A sort of slam poem I wrote while fighting a hemiplegic migraine after a long day doing what I love (theatre) and having to briefly bow out due to going non-verbal.
I’ve been on the go for four days straight with deadlines, travel, cons, and networking and it’s moments like this that make me fear for my future as a creative.
I’m tired before anyone else. I’m the one who falters first. I’m the one that makes it difficult.
Four days of little sleep should be natural for an actor. A film is usually at least eight weeks. The West End runs for months at a time.
I’m so scared I’m not sustainable. Not the schedule. Me.
Yay, I love 48 hour migraines that give you a 5 hour intermission.
I'm exhausted and just...it's similar to stroke symptoms and im still half paralysed and blind but the pain's faded and I'm not throwing up anymore. Oh and I can use words a bit.
i love researching my migraines, y’know as one does, and finding out that i have one of the rarest migraines a person can have. like, um excuse me, what?? wdym that my migraines are basically just a stroke with longer lasting affects?? also how crazy is it that i can find more info about than i could when asking doctors? 😀 yeah but anyways we’ve unlocked a new achievement, the name of the migraines i get are “hemiplegic migraines” and only .01% of people have out of the 15-20% of the population who experience migraines
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I have waited a LONG time to get to this point, to ask for this investigation into FND & Long COVID from the GP...
#Fibromyalgia #trauma #chronicillness #ChronicPain #Dysphagia #LongCovid #FND
I have waited a LONG time to get to this point, to ask for this investigation into FND & Long COVID from the GP. I am terrified of being laughed at, being told no, or that I’m being daft. Humiliated, burned, ghosted, gaslit, disdainfully told off…
These are all the things I have experienced from health professionals and GPs since I was 12.
That was when I was a 12yo traumatised child, living…
My right leg and foot are going fucking numb and I am fucking sick of it. I am “due” for an episode and worried it’s coming… who the fuck knows. Not me.
Sometimes when I’m having a really bad hemiplegic migraine attack I like to pretend I’m Frodo during the attack on Minas Tirith being slowly compelled by the ring to show myself to the Nazgûl and by lying in my bed in the dark and going to sleep is winning.
Chronic migraine gotten really worse for the past two months, mixed with face numbness and peripheral neuropathy. Balance issue, really bad vertigo that when flared up causing difficulty to walk.
Recent follow up at neurologist, they decided to change my prescription from Gabapentin to Pregabalin. I am still taking Topiramate for my hemiplegic migraine. I am also taking Bionerv supplement to support my nerve issues.
Sometimes remember that I was first diagnosed with chronic migraines in the 3rd grade and to qualify for that diagnosis you must meet the clinical-significance criterion of "having 15 or more migraines per month" and taking that as an average, though the number has gradually lowered with effective treatment, I have spent about 50% of the past 20-odd years with a migraine. Anyway it sounds less absurd to apply for disability when you parse it quantitatively like that, not even accounting for quality of life
reading more about migraines and realizing the compulsive yawning that happens to me some days when I am very tense and have a lot of pressure in the mask of my face— the yawning is related to migraines too! Wild
Ah it finally ends at 1:30 in the morning! Now I'm going to actually properly sleep. And do nothing for a while. XD
I should know that hyperactivity is directly related to how many ice pick anvil headaches I get. And I was hyper as fuck for Wednesday/Thursday. XD
It's either that or seizures so *shrug* can't tell until either my scalp feels crackly or I get pain in my left eye and go blind for 24 hours. Sometimes its both! Auras always start the same. Time for postdrome self care/ sleep and not much else.. that was a rough one!
Because I had both today! I feel like a truck hit me! 😢