#i made myself sad 🥲

[hey-must-be-a-devilbetween-us]

Right, what if in s3 instead of erasing either Aziraphale or Crowley from the Book of Life, Heaven erases their relationship and they don't remember each other?

The last 6000 years seem just a little empty, there is a face in my periphery, a echo of laughter, a soft and urgent voice, I turn and it all collapses into sand, so far in time, I was waiting for someone, wasn't I?

#good omens 2 #ineffable husbands #good omens #good omens 3 speculation #haha #i made myself sad 🥲 #aziracrow #silly little metas

[feidude]

It’s the way that Liu Qingge, the War God of Bai Zhan Peak, had never lost a fight, had never engaged in a battle he knew he couldn’t win.

It’s the way that Cheng Luan had never known the bitterness of failure, had only ever tasted the sweetness of victory.

It’s the way that this all came crashing down when Shen Qingqui passed.

It’s the way that Liu Qingge fought Luo Binghe everyday for five years, losing to him time and time again, reputation be damned.

It’s the way that he did this out of loyalty to one man, with nothing on his mind but to get his Shixiong home.

#could’ve worded it better but im in ma feels 🥲 #i made myself sad why did i do that #i love liu qingge in case you haven’t noticed #liushen #liu qingge #shen qingqiu #svsss

[xviruserrorx]

MerlinRewatch2023 -> "Diamond Of The Day II" The Bad List ~ Masterlist [Prev <-]

#bbc merlin #merlinedit #merlinwatch2023 #viruscreates #merlin emrys #arthur pendragon #guinevere pendragon #morgana pendragon #sir leon #sir gwaine #bbcm eira #sir percival #sir mordred #merlin 5x13 #merlin s5 #edit #🥲 i made myself sad while making this #i didnt finish doing my rewatch but i had to skip forward for todays because i matched the song perfectly #im gonna do another tomorrow and then ill do part one of dotd the day after... hopefully #happy anniversary everyone 😉❤️

[mousydentist]

Barcode Tinnasit Isarapongporn as Non and Ta Nannakun Pakapatpornpob as Phee in Dead Friend Forever

Some PheeNon haiku by me (eng translation below)

俺たちの　「嘘つかない」の　約束を、

俺なんて　守れなかった。　まだ俺を

愛してる　のを頼んでる。　行かないで。

君なしで　俺が、必ず　死んじゃうよ。

The promise we made, to not lie,

I couldn't keep it.

I'm begging you to still love me. Don't leave.

Without you, I'll surely die.

#made myself extremely sad doing this (T T) #before ep 11 i was like “i kinda want non to die so i can get the gif for this” and then. LOL #🥲🥲 #dead friend forever #dff the series #dff non #dff phee #pheenon #dff spoilers #dff episode 11 #dff episode 7 #dff the series spoilers #phee dff #non dff #haiku #my gifs

[sparkles-oflight]

Sometimes I'm like "lol, the joker out boys did something funny/relatable/cringe/etc that I'm not used seeing celebs doing but I'm glad they do because me too!" and then I remember they are quite literally JUST GUYS IN THEIR 20S DOING THINGS OF GUYS IN THEIR 20S

#it's so weird to enjoy people who are around my age #(same goes for Måneskin) #it makes me feel both great about seeing them being relatable or flawed #and sad at the same time because I'm useless and don't have achievements in contrast 🥲 #today I was rewatching the love of my life's performance at worlds 2019 (yk it's Zhenya) and looking at her at the age of 19 #and what she had achieved already made me feel both amazed and bad about myself #idk how to explain it #i just kind wish I were a fighter and not a quitter 😅 #joker out #btw #i know we shouldn't out celebrities in a pedestal but it's still quiet inevitable to feel like this #*put #*quite

[southstand]

was walking down the street today and someone wanted to collect donations for something and they addressed me with a “hi girl!” and i wanted to crawl into a hole and die :-(

#ah it’s not their fault i don’t pass but it still hurt very suddenly #i get addressed as mädel soooo much esp if i’m out w friends who are girls #that’s just how germans are they’ll go ‘hi mädels’ or ‘seid ihr bereit zu bestellen mädels’ or whatever #but man :( it made me sad i couldn’t rly get myself out of the funk as i usually can #which upsets me bc every time i think i’ve made my peace w it i realise i haven’t 🥲 #i’m still a bit fucked up by it since now it’s making me think abt my family and whatnot ugh #sorry for rambling

[clewis]

sometimes i think about all the cute and fluffy and nerdy and domestic clewis moments we could have had in season 3 if angus didn’t leave the show and i always make myself sad

#there… I made myself sad #h2o just add water #clewis #but seriously tho!! #i love the crumbs we got to see but i needed MORE 🥺 #like… the fact that lewis basically moved to the sertori’s living room!! he just... hangs around there even when cleo isn't home!! #all the son-in-law / father-in-law shenanigans with don #them being nerdy and doing science experiments and just working together as partners #them making out before the concerts and the way they look all smitten and flirty while he plays the drums and she's in the crowd!! #stuff like that you know... clewis just being together without the pining or drama #just being dumb teens in love #*we could've had it all* #🥲🥲🥲 #lewis leaving broke my tiny little heart all those years ago and i’m STILL! NOT! OVER! THIS!

[vro0m-but-not-cars]

#i made myself sad 🥲👍 #but oh well #that's life #my stuff

[slasherlouvre]

I'm sorry to just inject myself in this conversation but also, I have thoughts 🧎🏻‍♀️

The fact that the brothers never had someone to care about them like you do. No one has made an effort or given them anything past what's required. Bo's flings never work our for obvious reasons, Lester is attracted to people but hardly finds the motivation to take things further when they're either nasty to him or don't really care about him like at all--and precious Vincent simply never had a shot. He's always by himself, stuck in thoughts and wax alone in the basement genuinely believing he'll be like this for the rest of his life.

Sometimes his thoughts wander, his hands grazing the statue he's working on in a little more than just a work way. He'll brush fingers over the chest and arms and waist and he'll cup the face, maybe even seeing what it would feel like to hug someone by wrapping his arms around it--even then though he gets no warmth or satisfaction. The hug isn't returned.

But when they all have you? Someone who's willing to set their foot down and stay, take the bad with the good and really reassure them that they're enough? They would melt for you.

The way Vincent would be embarrassed at being intimate with you, sure, but this is the first time he's ever felt like this before. His hands are trembling and his heart threatening to claw out of his chest just letting you touch him. He'll learn what it's like to be truly loved when you tell him he's beautiful, kissing his lips and letting him find safety in your arms. And after? He'd wake up to the thought that maybe it was just a dream only to see you with your arms so securely around him, falling asleep against him bare in his bed so that you can hear his heartbeat all night.

Bo would have you under his arms so often that it just happens one of the times. He'll be looking into your eyes one of the times and it'll crash on him that this is what Lester and Vincent have been talking about. He'll get overstimulated at every touch, everything feels foreign but it makes him feel too good to even think about stopping. The way he'll practically flinch when you softly touch his chest while you ride him, opting to give him a truly deep and honest kiss instead of pecks or bites on his neck. And he gets to see you in his bed too, curled up in his arms while he holds you so securely. He'll whisper I-love-yous against your skin while you sleep, knowing that you trust and love him more than he could ever think he deserves.

Lester would be quick to realize, seeing the way your pupils dilate when you look at him and noticing the way you reach over to just hold his hand and be with him. He'll be flustered when you cuddle up against him, shaky breaths and a fluttery heart when you tell him he's valuable and worthy. He'll have the first love feeling all over again when you look up at him while he moves in you. And after all is said and done he'll look down at you so reverently while you sleep in his arms, refusing to move in your sleep because it's like you told him while you were awake--in his arms are the warmest you've ever felt.

-💙

BLUE, YOU'VE GOT ME SOBBING FR

(( also, don't you dare apologize for your thoughts, they are TREASURED on this blog 🥺🫂💕 ))

They each have that moment where they think, 'I've made it' at some point in the relationship with you.

For Vincent, it's when he walks into the house of wax one day to see you admiring and dusting off his artworks; your fingers ghosting over his signatures, and a delicate smile on your lips as you continue to sweep and clean. You've seen them all before of course, but you adore them. They are all parts of your lovely Vincent; made with hands you consider yourself lucky to be able to hold.

He eventually touches your shoulder gently, signing to you that you don't have to clean, but you stop him short by clasping his hands in your own and kissing his knuckles.

"I want to, dearest", you explain sweetly, "They're important to me because you made them, so I want to take care of them".

He's never genuinely meant so much to anyone before.

For Bo it's when he goes to eat the 'lunch' he packed before heading off to the garage that morning. He's fully expecting to see the sorry excuse of a sandwich and bag of chips he threw together when he opens his lunchbox, but it turns out to be something else entirely.

Chicken salad sandwiches cut into small squares neatly arranged next to a dill pickle, cut up fruit, and a couple of cookies with a note saying you love him to top it all off. He finds himself staring at everything for a very long while without even realizing it before shutting the lunchbox closed again, and heading back to the house to eat with you.

No one's ever cared for his wellbeing and happiness like you.

Lester has his moment when he comes home to find his dirty work clothes strung up on the house's laundry line, only clean now. Cleaner than he had ever managed to get them. Any sign of blood and filth on his shirts and pants now minimal if even there at all still. He knows you must have worked very hard to scrub everything out, and gotten dirty yourself just to do it for him.

When he sees you step out with a basket filled with more of his clothes he runs up to take it out of your hands. Insisting on helping hang them to dry as you laugh and get thankful kisses pressed to your face.

He finally knows what it feels like to be cherished.

#sorry for the inactivity i accidentally made myself sick & i'm just rly sad rn 🥲 #i swear i'll reply to messages soon #in the meantime have this <3 #BLUE THAT PART ABOUT VINNY HUGGING HIS WAX STATUES???? BYE IM AN EMOTIONAL WRECK #💙 anon #anon #reply post #house of wax #vincent sinclair #bo sinclair #lester sinclair #self insert stuff #nrambles

[palms-upturned]

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#meg talks #made myself sad looking for art classes near me #there’s a place not too far from me that does weekly classes for $25 per class #which is… still probably more than i can afford… but it was nice to know a cheap(ish) option exists #but i got sad because the studio used to be located less than half a mile from me #i could have walked there!! it would have been like a 10 or 15 minute walk away!!!!!! #but they’ve moved two miles away 🥲 #im. frustrated. it’s such a measly distance if you can drive but i can’t #and i just wish that there was ANY kind of fucking public transit here but there’s not #i just wanna be in a classroom making art with other people again #i miss it so fucking much #i miss making ANY art AT ALL #idk. im just sad.

[found--family]

ok mr. your family is named after a gun and you are your father's gun

#deancore #🙄 #oh i made myself sad #🥲 #whats in a name #6x15 #thoughts #soldier dean #alexa play Elton John Father's Gun #/I'll not rest until I know the cause is fought and won/ #/From this day on until I die I'll wear my father's gun/

[sweetiecutie]

Pairing: König x fem! Reader

Warnings: NSFW, mdni, periods sex, blood play but not really(?), softie König

A/n: very self-indulgent. My periods are as tough as ever and there’s no one to comfort me, so I guess I’ll have to do it myself🥲

König didn’t really know much about periods. Well, of course he knew what menstruation is and that every woman has it once a month, but that was pretty much it. So when you started dating poor guy saw how things really were in female world.

He noticed how moody you would become a week prior your periods, how snappy you’d react to his harmless teasing. König noted your craving for sweets as well, and how angry and sad you’d be over a few pimples that appeared so unwelcomed on your precious face. And König felt truly sorry for you - it was clear as day that you were a hormonal mess, and there wasn’t anything he could do to help you, no matter how much he wanted to.

And then your periods finally came. König watched you get up suddenly from your spot on the couch, rushing straight to the bathroom. He was a bit confused - you were all snuggled up together, watching a movie you picked - did something happen? He knocked on the bathroom door softly, asking if everything was good - a few moments later you opened the door, sour expression on your face as you scrunch up the wrap from the pad. “Yeah, my periods started” you mumbled begrudgingly, your lips pulled in a small pout.

König who just couldn’t bear seeing his precious baby in pain, did everything in his power to comfort you. He wrapped his warm strong arms around your frail form, cuddling you into his chest. His fingers grazed gently the soft skin of your tummy where it ached, whispering sweet nothings into your ear, scattering small kisses wherever he could reach.

König did his research on how to ease menstrual pains. Painkillers, massage, yoga. But what particularly caught his attention - almost every article he’d read said that orgasm is a great way to get rid of cramps - not only healthy but pleasurable as well. So of course he suggested you just that.

König was so sad to see you this fearful and hesitant - “Baby, it’ll make a huge mess. Everything will be covered in blood and I don’t want you to get yourself dirty and-“ you rambled on, his eyes growing wide with every word you said. “Y/n, what are you even talking about?” He interrupted you softly, huge hands coming to cup your cheeks and he looks into your eyes deeply.

“Do you really think a bit of blood will stop me from fucking my amazing sexy girl? If you don’t want this - it’s okay, but please don’t think that I’m disgusted by you bleeding” he said it so earnestly, kissing both of your cheeks reassuringly. König hated the idea of you being self-conscious about absolutely natural processes in your body. So when you nodded shyly, slightly spreading your legs for him to settle in between them, König couldn’t contain a wide grin, even while kissing you passionately.

So with a thick towel under your hips, König got to work - lapping away at your poor pussy, smearing a mixture of your blood, slick and his own saliva all over his cheeks, gazing up at you drunkenly, moaning into your folds at the taste and smell of you. His fingers gently pumped in and out of your sopping cunt, marveling at the wetness blood provided, how easily three of his thick digits slipped into your sensitive cunny.

And only after making you cum on his mouth two times, König decided to fully indulge you, getting his heavy cock out of his boxers. With gentle move of his hips he sunk right into your velvety warmth, penetration as easy as ever due to blood lubrication. He went as gentle as ever, noting how overly sensitive you were - way more than usual. König made sure to not go too deep, to not disturb your poor uterus even more.

König was so sweet, rubbing your clit non-stop, wringing orgasm after orgasm out of your soft beautiful body. He scattered kisses all over your neck and chest, careful to not graze your sore from hormones nipples. And only when you couldn’t take no more - a trembling sweaty mess in his loving arms, babbling and whimpering deliriously, he allowed himself to finally cum on your twitching tummy.

König fucked you so good it took you several minutes to regain consciousness - with bleary eyes you looked up to him, your breath hitching slightly. Here was your boyfriend sitting next to you, grinning from ear to ear; lower half of his face was completely covered in dried blood, his hands and lower stomach glistening with dark red. That would definitely look terrifying if you didn’t know what exactly he was just doing.

“So how are your cramps?” He asked, his white teeth contrasting with brownish-red on his cheeks and lips. You closed your eyes in exhaustion, sinking deeper into soft pillows.

“Gone” you said, making König’s smile brighten impossibly more.

And yes, he’d definitely joke about being a vamp from this day on🙄

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[tayytayy12]

From the start | LN4 x Reader

Summary - Reader and Lando have been best friends for years, but reader slowly develops feelings for him, and didn’t want to tell him in fear that he wouldn’t feel the same and it would ruin their friendship forever, so she releases a song indirectly telling him everything, not knowing he’d always felt the same.

Warnings - Swearing

Type - SMAU

FaceClaim - Laufey

Requested - yes - no

Yourusername

Liked by - LandoNorris, GracieAbrams and 4,927,290 others - Posted 01.02.24

Yourusername - Studio sesh 😙

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User1 - OMG OMG OMG OMG

User2 - DOES THIS MEAN NEW MUSIC SOON ?!??!?

GracieAbrams - 💛

Yourusername - 🤍

User3 - She’s so adorable

User4 - Y/n I need whatever you made in that studio like right now pls

User5 - Oh Y/n I fear I can already tell you’ve ate

LandoNorris - HELLO WHY DIDNT I KNOW OF THIS ?

User6 - the first time she hasn’t told Lando something

Yourusername

Liked by - LandoNorris, TaylorSwift and 5,100,104 others - Posted 20.02.24

Yourusername - Surprise !!!!!!! My brand new single, ‘from the start’ is out right now! Along with its music video, written and directed by yours truly 😙 this song is unlike anything I’ve ever released before, it’s a complete and true raw reflection of all of my emotions, and I hope you love it like I do. I love you, enjoy 🤍

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User7 - OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

User8 - KNEW Y/N ERA INCOMING

User9 - THIS SONG IS EVERYTHING WHAT

User10 - The music video is so fun and goofy but somehow so deep at the same time, I love it sm 😭

User11 - Y/N WHO IS THIS ABOUT

User12 - FR SAME

User13 - YES LIKE, WHOS GOT OUR GIRL WRITING WHOLE ASS LOVE CONFESSIONS

User14 - Literally my new favourite song

User15 - Okay this is so about Lando

User16 - Girl what ?😭

User17 - I see their point, the lyrics point to all things that they’ve said about their friendship

User18 - Like what? 😭

User19 - Like ‘Listening to you harp on 'bout some new soulmate "She's so perfect, " blah, blah, blah’ Y/n has said so many times that sometimes Lando just sits there and says everything about the new girl he’s talking too and it bores her to death, I’d say that’s good enough proof 😭

Y/n.Nation

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Y/n.Nation - Y/n was the guest on the Jimmy Fallon show last night !!!! She debuted from the start with its first ever live performance, then done her interview where she revealed that her new hit is about someone very very close and personal to her, her words were-

“From the start for me, is like a one of those letters that people write and throw into the fireplace just to get their emotions out there, but instead of writing a letter and throwing it into a fire I wrote a song and gave it to my fans. Which for me is kind of the same thing, they’re incredibly supportive and loving and I couldn’t be more grateful for them, every single one of them I love with my whole heart. This song is about something that I’ve been keeping to myself for maybe ten years now? Since I was still really young. God that makes me sound old, but it’s about someone I’ve known and been extremely close to since I was a child. And I think when you’re so close with someone, feelings like the one I’ve presented in the song can completely ruin a friendship if they’re unrequited, but the other day I decided it was time for me to ‘man up’ as my mum would say, and I went to the studio, I wrote and recorded the song and shot the video, and I just released it and I let my music do the talking. I’ve still not heard anything from the person I’ve aimed it too, so if I don’t get one I suppose that’s my answer to my ‘confession of love’ that I brought up at least seven times in the song.”

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User21 - Y/n told me she loves me

User22 - I’m crying this is so cute but a teeny bit sad at the same time

User23 - She actually lets us read her diary 🥲

User24 - Oh it’s so about lando 🥲

User25 - It’s so obvious I’m gonna cry

User26 - LANDO ANSWER HER RN

User27 - ‘Since I was really young’ she really has loved him from the start

User28 - Okay this relationship is a need now please

User29 - same it’s not even a joke anymore

User30 - Lando it’s in your hands now do the right thing

User31 - LANDO LIKED THAT HAS TO BE GOOD

LN.Updates

Liked by - Yourusername, user32 and 89,191 others - Posted - 25.02.24

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LN.Updates - Lando on a podcast recently!!! He never addresses Y/n by name, but I think we’d be right in assuming that’s who’s he’s talking about

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User33 - MY LANY/N HEART HAS BEEN GROWING THIS PAST WEEK

User34 - I need someone who looks at me the way Lando looks whenever Y/n is mentioned

User35 - WE ALL DO

User36 - HE FEELS THE SAME HE FEELS THE SAME

User37 - Y/N LIKED OMGGG

User38 - Gonna die

User39 - I need them together right now

User40 - All the Lany/n haters right now are hiding

User41 - As they should be

LandoNorris

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LandoNorris - Just thinking of youuuuu 🤍🤍

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User42 - EVERYBODY WAKE UP LANY/N HAS BEEN CONFIRMED

User42 - SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP

User43 - RIP ME

User44 - WHY THE FUCK DID IT TAKE YOU TWO MONTHS TO CONFIRM THIS

LandoNorris - We was in a funny mood, we’ve been together since the day after that podcast 🫠

User45 - SHUT THE FUCK UP

User46 - So, before the even confirmed their relationship, they’ve been on a boat trip, she’s been to races, AND they’ve gone to the beach while we all through that they wasn’t together

User47 - The from the start lyrcis 😩

Yourusername - That was a great coffee

LandoNorris - I made a cute hard launch post and you focus on the coffee you had over a month ago?

Yourusername - It was a really good coffee 🥲

LandoNorris - I’ll buy you more

Yourusername - I love youuu 🥲

LandoNorris - I love you more 🤍

User48 - I’m going to sleep on the highway

Yourusername

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Yourusername - When I say from the start, I really mean it 🤍

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User49 - This is the kind of love I NEED.

LandoNorris - I love you, I always have

Yourusername - Funny, I could say that same thing. I love you so much more

LandoNorris - Impossible

User50 - This is why I wish my mum had a best friend with a son, cause this is the cutest thing I’ve ever seen.

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[headspace-hotel]

I've been thinking about something for months now but I haven't posted it because I know it's going to be a magnet for bad faith readings.

You know how using ecology terminology to talk about machines, objects, other man-made things etc. and referring to vehicles or other man-made devices as "animals"/as if they're alive has been a meme for a few years and isn't going away?

It feels like it provides a commentary on how our daily surroundings are mostly not alive.

The default state for the human species has been to be constantly surrounded by animals and plants for all but a tiny fraction of our history. And, yeah, naturalistic fallacy and all that, but it's overwhelmingly supported by evidence that being around plants, animals, and natural ecosystems generally has strong positive effects on the human body, mind, and emotions. Every day there's another study that says "Listening to bird song improves your health! Looking at a tree improves your health!"

Okay, consider all humans that have ever lived and died on Earth. For the vast vast majority listening to bird song and looking at a tree (or relevant plant life) was the default option. You couldn't even explain those studies to your distant ancestors.

Memes, like any form of humor or cultural production, contain meaning. It's funny to refer to a bus as an animal or a chain store as a biome—but why?

So has anyone else started to find these memes just really...sad? They're sad to me nowadays! It's hard to explain, but I feel like i'm looking at a human in an underground bunker on Mars taping wrappers of their Corporate Snack Ration Bars to a straw and putting it in a pot on their desk saying "It's a flower...like on Earth...🥲"

I don't necessarily believe humans are hardwired to interact with their world in a certain way because of "the environment we evolved in" outside of a few basic things. But on a gut level, I think to myself, of course a human would look at a normal sized water bottle and a small water bottle next to it and go "oh...it's a mama and a baby..." because we've had things all around us that produce babies of that thing practically ever since we became multicellular!

I'm constantly seeing people humorously assigning aliveness to objects and environments we interact with daily, and i'm like "no...no, don't do that...take my hand, come with me, it can be better..."

#random #nature

[harrystylesfan2686]

Pieces

Pairing: Azriel x Reader

Summary: Azriel and Reader are falling apart and there is nothing reader can do about it.

A/N: angst because I'm sad🥲. Inspired by Sand by Dove Cameron.

Pieces Masterlist

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I feel Azriel drift away from me.

Day after day, I notice him distancing himself from me. He doesn't spend much time with me now. Doesn't talk to me. Doesn't hold me like he did before.

He is spending much of his time with Elain now.

I see them in the garden, walking beside each each, her hand held in his. They talk and laugh with each other, lost in their own world. He even makes time for her.

Just like him did for me before.

He only comes home to eat, sleep and make small talk to me and then goes back to her again. Every morning I watch him get up from bed and get ready for the day, silently. He pecks my lips, whispers a small 'I love you.' and leaves.

I feel like a stranger to him now.

Whenever I try to talk to him about his day or literally anything else, he turns me down immediately, only giving me short responses. He doesn't ask me of anything in return, never wanting to talk me for more than 5 minutes.

It makes me feel unwanted.

When we accepted our mating bond, I had issues with trusting our future together. Azriel assured me we would be alright. He told me over and over again, that he loved me.

"I love you so much. You are my everything. I promise you, I will spend the rest of my life making sure you know that."

I could hear his love in his words. It was almost a century ago. That promise is what I remind myself of when I start to question his loyalty for me.

I've lost count of how many nights I've spent crying in my pillow, everytime these little things cut deeper wounds in my heart. None of which Azriel heard in his slumber.

-☆-

The silence is uncomfortable.

The clicking of spoons against dishes help in filling it a little but the awkwardness still stays. I look at Azriel, eating without glancing up. I made his favorite tonight. He still hasn't commented on it, not that I expected him too. I did.

I clear my throat to catch his attention but he still doesn't look up, so I ask,"How was your day?".

"It was normal." He says without looking up, not say anything else after.

"I made your favorite today." I try again. That finally catches his attention. Hazel eyes look into mine containing what it seems to be realization. I tilt my head in confusion. "Did you not realize that? I hadn't cooked it in so long so i thought you'd be happy to eat this."

"Oh, um, no you're right, I didn't realise it. I actually was trying to hurry up." He gave a apologetic smile.

"Hurry up?" I ask. "Yes, I have business with Rhys today. And I actually ate this a week ago." He looks at the plate.

"Oh?" I frown. "Yes. I mentioned to Elain once that I like this and she surprised me by cooking it and forcing me to eat and review it." He chuckles. "It was quite good." He continues eating as if he didn't just broke my heart to complete pieces.

My shoulders drop and eyes burn with tears threatening to fall. I look down to hide my crumbling face from him. I clench my figures around the spoon, trying to keep my emotions in control. I somehow manage to not cry until he is gone for the second time today.

But the second he leaves I drop on our bed and sob until my eyes are raw and sleep takes over me.

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[showtoonzfan]

Just want to preface this by saying i love ur analysis sm- u put my exact thoughts into words when i cant verbalise whats wrong with a particular writing decision 🥲🥲

Anyway, smth ive noticed is how... little time vivzie actually spends on writing or characterizing or fleshing out her characters.

Which has to be the weirdest thing so far bc every writer and artist ive met agree that its the best part of making an oc! Its so fun to think of backstories and tie that into their current personality and generally just figuring out random details to get to know your characters!

Like, my ocs are my best friends, i know everything abt them from their trauma and childhoods, to their favourite food and music.

But time and time again she proves that her characters are at best acquaintances... the fandom fleshes out the characters so well and with so much love and care and thought that vivzie herself cant do and its just sad.

Not even mentioning the hundreds of retcons and how characters will just change personality randomly or act out of character which results in the work feeling like a fanfic of itself. (Ironic considering some fanfics have better and more consistent characterisation)

It feels like shes making it up as she goes, instead of having an actual plan. Just shoving random ideas she likes or picks up from the much more creative fandom into the 2 shows without actually stopping and thinking abt the consequences or implications.

Theres so many decisions shes made that irk me so bad... the ideas individually have potential but they either dont fit the show or have to make huge retcons and result in the plot not making any sense.

Also, ngl but she has the worst case of tell dont show ive ever seen my god 😭😭 like... you realise you have to show things instead of just fucking singing it or having a character say it??? Or is that another thing that the fandom has to do so they can convince themselves that the show has good characters??

Atp idk how to salvage the show... i keep finding more and more plotholes and unless i literally turn my brain off and only focus on haha funny dick joke or pwetty colors, these questions keep popping into my head making it a painful unenjoyable experience.

Again, if the fandom has to justify your bad nonsensical hypocritical worldbuilding then you failed. Massively.

Anyway im very sleepy rn just wanted to rant a bit bc im a writer and artist myself and it pisses me off how someone gets their show on the air and still doesnt care abt putting in effort into their plot or characters beyond aesthetics and random ideas that dont go well together...

You’re speaking facts! And it’s honestly like..kinda funny too that people who have their own OC’s can flesh them out and deep dive into their arcs/backstories ect, yet a professional showrunner who’s had these characters for YEARS can’t even give the majority of her characters flaws or quirks, or even consistency, same goes for Helluva Boss.

Viv is a really good example at letting inspired writers know what not to do when making a story and characters so at least they have that lol.

#reply #ask #all facts btw heavily agree #thanks for ranting to me! #vivziepop critical #spindlehorse critical #hazbin hotel critical #anti vivziepop #Hazbin critical