#i guess im cursed now

[biruesque]

i saw the pinkest bike in existence so naturally, i had to...

#revolutionary girl utena #rgu #shoujo kakumei utena #sku #tenjou utena #utena tenjou #utena #himemiya anthy #anthy himemiya #anthy #utenanthy #utenthy #utena x anthy #anthy x utena #biruesque art #doodle #i guess this is a curse now whenever i see a pink vehicle #im like omg utena........... #idk shes so iconic

[lunian]

just chilling and suddenly brain hits with the thought that what if I fcked up something in Gale's romance route and he may leave my Tav in the end to try to become dumbass god anyway (so to die like a total fool)

im too far from finishing this playthrough to figure it out so I'm just.... gonna be very cautious and afraid all this time, I guess

#so huh #was very neutral on the run all this time and only pretty soft on him to change his mind so..... im not sure how strongly he left his plans #and can i change somethibg in future #at least never suggested him to forsake mystra or get a crown for himself only questioning him each time and saying that i love him as he is #??? i guess thats enough for now #ugh #stupid anxiety #about damn game #.... at least my sorcerer tav will be def disappointed in wizards forever and ever and curse them all wow what a story #mystuff

[asteria7fics]

So here I am, minding my business on the clock app when this comes across my FYP.

People like me cannot have this information. The temptation is simply too great.

#i guess im rereading romeo and juliet now #fic idea though? #like them as kids doing the play #maybe Kenny learns some things about himself #and dont get me started on Stan and Kyle's roles #this is a curse #fic ideas #saving for later #south park #craig tucker #kenny mccormick #stan marsh #kyle broflovski

[hella1975]

hiiii haha. hello. exceptionally awkward introduction bc idrk how to start something like this so let's just jump right in. im taking a break from this account for a bit. i know i said i wanted taob out before halloween and currently im fine sticking with that deadline, but if i decide i need longer away then i will take longer away. every time ive reassured people that id never abandon a fic and updates will always come eventually i never once considered that my writing and ability to feel safe and comfortable on this site would be actively taken from me, so im not even going to apologise. i dont want this either and more importantly i dont fucking deserve it. i dont know what it is in the past year, if ive hit a certain amount of followers or 'popularity' that's made it so the natural ratio of positive to negative interactions must in turn go up, but there's been a serious uptick in weird asks for me. the annoying part is that a very small amount of them are actually objectively mean and hateful, the rest are just weird and invasive from people who seemingly dont realise that's what they're being. ive reached a point where i dont care if the intentions are good. it's not my job as a 20 year old tumblr user of all things to defend the morality of someone who couldnt even bother to come off anon. unfortunately, after blocking only one or two anons, the weird asks have decreased substantially, which says all you need to know about the fascinating and exhilarating lives led by these people, but ive also gone on to turn anon asks off entirely. this is something i actively fought against doing and had to be pushed into by my mutuals (who have been the coolest people on planet earth during this entire thing). turning off anon was a big deal to me even if it sounds silly. i felt betrayed and like id been backed into a corner because it was so vehmently something i DIDNT WANT that to feel like i had to do it anyway for my own mental health??? that sucks. so even though ive 'fixed' the problem, im still kind of reeling and uncomfortable every time i come on tumblr. i hope it's just something i need time to ease because i'll truly be devastated if this becomes 'ruined' for me. tumblr exists as the only place in the world where i am honestly every facet of myself without shame or hesitation; losing that would be insanely harmful to me. and to the people who cant appeal to the actual human behind the post, let me put that in words you can understand: we wouldn't get any more writing 😦😦😦 riots and fires and sirens, i know. so yeah. to anyone who has sent me an anon ask and you're now wondering if you were part of the problem, im firmly of the belief that you'll know if you are. when i say 'weird asks' i dont mean 'you sent me a para about your personal life just to vent or ask for advice' or 'you sent me a really deep emotional compliment about the impact me and/or my writing has had on you' - i love asks like that, so much that i put off taking a break and turning off anon solely for the joy they bring me. im sorry that it might feel like you're being punished too bc of the actions of what in reality is a HANDFUL of weird people, but this is what i feel like i have to do to feel safe and not go insane every time i log in. love you guys, hopefully ill see you soon x

#seriously another shout out to my mutuals #id particularly like to say thank you to boom who's always right there for me no matter what's happening or how insane im being #and also everyone in our little discord that wound up having to make a whole new channel for venting #bc i was there so often like 'today's weird ask isssss.... telling me about my cupsize!! rip them to shreds!!!' #hannah and theo especially being there and pushing me to finally turn off anon. war is truly over #and of course rori bc the shamelessness u show when hating on my anon asks has been genuinely really cathartic #sometimes u really do just need a rottweiler mutual to tell random people online to kill themselves 😭 #okay weird oscar acceptance speechcore gratitude over. i do just rlly love my mutuals #like i went three years not telling anyone about the worse side of internet popularity for fear of looking spoiled and ungrateful #so for the first time to open up about it and be met with outrage on my behalf and people saying in fact it's MORE fucked up #than i initially realised bc ive grown desensitised to it is. yeah cathartic i guess #they are singlehandedly reassuring me of the good this cursed app still holds #so everyone thank them and send them flowers NOW #okay im done i think. see you guys soon. i truly do want to come back asap bc like i said i NEVER EVEN WANTED TO FUCKING LEAVE #SOME ASSHOLES JUST HAD TO PUT GRENADES ON WHAT I ASSUMED WERE VERY UNIVERSAL AND OBVIOUS BOUNDARIES #if you're reading this like 'ohhh fuck i defo sent something invasive lately. i thought it was a joke/we were friends' #then 1) we arent friends if you're on anon. it immediately creates a power imbalance where you know me and any necessary context #but i have no idea who you are or how much you know about me. that's already a fucked dynamic #and 2) I HOPE YOU FEEL BAD. LIKE GENUINELY I HOPE YOU FEEL AWFUL AND HAVE A GOOD LONG LOOK AT YOURSELF #okay i think that's all. ta-ra lads??? how tf do u end something like this #ive queued this to reblog a couple more times throughout the day

[akascow]

im mad bc i liked the Saw franchise fine enough bc it was goofy and dumb but tumblr made me like the first movie so much more than i already did and now i ship two sopping wet kittens and one of them isnt even alive and it makes me sick when i think about him

i couldve been normal about something for once but nOooOoOoooOo

#HE DIED ALONE ! IN THE DARK !! IM GONNA THROW UP #rest in peace adam you will always be loved #the last like 5 years ive been like ehh i like saw fine but the first movie is pretty boring nothing happens #and now? i think about it like once a week😐 the curse of tumblr fr #saw 2004 #lawrence gordon #adam stanheight #chainshipping #also why is that the ship name what 😭 #it sounds like some weird kink #although i guess the whole saw franchise is some sort of weird kink nvm

[thehollyraven]

THE STARGAZING DREAMER

Fitaphim Qafotix

Name: Fitaphim Qafotix (“gift of light”)

Reference Images:

Notes on Personality: A kind and thoughtful, if naive child, they’re often quite quiet and content to hang out near the back. Still, if approached they will be more than friendly… or at least try to be.

Backstory and Lore: Wished into existence by Twinkle Popopo and Phinumiti Qafotix, this little guy hopes to follow in the footsteps of their grandfather Albanis!

Eventually, they grow up to be a fortune teller, but that time is most certainly not now.

(They have a dream matter overflow! Which can be… quite overwhelming at the best of times, though their grandfather is helping with training that power, considering he Also Has That.)

(Not pictured: the cloak they wear! It’s a deep blue hood patterned with stars and constellations. It’s quite big for their current size, but as time goes on they eventually grow into it.)

(second image by @blue-jester! all else is by me, go give her a follow she’s real cool)

@kirbyoctournament god i hope im doing this right lmfao /silly

#guess who’s back at it again at the kirby oc tournament #btw guys if i forget to like. actually participate because i have been cursed for my hubris with ipad baby brain #i need someone to bite and annoy the shit out of me until i do what im supposed to #this is not said in anger this is said as a genuine plea. im begging y’all #/very silly #anyways #kirby #holly’s stuff #holly speaks #i hope that id is satisfactory!!! i might go back and edit it on desktop later but for now. yeag

[nyaskitten]

Hmmm Djinn magic seems very harm and curse oriented, Howlers are beings whose sole purpose is to hunt and scream at you a lot, Djinn are tied to the ghosts and Cursed Realm, Hazza D'ur, despite being only a skeleton, has the eerie ghostly glow Ninjaghosts have, Bansha's purpose is to hunt and scream at you a lot... there's certainly a puzzle to be pieced together but the puzzle is very rough and blurry...

#im thinking Howler's are a type of Djinn #but they lack certain djinnly aspects like four arms and... hair i guess? #so theyre not traditional djinn #they dont follow all the same rules as djinn #they cant grant wishes #while normal djinn are for numerous wishes #howlers are for 1 wish. to hunt those who have been cursed and drain the life out of them. #makes me wonder #wehat if theyre ghostly djinn? #or cursed djinn? #existing between the cursed realm and djinnjago? #their sole purpose is to seek out those who have been cursed as they themselves are a curse and cursed #maybe when theyre through with you they send your soul to the cursed realm #so if bansha is a howler. i wonder. do howlers go to the cursed realm upon death? #im rambling about djinn lore now for no reason yay #ninjago #ninjago dragons rising #raine's rambles #ninjago spoilers #ninjago dragons rising spoilers

[girl-bateman]

How does one get assigned as sam coded / dean coded ? Do I need a doctors note ? A psych evaluation perhaps ?

#i keep going back and forth on it #bc i used to identify with dean for the longest time bc i was so repressed and emotionally closed off (+older sister) #and at that point id spent my youth very purposefully protecting my younger sibling from our dad #and i guess in my brain i paralleled that with dean staying behind with john while sam took off for stanford #and dean protecting sam from knowing too much abt the supernatural #BUT having grown up ive now become the one resentful and angry at our father while my sister protects him #and our fights remind me a lot of scenes from the show where im obviously identifying a lot stronger with sam #plus the whole thing abt being the families designated academic or whatever #while also feeling cursed from the minute i was born and crushing at the guilt of everything wrong with me #and trying to be a good person and saving others to make for the fact that i feel an intrinsic evilness about myself #so like... yeah sam is very very relatable too in that sense #bc he also has that hope in him- the belief in god. in angels. in goodness. and i have that too ! #im just also a miserable cynic at the same time :) #so ???? #i havent been in the fandom for long enough to know the full requirements of being a sam or dean girl #(and by that i mean i havent been in the fandom for long AFTER i rejoined from my 10 year hiatus) #i literally would love to read someones page long explanation of what sam coded vs dean coded entails #someone with a spn hyperfixation or special interest needs to provide me with the goods fr 😭 #spn

[f0x-gl0ves]

They're disgusting husbands your honour

#art #i was gonna caption this post hey bottom girlies but then i though maybe perhaps i shouldnt #but also now its in the tags i guess so #rip??? #im not fully happy with all the doodles here but also its a sketchbook ar the end of the day i am cringe but i am free #bbc bottom #richard richard #eddie hitler #such a cursed name to have to tag lmao #rik mayall #adrian edmondson #drawing #fanart #sketch book #illustration

[shikai-the-storyteller]

Roier, wearing the skimpiest lingerie in the world: How do I look? :D

Jaiden, the world's most supportive aroace friend: You look so nice and pretty and sexy! :D

#it was cursed then Jaiden made it sweet :') #FWENDS..... #bi / ace solidarity...m #or well I guess q!Roier is actually gay but #irl roier is bi #qsmp talk #i talk #I DONT KNOW THE CONTEXT IM ASSUMING THIS IS FOR MAXO'S PLAN #I'm grocery shopping and pulled up stream #I posted this like 4 hours ago. why did it post now

[beachyserasims]

TW: Medication/Depression

Almost a year ago, someone close to me went on Prozac for panic attacks and anxiety, and I saw such a change in them I couldn't deny that maybe I too would like relief from my own MADD. So recently I've been trying it, for about a week actually. And I do like how I'm not as irritable over little things that would normally drive me bonkers all day. But at the same time, it's been hard for me to get into writing what i feel is good dialogue or scenes. Along with that, when I look back on my queue that I had made prior, I feel like I need to fix so much of it lol Gonna give it the full trial time to see, but I guess I would rather struggle a bit to find my creative flow again and be a bit more sane feeling than be my usual "creative genuis" self and also be mad at the same time.

#just a few morning thoughts #as the prozac is in full swing #cause i just took it #but i dont think i would want to go up a dose at all #im at the most minimum right now #guess we will see #trying to break those generational curses #my mom struggled with depression my whole life #and never sought help because she couldnt handle feeling she was to blame #so i dont wanna be like that at all #just missing my creative flow right now #but i know itll come back in a new way #non sim #gif warning #delete later

[inkedmyths]

Altina wearing these really cute earmuffs that I totally didn't buy for myself

#altina orion #trails of cold steel #the legend of heroes #art #my art #ink arts #its a bit of a curse that now whenever i see a black bunny item im like 'omg thats so altina...' #and ofc if i see a white bunny. its so millium #this makes easter a bit of an experience as i sure you can guess #anyways. the curse of buying things bc they remind you of The Character

[rivilu]

Haven't had the chance to play actual dnd in real life, but In this run I get the sense that bg3 perfectly captures the "party progresses in a weird sideways way that bypasses tons of the dm's prepared lore, so the dm takes revenge by dropping a near impossible encounter on them" vibe I hear so much about

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #fun fact i killed minthara by dropping her down a hole #somehow didn't get the achievement for it though #smh smh jdjsjd #but yeah. ill talk spoilers in the next few tags so be warned #first it was the goblin camp where instead of even trying to talk to anyone i just went up to the hobgoblin at the very back and attacked #took a LOT of tries to beat that encounter #slowly cleared the camp from the inside out without even seeing a cutscene with minthara or anything nxnd rip queen or whatever #then you had the duergar camp or whatever that area was called #where i didn't even realise what the deal with the drow was im just like. oh im freeing those fucking gnomes. wait we're on time limit? #can't long rest? run out of short rests? damn guess it's a challenge run #so emptied that room of all of them before blowing up the rubble. then killed the guy inside without talking to him for more than two lines #lmao #THEN THAT GODDAMN FUCKIN ENCOUNTER IN THE CURSED AREA #which was glitched 4 me until i equipped torches and deactivated turn based mode for the curse before it started #now im over the area where that gold encrusted toll collector (?) is #which apparently has more health than Grym so uhhhhhhh #maybe need to level up before tackling that #long story short im making bad decisions <3 gods bless easy mode

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i was looking through old photos today. they where from wjen i was like 1 and it made me so sad #bc my mum would have been like only a year or 2 older then i am now and she looked so young #and now she has an abdomen full of tumors and blistered hands and feet. theyre prob gonna hsve to remove her bladder #but shes still very pragmatic abt it. but she grew up in a house where no one really cared about her feelings so she made them small #and now her mother calls and doesn't ask how her grandkids are doing and doesn't ask how her daughter is doing. im cursed with terrible #grandparents on both sides but i resent my mothers mother worse. though my dad said i probably wouldnt have survived his upbringing #and hes right. my nana has like zero empathy and cant cook for shit. idk how my parents r so normal but the fact i had a good upbringing is #probably the only reason im still here. and thats the other thing that made me sad abt the old pics. just looking at this little baby with a #fucked up head and thinking: in 25 years that kid is gonna b so broken down their not gonns kno what to do or how to fix it. idk whats wrong #with me. ive always been some stage of miserable but i used to b able to get things done. and now i cant seem to force functionality #and it sucks. bc im home now and i still feel like im cringing around this open wound in my chest. but whatever #as of today ive started taking ab1lify. hopefully it helps in the long term but in the short term it triggers my 0cd. which is not fun #its so frustrating. whatever. i also found out my eyes used to not work together. not enough to have a lazy eye but it was hard for me to #read and apparently my eyes were tracking at like double the speed of a normal person. wtf is wrong with my brain? also also my mum was like #yea i never would have guessed bip0lar but we thought it was something. autism i could see 100% but yea didnt see that coming. ao i guess #i brehave like a bit of an oddball. ans my nana would bother my dad to try to make me participate in church and my dad was like no. she #clearly don't wanna b here lol. ay. they did the best they could which i appreciate #unrelated

[sunlightfeeling]

watching takuya’s shuffle bistro and…

…thank you so much Tamahome, you’ve really persuaded me…

I would like to procure one extremely gender Kimutaku manic pixie dream girling at a house party

just one though please…I’m trying out this new thing called self-control 😒

#advertisement #advertising #tsukutta #a clip #this is dumb #but i actually love burn so much and now i can’t get the song out of my head curse you takuyaaaa #so im posting this to infect other people with the riveting sounds of deep purple #…​cover #deep purple cover #…and gender kimura i guess….

[lbhslefttiddie]

I haven’t seen you around much here lately, so I just wanted to say I hope you’re doing well ^^ . If you have any life challenges going on right now, I believe in you to conquer them!!!

thank you!!! the life challenges is my phone and computer both had a stroke and died within a month of each other 😔 it was super cursed but im cool im being very brave about it

#asks #to be more specific my phones circuit board got yoasted basically overnight #i had to get a new one and any data not saved to The Cloud or stored externally went byebye #it wasn tthat big a deal but it didnt mean i had to go through all my apps and re log myself in #only for some reason i just Would Not log on to tumblr. like the brain wasnt allowing it #which mught have something to do with how fucking embarrassing it is (for me only) that i did one (1) day of 79 week and then ate shit #anyways while i was grappling with the executive dysfuntion about all that. guess what happened to my fucking computer. #and then three days later my partner's pc ALSO broke outta nowhere???? any advice on handling technology based curses is welcome #and i was sort of like!!! i guess this is one way for the universe to tell be to take a break!!!! #so i spent a month doing other shit. playing ps4 games mostly #and then i got SUPER into cult of the lamb and went fucking insane with the need to see fanart for thos stupid fucking catboy #so i finally got back into my tumblr account :] #and now i am going insane with how much i want to do art!!!! and cannot do art!!!!!!! because i still dont have a computer!!!!!! #we're working on it its just taking some time #tldr im fine just silly and possibly cursed