#i just have a lot of feelings okay

[mzminola]

Sometimes I worry that I bring up disabled woman of color protagonist with disabled woman mentor for why I like Batgirl 2000 so much. Like, am I being too reductive? Too 'diversity points' ticky box about it?

But I know I do the same with a work having well-written queer characters too. That I am super excited about Tim being canonically queer. And it doesn't feel reductive for that aspect, so...

Disability isn't just a a random trait painted on top of everything else in Batgirl 2000; Cass's language disability is intricately structured into the story. You do not get her story without it. She would be a completely different character without it.

The way she struggles with learning to read & write is one of the best uses of the "return to status quo" issue superhero comics are bound by I've ever seen. Cass is an incredibly skilled fighter, who is in a field where that's important. She's also a teenager. She has something she's good at, and something she's bad at, and it pisses her off. It frustrates her. She wants to be good at this, but it's hard for her in ways it isn't hard for most people, so she keeps cycling through get inspired to try, try, get too frustrated, give up, get inspired to try again.

I grew up with undiagnosed ADHD. I don't struggle with the exact same thing Cass does, but the way she struggles was incredibly familiar.

I also grew up with asthma; I'm never going to run across rooftops the way the Bats do. The way Barbara Gordon used to. She doesn't, anymore, she has a different physical disability than I do, but it gives us some things in common, and Oracle is one of the most terrifying vigilantes in DC, not just Gotham.

Babs' paraplegism isn't as obviously central to Batgirl 2000, no one brings it up directly much, but she's also a supporting character, not the protagonist. And the art takes it into account for panel layout, for her posing and actions. And you know it's underlying a lot of her mentorship with Cass; understanding her frustration, encouraging her to find value in herself outside a narrow field, fighting Bruce to give Cass a full life, where vigilantism is one aspect of it, not the entire thing.

Batgirl 2000 is so fucking good, you guys, and I don't think I've ever seen anything else like it.

#Cassandra Cain #Barbara Gordon #disability #is not a dirty word #Batgirl #Batgirl 2000 #Cass is disabled and her premise is that she's the best baseline human fighter on the planet #Cass is disabled and her premise is that she never loses #Cass is disabled and it impacts her life and her story #Cass is disabled and she finds accessibility tools and they HELP HER instead of being treated as something to 'get past needing' #she uses a dictaphone to take notes on her cases instead of writing them! #Cass is disabled and she has a disabled mentor #how often do we get that? #how often do we get ANY of this? #comics meta #I just have a lot of feelings okay

[fan-kingdoms]

okay cool i see many of us are talking about the scene where annabeth gets rooted down in the fields of asphodel and we all wanna know what she regrets so much so here’s my two cents on what i thought it meant

the obvious answer is thalia, thinking that she could have saved her (even though she was seven. annabeth has always been an overachiever with impossibly high standards for herself we all know this). but i think it goes deeper than that. i think it’s about her worldview and relationship to the gods. let me explain.

annabeth has worked with the gods’ system for Years. she followed all the rules and fought for kleos and became head counselor at the age of TWELVE. she wants so badly to be recognized and seen by her mom, and i’m so glad she uses her yankees cap as often as she does because it really shows that she treasures this one gift from athena. and then percy shows up.

and he’s impertinent. and angry. and does not give a single shit about what the gods expect or want. openly shit-talks his father. and yet, when he’s in danger poseidon comes for him. meanwhile athena LET ECHIDNA INTO HER TEMPLE AND LEFT ANNABETH TO DIE DUE TO SOMEONE ELSE’S ACTIONS. and suddenly, annabeth feels all her efforts to be the perfect demigod daughter crumbling while percy ‘pay your fucking child support’ jackson gets not only acknowledgement but his father but aid for all three of them. she tells hephaestus as much: percy isn’t like the rest of them, he’s better than that. and she doesn’t want to be like them either. and think about it: that turns her Whole Worldview on its head

she never saw herself as deserving of her mother’s attention, even if she craved it. she believes love is transactional, and now she’s learning it doesn’t have to be. and that’s a Lot to process in such a short amount of time— realizing that all that time, effort, and energy, all those pieces of herself, that she gave to the gods were useless. that so much of her life was wasted on the gods’ fucked up cycle of neglect. it’s HARD to look back and realize “i deserved better,” and regret putting up with it all

it’s even harder to realize someone else deserved better. in the beginning. of the series, annabeth saw thalia’s fate as an honorable, even enviable, one. a hero’s fate. dying in battle, for glory, and having a god intervene in the moment of your death. i think she sees that very differently now. i think she realizes just how cruel zeus and the world were to thalia, and how fucked it was that she idolized thalia’s “hero’s fate”

and guess what! percy’s worldview only really started making an impression on her like . three days ago. she probably feels so much guilt on TOP of all this regret and anger, because it takes a long time to break out of mindsets like hers. she hasn’t deconstructed it all just yet, and in giving up her blind servitude to the gods and her mother, she’s probably struggling with the feeling that she’s not allowed to be angry, that she’s ungrateful, that she’s severely insulting them. i think this absolute tsunami of emotions is more than enough to bog her down in the fields of asphodel and would align with her character development as she starts seeing the gods for what they really are

(but what do i know, maybe this scene is just foreshadowing some crazy tv annabeth tragic backstory that we get to see later)

#I JUST HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS OKAY #the way she tells percy ‘i trust your dad’ and you can FEEL her pain because you know she’s thinking of athena #and how she couldnt trust her mom #there’s LAYERS TO THIS OKAY #LIKE AN ONION #(is someone chopping onions in here bc my eyes are getting watery) #percy jackson and the olympians #percy jackson #pjo tv show #pjo spoilers #pjo tv spoilers

[soul-wanderer]

Raven going to the city of light to escape her pain/disability and Emori going to the city of light and saying, when Jaha points out that she can correct her defects, "I would, if I had any" perfectly illustrate disability rejection vs. disability acceptance and both are okay and I just really love that they included both in this narrative okay

#The 100 #Raven Reyes #Emori #disability #representation matters #I loved what Emori said #loved that they did not “cure” her #but at the same time Raven took the key to do just that #and that's okay #I just have a lot of feelings okay

[swansong-art]

Reuploading the ref sheet I spent way too long on because I didn't like how it was compressed. All so I could draw this weirdo better and ramble about their markings a lot.

#The Nameless #art #reference #Niamh #I just have a lot of feelings okay #not pictured are their daggers bc I didn't want to draw them

[angelique-of-the-volturi-guard]

Okay, this thought though.

Loid has to go on a side mission that will last a few days so he makes up some story about a psychiatrist convention that he’s been asked to attend. Yor is understanding, and Anya understands what’s really going on but she’s still nervous and misses him. When he leaves, Anya is sad and Yor knows it. So, she uses her speed and knowledge of sharp objects to her advantage… and works to crochet a doll of him for her to hold onto while she’s gone. Anya absolutely loves it, and Yor tells her to have the doll remember everything she wants to tell him. Anya takes it everywhere, even keeping it in her backpack at school. And when he finally gets home, very late at night, he checks on her and sees her sleeping with it. And that’s the moment he realizes three things.

1. Yor was the most perfect person to choose for this mission.

2. Anya really missed him and loved him, despite the flaws he found in himself as a father.

3. Leaving them was actually harder than any mission he’d ever taken. And he didn’t want to have to do it again.

#I just have a lot of feelings okay #spy x family #yor and anya #yor and loid #loid headcanons #anya headcanons #yor headcanons

[cosmic-croissant]

in short,

#newsies #i just have a lot of feelings okay #michael ahomka lindsay #jack kelly #west endsies #newsies uk #croissant speaks

[kradogsrats]

AU Harrow where he and Viren did the body swap

The AU in my mind is Claudia-centric and she very much does not care how Harrow feels, but the aftermath is also rough on him. Growing out the beard and hair helps a bit with the dissociative panic attacks, but every mirror in his rooms and the communal areas of the castle stays covered. He’s trying to hold it together for four kids, now. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I might not finish this just because drawing plain standing portraits is tedious but I wanted to take it at least this far

#I JUST HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS OKAY #the dragon prince #kradogsarts #skipping the character tags on this ridiculous self-indulgence #ouroboros au

[greyskyflowers]

I don't think I'll ever be able to describe the way my mind imagines the sea at night while on the Sunny. I hope I can give you all a small glimpse into it with posts like this ~ 🌌 🌊

Ace is late summer evenings and fleeting things.

Usopp is the changing moon and stories told when you should already be asleep.

Zoro breathes the night and its ghosts like a drowning man taking his first gasp of air.

Ace tells stories at dusk. He drags gold fingers across the sky, staining the evening clouds and coaxing the other colors out to say goodnight. Everything growing dark at the edges like spilled ink and rose colors blooming like evening flowers around him. He paints the air with lingering designs, leaving an outline like drawing with embers. The pictures blink out quick but they're just a bonus. The real stories get told in how often he bursts into laughter like crackling wood or the way his bare shoulders glow in the setting sun in a way that looks like flames will flicker out in greeting at any moment. His veins flash like gold lightning when he looks towards the lowering sun sitting on the horizon like half a coin, or drawing to mind a certain straw hat. Life rushing through him with no way to express itself other than to burn, to exist. The sun sets and the white of his teeth disappears like a flame being blown out, the world suddenly much darker. The smell of smoke wrapping around them like a blanket.

Usopp tells stories at night. When the shadows are long and dark but familiar, always familiar, when even blindfolded they would all know every step on their ship. They curl around him and settle heavy like the moon dropping a cloak on his shoulders. He pokes holes in tin and places a candle next to it so that the shadows can dance on the wall, a request for them to come preform a show if they'd like. He lays on his back and uses callused fingers to trace out constellations, some of the stories he tells jump the stars with him like they're whisper their stories along with him. Others answer in shooting stars that fly away with shaking heads at the lies he makes up. Fireflies settle in his hair like tangled star dust, blipping happily, and tired from traveling to hear his stories. His voice is a low rumble that twists with the, far too awake for this hour, waves that scratch at the sides of the ship when they want to hear more. The ship itself creaks encouragingly, like a mother nudging her child to continue, and the sails flutter like visiting ghosts.

Zoro listens at night. The dark pulls on him like a desperate lover and the wind whisks away any noise he makes until he moves in complete silence. When he dreams, the swords on his hips talk in languages he doesn't understand and he wakes up with his mouth curling in strange shapes around words he can't remember. The steel shines like the silver edged waves and old gods trail behind him in his shadow asking for wine darker than blood. The sea croons at him in a hundred voices, all telling stories for lives he doesn't know. They're mindless and always changing: a mother speaking love like curling flowers into the air, a young voice crying with crashing waves about too little time please I wasn't done yet, an old man rasping riddles about life. Zoro greets them all with a nod, with some spilled wine on sun soaked wood when no one is paying attention, with the blood of victory smeared on the railings of their home.

So...

Am I asking you to picture Usopp with curls pinned loosely on top of his head and fireflies stuck in his hair like living gold? Fuck yeah I am.

Am I asking you to picture Zoro sighing and biting back a small smile as he settles in the space between sleep and awareness, his swords bickering quietly like the old spirit guys from Mulan? Fuck yeah I am.

And am I asking you to picture Ace getting so excited telling a story that he waves his arms around and accidentally catches fire like a phoenix? The actual kind not the pineapple version. Fuck yeah I am.

#one piece #op #roronoa zoro #usopp #portgas d ace #mugiwara crew #strawhats #mugiwarapirates #straw hat pirates #i just have a lot of feelings okay #setting sail with greyskyflowers

[emmanelson]

i love how in s1 carlos and gaby seem to be the couple that wouldn’t last past the end of the season yet in s8 they are arguably the strongest, most stable couple all the way till the end

#i love them #i love how they grew together #they laugh together #they cry together #they are good parents without changing too much about themselves #gaby is still superficial #carlos can still be stubborn and a dick #but at the end of the day they love each other #and protect each other #i just have a lot of feelings okay #desperate housewives #carlos solis #gabrielle solis #gaby solis #carlos x gaby #carlos x gabrielle

[likewolveswerunwild]

Okay but like that moment in Secret right before Charlie's about to enter his form room where he's going to see Nick for the first time in public since they kissed and he pauses? Gives me all of the feelings. Because he's still so smiley and happy but...what if? He knows deep down that Nick is nothing like Ben but there's still that one little worry that just like Ben Nick will ignore him when other people are around. And then he walks in and Nick's just sitting there watching the door and waiting for him to show up. It just shows immediately how yes they're a secret but it's not the same.

#heartstopper #charlie spring #nick nelson #nick x charlie #ramblings #second star life #i just have a lot of feelings okay

[lohstandfound]

Jake "I'm so fucking pissed at you for what you did but I'd do it all 1000x over because you are important to me" Dillinger and Rich "I will never comprehend why you came back for me or why you still care but I'm glad you do" Goranski

#lohst.txt #be more chill #bmc #jake dillinger #rich goranski #look #I just have a lot of feelings okay

[scalefeathers]

Trans Arcane Week - Day 7: Pride

Crayons and markers are all well and good, but sometimes you have a blank wall that’s just crying out for some spray paint, you know?

Also, in case anyone needs to hear it: fuck terfs, fuck bigots, fuck fascists, fuck anyone and everyone trying to punish trans people for having the audacity to exist. Trans and non-binary people are amazing and beautiful and incredible, and you all deserve so much better than this bullshit. I love you and I hope you have a fantastic day. ❤️

#my art #fan art #transarcaneweek #arcane fandom week #arcane league of legends #arcane lol #jinx #jinx arcane #I don’t know who’s shining that light in jinx’s face but they’re about to have a real bad day #jinx is whatever gender you want them to be #this is actually the first piece for trans week I started working on #I just have a lot of feelings okay

[barbiejedi]

I just have a lot of feelings about Pash Cracken and Judder Page okay

Okay so you know how when you're a wee babby fan, and you read stuff, and maybe you don't know what shipping is yet, or you've juuuust about advanced to the point where you pick up on the ships that most writers are going HEY HEY LOOK THIS IS A CANON RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN A CANON COUPLE, AND THEY ARE TOTES DATING AND MAKING OUT RIGHT HERE ON THE PAGE LOOKIT, but most of the time you're just going WOAH SPACESHIPS MAN PEW PEW PEW

And then sometimes there are characters you can see in your head because they were in films, or were referenced in films, and you attach to them because they've got names like Wedge or Janson or Darklighter, and you pay attention to them because the writer is going HEY LOOK AT AWESOME PEOPLE DOING AWESOME THINGS

And THEN sometimes there are these characters that don't have names you remember from movies, and you have a hard time seeing them in your head because they don't look like anyone you know, but then the writer has them doing AWESOME THINGS and you go WOAH AWESOME CHARACTER

And then somehow in your head these awesome characters start hanging out, despite the fact that they never really had a whole lot of interaction in the pages of the books you first loved them in

And then suddenly you're writing fanfic where they're space-married.

Because like, they're three years apart and Pash grew up in a family of freedom fighters during the Galactic Civil War he followed his daddy into service, and was a kickass A- and X-wing pilot, and Judder was the son of a rich Imperial senator who went to the Imperial Academy and defected after hearing Princess Leia give a speech about how SUPER SPECIEST THE EMPIRE WAS, and HE was a kickass commando.

AND THEN DURING THE NEW JEDI ORDER THEY SERVED TOGETHER ON THE MEMORY OF ITHOR WHICH WAS DESTROYED AT BILBRINGI AND THEY SPENT MONTHS IN A YUUZHAN VONG POW CAMP ON SELVARIS, WHERE THEY ARE BASICALLY THE HEAD GUYS IN CHARGE OF ALL THE PRISONERS THERE, AND MADE PLANS AND KEPT EVERYONE FROM LOSING HOPE OR GOING CRAZY, AND JUST--

(This has been in my drafts since Sept 11 2012, as evidenced by the SPN gif, and I'm finally setting it free. idk what happened to fic, I don't remember writing anything, but it makes me want to reread Legends stuff.)

#I just have a lot of feelings okay #AND THEY'RE LIKE THESE SUPER MINOR CHARACTERS #BUT YOU KNOW WHAT FUCK THAT #I SHIP IT #BECAUSE REASONS #Star Wars EU

[rhythm-of-space]

feel free to read but I know I'm not saying anything new

Nobody needs another thinkpiece on Josh's condition, but I just hope he's making the best decision for him and his body. I'm conflicted because his injury can be long-standing and difficult but he's also a smart, fully grown man who should be provided the grace to make decisions about his own self.

I worry that if he's given the slightest, hesitant green light from his doctors, he's going to take that and run with it to get back out there and do what he loves. I worry that the pressure he feels from fans, his team, and even himself are affecting his decision-making. I worry that if he goes on tomorrow, he's going to make things even worse.

But I also know it's a hard decision that I cannot even fathom. This is his career and (from the sounds of it) already has fans waiting out there to watch them perform.

I hate how he felt the need to make the promise that the show will go on, on Friday, that's even more weight on his shoulders. I just hope he does what's best for him.

#I just have a lot of feelings okay #I was incredibly disappointed when I woke up to no update #I wish they'd cancel the rest of tour but it it's not up to me and I need to be ok with that

[rainbowcolored7]

Hang on I'm in my feels again. Taking a break from working on some art and rewatching kp from ep.1 and I think we as a fandom have forgotten a little about how chaotic and sassy Porsche is (myself included, calling us all out).

One of the main reasons I fell so hard so fast for Apo as Porsche was he perfectly encapsulates Porsche's high energy, bratty gremlin vibes. Episode 1 Porsche is peak chaos (and ep.2 ofc). We lose some of that throughout the series as he hardens to the mafia life which I love and hate for several reasons. But regardless of his shift into a mafia leader he remains true to the basest parts of himself. A nurturer who will do anything for the people he cares about, will go to extreme lengths to those in need of help, but with charm and needling that will put those said people in their place as needed. Porsche's crazy unhinged energy was what made me fall in love with his character, and I love that episode 1 always brings that back and reminds me that this is a man who is comfortable in his skin and takes no shit and no prisoners and idk I'm just missing that.

#kinnporsche #kinnporsche the series #dont mind me #just missing them #missing him #chaotic gremlin bitch boy #i just have a lot of feelings okay

[saiikavon]

Also like. The Battle City semifinal and the subsequent Kaiba vs. Jounouchi duel just like. It just emphasizes my need for more scenarios in which Kaiba can break. This is a man who thinks that if you claw and scrape and scratch your way to the top by yourself is the only way to earn it, even if you stand up there bleeding. Especially if you stand up there bleeding. Losers deserve death, and that includes himself. He was prepared to let the hate and anger already rotting him from the inside kill him slowly after that defeat.

So I just. Let the man break. Let the man have no other option but to fall to pieces; then, most importantly, let someone come and take care of him and tell him he deserves love anyway.

#watching ygo #kaiba seto #I just have a lot of feelings okay