#i need to get some things off my chest

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

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#so... are there any ts fans out there who wanna talk with me about the album #(as a fan myself just not.. an intense one. havent been in the loop with the release so far) #in a way that isn't “everything's perfect i love her” #i need to get some things off my chest #things ive been feeling ever since i saw the tracklist #taylor swift

[unexpectedbrickattack]

heehee (pepstavo under the cut)

#arts #mine #saucy #pepstavo #easing everyone in w the cute shit first #can u believe i forgot about this???? CAN U BELIEVE IT ??? #this is like one of the first things i drew back in like April i think #i still love it tho #recently i have been drawing them doing some heehee shit instead of the cutesy shit so i need this to stay humble #remember my roots… #anyway if ur still reading this hooray u get bonus stuff like usual w my tags #giving him a huge praise kink. he is doing SUCH a good job he is doing the best job EVER #this would be a bit further in their relationship (pending™️) where the intimacy walls are slowly being worn down #so hes seeking out touch and affection and all that goodness instead of reflexively flinching away #and gus SEES this so hes trying so hard to encourage him like BLEASE….i did not dick around for months for this to NOT pay off #he is a patient man but theres only so much patience one Can have #and that patience IS rewarded #its funny bc i write gus as like. a top. a general Dom bc he is both patient and assertive #and hes met someone he GENUINELY w his WHOLE chest wants to bottom for and he cant do it bc this bigass dude is a lil princess™️ #and so for now he is being the big boy but hes like counting down in his head when theyre able to get to a space comfy enough for him #where he gets to get his back blown out (its soon) #i hope that doesnt make it seem like hes only being nice to get dicked down bc he is actually always this nice #and full of love bursting at the seams #which results in endless praise and pdas and being a bit more playful than usual (bc he is a silly lil joyous gnome; its built in his dna) #so peppino will simply have this forever :) #okay mwah #i will slowly upload my stuffs since twitter is exploding and anyone who isnt niceys about this will be obliterated #like for reals

[leprousarmadillo]

Going on record to say Rings of Power absolutely slaps, as a lifelong Tolkien fan I'm so disappointed the way people tried so hard to judge it before it even aired and wanted it to be bad so much that they've literally convinced people to be afraid to watch it and judge for themselves. The visuals are STUNNING, the costumes are phenomenal, the creature design is haunting and so visceral. And the characters and world feel so *lived* miss me with that shit about it being low effort or budget, you can't judge a show by a handful of promo stills. I'm glad I didn't listen to the bs takes from people who are mostly just trying to hide their bigotry behind Tolkien worshipping zealotry.

#i love the man but he wasn't some paragon or god amongst men #he was a war vet and a linguist and historian and a writer #he made mistakes and he did great things #he was just a human guy who wrote some really great works but that doesn't mean there's some perfect purity to them #and i've been in this fandom for almost 3 decades #don't let anyone convince you this show isn't worth watching #hiding behind virtue signaling bullshit it's so disappointing how many friends and acquaintances I see falling for it #most of them are just mad they dared to say elves can come in more shades than ivory but know no one will listen to that #so they couch it in buzzwords and concepts no one would dare call them out on #rings of power #lotr rings of power #lotr #fandom critical #fandom discourse #sorry for the rant #i was gonna keep it to myself but it's all over all of my timelines and dashboards and i needed to get it off my chest

[sweetlittlestarbursts]

Me: Ahhh, the good ole days, when i was still a female, i liked dudes, and my life was normal~

The "good ole days" in question: *internal screaming, throwing up, kicking, biting, hissing, scratching, external screaming, repeat*

#trans ftm #ftm trans #trans pride #trans boy #transgender #transmasc #trans nonbinary #nonbinary #genderfluid #??? idk #lgbtq #lgbtq community #lgbt problems #trans problems #gay problems #Problems problems problems proble- #send help i’m dying #“I have some things i need to get off my chest” #a day in the life #Of a closeted transmasc nonbinary/genderfluid boy #raised in a christian home #Wish normal was real #i wish i was normal #lgbtqia #closeted #gay? yes #pansexual #help #Love my fellow boys #And girls

[llannasvsp]

Every time I think about Crystalized Lloyd, the more sad I get.

Let's recap his life, shall we? - Abandoned by both parents. - Bullied at his school. - Publicly humiliated by the ninja (RotS, ep 1). - Literally forced to grow too quickly AND to fight his father. - Loses his dad again. - Gets betrayed by a girl he liked, who happens to bring back his evil dad. - HIS DAD DISOWNS HIM. AND ALSO ALMOST KILLS HIM MULTIPLE TIMES THROUGHOUT SONS OF GARMADON AND HUNTED.

There's a lot more we could unpack. That's not the point. The point is, I don't understand how people can expect him to be okay?? with the idea of working with his dad in Crystalized. Do we remember in Sons of Garmadon when Misako is commending the fact that Lloyd sees the good in everyone and he responds: "Not anymore"? That line gives us all we need to know that Lloyd is a very skeptical person because he has been hurt so many times. He didn't trust Akita at first once he found out she wasn't a wolf, so why would he trust his father who has tried to end his life many times?

I understand that the writing in Crystalized is just... not good. Personally I think he shouldn't have forgiven Harumi so quickly (if at all), especially since that contradicts the way he acts with Garmadon, but that's a different topic. However, if you think Lloyd faced major character regression in Crystalized I would genuinely love to read why, because I cannot emphasize enough how in character I think he is.

#in defense of crystalized lloyd #sorry if i just keep saying the same things in these posts #i just need to get some of these things off my chest #ninjago #ninjago lloyd #lloyd garmadon #ninjago crystalized #lloyd #crystalized #crystalized ninjago #lego ninjago #ninjago textpost

[aauroralightss]

i love reading peoples' opinions on trigun but sometimes i will see an opinion that is so like. bewilderingly wrong it actually makes me doubt my own interpretation of the source material

#rora rants #AND THIS IS ON ME. #because sometimes i assume something is obvious when maybe it requires a bit more textual analysis #but then sometimes people TEST me and it's like #i need to write my 200k vashwood character study ten times faster clearly #because what in the world are you people talking about #granted i'm not often fully devoted to the most popular ship in a fandom so the experience of people constantly #banging them over the head with pots and pans #isn't a familiar one to me. because usually in the rarepair fandoms people are OBSESSED with the characters in a #really textual analysis way #so you dont get that #unfortunately vashwood is more popular so... more margin of error #and frankly i'm not incredibly picky i can still enjoy things when i dont completely agree with them #some of my favourite vw fics are ones where i'm like he would not fucking say that but... this is so good #but then other times i'm just baffled! because how did you come to that conclusion #sorry HAHAHA i just had to get this off my chest

[dont-offend-the-bees]

Not to continue my recent trend of oversharing on tumblr dot com, but I am very much struggling not to feel like I'm doing everything in my entire life wrong at present

#normal things to think after your doctor tells you you need to get a blood test re-taken bc you mistimed your dose #I'm just. I'm tired man. #I've been putting off a phone call for two months #i spend every day lately torn between do I need to go to hospital or am I just unfit and anxious #I rot and decay when left alone but also people are Too Much #I want to Create but I can't get started and when I do I'm just so disappointed with whatever I make #I'm exhausted but I'm awake at 4am bc if i go to sleep tomorrow will start and I'll have to do this all again #and I need so fucking badly for someone to just crush me so hard in a really long hug until my bones realign #and i need to find past me shake her by the shoulders and yell “you're fine! you'll be fine! cut your hair! eat your greens! #take up swimming and also some new pronouns! no one else will respect em but they're for YOU and so is the health stuff #please for the love of fucking god just look after yourself better than i did!“ #there's toooooo many fuckin holes in this sinking ship #I need a full body MOT and then to be cradled against the chest of a large gentle man for 12-36 hours #mr. bees speaks

[girlfox]

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#𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐎𝐅 ⠀⠀(⠀ⅰ.⠀)⠀⠀𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑:⠀⠀ಇ⠀⠀oh-kae! #cw negative #tw negative #cw vent #tw vent #tagging this for people who don't want this kind of negative content on their feeds! #remember to protect urself first. #and i'll keep this super vague not to be like . . dramatic? but just because i only need to get this off my chest. #but i need to vent so badly because i'm reaching a breaking point. i can /feel/ the anxiety building up in my throat. #i've been 10000 % vibing on my own and really comfy here! i've been loud n' proud about that. #but ever since i've been active here it feels like old issues are rising up and it feels like borderline harrassment. #like. under the radar. #i know this isn't anything anyone is going to have noticed or seen or anything. #but talking with friends who do notice and stuff. i just hit a bad point all of a sudden. #i'm not going to openly talk about problems here on the dash of course. #but drags my hands down my face. i just want to do my own thing man. #i have more time to be here now that school is done for a couple months & i just wanna enjoy it to the fullest hah #i'm finally back into enjoying ahri the way i used to! #but. i dunno. i might bury my head into my inbox & retreat into some video games or something. #i don't really need reassurance or affirmations because this isn't a pity post or anything. #i feel validated by the amazing friends and interactions i get here as is! so thank you to all of you. seriously. ily #but good lord. #i dunno i just wanted to vent and i will delete this later.

[bluelolblue]

Ayy thank you all so much for all the support and sweet asks! it means a lot seriously, it made me feel better :)

I just don't feel mentally well for a long time, and I felt comfortable sharing some stuff here and I'm glad you all actually understand. I appreciate it a lot!! <3

I love you all! Y'all are the best! 💙💖💙💖

Pookies :3 - @thewhumpcaretaker @tobytheeggo @evren-sadwrn @mrssimply

Anons who were so sweet, too, and everyone else! <3

#i will explain everything in detail one day #cuz i feel like i need to get some more things off my chest #but THANK YOU SO MUCH i seriously appreciate it so much! <3

[blackbirdffxiv]

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You ever just kinda try and integrate yourself into a space, esp a roleplay centric discord, try and make friends and be nice, and "be yourself". The place preaches good vibes

But every slight thing you say feels like it's put under a microscope??

Your entire character is scrutinized because they had some poor experiences in the past, despite them not even knowing how you write your character or roleplay, let alone having ANY connection with the offenders in question?

Your entire personality feels like it's gonna be put on a chopping block because you don't agree with everything they say

You feel every little thing you say or do is going to be met with judgement, ridicule or disgusting comments in the background because you're not "part of the inner circle"?

This is why I don't really interact with the roleplay community. Because it feels like in many spaces I do go? I'll get treated like I don't belong despite me trying to interact with folks.

If I don't get judged for the character I play, I feel judged because I don't typically agree with a lot of the things a majority of my "community" says. Because a lot of the shit I hear on the daily comes from judgmental people who have absolutely NO reason to throw stones while living in glass houses.

Maybe I'm overreacting, or maybe my anxiety, or god help me, my other mental issues, is making me feel this way. I could be overreacting for all I know because of my past issues.

All I know is in one or two spaces I occupy I try and be social in, I just feel nothing but the worst parts of the community trying to ice me out of it.

#OOC #mun ramblings #ooc: negative ramblings #Don't mind me apparently I've been sipping the depresso espresso today #I just needed to get some things off my chest because it's been bothering me for a while #And now I'm gonna go take a depression nap #I'm sorry to bring my issues to tumblr but I have no where else to really vent because everyone I can vent to are a part of these said spac

[blonde-and-cat-suc]

Lately I’ve been thinking about how in the past I would explain my dislike for C//A and some aspects of certain media with the rhetoric that there was something morally wrong with it—the possibility of this still very much a possibility, BUT—I have decided that I don’t need to keep having this run around with my own mind trying to discover a “reason” (and better than that, a *correct* reason) to dislike something. If I don’t like it, I don’t like it. I don’t have to have a reason.

#this is in regards to c//a and critical media and the idea of performative activistism in this context (and towards myself) #I am more than willing to self analyze and self critique/constructive critique #and some of the posts I’ve written in the past I seem to be genuinely fighting with my dislikes or likes or simply things I don’t care for #so these 2 things exist: I don’t like C/A (others things) because it’s bad AND I don’t like it. Just because I don’t have to like it. #anyway. tag rant. needed to get this off my chest #mariposa rants #whoops! tag rant #index: media consumption and the quality of thought

[waywardsalt]

gonna be a hater in tags real quick

#i need to get this off my fuckin chest its haunted me for ages but for some reason rn its bad #i fucking HATE when ppl act like la’s koholin island and ph’s world of the ocean king are/work the same #HATE IT. also hate ppl treating oshus n the wind fish as the same character bc i think its fucking lazy n uncreative n unimaginative #and makes the loz world feel so much smaller. but like. why do ppl act like the world of the ocean king is another dream world #bc its fucking no??? no one in that place is a dream construct i hate ppl acting like linebeck isnt a ‘real person’ just a former dream #construct if they think hes from that world bc its not a fucking dream world its a real ass world at no point is it suggested that its a #dream world just that link n tetra are simultaneously dreaming in their own world that doesnt make oshuss world fake or w/e #its just a different parallel world or some shit where time flows different relative to the great sea go watch the ending dialogue #literally nothing in the game suggests that its in any way like how koholint works besides it being an ocean place #i feel like i see these ideas in l////u shit a lot (ESP ppl acting like linebeck is the same thing as marin) and it feels like. do ppl in #l////u just not look into the games too hard do they not double check canon material or do they just accept shit parroted around #bc its way too consistent for me to think its just some headcanon thing and it PISSES me rhe fuck off if im being real #the oshus/wind fish thing is annoying as fuck already but i DESPISE ppl acting like oshus’ world is a dream its so fucking annoying #whatever ph is harder to play like look up gameplay then. do some research. its not the same fucking thing #ok yeah do hcs sure but i really dont get the vibe that its just some headcanon i feel like ppl just dont know theyre not the fucking same #its not like koholint its more like fucking lorule if anything. god fucking dammit i hate that im so wound up by this shit #whatever. i do wish ao3 let you mute wholeass tags like with authors so i dont have to see l///u shit ever

[rosenfey]

okay not to like get real or anything (I'm def gonna get real, sorry), but one of the reasons why gale is so important to me is that I've learned to just. like something without feeling guilty over it. like I used to believe having strong feelings for a fictional character is cringe, that oc x canon is cringe and daydreaming abt pixels is cringe when it is. not? I mean I only thought its cringe when I do it, not anyone else, but you know how it is. but hey. I'm learning to just. love. unconditionally. lichrally fictional characters are designed to be liked and related to. gale has gone through a lot of things that I personally went through, like the resemblance is uncanny. feeling like one is not enough and throwing yourself into love so readily, not realising the problem is in the lack of self-love? not being loved in turn and feeling the fault is in you, that you need to be better, that you need to impress, that you need to prove yourself worthy without realising that none of that matters to someone who truly loves you? believing the world will be a better place without you in it? ouch ouch ouch. I know these feelings so well and going through his romance has helped me heal, something I strived to do for so long. I know he isn't real, I know he is a bunch of pixels, but I am real, and my feelings are too, and I am forever grateful for this game because it has opened my eyes and let me process my past as an abuse victim, in a safe and healthy way. I'm not the same person I was before I played the game and I never will be. and that is such a comfort to me.

#ambie.txt #I ugly cried about gale today again fam but it was like. good tears. I'm doing so much better and I'm so proud of myself #for realising I am enough and never need to impress anybody. #so yeah ;; just wanted to get this off my chest #because I've heard there's some onions going around and maybe someone can feel better knowing i felt the same way #loving a fictional character doesn't make you cringe fr fr #I'm gonna get gale's orb tattooed because hey. his story helped me process my abuse. and that's not a small thing #and if any of y'all wanna do sth similar but are scared ppl will judge. I promise I support you and love you a lot #anywhooo I'm gonna get back to normal ambieposting soon <3 sowwy just needed to let this out

[disengaged]

alright anorexia is boring, let’s get yolked

#yeah so i gained 20lbs and started hitting the gym pretty hard two months ago #struggling with weight restoration/relapse urges worse than ever BUT i’m also feeling good about my progress and enjoying myself immensely #honestly didn’t realize how bad i missed lifting #and now that i have time off work i can actually focus on getting my nutrition right (i.e. actually consuming enough protein for once) #pegasus speaks #my face #my ancient ipod camera is shit quality but my abs are starting to show for the first time in like … 1.5 years lol #and im pleased with my anterior/lateral delts! although my pecs need some serious work. wtf #i train chest 2-3x/week and i can still see bones fml #ed ment tw #weight tw #ask to tag #i feel like i’m kind of relearning all my limits. like in terms of physical/mental energy and stuff. idk #doing a lot of research and figuring it out as i go. trying to avoid falling into systemic fatigue etc #as much as i love the gym i do have to compensate in other areas of my life #if i want to push myself this hard then that’s my choice. but like. i need to give up on doing other things. give and take. spoon theory #etc etc etc

[clarkegriffins]

i think the funniest thing about almost all stancy and mileven hate is that 98% of it is based on misinterpretation and bias towards another ship, seriously almost EVERY post i’ve read on this site hating on them is something that actually didn’t happened or it’s a misinterpretation of canon, mfs really make shit up and call it a day, it's always the same people putting words in steve and mike's mouth, misinterpreting their actions, and etc.... like u can hate a ship all you want, that’s normal, it’s fine. but stop making shit up and twisting canon to fulfil your narrative, it makes you look desperate and tbh....a bit pathetic

#stranger things #mileven #stancy #dude some takes here are kind of painful to read #like HOW could u misinterpret something THAT MUCH it's actually insane #i've said it once and i'll say it again: SEASON 4 WAS CRYSTAL CLEAR #it wasn't for me before bc like i said i had bias towards another ship #but if u take off ur ship goggles............. #the only thing that could be unclear yet if u squint is the resolution of the jancy/stancy love triangle #and ofc the main plot with vecna and all #but about the relationships the show was CRYSTAL clear about which couple they are pushing to be endgame #the only bump on the road is if half of the ship dies u know #then ofc the ship wont be endgame #other than that.... #i just needed to get it off my chest omg

[punkmacabre-arc]

every time i go into the constantine / hellblazer tag i leave viscerally scarred because genuinely what does danny phantom and herbert west from reanimator have to do with ANYTHING 😭

#✞ ⠀ ⠀ ᶠᴵᴳ ⁹ ⠀ . ⠀ ⠀ ooc #to be deleted. #i need to get this off my chest i feel like i'm getting grays #saw someone say john quits smoking because of billy batson and i'm just- HUH ???? #i just wanna see like stuff from the vertigo comics not some danny phantom fanfic please #and so much matt ryan- which like fine i get that a lil but still ? this may be a hot take but #he looks like a goofy lil impersonator #i'm very anti legends of tomorrow with how they handle their own jewish character #amongst so many other things so #anyway the hellblazer tag is sometimes the 9th circle of hell xoxo