#i spent a while on this yesterday but now idk if i want to post this ))):

[gothwineaunts]

So. I just posted a follow up to my post from yesterday. It was all like: "Dw about me, I feel a lot better now, and thank you all so much for being wonderful in your replies." And I spent a lot of time on it and was proud of how it turned out. But I noticed a formatting issue, so ctrl+c'd it, deleted the post, and when I tried to ctrl+v it into a new post I hit ctrl+c again instead. So. It's gone. It was up for about 3 seconds. And I'm not feeling much better anymore, lmao.

I'll try and rewrite it because I had some excellent points but I also have to um. Do my job for a little while, so the episode goes up this week. But I wanted to say thank you in the meantime. Love y'all. And idk if one of you happened to see the post in the three seconds it was up and maybe happened to take a screenshot (idk why you would but hey, I'll throw the hail mary in case) could you please send it to me. Thanks. :')

#red post

[mins-fins]

bring it back

&&. you tell donghyuck all the time, but his fists are always so bruised he doesn't listen.

pairing: lee donghyuck x m!reader

genre: weird rejected hybrid thing

warnings: literally fighting, is this relationship safe? idk!!

word count: 1.3k

notes: this spawned while i was reading one of my old old things back from my wp era and i suddenly got inspired.. only reason i chose hyuck is bc hes the first member who came to mind when i thought about writing 😣 im also a little obsessed with him atm.. i sort of left you all with radio silence yesterday, was supposed to post a timestamp but didn't, my apologies isanator nation (like 2 ppl) anw! don't take this too seriously, i don't get into fights and don't know much about fighting, my google search history looks very concerning rn ☺️

"come on! is that really all you got? those hits were weak".

donghyuck sits up defeated, but he doesn't allow for such an expression to cross his face, the last thing he wants to do is look like a sore loser in front of you, though he clearly is with how he got knocked to the ground by a single punch.

he refuses to think about the fact.

you raise an eyebrow at the sight of him catching his breath on the floor, a taunting chuckle leaves your lips, a chuckle donghyuck narrows his eyes at. if you knew sparring meant you'd have to meet donghyuck's piercing glare more than once in the span of five minutes, you would've offered to be his sparring partner much earlier.

you think he looks adorable when he's mad.

"done verbally berating me now?"

"not sure i'll ever be done".

you extend your hand forward, and donghyuck takes it instantly. once you help him to his feet, he gives you a pout, one you press your finger to. "what the hell are you pouting about?" you inquire, and donghyuck's eyes roll.

"you beat me like— five times, y/n".

you scoff lightly, shoving your boyfriends shoulder. "and i'll continue beating you if you don't stop hesitating before every hit" you lean closer to press a kiss to his lips, trying to erase the pout with an act of affection, but he stays pouting.

you snicker as you pinch his cheek, turning on your heel and walking towards your duffel bag on the other side of the room. what can you say? throwing your boyfriend around the room makes a guy thirsty.

donghyuck stares at you for a moment, studying your figure, then groans. "y/n".

"hm?"

you turn back to look over at him, and donghyuck has to stifle his laugh. how is it that you look so harmless right now when you just spent up to almost an hour breaking every bone in his body? he finds it hilarious how quick you can switch tunes. "one more round".

shock gleams in your eyes. "you sure? i thought you were tired.."

donghyuck is quick to shake his head, suddenly filled with an abrupt surge of determination. "yeah, this'll be the last one".

you blink, but you don't seem to mind, because you shrug, dropping your bottle of water and beginning to stretch your arms. "i'm starting to think you like being thrown around, should i note this down as a kink of yours?"

your smile is tormenting,

the good kind though.

"do whatever you want y/n~" donghyuck muses, a sing songy tone of voice accompanying his words. you study his body language for a while, cracking your knuckles. "i'm not letting you win again".

"ah really? you think you're gonna beat me this time?"

"wanna bet?"

you seem to like the sound of that, if the way your eyes light up is any indication. donghyuck's got you, perfect. you scour your mind for ideas, tilting your head as you smile at your boyfriend. "fine then, if you manage to knock me to the ground i'm all yours next week".

donghyuck's eyes widen to a comically huge size. "you serious?"

"slow your roll, baby, i said if you manage to knock me to the ground".

donghyuck clicks his tongue, an acception of the bet you put down. "don't underestimate me so quickly".

"underestimating? i'm just saying what's true, how many times did the sim kid knock you out last week? ten? fifteen? if i didn't know any better, i would've assumed you were weak".

god you're so skilled at this, you know exactly how to hit donghyuck where it hurts, both literally and figuratively. you know exactly what to say, and know exactly how they'll affect him. trash talk is something your so good at, sometimes donghyuck forgets it's all an act.

you know donghyuck can fight better than he actually does, his attempts at punches right now are vastly different to the punches he throws during actual fights. you know he's much stronger than he thinks, but for some reason, he seems to.. soften around you.

it's cute in hindsight, but he's been slacking lately, and you have to get him back on track.

"weak huh?"

"yeah, you going easy on me?"

your posture is relaxed, you don't want to make the first move, your waiting for donghyuck to surge forward and try to hit you. he narrows his eyes, your feet tapping rhythmically onto the floor and your arms crossed. "not a chance".

you chuckle at donghyuck's statement, a chuckle that angers donghyuck. what the actual fuck are you being so cocky about? he wants to wipe that smirk off your face, no, scratch that, he wants to punch that smirk off your face, he's going to make you wish you never said anything.

without saying anything more, donghyuck surges forward, a move you weren't expecting, but one you knew how to deal with already. a right hook, simple, easy to dodge and easy to counteract.

"was that a punch? i bet renjun could throw a better one than that".

donghyuck grits his teeth.

"don't mention renjun".

"oh? am i striking a nerve?"

you are striking a nerve, and donghyuck is about to strike you in the face. he keeps throwing punches, a flurry of hooks left and right, he has to hit you, he will hit you.

you're completely unfazed, the hooks nothing you haven't seen before. you swing your right hand over to parry the hit donghyuck sends you, using your position to your advantage and delivering a punch to his side. it catches him off guard and he winces, reeling back in just the slightest.

you give him no time to adjust, taking his distraction into consideration and surging towards him, a left jab to the side of his stomach. he stumbles back, trying to gather himself as his head spins in dizziness from the hit you delivered.

you let out a small scoff. "come on, hyuck, you have to hit me".

donghyuck grunts, moving forward with a left hook this time. "i'm trying" he grits his teeth, an action that makes you smile. donghyuck gives a small tch at the sight of you smiling, he hates it (that's a lie, he loves it).

you don't even try to hit him back, just continue stepping backward as donghyuck sends hit after hit.

he narrows his eyes, but you just smile again, you're really starting to get annoying. it's then that donghyuck notices something, your legs, he can use that to an advantage of his.

so, without any prior warning, donghyuck punches your lower stomach, a punch you weren't expecting. when you reel back from the hit, he decides to take his chance. an uppercut, a right jab to your side, and a haymaker to the side of your face.

donghyuck doesn't know where all of that came from, but it seems to do the trick, because you have no more strength to continue fighting. you stumble for a moment before falling over, hitting the ground and rolling over as you clutch your stomach.

donghyuck immediately gasps as he sees your state. "holy shi— oh my god! are you okay!?"

you give a tired smile, sending a thumbs up to the air. "i'm alright, that was great, babe".

it's only then that it dawns on donghyuck. "i beat you".

you nod.

donghyuck breathes in and out, he truly can't believe this. "i beat you, holy shit i beat you!"

you chuckle at how excited he sounds, breathless from the blows he delivered to you. "yeah, you did, congrats champ".

donghyuck falls down beside you, flinging his arm over your stomach and moving closer to you. "i get to have you all to myself now".

you raise an eyebrow. "you've always had me all to yourself".

donghyuck giggles. "i know, but i knocked you to the ground this time".

"don't get used to it".

#lee donghyuck #haechan #nct #nct 127 #nct dream #nct imagines #nct drabbles #nct scenarios #haechan imagines #haechan drabbles #haechan scenarios #lee donghyuck x reader #lee donghyuck x male reader #haechan x reader #haechan x male reader #𑁍 ࣪˖ 𓂃 isa's works!

[wandas-lovey]

I’m being delulu so i started wondering (¡again!) what life with five would be post-season 3. But like…he’s a teacher in this…

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* after all his siblings left when Reggie reset the universe you’re left with a mopey five

* you’re both pretty sad the first couple of days having just lost the people you love most :(

* but we don’t have time to be sad we need to get jobs!!!

* im gaslighting myself into believing that five and you have a place to stay the first night in the new timeline instead of being homeless 💀

* five becomes a teacher in the new timeline and you can’t convince me otherwise

* and what do you know!! you become a teacher too :D

* five would definitely teach math while you’d teach history (cuz you traveled through time when working with the commission, idk just go with it)

* while your classes may be a bit hard for the students you two are definitely the schools favorite teachers!!

* i mean why wouldn’t you be? the students can’t get enough of the two mysterious young teachers who showed up out of nowhere in the middle of the school year….

* you two definitelyyyy didn’t threaten the previous math and history teachers to quit their jobs or else they’d be dead by nightfall

* I just know many students are crushing on you BOTH. have you seen yourself lately? You look great ;)

* you both find it funny tho cuz they believe they’re crushing on teachers who are in their early 20s when it’s actually two 50 year olds in their younger bodies

* you two wouldn’t be the type to eat lunch with the rest of the faculty. you’d eat together in each other’s classroom enjoying your time together even if it’s for a short time

* five’s the type of boyfriend/teacher who interrupts your class for the dumbest reasons just cuz he wants to see you :,)

“can i borrow your stapler for a minute?”

“i’m in the middle of class right now”

“Yes I’m aware but i need to finish stapling the students review packets”

“you bought a stapler yesterday…”

“yeah but yours works better”

“OUT!!!”

*your students definitely find it cute :)

* after witnessing playful banter between the teachers that was a little too ~flirtatious~ the students get suspicious of what’s actually going on between their math and history teacher

* “are-are you and mr.hargreeves together..?”

* up until this point neither of you have confirmed to your students what your relationship was with each other

“unfortunately we are” you say with a smile on your face

*after confirming your relationship that day, your students spent the rest of the class asking you all types of questions about your relationship

“how did you and mr.hargreeves meet??”

“how long have you been together?”

“did you ask him out first or did he ask you?”

“why did you wait this long to tell us??”

*when your classes switch out and head to their next class with mr.hargreeves they try and pester him too about your relationship

“why aren’t you married yet?!?”

“ oh wow. i didn’t realize that was any of your business”

* you two are the kind of teachers to always be chosen to be chaperones for school dances.

*five definitely complains the entire night about being tired and wanting to go home

*who could blame him. watching over teenagers for hours making sure no one’s bumping uglies is exhausting

“how much longer till we can leave? This music’s awful. I’d rather throw myself off a building than be here.”

“Five…we just got here”

“What’s your point?”

*after a long night of watching over whore-knee kids, you head home ending the night with curling up on the couch and falling asleep in each other’s arms while The Breakfast Club plays in the background

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i have no clue how to fucking end this 💀

also this shit ain’t proofread

#the umbrella academy #five hargreeves #five tua #five the umbrella academy #tua season three #five x reader #five hargreeves x reader #five hargreeves headcanons #five hargreaves x you

[numberonemoefan]

I was talking to my dad yesterday about fallout new Vegas for around an hour straight, and mentioned I was planning on playing fallout four sometime, cause my copy of fallout sometimes gets a glitch for an hour that just resolves itself later, and he, while playing fallout four, basically BEGGED me not to play fallout four LMAO

it's so funny to me cause he bought me fo3, fnv, and fo4 and I started on nv and I'm apparently making him want to start nv again every time I ramble about it because he, quote, "would not be playing it [fo4] if there weren't mods"

probably still gonna try it eventually, but I doubt I'll love it as much as I love new Vegas (partly just cause I reallllyy love new vegas. also hi to my sister who followed me for some reason. why did you do that? now you just get sick of me talking about fnv in real life and online/lh)

but new vegas's level of detail is insane to me. all the little character interactions. like, a large majority of the groups/types of NPCs who aren't currently hostile have custom dialogue for when you aim your sights on them. I wouldve never thought that there'd be stuff for that. for scientific reasons, y'all should put a gun to y'all's companion's heads LMAOO. but there's seriously so much fucking detail. like, you can just absolutely fucking fail a stat check and still try to say it and you'll just say it like a fuckin loser. there's so much to explore, like the other day I found the mountainy area with the super mutants on accident. I saw there was an area on the map without any places id discovered, and I was like "y'know what? lemme go check that out." and when I saw TREES for the first time, I was absolutely thrilled. the storytelling in the locations is awesome (and occasionally very heartbreaking) too. gonna put this under a read more line cause it's spoilery for some lore, some of it is sad, and also this post is already long

for example, this is like a stupid one, but apparently the entire H & H tool company was FUCKING. if you read through the terminals, you not only get perhaps one of my favorite lines ever, which is

but you also see multiple people making emails that say something along the lines of "I told X I needed to do something. bring the moon rocks and dino head grabber ;)" (not an actual quote, but the objects are just as ridiculous)

AND THERES LIKE THREE OF EM AND THEY'RE ALL CHEATING ON THEIR WIVES/HUSBANDS WITH AN OFFICE AFFAIR PARTNER WHILE ALSO CHEATING ON THEIR OFFICE AFFAIR PARTNER.

this is probably the saddest/most disturbing one, but there's a vault that was overrun by spores that infected the residents, vault 22. I was finally getting somewhere, and I found a room with a key card in it. yay!

it was a bedroom. there was a baby carriage in the room. there were two spore carriers (essentially plant zombies) which I killed, then kept looking through the stuff in the room. there was a type of spore person I hadn't seen before that jumped out of me. it was called a runt. IT WAS THE FUCKING KID. after I killed it I just spent 7 minutes or so just staring at my screen cause. what the hell.

the empty houses are so haunting to me too. like all the different junk items strewn around tell a story if that makes sense. like, toy boxes, or houses with absolute loads of empty alcohol bottles in them. it's weirdly haunting.

nipton is also such a haunting location, obviously with the crucifixions and all. going into the houses and figuring out the legion bombed the fuckin bodies was so horrifying and interesting. according to my dad, they do stuff like that in real life in wars sometimes.

there's just SO MUCH STUFF idk how to put it all into words

play fallout new vegas guys

#fnv #fallout new vegas #hyperfixation #fallout #rambles #long post #under the 'read more' : #cw: death #war crimes #the fucking legion

[harufluff]

Hi! I’m not sure if you’re taking requests, but could I request…

It’s the middle of the night and you and Sunghoon are bored laying on his bed so he suggest going to the park and playing at the playground but then one of the maknaes asks to join but hoon gets jealous because he wants to spend time with you?

Thank you ❤️

♪°○「 late night park trip 」○°♪

warnings - none! just sad hoonie :((

genre - fluff and angst, bf!sunghoon x gender neutral reader

requested - yep! thanks anon! requests are open!

a/n - so. cute. idk how you came up with this but i’m doing it no question. i hope this is ok anon! ily! (also fyi i’m working on requests right now. i’ll post them soon!)

laying in bed is the only posible option when your bored, right? well regardless if it isn’t that’s what you’re doing with your boyfriend. almost 11 o’clock at night, still brain storming what to do to spend some time together before you have to go back home.

your head in his chest, arm around his torso tightly and his hand playing with your hair.

“uhh…we could…go to the grocery store?” you offered.

“nope. jungwon and jay went to the store yesterday. we don’t need anything.”

“we could…make a cake?”

“at 11 o’clock? nuh uh.” he shook his head.

“are you just gonna keep shooting my ideas down or are you gonna come up with one yourself”. you looked up at him and glared.

“sorry sorry”. he looked down at you and sweetly kissed your forehead.

“OH I GOT IT!!” you sat up with wide eyes. sunghoon was confused at your sudden remark, so he sat up with you.

“what’s your idea?” he asked putting his hand on your thigh.

“let’s go to the park!” your eyes lit up as you looked at him. he could feel his face heat up at your sudden excitement.

“wait that’s a great idea!” his eye lit up with yours.

for the next thirty minutes you spent preparing for the park. he got his jacket, took one of jungwons jackets because they are smaller for you. you grabbed a bag and stuffed it almost full with snacks for the both of you and finally a picnic blanket.

while sunghoon was sneaking in jungwon closet he felt someone come behind him. thinking it was you, he didn’t stop.

“hyung what are you doing with my jackets?”

“h-huh? oh jungwon. nothing just letting y/n borrow one”.

“why? where are you going? and why do you need my jacket?”. jungwon asked.

“uh. the park. just to hang out together and stuff”. just at that moment you came around the corner to check on him.

”sunghoon? you got everything?- oh hi jungwon. sorry did we wake you up?” you asked worried. jungwon was about to answer when you head a voice from around the corner where you just were.

“did i hear you guys are going to the park? can we come?” riki says as if you just offered to go to disney land. “yea sure! we’d like that!”

sunghoon glared at jungwon and riki as if telling them to back off, but did they or you notice. sadly not.

-

you finally made it to the park with sunghoon, riki, jungwon, a bag full of stuff, and yourself. you were messing around with jungwon and riki acting like the kids you are.

riki would say something, you and jungwon would laugh, and so on. and while all that happened sunghoon hung back behind you carrying everything down to the car. you all drove in one car, again, sunghoon driving and the three of you in the back, all the stuff in the shotgun, sunghoons mood still not changing.

-

ahh finally at the park. you set up everything, trying to navigate while it’s basically the middle of the night. the whole night you had been picking up on your boyfriends weird behavior although he though otherwise. when everything was set up, he sat down on a public park bench and watched riki and jungwon play.

“hoon”. he hears from the right side of him.

“babe are you ok? you’re acting kind of distant”.

he looked at you and his eyes softened. “yea yea i’m fine. i just…actually never mind.”.

you looked at him with puppy eyes, knowing what they did to him. “oh stop looking at me like that.” you smiled “i just…i wanted it to just be us tonight.”. “awww hoon. you’re adorable”.

you sat down next to him and placed your hand on his thigh. you looked at him with a smile, but he still didn’t make eye contact with you. you leaned up and kissed his jaw. that got his attention. he looked at you and saw all the love in your eyes. he kissed you lips sweetly.

“let’s hand out ALL day tomorrow. ok? just you and me, a bowl of popcorn, and a movie. deal?”.

“deal”

“i love you, ok?”

“yea. i love you too.”

#sunghoon fluff #sunghoon angst #sunghoon x y/n #enhypen sunghoon #park sunghoon #sunghoon imagines #sunghoon #sunghoon x reader #enhypen fluff #enha #enhypen x reader #enha sunghoon

[bratshaws]

goodness gracious 18. brb x oc

a/n: ey yo, hi guys. I'm still a bit.......iffy? But I managed to finish the chapter :) i hope you guys like it! idk if the next one will be posted tomorrow since im still trying to figure out what to do with myself but!! ill let you guys know.

pairing: plus size!oc x rooster

warnings: feelings make these two go BRRRRR

chapters:

1/2/3/4/5/6/7/8/9/10/11/12/13/14/15/16/17

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-

The sun didn’t even peek its way out of the sky when Rooster was there, already suited up, sitting on a bench inside the base with his eyes looking down to the floor. In between his fingers a silver ring was turned this way and that, the pad of his thumb touching the curved indentations of the elvish script on it. He just turned the ring over and over, before one of his hands went up to rub his face, setting it in front of his mouth to support his head while his elbow was on his knee.

Yesterday was one of the best and worst days he had in a while. The best because he spent the whole day with Beatrice, not only because of the amazing sex, but mostly because she was such a lovely person to spend time with but it was the worst because he had to take her home late at night, hugging her tightly and promising to contact her however he could, whenever he could and it pained him seeing her worried eyes look up at him.But she smiled and said ‘I know you will’.

 His drive back home was the longest, he probably stopped at least twice to regain his bearings, breathing in deeply with his head leaning on the back of the car rest. His apartment felt so empty, her smell still lingered everywhere and her ring weighed tons inside his jeans’ pocket, so much he felt its weight pull him down to sit on his couch where he stayed, in the dark, for a few minutes.

Not so different from his current position right now.  Except the ring was in his palm, clenched tightly in fear it could slip away and roll somewhere where he could no longer find it. He didn’t notice a figure approaching him, stopping just a few meters away, looking at him. Pete watched Rooster stay in that position for half a minute before he got closer, “Rooster.” the younger pilot blinked in surprise, dropping his hand from his face to meet the origin of the voice.

“Hey,Mav.” he says then,running his fingers on his mustache “Didn’t see you there.”

“I know, you seemed to be lost in thought.” Pete smiles, walking over to sit down next to Bradley on the bench, his elbows on his knees just like Rooster was, “Nervous?” Rooster shakes his head, his hands returning to play with the ring, which calls Mav’s attention, “What’s that?”

“Beatrice’s ring.” he replies quietly, “She gave it to me.”

“Did she?”

“So I wouldn’t…forget her and to bring me good luck and safety.” He repeats her words with a bit of a heavy heart, his eyebrows furrowing a bit. Maverick moves his eyes from the young Bradshaw to the ring, then back to Bradley. He looks worried.

“That’s very sweet of her.” Bradley chuckles, dropping his head forward, “Did I say something funny?”

“No, it’s just…” he shakes his head with a smile, “That’s the thing you know? She’s sweet. She’s so sweet, it’s almost unreal that someone like her exists.” Bradley licks his lips, curling both of them into his mouth as he looks to the orange coming up in the horizon, shaking his head diminutively “I–I just can’t wrap my head around it, around her, around someone so amazing falling into my life like that.”

Maverick’s smile widens and he drops his head, then looks to the opposite side of Bradley to hide it, knowing the young man would probably think he’s teasing him. He knew from the other pilots that Bradley was absolutely whipped for Beatrice even before the two started dating, that he wanted to go slow to not scare her away. He never really had a moment to chat with Beatrice besides the usual greeting at the bar, but he did notice she seemed to be a very sweet girl with how she acted.

Rooster not getting how he could get someone like that made him chuckle under his breath, then looking up at the sky with the thought  ‘Goose, your son is more like you than I thought’ in his head. He still remembered when Goose started dating Carole and how terrified he’d get sometimes. It was hilarious and wholesome at the same time. He looked down to the ring, the sun peeking on the sky shone enough light to show that the ring had something written on it, “What’s that?”

Bradley looks down at the ring, wetting his lips and holding it up for Pete to see, “It’s a quote.”

“I don’t think I recognize the language.”

“It’s elvish.” Bradley replies, sending a look to Pete who just appears amazed and confused, so he chuckles “Yeah, I had the same reaction, it’s from Lord of the Rings. It’s one of her favorite books.” he looks down fondly, remembering the first time she showed him she was slightly buzzed and giggly, wearing that fairy dress that only made him fall for her even harder. Maverick continued looking, then arched his eyebrows for the younger pilot to tell him what it meant, “May it be a light for you in the dark places, when all the other lights go out.”

Maverick couldn’t help the smile on his face, “That’s a very nice quote, Brad.” he says, “It’ll definitely help you out there.”

“She believes in me, so much Mav.” he blurts out quietly, “She never got mad when I said I had to go for so long. She said she was upset, but she wasn’t angry at me, she– fuck.” he rubs his face with both of his hands, keeping them there for a while longer, then dragging them to interlace below his chin, “No one ever made me feel like she does, how do you– you know?” he gestures at nothing, his palms open “How is she just the sweetest, kindest person on this planet? How? How is she so understanding?”

Maverick looked up when Rooster stood to his feet, pacing in the small area with his hands on his hips, then dragged them up to his hair to run his fingers through the sandy strands, “You seem conflicted,” Pete mentioned, the young Bradshaw tossed his head back with a sigh, “Talk to me Rooster.”

“I think I love her Mav.” he says, genuinely, with his eyes not meeting Pete, his hands back on his hips as if he wanted to hold himself upright. Maverick blinked, but kept quiet, so quiet Rooster had to look at him, “You…aren’t you going to say something?”

“Like what?”

Rooster makes a noise, shrugging his shoulders, “I don’t know? That this is crazy? That’s been only a month and how the hell am I in love with her? That it makes no sense?” 

But Maverick just purses his lips, then shakes his head, “I don’t think it's crazy.”

“It’s been one month,Mav. One.”

“Some people fall in love in less than a month.” While Pete didn’t elaborate, he had a feeling he was talking about his parents. Bradley just sighed, one of his hands coming up to rub over his face. He questioned himself if it wasn’t just his brain playing tricks on him because he hasn’t had a serious relationship in years and he was nothing but touch-starved for attention, but that made a bitter taste come up to his mouth. It wasn’t that, he wasn’t so cruel to the point he’d keep this going if it was.

His heart just felt like it was on fire, like the type of fire that doesn’t burn but it’s very warm, coating whatever surface with flames that never spread. He thought he fell in love once when he was fourteen and he had a crush on a girl from his Chemistry class, but obviously  it was puppy love and nothing else. It passed as soon as the year turned and he found out she had moved out. But with Beatrice it was different. This past month has been the best he had in a long while. He had so much fun with her, she was so genuinely kind and understanding he almost felt like it was a dream.

Maybe she was a fairy who put a love spell on him. One he didn’t really want to get rid of. He just couldn’t figure out if this was good or bad. Of course being in love is fine, but would she be okay with it? It was one month and here he was being deployed, he’d be away for two months and then what? He should just tell her? He even voiced the question out of Mav, who infuriatingly still had that knowing smile on his face, “It’s one thing to look forward to, isn’t it?”

Rooster didn’t know if he should be happy or worried about that idea. So he just huffed out a tired breath, clenching the ring in his hand before he slipped out his dog tags. Mav looked interested when he unclipped the latch and slid the ring through it, it’s weight making it hit the dog tags with a soft metallic sound. He then put them back on, hiding it underneath his suit “It’ll be safer then.” he replied to Mav’s unsaid question.

The older pilot just chuckled, standing to his feet with a grunt, his joints cracking just a bit. He then patted the younger pilot on the shoulder fondly, squeezing his shoulder for good measure, “It will.” he looked up at the sky seeing the sun was finally higher, “Come on, we need to get ready.” then he led the younger Bradshaw forward, still keeping his hand on his shoulder.

-

Most Mondays after she helped Penny and Shells check the bar, she’d go to her therapy session.  Honestly she was extremely thankful for it being so quick, her anxiety had been spiking since she woke up and sent Bradley a message of ‘stay safe!I’ll see you when you come back!’’ and almost wrote the L word out to him, but chose to send him a smiling emoji instead. She freaked out so much she dropped her phone and curled into a ball against her bed’s headboard, looking at the small device as if it was a wild animal she had to hide from.

She bounced her leg nervously while waiting for the time of her session, sitting on the navy blue chairs with her hands between her legs, clenching her bag strap. She took in deep breaths, feeling her heart about to burst out of her chest, trying to not look down her phone so if the numbers changed yet again. It wasn’t long until the divorced husband who had been coming before her for months left the door behind the receptionist desk that she stood to her feet. She could hear the heels hitting the wooden floors and a kind face appearing on the doorway, “Hello Beatrice.” Dr. Varma says when she meets the young woman, the crinkles in her eyes getting more prominent when she smiles, “Come on in.”

Beatrice nods with a quiet thank you, following the older woman through a hallway decorated with pictures of landscapes, until they reach another door. Dr.Varma opened it for her, smiling so the brunette could walk in first, sitting down on the black pleather chairs in front of the doctor’s desk, much like always. Dr.Varma fixed her dark gray colored suit, then her hair before she took her place in front of Beatrice. 

With her hands interlaced, her wedding band glinting with the light of the room, she supported herself on the desk with a kind grin, “How are you today,Beatrice?” she questions, still keeping her eyes on the young woman.

“I…I’ve been having some anxious thoughts today.” Beatrice chuckled weakly “Um…you remember my boyfriend,right? Bradley.”

“Yes, I do.” she says softly, “You two completed a month haven’t you?” the girl nods, “Congratulations, Beatrice.”

“Thank you…um…he was deployed today.” she muttered, looking up to her therapist to check her reaction. But like always, Dr. Lakshmi Varma just kept her face positively neutral, her light brown eyes held nothing malicious in them. Instead she moved her gaze away for a minute to grab the leather journal where she kept notes of all her patients from its drawer under her desk top, slipping on her dark rimmed glasses.

“That must be hard, Beatrice,” the therapist says, clicking the button on her pen to write something down then looking back up, “How long will he be gone?”

“Two months.” 

“I see.” the knuckles of the hand not holding the pen supported her chin “It’s quite some time.” the brunette nods quietly, so Dr.Varma looks down at her journal to scribble a note “Is that the reason for your anxious thoughts?”

“Kind of.” her therapist stops writing to pay attention to her ,”I…I almost sent him an I love you text.” she whispers like it's shameful, wringing her hands together so tight her knuckles crack. Dr.Varma again shows no negative reaction, she just looks to the side as if she’s thinking then writes more stuff down, “I shouldn’t, right? It’s one month…a-and he’s going to be gone for two months! Like, it’s crazy.”

“Why is it crazy?”

“Huh?”

“Why is it crazy to say you are in love?”

The green eyed brunette just parts her lips that move without words coming out, until they finally do, “Because it’s too soon, right? It’s too soon a-and if I do, he’ll think I’m desperate o-or trying to hold him back or–” she gestured wildly with her hands, one thing she does when the nerves would get too much for her to bear just in her mind. “Plus, what if it distracts him? I don’t know what he’ll do! What if he gets the text and doesn’t see something–”

“Beatrice,” Dr.Varma cuts her gently, “You are overthinking again. Remember what we talked about overthinking?”

Beatrice lowered her gaze, leaning back onto her chair, “That it’s just the brain adding more information to anxious thoughts…”

“Exactly.” The doctor gives her a smile, dropping the pen to the side to interlace her fingers on top of the open journal, “Ever since you told me you two are in a relationship I’ve seen you come with several doubts about yourself and your part when it comes to being a couple. Has Bradley complained about you?” Beatrice shook her head, “Was he vocal about not wishing to continue in the relationship with you?” again she shakes her head negatively, “From what you’ve told me, you two have been going quite strong, Bradley has been nothing but supportive of you and has shown interest in you multiple times.”

Beatrice’s face heats up as she remembers their weekend together, “Yeah…”

“So, why is it odd to think you are in love? Sure, it is a short time, but I wouldn’t say it is a bad thing.” Dr.Varma smiles warmly, “Love is one of the strongest emotions in the universe Beatrice, it could come fast and sometimes unannounced. Sometimes it takes you years to say you love your partner, sometimes it takes just a couple of weeks. What do you feel when you are with Bradley?”

Beatrice inhaled deeply, her chest expanding as she tried to think, “I feel…I feel like…I feel like I’m dancing on clouds.” she whispers with a soft smile, one her therapist reciprocates, “I feel like I’m dreaming, like it’s so good and so real and he’s so sweet to me. He’s so…so sweet to me, he looks at me like I’m the prettiest girl he’s ever seen and nothing else matters. He is...caring and he worries, he wants to know if I’m okay with certain things, he likes when I share my interests, he likes me for me. He’s–” her breathing catches in her throat and her eyes sting, “He’s not ashamed of me.”

Dr.Varma grabs a box of tissues, pulling out a couple to hand over to her young patient, who sniffles quietly while dabbing the paper under her eyes, “Of course not, you are a lovely person, Beatrice.” the brunette stopped flinching over compliments in the months they’ve been having their sessions together, which makes Dr.Varma smile in relief, “Bradley is very lucky to have you…we both know that your past relationship wasn’t good. But you should be open minded when it comes to Bradley. He’s not Eric, Beatrice.”

She frowns at the mention of her ex’s name, but her therapist is right, “He really isn’t.” Eric never did half of the things Bradley did, always looking bored or disinterested whenever she shared things about her favorite hobbies. He didn’t even care when she told him she was painting a picture for his mother for her birthday, only saying it’d be better to buy her a purse or something instead.

She made the terrible mistake of saying she loved him weeks before she found out about his cheating, he replied so happily she believed him. But it was all a ruse so she wouldn’t figure out about him and the one of many girls he was sleeping with. She did, eventually, with the thought if she loved him harder he wouldn’t leave. Didn’t work out in the end, obviously, but at least she came out stronger than before…still dealing with fears of rejection and not knowing how to deal if the L word ever happened to her again. Which was what happened right now.

“Did you tell your family yet?” Dr.Varma asked once she noticed the girl calmed down, “You told me how you were trying to find out how to tell them.”

“I didn’t.” she sniffs, folding the damp tissue in her hand, “I plan to…I might go from the easiest ones to the hardest. So…Guillermo and my parents will be last.” she hoped it would at least. She did promise Leo to talk to them soon after all. 

“Who’s the first on the list?”

Beatrice furrowed her eyebrows, “Sabrina. She lives in Boston but I can call her, then Marina, Michael and then the final heads of the Hydra.” she sighs, wrapping the tissue around her index finger, thankful there were only tears in there, “I’m just scared of them not liking him…or being like ‘oh so he’s Navy? How do you know if he won’t cheat on you when he’s away?’ you know? Those things.” she frowns even more, “Which is kind of a bullshit statement ‘cause my uncle Roberto was in the army and they don’t say those things about him.”

“Beatrice,” Dr.Varma begins, giving her a look with a little smile. Beatrice falters, looking at her hands.

“Overthinking again?” the therapist nods, “I just can’t help it when it comes to my family, you know? I told you how they are, how overprotective they can be…I’m just going to do my best to tell them about Brad and…make them see how much I care for him.” the L word went up to her throat, but she didn’t say it. 

Dr.Varma just grins, writing down more things in her journal “I’m sure you’ll do great.” Beatrice wished she had that confidence within herself more often, just like her therapist does to her. “Please let me know next week if it goes well, will you?”

“Yeah, I promise.” Bea smiles. It wasn’t long until her session was over and Beatrice left the building, walking to her Subaru with the cellphone in her hand. Bradley still hadn’t seen her message and she tried not to worry, he did say little to no contact after all, plus, he’d be fine. He wasn’t alone, he had others with him! So they’d all be fine!

While walking to her car, she frowned when she saw the scratch on the back door, sighing thinking she couldn’t just send it to be repaired again. Maybe she should just sell it and use the money to get a new car, because there was no way she’d be able to pay for yet another repair even if it was superficial. Mr.Guzman did tell her after all…maybe she should focus on that to pass the time too. It's definitely helpful.

Once she got back home, she decided she shouldn’t stall any more when talking to her siblings. It was three in the afternoon, which meant Sabrina was home already from school. She sits down on her couch, with Jojo placing her head on her lap as she types a message to her sister.

Beatrice (15:13)

Hey, Bri? You home? I kinda wanted to talk to you.

Brina (15:20)

Yeah! Sure sis! Give me a second. Is Video okay?

Beatrice (15:21)

Yeah, sure.

Beatrice sucks in a deep breath, waiting for the video call to happen. Her phone vibrates after a few seconds, then she sees her sister’s face on the screen, swiping to accept the call, “Hi Bri. Sorry to bother you today.”

“It’s fine! It’s been so long since we talked, I would have found time anyway.” her sister fixed her glasses over her eyes, smiling brightly at Beatrice through her screen.

Sabrina was the only one in the family to have their father’s deep black hair, she looked a lot like him too, much like Guillermo did. Her jawline was a bit sharper with her cheekbones high and angular, her lips full like all of their siblings but her eyes were big just like their mom. She never knew if Sabrina’s eyes were hazel or green, they always seemed to change color every time she took a closer look.

Her oldest sister was moving around her kitchen, the sound of liquid filling a cup breaking the short lived silence, “So, what did you want to talk about?” Sabrina questions, lifting the 1# Teacher mug to her lips to sip her coffee.

Beatrice licked her lips, it was now or never, “I’m dating someone.” she expected her sister to spit out the drink, but she didn’t, she just lifted her eyebrows with the mug still on her lips, “H-His name is Bradley, he’s an aviator.”

Sabrina lowers the mug to look deep into her sister’s eyes, then smiles, giving her a shrug, “Okay!”

“...o-okay?”

“Um, yeah?” Sabrina laughs, walking out of her kitchen to her living room, “Never thought you’d go for the Navy type but considering where you are now I’m not surprised.” she sighs while sitting down on her couch, combing her hair away from her face. It takes a few seconds for Beatrice to get rid of her shock, but once she does she’s all smiles, telling Sabrina all about Bradley and how they met.

Her sister was extremely supportive, just like Leo was, even telling her she’d visit whenever he was back so they could meet. They spent a good while talking, Sabrina telling her how her kids were too, how Josh was already going to start college next year, William started to play for the football team and Trevor joined the band. They were all so much older now, Beatrice remembered holding them up as babies when she was young herself. 

Sabrina was very happy for her, even telling her to not worry and if she needed she’d vouch for her alongside Leo because of Bradley. She said that ever since she moved out of the house, their parents seemed to mellow a bit more - only to go ‘yikes’ when Bea told her about Guillermo’s trip from New York just to check on her. 

“Either way, you got my support.”

“Thanks, Bri.”

Sabrina’s eyes soften behind the lens of her glasses, “You look happy,Bea. I haven’t seen you with such a good look in your eyes for a while.”

It’s what love does, a voice that eerily resembled her nonna’s thick accent said in her head, but she ignored it, just smiling back at her sister, “Thanks Bri…I’ll let you get back to it okay?”

“Okay, I’ll talk to you soon then?”

“Yeah! Bye Bri!”

“Bye, Little Bitty!”

She dropped the hand holding the phone to her lap, like it weighed so much she couldn’t keep it upright, then leaned her head back on the couch to let out a deep sigh of relief, “Two down…five left.” she whispered to herself, hoping the next conversations would go just as smoothly as this one did.

#bradley rooster bradshaw #rooster bradshaw #bradley bradshaw x oc #top gun maverick #bradley bradshaw x reader

[skinimini80]

Tried something radical today.

I wasn’t particularly hungry this morning. I had a bad b/p yesterday and while I feel I did a good job getting most of it out, it just sort of put me off eating. Sometimes it does that. Whatever.

Still I had a rice bowl on my mind. I wasn’t hungry but I ordered one anyways. I had it after my coffee at like 11:30. Why did I do this?

I’ll tell you why.

Normally when I omad, I am RAVENOUS by the time it’s time for dinner. I eat my meal so fast and while it taste better, it’s gone so quickly AND the last few bites are ruined by the anxiety of it being gone.

I anticipate my meal all day long too. By the time I’ve waited for it, I’m hungry enough to eat my maintenance in one go. My mind has spent the day obsessing. It’s exhausting.

So, I ate when I wasn’t hungry. I ate early. I ate my cals for the day (except for another latte which I may have later before class.) I ate slower. Eating felt like a chore. I didn’t really want to finish it but I forced myself to. I know that isn’t very ana of me or whatever but like I want to associate food with the utter boredom of eating.

Now I’ve finished and I don’t have that post meal sadness. I’m not considering eating later. I’m not hungry and I’m not interested in having more food today. It’s only been about 20 minutes so you know, I might feel differently later but for now I feel solid.

Idk I’m just trying something different because I’ve been flopping recently.

(Also starting my fast at like 11:45 means that the worst hunger will be during sleepy hours! I could wake up already in that beyond hunger fasting state.)

#tw ana diary #ed not sherran #tw disordered eating #bul1m14 #ana trigger #anorexcya #bulimima #anorexigenic #ed not ed sheeran #tw ed diet

[casey-aka-cosmo]

NEW AU THINGAMATHING GO

I guess this is an au right now? i mean technically as of now it could be possible because Dark's fate is unconfirmed soo- It's basically just a scenario that I thought of when I was bored in biology class yesterday

This kind of originated from the though of "lol so what if Dark comes back but it's because he's staying with King Orange and Purple" and my autistic brain had to make an entire backstory for it

ok so

In these events, AVA V takes place before Orchid dies and Purple goes on his quest to the End, and it happens soon after Navy leaves. Orchid and Purple just so happen to be taking a walk in the forest soon after Dark is attacked by Second. They help him, not knowing who he even is.

So Dark stays at their house while recovering, he never tells them that he's "The Dark Lord" and simply introduces herself as "Dark". His initial plan is to use Orchid and Purple's hospitality while he gets better (and secretly trains so he can be ready to face Chosen or anyone possibly stronger) Though.. After a couple of months of living with them, he slowly grows closer to the two and becomes more and more reluctant on betraying them. They have a lot of great moments together and he and Purple start becoming very close friends.

-Side note: I have a headcanon that all the hollow heads become attatched to people really easily, hence Second being enraged by his friends' processes being ended in AVA IV, and Chosen being quite protective over Sec after only two brief encounters It happened for Dark too but he just spent most of their time in denial-

After Orchid's death, Dark tries his best to be there for Purple, but ends up revealing who he is and flees.

And so avm takes place and Purple moves in with Orange in the end.

Then the wanted posters show up.

Dark had gone into hiding for the time being - if he exposed himself he would probably join Chosen on those posters - but Purple managed to find her. Purple offers to help him and ends up telling him their little experience with Minecraft.

So Dark stays with Purple and whatever happens happens idk

IM WRITING A FANFICTION ABOUT THIS BTW the first chapter will be pre-avm and the second will be post-avm and its gonna take a while because woah what im proof reading a fanfic for once

#animator vs animation #alan becker #au #ava the dark lord #avm purple #my autism won sorry #*foams at the mouth* dark and purple duo... *shakes them around normally* #i need my bbg Dark back just as much as i need a Purple appearance in ava #if youve also considered this idea please marry me /j #im a little nervous to post this for some reason but whatever here goes nothing

[aro-paladin-pidge]

So, yesterday (I think) I posted about some vague ideas I had for what might have happened if the Galra had found Blue pre-canon, right? So I just had an absolute brainwave last night, and now this is a full-fledged au.

A little while ago, I made this post about how bad the character motivations in Voltron were (long story short, only 1 of the 5 paladins’ motivations worked for the plot) and I’ve been contemplating ways the show writers could’ve fixed this (for Lance and Hunk in particular) for quite a while and yesterday’s post fixes goddamn everything.

So, the empire gets the Blue Lion. For plausibility’s sake, I’m going to stretch the date on this way back to ~200 years pre-canon, let’s say after World War 3 (yes World War 3 canonically happened at some point, blink-and-you’ll-miss-it line from Season 7), which could possibly be around the 2100s (no concrete dates are given, so I’m just going off what feels right). The Galra conquer Earth, have Blue for long enough that Haggar/the Druids figure out some way to measure a person’s quintessence for similarities with the Blue Lion, and this quintessence-testing process goes into effect across the universe as the Galra attempt to find a blue paladin.

Eventually, Lance is born, and when he’s 13-14 years old (my best guess for when the Garrison would start taking students, based on real-life military academies and the Season 7 Keith flashbacks) he enrolls in the Garrison, (A Galra-controlled military school in this au) and as part of his physical for entry, they take some of his quintessence, as has been standard policy for the last few decades. They run some tests on it, compare it to Blue’s, and it’s similar enough that he could be a paladin.

So, based on what Allura says in s1e1 about the Lions choosing their paladins based on personality + how Red makes Keith prove himself before choosing him, despite their assumedly compatible quintessence, it’s clear that the lions choose based on two factors: similar quintessence (which seems like the minimum requirement, they HAVE to have similar enough quintessence to make a bond possible) and personality (personal criteria, aka why they choose someone to be a paladin. If the criteria are initially met, but then the paladin changes, like with Zarkon, a Lion can revoke their bond in favor of a better suited paladin. This shit is fascinating, imma write a post on it at some point) but, all this to say that the Galra would probably take Lance to wherever they’re keeping Blue, probably in that giant Central Command ship.

Blue obviously chooses Lance as her paladin, so the Galra basically kidnap him and force him to like, fly Blue for them. Lance is a decent person, so he doesn’t want to, but since the Galra control Earth in this au, they use his family as leverage to force him to. So, for the ~3 years until canon, Lance is a paladin/prisoner of the Galra, so he gets experience as a paladin, actual information about the modern Empire, and a motivation to fight them!

On earth, things would proceed mostly as they do in canon. I’d imagine Keith would know about his Galra heritage and probably have spent some time with the Blade/his mom, but she probably would lose track of him after his dad dies, so he’d still end up with Shiro, as in canon.

Shiro would be a Galra soldier in this au, a talented graduate of the Garrison that maybe has some doubts about the Galra’s mission. He’s assigned to fly a research mission to Kerberos with some scientists (including Matt and Sam, but not just them) and while he’s there, the team comes across something they’re not supposed to, like an Altean ruin or something, idk, this part’s not completely ironed out. So the team disappears, Kerberos mission is scrapped and chalked up to pilot error, and Shiro is sent to the Gladiator pits where he learns the truth about the empire.

Pidge enlists in the Garrison late, as a communications cadet, in order to spy on the Galra and figure out what happened to their family. I’d imagine that they pretty quickly figure out just how bad the empire is after their family goes mission, so they’re a bit of an anti-imperial activist.

Hunk stays mostly the same because he’s already an excellent character that deserved so much better. He and Pidge are placed on the same team with like, James or someone as their pilot. Since James is a jerk, Hunk bonds with Pidge over their shared nerdiness, and when Pidge eventually tells him about how evil the Galra really are, he decides to work with Pidge to find their family and maybe to fight the empire.

When canon hits, the Blade has the same motivation as they do in the show-to get Blue out of the Galra’s hands. Ulaz finds Lance, and eventually convinces him to defect from the empire, promising that the Blade will get his family out of harm’s way. He stages Shiro’s escape as a cover for Lance’s defection, and implants the coordinates for the Blade’s base in Shiro’s hand, telling them to input those coordinates once they’re sure the Galra can’t track them. They both escape on the Blue Lion, but Lance doesn’t really trust these people he’s met, like, twice, so they decide to go back to earth to make sure that his family is actually safe.

On earth, things go bad, because the Blue Lion is 1. Extremely noticeable and distinctive 2. Widely known as the most powerful ship in the Galra arsenal and 3. Was just involved in a major prison breakout. Yikes. Shiro and Lance are ambushed by Galra soldiers the instant they hit ground, resulting in a very big, public battle.

Keith, who is not a weird desert hermit, as Blue is no longer calling out to him and keeping him in the middle of nowhere, sees it on, like, the news or smth, immediately recognizes Shiro, and, just like in canon, rushes in to rescue him. Pidge and Hunk, back at the Garrison, realize that that’s Shiro, who disappeared with Pidge’s family a year ago. They rush out to find him, and all of the paladins meet up in Cuba, right in time for another big battle where they learn how to work together. They manage to defeat the Galra, but more reinforcements are coming, so they decide to get the hell out of dodge and get to the Blade headquarters.

Unfortunately, the Galra send a giant fleet after them, resulting in a huge, destructive battle, and Blue is forced to flee through a wormhole, sending them to, surprise surprise, Arus. Cue the rest of the series, but with paladins who have actual motivation to form Voltron and fight the Galra, characters who have worked together before, and someone who knows how to fly the Lions.

I do have another version of this au, which I think is way more interesting, both plotwise and characterwise, but it would dramatically upend the status quo of the story, change pretty much everything about the power scaling and overall stakes of the series, so I’m not sure about it. I’ll outline it briefly here.

Basically, the Galra Empire has to have some pretty great propaganda, right? I mean, they’re an incredibly oppressive, authoritarian empire that has had absolute control over the universe for 10,000 years, there’s no way that happened without excellent propaganda. So, what if Lance, who is 13 years old and signs up to be a Galra soldier at the Garrison in this au, is actually convinced by the Galra that he’s doing something good by serving the Galra? Idk how Shiro would get out of the gladiator rings here-maybe the Blade instigates a prisoner revolt, and Ulaz recognizes Shiro as the guy who’s most likely to survive, and gives him the coordinates bc of that-but he gets back to earth, finds Keith, Pidge, Hunk, and maybe even Adam, and they get to the blade headquarters, find the Red Lion, and get to Arus from there. This would make Lance a kind of villain for the first few seasons, and make the paladins unable to form Voltron, which I think would be fascinating, but would kinda necessitate an entire rewrite. This is where the ‘No Blue AU’ name came from, since the other one does have Blue in it. Maybe I’ll call that one ‘Yes Blue AU’.

#Voltron #Lance #Blue #paladins #but like it’s mostly focused on those two #au #voltron au #Voltron rewrite #mine #No Blue AU #Yes Blue AU #yes I’m going with that now #I told you guys this was going to be good #I love this #expect more VERY soon

[heyharoldsboo]

https://www.tumblr.com/percyandgeorgieupdates/712438597995937792/percy-hynes-white-in-an-event-in-la-last-week

Kinda annoyed they put a watermark next to his beautiful face :(

Since when did people start watermarking pics that aren’t/weren’t taken by them? Like no offense to this person or people behind it, but all you did was find it.

This has never been such an issue in my previous fandoms, so why is it a big problem now in this one? :/

Hi, I’m the problem it’s me? I’m the main person running percyandgeorgieupdates, while I do have an incredible team of friends helping me with it.

I wasn’t going to be petty and show exactly why I did it, but I will. While I would never do this if Percy had posted this himself, he didn’t.

Those blurry pics at the event that were posted yesterday? Me and my friends spent a full night tracking idk, 15 different profiles to find it. And the blurry as fuck pictures were stolen by big accounts without giving credit to me, or to picspercyhynes on twitter, an account that is run by one of my friends. We split the photos, because we share resources.

So yeah, we started watermarking, because we spend days searching for these, and then people take advantage of it, and don’t credit even when called out. You know why no one else has the pictures? Because it’s hard work to find and no one else wants to do the hard work. And even though we didn’t take the pictures, they were only found because we worked damn hard for it, all while protecting his privacy as best we could.

I value the work done by my fellow fans. I credit them. If everyone did the same, we wouldn’t be here. But we are. So here’s an example:

(And I totally get you weren’t having a go at percyandgeorgieupdates, I’m just pissed off of all my friends work being used by accounts without the proper credit!)

#heyharoldsboo talks

[insomniamamma]

a moment of appreciation for u off anon. i sent an ask on anon for your ask game yesterday but i'm here just to say i think you are so cool. I love your writing, and I love learning from you - in posts you reblog, or in posts about life, things you type in the tags. I'm inspired by you and the fact that you have these amazing passions, hobbies, and creative talents, and you're a working adult and parent as well. It makes me really emotional to see women of many ages interacting in fandom spaces -- especially when socially, women are so often encouraged to leave their interests behind as time goes on. you're so fucking cool and badass and lovely and intelligent and kind. i hope you have a great day.

and I hope your uncle is alright - I have some antivax friends and while I think they're idiots for not getting vaccinated, I Iove them and don't wish any ill on them - sending healing vibes your way.

oh my goodness. i am feeling so many things right now. I'm not sure how coherent this answer is going to be.

I've spent a lot of time lurking in fandom spaces before there were fandom spaces, I used to read Farscape fanfic when all we had was geocitities. I've fallen down various fandom black holes over the years but always as a lurker, I wrote fic but always for myself. I didn't work up the nerve to interact with fandom until what? Three years ago? IDK, the whole pandemic thing has played hell on my sense of time.

what I'm saying is, I didn't get up the nerve to write fanfic and share it with the world until I was over 40.

The way fandom treats middle aged women is fucking disgusting and hypocritical. 20 years olds can say the nastiest shit imaginable about (insert middle aged celebrity here), but when an older woman *checks notes* expresses any sort of sexual interest in (insert middle aged celebrity here) oooooh. ewwww. creeper.

And its like, ok, I was not the one on tik-tok saying (insert middle aged celebrity here)'s cum would make good lipgloss. You all want to be his problematically young girlfriend.

And don't get me going about the whole subset of people who think that anyone over 25 in fandom spaces is automatically some sort of creepy groomer. How dare women over 30 write about sexual desire. HOW DARE.

Sorry this turned super ranty. It's good to know that there are people out there who welcome my presence.

You don't cease to exist once you turn 30 or 40 of 50. Once you become a parent you don't cease to be you. I wish people understood this and stopped punishing women for having interests other than fucking child-rearing.

This ask makes me feel so much hope.

thank you for the well-wishes for my uncle. I will never forgive Trump for politicizing a goddamn plague.

[taegularities]

Hello lovely Rid 💕💕💕

First of all...

okaaaaay 👀👀👀 I don't like seeing sad Jungkook (or sad Rid for that matter) but short hair Jungkook makes me crazy, so I'll take it.

Also I wanted to ramble about who I'm a bigger simp for, since you posted that cruel poll making me choose.

So basically, I'm really really obsessed with c&f Jungkook and I can't even pinpoint the exact reason why? I've said this before but I've never been more whipped for a man who I don't fully trust so quickly. There was just something about him that had me from the beginning, even with his very questionable looking intentions. So I'm a big simp for him in a more base level way? Like it's almost involuntary lmaooo.

And then for cmi Jungkook... I mean he has my whole heart. He might be my favourite fictional Jungkook ever actually... Literally all sides of him (that we've seen so far) I'm in love with. Just writing about him right now has me going 🥺🥺🥺. I'm ready to protect him at all costs and he also makes me crazy (in all kinds of ways). maybe i'll save the love letter for him for the cmi anniversary i mean what?

I love both of them a lot though. Thinking about both the c&f epilogue and cmi8 gives me emotional whiplash.

Other than that though, how are you doing, Rid? I saw that you're feeling a little sick and once again I'm ready with all the virtual blankets and tea and hugs since I can't take care of you irl 🥺 I hope you get through it very very soon!!!

I've been feeling very emotional and a little melancholic myself recently. But today I listened to d day and it actually made me feel loads better, Yoongi just always knows how to comfort 🥺 I also got started on a paper that I'm excited to write, for which I received unexpectedly good feedback while I was still at the planning stages! Trying to focus on the good things and set up a good base for when my exam season starts.

I hope you feel better soon Rid, sending you all of my love 💞💞💞

IVI LOL, you really do point out the subtlest things !!! did not think anyone would catch that haircut bit, but look at you :'))

i think you're a simp for c&f jk bc you know a good man when you see one... despite his initially questionable behaviour, he truly is a sweet bean who tends to act monstrous (in bed) at times lmao so i understand the obsession... :')

and i know, cmi jk is just 😭 thank you for loving him so much, tbh he might be my fav jk i've written so far too :(( my lil baby :(( and i can't wait for his return :((((

thank you, ivi !! :') i hate that this happens, idk why i get colds so frequently ?? like i spent most of yesterday and today napping and it sucksss lmao i want to be productive, too :') but i'll take the blankets i love you 🤍🥺 so happy you've been well !! despite the melancholy... i get that feeling. there must be something in the air, bc everyone's been very emotional these days. i'm so glad you have stuff you can look forward to, though, and i hope that mood stays bc you deserve it 💕

(also i've been wanting to say this — i know you said i don't need to be, but im so sorry for being slow with answering at times... you send such thoughtful and incredibly kind thoughts and then i feel bad. but i want to answer just as thoughtfully and the current time has been beating my ass lmao sorry again but i love you rambling and will always get to it bc i love you so fkn much 😭🥺🤍)

#UM WDYM AN ANNIVERSARY LOVE LETTER BTW !!!!!???? #notes for rid 🌹 #ivi <3 #fic: candles & flames #fic: colour me in #long ask

[safetycar-restart]

LMAO i was NOT feeling well yesterday was i what with casually suggesting i enjoy cannibalism through ?? lemon 🍋 PASTIES ?? whatever that is, but apparently they’re sad in the middle idk fhydvjiytgjkfdgj (my best guess is i was thinking 'bitter' but got confused bc lemons are sour......maybe.....and evidently decided to discard the metaphor midway) (in my defence i spent 4 hours hunched over polishing pretty rings and will probably sneeze silver for a week now)

Offtop oversharing aside, i have seen the post you reblogged for me (which in itself is 🥺🥺🥺 for me ??? like obviously not only just for me but. for me??) and HELLO YES IM GONNA SCREAM WHAT ELSE DID YOU EXPECT ?? imagine seb being so soft and pretty for you and resting his chin on your lap and looking at you with the happiest puppy eyes in the world bc hes so happy to be your good boy, all while kneeling next to you on the floor

ALSO a bit of a tangent but it got me thinking about him sitting in your lap and just. Enjoying it so much. Feeling tiny and safe and cared for, practically like hes in a nest, and hed also try to curl in on himself as much as he can so that he can fit his head under your chin (his curls are gonna tickle, but its mostly fine if he doesnt move around too much) and just hide in your arms from the whole world, safe and sound

Anyway, let me drop in this humble offering while i go write that long task i was mulling over ever since you reblogged that seb+praise gifset (which is a. my favourite gifset and b. i notice everything 👁👁💜)

Love,

Lemon

YES!! I fucking love lemon so much this is perfect. Firstly, I do think you suggested some mild cannibalism but it's okay, we don't judge here.

As for the seb thoughts, this ask is in response to a picture I reblogged of a pretty blond sub kneeling with a collar and leash which of course caused lemon to go insane.

But yes I love these thoughts!!!

Maybe, you actually asked seb to kneel for you? And like, you expect him to kneel with his back to you, as he usually does.

But this time, he just feels so nice and safe and he really wants to keep on looking at you cause you're the one who makes him feel so nice and safe! He can't be blamed for that, he just wants to look at you!!

So when he gets down on his knees, he turns to face you and rests his chin on your knee, looking up at you with a small smile on his face.

Of course you don't berate him for that, if he wants to look up at you while he's kneeling, then he's more than welcome to.

Maybe you play with his hair? And then let your hand slip lower until he can suckle on your fingers? Then he's just as happy as can be.

And on your lap!! Yes!!

You don't like to let him kneel for too long, because you can't risk hurting his knees.

But when you ask him to get up, he starts whining and even looks a little teary eyed. Because he just feels so good right now and he isnt ready for that to end. He wants to stay right where he is.

When you realise why he's getting distressed, you say, "I'm sorry darling, but we cant have you hurting your knees from kneeling for too long. But, why don't you get up here and come sit on my lap?"

He gets up then, because the idea of sitting on your lap is enticing enough to get him to stop kneeling.

And then he's so happy!!!

He feels so safe like that, curled up in your lap. He can hide form the world there. And then you grab a blanket and wrap it around his shoulders and it's even BETTER then.

You know have lapdog for a sub.

#sub!sebastian #sv #gn!reader #🍋

[mamamittens]

Update!

Well, this week has been fuck all for production hasn't it lol? Literally passed out for about 16 hours yesterday and am tempted to do it again.

Sorry about that, by the way, it's been an exhausting and stressful week at work prepping for inventory (which was today) basically by myself and with two major storms having blown into my area (one just winding down for me with currently over 80,000 power outages and winds reaching up to 90 miles an hour, yikes) that had tornado threats so I had to watch like a hawk in case we needed to take shelter quickly.

Okay, I say need but it's mostly for my anxiety but I still spent most of this afternoon sick and nauseous from either the steak I had for dinner or stress. Probably both idk, my body is a bit weird sometimes.

Folks that have been around while may know that I don't tend to write anything if there's severe weather in my area, so anyone new can now know that too lol

Plans for the future? Well, I want to knock out those requests and address the asks that have been gathering dust in my inbox (whoops). I'm still deciding if I want to introduce Koala (and start waving that Fisher death flag lol) or keep walking through those big milestones--ah I still need to introduce the toxin thing whoops--maybe saving a few for emotional flashbacks? It is about a 2 year jump so there's quite a lot that could happen in that timespan.

It's a little hard to say cause idk how interested y'all are in the other, less exciting baby firsts compared to walking and talking. And while I enjoy writing in these little moments and mostly get my serotonin thataway from fic ideas to keep me going and interested, I don't intend to bore you all.

Oh! I will start cross posting on AO3 soon just to avoid the tedious process of uploading the entire thing(when I finish) chapter by chapter cause that shit sucked ngl so look forward to that I suppose~

Bear in mind that I have about 3 hours of free time on weekdays so some things genuinely take me a while if I want to do other things like catch up on fics or YouTube... Or Tears of the Kingdom lmao

Hopefully, I'll see y'all soon with more content!

And sorry for the delay, this hasn't been my intention but when is it ever?

#a lone melody #mittens update #got a headache and idk if its cause of the destressing amount of coworkers who cant count for shit #so today has been... fun #sure lets go with that

[jungk0oksthighs]

after months of not really making time for my friends and low-key pushing them away when my mental health was at its worst it’s been so nice see them and make new memories together over the past 3 days

thursday - went for a carvery n cake followed by a shopping trip with my bestie Alex was amazing 10/10 need to do it more often instead of constantly online shopping cause it’s so much better irl / thursday night me n her got drunk in her hot tub and had a sleepover (we watched HP1 in our matching HP pjs hehe) bc her bf was out of town

friday - went for a coffee with my bestie Betty and had a drive out to another city to go exploring / then we decided super last minute to go on a night out and it was 10/10 i convinced a dj to play that that by psy n suga n there was a pole in the club so u can imagine the scenes (turns out that that is a great song to pole dance to and gets you a lot of free drinks)

saturday - tonight i went to see my friend Lauren we had pizza and got cosy on the sofas with blankets and snacks and watched all of the simpsons halloween episodes in order while catching up, we used to work together but shes changed jobs so was good to see she’s doing well! on my way home i stopped at my friend Ashleigh’s house who gave birth to her first child yesterday!!!! i took her a McDonald’s and gave her my left over snacks cause i know she’s gonna be tired and baby is honestly the cutest i only had a little peek then left cause i didn’t want to overwhelm Ash but was still so lovely to see her & her now little family!

idk why i’m sharing all of this i guess i just wanna express my gratitude for my friends they’re amazing girls and i’ve loved every second spent with them n they’ve all been really understanding about my diagnosed sadness - that being said i’m so happy to be at home in bed now my social battery has completely burned out i can’t wait to have a lie in tomorrow and just do nothing. sorry i’ve been pretty inactive while i’ve been so busy, regular jungkook shit posting will resume tomorrow, along with the oto finale tomorrow night! i hope everybody enjoys the rest of their weekend, goodnight guys i’ll officially be back on here tomorrow x

[danpuff-ao3]

Danni! Where do you get the images you use for your banners? They always look so good and convey such strong vibes! xoxo

Hi there Anon! Thanks so much! I've always envied people who had such cute banners so it feels really good to have ones for myself that I really like now! 😄 The answer is: Canva!

I've only been doing this for like a week but I started getting things setup for @hp-fruit-fest and needed banners! So I toyed around for a few hours one night until I got some images I liked. It was very trial and error, but it was a good starting point since "clean, simple, colorful" was the vibe I wanted.

Once I was more comfortable making images for fest use, I decided to play around some more in Canva for potential story banners. The natural place to start was Contempt. A story I really loved and was really familiar with and was willing to do a lot of trial and error on.

In fact, let me go un-delete some photos so you can see the progression:

My very first thought was to search "red silk" because I liked the idea of it, but quickly nixed it after doing a series of "fabric themed" titles for the series. (The other options I won't show since the stories aren't out yet!) They were cute, but weren't quite right.

Then I moved onto fire. A natural choice imo! Harry our fiery Leo; the fire of his passion, and how it energizes and consumes him. The second image got me to breakdown and pay for a monthly subscription.

On the note of subscriptions: I don't think I'll keep it ongoing, as I think it's a bit pricey for something I don't imagine I'll be using super often outside of my immediate needs. You can create perfectly serviceable images with the free option, but it is annoying that when you search stuff the "pro" options show up as well. I will say if you're tempted by the pro version, do it a month when you have the money to spare and a lot of images you want to make and just do it a month at a time. 🤷‍♀️ But definitely not necessary!

Anyway, so the second image's background tempted me too much at the time, though I'm less impressed by it now. The look of like a fiery sky with stars! That led me to another round of series images that were sky themed. I did keep one image from that round, for the Kinkuary fic I'm posting on the 14th!

After a while I just wasn't impressed with any of the fire images I was creating, and so then I moved onto snake. Specifically: a red one!

I have a lot of thoughts about symbolism in general, but specifically for Contempt. In fact, I wrote a whole meta about it that I soon deleted out of embarrassment. 😂 Maybe I'll put it back up one day, idk, we'll see!

So there's the representation at face value: the snake for Slytherin for Severus. Red for Gryffindor for Harry. Then you get into the symbolism of the serpent (rebirth, eternity, life, danger, lies, evil) and the symbolism of red (passion, courage, anger, danger, violence.) Then the specific connections to the story, with the serpent on Severus' door (and the symbolism of doors being either imprisonment or opportunity.) Then, when discussing the embroidery with Mari (onbeinganangel) I got into the nature symbolism, and how it represented both beauty and brutality, which I associated with their love and their story.

Luckily searching "red snake" landed me the perfect image. Then I spent ages determining the font. Actually what's really missing from the lineup above was a really cool but also terrible font choice. Maybe I should go recreate it just to show you. 😂

Ngl, I still like it, I'm just not sure it's the right mood. 😅

Anyway, by this point, "perfecting" Contempt made me feel much more confident in what I was doing. So I actually spent a lot of time yesterday creating title banners. Only a few I've shared, though! Some I have saved for future "Self-Rec Saturdays" and 2 for the 2 Kinkuary stories that are finished but not yet posted! (Snarry coming on the 14th and Riddledore on the 27th!)

Most of them I had a pretty good idea of images to search for, but for the Swiftly Snarry series I was actually at a bit of a loss. No imagery really stuck out at me, at least nothing I could easily find and use. I did a lot of random word searches. "Headmaster's office", "wizard office", "antique office", "antique desk", etc. I searched "books" and...hmm. Other stuff I'm forgetting at the moment.

I actually found the key image I used for A Chain Reaction of Countermoves first. I had to create a new page to drop the image into so I wouldn't lose it! Then I went back to the page I was working on Clandestine Meetings & Stolen Stares in. The key worked in my head since in the story they're meeting in an inn and the whole "key to my heart" idea. Plus it had the antiquey feel I was sort of looking for.

Settling on the key also made me decide to have a "one object" feel for Clandestine Meetings, so I searched "quill" and...tbh still spent too much time looking, but at least I had an idea of what I wanted after that. Then a matter of choosing the right colors for the font. The font itself was easy enough as it's a text template I like that is easily adjusted for size and color.

Then, last night, while making a "Self-Rec Saturday" banner and testing how the drafts looked on Tumblr...I realized Canva had an option to save with a transparent background! -gasp-

Original Self-Rec banner options:

Which are still cute, don't get me wrong, and maybe I'll use them one day, but the transparent background???? Look!!!!

and:

That was some trial and error of it's own having to check how it would look once on Tumblr, too, with font color (but also remembering I use Tumblr in dark mode hahaha) and image size.

So yeah that's what I've been doing all week. Playing with Canva. 😂

Sooo...

TL;DR: I used Canva. It takes some trial and error and practice to use but once you get the hang of it you can get some cute stuff!

#anon asks #asked & answered #canva #danni rambles #title banners