ok i started watching chainsaw man (i know i know, it only took me a thousand years) and i just finished the first episode
that glimpse we got into denji’s life before he merged with pochita ouughh he had practically nothing but pochita !! all he wanted was a normal life ! denji barely asked for anything —his only wish was for pochita to take over his body and live a good life when he dies. for god’s sake he just wanted to eat toast with jam (and ya know. date a girl. and touch boobs)
now reliving all that is making me think of the newer chapters, specifically these panels from chapter 133:
the way fucking meowy shows up here makes me want to throw shit around the room. meowy’s a reminder and the sole leftover of what he had with aki and power, and in some ways he did have a normal life because he finally had a family. it was — aside from being a devil hunter and makima’s manipulation — domestic bliss. he had an older brother and a younger sister, where before it was only him and the little devil he made a contract with.
and he lost all of that. except meowy (!!) who is all he has left of the hayakawa family.
but now denji also has nayuta ! he has so many dogs !! he goes to school ! he’s got recognition and attention because he is the chainsaw man !
and now he’s lost that too. he can’t transform lest he lose another little sister, lest he lose his family again. he finally has the normal life he’s wanted since the very beginning. but now it’s no longer enough. the life he had longed for is his, and denji still craves being chainsaw man — the higher heaven he had a taste of and was once again wrenched from him. hi meowy, can’t sleep either, huh ?
this is a friendly little post to say: if you find that doing stretches for wrist/shoulders/back/whatever either 1) don't help or 2) seem to make your pain worse, then please stop doing the stretches. the answer here is not to keep doing them becuase if you push through the pain eventually it'll get better, right?
listen to me. listen. stretches never did anything for me and at age 25 i learned i had hEDS, which meant 1) most stretches would never help me 2) depending on the stretch, could hurt me, so please. if they aren't helping. please do not keep doing them hoping that they will "eventually" help.
look into whether or not you have a hypermobility disorder or EDS or smth, great resource here: www.ehlers-danlos.com
haters see his shonen love interest swag and go "what is he even doing when has he been relevant why is he important" he's been gay this entire time idiot.
back when i played the rdr2 epilogue for the first time i kept getting mad at john so as penance i would make him build his house again every time he pissed me off
always love “ryou’s kind of an asshole” moments and also love that him and mai were both deranged enough to consider this a funny prank. they should talk more.
More of Cocuyo for you, from my humble little home! (Click for koala-ty because this site is beans on a street corner about it).
I want to do a little more around them, but I haven't found much time to.
Some little facts!
They like to bother Astarion and see him as a bit of an older brother or found-sibling.
They're TERRIFIED of Halsin.
They secretly try to emulate Lae'zel because they think she's cool.
Absolutely a bleeding heart for Gale and will even be found sleeping outside his tent as a way to protect him from Mystra. (Cocuyo knows that gods can bypass sleep and realms alike, but they try anyway).
Competitively swims against Wyll and stays up late reading with him all the time. Best friends.
Sees Shadowheart as a fellow lost and abandoned soul. Won't admit that they see her as a sister to her face because Cocuyo fears her rejection.
Somehow, someway, found a way to send mail to Raphael and writes to him often. TOO often. Raphael responds back despite himself. They've grown... closer? Because of this? It is a damn anomaly no one is talking about. (Is clear one or both of them has a crush).
afo mom lore is crazy it's literally the last thing I expected
I'm going to be honest, I find the writing choices around that tasteless at best, and really gross in general. It's one thing to sprinkle in some edgy melodrama as a part of the narrative's backstory, I can't fault that it has it's place, but this really upset me.
Personally, I go back and forth a lot on how misogyny and objectification of female characters manifests in BNHA, but one of the conversations I think about the most was how violence is depicted against female characters in comparison to their male counterparts, where Mirko was the central point of discussion.
I think about that discussion now, because "seemingly homeless sex worker is weakened by her Evil Fetus, dies giving birth in the elements, has her corpse preyed upon by rats and her own fucking Evil Baby" is frankly indefensible, and really emblematic in that connection between misogyny and violence. It's also just very immature grimdark lit with an unnerving fascination on the interplay of Sex and Violence-core.
The funny thing is I was telling @stillness-in-green after reading the final part of her Heteromorph & Heteromorphobia series and reliving how disappointing the Central Hospital mini-arc was is that I was thinking "well at least there's not a lot that BNHA can do to disappoint me to that extent again". I should know by now, never underestimate Horikoshi. Oh well!