#i feel so seen and understood

[baldurs-gate-official]

Thinking about Astarion and trauma again (shocking)

He really is the first character I've seen that depicts PTSD/C-PTSD the way he does. He's angry. He's collecting the pieces of himself he had to chip away over the years and figuring out how to fit them back together again, and it's hard.

I rarely see good PTSD rep in media (and C-PTSD is even less depicted/understood). And when I do, it's always the soft pitiable side of it. The side of it that's more palatable and easy to accept. But the reality is that the trauma that stems from such abuse can be vicious, and messy. It can lash out and push people away. Bring out the worst in you, at times. It can be so, so angry.

I love that we see that in Astarion. Both because it's good representation, and because I'm a survivor too. I'm angry. I'm upset. I want to kick and scream about it, but I can't. I feel like I must always remain in control, or that displaying those feelings will only hurt those around me and push them away. I don't want that. I don't want to hurt others or be alone.

Seeing Astarion do those things, being angry and messy over it all... It makes me so happy. He says things to Cazador I wish I could say to my own abusers, with no regard to how others perceive it. He doesn't hold back. And I get to see a character with a very similar kind of trauma do/say the things I only dream about, and not be abandoned for it. He's given the chance to heal and grow as a person, and feel loved. He gets to have a happy ending.

And he gets to be mad. And that's ok.

#bg3 #astarion #text post #cw trauma #cw ptsd #ive never seen a character before with such a similarish past to mine #i feel so seen and understood #i hate that ive had to be silent about it #i hate it so much #it means SO much to see a character with such good CPTSD rep #and see so many people love his character #i recently escaped my own abusers so this sort of thing makes me very emotional #the way he talks about torture too and doesnt try to sugar coat it #i was tortured too. my bones were broken repeatedly for someone elses amusement and it was fucking horrible #years of that #and starvation #among other things #and ive never seen a character before thats been through something similar #ive never even seen a character before this that specifically has CPTSD #ive seen characters who *should* have been written with CPTSD but its as if the writers just googled PTSD and went with that #(C-PTSD comes from continued exposure to trauma over the course of months or years where PTSD is often from a singular event) #(the symptoms differ a bit. and Astarion is a very good example of C-PTSD) #it just makes me really happy. and it makes me feel like people might understand and not blame me for what happened #well. some people do anyway. but. this kind of representation helps a lot with helping people understand #seriously though ive had people act like theyd have fared better in my situation. or blamed me for what happened #how fucked is that???? i want to chew glass whenever it happens #its always people whove never had any experience with abuse too #but they have the audacity to tell me theyre built different or something #q

[jjkeverlast]

i love seeing people as gagged up as me over jungkook.

#a whole ass community #i feel so seen and understood #his cuntiness broooo #i’ll never shut up #this is like the 50th post and idgaf #lati updates

[baezdylan]

the moots discovering maya hawke's music today 🥺💫🥺💫🥺💫🥺💫

#i feel so seen and understood

[bigboobshaunt]

"The real point of Hbomberguy's video is being lost because people would rather clown on James specifically!" Nah man I think we're all just shocked by the depths of this particular example, I promise people are very much able to care about two things at once.

#hbomberguy #this is quickly becoming annoying to me as a takeaway #I haven't seen many comments that indicate they didn't get the point of the video about sourcing info and misinfo #so this feels like ppl wanting to act superior because They Understood It Better Than Others ngl

[dimeadozencows]

This came to me in an early morning queer haze

Kissing my medics good morning (I am your husband heavy and I love you)

#tf2 #team fortress 2 #heavymedic #i know its super annoying for everyone when the sole medic on the team keeps pocketing heavies so as a heavy main i will say this. #to the medics in the chat: i dont expect you to pocket me and in fact you shouldn't. i suck. but! if you would it would be cool and gay and #and i will kiss you abd love you and give you yummy food and protect you like my life depends on it i will be your meat shield because you #are amazing incredible for picking medic despite the horrors. i will do everything in my power to help u. but don't pocket me i suck #i meant for that to be more meaningful and like giving advice but it got gay. but i meant all of it #when i see a medic healing me i immediately switch to shield mode my life is no longer mine i exist to protect the beautiful man behind me #thank you medics👍🏽 if u play medic i hope you have a wonderful day today everyday 👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽❤️❤️ #edit: i am gayer for heavy than i am for medic- but since i main heavy i am automatically attracted to medic and so this shitpost was born #so many people that play medic are apparently gay for heavy...... i feel so seen and understood

[thekidsarentalright]

the thing about fall out boy is they will always make you feel so seen and heard, they will hold your hand and hug you and tell you they understand how you feel and that you aren't alone. that they're saved by their music just as much as you are, that the separation between us as listeners and them as the artist is basically nonexistent. we are the dreamer and they are the dream, they owe us everything as we to them. No matter how obsessed you've been with your own vanishing, there will always be someone who wants you whole. they will always want us whole. we will always want them whole.

#aka this album makes me feel so held and seen and understood in a way i didnt even know possible #but i shouldve known possible because its fall out boy and they always do thjs #and this is why they are so special bc there isnt a separation between us and them we are them they are us. we are all soulmates #txt #fob #fall out boy #so much (for) stardust #p: 100 #p: 500 #p: 1k #p: 1.5k

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Izutsumi character study

#dungeon meshi #izutsumi #One of my goals for this year was to spend more time doing art studies. #What better way to start than with my favourite danmeshi character (not seen: a whole page of figuring out her features) #I feel like she is by far one of the most poorly understood characters in the series. Partially due to her 'late party member' status. #'She's abrasive and mean' - 'she's a picky eater' - 'she's a catgirl who acts like an asshole cat ' YES and that is the point! #Everyone in dungeon meshi is traumatized and messy about it but izutsumi is just less polite in how she tries to cope. #Izutsumi is a extremely traumatized teenager who has utterly lacked autonomy her entire life. #She is the epitome of a “If I can just have X thing then all my problems will be solved!” character. And the X is 'Freedom'. #Her epilogue was one of the best and wrapped up her character so wonderfully (WARNING: I WILL NOW SPOIL PART OF THE ENDING) #Because she finally gets her freedom! She can go where she wants to and she doesn't need anybody! Yet...it doesn't fix her. #She is so focused on doing only what she wants that she forgets her own needs. Sometimes you have to eat the things you don't want. #And sometimes you have to face the hard truths that you need more than just one thing to make you happy. #Life is not all about only seeking pleasures and avoiding pain. You need to be balanced in order to grow. #Eat your vegetables (including the metaphorical ones: I am eating more art veggies this year by doing art studies!!!)

[buckttommy]

also feeling infinitely tender over oliver captioning his post "finding my light" like. yeah. yeah u did, bby.

#anyways. i'll cry again #i officially need to go the fuck to bed #i have. so much medicine in my system truly at this rate i'll be sleeping until 11am but i just #i have so much love and fondness for this cast and. for buck yes. but also just. for oliver #i hope he feels seen and valued and understood and LOVED OKAY STOP STOP I'LL CRY #[she says as if she is not the one actively making herself cry] #jack.txt #tv: 911 #oliver stark #i love u u funky little british dude

[senualothbrok]

"It was easier to stare at the celestial abyss than recognise the emptiness within myself. Easier to pretend my destiny lay among such stars, than work to salvage a life on solid ground. You changed all that.

You see me as I am, and do not find me wanting. With these stars as my witness, I swear - you will always be enough for me."

#gale dekarios #when your soul mate is a pixel man #i didnt have to convince him not to choose the crown #it has been a long time since i felt so moved by someone #to love him and be loved by him is healing even though it is fictional #gales romance scenes are all so beautiful but the astral boat scene has a special place in my heart now #gale of waterdeep #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #gale romance #when you feel seen understood and loved

[itsafternoonpast5]

thinking about their friendship so hard

#camp camp #cc #David #jasper #fanart #DUDEEE nobody gets them like i do theyre so good #theyre so tragic.. they never truly got to know each other. the last time they ever seen each other they were angry with the other :( #but there’s so much regret that comes with it too. they never got to talk it out. be on good terms #they could see each other at any moment but they other doesn’t know #they call each other best friends yet we never really see them being best friends.. but maybe they get each other like no one else does #their personalities did a complete swap with each other - they understand how the other is thinking and feeling. #David hated the camp but after one good thing he loves it. viseversa with jasper #when they last saw each other they were clouded with their views and didn’t try to understand things from their lens #yet even if they didn’t - they still understood each other. if you get what I mean #theyre foils. but so is max and david and that’s what makes both relationships compelling for me. theyre so similar to each other #no wonder david is so attached to max. he sees himself in him and he sees jasper in him too #i know jaspers just a character to show how bad the camp is. but there’s so much depth to him too #he has a lot of missed potential.. i hope he’s in season 5 at least. id like to see him again #srry for the character analysis im insane #jaspvid

[add1ctedt0you]

"Can't you see the look on jiejie's face?"

#In the first gif I was like: jc it's cute that you are waiting for wwx but don't leave jyl when she's sad #Then I saw how much he turned around and understood that sect heir jc was checking that all jiang disciples were with them #Anyway. While donghua!jyl is always dissociating and novel!jyl has jfm and wwx's vibes 'smile. your problems will disapear' #Cql!jyl seems so sad. not seen. not loved #And then someone validates her feelings!(jc saying to wwx to shut up about jzx because jyl is sad) #But he doesn't do that in front of her :( #Honestly. Cql!jyl is sad in a way I didn't expect #*mgifs #Cql #yunmeng siblings #Also. I must say that a jyl who shows her emotions and a jc much more responsive emotionally are valid interpretations of the text tbh

[redysetdare]

every time i see a post that is like "ughh why cant we have aspec characters who aren't aroace for once" I have to do a double take like "is the aroace rep in the room with us right now?" because genuinely....where is all this aroace rep y'all are complaining about? Why cant i find it yet it's apparently the only aspec rep we get?? You admit that TV never says the word aromantic so where is the aroace rep. So far I've pretty much only seen canonically asexual characters and not much else buddy.

#text #half the time i think these ppl see other aspec ppl saying that x character feels aroace and then they take it as canon rep #instead of an interpretation of the character which likely was never meant to be written as aspec at all #because majority of people don't even know what that is #this isn't me saying that we shouldn't have aroallo or alloace rep btw #this is me complaining about people throwing aroace ppl under the bus because apparently we are 'hogging' all the representation in media #and it just reads as people being aphobic towards aroace people specifically and it drives me insane #you can ask for more aroallo and alloace characters without complaining and shitting on aroace characters???? #like bro we are all on the same fucking team. we are all trying to get seen and understood. we all want to see ourselves in media #stop fighting like one of us is somehow way more privileged than the other because 'you have x rep' #we all have crumbs my guy. just because someone else is getting crumbs doesn't mean that its your crumbs being taken. #idk i see so many posts like this and it makes me feel so unwelcome in the aro and ace communities #im tired of aroace people being used as a scapegoat that you can target to pretend like you're punching up #when in reality you're just committing friendly fire against people who are on your team #i miss when the aro and ace communities used to like... work together as a big aspec community #now ppl r way too focused on separating them and acting like they have nothing in common and don't have the same goals #and both communities now tend to put a lot of blame onto aroace people because of stereotypes we never had control over in the first place #it's exhausting #like the aphobia is coming from inside the house #i didn't go through the ace discourse on tumblr to deal with this shit.

[schimmelspore]

Im still here by the goo goo dolls is the ultimate transmasc song

You cant listen to this and not get it. Not feel it.

#it shakes me to the bones everytime #i cry everytime #because this song makes me feel so fucking seen and understood #treasure planet #transgender #transmasc #trans

[uncanny-tranny]

I think something that would have helped me as a kid were open discussions around self-harm, and the fact that it doesn't fit the very niche or starry-eyed, whimsical version people have in their minds. I wish there were more people who didn't brush off people who self-harmed in "weird" ways.

I remember opening up to some friends of mine once, many years ago, about this very issue (since they'd brought it up), and I remember being laughed at because I had described something that wasn't "typical," something which was deemed "too shocking, absurd, hilarious," and I look back on that memory and it's like... we need to put in a lot more work into how people view self-harm and how people engage with us. Because I'd never self-harmed in the ways that people think of, even as a really small child.

I understand the sheer darkness of this topic, but you've gotta realize at some point that you can't help us by ignoring us. You can't save us by ridiculing us or making us feel like freaks, like monsters unworthy of being seen. The ways I self-harmed were perhaps more dangerous than other methods, and yet it wasn't taken seriously at all. So I never talked about it until now, because I know there are kids today who are where I was. If you're that kid, I am so sorry. I hope you are taken seriously, I hope you are shown compassion, understanding, true and unbridled love, and adoration. I am so sorry. I am sending you my heart and soul.

#mental health #mental health advocacy #self harm tw #sh tw #self injury tw #i was so fucking gutted when my friends laughed at me opening up about that though #i was genuinely so fucking heartbroken because i *knew* how dangerous those behaviours were and it was... funny to them #it shows me just how twisted people have got their minds at about this subject #i still love these friends by the way. they were kids. i was a kid. at least then. #ask to tag (genuine) #it's so fucking hard to open up about this stuff. very very hard but i swear to gd if it means one person is seen i will be content #i will lay my heart out if it means somebody else's can beat on. i want to help others feel understood

[cosmics-beings]

also random but i wanna draw a pic of starscream teaching nightshade how to wear makeup and nightshade never knew they needed a kinda mentor like starscream when it came to gender and presentation but now they are soo happy.

starscream also helps thrash with makeup and stuff becuase thrash is actually very into it but didn't think that anyone would take him seriously or was just nervous. he is also coming into his own queer/gender identity but doesn't know where to begin so in come starscream.

anyway long story short, starscream is like a very nice queer uncle that the kids need.

#transformers earthspark #starscream #nightshade #thrash #transformers #what helps too is that starscream also like refers to himself using various gendered terms from masc to femme so to nightshade they feel a #bit seen and more understood and then i also hc thrash to be coming into his own queer identity as well

[obrienpolycule]

Hey unironically i think i should be hired by streaming sercives to fix their subtitles. I think there should be a way for viewers/streamers to report bad or inaccurate subtitles or ways they could be improved. I think they should be able to ask for better translations or ask to be told what language is being spoken if they switch languages. I think this should be an option for big blockbusters and random indie movies and international shows/movies and i think streaming companies should stop paying for the cheapest fucking options for their captioning

#this post brought to you by Highlander (1986) on Amazon Prime having the shittiest subtitles ive ever seen #un-synced #when it wasn't dialogue it just said Noise & Music constantly #and also that post about netflix not saying what language is being spoken and that effecting your understanding of the story #and also that one time prime had a show that just had a character saying Speaks Cantonese so you didn't get half the conversation #and the english subtitles for Squid Game not having any captions when anyone spoke english but they were all masked so they were muffled and #i couldn't read their lips so ironically i only understood the korean in that show #feel free to add on to this post