!

#cw gore #jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #jrwi suckening spoilers #ACTULY FINISHED THIS A WHILE AGO. kept going back n forth between trying to work on it more or call it done #in the end i chose DONE!! i worked on this for a full day n a half. NO idea what possesed me but it is NOT happenin again anytime soon #i shall do better NEXT TIME!! in the meantime tho OH MY GOOOOOD WHO WANTS TO SCREAM ABT THE SUCKENING WITH ME #THE FUCKINNN THE FUCKIN THING WITH VEX N VIV BEING THE SHADOW LEADERS OF THE FANGS/DEMONS #OH MMYY GOOOODDD THATS THEIR LIL MEAT GENERATOR... THTS SO FUCKED UP AND COOL UUUGHHH I LOVE THEM... #THEIR FLAVORE IS SO WONDERFUL. I LOOOVE HOW SILLY THEY ARE. MAKING PUNS WHILE PULLIN A SCREAMING VICTIM APART #vex n his lil fashiony art workshop and viv n her sterile n clean doctors office #i bet she doesnt even HAVE a medical liscense. it would be funny if vex did tho. could u imagine #they main MEDIC in tf2 together. viv is the battlemedic while vex only pocket medics for her. COULD U IMAGINE #guh i could go on abt these two forever n ever n ever i LOVE THEMM i gotta draw em more.... #OH ALSO before i run outa room. i should say. i took inspiration from a tf2 animation called POOTIS ENGAGED #the animator. Ceno0. uses black bars in the action sequences in SUCH A COOL WAYYY everytime i watch that video i feel inspired #oneday ill make more complex fight scenes... one day.... #in the meantime UGHHH I LOVE THE SUCKENING SO MUUUCH CAN I JUST FUCKIN SAAAYY THAT I THINK EMIZEL IS A SMART COOKIE!! #THESE PPL FUCKING FEAR HIM NOW!!! 'SHAMIA SHAMI' IS NOW THEIR MORTAL ENEMY!! POWERFUL ILLUSIONIST. CANT DIE. #THAT PART AT THE END THERE WHERE HE FUCKIN. KILLS HIMSELF INFRONTA THEM. THATS SO AWESOME. THATS SO METAL. AND THEN HE COMES BACK!! #I WATCHED EP 7 ASWELL BUT I WONT SPOIL IT HERE. BUT OMYGOD. EMIZEL IS SO COOL AND CAPABLE N SMART N FUNNY N UGHHHHHH I LOVE HIMMMMM #OKAY THATS MY RAMBLE FOR THE DAY THANKYOU FOR READING. I READ ALL TAGS SO YOU SHOULD RAMBLE TOO. IF YOU WANT. IF YOU CAN.

[mjuuuk]

idk useless ramblings but i cannot stop thinking about how cambions lore-wise are very much drawn to mortals and usually end up with mortal spouses/offspring. In relation to raph especially bc he gets SO fed up whenever mortality is mentioned in relation to him and feels so above it but like. honey. your dna literally is 50% human. your wifey (gender neutral) and kids are all probably gonna be mortal as well, embrace it

#i 100% believe it’s some deep rooted fear for him to be seen as anything not 100% full devil #probs inflicted on him by his dear father #in that one line where he goes ‚I AM NO MORTAL >:(’ there’s a spare second right at the beginning where his expression looks so so scared #really makes u think #anyhow it’s just generally a crunchy topic bc it plays into that inner strife of cambions so deliciously #belonging to two worlds but also neither. hating the mortal world but also being irrationally drawn to it #ramblings #baldur's gate iii #bg3 raphael #raphael the cambion #raphael bg3 #bg3

[tswwwit]

Thinking about the incubus one shot you did a few years back and now I'm just imagining a series of unexplained deaths hitting the town, and the deaths have seemingly no correlation save for the fact that the victims all bullied Dipper at one point or another, and eventually figuring out that the incubus that would later try and seduce Bill disguised as Dipper used that same trick to suck the life force out of all the victims, and it worked every time because the ones who picked on Dipper the hardest were actually crushing on him 100%. It gets hairy because only one person survived their incubus encounter, and because the incubus was disguised as Dipper, they accuse him of being some kind of killer and the town gets suspicious of him and so Bill and Dipper have to clear his name. I hope that makes sense 😭

#answers #This premise also works with any sort of shape changing thing taking Dipper's form and going to town as it were #Dipper would obviously want to clear his name #He already has enough trouble in his life without being hunted down for devouring souls #He has truth on his side so that's helpful! I figure doppelgangers/shapeshifters are a Known Factor in this world #That should buy him some reasonable doubt and enough time to get to the bottom of the murders #The hard part is convincing Bill to offer like. Any assistance at all #C'mon kid what's wrong with cultivating an aura of fear? #Who doesn't want their enemies terrified of being devoured messily or dismembered #Someone accuses Dipper of being a vicious killer and Bill just sighs wistfully in the background #Oh if only 😔 Don't get him wrong he adores his mortal #But would it kill a guy TO kill some guys just for the hell of it sometimes??

[wwpbviiid]

AU where instead of the man with a voice like honey and chocolate and coffee all at once, it was Jonmartin that showed up at the start of season 2, Somewhere Else being the Mistholme Museum

#tma #the magnus archives #jonmartin #the mistholme museum #the mistholme museum of mystery morbidity and mortality #mistholme museum #mistholme #tmmommam #‘Welcome to the Mistholme Museum of Mystery Morbidity and Mortality! you’re not supposed to be here. how did you get in’ #‘we have no fucking clue’ #clockwork mother tries to get the Archivist into the stables thinking he’s an escaped exhibit #wait would they put the Fears in the stables? would the Fears be an exhibit #so many thoughts #jonmartin would help the audio tour guide get everyone back from the glassways #no being left on the floor of the auxiliary security station next to a dead body. no guilt over helping the man with his ritual #and the guide would help them too. the tour would be a good distraction from everything that just happened.

[justaz]

thinking about god!merlin

the boy who did not know what he was or why he was born, questioning if he was a monster. the boy who heard of a destiny too heavy to carry on his own but doing so regardless because it gave him purpose. growing into his own power that seemed to get stronger and stronger every day. warlock!merlin noting that the druids revere him to an uncomfortable level, as if he were their messiah, their saving grace. which, according to the prophecies, is true. he is emrys and emrys is to save them all. the young man who does not abide by the laws of nature, who can create life without taking, who can speak a butterfly into existence, who commands nature with a yell, who can heal any and all ailments without punishment for avoiding death. the man who has died over and over again but keeps waking up, just a little bit off. he can feel his mortality burning away, with every spell, with every druid prayer and offering, with every death. the young boy searching desperately for his purpose and growing into the young man who kills without flinching because what is one little mortal life to him? who answers to emrys more than merlin now. who desperately craves to be young and naive and just. merlin.

#god!merlin #emrys the god of life magic and creation #merlin fearing the being he’ll become when that last shred of mortality burns out #condemning his godly self for his perceived selfishness and cruelty #leaving his people to suffer and die to play human for twenty odd years #when his godly self simply wanted to guide not control #idk if any of this makes sense #but it does to me #and that’s all that matters #at the end of the day it’s u and that weird niche shit ur unhealthily attached to #bbc merlin #merlin emrys

[ganondoodle]

i really need to defeat the fear in my head that i am exactly the kind of villain fan that the vast majority seems to despise and that once it becomes clear im gonna get hunted down like i have been before

#ganondoodles talks #personal #yes this is about demise #the further i get with chapter twos rough draft the more i have to fight that fear #bc i so often see aggressive posts about hating people making villains into good people and i keep thinking i fall into that #even if demise has barely anything to work with- and in my version the canon appearance is essentially .. not really him anymore #i have as much backstory for him as i have for destiny's entire plot #but in my version hes a deeply bitter and hurt but ultimately soft and kind hearted deity #that constantly is at war with himself bc he wants to embrace the role of being the evil beast hes been accused of being for so long- #-that hes been pushed into by his own doing and the gods playing spiteful tricks to punish him for resisting them- #-and still at the core wanting nothing more but to keep protecting and helping mortals- to fight the gods for them more than for himself #i guess you could sum it up with being torn between being the monster everyone wants him to be and still wanting protect them #both of which ending in the ultimate goal of destroying the gods #......i know i have talked about this before #but as i said i am getting further into the rough draft for chapter 2 so the fear is getting to me again #feel free to ignore weeeeeeeeeeeee

[annamaryllis]

I would like to know exactly how luke asking annabeth to run away with him went down.

#annabeth🥺 #it's sad to think about how it'll be so much harder for annabeth to unpack and heal from that relationship bc he's dead #it's hard enough to come to terms with someone you love/held in high esteem hurting you so deeply #but she's also grieving him too so it's even harder to hold him accountable to herself and recognizing the good and the bad #she may struggle to not romanticize the memory of him #sorting through what about their relationship was pure and genuine and what was fueled by other stuff #both of their trauma really played into it in some of the worst ways... #but to even recognize how her trauma played into it she'd have to identify what her trauma even is and how it's affected her life #it's really complex and difficult work #and bc he's gone she'll never get to question him on stuff like what he was thinking at certain points and why #so certain things will never get the best closure #ugh it's all so fucked up #MAYBE SOMETHING WE COULD HAVE EXPLORED IN HOO RICHARD???? BUT NO #and it would have been perfect too bc she'd also be dealing with issues caused by both of her parents triggered by the MoA quest #like her mother's conditional love #and trauma from her mortal family #and her fear of spiders relates to both of these things bc it's a phobia that's passed down from her mom's actions #so she's being punished for something she's not responsible for and also being burdened with a quest simply for being her mother's daughter #and it also represents her mortal family's neglect bc they ignored her needs and all that... #AND THEN the only person she's received actually pure and good unconditional love from was snatched from her for 6 months #and the MoA quest could have been a way to confront some of these fears and wounds...so she's a little stronger by tartarus which #should bring out the best in her and the worst in percy #and then he can work through some stuff too down there #HoO could have been a journey for them where they're undone and then healed #bc at the end of everything they have the medicine to literally everything which is real love (which they have for each other intensely) #the rant I could go on about this...I have so many thoughts about what HoO should have been. maybe one day #annabeth chase #luke castellan #✏️

[gierosajie]

do u think venti ever tried to reach out to the spring fairy.......i feel like her story would've hit him Hard

I'd imagine he'd also encourage her to reach out to Old Finch while he's still alive rather than live in loneliness for the rest of her immortal life. Like, Venti's been on both sides before; caring about someone so much that it would hurt and even losing them, and being left behind not knowing if that dear friend would even return

#genshin impact #ask #anon #something about how the spring fairy being burned once and deciding never again to her own detriment #yet couldn't help but try to get close before shutting herself out for fear of experiencing another loss #and Venti having had similar experiences yet still goes about surrounding himself with friends #most of which are mortals mind you #but still standing separate at the back

[iphigeniacomplex]

obligatory note that i know very little about ancient greek culture, stories, & beliefs beyond my greek mythology phase from ages 8 to 11 but i get sooo pissed off abt arachne bc she literally WAS better than athena. like sorry a bad bitch said she was a bad bitch and then was able to actually prove it?? WHAT happened to sisterhood. & then when arachnes like guess i’ll kill myself after literally being humiliated by a goddess in front of everyone — for being better than her — it’s STILL not enough so athena decides to i have no mouth and i must scream this woman for literally committing the crime of 1) understanding her own skill and refusing to undermine her art 2) factually challenging authority even to the face of a god and 3) being better than she is. athena was up on olympus hating from a cracked screen on an empty stomach literally disgusting.

#it speaks! #this is very obviously like an im about to go to bed post but in a genuine sense i think theres a lot of commentary in this story -> #<- regarding the necessary futility of using art to challenge absolute power. like both tapestries were factual (athenas speaking on -> #<- punishments for hubris & arachnes depicting the ways power has allowed the gods to abuse mortals) #but one of them is intended to evoke respect out of fear and the other is meant to hold a mirror to what ppl are afraid to speak about. #& like the gods are not ‘absolute power’ in the sense of being an oppressive regime they are absolute power in the sense of being -> #<- literally the world itself. like there can be no genuine revolt from arachne against the gods. #which strikes me as likely how ancient ppl like ovid would have viewed emperors and the systems they lived under in a more tangible sense #but thats obviously my very modern & usamerican read .. will def further explore the topic i do think of it quite a bit in this context

[slime-crafters]

The funniest part of the clavicus vile quest in skyrim is how you can't talk to an innkeeper as a vampire without hearing about how Falion of Morthal has studied vampire, draugr, and all manner of undead. I don't really feel bad that the DB is the monkey paw that frees them of their vampirism atp, they really didn't have to go to fucking clavicus vile for assistance...

#skyrim #tes v skyrim #video games #gaming #sure maybe they were not going to be around mortals for fear of being killed. but skyrim's actually p progressive all things considered

[azurechicken]

It always gets me how Justice did not change at all, like, he is not corrupted at all. It makes everything more tragic than it already is. The only thing that changed was his perception, which of course, naturally came due to the change of hosts. I'm mostly taking Awakening Justice into account and how he acts because that is where we can carefully observe him by himself, without Anders' influence on the matter. And his influence is everything on the point I am trying to make.

When we first meet Justice, he is fulfilling his nature of bringing justice to the people he thinks that need it. He is very outspoken about it, and is already ready to take action with or without Warden's help. For a supposedly peaceful spirit that Anders claims to have ruined with his anger, Justice is acting pretty angry here himself (This is not the only time either). This is one of the first things I want to point out that did not change much about the spirit. Justice was always fierce about his cause. However, what stands out to me in these scenes is when the witch calls him out on his idea of justice.

Justice, is that what you are calling it? What of their punishment, burning my house to the ground and with me in it?

Well, in this case, the witch is a demon and mocking Justice for funsies. But what she says actually gives a bit more insight about what kind of a spirit Justice is. The actions do not speak louder than intent to him, as long as it is within the lines he set for himself. In a way, he was always okay with a few… casualties in the name of justice. Even though it is as simple as burning down a house this time. Isn't violence for violence vengeance after all?

While we are on the topic of vengeance, let's not forget the way he is eager on avenging Kristoff, vowing to kill every darkspawn for his cause (I mean the way he literally calls it avenging is enough debate for some people but I want to continue). So how come wanting to take revenge on the offenders that wronged not only his host but many other people, is any different? How did this route did not take him to the road of vengeance but attacking the templars, who are also offenders that wronged his host and other people, is corrupting him?

The answer is of course, that it is not, it did not. There is no difference between those two for Justice, there is no difference between vengeance and justice. Punishing the ones who deserve it is all there is. There is no gray area for spirits the way there is in the mortal world, and we see this clearly in the way he judges Velanna and Nathaniel for their crimes. Despite what I said about him seeing intent before action, now he cannot see beyond their wrongs. This simply shows that if the intent is as clear as violence for violence, he understands. But he does not understand the gray area of Velanna mistaking the innocents as guilty, or Nathaniel taking back what used to be already his.

 

There might be none for Justice, but there is a difference between darkspawn and templars for mortals. For one, darkspawn are generally mindless, and has no moral compass for us to judge. Whereas templars are just people with different ideals about life, to put it kindly at least. (Which is worse, being a mindless cruel monster, or having the mind and morals to choose to be something else but going for being one anyway? Lol another discussion for another time). Templars are the gray area that Justice lacks the understanding of. When he vows to kill every templar like he did with the darkspawn, he does not suddenly turn into a demon, he is simply punishing the ones that were doing wrong, as he does.

From here we can say that spirits' judgments and mortal's don't exactly match up. Though, there is one idea that seems to match better than others, and that is corruption. As far as we learn from Justice, spirits do not know about corruption any better than we do. Spirit do bad, spirit go bad, right? So, when Justice starts to feel things that are associated with demons, such as envy, he starts to fear corruption. He says he does not want to learn how a demon feels, but he also states that he does see the wishful thinking of a demon wanting to cross the Veil for this world. He is conflicted at best about the whole thing. Still, he does not consider himself corrupted regardless. I think that the reason behind that is simply the fact that generally, the Warden can ease his worries when Justice confides in them. And that is another thing that says a bit about him. He seems to accept the lack of understanding he has in the world, and chooses to listen to someone who does. Though, not just a random anybody, someone he deemed just.

So, let's see. A fade spirit with identity issues and an anxious spirit healer walks into a bar…

When they merged and Justice accepted Anders' cause for himself, and when they went all crazy on the Templars, Anders was scared. He feared the worst immediately because he is taught the worst about possession. He knew that Justice was angry because of him and his ideals about mages. So he blamed himself, called it a corruption he caused. And as I mentioned, Justice is accepting of the fact that he has a lack of understanding of some things. Plus, he was already scared of corruption. So, when Anders, who is an educated mage about possessions and corruption claims that he is slowly corrupting the spirit, they held onto it.

Everyone in their life from this point on, do nothing but egg them on about it, on top of it all. They might not corrupt each other, but everyone else does by pushing them the idea that they are now an abomination. Anders starts to fear the nonexistent corruption more, and Justice is confusing the inability to just wipe all the bad out with sloth. We are talking about a being who comes from the Fade, which can be bent at will and a place of immediate action. This works well in Awakening because we are already fighting darkspawn nonstop, and we are in the middle of a war. But in Kirkwall? Everything requires planning and suspended ideals. Templars bring injustice everywhere they go, yet there is not much they can do. After many years of being held back, it is no wonder Justice is surfacing more and more, itching to fulfill his purpose. Because he was always outspoken, angry at the injustice in the world and eager to bring justice. He did not change, but Anders' morals and his' just did not align the way they thought it would. They forgot that in Justice, there was always a part that was vengeance.

At the end, Justice was one of the most stable parts of Anders' story. He couldn't count his vow in Awakening complete without reaching the root of the problem, which was the broodmother. And he could not do so in Kirkwall without getting rid of the Chantry. Because chantry is the root of the Templars, and being a bystander while you can help solve everything easily is unjust all the same.

Anders and Justice had the same cause, different morality and they were just confused because they didn't know any better.

#going through awakening again made me so annoyinnnng i cant stop thinking about justice #listen i have so much more to say #justice didnt become a corrupted spirit when he went on a vengeance run on the darkspawn #and he didnt become a demon when he went on another vengeance run on templars #but once people were included they became confused #and this kinda goes to show that spirits' morality is all about their awareness of a wrong-doing imo #spirits' idea of doing something “bad” could mean something totally different like they need to be held a different judgment on the matter #demons could be just confused beings with too much feelings they couldn't understand so they became them #if they embody their name as much as spirits do there is nothing they can do about it #they cannot simply be bad because the emotion is not the bad part about such things they are the natural part #the bad part of negative emotions are the fact that they cause actions that we mortals would count as bad #at one point what of the nightmare demon eating away the fears we would be glad to be rid of is so bad? #and justice going as far as a boom for his virtue isnt something we could judge him bad for its just his nature #y'know? does that make sense? #they were right to blow shit up tho lol #im sleep deprived #i wrote this for myself but u can also have it lol #justice #anders #justice positive #anders positive #dragon age #dragon age awakening #me own

[bunkernine]

society if hoo had them at uni age and the lost trio went to chb and chiron is like "how tf are ANY of u alive and unclaimed". wilderness was just community college.

#on a serious note this changes a lot actually. annabeth and percy would not be in chb anymore so when percy goes missing #its like. a genuine possibility and fear because demigods don't make it that old. there is also some added time between tlo and tlh as well #further adding to jasons isolation as being even WEIRDER than everyone else. he also would've been praetor for longer so maybe the romans #wouldve cared more. this also does away with the plot hole of ppl not giving a shit that jason piper and leo (and dylan) straight up #dipped. introducing piper especially to a summer camp makes chb less appealing because they're too old for that and thus makes their #departure from chb make more sense in toa. yet also it opens up the possibility of new rome uni.... which i cannot see any reason as to why #leo would not go there!!!!! outside of being banned cuz he bombed new rome lol. but pipers sexuality arc works for college too!!! ur never #too old to find urself. but also this is the question of if you are able to relatively function in society (this is more for piper leo fran #and i guess percy) then why would you even fight this prophecy??? anyway lol them being college aged is perfect cuz percy is literally #going to a new place and having a new transition with new ppl... like u do in college LOL. now the question is would hazel still be 13. nic #is a lot older at this point and perhaps has the same age gap as bianca and him did 🤔 cant remember. but also don't know why hazel was 13 #in the first place lol. idk. in my college hoo she is just a senior in hs about to graduate from spqr and thinking about staying there or #possibly going to newru after seeing frank make the decision the previous year! SAD! #anyway in hoo. percy and annabeth are sophomores. frank and the lost trio are freshman. #but then in toa. percy annie frank and the lost trio are all graduating cuz percy got held back and Annabeth failed after tartarus fr. #but then also know that piper never went to newru and is adamant about going to mortal uni. and leo kills in newru but is bored. nvm i #forgot he died 🧍‍♂️ ummmmmm ok. ignore leo. and jason actually. so um. ok that really threw me off but are u getting it. that's when apollo #is like 'heeyyyyy i need help pwease 🥺' and they're all like 'dude.' #OK! #but also i ackowedge that this is a children's book and i am not its demographic so god be with you.

[landfilloftrash]

“I… I could’ve sworn.. hm. I guess not. Nevermind, Captain. It’s nothing...”

oh q who ! anyways I had . A thought.

this thought is specifically thanks to @porgthespacepenguin​ and @celestialholz​ ‘s theories living rent free since s2 came OUT and now s3 having no mention of local entity even in passing (so far. but i have little hope /lh)

(hissing)

#my art #Guinan #Jean-Luc Picard #Q Star Trek #in spirit /jov #Star Trek #Star Trek Picard #Star Trek PIC #Star Madness (across the universe) #do I know how tf this would be feasible???? no!!!! but that doesn’t stop the Sudden Fear #and YES I know in s3ep3 Picard mentions that he “knows NOW he wouldn't be like his father but could've learned that 20 years ago'' #but does he mention Q by name? NO! and i'm offended /lhj #AS WELL AS EP 4’S GENEROUS USE OF FARPOINT REFERENCES A N D SPACE JELLIES? c’mon. #don’t even. when Shaw EXPLICITLY mentioned the time anomaly I had to pause and brEATHE. #so both ep 4 and 5 reference things Q had been APART of #but no direct tie to Q. No one referring to him as their adversary or the one who constructed those things — nothing. #for example on where my brain went #if Quinn gets explicitly remembered in VOY then you could toss ‘he died a mortal’ #meanwhile dying as a Q has the consequence of memory of the entity itself fading away if not the actions and things woven into existence #and Guinan is enough outside it all that she forgot that linear beings Forget #this concept came to me the night b4 episode 2 released I am extremely lazy /lh #also sorry I HAD attempted backgrounds b4 giving up and going fuck it real image #enjoyyyyy #rea rambles in the tags #rea’s trash

[myrfing]

elidibus and gourd have remarkable similarities and by total accident too cus i did not write him in tandem LMFAO. both were young and beloved and were given a secure place in the world by the adults around them and both lost them all violently and pretty suddenly while they were reaching the cusp of their adulthoods. both played the role of observers for a very very long time and both felt lost and needed a form of extreme denial to continue after losing their home. both longed for guidance and were okay with being puppets if it meant they could recieve it again. there’s a slew of fundamental differences in why they turned out so differently-yet-vaguely-alike of course but OK I PROMSJE it wasnt all for my malevolent wolidibus agenda

#elidibus fears gourd in the way that he fears the path he took #on top of everything else. and gourd loathed elidibus and was obsessed with him because he was proof that the path he wished to have… #was like incompatible with his very being. the if even one of the spires had lived question #if death wasn’t part and parcel of a mortal life and if he ever believed that he and his world were perfect #Anyway that’s part of why he wants him to live inna dog house. 👍

[marietheran]

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#Went to Confession (again) #am still at my most miserable and confused #look I am aware I cannot ask of the priest to tell me <<oh that was only a venial sin you needn't mind>> #but it's also just really freaking hard when you just cannot tell a venial sin from a mortal one #and I know - I know - if you looked at it my attitude towards life is pretty dumb #to write a scathing report: i view life as a path of least resistance. I'm governed either by whims or by fear #which means I have no middle perspective. It's either what's easier now or being afraid of hell #I hardly pay any attention to matters like health or whatever. if I wasn't afraid of sin I wouldn't care about how things impact my mind #If I wasn't afraid of sin I'd have read Game of Thrones or whatever. and of course I would feel unimaginably dirty afterwards. but at least #I'd have read something interesting right? /s #oh and also I'm literally Emma Bovary minus the adultery but that's a different issue #mostly. some of it is probably more connected than obvious at first glance #I'm miserable and it's not even the sort of misery you can make poetry about. #only scathing character portraits. if i was a character from a novel you would hate me #(i would find the novel boring. mundane. there's nothing romantic in this) #(i wouldn't *prefer* to deal with wars - death of everyone you've known - unbreakable badly worded vows or whatever. #but it makes for better stories) #but again you would hate me in mine #// #therese rambles #therese is in an emotional hole #possibly more than emotional but that's the tag

[landgraabbed]

malin doing his best to channel his inner botw link

#p #skyrim tag #please ignore the dead guy #this isn't abt him smh #i was so lucky to have gotten that glass mace drop #malin is absolutely a sword boy and eventually i want to level two handed as well #but as a battlemage/spellsword he favors a sword + offhand spell #i just like thinking that in his earlier days in skyrim laying low & knowing how the avg skyrim citizen feels abt the thalmor #he just avoids going full magic bc he fears people will turn on him #whereas he used to favor magic previously #i just like the thought of him leaning into martial skills out of necessity in this new land and the mastery of them paralleling how malin #*comes to think of skyrim of his home #and his forays into lycanthropy and later vampirism just turn him even more off from the idea of transcending mortality #maybe being a mortal is a good thing!! #and other heretical thoughts for a good purebred altmer to have