#hes my friend before hes my ex

[lotus-pear]

god i love skk sm i wish gay ppl were real :(

#LOTUS DRAWING ACTUAL POSES AND NOT JUST BUSTS??? WOAH #i swear i actually know anatomy and stuff i just never draw it bc it's too much effort #going to bed <<<<< staying up until two thirty to draw your otp #ALSO.. for those of you who know i'm rewatching bsd w my friend whose never seen it before.. we finally got to ep9 #and she IMMEDIATELY clocked in on skk's toxic exes energy😭😭 #also she calls chuuya childe bc hes a ginger and his first reaction to seeing dazai was “fight me >:)” #she was like “omgg..hes part of the evil organization🤭 and has beef w the protag (he wants to fuck them😏) *giggles* wait. TARTAGLIA😨😨‼️” #I WAS TRYING SO HARD NOT TO SCREAM.. I COULDNT LET HER KNOW HOW DISTRAUGHT I WAS HEARING THAT FOR THE TENTH TIME #anyway we finished s1 and chuuya's her fav character so far let's see if she can learn his actual name and stop calling him childe😭😭 #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #dazai osamu #osamu dazai #chuuya nakahara #nakahara chuuya #soukoku #skk #lotus draws

[eerna]

Nicasia swallowing her pride and begging Jude for Cardan's life on her knees u will always be famous. Jude letting herself cry over Cardan in front of no one but Nicasia u will always be famous.

#''we were friends before we were lovers and we were friends even after everything'' what if i ate my own throat #like she is still a bitch! she doesn't stop being a bitch!! but it's an emo bitch now!!! how delightful!!!! #tfota liveblog #red flag he stayed besties with his toxic ex even after she helped kidnap and torture his wife. whoopsie!!! #god i need to draw that conversation i have been planning on it for years now ever since i cried on that damn bus

[misty-wisp]

hiiii here's my velvet room attendant minato

ok so this guy's deal is he's akechi's velvet attendant and he does all the fusing and stuff bc yaldy (or nyarly, i haven't decided) decided to give p5's other wild card a botched great value velvet room by ripping minato's still-not-resting soul from the great seal (dw it's still intact) and slapping that into a makeshift human vessel. not only that but this vessel also has a fuckton of other souls shoved into it to allow for fusing and stuff. this man isn't joking when he says he is the compendium

as a result his personality is inconsistent as fuck! one second he's blank-faced minato, the next second he's a Completely Different Guy. he has no idea who he really is and definitely does not have any memories associated with being minato

okok onto design notes--he's a bartender! goro's velvet room is like a bar so victor here's serving up drinks. i thought it'd be cool if a fusion animation was like, mixing a drink together. also i'm sick and tired of people designing velvet attendant versions of the protags and just giving them theo's outfit. enough of that. be more silly with it

#persona 3 #p3 #minato arisato #makoto yuki #my art #just tagging that bc i feel like tagging p5 and goro would count as spam #so i've thought of velvet minato a lot! before this i used to have a wild card asuka au where he's her attendant. #however i don't like thinking of that au as much anymore bc it's heavily tied to my ex-friend who sucks ASS #that aside this guy's name was alphonse in the au but my partner figured victor would be better #and i agreed! bc he's literally frankenstein's monster in a way so why not name him after the mad doctor himself #anyways if one of the souls stuck in this guy was ryoji's and that's what makes him cheerful sometimes would that be fucked up or what

[the-meme-monarch]

well that's the worst nightmare I've had in a while

#we were at the grocery store and a shooter came in. my sibling and i were separated at the time. #they died. and i was theone to find their body afterward. so. that fucking sucked. #woke up and strted to cry bc i thought it was real for a second #dream journal #edit bc i dont eant to reblog it to say this but ive had time to process it now #i was the only fucking person who cared that xe died. the dream cut to after the shooter was arrested and we were preparing for xer funeral #i think the dream implied that yhe shooter was an ex employee at the store and my dad and i were trying to like. talk to the owners about Y #Your Ex Employee Killed My Fucking Sibling #and the manager or boss or ehoever just. didnt care. didnt have any sympathy #my dad was there. but he didnt speak. i had to beg the managet to feel anything for the child who was shot and killed in his store. #to pay for xer funeral? i dont know. #we were there getting a blind bag toy xe had talked aout going to get irl since it was a short walk there really #i was looking for those pink chocolate chips. #to make cookies fro my friends #thats why i eoke up thinking it was real i think #most of my set-in-reality nightmares hinge on something that Cant happen anymore. this one was based on Recent Events and Planned Events #i had woken up just before six. when xe gets up for school. so i stared crying bc Oh My God Xe's Dead Xe's Never Going To Go To School Again #i dont think ive looked them in the face at all today.

[sluttylittlewaste]

Maybe this is just a me thing but the MOMENT I realize a person in my life, whether romantic or platonic, doesn't reciprocate my feelings - I drop it. If I say "Hey I really like you" and they go "Oof sorry, I don't feel that way " or they leave or they try to change the subject? I will never bring it up again. Fully never happened.

I feel like a lot of people (specifically with regards to the romance genre in media) have this fantasy of being chased and having someone fight to tear their walls down, or to stick around even when they are constantly being pushed away - and perhaps it's because I have always envisioned myself in these scenarios as the one forced to do the chasing - but it feels... sad? Imbalanced? Pushy and coercive?

I don't want a relationship I had to talk the other person into. I don't want to have to give a grandiose speech about all the reasons loving me is actually worth the effort, or roll out a full marketing presentation to convince my partner that our relationship could be a good thing if they just "gave it a chance".

If a person I care for decides not to be around me? I'm going to trust them to know what's right for them. I'm going to trust a person if they say they don't want me or don't have space for me in their life. The moment you say you don't want me around, I'm gone. Poof.

IDK. There is just something about responding to blatant rejection by trying harder that makes me sort of sad instead of the happy tingly feelings these stories are trying to elicit.

#something something people should be able to take no for an answer #i know sometimes it's about “looking through the insecurety and self-sabotage to see the persons true feelings” or whatever #but I just #you'll never have to reject me twice #I'm not here to read people's minds #or try to change their minds about themselves or me or romance or friendship #respecting people's ability to think for themselves is a core component of love (for me at least) #so im going to take what is said or done at face value #ive had this argument with friends and exes before #“you aren't going to try ro fight for me/it/us?” not if you've made it clear that you want out #i have no desire to trap anyone #also #there's something very concerning about encouraging people to assume they know what their loved ones want #rather than accept what they are told or shown #this was brought on by uncarleys rwrb video #because when Henry jumped into that lake? i fully would have just left it at that #im not flying halfway around the world for someone who clearly doesn't want to talk to me #because if he wanted to talk to me he would #and i honestly don't think id ever be able to truly trust that our relationship wasn't just a result of me harassing him into it #but maybe that's my trust issues #rwrb #prince henry rwrb #prince henry fox mountchristen windsor #red white and royal blue #alex claremont diaz #thoughts #let me die #if i die #romance #love

[catcze]

Thinking about making a one shot series and when I looked at potential stuff on the blog I could use as a premise;;;;; I realized that there are ;;; so ;; many ;;;;;;

#「 🐈‍⬛ 」 strawberry.milk #LIKE #there’s the vampire AU Wrio that I did that is honest to god one of my personal favorite things ever #there’s the Knight! Wrio and Royal! Reader which is also a SUPER high contender (and the positive feedback I got on that was insane lol) #there’s a domestic AU that I could whip up #there’s also a sorta matrimony AU based from the ‘you won’t regret marrying me’ + Wrio crying at his wedding #there’s also a tattoo artist Wrio that’s been pinging around on the lowkey for a while #AND there’s also an exes to lovers AU thingy that I’ve touched on #AND AND AND AND there’s the potential to make a series out of the AU where Reader and Wrio were friends before he got sent to meropide #and then there’s a bunch of other stuff in probably forgetting too haikdkkd #goodness I should make a poll for this or something hahjdjd

[sukaato]

on food and friendship in extraordinary attorney woo ep 13 + 14

perhaps the world ends here - joy harjo / a pot of red lentils - peter pereira / on the intimacy of the mundane - eve lionheart / our beautiful life when it’s filled with shrieks - christopher citro

#i made this haphazardly bc i was so moved by the will to live myungseok found in this particular bowl of noodles #and the love he found sharing food with his friends #not to mention the lengths youngwoo went to to try to make junho's family feel loved and appreciated #even if it meant stepping out of her comfort zone like that #i cried at this silly little noodle eating scene it is silly how these guys are making me feel like ramen is boiling in my heart #extraordinary attorney woo #kdrama #food #web weaving #parallels #mim.txt #* #long post #i've never made one of these before and it doesn't flow too terribly so i will let myself be proud of this #even if it gets like a singular note #AAAHHH I FORGOT TO INCLUDE THAT SCENE OF MYUNGSEOK EATING WITH HIS EX WIFE #ok i put it in but 10 ppl already reblogged this ;;;;; oh well at least it feels more satisfying now

[dykeinthedark]

venting in tags about gender n shit (long as hell) (u can comment and talk 2 me as always :3)

#okay so i got a really masc haircut about a month ago and i know it's just a haircut but holy shit has it changed EVERYTHING for me #like.... i've always leaned masc except 1) before i came out 2) when i was actively in love with someone who i knew liked femmes #and they always described me as a fem. because that's what i showed her. because i wanted to be with her. #but lowkey whenever i'm in a not-impressing-anyone raw-dogging-life-no-crush era i always resort to a very masc style #like masc being my default and i'd only lean fem to impress people whether it's for love or peer pressure in a specific setting #like ''dressing up'' has always been a form of drag to me. like something i HAD to do to fit in or impress my parents (scott favor core) #but ever since this haircut i've realized... i could just BE masc innately like i really don't have to be womanly if i don't want to #which i usually don't. again i have only ever dressed fem for other people. but it's not even being masc that attracts me on its own #it's like. being masc in a distinctly lesbian way. as in whenever i look in the mirror i don't wanna be like a Guy i wanna be a dyke. #like lesbian as a gender identity too sort of thing honestly. okay i've been waffling but basically i sort of want to call myself butch #but i don't know if i like... can?? if i'm allowed to??? #everyone always says it's MORE than just wearing boy clothes and not wearing makeup and having short hair (which i already do all those) #i mean i've always id'd as genderqueer because it literally just means gender weird and i experience gender in a queer way #what's probably the most telling is that my friends (all queer) CALL me a butch lesbian #like every time they do i feel really internally validated. it's not just my clothes but my personality too ig is what people tell me #i have a higher pitched voice relatively speaking but apparently the way i talk is quote ''very clockably into women'' #which?? gender euphoria asf. my best friend specifically he (gay trans guy) always uses butch to describe me very intuitively #people have also noticed that i ''transitioned'' in all aspects except hormonally. like ppl have commented and noticed my masculinzation #but at the same time i always feel rly haunted by my ex relationships because one wanted me to be more masc #(she's the one who came out as straight and would treat me like a man) which i didn't like and i didn't like playing up being fem either #bc now it feels like she (butch) won't believe me if i called myself butch too bc she remembers me being femme #idk i feel like there's her voice in my head all the time that sees everything i do through her eyes (i'm lowkey still in love) #i feel like even though this comes so naturally to me i must be putting on a performance #even though i've actually read stone butch blues and done research into the history and i truly love and id with the culture like i rly do #that im still just a sad imitation of a butch lesbian and can never really be a part of it because i used to enjoy dressing up sometimes #like it's so stupid but can i still be butch if i wore a dress to prom and i think i looked good in it?? #even though i was envious of my friends who wore suits?? that i used to try goth makeup?? that i liked long dresses?? #that i enjoyed stacked necklaces and rings on every finger??? #and tbh ALL OF THAT CAME FROM A CONCIOUS EFFORT TO FEMINIZE MYSELF IN JUNIOR YEAR OF HIGHSCHOOL WHEN I WAS 16 #because omfg it was 2 months before junior prom and i was worried that i was too masc and wanted to get comfortable with being fem

[oatbugs]

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#meeting the sociologist/philosopher who flew in from barcelona and got basically no sleep just 2 be on time to our date soon #im wearing the earrings the ex situationship person chose for me. they have 3 sharp metal bits hanging down from them. it feels #cold like a knife and also they make noise whenever i take a step which acts a little like a friend and also a beating. dont forget who cho #for you. do you miss her? do you miss her? when you see his face will you miss her? #im going to look someone else in their eyes today #im going to study with my friend today and tomorrow #i had a call w a friend yesterday . he taught me logic metatheory intensively and he also said this whole experience has been painful for #him and the rest of my friends bc its like watching someone nearly drink cyanide over and over #it made things a bit clearer #he said its like watching a lion get declawed and that i was essentially unrecognisable. something happened to his friend #and he wanted his friend back #so im going to go back. #he said he doesnt mind dying alone. he asked why hes doing philosophy and i said pure love and he said thats true #im supposed to be in love w abstractions more than ppl #and im supposed to be in love w my friends before any romantic partner #ok going up tottenham ct escelators is a religious experience recently bc every time i will either make eye contact w the most beautiful #person ever or be reminded of the way they held me on the way down here or how i held them on the way up #anyway lets go

[namelessbenji]

Yo do y'all remember this art Martin posted before Bunnyfarm? Wish this guy stayed wonder what he would've said

Teehee!! Bunnyfarm style study (but it was done really poorly, just don't pay attention to the bad shit just pretend it's accurate look at funny bat)

This fucking LOSER!!!! is a twf oc I made with a friend named (Baseball) Louie the Bat,,, I love him dearly but also kill twink with rock

#twf #the walten files #the walten files oc #I love you Louie everyone say it back #Me and my friend who made him like to ship him with Sha #We call it Shouie #Everyone cherish Shouie it's wonderful #BUT!! We also imagine he's exes with Bon #We call it Bouie #Funnily enough he has no idea he's bi #He thinks he's just woke I guess #the bats are turning liberal guys worst day ever #Everytime me and my friends make new lore for him we add another adjective to his description #He is currently our lovesick adopted afrolatino bi in denial emo bilingual messy twink son #“Emo culture didn't exist until the late 80s-” Shut up he was emo before emo was a thing that's how emo he was #Louie walked so emos could run #Yes I got his name from a Danny Gonzalez video #I love my twink son #not my first black parade - my friend I'm making this with #She wanted me to say that

[sapphicautistic]

My gf was listening to "White Blank Page" by Mumford and Sons and I once again told her that song is SO much better if it's gay.

She doesn't listen to the lyrics of songs but she's extremely good at literary analysis and this time she actually looked up the lyrics and has now come to the following conclusion: "It makes no sense if it's not gay."

My (objectively best) reading is this:

The narrator was in love with a guy who strung him along, never willing to be in a committed (or public) relationship with him and maybe insisting that it's extremely heterosexual "helping a bro out" sex, except in more intimate moments. Finally out of nowhere guy is suddenly committed to a woman and when Narrator confronted him, guy spat out homophobic vitriol and claimed he's not gay like the Narrator.

(For extra flavor imagine them as closeted, straight passing Midwestern flannel wearing, love-bonfires-and-camping guys who sat next to each other at church and elbowed and annoyed each other like best friends do and were each other's go-to source of emotional support! And then to suddenly shut Narrator out for the first time ever, by abruptly marrying a woman and insisting that he's always been straight and their relationship meant nothing...)

Here are the lyrics:

Can you lie next to her And give her your heart, your heart As well as your body? And can you lie next to her And confess your love, your love As well as your folly? And can you kneel before the king And say, "I'm clean! I'm clean!" ? But tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart? Oh, tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart? A white blank page and a swelling rage, rage You did not think When you sent me to the brink, to the brink You desired my attention But denied my affections, my affections So tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart? Oh, tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart? Lead me to the truth and I Will follow you with my whole life Oh, lead me to the truth and I Will follow you with my whole life

Why call multiple people "you" in a totally unclear way? Why would you claim that your female ex's new man can't love her AT ALL (not just as much as you did, AT ALL)? And invoking the judgment of God is so fucking tedious if you're just shaming your female ex for moving on or even cheating/getting with your friend. Also you look like a creepy asshole if you think a girl broke up with you for "loving her too much".

This song is tepid, badly written, and makes the narrator look like an asshole if it's NOT gay.

The gay reading is the ONLY compelling one.

#i don't even care about m/m romances lmao i get bored when there's no women BUT #this is objectively the best reading #anyways my gf and I came up with the main beats for an entire romance story about these guys #as a dyke raised in the church i really like the religious midwestern reading here too #also there's SUCH a phenomenon of guys having secret sex out in these rural areas and insisting even to themselves it's not gay #so this reading is very compelling to me #i also like to think the woman is like fine. there's nothing wrong with her she's sweet and friends with both of them. #gf said what if she's Narrator's sister? #like i think it's better narrative wise if the woman has no idea and isn't trying to 'turn him straight' #bc the ex CHOSE this. he caved and all so he can stand before God and insist he's 'clean' #which to me... very very resonant #updates on my boring life #also I think the ex can be either bi or gay like it doesn't matter because either way Narrator is convinced ex loves HIM still n not wifey #god i could go line by line but no one wants that lmao it's extremely funny that i fixated on this #i did not even know it was a mumford and sons song or that they are british until gf told me both facts today #i am in no way a fan #im jsut a sucker for religion flavored gay angst i guess or at least this variety of it

[draugrfiend]

i like the thought that licht pitches bad ideas to patrick ( @greenhousewitchsposts ) and hopes that it’ll get him onboard with them

#my art. #outlast trials #reagent #oc: licht. #they can be unlikely friends :) licht was former murkoff brass (lovingly) and helped work on the trials equipment before it went into use #ex. he made batteries and made the pontiac battery strapped to coyle work. lol #and then he saw what his work rlly did and went 'oh fuck this' and tried to sabotage his work #and then got yeeted into the trials as punishment <3

[newtafterdark]

Just as I thought my life was slowing down a little so I could focus on myself & enjoy what I got currently going on, it reminded me that no, I can't have that without an absolute horrid thing happening that'll drain me for at least a few weeks.

I'm going to recover because I'm a stubborn bitch who also knows I deserve better. But man is it rotten work.

#newt's ramblings #tldr my mom's ex (who I have a very complicated relationship with) ended up in the hospital #he's taken care of now & will recover there for 2 weeks #but the entire situation is so fucked up in ways I do not want to share online #the only thing I will bitch about is his sister absolutely RIPPING into me over the phone (UNDESERVED MIGHT I ADD) to the point where- #- I cried on the phone with my stepdad's best friend later #and even had to message my therapist - something I never had to do before #I hate my stepdad's family and his best friend is a wise man for never having had any contact with them throughout the decades

[sweetdreamspootypie]

I got a fb notification I really didn't want, which prompted me to go and do some more tidying up and removing the last remaining connections to my exes on there

But in doing so, i get to appreciate a final parting cute thought

When they got married, they /swapped/ surnames. They both took the others name, but they don't have the same name

I don't know what they ended up chosing for the kids, but that idea of swapping isn't something I've encountered before and it's quite a nice idea

#Confusing use of 'they' in the post #The prompt was a notification about Mat (an ex) so I unfriended him and in doing so also checked mutual friends which included Aarons wife #So the they is Aaron and his wife - they are the ones who swapped names #It was nice to see a photo of him and the babies #For the first and maybe last time #But having the magic mirror of connection and these digital threads is not helpful or natural #One day it will be cleared #... That makes me wonder where I kept the physical wedding invitation. Might still be in my old room. #... #Anyway. #Let's leave it at that before I start having any other thoughts #10 years #For me #He probably counts it differently #If he thinks of it at all #My life #Wait actual tags #Gender neutral names #Gender neutral tites #Gender neutral terms #Marriage #Names

[foxfinding]

When the worst person you know sends a message like "I think we should never ever speak to each other again."

#Taupe has a life #My former housemate's psycho stalker ex doesn't want to talk to me anymore. #(HE KEEPS TRYING TO RECRUIT ME FOR SHIT.) #(WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK.) #(He is president of this stupid university political group and knowing that I NEVER EVER want to speak to him.) #(He sent his fucking friends who were in my classes to come plead his case to try and get me to talk to him.) #(Also when I say psycho ex I am NOT exaggerating. If my housemate had pressed charges this dude would hella be in jail.) #(He is fucking SCARY.) #He threatened to burn her passport #He lied that she was suicidal to get building maintenance to break into her room for him. #(Luckily building maintenance called to check on that claim before just letting him up so she was able to make it clear he wasn't welcome.) #He cyberstalked her fucking PARENTS to message them all kinds of lies and slander about her? #Her EXTREMELY RELIGIOUS and CONSERVATIVE parents??!?!?!? #I'm not usually like “WHOLE MAN REMOVAL” #But like. Nah. #The INSTANT anyone shows him anything other than ABSOLUTE FEALTY he fucking SNAPS. #Over the most INSANE shit. #OH! He also took her meds and hid them once. #She found them a few weeks later in his car. #Ugh #Just writing all this out I'm remembering more. #IN CONCLUSION: FUUUUUUUCK THIS GUY #Also LMAOOOOO at him fucking messaging me to be like #“You are always so mean and passive aggressive and unprofessional so we should never speak to each other again.” #No actually I think you will find I treat you FAR BETTER than you actually deserve because I say all this shit on an anonymous website #I'm in the fucking tags and not in the courtroom of your case for when you broke into your ex-drug-dealer's house #And stabbed him several times #I THINK YOU WILL ACTUALLY FIND I AM THE EPITOME OF DIPLOMACY YOU SLIMEBALL PIECE OF SHIT!!!!! #Youtube