#i cant imagine having more then just me as a mod

[daily-ethoslab]

[386] @daily-grian Happy Belated 1 year! I hope you three share this cupcake in a civilized manner! :)

#there’s no way this cupcake will lead to a battle of the death right?? #nooo #i cant imagine having more then just me as a mod #too much organizing with other peopls #so props to yall #day 386 #etho #ethoslab #etho fanart #ethoslab fanart #grian #grian fanart #I need a tag for interactions with other blogs #i like to look back at them lol #i also love the wording a year and some change #uhh i already know i forgot to tag this as something but oh well

[aziraphales-library]

Hello dear mods!! I was wondering if you knew of any spicy Naga!Crowley fics. Im having a hard time finding them. I think preferably E rated but im also happy with M too :))

If u cant find anything then thats fine! Its a hard tag to find (for me anyway)! And i hope all of you have a nice day!

Thank you :D

Of course! We do have a #naga crowley tag!

The Ritual (+ art) by chamyl [E]

Aziraphale swallows around the knot in his throat. “Crawly, I need you to listen to me very carefully. There are only two kinds of ritual. If you have rejected the sacrifice of a living being, they will expect you to accept their other offering. Which will be… well, a mate.”

“A mate?”

“A human. To… to keep. In your rooms.”

A Garden of Earthly Delights by Sodium_Azide [E]

When an accidentally-poisoned Crowley runs amuck through London for days, Aziraphale eventually tracks him down and does his best to try to help and not get torn to pieces by claws or venomous fangs. Once the angel is finally able to communicate a little with his delirious demon, the situation changes quickly as Aziraphale makes the best of a bad situation. He had imagined their first time being a bit more romance-novel, but that's not what Crowley needs, and the angel can move fast when he has to.

The Fruit of Eden by TawnyOwl95 [E]

Crawly finds himself in a pickle. Aziraphale helps him to feel better.

Normal Services Are Suspended by entanglednow [E]

Crowley is half snake for the foreseeable future and Aziraphale is determined to make himself useful.

Deep (In The Jungle) by ladydragona, SylWritesStuff [E]

Being lost in the jungle is the last thing Aziraphale was expecting and yet here he is. Lost, with no map, dwindling food, and on a time limit. Almost drowning was also not on the menu but a mysterious saviour might just be what he needs.

~Mod N

#naga crowley #good omens #ineffable husbands #adult omens #canon #human au #mod n

[definitelynotshouting]

Okay, so, question I've had for a while but never got around to asking, what the FUCK is up with Grian's wings?

If all physical differences in players (like those particularly ascribed to 'Hybrids' in mcyt fanon) in Hunger AU are a result of conscious altering of your own code for the express purpose of achieving YOUR IDEAL BODY(tm) then what does that mean for Grian and his wings? No one seems to regard Grian's wings as "What The Fuck, You Can DO That?!?" so presumably wings aren't so big of a change from normal biology that players can't do that. If so, why is it not more common? Man, if I could have wings I'd jump on that in seconds. Especially with the sheer utility the ability to fucking FLY gives players. Are wings (and maybe other larger alterations) just like, REALLY HARD to code in? If so, that might add a really cool layer of "Oh wow! They must be a really good coder!" to players who meet people like that.

On a related note, Grian seems to have a positive regard for his wings, which is interesting because I would be willing to bet he didn't have that before *insert sounds of worm-bursting and non-consensual body modification*. I imagine seeing his wings would likely feel like a reminder of the Watchers and what they did to him. BUT, Watchers manipulate their own code when they change like Grian did to, y'know, not be a worm anymore so Grian probably specifically chose how he looked, right? So, unless he did so really rushed and somehow made a mistake while doing so (which he might not be able to risk the structural damage of correcting), keeping the wings was a conscious decision. Does Grian just not associate his wings with the Watchers or is it something else? Does he just really enjoy having wings?

HELLO I AM SO GLAD YOU'VE ASKED THIS BECAUSE I HAVE ‼️‼️‼️‼️ MANY THOUGHTS ABOUT IT ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

Okay okay so these are all SUCH valid questions, lemme go through them one by one. Wings are indeed something anyone could have if they wanted to code them in-- and in fact, i do believe many other Players have wings throughout the universe!!! As far as body mods go, i like to think of them as decently popular, so its definitely not anything too weird to see. In chapter 5, i even make a mention to Pearl having moth wings she occasionally codes in due to preference!!! So wings of many different types are definitely available-- but the catch is that they're real fiddly to code. You cant just give yourself wings, you have to code in the bone structure, the muscles, the tendons, etc etc, and then you have to change your entire body structure as well to work with and fully support them. They can be awkward and unwieldy, as ive tried to show in the fic itself, and i think that alone can be a big discouragement for Players considering coding in wings, along with the sheer coding effort needed to obtain them and make them functional

And the thing is, elytra already exist-- they're far more compact, they dont take up as much space, you can take them on and off super easily without having to mess with your coding, and they basically do the same thing. Sure, its a pain to get one, but a lot of Players really enjoy the sense of accomplishment, and i think theres a bit of cultural prestige too in that regard. Server milestones are a huge thing in Player culture, and getting your first pair of elytra is a big one!!! So it makes sense to me that people who just dont want to go through the effort of coding in wings (which can then in turn complicate how they code other future modifications) primarily stick to elytra.

And everybody is different-- some people prefer attributes that arent wings. I like to think everyone in hermitcraft generally is a mix of "jeez thats effort, i could be building my base instead of doing that" and "eh im fine how i am, i like it" and "well we have elytra shops everywhere so why bother".

So in short, yeah!! Wings are a bit complex to code in. They're still pretty popular, i think plenty of Players do choose to incorporate them, but it takes a lot of hard and thorough work to make sure they function right and wont bug you out when you use them. There are billions of Players scattered across the universe, so what you're seeing in the fic right now is truly just a drop in the ocean when it comes to Player body diversity :] and then, elytra basically already help Players achieve a form of flight without the hassle of recoding their entire body structure, so i think the majority of Players just prefer to use them instead.

AS FOR GRIAN'S WINGS IN PARTICULAR......

Well..... its complicated. Particularly his feelings about them-- in the fic, i referenced them as the only good thing the Watchers ever gave him, and thats how he sees it, i think: a thin silver lining. He's had many, many years to get used to them, and i think he goes through periods where he hates them and the memories attached, too. Ultimately, he's kinda stuck with them, so i think he hit a form of acceptance (as bitter-tinged as it may be) out of sheer necessity for his own sanity.

As for why he has them, and hasnt coded them out: i think of it as a particular quirk of biology/structural coding. Watchers have a more instinctive way of coding than Players, but a Player-minded Watcher is still going to think like a Player, and thats going to muddle things a lot. Grian essentially had to relearn how to code, in a way that satisfied both Player and Watcher-style coding, and the results at first were.... a little rough around the edges. Once he managed to finally take on his original former appearance, the wings from his true form just kind of.... stuck. I like to think it took a few increasingly desperate tries before he realized he just could not figure out how to get rid of them (bc of how different his new code was), and had to accept that this was just how he was gonna have to live for a while until he finally figured it out. And then, well.... you can get used to anything, if you're stuck with it long enough. I think after a while it just stopped being a huge priority, and then he reached a point where it would be more awkward to live without them than with them, and he eventually dropped the idea altogether. And i think sometimes, they function almost like a scar, to him-- a reminder of what he went through, yes, but a reminder that he did manage to escape. And, ofc, he also just really, really likes flying skdjskdjdj

So yeah, loads of complicated feelings there about his wings, and its stuff i do plan on exploring later in the fic!!! This got a little rambly, but i hope this makes sense and answers your questions!!!! :D its a fun little complicated knot that im glad someone has gotten curious enough to ask about!!!!

#shouting speaks #asks #hunger au #grian #watcher grian #watcher!grian #hermitcraft #ig like. basically its all abt human behavior at the end of the day #not everybody codes in wings bc not everybody wants to. grian chooses to keep them bc hes lived w/ them so long it feels better this way #also i do think it took several tries for him to regain his player appearance. like he glitched several times #while trying to modify his body to accomodate the Problem Wings™ #kinda like... what was it. load bearing coconut in the tf2 games #you take it out the entire game wont start #he tried taking out his wings and it almost turned him into goo. atp it was better just to leave them until he gained more experience #and then when he got to that point it no longer felt like a priority/he'd settled into having them #so yeah fkwjdkekdk human illogic behavior. ur gonna see that a TON in the fic itself #long post #txt

[kozykricket]

im voting for the scrubbadingo i mean the armadillo because as much as i love the crab and penguin for being more unique than just generic usual penguin/crab, and representing a unique critter, teaching me of something that i didnt know existed (fiddler crabs are very neat) ...i just cant see myself interacting with them that much? like, okay, yes crab claws are the most useful of the uses, but im not looking to how useful they are very much im looking for a mix of how cute they are and how i think theyll effect my general experience. and even if i pretend that mangroves spawned often, would i really interact with crabs that often? id probably just grab a claw and be outta there, which could be annoying if it took a lot of time, or just... mm, i think id rather reaching farther be not related to a random animal penguins seem goofy and fun but boats are fast enough, and i see myself just kinda... spending a BIT of time with them ig? but not really appreciating them but armadillos? they spawn in the biome that currently, i view as just a disappointment honestly. i feel disdain seeing savannas, since theyre just like, worse plains with occasional llamas? plus, they could eat termites if they ever get out of the ideas purgatory honestly, i just... theyre all so cute, and 2 of them represent really cool creatures that should get more attention, but i just cant see myself playing with them much. armadillos i can imagine myself having a farm of, especially if the scutes are passive instead of... once in a lifetime like turtles, which creates just. me killing turtles. same might happen for crabs tbh. id love to have crabs, because theyre a unique twist on the usual crab design, and they are silly and cute lil guys. if they win, ill be happy. itll also mean that a lot of mods wont need to have crabs necessarily or can more easily make beach crabs based on these ones but hey, armadillos r nice. maybe their scutes could even be a potion material! and maybe, maybe just maybe, wolf armor will make mojang realize just how squishy pets are, when they add it and realize that wolves will still die in like 2 hits. maybe pets in general could get more safety buffs, to make the wolf armor seem relevant, since mojang only really likes giving attention to areas of the game if theres something new theyre adding thats relevant to it. if we get crabs, why would they improve pets at all? also, i do want to name armadillos scrubbadingo, habanero, jalapeno, vine sauce.

#minecraft mob vote #mob vote #minecraft

[sedittedice]

Tw: vent

So back in like October I got in some drama in a server I'm in (I'm not gonna say what server I'm just gonna say it was the server of an artist I use to really look up to)

But yeah I was friends with one of the mods/server owners friends let's call them Tiffany

So me and Tiffany agreed to ship our wh ocs (let's call the ship MM)

Ok real quick ill just go ahead and make a name list thing:

Server owner: Britney

Owners friend that I became friends with: Tiffany

Ship me and Tiffany made: MM

My friend: Amanda

The server: the Britney server

Other person that shipped their oc with Tiffany's: Megan

Ok so now that that's all cleared up

Let's continue

So it originally started when I made a small vent drawing in the server vent chat

(I covered up the pfps for privacy sakes and for my sake)

But basically it's a vent of my holding my pfp at the time and my face being static with the discord pfps of artists I wished to draw like

I had forgotten to put that this vent wasn't me trying to attack anyone and according to Britney this had made people upset

They never told me who got upset so I couldn't personally apologize to those people

But me and Britney sorted it out and I told them to apologize to the people I had upset since Britney never told me who got upset

They said ok

After a bit , I slowly noticed that Tiffany never drew any MM stuff (which I didn't really mind)

But then I noticed she drew a bunch of ship art of Megan's oc with hers

So I nicely tried to ask/suggest ideas for MM art

As you can see I made it clear that they didn't need to if they didn't want to

But she never replied so I just dropped it

And I slowly started getting more depressed cause Tiffany seemed to be ignoring me and the rest of the Britney server

So I asked my friend Amanda if she could help

So she tried to subtly bring up MM

But as you can see

She got ignored aswell

As I slowly got more and more depressed a few other small problems happened (my writing on a magma was removed and a few people moved their drawings a little for me to fit something)

And just when I thought I couldn't be depressed enough

I got a dm during school from Britney saying they kicked me from the server due to my behavior and stuff

Calling me immature, etc

And since we were no longer in the same server, I couldn't dm back an apology, so I asked my friend Amanda to help me

I then made a vent on here, but they forced me to delete it

They also were taking their friends side saying I was trying to force people and guilt trip people into making MM ship art WHEN I CLEARLY DIDN'T

And THEY NEVER LET THE PEOPLE I APPARENTLY HURT THAT I APOLOGIZE AND SO EVERYONE IN THAT SERVER PROBABLY THINKS IM A FUCKING ASS HOLE

And apparently I was making Tiffany uncomfortable with the MM ship??

WHEN LITERALLY THEY NEVER TOLD ME THEY WERE UNCOMFORTABLE AND EVEN WENT ALONG WITH SOME OF MY SHIP IDEAS

AND NOW IM TOO AFRAID TO SPEAK IN ANY SERVER IM IN CAUSE OF WHAT HAPPENED

MIND YOU BRITNEY IS AN ADULT HERE AND I WAS 15 AT THE TIME NOW 16

I GOT BULLIED INTO HAVING EVEN WORSE SOCIAL ANXIETY AND NO ONE KNOWS NOR CARES EXCEPT FOR MY FRIEND AMANDA

ALL BECAUSE AN ADULT CHOSE TO SIDE WITH THEIR FRIEND AND NOT FUCKING CARE ABOUT WTF I HAD TO SAY

AND ISTG BRITNEY IF YOU SEE THIS AND TRY AND MAKE ME TAKE THIS DOWN I AM GOING TO FUCKING DO SOMETHING THAT YOU MIGHT REGRET MAKING ME DO

I HATE THIS SO MUCH

IMAGINE GETTING BULLIED BY AN ADULT

THIS IS THE 2ND TIME IVE BEEN BULLIED BY A GROWN ASS PERSON

I AM FUCKING DONE WITH THIS SHIT

I AM TIRED OF THIS I JUST WANT TO SCREAM AND CRY BUT I FUCKING CANT

#womp womp #dice rants #dice vents #i wanna cry so bad

[danganronpa-obsession-hell]

Part 2 witu Angie, Kaede, Tenko and Celestia a reader whos both very touch starved and touch adverse due to a terrible upbringing. Both are aware and reader slowly trying to overcome until one day they go up to their gf and go "Fuck it. Hug me. Im tired of being scared." They do it and they find it so damn nice they just melt into her and now they cant get enough of her.

I just fell flat on my chest send prayers :( -Mod Junko

Angie, Kaede. Tenko and Celeste with a touch adverse S/O

Angie Yonaga

• Angie is a very.. interesting person. Angie only really touched you when you two were having a prayer or two to Atua by holding your hands, you’re weren’t really sure her stance on wanting to hold you or express PDA

• she never seemed to worry about you rejecting touch, it’s like she was never bothered by it which was strange because she was touchy with about everyone else

• so when you came up to her saying you wanted to attempt to have more touch oriented affection she just giggled and ran up to hug you

• she pat your head softly, she definitely was good at being soft like this. You kinda wanted to stay like this

• “Atua told me you’d accept my touch soon so I didn’t worry! He’s such a thoughtful man.”

• you simply cheerfully rolled your eyes and sank into Angie’s arms, she definitely is a strange girl

Kaede Akamatsu

• kaede completely respects not wanting to be touched, shuichi is the same way sometimes where touching makes him nervous, so she wants to support her S/O and her friend with their struggles

• So when you came up to kaede one day, saying you want to try having a hug, she asked if it’s really okay, which you reassured her about

• she gently took you in her arms and started to pet your head, she was so good at being comforting, this wasn’t as bad as you thought it was for so long

• “you’re so sweet, Y/N. You want me to hold you like this more often?”

• you nodded up at kaede and she giggled softly, kissing your forehead and gently rocking back and forth

• kaede is so loving to you, you’re extremely grateful for her understanding nature

Tenko Chabashira

• Tenko has a tiny bit of a hard time adapting to someone who doesn’t want to be touched, especially if you two happen to spar with Neo Akido

• Tenko is very huggy in general, so it’s hard for her to adjust that you’re nervous to touch

• but when you tell Tenko that you feel ready enough to try and accept hugs she looked at you with sparkles in her eyes and she lifted you up in a hug

• Tenko was giggling loudly and practically spinning you around in her arms, but you held on and smiled to her

• “you’re as soft as I imagined you to be! I wanna hold you like this forever!”

• you calmed Tenko down by putting your hands on her shoulders and she gently put you down and apologized, but she was so cute you couldn’t be mad

Celestia Ludenberg

• Celeste isn’t a touchy person to begin with so it didn’t really bother her if you didn’t want to be touched, still she worries about you a little

• you asked Celeste one day if she cold hold you as a test and she stared at you blankly for a moment

•”are you sure my dear?” She questioned, she knew how anxious you were about it before but you reassured her

• she gently took you in her arms, she had a firm but soft hold, she smelled of tea and expensive perfume but still it was so nice

• she asks multiple times if you’re comfortable and you answer truthfully every time that yes you feel amazing while in her arms

• “I’ll hold you for as long as you like my dear, but please tell me if you want to stop”

• Celeste holds you more often after this, she eventually does stop asking if you’re okay so often so she doesn’t bother you, she’s very caring for you

#danganronpa x reader #requests #angie yonaga #angie yonaga x reader #angie x reader #kaede akamatsu x reader #kaede akamatsu #kaede x reader #tenko chabashira #tenko chabashira x reader #Tenko x reader #celestia ludenberg x reader #celestia ludenberg #celeste x reader

[thewarnerbrothers]

alright i gotta say something

you really cant do anything when you have a moderately popular blog huh

look. im a lurker at heart. i just happen to have one issue: not being able to shut up when im interested in something. thats the only reaaon this blog exists. i didnt come here to make friends, though i ended up doing that along the way

i dont want or need your pity. what i need is for people i dont know at all to stop putting me under a microscope

newsflash: i dont matter. follower count doesnt matter. at all. do you know what its like having thousands of eyes on you all the time? it sucks

i literally cant do anything

if i block literal strangers, they get mad and try to publicly shame me for it. if i try to settle disputes amicably in private, its seen as bad. if i attempt to be open and transparent with modding decisions, its bad. if i ask people to actually talk to me, they dont. instead they kick up a frenzy in private to coordinate a stupid mass hissy fit disproportionate to any perceived slight they may have endured. if i make friends, people take it personally. people see that as some sort of insult. i cannot be friends with everyone. i wont. this hurts strangers feelings, dspite me not existing for their pleasure.

some of you feel very entitled to my time. you dont own me. i dont owe you anything. ive tried to not lose the few molecules of my mind left on a regular basis because of some people who are no longer in this fandom, and some who still are. and man. i am just. tired. of everyone. all the time.

i think even more than the fact that this series was released (mainly) as a bingewatch fest, what killed this fandom was you

not necessarily you, whoever is reading this. i mean the fans. in general. some of you are so annoying, rude, inappropriate, and willfully lacking in social skills. youre over dramatic. youre moody. youre dramamongering. youre liars. youre bullies. youre self-ascribed victims. you dont care about other human beings.

youre repulsive, frankly

you are part of the reason people have been leaving the fandom in droves. the homophobia. the transphobia. the ship hate. the inability to treat other people with basic human decency. the manufactured scandals. shut up and grow up

you know why i barely interact with larger fandom anymore? ill tell you

waves of harassment to varying degrees ad nauseam

creeps who refuse to even try to keep their fetishes to themselves in private groups that include minors

abusers (most of whom are thankfully now gone)

people befriending me only to reveal that they dont actually like or care about me as a person

the most willfully socially inept people to ever exist

nosy jerks who literally cannot stand not sticking their nose in personal problems that have nothing to do with them

people treating me and my blog like im google adsense. im not a billboard guys

people deciding i am evil for no apparent reason? sdkjfalsdjfa

thinly veiled anythingphobia pretending to be socially just (hi homophobes who imply that being lgbt by nature is 'adult')

people who just make things up. all the time. just make up a lie, say it passionately enough. if you try to defend yourself, youre seen as guilty/suspicious. if you try to resolve things quietly with only those involved, you're seen as guilty/suspicious. cant win

wankers who need to learn why parasocial relationships arent actually meant to be embraced wholeheartedly

really lame one-off trolls tbh

the most fandom discourse-poisoned takes i have seen since su hatedom was at its peak

im just tired of being nice all the time? i think you guys just like taking advantage of people you imagine to be good targets

listen. i am allowed to do whatever i want, regardless of how you feel about it. the same thing goes for you. i tend to try to resolve things reasonably and rationally, but i wont pretend ive never gotten mad or overreacted or made a decision i regret. ive made that pretty known. i like to think i've grown, and ive gone out of my way to apologize to people.

however.

some of yall do not understand that just because your feelings got hurt, it doesnt mean you are deserve an apology or an explanation. sometimes it literally is just a you problem. a skill issue. you need to grow thicker skin. learn how to curate your online experience. get. over it.

lets talk about blocking, shall we?

blocking is great. i block people all the time. i block bots, i block tag spammers, i block people who make posts with rancid vibes, i block people who ive personally interacted with and no longer wish to, i block because i get tired of seeing someones posts, i block people who post things that trigger me, i block blogs with icons i dont like. there's usually no grand reason for it, aside from egregious cases where i've been harassed. its also usually not personal. i will block people who ive followed for years. i dont care. i dont know most of yall. i know i've been blocked by tons of people and that's okay! i would rather people who don't want to interact with me do that.

if you get blocked, thats it. dont attempt to contact me again unless i reach out. im not the only blog in this fandom. youll live without my posts. i am not the arbiter of all things animaney.

im just some guy

i know that the people who need to hear this most will not care nor will they actually absorb what i'm saying. ive gotten a lot of hate over the dumbest crap. im done. i think i need to stop trying to be so friendly, because some of you think being a little pissbaby is the only way to interact with others online.

cant wait til i finally explode one day and just delete everything

tldr shut up leave me alone oh my god its not that big a deal jesus christ

#if youre gonna treat me like shit regardless i get to be upset about it #bleh

[straycalamities]

no for real the onceler fandom when i was a huge part of it (2015/2016) was so fuckin toxic half the people left bc everyone was praising one or two blogs and acting like everyone else was dirt. it was super discouraging and i ran about 3 blogs and the only interactions i ever got was from people starting drama :(

im not sure what the askblog scene looks like today but im HOPING and PRAYING its better

eughh im sorry that sounds like absolute hell...i barely dipped my toes in because i was recovering from Stuff (stuff that took me to this year to get over enough to even make another personal blog) so i wasnt Too up-to-date with what was going on in the fandom from 2015 tooo 2019?ish? even if i popped in on entre's blog time to time, but i've heard stuff from others and friends

i think the askblog scene is A LOT more chill these days. a lot more lax and there's sooo much just...Less of everything that it makes things easier to like take in stride at least to me compared to 2012-2014 days where everything was so intense, extreme, and constant

there's still the like ghosts of the same issues that've been present since day one but its like...on a MUCH lesser scale. i honestly think it's pretty good all things considered :) the only thing that makes it rly hard for me compared to past eras is how split the fandom is uhhh app/site-wise (like its very much spread across tiktok, tumblr, twitter, discord, maybe more...idk) and so it feels like im missing out if i dont keep up everywhere LMAO and each location comes with its own issues either population-wise or site/app-wise

i miss how centralized it used to be to tumblr u_u and obviously having more content to look at back in the day, i got very spoiled on it so when i peruse the fandom content its like a lot less to look at but thats honestly GOOD FOR ME BC I HAVE NO TIME NOW LMAOOOO but its just like strange bc im like woah i dont have to scroll for an hour on entres dash anymore to catch up

well i do, but that's bc i have no time to check it on work days and so it piles up for when i do sit and take the time. cant imagine the hell i'd be in if it was 2012-era activity

ppl who had full-time jobs in the fandom in 2012 damn...i salute you.

unfortunately with a fandom as niche as this, it kinda cooks up the same issues over and over again and it makes me wish there was some sort of disclaimer that popped up as soon as you wanted to join the fandom to give you a rundown on how the culture is, who the people are, what the past drama was (so dont bring it up again), and all that LMFAO like a onceler fandom 101 that was just beamed into your device when you were like hmm what if i joined the onceler fandom LMAO

i kinda wanna do something like that specifically for askblogs? like a dos and donts. or "things i wish i knew when i started an askblog" type of thing but alas..no time. bc i see other mods go through the same obstacles/difficulties i went through and learned to either change my thinking on, or something else to either help me get past it/over it or at least cope better and id wanna pass that on if the fandoms gonna keep getting revived every two or so years and then cave in on itself from the same rehashed drama/problems it always has :sob emoji:

#asks #Anonymous

[anonymousredactedconfessions]

@ 🤠🐸

yall rly just are not getting what i had said in my original ask at all. like none of yall understand.

first of all, i can complain about it. thats what i did. i complained about it. let me explain this in a way that can make sense as to why im so upset about it.

imagine that regularly, every month for 2-3 years, you are given a piece of candy. now all of a sudden, youre being forced to pay for the candy. why do you have to pay for the candy? its always been free before so why now? it cant be because of a financial crisis, because the person supplying you has a steady income and makes more money than you have or probably will see in your whole life. i think its pretty fucking fair to be upset about it.

i dont expect it to change, i dont expect anyone to do anything about it. i dont expect everyone to understand, but god fucking damn it, i have grown up having even basic human fucking needs deprived of me because money is stupid and evil and yeah, yanno what, i think im entitled to being a little upset when yet Another Thing is being taken from me because i cant afford to give a rich white man money. no its not serious, i get that. but i dont know why me voicing that im upset about something automatically makes me childish and immature and apparently, according to past responses, a fucking loser who has no friends.

idk man. money is the root of all evil or whatever and i hate paying for art in general because its stupid that anyone even has the need to charge money for art or slap any kind of monetary value on it. i get that it sounds like im whining, but the way that i look at it, this kind of feeling for me runs a lot deeper than “i cant have my favorite content bc it costs money”

its very much a “its stupid that anyone should have to pay for these kinds of things because art shouldnt be monetized period but we live in a world where its Needed and that pisses me the fuck off because I HATE MONEYYYYYY I HATE ITTTTTT “ kind of thing lmao

like yall know how everyone is mad at streaming services for making you pay more for less shit when it used to be included in what you get??? its the same kind of vibe for me. why would i ever pay money for something that was free for half its existence or whatever lmao

idk i dont think anyone will really understand unless you grew up the way i did. its cool. its whatever. just maybe dont fucking attack me for complaining about financial situations/the ridiculous roundabout ways i have to go about getting shit that used to be free.

im not even mad about Erik himself being the one to do it. im mad that anyone does it. you should not force anyone to pay for shit that used to be free. shit should not cost more after time goes on. because none of it makes any fucking sense and money is stupid and grrrrrer whateverrrrrrr whateverrrrr it doesnt mattererrrrrrrr (thx to mod priest for putting up with all this btw love u dude, ur a pillar in this community truly and u see some of the worst shit that this fandom says and big props to you. i wont be commenting on this any further just for your sake tbh. much love, thank you for everything you do dude)

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(thanks ⚡🩸 anon 🥺. Thats very sweet of you ❤️ love u too dude)

#redacted audio #redacted asmr #confessions #the priest speaks

[traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors]

heya im like. looking for advice or comfort or whatever

so i have npd right? the problem is, due to how npd Is, its not really a thing a person would want to go through the process of getting properly diagnosed. so, i have npd but not a diagnosis. im not looking for one, because i know what i am and a diagnosis wouldnt help me anyways

i brought it up with my therapist, and she cant seem to accept that im right about it. its not a "lets say you have" its a "you have" type of situation. i know i have npd, i fit all of the diagnostic criteria, my experiences resonate with diagnosed pwNPD, their experiences resonate with me and even then, i know in my BONES that i have npd. everything i do points in some way to npd- a lot of previous actions of mine make a lot more sense when you look at it through the lense of Me Having NPD. and despite this, she seems to really like Not Listening To Me regarding it. so i had a tiny little bit of a mental breakdown in the session and it sucked and i still feel like shit about it and im kinda scared to go back to that therapist cause like. fuck, man, i dont want an echo chamber i want a therapist who will LISTEN to me and accept that im RIGHT about something. i KNOW im right about this so why cant she just!! fucking listen to me!!!!

and like its made even worse because ive been right about other stuff in the past regarding my own (mental) health and AGAIN people DIDNT LISTEN TO ME. and i was RIGHT. why cant people even just! fucking entertain the idea that i could be right about something! how difficult could it possibly be to recognise that i know what im fucking talking about it!! every diagnostic criteria is there!! the behaviour is there!!! the experiences are there!!! the trauma is there!!! so why are you so fucking intent on NOT believing me on the ONE THING i KNOW for a FACT is going on!!!! fuck you!!!!! (not at any of the mods of course just. god. fuck. i dont know how to articulate anything better than that im so fucking pissed man. its not a "i might have this" its a "I HAVE THIS. WITHOUT FUCKING QUESTION. BUT NOBODY LISTENS TO ME ENOUGH TO GIVE ME A DIAGNOSIS" and i am just so. so tired)

-june . just so i can find this again. thanks

Hi june,

I'm sorry to hear about what you've been going through. I can imagine how invisible you must feel to be ignored and disbelieved, as well as how this feeling might be amplified by NPD. Please know that you deserve to have people in your life that listen to you, support you, and believe you, especially your therapist.

I know that many therapists like to steer away from pathologization but there are far more appropriate approaches. It sounds like you've tried to confront her about this previously but she has not been receptive. I know the process of finding therapists is not easy, but just consider that you don't deserve to have a therapist that refuses to recognize what you would like to address.

I think it might also be worth doing some self-reflection on what a diagnosis would mean for you, because it sounds like you hold multiple beliefs around that. On one hand, you say that you're not looking for a diagnosis and that it wouldn't help you. On the other hand, you expressed how nobody listens to you enough to get a diagnosis, despite having said you wouldn't want one. It can be validating for a professional to affirm that you have this disorder, but it can come with some added stigma. It also doesn't necessarily affect a therapeutic treatment plan, as a therapist can create one tailored for NPD without a professional diagnosis. There are different pros and cons to a diagnosis, especially for a disorder as stigmatized as NPD, so it could be worth thinking more about.

If anyone would like to add on, feel free to do so. Otherwise, I hope I could help, and please let us know if you need anything.

-Bun

#mod bun #trauma talks #tw ableism #tw sanism #june #npd

[azuredrg]

tell me about raiden my friend raiden :3 can be anything you want but if you want a specific topic idk tell me about a minion or mount they use and why !! feel free to ignore that if you have something you’d rather talk abt though <3 mwah

MWAH ty grimsley :3 <3 i will talk about anything and everything about raiden !!!

The minion i've been using for him recently is the puffin from the newest dungeon

☝️ raiden & puffin. in the past i've used the hunting falcon & ofc estinien (of wind up & dress up variety. i've been wanting to make an edit of one of them to be foulques but...! modding is scary). it's mostly birds because raiden LOVES birds, especially chocobos. the chocobo chick was my favorite minion for the longest time i used CONSTANTLY because i had to be lore accurate and raiden would adore having a little chocobo follow him around.

for mounts, I'd say Raiden's favorite is the company chocobo u get. first mount ever. again he loves chocobos. (if there are more chocobo mounts than ones u get in msq i can get id love to know) he love's her her name is lexington (named after lexington, kentucky like the place with the horses) Lore wise his original chocobo was slaughtered at the bloody banquet so he couldn't escape & Haurchefants black chocobo was gifted to him because of that.

(i cant bear to part with lexington for one moment long enough to dye her so i could be lore accurate so she is still yellow. idk...)

Raiden has always loved birds when he came to Eorzea and saw just how abundant chocobos were for transport and the like he got a little obsessed (since there were none in yanxia, though he loved his friends yol). He had a very, very brief jaunt as a jockey because of that. so i try to incorporate chocobo stuff any way i can whenever the game lets me (half my island sanctuary animals are chocobos because of this) (the other half is karakul. for the elf wife, of course).

he had to quit because receiving his echo made them grow significantly, and just became too big to race anymore (like real horse racing, you have to be pretty light and small- though i'd imagine there'd be different divisions for different races since they vary so much in size & weight. raiden outgrew elezen division & was too small for roe 😭) oh, and also the whole "fighting primals" thing. I think that unfortunately took most of his attention away.

#raiden #THANK YOUUU ❤️❤️❤️ i love talking about how much rai loves birds

[confessions-official]

I have bpd and I've been splitting on my partner for months. I think. Everything they do irritates me. They also have bpd and have lost three friends within just as many months. I feel like I have to support them through this. We agreed that they'd give me space today because I didn't have the emotional bandwith to help with the most recent one (which has occured less than a week after the last) while handling (re: bottling up & burying six feet under) my own related & unrelated issues. Yet they were sending me things again trying to get my attention within the hour.

I've been a total fucking doormat the entire relationship and put so much more into it than they ever have both emotionally and financially. I dont know how long I can keep things up.

I can't ever voice my issues with their behavior because the few times when I did get brought up again and again alongside how terrible they still feel about it months or sometimes YEARS later. I never told them about the time they hurt me so badly it felt like I was getting gutted years ago. I cant imagine the shit they would say about it with the tone of it being such a funny event if i had. (not to mention in all this that I'm just generally bad with talking about how i feel or being vulnerable. even with other loved ones. which my partner is aware of) ((it took me three attempts to even get myself to send this in))

(((Thanks for existing confessions blog I literally have no one/nowhere else to go about this right now. Having a void to shriek into after months of not saying a word about it is really helpful. Please take care of yourself mod dont be like me lol)))

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#confession

[crayonverse]

Alright nobody asked or actually cares but here’s a bunch of my physical video games that I love

(long post)

Starting off weak: a bunch of my normal sims stuff. I have a lot of the sims 3 packs but they’re at my dads house (Along my with supernatural s1-15). i also have more sims 4 because i, stupidly, paid money for them (and i also dont understand how to pirate the rest)

Fantasy Life (best toh game ever I love it so much also one of the characters was accidentally trans coded please play this game🙏🙏h). also i could never complete the Bratz ponyz. i just kept cleaning the horses and then gave up lmao

Xbox games I can’t play because I don’t have an Xbox at my Mums and the one at my dads broke. I hope to find a new one sometime🫶. but also Viva Pinata is a brilliant game and is the best ever actually. everyone needs to a look a whirlim forever

Most goated Pokémon game ever. Real. God it’s so much fun I love this game sm. It was one of my first ever Pokémon games and I loved just running around and making friends. Truly amazing

Not games but movies I have. That arceus + the Lucario and mew movie were my only Pokémon media n shit. I rewatched them sm

When wii party and worms battle came out you know the sleepover got so good. the diseny enchatned princess was my childhood i just kept making a new princess and running around doing nothing

Switch games!!!!!!! I really like Pokémon games and eevee is my favourite little guy ever. i can never get far in ary bc my switch doesnt have enough space to keep playing :( it does seem cute with the small time i can play through

Scribblenauts has been like. One of my fav game series. Maxwell ur a sweet little man and I love him. also nintendogs those games have been so cute throughout my life. i love animals

i also consisently buy every single one of each of these games in their series bc they always slap so hard

The imagine series is also a staple those fucking things r COOL. ive just recently restarted my tomodachi island <3

PS3 stuff. Me and my dad used to play Rayman together

imagine teacher was my fav out of the imagine games i have. i got so invested in those fake preschoolers (the pottery level is the suckiest tho i hate it). moshi monsters cool tho i like it

Mod Nation was my mysims racing since i didnt have it and its. actually kinda fun. i think it also had an online element but idk if the servers are still active at this point. bugsnax is also revoulutionary play it play it play it play it

diseny universe was like a big game i kept trying to play with my friends but i think they fucking hated it LOL

my time at portia goated (saving up for the sequel rn)

outer worlds was also one of the only games i full on cried at the end. also at the time i ID'd as a asexual lesbian and Parvati, who was an asexual lesbian, made me feel very seen at the time. shes still my fav companion from that game.

lego dc supervillains has been my fav lego game so far and i hope more lego games are like it in the future because it was great

my lbp stack💪💪💪 i havent done much of A Big Adventure yet bc its more of an adventure game than the others and also you cant save normally in the game For Some Reason. like you cant just. save and quit. idk why that isnt in the game.

sorry for showing you all danganronpa

this has been my most recent video game. my dad went garage sale hunting and came back with two of these so i just stole one out of his boxes and took it home. havent played it yet but it looks cool

my sims games 💪💪💪💪💪💪 yes the fact that skyheroes is on the ps3 does in fact annoy me greatly no i will not tell my lovely mother that at all

ok yeah thats all the ones i want to show. i do have a bunch of other stuff but theyre not that cool

[vaas]

the romance routes in cyberpunk are pretty good i legitimately dont have much i would change except to make pan and river bi but thats it. judy and kerry can stay gays only. anyway. what i Would like are additional romance routes but not like full romance routes like variations on the meredith stout hookup sidequest i want more of those. here are my pitches:

a maelstromer. not picky on who. not even picky on gender i mostly just wanna see what happens i think it would be funny. some kind of led lit hydraulic penis

saul. after rescuing him from the wraiths he wants to show his appreciation. with his body.

placide. i cant justify this one its for me and me alone. i would really like a full romance route with placide but mainly i want like a voodoo boys route for cyberpunk theyre so COOL

johnny. now hear me out. i am aware of the johnny joytoy replacer mods and thats not what i want. i also dont want a romance route because that is the game. i want like. a cool metal fire redux post samurai reunion where johnny like proposes a stupid bet about earning more money in a day busking than v earns doing gigs and the result is like another stupid bender culminating in hands stuff. again i think the potential fallout of this would be hilarious im imagining the morning after conversation and giggling

rogue. PLEASE let me fuck rogue as myself and not johnny PLEASE. mommy girlfriend time. this is after the like movie date with johnny you like awkwardly show up at afterlife with flowers and shes like "for fucks sake. no." and youre like "its just me no johnny i thought it would cheer you up" and shes like "Really." and youre like "yeah really" and shes like "why" and youre like "because I respect you" and shes like "goddammit." and we spend the night drinking together and then make out and i suck her boobies in the back ive thought this over so much. Please. johnny would be so mad.

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[sakumasmut]

also separate thing entirely. my brains going places today lmao. that cosplay rant got me imagining the free use duo anzu and keito getting womb tattoos. temp in keitos case bc idol contracts against body mods or whatever- anzus could also be temp bc i cant see her committing to that kinda thing but hear me out. leo basically designs one with all the crap he writes on her body while fucking. the music staff and notes kinda squished together into a cool design because of the movement happening when it was placed there. she looks at it after like "yknow? this is kinda sexy."

everyone goes fucking WILD. Makoto suddenly cant keep his hands off anzu despite his shyness and now is using her like a toy. kuro now being so attentive to keito and edging him to his limits.

💚

oh this is good. I think it being inspired by leo is pretty funny, and they’d probably use that since imo the popular designs for womb tattoos have really weird meanings to them.

makoto being so turned on by it that he has anzu ride him every chance they get, wanting to etch the way it’s on her skin in his brain before it fades, just in case she doesn’t get it reapplied. also shyly asks her to pose for nude photos for him to keep

and keito…probably is more aware of the connotations since he consumes that type of media, and he gets very turned on just staring at it for too long. kuro notices, and he starts to fuck him in front of a mirror so that keito can watch himself come undone just by looking st his reflection. I’d imagine it’d be even hotter in a training room where all the walls are mirrors

#enstars smut #makoto x anzu smut #anzu smut #keito hasumi smut #keito x kuro smut #thirsts #nsft es!! #💚

[leafbatraccoon]

sims tag game!!

i was tagged by @d4isy-nukes via reading her post oh well lets go

1. What’s your favourite sims death? in ts4: METEOR muahahhah

2. Alpha CC or Maxis Match? if i have to pick, maxis match, but im partial to maxis mix choices

3. Do you cheat when your sims gain weight? not usually, no, but i have done it by tweaking a bit in cas, rarely but i it happened

4. Do you use move objects? fuck yea, love that shit

5. Favorite mod? i loved gem's answers btw absolute same but hum... i really dont know.. the classics, wwhims for attraction system, zerbu's, don't wash dishes where you angry poop, lumpinou's rpo, i really cant pick, i use so many, it's giving me whats ur favourite kid energy

6. First expansion/game/stuff pack you got? GTW yall & i stand by it

7. Do you pronounce “live mode” like aLIVE or LIVing? the wrong way

8. Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made? AGAIN WITH THE CHILD PICKING !!! no but really i can't pick favourites no matter what

9. Have you made a simself? not one that looks like me bc i don't even know what i look like tbh but i made a kind of avatar

10. What sim traits do you give yourself? self-absorbed gloomy geek 🤢

11. Which is your favorite EA hair color? depends on the sim

12. Favorite EA hair? all the sdx ones were pretty dope so far

13. Favorite life stage? the ones that are yet to come eheh

14. Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay? prolly gameplay which in ts4 i rely on mods for a lot, but ts4 made me more confident in building or at least decorating, it's very fun now and in ts2 i used to spend a lot of time in cas and the body shop

15. Are you a CC creator? no, but maybe one day

16. Do you have any simblr friends/a sim squad? i dont think so ?!

17. What’s your favorite game? (1, 2, 3, or 4) ts2&3 for different reasons, i never played the first one tho, i mean i did but not really

18. Do you have any sims merch? a phone charm that came with a promotional magazine for ts3 launch, i cant fine the magazine tho ;(

19. Do you have a YouTube for sims? i wouldn't know what to do with it

20. How has your “sim style” changed throughout your years of playing? i made a lot of long haired blondes with ballroom dresses in my ts2 era for some reason, i dont even know where i was getting cc from, really long hair and ballroom dresses on the toddlers too if you can imagine oh and i had mermaid tails from downloading oher sims so naturally i made a bunch of sirens all the time

21. What’s your Origin ID? i think it's gumbreath now

22. Who’s your favorite CC creator? oh gosh why did i decide to do this ??! humm cant pick one so shout out to @tudtuds merecido

23. How long have you had a simblr? circa 5 months so far

24. How do you edit your pictures? i use gimp the open-source queen, for my spellcaster legacy i was trying to do a scrappy photoset vibe, mystical motherhood im literaly just cropping and since ive reinstalled shaders i just use a preset for stardew moon bc i am nothing if not lazy ig

25. What expansion/game/stuff pack do you want next? none, id like them to fix the game we already have 😘 but if i had to ig faeries for gamepack, travel for expansion (with 3 decent worlds & hotels plz) and literally any stuff pack so they can say they didnt lie to us about it 🤡

25. What expansion/game/stuff pack is your favorite so far? im a sucker for sulani so island living for EP? although the mermaids deserved better, big cottage stan but wish goats and horses were on it so not on the podium & get together still has the best world; paranormal stuff pack by faaaaar, it was the least cash grabby SP ever i thought i was dreaming when they didnt call it a gamepack

ok so that is it, if you read this so far ... why ? /hj im doing the same and tagging whoever sees it IF THEY FEEL LIKE PARTAKING 🤍🤍🤍 OK BYEE

#tag game #raccoon only