#i didnt mean to break down but

[bigfatbreak]

Birds of a Feather previous / next tw: anxiety attack

#as a note that bracelet isnt like a magical ooo anxiety attack cureall #it was the bracelet breaking #their usual stim that helps the calm down and focus #right after talking abt losing emelie #that triggered the feeling of intense loss again #so being able to futz with it again helped them calm down #i mean. they didnt get their aunt back #but they at least got their bracelet back #OH ALSO when they get rlly +++vibes they grit their teeth #which can damage their teeth so they try to chew on the collars of their shirts instead #we've only seen it once before when nino mentioned gabe #also their i tried to add a lil shine to explain but #the bracelet they wear on their right hand has crystal beads #the other has plastic #so it doesnt make the right sound or feel right #anway to wrap this up #nothing like the nostalgia of helping a friend recover from a breakdown after u just had on lmao #feralnette au #my art #felix culpa #marinette dupain cheng #birds of a feather #tw anxiety attack #this update took a bit bc i dipped into my own fun attacks for ref

[aropride]

this post was a game changer for me. thank you ryan reynolds

#text #LIKE. i beat myself up for a WHILE abt my reaction #But what that person did was much worse #& i did not say a single unkind word to them #& if i had a big freak-out break-down on a PRIVATE BLOG that was essentially a diary because i DIDNT KNOW THEY WERE STALKING ME ONLINE ⁉️⁉️⁉ #well i was well within my right to do so. because i should not have been expected to account for their feelings right after what they did #IN MY OWN PRIVATE SPACE. !!!!!!!!! GOD. #and i kept myself in check speaking directly to them & thats all that should have been expected from me. i was allowed to say mean things a #about them in what was essentially a digitsl journal. after they LITERALLY TRAUMATIZED ME ‼️‼️‼️ #Sorry Everyone im finally going back and like processing stuff from years ago due in no small part to the shelby abuse stream #so sry if im complaining abt being traumatized more than usual 😒 #traumablogging

[makotonaegiunderstander]

something I’ve been thinking abt is how many people think Makoto is immune to despair. I don’t think he is. I think becoming the ultimate Hope was BECAUSE he felt despair. He wouldn’t have fully reached that point without Junko. Makoto becoming such a beacon was his last attempt to avoid completely falling and it wasn’t because he didn’t feel despair, it was because he was too damn stubborn to allow everything to go to waste and he refused to sacrifice his beliefs for someone else’s. His inner monologue tells me he DID experience the same new low the other suvivors did in the final trial, but at the point where he had the choice to give up and die, he looked at the others and he looked at Junko and he couldn’t allow it to happen, not out of self preservation, but because the idea that Junko would have control over their lives made him FURIOUS. and that utter refusal to die kicked in, wether luck or otherwise, and he made the concious effort for one last push while something in him was breaking. He had to be broken in order for the Ultimate Hope to come through so aggressively, bc it could only exist in the face of the Ultimate Despair. He snapped the same way she did, but in the other direction. In what could have been his final moments he chose to embody everything Junko wasn’t, and every single optimistic and luck fueled ideal in him suddenly charged forward and pushed him. It was a combination of the final straw and a choice. Makoto isn’t immune to feeling despair, he’s just too stubborn to fall into it of his own volition. I think that’s why I like that scene in DR3 so much. People were SO SHOCKED Makoto actually fell for the tape, that he actually became despair for a moment. I saw people getting mad or disappointed, saying it was pathetic and Makoto seemed to fall from some sort of pedestal for them. Honestly part of me wonders if that sort of mentality, which clearly people had in universe, affected Makoto a bit. Like he started to see himself as less of a person, subconsciously. Prompting him to take more risks, less self preservation, act way more bold. It seems he has to be reminded a lot not to put himself in danger by his friends, to not do something too reckless. All over the place I would see in regards to that scene either this frivolous ‘oh this was just angst drama with no meaning behind it’ or ‘he can do better than that. he’s so weak’ or ‘come on, there’s no way he’d fall into despair, he’s the Ultimate Hope!’ This kind of mentality, which was kind of ironic considering Ryota was there the entire time saying the same thing and treating Makoto the same way. Like Makoto was superhuman. Like Makoto didn’t feel despair the same way ‘normal people’ did. In a way that was also how Munakata saw Makoto. Makoto stopped being a PERSON to the world when he became Ultimate Hope, he became a concept, a belief system, much the same way Junko ascended beyond herself. But the difference is that treating Makoto that way is the opposite of the reason Makoto became such a representative for hope. He wasn’t doing something no one else could. He was doing something everyone had the chance to, he just… was a little more optimistic, a little more stubborn, a little more ‘gung-ho’ about things. He just took the lead where no one else did, where no one else knew they even COULD in the face of Junko’s unstoppable force. She had overcome the biggest threats and obstacles in the world, what could one person do? And the answer Makoto found was, anything. Everything. It doesn’t all rest on Makoto, he’s just the one that was inspired to try to do what seemed like the impossible. But as evidenced by the change in his friends after that trial, it’s clearly not something only Makoto is capable of. The others pulled out of despair thanks to Makoto, but it was their choice to do so.

“But… this world is so huge, and we’re so small. What can we do…? No, we can probably do anything. Yeah! We can do anything!”

#makoto naegi #Danganronpa character analysis #Danganronpa #danganronpa thh #danganronpa future arc #I fucking love Makoto Naegi man. #I think there’s a fine line of nuance to Makoto that’s easy to miss bc he doesn’t really make it known #he’s not a pushover and he’s not overpowered. he’s a people pleaser but he will say what needs to be said #he’s an immovable object and the exact opposite of Junko but he’s also just a normal guy who’s optimistic and (un)lucky #he isn’t invincible but he has immense power to his words the same way Junko did #if anything his superpower is being kind above all else. he’s compassionate to some of the worst people in the world. #he was even conpassionatr to an extent to Junko. he didnt want her to kill herself despite everything she’s done #and he still acknowledges that for years she was a classmate and friend. #I do think the more he learned abt what she did the more he’s come to actually hate her though #post the first game he always refers to her without a suffix to her name which is one of the most subtle rude things you can do #it means you have zero respect for the person you’re referring to #and he speaks about her with some venom he doesn’t use for anyone else in the future arc #he’s not incapable of feeling negative emotions #I really liked the future arc scene bc it showed that Makoto DID experience enough despair to have overcome him if he didn’t refuse #and that it still affects him deeply. people treat him like he’s either this perfect ideal Chad or this baby chick who’s so delicate #and no one really focuses on how makoto shoulders so much and yet is still vulnerable. #honestly that guy was DUE for a mental breakdown even without the tape. it would have happened eventually #I actually wrote one based on him finally hitting a breaking point after giving so much of himself away and keeping nothing for himself #that his issues that he shoves down constantly finally can’t be held down anymore. Hajime helps him bc he knows how that feels #it was a LONG time ago that I wrote that but honestly if I can remember where i was going w it I might finish it #it was initially an rp but I could make it a fic #anyway. the point is Makoto is SO much more complex than people give him credit for #the most fundamental thing about him is that he’s normal and that’s ok! that’s what helps him rise!

[azuries]

'cause boys don't cry

#hello. #sorry for my last post :( heres a way to make up for it :D #byler #mike wheeler #will byers #stranger things #you heard of mike hugging and comforting will now get ready for vice versa. you aint ready for this!!!1 #piano arts #anyway in this scenario i just wanna imagine maybe mike asking will to meet in the swings #mike is sitting on one swing inviting will on the other and asking him to listen to boys dont cry with him with a walkman he has on the sid #the music plays in the bg along with the crickets #the boys listen in silence until mike breaks the silence and starts reminiscing about the time between them #and starts to contemplate how things got so complicated so fast #and will coild only agree and explaining that he was right. its nc they werent kids anymore.. and change is inevitable #making mike go back to their fight in s3 #mike starts breaking down in front of will with his head on his hands slumped over and he starts apologizing #he starts apologizing profusely to will with how hes been acting and hurting him #even when he didnt mean to #and he explains how hes confused. so so confused #and he doesnt know what to do #will could do nothing but listen and bring him into a hug as the last verse of boys dont cry plays #and they remain like that for the entire night #basking in each others presence.

[hightro]

#my art #dbz #fanart #goku #hes crying because vegeta didnt give him a kissy #to be real though I feel like in my head he doesn't cry very often and when he does he doesn't really even know he's doing it until #he can't see through the tears #like getting so frustrated or angry or upset that it just happens #thinking of him catching himself doing it and then kind of breaking down and ugly sobbing #hes not ugly but you know what i mean #just letting it out #either that or laughing it off and being like 'oops! Hahaha'

[hanzajesthanza]

the headcanon that regis can hang from the ceiling to sleep or rest like a bat is funny on its own, but when i consider geralt and others in the hanza holding conversations with him like this, it’s made better by my understanding of this as just an advanced “neurodivergent sitting” technique

#in an irl au i suppose he could be doing an upside down yoga pose. that would fit irl au regis well. ugh #the better headcanon is angoulême walking in their room. going ‘[head nod up] cahir. where—‘ #and cahir (not looking up) points to the ceiling on the other side of the room. also in total darkness btw no candles lit on that side #i imagine that when someone else walks to their room’s door and knocks. for example let’s say dandelion for instance #dandelion’s hardly a stranger but he did that thing where your friend stops hanging out with you because they’re busy with their gf #he knocks and immediately regis is suddenly sitting in bed like a normal person . and he put his eyeglasses on and pretended to read #oh hi dandelion i didnt recognize your footsteps #my… footsteps? #this is actually kind of bullshit though because the only person more talkative than dandelion at night is regis (angouleme close third) #so if dandelion ever wanted to discuss meaning of life at 2 am i know where he would go #sorry cahir. put a pillow over your ear #the elbow-high diaries #edit: no actually he would bother geralt with this #edit edit: no actually he and geralt were ‘on a break’ (unresolved tension) so he wouldn’t. but he would want to #angoulême goes to their room too often to chill and hang out #milva goes to their room and cahir and regis stand at attention like yes ma’am. what do you need #hi milva how are things ​(your ongoing mental health crisis) #if geralt walks in starts talking with regis. cahir leaves the room. ‘im going to um. check on the horses’ #its 12 am. horses are sleeping. ? answer; he is being a considerate roommate. he had to share bunks before. he knows how It Is

[marsdemo]

i dont take selfies often so here's a dirty mirror pic from valentines day and then 2 doodles of my outfits from when i went to back to back trans noise shows the weekend before all my finals were due

#happy tdov i love you smile #first show was so fucked up because i didnt mean to bring my jacket over but i was walking to the venue and forgot to leave it in my studio #MISTAKE. i had a longsleeve under it and a tank .... fucking sweating bullets in the pit all night it was so gross. but like can u blame me #it was cold as fuck on the walk because this was like mid december #second show of that weekend was so awesome though i had a ride and it was raining too so we could take a break between sets to cool off #got covered all over in bruises that night. and then i went back to my studio on campus and sat my ass down and started writing for the #zine i posted today. wheeeeee. ''we're still here'' on the poster back was referencing my fave song / album by hirs collective btw.. show 2

[what-is-it-to-be-pk-esque]

Lmfaooooo I am dying at Halsin just starting act 3 horny on main and straight up asking to be in a thruple, like, bro lmao

Everything about this interaction and the one right after if you decide to ask Astarion about it is gold 💀💀💀 his fucking Halsin impression haha

I so wonder what the others have to say if you're romancing them and get propositioned by the bear hahaha I'll bet it's great

#baldur's gate 3 spoilers #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #bg3 spoilers #i mean i know people go this route and it's fine #but it just was hilarious to me #Astarion #Halsin #you better believe i saved and reloaded to see every which way this could go #but im not gonna try and woo the bear #he didnt even ask Astarion about it yet and is out here ready for him to join in one day lollllll my dude my guy pls simmer down #plus my half elf tav?? that dude is a giant he would break them both in two 💀💀💀 #now Dame Aylin and Isobel?? that's a thruple I'd consider hahaha #the bear aint for me but way too intense moon ladies seem like a great time lmfao #also while im rambling in the tags: Astarion asking if its because they haven't been intimate in a while? 🥺🥺 #oof pls reassure this man he's special 😭🥺💕

[synthsays]

The Brown Estate

" Emmett L. Brown, last surviving member of the Brown family after the events of the fire."

#tw: fire #ik i was JUST like “aw why where they so mean to him?” *procedes to give him more trauma through an AU* #mcflyjuly #“The brown estate” if it was what I thought actually happened w/ it burning down etc. #sorry about that Doc <:) #poor doc #bttf is such a goofy silly haha movie were nothing bad wver gappens to the main characters #back to the future #bttf #back to the future fanart #emmett brown #marty mcfly #doc brown #so I can think of a couple of reason the firw would've started in the 30s #1. Edna took the break up too personally #2. something in Emmett's lab went rougue and caused a fire #3. the oven was left on or something more likely ig #slay #just pretend tumblr didnt destory the quality ;-; #back to the future telltale #back to the future art #back to the future the game #doctor emmett brown #bttf art #bttf fanart #bttf au #art :p #harassynth is a federal crime mr corleone

[bananonbinary]

the ideas around "mental fitness" surrounding the military is fascinating to me. like, they have mandatory counselors and shit and send you home if you're too unpredictable, but part of the express purpose of basic training is to destroy you mentally and condition you to follow orders without question. "break you down and build you up again." they want you broken, but in a very specific way where they can use you, and if you break in any other ways, THEN they declare you "unfit."

as if seeing and actively causing death every day could possibly leave anyone mentally okay. as if following orders blindly even when you know it's morally contemptible isn't an obviously wildly unhealthy mindset. as if it's even POSSIBLE to try and cultivate that mindset above all else AND promote "mental fitness."

#anyway im very much a pacifist if it wasnt obvious #humans arent built to do war. even seeing ONE death fucks you up severely #our minds cant handle being surrounded by it like that #and yes obviously that means more for the civilians of countries ravaged by war #but im not trying to say 'uwu poor soldiers' i am trying to say it simply is not tenable #ive never heard of a soldier that didnt have ptsd its literally part of the job that people break down after a short while #and you need to replace them with more #this is not specific to the american military either #its the one im most familiar with but zero militaries are able to be a death machine AND mentally okay

[lexa-griffins]

You said that Alycia yelling gifs reminded you of post miscarriage farm Lexa. Care to share?

Right before they reach the end of their rope and Clarke gets Lexa in therapy by force, they have a fight - honestly it might be THE fight of their relationship. It had reached a point where both of them thought that maybe this was it for their marriage.

Lexa reached a point in her grief that seeing Clarke be the mom that is laughing and trying to make sure their kids are fine almost as a betrayal because Lexa is still grieving so hard and in her eyes it's like Clarke doesn't even care about the fact they lost a baby. And Lexa hates herself even harder for feeling like this because she knows Clarke is trying to keep their family together and functional but at the same time it feels like a reflection of Lexa's lack of ability to not be constantly suffering because of her miscarriage. She carried twins two years ago, had another two healthy and successful pregnancies before that and the blame for being unable to carry this one and being unable to care for her kids are eating her alive and turning it into anger towards the world and Clarke - something she had never, ever felt before, she had never blamed Clarke for anything that had gone wrong in their life.

One day, around maybe 2 months after the miscarriage, Lexa finds the energy to help Clarke clean up the kitchen after the kids have gone to bed. It feels almost normal again for a minute there, Clarke has this small smile on her face being able to just have this time with her wife again and then she talks. And Lexa doesn't know if its the fact Clarke talks about how Madi's teacher complimented her work on a project Lexa didn't even know she had been assigned, or the fact Clarke sounds so happy when she talks or maybe she just needed something to be her tipping point, but she's yelling - asking if Clarke is calling her a bad parent, why won't Clarke cry the same she does, how does Clarke not feel as empty with this as she does. It's unfair that Lexa feels so alone in this pain that is now the only thing that attacks her thoughts. How is Clarke able to move on and Lexa has to be alone with the guilt and grief of losing their baby and not being capable of caring for her other kids?! Does Clarke blame her as much as she blames herself for this?

And Clarke has been so patient; she's been avoiding making Lexa feel like she is letting their kids down or that she needs help but Lexa isn't sleeping or eating, she barely talks at all and Saige as even asked Clarke if they are ever gonna have mommy back again - and she's 4! She tries to calm Lexa down at first but when Lexa accuses her of not caring for the baby they lost she loses it and yells back, because she has been burying her grief as she tries to take care of everything around the farm, trying to be everyone's rock and the one they can't count on because she knew Lexa would need the time to process the miscarriage but now it's been weeks and she has not been allowed to grief yet because if she does who is gonna take care of their kids?! How does Lexa want her to even cry when she has the twins clinging to her because they are so young and their mommy suddenly vanished emotionally for them?

It's the very first time Clarke ever leaves the house after getting this mad. She just grabs the truck keys and leaves. It's also the first night in weeks Lexa spends more worried about where Clarke might be than being swallowed alive by her own grief.

Lexa wakes up the next day scared Clarke wont be home yet and terrified she might be because Lexa cannot see a way out of this. They spent so many years building a home and a family and this might be it for them. She expects Clarke to not speak to her, maybe serve her divorce papers and leave with the kids. But when she gets down to the kitchen, the dishes they didn't finish last night neatly put away, she finds Clarke pouring herself a cup of coffee. Her face is puffy and she has dark circles around her eyes but the determination on her face nearly makes Lexa cry - yup, this is it for them, she's sure of it. When Clarke sees her she asks her to sit. She doesn't smile but there is warmth in her voice that makes Lexa do as she asks. With a cup of tea in front of her - green and steeped to perfection as Clarke always manages to - Lexa stares at the papers Clarke put in front of her.

She shakes her head no.

"It's for the best Lexa."

"I will not sign this Clarke."

"Grief therapy is the bes-"

"I don't need therapy." Lexa states. It's a final.

Clarke tenses her jaw for a second, releasing it just a moment later with a deep breath. She knew it would not be something that Lexa would agree to easily but after a late night talk with Anya and her mom, they both agreed to help if it came to it.

"Yes you do Lexa. What you are going through right now is not healthy."

"I am grieving the lost of a child Clarke." Lexa is becoming tense and Clarke can almost see her defenses going up. There is a million things Clarke could say, remind her the baby they lost was not a child yet, not the same way their children are, the ones who are living and breathing and need their mother. Tell her how everyone is worried about her, how much weight she's lost in such a short time, how she does little more than stare at the wall in their room they have repainted every time they are expecting a new baby.

Instead, she chocks back a cry, "Lexa... we need you here with us."

"I am here." Lexa all but whispers. Isn't she? She hasn't left.

This time, Clarke lets the tears flow, "No love. No you're not."

#letter opened #farm clexa #IM SORRY I DIDNT MEAN TO MAKE THIS AN ANGST FEST!!! #BUT THIS PLOT POINT IS VERY SAD #and that gif of Lexa yelling just made me thing of her breaking down because of this #kay bye :)

[designernishiki]

The Kiwami Millennium Tower showdown definitely ended with Kiryu being shaken awake by Haruka, who frantically pulls him over to Nishiki, half-buried in rubble and in a pool of his own blood, and Kiryu carrying a badly injured Nishiki out of the building to safety and still holding him close and not letting go when Nishiki regains consciousness in his arms and starts to weakly struggle against his grip, gives up, and breaks down sobbing, clutching Kiryu’s shirt and pleading to him–

“Please don’t do this– please don’t force me to live with this– just end it. I don’t deserve to live, I don’t want your mercy or your pity– it wasn’t supposed to go like this. I failed– I fail at everything– I even failed at ending my own life. I’ve hurt and betrayed everyone I’ve ever cared about and been a burden on everyone I’ve ever known. I’ll never be enough. Why the hell are you trying to save me? What the hell is there to save? Let me do one useful thing for once in my life and leave me to bleed out like I should. Please, Kazuma.”

And with teary eyes squeezed shut, his head down, Kiryu holds him so tightly to his chest it makes Nishiki’s burns sting and tells him,

“Everyone hurt you, and I left you to hurt alone. I broke our promise. I should’ve never left you to cross the line alone. I was supposed to be there for you, and I wasn’t– but I’m here now and I’m not letting you go. Never again. I need you here. I want you here. Just being here is enough, Akira. I promise.”

And Nishiki gives into his instinctive need to just cling to him and cry, as if making up for years of pent-up tears he’s forced himself not to shed out of an intense fear of vulnerability. He does what he should’ve done a long time ago, fakes his death, and leaves the yakuza life behind in favor of something more mundane, but something that’s actually him– something that allows him to accept himself as he is rather than being forced to live up to the impossible standards of others.

Trust me this is absolutely how it went. The End.

#didnt mean for this to be like. a miniature fic but. oops #also feel free to take this as platonic or romantic its really not important the point still stands #nishiki #kiryu #akira nishikiyama #kazuma kiryu #nishikiryu #yakuza kiwami #yakuza kiwami spoilers #cw suicidal ideation #i just. i want them to make up. and i want nishiki to break down crying. and i want him to be told hes enough. gaghghfgdhghh #long post #like legit tho. narratively speaking. i think just blowing up nishiki and having that be the end of it is... so much missed potential and #definitely not the most satisfying and emotionally engaging way of going about nishiki's overall story #something about suicidal characters being put up against horrible odds and struggling and in the end just being left to die without #anyone ever truly getting through to them that they are enough and deserve to exist and etc– at least enough to back away from the #ledge so to speak. idk. i just. dont like it #no one wants to see a character suffer like that for so long while being shown Clearly the causes of their self loathing and what Made them #fall as far as they have into self destruction- thus knowing they truly WANT to live. they just dont believe being happy or feeling content #is ever possible for them based on what they've been told and what they've gone through. and then watch them successfully kill themselves i #in an act of volatility and hostility essentially affirming that they'll forever be remembered for being malicious and as horrible as #they believe themselves to be and etc etc etc #sorry im rambling here #but #it just. i dont know man i just dont like it. and like i said its just. theres so much wasted potential for character growth and a more #well-rounded story overall....... sigh

[way-too-cool-raybot]

What in the HOLY HELL did I miss in the sam and max fandom. Did a reddit mod actually ban gay shipping are you serious

#in the gay people series?? #i didnt think straight and/or homophobic people were in this fandom #well. i mean thats what i avoid reddit for #i literally took a mini break from social media and this is what i get #how about you watch sam and max gay moments youtube video and calm down huh #text #sam and max

[batcavescolony]

I feel like people who say Tim 'stole' Robin from Jason's still warm body or act like his first option was to be Robin have just never actually read A lonely place of dying. Tim's plan was to get Dick to be Robin again, Bruce wasn't stable. He changed, becoming Robin was Tim's LAST ditch effort to help his heroes. He wouldn't have done it if their was another way.

#Jason IS an unreliable narrative! he was DEAD. his knowledge of the events that happened was from Talia. #comics #dc comics #robin #tim drake #batman #bruce wayne #dick grayson #red robin #jason todd #nightwing #a lonely place of dying #batfam #batman comics #Tim the king of parasocial relationships. the riddler could NEVER Tim made his parasocial relationship a reality #i mean he does have the added benefit of being a black haired child with absent parents BUT STILL #He didnt pull 'the Batman' riddler and blow up gotham #Tim: batman NEEDS a Robin look at him hes haveing a break down! #Jason: ⚰️⚰️⚰️ #Dick: FUCK no! i got my own gig now with a cool outfit and own city #Tim: shit..... well i guess i could do it? I mean its not like im doing anything? #*jason is an unreliable NARRATOR. when will tumblr let us edit tags? #batcavescolony reads comics

[bootlegfrank]

Me: supposed to be working on my presentation

My brain: mmmhhhmmm wanna eat Mikey Way

#let me perform the heart valve replacement surgery im researching on you boy #i promise ill do it minimally invasive i promise i wont break your sternum in two and rip your chest open to touch your heart i promise #what do you mean howd you get that scar yes i know it runs down the entirety of your chest no thats just how you do it #no i promise i didnt tear your chest apart #mikey way #.violence

[thestarkster1465]

Listen if we don't have Tessa and Jem going absolutely full murder mode after this then what's the point

I want them to be so scary when they find who took her that even Julian takes a step back and is like- "hol' up, I get called ruthless but these guys are off the fucking rails-"

IT IS THE ONLY THING THAT WILL MAKE IT ALL BETTER OKAY

#BURN THE WORLD DOWN BITCHES #i asked for angst in tsc once because there were 'no real consequences' BUT I DIDNT MEAN THIS #mina is OFF LIMITS #herongraystairs ARE OFF LIMITS #give my babies a break #they need it after 150 years #sobh #secrets of blackthorn hall #tessa gray #jem carstairs #jessa #mina carstairs #herongraystairs #because they're always together #otp: ever and always exactly right