#i would immediately want them GONE

[watchingwisteria]

listen there really was just something about how in the book, snow’s 3-page descent from hesitant lover boy to deluded psychopath happens entirely in his mind. lucy gray gives him no indication whatsoever that she suspects him, that she’s going to leave or betray him. he’s just sitting quietly in the cabin waiting for her to return when that seed of calculated suspicion, which he has needed to survive the capitol, takes a hold of him and chokes the life out of any goodness left inside him. it really drives home your terror as a reader that “oh my god did he kill her? did she escape? what happened to her? why would he even think that?” in a way that when the movie had to adjust for visualization it lost some of that holy shit this guy has lost it emphasis.

#seeing some discourse and im not saying lucy grey didnt know #im saying she never dropped the kind of hints that she knew like she did in the movie #or if she did snow isnt worried about them until he very suddenly is consumed by them #snow is not concerned about whether or not she believed him. of course she did! hes snow! #but then shes gone…. for a while…… #and its the sudden immediate drastic unravelling that comes across so clearly in the book #that i knew wouldn’t translate to screen yet still cant help but miss #the hunger games #coriolanus snow #tbosas #lucy gray baird #not a crime or anything just a note that i cannot stop thinking about #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #this is all from memory of reading it quite a while ago. so maybe 3 pages is an exaggeration #but i remember it happening VERY quickly and without much external cause #like we as the reader have no indication as to whether shes nearby or not. #snow has no idea either. he just SUSPECTS. and his suspicion breeds the hatred that has been bubbling inside him all this time #he hates how she undoes him. he hates that he WOULD run away with her if shed let him keep his secrets #and he HATES more than anything that she makes him WANT to tell his secrets #he wants to be vulnerable and reveal the ugly nasty parts about himself and still be loved #but he does not let himself and it is everyone’s downfall #he chooses cruelty bc it is easy and familiar and makes him feel more powerful than the vulnerable give and take that real love requires

[evankinard]

something so so so icky to me about people on 911twt and 911blr talking about oliver's workout videos on his insta saying things like they're not "hot" or that they're "weird". I even saw someone call it "triggering" which is just..okay that's a thing that is very specific to you if it really bothers you that much block him or something that should not be something that he should have to worry about on his own instagram. but even the milder comments like the first two i mentioned are so infuriating to me cause what do you mean?? working out is not supposed to be hot and him posting about something he likes doing and is passionate about should not come with the expectation that he's meeting some attractiveness level at every point in his life. with things like this i always imagine myself in the celebrities' shoes and it honestly makes me feel horrible to imagine them coming across any of these comments and not feeling comfortable doing something as innocent as posting workout videos cause he knows strangers are gonna be publicly judging him

#dont even get me started on the 'i think he looked better before muscles aren't attractive to me' comments #if i was experiencing any change in my physique no matter how small and someone unprovoked just went 'sorry i found - more attractive' #i would immediately want them GONE #not to mention the only reason people feel comfortable making these kinds of comments in these spaces is because he's a man #anyway had to get that off my chest cause its been months and every single time its the exact same thing #let him live!!! #and i dont just mean dont say those things to him directly cause I'm sure most of those comments dont go in his comment section or dms and #its literally just people talking on their own accounts #but stil! #its none of your business its not something that needs to be commented on where everyone else can see #you'll survive if you keep your thoughts about someone else's body to yourself i promise

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Bros before Ho(oh my god is that Hanguang-Jun?)

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #jiang cheng #WWX really was unhinged for saying he was going to always be at JC's side and then immediately asking about LWJ. #The D in ADHD stands for Distractible. The second D stands for DooowawawaWaaaah (ADHDers know what I mean) #Their conversation is such a knife twist in this flashback. WWX truly and genuinely does mean it when he says he wants to support JC #And that JC hopes for that too! Tragedies hit the hardest when you can feel the lost futures characters would have together #And I feel it here in this scene so painfully. There's complicated feelings between them but it wasn't what broke them apart. #The rumours and the twisted family dynamics that tried to pit them against each other likely wouldnt have worked. #It set the stage for JC to have an inferiority complex which then grows into his responsibility complex. #WWX even calls it out! That JC has to be the responsible one in the dynamic. #And it sucks to be in that unequal position with a sibling or a not-sibling. #You don't get the love *or* acknowledgement but you do get the pressure to be the 'better one' in the face of the other's misbehaviour. #But I digress. There was a world where they did became the twin heroes of yunmeng jiang and stayed together. #And we'll never see it. That world is gone now. And just like Lotus pier -even if they tried to rebuild it - they will never be the same.

[bizarrelittlemew]

calling it right now that season 3 starts like this

#so confused about people saying the season finale feels like the end because to me it didn't at all #there's like 5-10 issues immediately set up for another season #they're in a happy place at this point because they've both realized their love is bigger than anything else #and makes it worth working on their problems together #the problems are still very much there #both of them have deep self esteem/self loathing issues that haven't been resolved in the week since ed woke up #ed doesn't know about stede's trauma #they haven't talked through anything #and they'll be shit at starting/running an inn lmao it's not gonna go well #and those are just some of the internal issues #then there's prince ricky and all the authorities that would very much like to get their hands on both blackbeard and stede bonnet #because stede just full-on kept using his government name after faking his death. nice one #the crew are not “gone” they're more like off to college for a bit but will probably run into trouble immediately #again because while they escaped to the ship they didn't eliminate the threat (the british empire) #it's not a forever goodbye #ok this got super long already anyway i have a whole fic marinading in my brain until i've finished these 4 wips i'm in the middle of ✌️ #hope we get a renewal soon because i want to see the rest of their story!! #ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd s2 #ofmd #our flag means death

[tenisperfection]

7x04 being from Buck's perspective broke my brain because of the way we saw Eddie through Buck's eyes. Then I realized that Suspicion, where Eddie was shot, was from Eddie's perspective, and all of Surviviors was from Buck's perspective and I want to jump into the ocean.

#the implications...... #we saw eddie's turmoil when carla brought up the follow your heart line #his agony over charlie's abuse #then the shooting and watching his best friend splattered with his blood #that split second where he realized who buck was to him and has been all along #the way he wanted to reach out and touch buck one last time #(do not think about eddie thinking about chris under any circumstances but if you do imagine eddie feeling relieved that buck will be there #and sorrow that he won't be there with chris and won't get to see him grow up and won't get to see buck #and then we have survivors right #we immediately jump to buck's perspective with him getting eddie into the ambulance and eddie asking if buck was hurt *sobs* #and the whole episode is mostly buck's side #but so is the will scene!!!! #because we obviously went nuts over the implications of it #but consider the tone of the scene--there's devotion yes #but most of the tone is that of disbelief #because buck can't believe eddie did this and eddie didn't tell him and eddie is telling him now #and eddie wants buck to carry on for christopher if eddie is gone #and buck absolutely would #but in his mind he can't fathom a world where he has to exist without eddie #and eddie is the one asking him to #hahahahah fuck you don't find it son you make it all over again #buck made this and buck chose this and buck has to live with it #i can't wait for these men to realize/bring to light all the love between them #911 abc #this unraveling on a saturday afternoon is brought to you by insanity

[brittie-frog]

Right here's what I hope happens since we're not getting a qsmp stream like Foolish and Tina said we would get this weekend.

- they reset the art in the museum on Monday doing a nepotism and putting Tina's art of Pomme in

- wait a few days for people to see it and those that don't know about it realise that it THE TinaKitten that drew it

- have a lore stream that's potentially just Tina (and Foolish) escaping because Bagera and Cellbit chose to stay while Tina and Foolish were running to the boat and wanted to escape

- Foolish and Leo reunion, Teaduo reunion

- Tina finally gets to meet Empanada and immediately hit it off then they go to the museum as a mini family

- Tina points out the Pomme drawing and how she got in because nepotism and Empanada asks her to draw her

- Tina immediately does it off stream and privately messages the admins to put it in the museum and then she'll post it on the next monday after they've seen it so it's not spoiled

- chat and Em both freak out at seeing Tina's adorable drawing and then all the other eggs keep asking Tina to draw them

#i literally had this dream last night #and either em is cheeky being like why didnt you draw me? since the museum isnt canon #or is super nervous asking to be drawn as well because shes a little sweetheart #please i need them to meet and tina immediately fall in love #also bagi needs to ask her to be her girlfriend the second they get a moment alone #i cant have tina keeping going around like 'shes my minecraft... crush???? she might not have meant anything that way!!' #after having gone on a date and bagi literally constantly flirting with her #while bagis just constantly refering to her as her girlfriend before adding that she hasnt actually asked yet #these gay disasters #teaduo #qsmp #qsmp tina #qsmp empanada #qsmp bagi #qsmp teaduo #it would be funny that if tina does decide to draw all the eggs that the space above the lecturn on the second floor is the place for them #then the rest is still the fans art but the eggs can see Tina's art of them without having to find them in the server #i just fucking love tinas art and her pomme and have done leo are so good #i want to jnow how she would design empanada

[spacedlexi]

sooo glad we live in the universe where twdgs4 was rewritten to be about saving the school instead of the original lis2-esque on the road each-episode-is-a-new-location plot. really dodged a bullet there

dont know if it was due to the cuts and collapsing work environment (no budget for all the assets needed) or what but the school plot is just like the perfect setting for her to end her story. and we really almost got a plot about her.... just trying to make it back to her original house? oof

#my biggest problem with lis2 is that being on the road made a lot of your choices essentially meaningless #like wheres the threat of consequence when you know youll be gone by the next episode anyway? #the kids were originally gonna kick them out permanently.......Nightmare Scenario #the plot of her trying to get back 'home' is so silly honestly like its Just nostalgia/fan bait. convince me otherwise you cant #it makes no sense....she lived right outside a major city... that place is Not safe anymore #it wasnt even safe when she left it 8 years ago girl why would you go back #her finding a place to MAKE a new home and having to fight for it? with a community of her peers who love and respect her? so much better #shes a community leader now :) of a bunch of kids living secretly in the woods just trying to make a safe home for themselves #in a hostile world that wants them dead #love that for her #shes been managing adults since she was 11 and even before that tried to be a voice of reason. at 8 years old. community leader makes sense #s4 is just so narratively sound to me for clems character that i cant believe there was ever any other direction they wanted to go in #every time im thinking about how good s4 is i remember what it almost was......... and i am so grateful we got what we did #not only do we live in the universe where s4 is about the school but we Also live in the universe where s4 was un-cancelled :) yay #shit makes me so happy man. i remember clem is living happily at ericsons and my day is Immediately improved #these little fictional bitches in my head giving me free serotonin on command #it speaks #twdg

[rollforjackass]

kinda hoping that they resolve things between aziraphale and crowley like. halfway through season 3 so the rest of it is just them being giddily, Insufferably newylwed

#not really. i want them to resolve it naturally and with the full amount of time & devotion it requires to resolve it well #i just think it would be extremely funny if 90% of the jesus christ wrangling american road trip was them not caring about it At All #'oh he's gone off turning nukes into salamanders? hm right sounds serious. too bad i'm busy sucking & fucking at a sonic's rn or i'd help' #'on the cross you say? terrible business. another crucifixion you say? shame. in florida you say? sounds like a them problem' #and no in this fantasy world of mine they do not adopt jesus he's like aziraphale's high uncle whom they have to drive to the family reunio #the ultimate and most immediate marriage test you could possibly hope for: you and your spouse in the car with jesus christ of nazareth #can't believe i typed any of that. it would be funny is what i'm saying #fuck ineffable husbands i want insufferable husbands #good omens spoilers #go2 spoilers #good omens #oxly hollers

[archduke-enver-gortash]

posting on here is like my sisyphean boulder i'm constantly rolling tbh

#god i am trying so hard to just have fun and be myself #but when i do that i'm immediately a strange outsider creep #and since i can't really mask my version of masking is just not talking and then obviously you don’t find any joy in fandom spaces either #i will always be a shitty unlikable freak no matter how much i pretend otherwise. it was obvious from the start that getting involved in #fandom spaces was a fucking mistake. it's always a mistake because you're some laughing stock at best and a horrifying freak at worst #i don't blame people for not liking me i've realised what an awful person i am long ago #but it's always so hard witnessing something like fun social groups from the sidelines knowing you'll never be a part of it #this is why my mental state has been deteriorating so severely in the last few months. that Realisation once again nothing fucking changed #i know it's stupid to get so upset over fandom but it's only a pattern for me #i stopped trying to be friends with people when i was a teenager because it hasn't worked a single time #this attempt at integrating myself into the wotr and bg3 fandom by sharing my shit was just one mistake #gortash/zeke is so different from anybody else’s work and i wish i could find joy in something that it isn’t fucking deranged but i can’t #like yes it’s just fandom bullshit! gortash/zeke is a fucking oc x canon ship! why am i getting so upset over it! #i love writing them. i’ve never been this happy writing anything. and it’s entirely indicative of a common pattern in my life #when i earnestly share parts of myself/things i’m passionate about people get creeped out. and honestly? rightfully so #i would leave the discord servers i’m in because it’s fucking crushing me dude. this is so petty but i’m so jealous of what you people have #but in one i am server owner and i don’t want to just dump that responsibility onto someone else and then dip #and in the other two i’m not sure anyone would even notice that i’m gone but i still worry about being rude #though i’m not entirely sure i didn’t get invited to one of those just so people could laugh at me. idk probably just being paranoid but i #it’s been gnawing at me #ok no if i’m being this vulnerable on tunglr.com i can also say that part of me staying is also still having the hope that i could fit in #one day. logically i know it won’t happen but it’s nice to have hope sometimes #watching you all from through the window having fun like a creep #so yeah. i’ve always felt like this but it’s been rapidly getting worse with my failed attempt at the bg3 fandom #idk just been crying non-stop for the last few hours. went through an entire pack of tissues in an hour it’s very disgusting #they’re all lying around me as i’m typing this like a pillowfort of snot lmao #so yeah. idk. if someone could come over and lobotomise me that’d be nice. orin where are you when we need you most #i never had any friends irl so i foolishly gave this a shot. i’m sorry #also doesn’t help that i can see someone dropping me for people that are easier to be around in irl rn #it just hurts because it’s always like that. someone you are around when you have no other option at best. not even that sometimes

[chandralia]

we’ve actually slowed down just a bit :’)

#which means if we want ch285 to be a cliffhanger on ep 9 then ep 8 needs to adapt 4 chapters— or episode 9 does….. #LIKE it’s really not a big deal shdkdhsjhd BUT STILL #I keep rereading them and honestly I feel like they could do 4 chapters next episode… 😭😭 #maybe they could tack a bit of 282 onto the end of episode 8 and the rest onto the beginning of episode 9????? #if not then ummmmm YIKES ! #because this is all based around wanting ch285 being the END of an episode but they might not even do that #they could stretch it out to episode 10 to where Bakugo jumps in front of Deku (commercial break) #THEN we immediately go into Deku’s rampage which… would still give the illusion that Bakugo’s dead for anime-onlys #but I REALLY want them to think he’s gone for A WHOLE WEEK like we did 😭😭 #which is why having that shot of Bakugo getting pierced is the perfect cliffhanger—LET ME INTO THE STUDIO DHFKSGDJ #they were on a perfect roll of adapting 3 chapters per episode WHAT HAPPENED #bkdk #dkbk #bakudeku #dekubaku #:’)

[sastiel-is-my-serotonin]

But imagine Sam drinking demon blood and Castiel offering their blood but while they're in the bunker. Sam's preparing to be locked in the dungeon and Castiel will not let that happen.

Like you can have Sam who is falling apart at relapsing after being clean for so long. And Castiel who isn't as they were once before, depending on when this takes place, their grace is limited.

#I would personally place this after Gadreel's possession #Like maybe that's the trigger for Sam he already has blood on his hands #He feels as if he has no control of his life what is he fighting for anymore #He wanted to die and he could've and he would've been pure but it was taken from him #And he needs to feel that power again but immediately hates himself for it #And Castiel can't handle seeing Sam in suffering when they still see where the pins where in Sam's head #Still feels shame whenever they're reminded Sam's tattoo is gone bc of them #There's a lot to play around in this area #sam winchester #castiel #sastiel #samstiel

[marshmelonfluff]

also i have doubts that they would have tai feature heavily in a volume again but i really want him to meet up with the gang in vauco bc i want ruby to get a hug from her dad. please. just let this girl get a good cry in about everything she's been through and have her dad hug her afterwards

#rwby #rwby spoilers #like ik its not gonna happen but in my head i want rwby+j to crash their own funerals and have their tearful reunions #(nora must tackle hug jaune i just know it) #and then yang just shoves ruby at tai and qrow like PLEASE TALK TO HER ABOUT SELF WORTH #and ruby's all 'no i'm fine it's okay!' and wbyj just. looks at her. and yang just says 'please for me' and ruby relents #and just. lays everything on her dad who hugs her and crys with her and tells her she did everything she could and hes proud #and qrow can pat her on the head and tell her that it may feel like everything thats gone wrong is her fault but its not #please let this girl get some emotional support from the two adults she can trust at all PLEASE let this girl hug her dad and her uncle #i know she chose herself and had her realization that ruby rose is enough but i think it would help for her to hear that #from the two men she admired as a child #anyways. thats my little fanon thing thatll live forever in my head until we get vol 10 #and afterwards she can talk to weiss yang blake about her breakdown and get reassurance from her team again and everybody hugs hooray #seriously though if nora doesnt see jaune and immediately sprint towards him at full speed to tackle him to the ground in a hug #immediately followed by ren who hugs them both as everyone cries then WHAT is the point

[crabussy]

I'm so close to deleting that rice poll post because somehow people can't even behave about rice. holy shit

if anyone can find the post can you send it to me? it's vanished from my blog for no reason

#had someone being rude as fuck about people who eat rice with their hands #so I asked them to do maybe 4 seconds of looking up things before they make assumptions #and they immediately got nasty with me and 'thanked' me for sharing that 'useless information' #like yeah holy fuck if BASIC INFORMATION about cultures other than your own is useless information to you I don't want to talk to you at al #god. its rice. how is this my most fraught with discourse post that I've ever made holy shit #I would delete it right now but I can't find it #it's just. gone from my blog which is so cool #listen to my gibberish boy #how much of an unpleasant person do you have to be to get that nasty over RICE #I was a little bit dry with my request but can you blame me. holyyyy shit I'm so tired of people saying the same thing on that post #discourse #rant #being on the internet is a fucking ride

[hussyknee]

x

Idk if I can continue posting about Gaza. Woke up from a horrible horrible nightmare about it, started scrolling my phone to distract myself, saw a post about it, had an anxiety attack. Maybe because the nightmare was too fresh or my brain is feeling raw in general.

Otoh keeping away from the news is making my scrupulosity OCD go hog wild. Leading to me obsessing about what might be happening. I don't know why my brain keeps doing this, it's not like a rando with no disposable income in a third world hellhole can do fuck all to help them. What are they supposed to do with my mental health crisis? Eat it?

Doesn't help that I'm wondering whether hyperfixating on Gaza is my brain's way of reminding me that there's worse places I could be trapped in than in this fucking house with the deranged woman that gave birth to me. Although tbh it feels like a toss-up on the worse days.

#how am i supposed to recover from anything living with this horrible witch #sometimes i wonder whether it would have been better if Mum was the one who died and my Dad that survived her #and my brain immediately shut down bc holy hell he would have been worse #how can you be so glad that a person is dead while missing them so much #it's been almost ten years and I still can't believe he's gone sometimes #at least i loved him enough to miss him. i honestly wonder whether i'd even be vaguely sad occasionally when my Mum finally kicks it #although with our luck she probably wont any time soon #God doesn't want her and Satan doesnt want the competition probably #tw: gaza genocide #in which i make it all about me #tw: parental death #tw: parental abuse #personal #life update #knee of huss

[non-un-topo]

Why does instagram keep giving me videos about grandparents like does it want me to fall on the floor sobbing today

#they're all gone! none left now #idk what happened this week but i've been trying SO hard not to think about my nana at all #it’s just a constant don't think about it don’t think about it don’t think about it #i did have a really violent nightmare about her the other night. that fucked me up... #maybe it's because i talked to my mom and she mentioned her for a minute. neither of us know how to talk about it. #i literally can't even think about it i'll start crying. #should visit my partner's nonna and nonno... but i will cry. still we need to see nonno because he's very unwell. #i can't fucking believe i found out my nana died and then immediately went to class. #mentioned it to my professor and the whole class gasped and asked if i was okay or if i needed to leave. #but if i didn't go to class then i would have just been home alone... #crying in front of my favourite prof a few days later was... yikes. but it was okay. she felt like a grandma to all of us #she was sincerely sorry. esp because that class was called 'women and aging' #she spend the entire year telling us to ask the older women in our families their stories #and now i have none left. didn’t get to ask. #i don't know why i didn't call when i wanted to #i can't think about it #glad my mom told me that she feels totally disconnected to family too. bc lately ive felt very alone. #like my nana getting sick and dying brought them together but only for a short while. #feels like we have no extended family and it's fucking me up a lot. im just glad im not the only one

[hella1975]

i literally NEVER have ideas for soft soukoku even though it's my favourite thing to read in bsd fics bc alas dazai and chuuya are Like That and don't know how to be normal, but like what if chuuya struggles to sleep bc of his ability? what if it's normally manageable but some big event is giving him nightmares? what if when he has these nightmares, his ability automatically goes haywire and he winds up spending a fortune on repairs for everything he keeps breaking in his room? what if after a few days of sleeplessness he's finally out of it enough to genuinely consider asking dazai for help? what if dazai agrees to use no longer human while chuuya sleeps as a JOKE bc 'awww if you're missing me you can just say so~' but dazai finds it helps with his insomnia just as much? what if chuuya waits for the humiliation he knows is going to come from dazai telling everyone about his moment of weakness, waits for dazai to make him regret it, but it never comes? what if that fragile trust between them that got destroyed when dazai left flickers back to life again in these moments when it's just them in the darkness? what if it becomes a mutual agreement, a very reluctant 'this helps both of us' that neither of them are happy about that slowly grows into something more? something they begin to like? something they perhaps even look forward to? what if-

#me looking at the state chuuya and dazai's relationship is in: sex wont cut it you two need to hold each other #hi i dont know where this idea came from but it's plaguing me and i really want to write it #yes im touch starved yes 'literal sleeping together' is one of my favourite tropes keep scrolling #bonus points if the reason chuuya got the idea to ask dazai to sleep with him was bc it's something he had to do when he was younger #when his ability was a lot more out of control but also when there was a lot more trust between him and dazai #('trust' is used in soukoku terms. to a bystander it's all very fucked up and complicated but it makes sense to them) #however now dazai's in the ada and chuuya's in the port mafia and he HATES dazai #but shit chuuya has not slept in DAYS he's practically delusional at this point and very very desperate #like have you ever gone even two days without sleeping? it makes you crazy and if the idea of dazai's ability helping him sleep #was already in chuuya's brain bc they've done it before then i GUARANTEE it would not be far-fetched for him to resort to it again #and dazai agrees purely to make fun of chuuya and exploit a weakness bc this is dazai we're talking about #and if there's one thing i love it's realistic soukoku portrayal where they actually have to work really hard from a shitty start point #but still chuuya is just fucking EXHAUSTED and he doesnt care about the teasing or backlash at this point so he calls anyway #and dazai is there #and the joke gets immediately turned on HIM bc it's the 'best sleep ive had in years' trope and dazai's like SHIT #the entp has harmed himself in his own attack #hmmmmmmmm thinking #bsd #soukoku