#how can you tell that dean's in love with cas?

[deanwasalwaysbi]

The thing is. Sam was following him. you can see it. Sam came up from the basement room with Dean, he was right behind him. But by the time Dean gets to the stairs Sam was out of the shot completely. When they pan down to show lucifer, Sam isn't up the stairs, he's barely out of the doorway.

There is no hetero explanation.

Sam long legs Winchester who regularly runs couldn't keep up because Dean the bacon and burger scarf-er was running for the door to reach the man he loves that fast, or Sam was hanging back to let them have their moment. ... I just don't think Sam would let Cas be in danger like that. Which only leaves, well, the reason Lucifer called Dean and not Sam in the first place.

How can you tell Dean is in love with Cas? Because Sam isn't.

#how can you tell that dean's in love with cas? #because sam isn't #spn 15x19 #dean was always bi #destiel was always canon #original content #since we're on the door gif today #no heterosexual explanation #spn meta #season 15 destiel #deancas #spn headcanons #It's possible #but I don't think Sam was hanging back to let them have their moment. #truly believe Dean was just running that fast for the man he loves #dean I'm hurt #the reason Lucifer called Dean and not Sam in the first place

[drulalovescas]

it's funny how much more blatantly ROMANTIC Dean and Cas' relationship gets when you compare it to the relationship between Cas and Sam. 

Just this simple comparison that highlights the stark difference between these two bonds makes one go: oh...

Because Cas and Sam are FRIENDS. And they are FAMILY. BROTHERS even. And yet...

Can you imagine Castiel being brainwashed into killing THOUSANDS of Sams???

Or Sam fishing Castiel's bloody trenchcoat out of the river and carrying it with him from car to car??????

Or Sam on his knees looking Cas deeeply in the eyes while whispering I NEED YOU and breaking Cas' brainwashing???

Or Sam staying a year in Purgatory FOR Cas and praying to him EVERY NIGHT????

Or Sam gifting Cas a MIXTAPE with the songs from his favourite band his parents fell in love to????

Or Sam on his knees by Castiel's dead body, all speechless, shattered, broken????

Or Sam preparing Castiel's body for the Hunter's Funeral alone???

Or Sam on his knees, sobbing, and praying to Cas for forgiveness????

Can you imagine all that????? No, no you can't.

#how can you tell that dean was in love with cas??? #because sam wasn't #destiel #supernatural #spn #castiel #dean winchester

[casdeans-pie]

Dean, whispering to the Angel in bed beside him who literally cannot sleep: Cas. You awake?

#i just had this image in my head #cute domesticity and cosy middle-of-the-night conversations in bed in hushed whispers #even though theyre in their own house in their own bed #but its like you speak quietly when the room is pitch black #because you dont want to break the quiet cosy nighttime bubble #and Cas literally doesnt sleep but he closes his eyes and he basks in the warmth of being close to Dean #while hes so vulnerable and sleepy and cuddly #and getting into bed with Dean is his favourite thing to do in the whole world #even though they do it every single night #anyway where was i going with this #its just that theyre so SO in love #and they deserve these sweet quiet moments #Cas nuzzling into the back of Dean's neck like Yes Dean Im Awake #and Dean goes on to tell him about how he forgot to say that he bumped into Mr Jenkins at the store earlier #and he gave him some pumpkin seeds to plant #and theyre still in the pocket of the jeans he wore earlier (that are on the floor somewhere) #so dont let him forget to take the seeds out before the jeans go in the laundry basket #and Cas with total solemnity is like I wont. and says that when the pumpkins have grown they can make pumpkin pie #and Dean snuggles back into him and says I love you on a sleepy sigh as he drifts back to sleep #and on that note goodnight tumblr #dont mind me just writing drabbles in the tags instead of sleeping yknow the usual #pie says stuff #destiel #destiel headcanon

[ardentpoop]

the s4 parallels are putting my heart through the wringer :)

sam extends levels of compassion and patience to the vulnerable people in his life that he was never offered when he needed it most

#like he consistently has these scenes with struggling young people in particular where he's telling them what he needed to hear #you know he had to do all this work on his own to feel okay about himself bc DEAN sure as shit hasn't changed! #im going to fucking explode lmfao my angel..... never thought i'd get a whole arc like this so late in the show it's a good kind of hurt #spn #liveblog tag #13.03 #also remember cas asking him ''weren't YOU all alone when you went off to college at claire's age'' and sam saying ''that's different'' #''how sam?'' #HOW. part of him still sees himself as undeserving of all the love and care he gives to other people #and can you blame him? historically he's gotten so little in return

[jenanigans1207]

Just imagine for me, if you will:

Cas has made his deal with the empty— a moment of true happiness and the empty will strike. He knows this, he’s known this since the deal was made, obviously. More importantly, he knows what it is that will give him true happiness, and it’s the man standing across from him staring at him with terrified green eyes. He knows what he must do, how he must save Dean. It isn’t how he planned to confess, but—

But—

But wait, Dean is talking. Why is Dean talking?

“Cas,” Dean is choking out, his voice unstable. “Fuck, Cas, this isn’t—“

“Dean—“ Cas glances at the door. They don’t have time for this, but Cas knows that this very possibly is the last thing he’ll ever hear Dean say. And Dean looks urgent, practically begging Cas to listen with the intensity of his gaze.

So Cas relents, just for a moment. He meets Dean’s gaze and it’s enough encouragement for Dean to continue.

“This isn’t how I planned to tell you— if I planned to tell you at all. Fuck, Cas, I always swear that I’m going to tell you next time. But we’re running out of next times, man, and I just— I can’t keep it in— I need to—“ Dean’s eyes are wild as he glances between Cas and every corner of the room, completely aware of the intensity of the situation and the weight of the words he’s trying to say.

“Dean,” Cas says just as urgently, stepping forward to draw Dean’s gaze to him. “Tell me what?”

Dean meets his eyes and for one single moment, the world slows to a stop around them. Cas can see the answer to that question in Dean’s eyes a moment before he says it out loud. He forgets, for just that second, that they’re standing on the precipice of death, that they don’t have the luxury of indulging in this. For just that second, Cas lets himself let out the breath he’s been holding for ten years.

“I love you.” Dean breathes, and he looks like he could sag in relief from finally speaking the words. “I love you so goddamn much and I have for so goddamn long and I couldn’t let either one of us die again without making sure you knew that.”

And oh, oh, Cas has never felt something like this— this blooming, all-consuming warmth. He’s never felt something so tangible unfurl in his chest, spreading out and filling up every corner of his being.

Cas has loved Dean for nearly every second they have known each other and now he knows that Dean loves him, too. That Dean wants him to know— needs him to know that he’s loved, no matter what happens.

Cas opens his mouth to respond—

And he sees the black bubbling along the wall behind Dean.

He should have known.

But how could he know that Dean would love him back? How could he anticipate that Dean would say the words to him that he had rarely said to anyone, in any capacity, in his entire life? Of course he knew Dean had the potential to be his ultimate happiness— or rather that his ultimate happiness was wrapped up in Dean in one way or another. Of course he knew this because everything he did, everything he wanted, everything he cared for or longed for— everything, all of it revolved around Dean.

But still, he never thought that Dean would say it first.

“Dean, I—“ Cas needs to say it back, is desperate to say it back, but the empty is headed directly to him and Dean is in its path.

Cas can’t think, can’t bear the idea of risking Dean for anything. He acts, shoving Dean out of the way as he empty sputters and gurgles, wrapping around him.

“Cas!” His name wrenches out of Dean’s throat in a way that’s painful to hear. Cas hates that it’s the last thing he’ll ever hear in Dean’s voice, hates that it has to be his final memory of the man who gave him everything.

The man who taught him to love, who gave him a place to belong. The man who helped him clean up his messes, who treated him as equal instead of other. The man who became the center of everything in Cas’s universe— every single thing that Cas cared about or was interested in stemmed from the same root named Dean Winchester and now Cas was leaving him behind.

I love you, too! He tries to shout as the empty drags him away. His last conscious thought is a desperate, unbridled hope that against all odds, Dean was able to hear him.

#I’m just saying #cas confessing his love and being taken before Dean can respond hurts #but what hurts worse is the idea that Dean finally gets up the guts to confess #and it’s confession that makes cas so happy that it triggers his deal with the empty #and then Cas dies before he gets to tell Dean how he feels #imagine how completely that would fuck Dean up #his love killed cas #even if he doesn’t know the details of the deal #all he knows is that he finally finally finally said I love you and it cost him CAs #and he has to go on for the rest of time wondering what Cas would’ve said #I’m so sorry for this #I hurt myself writing it #destiel #deancas #angst #spn #supernatural

[samdeancrimespree]

i don’t think dean loving cas/sam is an either/or. i think he loved them both.

cas falling in love with the righteous man who is in love with own brother, and realizing it didn’t mar his soul at all. dean was perfect, and half of his soul was sam’s. cas falling not only because he loved dean, but because the abomination, the boy king, was gentle and selfless and believed that angels could be good. he couldn’t love dean without loving sam because he held dean’s soul in his hands and it was damaged from torture but even before that, from being ripped away from his soulmate.

cas forgetting that humans couldn’t see the things he saw, they couldn’t tell just by looking at those two how close they were. their souls only looked right when they were pressed against each other; that was when the tangle of colours made sense, bleeding into the other like a breathing work of art.

cas protecting them both from harm because nothing is more precious than love and devotion and family and the winchesters represent it in every possible way.

cas was the only one they trusted to take care of their brother, and that trust was more like love than anything cas could imagine. and he understood why they’re like that, because it’s intoxicating, to be looked at with so much emotion it burns like hellfire, holy oil, agony.

cas loved the winchesters, and they loved him back. not as much as they loved each other, but he would never expect them to.

because dean winchester owned very few things, and even fewer of them loved him back. because there were only two living beings known as his: brother, and angel. dean called cas his brother, and cas could tell that was a higher honour than marriage, and that’s when he knew he was a winchester.

#owning/loving same thing #cas didn’t get raised right either he gets it #why must we choose between wincest and destiel. why can i not partake from both gardens. #how could dean Not love the angel who brought him back to sam??. #can you tell im a casgirlboy #it’s the religious trauma it’s not my fault #i am alienating everyone in one fell swoop fr #samdean #wincest #destiel #mars.txt #wincestiel

[found--family]

they couldn't let cesar and jesse return bc they would've taken one look at dean and cas interacting and known they had it bad for each other

#and sam is just like. oblivious. bc i think that's funnier 😂 #meanwhile dean and cas are pining away for each other like the beautiful dumbasses they are.. #cesar says to cas all easy and patient and knowing: so how long have you been in love with dean? #and cas is surprised and scared and tries to deny it but overcompensates by saying he loves all of humanity #meanwhile jesse is talking to dean like: what do you mean you're not in love with him dude i have eyes. dean: ??!! #cas @ cesar: i love dean bc i love humanity i love them for all their faults and quirks and beauty.. *thinking about freckles + bowlegs* #dean @ jesse: you don't know what you're talkin bout man! jesse: oh so now you're going to get angry and defensive like that isn't #overcompensating and an obvious tell that i speak the truth. dean: yo-.. shutup!! #cas @ cesar: .. humanity really is quite remarkable and so worthy of love when you think about it. and affection. and praise.. #dean @ jesse: --swayze always gets a pass!! jesse: oh so he's on your celebrity exception list? dean: yeh man of course he is. #jesse: mhm. even though he's a guy? dean: ... who HASN'T had gay thoughts!?! #cas @ cesar: humanity should really eat more vegetables and drink less alcohol and sleep more. but this life can be difficult #and habits are hard to change and i will be there to help in any way i can like making coffee just the way humanity secretly likes it.. #dean: *frazzled and exhausted as jesse hands him a beer* --i prefer the classics: Say Anything. When Harry Met Sally. Princess Bride.. #jesse: *nodding along as they chat about chick fliks* cas @ cesar: i help with humanity's laundry. i once found a pair of jeans #in humanity's room with the legs torn off. i thought something awful had happened during a hunt but humanity wouldn't be able to #regrow his legs without my angelic assistance.. unless humanity met another angel.. *white knuckles the chair in possessive jealousy* #dean: *getting teary as he talks about dory's story* sam: *walking in on cas cracking the chair + dean sobbing into his beer #but taking no notice bc his eyes are on the ipad in his hands* so get this-- #destiel #crack #thoughts #😂😂😂😂😂

[quietwingsinthesky]

still thinking about aro!dean btw. thinking about that passage in john’s journal where he laments that at dean’s age, he had a wife and kids while dean is a hunter. and like. do you think john ever told him that? i imagine he did, set the scene, he’s drunk and dean has been pulling his boots off before bed since he was seven years old and now he’s in his twenties, still that boy taking care of his father, and john is apologizing for once. for how dean didn’t get the chance for what he had (except even now, all this mourning is framed around dean, but it’s not about dean, it’s about john, what he lost and can’t get back) and dean is listening to his father tell him he should’ve had a wife, should’ve had kids, should’ve had a house and the whole nine yards.

because more than the rest of the world telling dean what he should have, should want, his father crying to him that he ruined it all is gonna dig it’s claws into his head the most.

maybe john doesn’t even remember it in the morning. dean does.

so now that hangs over him, too. every feeling of ‘this isn’t quite right, isn’t what I’m comfortable with’ has to contend with the knowledge that his dad felt guilt he couldn’t have it. (compound that with sam’s request at the end of s5, and of course he ends up on lisa’s doorstep. it’s what they thought he wanted, so they told him to take it once he was free, but in doing so, culled his freedom down to a backyard and a shared bed with someone he barely knows and tries to love the way he should.)

and most importantly of all, obviously, I’m thinking about dean getting older. about how the weight of his father never really falls off, but he gets better at carrying it. and he can say to himself, he’s long past the point where he should’ve gotten all that stuff in order anyway. might as well work with what he’s got. (while what he’s got makes him happier than the life john imagined he stole ever could have.) new freedom that comes with aging out of expectation, in a way. a space to build his own life. and so one day, when dean the age john was when he wrote about it in his journal, he’s doesn’t feel like he missed out on anything at all.

#I just. I just. I love him. I. #what matters to dean more: society telling him what a normal life should look like or his father saying that he ruined dean’s chance for it #when dean is haunted 😵‍💫😵‍💫 #also thinking about Sam here and like. how getting to see Dean grow into this is. first of all a revelation. #I mean he’s read the same journal dean has. he knows what John thought. #knows how losing Lisa & Ben hurt. didn’t get the why. never got the why. assumed. #but now it’s them. it’s Cas. Jack. Mary. an extended group of friends and family. close to stable as they can get. #and this is what Dean wanted. this is what he deserved. this is the family he built. #it’s a lot more to him than a marriage could have been. you know? and I want Sam to see that. and just. be happy. #I want them to be happy do u see #aro!dean #dean winchester #spn

[spnintheyearofourlord]

Okay Dean “You know I am not much for prayin’ ‘cause in my book it’s the same as beggin’” and “I prayed to you, Cas, every night” Winchester, I see you.

#destiel #deancas #dean winchester #supernatural #just thinking my little thoughts #don’t look at me I’m having a moment #something something no greater devotion than that to his brother who he’s praying for in the former yet this implies #the same love and desperation fueling that must apply to Cas too #do y'all see what I'm saying? does the connection make sense? #especially s8 going forward Dean often takes the cake for toxicity I’m sorry it’s just true. HOWEVER. we need to talk about the softness #that man shows to Cas in this season specifically. #for ex: after Cas sternly shuts him down in 8x08 he doesn't get defensive and snap back like Dean often does #he goes over and sits on the bed across from cas and softly says 'talk to me.' like i'm sorry? has dean ever said that?? #not that i recall. usually it's smthg like 'are you ok? no? that's rough buddy. shove it down.' bc that's what he was taught #and mid-end of the prior season though his ‘don’t tell Cas the truth’ plan was not great it was pretty clear imo how deeply happy he was #just to have cas back. broken or not he’d rather have him. . #I don't know exactly what I'm trying to say that's why we're in the tags but it's just something about how Cas deeply betrayed them and we #know how intensely Dean can hold a grudge yet when they get Cas back Dean's softer with him than he ever was before. #and then searches monster land high and low for him even after Cas abandons him #and connecting the former and latter quotes up there it's pretty clear how deep that devotion runs #(platonically or romantically. to each their own reading. and not always healthily.) #because he's as well as admitted he begged for Cas in purgatory. every. night. #Dean 'I don't pray bc i don't beg and I'm not weak' #Dean 'I would do anything for sam so i'll beg for help' #Dean 'I prayed to you. I killed my way to you. did you hear my prayers?' #it's just really somethin'. #I have to wonder if Cas knows how big that is. He must right? #(for my own tags) #dean #spn s8

[deancaskiss]

dean tracing his fingers along the wrinkles by cas’ eyes as he murmurs “so devastatingly handsome” and cas leans in to kiss dean and he whispers against dean’s lips “you’re beautiful”

#dean winchester #castiel #destiel #spn #supernatural #theyre in love #god can you imagine #they get to be old men in love #imagine how good it feels for them to say how they feel #dean can’t believe he gets to tell cas how handsome he is #and cas can’t get over how beautiful dean is and he wants to tell him every day

[crowcoven]

someone end my suffering I’m thinking of a braime/lannister fam supernatural au and it went from a silly little idea to me eyeing a google doc because the idea is GROWING

#like dean jaime #sam tyrion #cersei mystery other sibling okay just trust me it works ive thought about it sooooooooo mcuh #brienne cas #john obvi tywin #like the starks are a werewolf pack #tywin would have killed ned at some point so theres a lot of tension at first but it evens out eventually between all the kids #tyrion being like poisoned in the womb sam style with demon blood but tywin and cersei still blame him for joannas death #but once the kiddos learn the truth about the whole demon blood oh shit tyrions in trouble thing #cersei goes NUTS #now she REALLY has someone to blame and like minor murder spree shit gets messy trying to find demon dude #but eventually she breaks and its actually just GUILT for how badly she treated tyrion for so long #they get slowly better after #and and the whole you dont think you deserve to be saved? destiel thing with braime #like im sorry angel brienne are you kidding me #OMG ruby can be shae thats so sad and twisted I love it #jaime loses his hand via hell hounds #brienne tries to fix it and she cant but later jaime tells her its okay #that maybe hes grown to be better without it #cant decide if any incest #prob just like they were werid co dependant with like tension for awhile but never actually did anything besides maybeee kiss at some point #im giving cersei a cool demon girlfriend i dont even care #danys gotta be in here somewhere i need that girl to be magic #it wont be like spn plot per say just same world and a lotta same elements #but like mashed together as i see fir

[deanwasalwaysbi]

Can we talk about the framing during the Mary confrontation?

Cas almost died. | A hunter died. | You think I don't know that? I'm the one who told his wife. (Cuts to Dean) | Spn 12x13

#spn gifset #deancas gifset #spn 12x13 #how can you tell that dean's in love with cas? #because sam isn't #because sam doesn't #mary winchester #spn meta #spn family fued #dean was always bi #original content #my gifs #my gifset #Sam was the one tortured by the BMoL and that has its moment #but then it turns to Dean's real issue with Mary working with them. #Cas almost died. #when they're talking about getting another Hunter killed Mary is talking to Sam but when #but when they start talking about the Hunter's widow? it turns to dean. Dean who just almost lost Cas. #screaming #fav

[loveofastarvingdog]

just remembered john and dean before mary died. don’t touch me 😵‍💫

#timothy's txts. #tw emoji #I DID NOT THINK THIS WOULD GET ME THE WAY IT HAS #ITS ABOUT A DAD WHO. AND A SON….. #it’s about having a Before and an After…… #i can’t wait to watch more episodes with john. it’s gonna fuck up my shit and i can’t wait #i’m sorry i love to see characters become the worst of themselves. as if it’s my fault :( #mostly i love the dean disorders that are gonna come from this #i think about dean running into his fathers arms at least 57+ times a day now #because it’s not ABOUT that!!!!!!!!! it’s about the way you lose people to grief!!!! #it’s about dean becoming the angry man when cas died!!!!! #it’s about the cycles in supernatural!!!!!! #it’s about how dean was never angry before!!!! about how he was the mediator!!!!!! about how sam was always most similar to john!!!!!!!! #all this to say disclaimer: i do NOT like john at all but i LOVE the complexities and the disorders this is giving me / going to give me #THE WAY GRIEF DESTROYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #tw caps #and sam doesn’t know but dean can remember his mom making him soup and telling him angels were watching over him and he can remember his dad #swooping him up into his arms……. #tw swearing

[clairenatural]

Dean doesn't like the word "boyfriend." He decides this the second time Cas says it–the first time it was new, shiny, exciting. The second time, he fights the urge to cringe.

It's not the "boy" part. It's not. It would have been, for a long time, but he's dug all that shit up and unpacked all the suitcases. They hold hands in public. They kiss goodbye in front of his coworkers at the garage.

It's just–not enough. Not nearly. Jack comes home from hanging out with his friends and fills Dean on the gossip and his boyfriend and her girlfriend and–that's not them. "Boyfriend" feels like a cheap mockery. Like how demons used to tease.

He's heard "partner." He's heard it from Sam, to Eileen, but he doesn't know how he can stomach it. He's said that word too many times. I'm Agent Tyler and this is my partner, Agent Perry. This is my partner, Agent Page. My partner, Agent Stills. All lies. Sam says he likes it, that he's making it mean something real. Besides, Eileen loves it.

Good for them, Dean thinks. It makes his skin crawl.

So he sticks with “boyfriend” and he shrugs off the funny urge to protest every time Cas says it. It makes him happy, and honestly, it’s not like he has an alternative.

It’s a Sunday when he realizes that somehow, Cas does. They’re at the farmer’s market, like Cas is every weekend, but Dean had picked up weekend shifts and missed the past few. Cas is excited the whole way there, telling Dean about how he’d manage to befriend the local honey vendor in his absence, how she’d invited him to a beginner’s apiarist group she helps run. They beeline (heh) to the honey booth as soon as they get there, and the woman--Judith? Janice?--smiles up at them both, hands Cas a jar of honey like she’d been expecting him, and says “Oh, this must be the husband! I’ve heard so much about you.”

Dean stares at Cas. Cas stares at the honey. Judith/Janice stares at both of them, smile fading as the silence goes on a beat too long. 

Dean clears his throat. “Uh, yeah. The husband, that’s me! Ha ha.” Beside him, Cas relaxes, just barely. In front of him, the woman breathes an audible sigh of relief. “Sorry,” Dean shifts. “Just didn’t, um. Realize I was such a hot topic.” 

The smile he gets is almost sympathetic. “Oh, only good things. Here,” she hands him a business card. “You should also come out to our meeting on Wednesday. Lots of people bring their partners.” She leans in, almost conspiratorial. “Beekeeping can be wonderful for couples.”

It’s at this point that Cas clears his throat and finally looks up from the honey in his hand, evidently giving up hope on escaping this conversation. “Thank you, Janet.” (oh. Janet.) “Dean works late on Wednesdays, but I’m very excited to see you all.” He’s pulling out money as he says this, apparently deciding to just go ahead and end the entire interaction. He hands her the bills, grabs Dean’s hand, and is already moving away from the booth by the time Janet calls “See you Wednesday!” after them.

Cas drags him all the way back to the car without stopping for tomatoes, or Sam's carrots, or the free-range eggs that are way too expensive but Cas buys anyway because you can taste when the hen is well cared-for, Dean (whatever that means). They slide into the car, still not talking, and sit in silence for several long seconds. Dean stares at Cas, who stares out the windshield at the parking lot.

"I can explain," Cas speaks, finally, right as Dean was about to open his mouth and say anything to break the silence.

Dean pauses. Can you? Cause I feel like I missed a few chapters, he thinks.

"I don't work late on Wednesdays," he says instead.

"Oh." Now it's Cas staring at Dean, and Dean staring out at the asphalt.

He turns the keys. He drives them home.

Later, making dinner, Dean rolls the word around in his head. Husband. He's making his husband pasta (It's missing the tomatoes. He's made more with less).

Husband doesn't feel like a costume, like an ill-fitting suit and scratchy tie. It doesn't feel like high school gossip, or a monster trying to hit him where it hurts. It settles in warm in his chest.

It's just the two of them that night, and they're eating in the comfortable silence of the bunker until Dean clears his throat and brings it up. "Why does Janet at the farmer's market think we're married?"

Cas pauses, fork of pasta halfway to his mouth. He puts the fork down and takes a deep breath. "I'm sorry."

"I'm not mad," Dean hurries to clarify. "It's just that there's usually, uh. Steps, you know. Like a whole....thing."

"I'm aware." Cas sighs. "She assumed, seeing us around - the first time I spoke to her without you, she asked where my husband was. And I..."

"You didn't correct her?"

"...No. I, um." Cas is looking down at his plate again. He picks up the fork, still half-full of pasta, then puts it back down again. "I didn't want to?" He says the end of the sentence like a question but looks back up at Dean and squints just a bit, and Dean knows he's watching for a reaction.

"Uh huh."

"It felt trivial."

"To tell her we're not married?"

"To call you my boyfriend." For the first time, he stumbles over the word.

Dean blinks. "You--" he stops, brain processing too much information to finish that sentence. "Okay." He leans back in his chair. Sighs. Rubs a hand across his eyes and lets it drag down his face. "Okay, listen. I don't like boyfriend either, but we gotta...talk about it."

"We are talking about it. You don't like it either?" Cas leans forward as Dean slumps back, following him across the table.

Dean snorts. "No, man." He shakes his head. "It's been a decade. I've seen you die." Six times. But who's counting.

"I agree." Cas pauses, and then, as if it's the most natural conclusion in the world, "Will you marry me?"

Dean actually laughs at this. "You're asking me that now?"

Cas quirks an eyebrow at him. "I've grown quite fond of calling you my husband at the farmer's market. I'd like to continue."

Dean stares at him in disbelief. It's not how he'd pictured it going, but he also can't think of it going any other way. Slowly, he nods. "Yeah, okay. Let's be husbands."

Across the table, Cas grins at him.

"But we're getting rings," Dean points a finger at him, because something about this is going to be normal.

"If you'd like. Although I already told Janet that you can't wear a ring because of your work at the garage, and I don't wear mine in solidarity."

"Rings," Dean insists, and decides to overlook the rest of that sentence. For now. He stabs his fork into a pile of the pasta. "And let me stop for the damn tomatoes next time."

They get rings and wear them on chains around their necks. Cas puts a beehive on the hill, and there's a small ceremony in the summer - a "vow renewal" to Cas' beekeeping group, who all receive invites attached to little jars of honey. Janet gets the nicest one.

#mae clairenatural writing fic in the year 2023...... #go easy on me im rusty #i started this a year ago and decided to finish it and that was PAINFUL #destiel #deancas #destiel fic #1.2k words #my words

[tiktaalic]

let's all talk about supernatural. i'll start. in 2009 kim manners told misha collins it was gay to sit on a bed. due to the lack of distance. he was right. and misha collins did it anyway. what followed was 12 years of television subject to different directors writers and actors all with different opinions on the subject of whether or not dean and castiel were gay. because of this rotating list of minds and directions the messages you receive are varied. but crucially. there is groundwork laid in closeups. standing five feet apart in bobby's kitchen filmed as if they're face to face. across the room from each other in tmwwbk but cuts between close up to close up. now you could easily argue that camerawork that rejects this method is trying to convey a different message of less empathy. but. we are not working only with camera work that conveys distance. we're working with a foundation of intimate conversations filmed as intimate closeups . followed by intimate conversations filmed with yards and yards between them. for an amv i was trying to use the s8 talk where cas is sitting on the bed and dean walks over sits down and says talk to me and i eventually had to scrap it because they're never in the same frame. i was going frame by frame in that scene trying to get maybe three seconds where you can see both of them but you never can. in the scene where dean sits a foot away and asks. what's wrong. you can tell me. you can talk to me. and cas proceeds to bare his soul. which is one of two things: bad directing, or purposeful directing. bad directing requires us to operate under the assumption that people who work on supernatural are bad at their jobs (likely). purposeful directing requires us to operate under the assumption that people who work on supernatural are good at their jobs, and given an intimate conversation, looked for ways to dilute the emotion in it, and did so. this is also likely. when supernatural shows me castiel telling dean i love you, and does it with shoddy camerawork, they are practicing tell not show. they are turning to the camera and telling me. this means nothing. disregard this. dont you see how they're a good court length apart from each other. doesn't this distance make you feel like you should interpret this with a platonic lens. but what they are showing me. is castiel telling dean winchester. i love you. which comes across even through the janky disjointed shots. the diluted effect still has an outsized emotional impact. so my takeaway is not. well i guess this means nothing. it is. i see the tricks you are trying to use on me. and they dont work on me because i know how to interpret storytelling and i'm not young and shiny and stupid. my takeaway is . wow. dean and cas., are in love for real, and they put it on my screen, and i am going to plant dynamite in director richard speight's home

#sorry.

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you can't convince me dean wasn't already in love with castiel by s11 like. what do you mean on the episode where dean is hung up, nay, borderline desperate to find a way to get castiel back, the case they land just so happens to be handled by a hunter couple (a romantic! mlm! couple!!!!!)

dean dead ass asks them how it's like to settle down with these big green eyes just so full of longing and understanding.

LIKE TELL ME THIS ISN'T HOW DEAN STARES AT CAS !!!!!!!

and this ending, don't even get me started on this ending

THEY GET TO RETIRE!!!! THIS IS DEAN FINALLY SEEING A HAPPY ENDING FOR HUNTERS!!!!! THIS IS DEAN REALIZING AND ACCEPTING THAT IT'S POSSIBLE!!!!!!

they got me in the first half, not gonna lie, with jesse's "they killed my brother" revenge story and cesar's ride-or-die support but then. this sealed the deal.

horses???? hello mr. dean cowboy fetish winchester????? and emt???? when castiel's a whole ass healer mage with his angel mojo???? TELL ME I'M NOT DELUSIONAL

The narrative is giving, "see? this can happen. happiness does exist in this universe, but only from a far enough distance that dean and sam can yearn for it without really getting it."

#gonna be one of my new faves #LOOK AT THEM THEY'RE SO IN LOVE im getting toothaches #watching spn #supernatural #s11e19 #11x19 #spn meta #??? #spn dean #spn sam #spn castiel #spn parallels #dean winchester #castiel #sam winchester #destiel #deancas #dean x castiel