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lovelyhan · 1 year

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Sexting with Jeonghan -Have fun! Sam @dkakapizzaboy 🩷

SAM>!!?!?!!?!/ i... don't even have words anymore i'm just going to

⟣ sexting with jeonghan ⟢ wc: 0.6k words minors do not interact!

You wouldn't call yourself needy.

In fact, you're sure you're fairly independent yourself. Your relationship with Jeonghan has a grounded give-and-take dynamic, which you honestly didn't expect when you first got together with him. This means that he doesn't necessarily leave you wanting for too long that you'd resort to becoming needy.

But just because both of you have your heads in the right place for the most part, doesn't mean it erases the fact that your boyfriend is a busy, busy man.

You're hit with a particularly unscratchable itch when Jeonghan has a day packed with shoots and dance practices. You know better than to bother him when he's got his hands full with their most recent comeback, but you suppose a few texts hinting at what he's going to come home to won't hurt, right?

Me: hannie, what time do you finish up today? i have a little surprise for you ><

It takes Jeonghan an hour to reply, but you don't really hold that against him, being a full-time idol and everything.

Jeonghan: hey, angel. we should be done by eleven! miracle, right?

Me: your producers are way too hard on you sometimes :/ anyway, aren't you curious abt the surprise?

Jeonghan: i am, but something's telling me this "surprise" of yours is an occupational hazard.

Jeonghan: angel, if you're going to send what i think you're sending...

Me: :) [1 Attachment]

You know better than to distract Jeonghan while he's in the middle of work, but it's not like you're actively there with him on whatever set he's at. You're simply at the comfort of your home, wearing the lingerie set that drives Jeonghan crazy whenever he comes home to see you wearing it -- stockings, harnesses, garters and all.

He doesn't have to know that you're internally cackling to yourself as the three dots indicating that he's typing back a response hover in and out of the screen. Like he's at a loss for words, and has to type out an entire spiel before deleting it again.

When he finally manages a proper reply, though, you end up clenching your thighs together as you go over each word.

Jeonghan: i hope you're ready to take responsibility for the problems you're giving me.

Jeonghan: we're shooting a music video right now, and you made me pop a hard-on in the middle of the set. are you happy with yourself?

Me: mhmm <3

Me: can't wait for you to shove your cock down my throat, hannie~ we both know you need it more than you're willing to admit

Me: you can finish all over my tits if you want <3

Jeonghan: you're being extra cheeky today, aren't you?

Jeonghan: no, sweetheart. you're going to swallow every last drop i'm going to give you. then you're going to ride me right after.

Jeonghan: that's the least you can do for making me want you in the middle of work, isn't it?

Me: anything you want, hannie.

Me: i just miss you so much... i'm already touching myself wishing it was you instead.

Jeonghan: oh? are you so desperate that you can't even wait for me to come home?

Jeonghan: my needy little angel. be good for me, will you? no touching yourself until i get back.

Me: fine. but i want a reward for being good :(

Jeonghan: how does a pretty pussy dripping with my cum sound like, sweetheart?

Fuck. You're the one who's supposed to be riling him up -- not the other way around. But then again, you've been with Jeonghan long enough to know that it's completely futile to outdo the doer.

Me: you have yourself a deal.

Me: now, get back here sooner or i might just decide that i want to be a brat tonight after all.

#seventeen smut #seventeen fanfic #svt smut #svt fanfic #svthub #jeonghan smut #seventeen jeonghan #📝 drabble #💭 request #💘 mutuals #sam <3 #i am totally ok after this #perfectly fine #lovelyhan

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witchinatree · 1 month

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i know the whole "do you think jon ever used his powers to Know what his parents looked like" thing is far more devastating than this but what if he tried using his powers to remember original sasha? jon and sasha always seemed closer than the rest, he picked her (and tim) to work with him and tolerated a lot more nonsense from her than anyone else (using his password to access his computer [161], debating his pronunciation of calliope [25], etc)

and ofc jon and martin became significantly closer as the podcast went on, but in the beginning he was cruel to martin when he gave a statement but accepting of sasha? idk i think their friendship was a lot deeper than we realized (ESPECIALLY since his first murder in season 5 was because NotThem provoked him about sasha) and i think jon wouldve used his powers to Know the original sasha, not sure if it wouldve worked though

so so sorry to distract from the post but can yall read the tags for me because i suffered immensely for this post

#they make me ill #sasha was so cool i miss her every day #i think we need more sasha content #idk i wish we got more of them specifically #THIS POST. HAS CRASHED. 4. TIMES.#i am trying to write about the magnus archives and its like “hee hee tumbeast ate your post” give it the fuck back?#it saved to my drafts after the 4th tag but this is pissing me off #every time i try to tag it as “tma” it crashes so im not doing that #just pretend i did ok #16 more times total of 20 every time i try to write tags it crashes #it wont let me write the archivists name im genuinely so serious #please help me please help me #im gonna sit here for a second and let it save as draft #6 more times #ur joking #total of 26 crashes over this one post #hate to distract from my incredibly brilliant insight but this is unusable #i think its okay again actually?#gonna try tagging with real tags wish me luck #jonathan sims #jon sims #sasha james #tma #the magnus archives #the archivist #notthem #notsasha #tma theory #tma spoilers #holy shit it worked

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miahasahardname · 4 months

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i’ve had this long list of td surname headcanons (and i guess some of them are nationality headcanons) for a while and haven’t done much about them, so…

here are each generation’s surnames! (except for rr since i’m not too confident about them)

gen 1:

harold norbert cheever doris mcgrady V

cody emmett jameson anderson

lindsay tyson

noah könig (german)

eva barta (czech)

izzy clark

owen fraser

trent evans-grant

gwen kennedy

heather ryeo

bridgette summers

leshawna simelane (south african iirc)

beth spring

devon ‘dj’ joseph

alejandro burromuerto (spanish)

sierra kauffman (german)

tyler wilson

ezekiel miller

courtney cortez (spanish, or from somewhere where they speak spanish primarily)

duncan butcher

katie wan (malaysian)

sadie peterson (originally was gonna give her a romanian surname but here is peterson)

justin kāne (hawaiian)

geoff jasper

gen 2:

josef ‘jo’ kaczmarek (Polish)

brick macarthur

anne-maria chahuán (chilean)

michele ‘mike’ russo

cameron corduroy wilkins

rudolph ‘lightning’ jackson

staci sterling

zoey gates

dawn oakwood

scott brackin (irish)

dakota milton

sam stevens

beverly ‘b’ jones

gen 3:

ella ito-courtemanche (japanese and french)

scarlett montgomery

max mayhem (yes. i’m actually giving him that as his surname. get sillyed)

jasmine reynolds

shawn tremblay

dave korrapati (indian, more commonly in telugu-speaking areas)

sky sanderson (i was a bit uhm. stuck with this one. i looked up ‘cree surnames’ but found only three. i went for this one but i’m still uncertain.)

amy martin

samantha ‘samey’ martin

topher mccann

rodney rogers

sugar silo

beardo mbomio (equatoguinean)

leonard howe

gen 4:

nichelle ladonna (italian)

bowie davis

emma fletcher

julia hartwell-hughes

priya khan (indian)

millie carter

chase boonmee (thai. it means ‘reliable, generous, loyal’. ironic)

raj ghosh (indian)

wayne watterson

mary-kate ‘mk’ yí (chinese. in honour of fai yí, my beloved)

damien reid

hezekias ‘zee’ guzman (argentinian (it means ‘good man’ which is what he is!!!))

rhinffrew ‘ripper’ bowen (welsh (WELSH RIPPER REAL))

caleb garcia (hispanic)

axel sanchez-guðmundsdóttir (hispanic(?) and icelandic. yes, apparently ‘axel’ is an icelandic name!)

#ok i kept two of the comeback surnames. i actually really like them. bite me.#(i hope i used that phrase correctly)#btw geoff’s surname is based off this really nice person from my school i met during our oliver! production!#he doesn’t go to my school anymore because he graduated. i hope he’s doing well #i’m realising now that priya and raj’s surnames are both surnames of my classmates.#like i genuinely didn’t name them after these people. this is a total coincidence #IF there is any mistakes in this please correct me. a lot of these are taken from websites #(i made up the first gen surnames first…. i actually looked up ‘canadian surnames’ LMAO)#oh yeah i named noah after someone i know too (my german exchange partner). also he’s like. a king #I LOVE NAMING THINGS #IT’S SO FUN #naming characters is one of my favourite parts of creating characters #(although i accidentally named two octuplets characters after like. people idk.)#((and one character was nearly named after a WWI war general!))#ANYWAYS #total drama #td #I AM NOT TAGGING ALL THOSE CHARACTERS

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goldensunset · 3 months

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amazes me that people can remember information about routes in pokémon games. like ‘i loooove route 217 ❤️’ ‘route 209 has such a banger theme!!!’ ‘have you made it to route 225?’ ‘you can find this rare pokémon on route 210!’ bestie those are numbers. those are just numbers to me how do you remember which area is which. i think i have a general idea of most of them but i still have to look them up every time i need to refer to them in conversation

#of course i know some of them #but a lot of them are like uhhh #they do count up of course but it’s not like the map is a perfectly linear thing #how am i supposed to keep track of all those. please just name placed actual names #another reason i love pla the map locations are names and not numbers!!! goodness.#paldea is like. ok there are a total of four giant provinces simply and aptly named after the four cardinal directions #easy enough #however the sub-areas are once again. numbers.#and because once again a map is not a linear thing those numbers aren’t helpful #also the way they’re spread out makes no sense. the south province is huuuuge with six different areas #yeah uhh area six and area five are on opposite sides of the map!!! why.#i think they’re listed like that based on how early they expect you to get there #like you start in area one of course #you probably won’t get to area five right away even though you theoretically could fairly early. i believe #but you would have no real reason to bc there’s no main story beat over there it’s a very quiet area #area six is mostly alfornada and the cliffs surrounding it which you REALLY can’t get to until later #point being. i know there’s probably some sort of logic to this numbers thing. but it’s still a confusing system #pokémon

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too-right-red · 1 year

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Romulan Ale

#romulan #star trek #romulans #star trek tng #cosplay #myart #ok the lighting got better after the sun went down #i am a total sucker so i bought that romulan ale #and am using it for a photoshoot #i am weak

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askamnesiamoonjumper · 1 year

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So ummm a!au inspired madoka magica au??

#Had soooo much fun with the designs #Also tried to do my eye style with madokas eye shading/lighting style n I think it looks cool..#Gonna draw shapes and Vanessa too probably but not rn bc my outfit ideas aren’t as clear for them just yet #But WOOO MAKING MAGICAL GIRL OUTFITS MY BELOVED #a!au #ahit #ahit au #madoka magica au #this idea is basically just me saying “ok how can I translate aau lore/characters into madoka lore” and it works surprisingly well #I might explain the story idea later but not rn I’m tired oof #I probably will after drawing van n shapes and after brainstorming other ideas #I actually am considering doing this as a fic at some point just bc it’s really clear in my mind #BUT i know that I’d never finish it lol it would probably be just a one shot or a hypothetical thing that doesn’t continue further idk #Actual aau fic is my main priority n stuff but having a little side thing would be fun too #Like I said it’s all just hypothetical but yaya I’m very not obsessed with my current ideas totally normal and regular #ahit moonjumper #ahit the snatcher #ahit the prince #pmmm oc #madoka magica oc #<ig???#They’re basically ocs lol they are very detached from aau outside of similar base concepts and ideas #Crossover but not really idk like I said it’s based on aaus concepts but that’s basically as far as it goes oof

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raiiny-bay · 1 year

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what's he listening to?

#ts4 #simblr #ts4 edit #ts4 render #sims 4 #blood tw #myedits #mb #red #teeth #monster kel just chillin in his apocalypse hut when a cute brainless zombie boy slams right into his window #monster boys lore: this is totally how they met #it's called a meet cute ok?#glad to see i didn't totally lose all my editing skills in the 2 weeks i didn't touch blender/krita at all lmao #i was originally going for the same vibes as the follow you mv by bmth but #idk how to make fire in blender. it like. doesn't work. so #this is what we're getting instead. i'm cool w it. i kinda like it.#BTW - when i post the b4 & after for this i am going to need u all to appreciate the teeth. the TEETH.#i drew them. all of them. thank u.

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allgremlinart · 5 months

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ohhhh thank fuck I wont lie my asshole WAS clenched in fear

#(Bryan Konietzko not being a zionist/being a ceasefire supporter)#idk about the Other One but.. tbh if the creators of atla had turned out to be zionists #after making the Imperialism Bad cartoon I think my faith in humanity would have really evacuated me #so like. ok good to know 👍 thank fuck. personally I am an atla centrist which means I am Bryke Neutral. but its still #nice to know even if I dont really follow what's going on w them.. like. reassuring. they're not TOTAL neolibs SDHSHS

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acesammy · 6 months

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what i have learned today is that i don't take pictures of people

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dailyharuka · 1 month

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yap session up ahead (its about the gachas)

i have to save for the haruka 4* in april and then there are TWO haruka four*s in may with one day trip and the rerun of tied by painful hope

tied by painful hope is limited but the other two are event gachas so if i pull other times they wont show up asdjghfahsd so now i have to grind for the haruka cardsa djfhajsdhga I REALLY REALLY WANT THE BEYOND THE ADVANCING WHEELS ONE BECAUSE SHE LOOKS SO PRETTY IN IT??

(page break cuz there is a LOT MORE)

LIKE HELLO???? i also kinda want the bon voyage one

THESE HAS COSTUMES TOO ARE YOU KDDING ME OH MY IM GOING TO EXPLODE

I ALSO REALLY REALLY WANT TIED BY PAINFUL HOPE BECAUSE I REALLY REALLY WANT THE SHORT HAIRED HARUKA CARD???

what i think ill do is pull for the one on april til i get the card then grind for the two in may

based on how much i have by the time the gacha comes out ill pull a specific amount and then stop then grind more and towards the end of the bon voyage event ill analyze how much i have and how much i should pull

and then ill spend the rest on the tied by painful hopes card

i also kind of want to pull for the mafuyu kitty event cuz its ALSO limited but i may just wait for next year to pull if i get all the haruka cards

there is ALSO an evillious chronicles rerun in may so hopefully that doesnt tempt me to make a detour

I ALSO MIGHT PULL FOR THE HONAKANA WEDDING EVENT BECAUSE THOSE CARDS ARE SO PRETTY?? HELLO??

i might get tempted to pull for the crying mafuyu card in july

and then ill grind for all three haruka bday cards in october because you know what happened LAST OCTOBER??? 70+ PULLS AND NOTHING I WILL NOT LOSE THIS TIME. I REFUSE. I ABSOLUTELY REFUSE TO LOSE TO THE HARUKA KIRITANI BIRTHDAY CARD THIS YEAR

I WILL GET THE SHINY BIRTHDAY CARD

and then i might pull for darkness fiesta mafuyu on the rerun but thats aside the point

and then right after that they have the niigo world link gacha... AND THEN THE SANRIO CARDS??? AJHFDJASHFA THEY HAVE A RERUN FOR FLY TO THE FUTURE IN DECEMBER BUT I ALREADY HAVE THAT CARD!!!! IT ONLY TOOK LIKE FOURTY PULLS (which isnt that bad)

wait i think im missing cards

THERES THE SPORTS EVENT

ughh its in september so i wont have as much saved for the bday cards as i want BUT it IS permenant gacha so ill probably do controlled pulls

and then obviouslt theres brand new style with the new fits but thats just two stars

THERES *TWo* IN OCTOBBER ARE YOU KIDDING ME I CANT

and then theres valentines day card and the one from the minori event that just happened

hoping haruka comes home in the first few pulls so i can pull for other characters too

i honestly just really want the overly luxguriys night the IF card and the bday cards the most (AKA THE LIMITED ONES)

oh yea and the new years one (theres a rerun for it in jan) SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

btw im basing all of this off the japanese gacha schedule so if they change it when doingi things on en i will explode

honestly im hoping i dont get too tempted to pull for other cards from characters i really like but i only really like two characters to want to pull for (being haruka, duh, and mafuyu) hOWEVER i may also go for wondersho world links cuz MAN those are so cool

I LOVE PLAYING CARDS SYMBOLISM

OMG WAIT the card where she (hrk) broke the door handle is also a perment card so i dotn ahve to worry abt that TOO much WAIT AND SO AS WELL AS THE UPCOMING TWO CARDS?? WAIT WHY IS THE WIKI CONTRADICTING ITSELF?? anyways i NEED the birthday cards

#dailyhrkspeaks #haruka kiritani #pjsk #ignore how unorganized this is #i am NOT revising that #lmao i should change dailyhrkspeaks to dailyhrkYAPS #cuz MAN that is all yapping #i also randomly have colorfes hrk (not complaining)#cuz back when i didnt really play the game i think i just pulled randomly #and then now i just have colorfes #very happy abt that #whats the difference between a gacha type being event and permenant #im so confused #cuz thechnially arent all of them event gachas #ecvepy for like colorfes and stuff #man #im also gonna use the gacha tickets from permenant gachas to buy angel clover hrk and the smth biggest fans one #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #im doing ok #yeah totally #hahaha #look at that yapfest!#holy cow!#also i NEED parasol cider?? wait is it cider #im checking rq #IT IS!! OK #im so mad i dont have that 2*#parasol cider after show was the first after show ive ever watched #anways #toodles

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b4kuch1n · 11 months

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one thing I thought was missing from canon sk8 was the mine being haunted apparently. so we are bringing that into burnished house for absolutely no fucking reason

#sk8 the infinity #burnished house #(I am jokeing there is. in fact. a reason)#(you will not learn this until the divorce comes up)#(well the preliminary reason is I fucking love ghost stories and want to put them in everything)#(and that reki is afraid of scary things which makes him my favourite kind of victim. younger sibling coded for that only)#Im actually having a lot of fun alternating povs between reki and langa bc Ive like. accidentally grounded langa's in #very clear and present bodily sensations. straight up uncomplicated observations about materials in the world around him #while reki's gets all the hyperboles and pretty poetic stuff. I enjoy the idea of him being good at storytelling #ESPECIALLY bc him taking words to heart including scary stories. big deal to me ok?#love to write langa and going from things that clearly are present right there in the scene to the most insane thoughts a man can have #and then write reki and jump wildly between dork ass energetic shounen character speech and romanticizing the fuck out of concrete #weird thing to say after writing three fics of like 20K+ words in total about them granted lmao #but like. listen. I feel like burnished house is me going apeshit so far. this is truly my time to be the worst ever #same approach as I took with [REDACTED]. oh you think this is bad? just wait #I have already added TWO old people ghosts into this one. be in awe of my power #well. be in awe of it when I finish this chapter... I need to sleep rn dksdfhdskj #have a good nite lads. I cant wait to get to that one spot in this chapter where I go yess... YESS!!!! HAHAHA YESSSS #wish u the same for ur art endeavour. if ur art endeavour doesnt have something like that u should add it. my message to da world

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thedeadthree · 15 days

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hi i have new f*allout oc girlie lore

#leg.txt #her name is hedy she’s a descendant of tandi !!!!!!!!#she was a socialite in the n*cr before things went south and after that was offered a leadership role around these here parts #and though she wasn’t thrilled she knew she would feel awful if she didn’t and to be honest loves it even if she acts like she loathes it 🥀#she said i am determined to not do my job at all costs but i have a bleeding heart so i do it anyways…… LOVE HER.#she’s a bit arrogant and overconfident but she has a bleeding heart soft spot so it’s like she acts like UGH to things but she’s the kindes #*kindest #can yall guess who im shipping her with hehehehe 🥀🥴 it’s soooo not the ghoul totally hehehehe <33 #(i saw gifsets and was like *dizzy* ok FINEE dozijxxj)#i am on the first ep and this is what i have on her rn but hiiiii i love hedy already and can’t wait to develop her more 🥀🥹☺️#fallout tv spoilers #just in case !!!!!!!

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finch-the-foolish · 1 year

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Ok so uh @rose-lizzzy apologies for taking so long on this (I got distracted by an absurd amount of fae Jim brainrot) but uh. Here it is! My scrunkly little AU about my silly little eldritch bois having a certified Bad Time. Gem is one of the main characters, being a Celestial (which I'll talk about in a separate post), alongside all my other creatures cause it's fun to mess with my little guys. Anyway they're all eldritch horrors and doing a shit job of hiding it.

So here ya go! Enjoy ig! If ya like it I'll continue messing with everyone!

The Horrors and The Heavens

TW/CW for anxiety, paranoia, a mental breakdown/panic attack, themes of death and fear surrounding it, themes of lying, despair, fears surrounding others hatred

Gem had long been hiding the truth.

It wasn't like she was the only one doing it—many of her friends had secrets, some more terrible than others, though everyone had something to hide. It was impossible not to, what with how varied and rag-tag their server was.

Regardless, Gem was living a lie. One weaved in careful half-truths and false memories, a well-crafted backstory built on a foundation of nothing. She had been parading these lies for years, burying any remnants of her past, any portions of her life she knew she couldn't share.

Gem knew how the other hermits, the other emperors, how anyone and everyone would react upon her discovery. She had seen it; flitted through countless terrible otherworlds, containing a harsh future she refused to make real. Even as much as it was her nature.

Gemini Tay, a being of the stars, wanderer of the cosmos, wholly capable of burning out in a beautiful flame and taking her systems with her. She was a Celestial, a creature of light and ruin, something she would hide away till the end of her days. Whatever it took to keep herself safe—to keep her friends safe.

She had taken precautions to ensure nobody knew her past, to ensure nobody discovered her second existence on either server; she couldn't bear to stay in one place, that innate need for orbit and movement drawing her away to a second realm, sometimes more when the draw of wanderlust grew too strong.

These precautions had held for over a year, her twin lives moving peacefully through their own realms. Sure, there had been… incidents—the presence of False had posed a threat at first, though she didn't seem to recognise Gem as anything but the Princess of Dawn, same with the old Saint Pearl before her untimely death. Beyond that, though? She'd kept her mask well; better than some, certainly.

It wasn't until she heard of the Rift that she got concerned. Only slightly, at first—she recalled slipping into the cavern one day while Grian was off doing something, recalled staring up at that swirling wall of fabric and code and being struck with the terrible knowledge of its being. A portal, a rip in the universe, releasing energy of the inner code like some slashed, festering wound.

The Rift worried her, though she didn't attempt passing through; there was always the chance of slipping into some other realm with some other her, causing some world-crashing paradox. That had happened once, years ago, back when her powers were new and her mind foolish and far less stable. She refused to let it happen again.

Gem found herself more on edge, keeping a careful hand on her grasp of the Empires' code, desperately praying there would be no tear, that she could live on in her own little lie forever. Her god was not so kind, though, and it wasn't long before a second Rift tore through. She was on Hermitcraft when it happened, but even then she could feel it, feel the terrible ripping of reality's cloth, reverberating through her own code, her own soul, that ever-present link to the stars dragging the feeling through her.

The lie to conceal that was rough, barely coherent in that rush of feeling, but she couldn't bother to care then. She cared now, though. She cared as the Hermits ventured through the Rift, as she found herself trapped in one world with the people she'd tried so hard to hide from. It wasn't that she didn't love her friends—no, it was this love which drove her hidden existences; she couldn't risk their discovery or their harm. And yet here she was, her double life on the edge of discovery.

She went along with the other Emperors' confusion, trying desperately to ignore the near-hurt looks of Impulse and Pearl as she acted as though she hardly knew them. She acted and fibbed and lied, lied, over and over and over again. They couldn't know. They couldn't.

It didn't help how the Hermits pushed, questioning and pestering like some horrid, eternal interrogation, just waiting for her to slip up. Some part of Gem wondered if they already knew, if they were just waiting to reveal her for what she truly was. Perhaps they wanted her to confess—perhaps it would be easier if she did.

What would she do if they found out? Would they ban her? Kill her? She was dangerous—a known murderer in one realm already, a powerful princess in another, and a being capable of destroying them all in both. She wouldn't put it past them to simply end her existence, snuffed out like a star dragged into the dark of a black hole.

The thought scared Gem, scared her more than any she'd had in a long time. And so she became avoidant, lying on a habit, covering up every bit of her other life that she could, even as the glaring marker of truth which was the Hermits remained.

These lies came to a head one day, within some building of Dawn. She'd been working away at this build, distracting herself in the joy of creation, a side of her coin she much preferred to land upon.

It was just before noon when Impulse and Pearl arrived, wandering into the latest addition to Dawn.

"Gem? Gemmmm? Gemmy? Gemmy Gem? You there?" Pearl's voice rang through the small building, drawing Gem's attention from the wall she'd been decorating.

"Pearl?" Gem replied, turning away from her wall as the pair rounded one of the doorways. "Oh. Hi. Do you… need something?"

Impulse shrugged, taking up a spot against one of the other walls. "Eh. Just.. wanted to stop by, see how you're doing."

"Oh, alright. Uhm, I'm just kinda building right now- tryna decide which wall design I should go with." She gestured to the indented wall behind her, letting the pair focus on that. It was easier when they weren't staring at her.

"Ooh, I like the one on the right. Kinda reminds me of one of the other patterns in the castle—y'know, that one?" Pearl looked back at her, awaiting an answer Gem knew she couldn't give.

Some part of Gem wanted to tell them; she'd been holding in all these hidden truths for so long, all these lies she'd had to weave to survive. Some part of her wanted nothing more than to ramble out everything she'd been hiding.

But still. She couldn't. She never could—it would risk everything she had worked for. And so she awkwardly shrugged, mumbling a small "No?"

Her friends shared a look, and, watching them, Gem nearly gave into the urge to agree, tell them yes she knew, yes she understood, yes they had been friends, they were still friends.

"Gem, are you sure you don't remember anything? I.. I know we're pesterin' you a lot, but- our Gem hasn't shown up since we passed through the Rift, and- well, you're her- sorta- I-" Pearl shook her head. "Void, none of this is coming out right. I.. we just wanna know. Are you.. you? Or some other you? Are you the Gem we know?"

Gem tensed, drawing in a breath. They weren't going to leave her alone, were they? They didn't understand what she had to do, why she had to lie to live the way she did, to even live at all.

As her thoughts slipped, she faintly heard an instinctive no, hesitant as it was, fall from her lips. She shook her head, focusing again on her friends—no, they weren't her friends, they were the Hermit Gem's friends, different friends from a different world which should never have met her at all.

"Are you certain? You.. you hesitated. You can tell us, y'know, even if you aren't completely our Gem."

"No, I can't," Gem muttered, just a tad too loud. She tensed, eyes widening at the indiscretion. That.. that was foolish.

She could already tell that this was a fatal error, could already feel the horrible aftermath pounding through her skull, countless realities shrieking of betrayal and fear and death. Death. Gods, that scared her. Faintly, beyond the swirling multitudes of her mind, Gem could hear her own panicked breaths, worried voices and hands on her arm and-

"I.. I'm sorry- I- I lied, I lied about everything- oh stars I'm such a fool- I- I'm gonna die I don't want to die oh stars- I had to do it I had to I don't want to implode I can't hurt anyone again- oh jeez- pl- please don't hurt me- I didn't wanna hurt everyone I didn't want to fake it all but I had to- I-"

A pair of hands grabbed her shoulders, firm, accompanied by two blue eyes staring into her own. Gem drew in a shaky breath, staring into the endless night those eyes seemed to contain.

"Gem. We aren't going to hurt you—we just wanna know what's goin' on. I.. we're worried about you, Gemmy, and ya can't just bottle everythin up. So please. What's wrong?"

Gem sighed, gathering the few shreds of nerve she could manage within her mind. "I.. I'm- I've been hiding my.. second life here. And my past. And… and everything else. I.. I lied about so much-" A sharp sob bubbled up in her chest, releasing itself in a nearly painful whimper. "Everyone's gonna hate me.. oh stars, what am I gonna do-"

"They're- they're not gonna hate you, Gem. We'll make sure nothing bad happens. Right Impulse?"

Impulse, who'd at some point crouched down next to her, nodded, before pulling Gem into a hug, which Pearl joined only a moment later.

"Th.. thanks guys.. promise you won't tell anyone, though. I… I've seen how people react to everything and…" she trailed off, shuddering at the images which flitted through her mind—anger and fear, destruction and death, all the things she'd worked so hard to avoid.

Pearl nodded. "I.. I get it. I've had a rough go of it too, if I'm being honest. We'll keep you safe though."

"Yea, we'll make sure nobody can lay a hand on our Gem, no matter what. We love ya, and aren't gonna let someone hurt one of our own." Impulse paused a moment, before adding, "Besides, if you're gone, who're we gonna play soup roulette with?"

Gem let out a soft laugh at the question, head shaking with an imaginary disdain. "Oh, Impulse."

She was safe for now, hidden behind the love of friends who barely understood what she'd done. Some part of her knew they'd hate the full her, knew the disgust and fear she'd earn upon admitting her crimes. She'd already said too much, even without the knowledge of what she was. It had been a mistake.

Silently, between the laughter of friends she knew would turn away, she told herself she would say no more, vowed silent to bury the truth as deep as she could and never touch it again. It…it was for the best. It was for their safety. Right?

#gem's 100% ok I swear #I am going to ramble about the mess that is my headcannons later because I have Ideas #and I cannot wait to fuck up the Celestials like I fucked up the watchers n listeners #also our resident skulky bois their future is dark too :D #anyway gem had a bit of a menty b but it's fine #she's fine. she's always fine. why wouldn't she be fine?#anyway anyway I think you can tell I was reading 19th century horror novels before I wrote most of this #it was Frankenstein btw great book totally fucked me up tho #my writing style was funky for a week after lol #empires smp #hermitcraft smp #empires x hermitcraft #geminitay #pearlescentmoon #impulsesv #soup group #angst #empires fanfic #my writing #lqmie says things #edit def didn't forget the italics lol #edit edit def didn't forget the au tag #the horrors and the heavens

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