i literally NEVER have ideas for soft soukoku even though it's my favourite thing to read in bsd fics bc alas dazai and chuuya are Like That and don't know how to be normal, but like what if chuuya struggles to sleep bc of his ability? what if it's normally manageable but some big event is giving him nightmares? what if when he has these nightmares, his ability automatically goes haywire and he winds up spending a fortune on repairs for everything he keeps breaking in his room? what if after a few days of sleeplessness he's finally out of it enough to genuinely consider asking dazai for help? what if dazai agrees to use no longer human while chuuya sleeps as a JOKE bc 'awww if you're missing me you can just say so~' but dazai finds it helps with his insomnia just as much? what if chuuya waits for the humiliation he knows is going to come from dazai telling everyone about his moment of weakness, waits for dazai to make him regret it, but it never comes? what if that fragile trust between them that got destroyed when dazai left flickers back to life again in these moments when it's just them in the darkness? what if it becomes a mutual agreement, a very reluctant 'this helps both of us' that neither of them are happy about that slowly grows into something more? something they begin to like? something they perhaps even look forward to? what if-
julia armfield, our wives under the sea / shirley jackson, the haunting of hill house / rainer maria rilke, rilke's book of hours / @kayleerowena, gravehouse / danez smith, quoted by saeed jones in how we fight for our lives
I honestly think the color red is a symbol of control (specifically Akio’s control)
-Anthy’s rose bride dress which represents her subjugation, also her other red dress. At the end of the show she wears pink to show how she’s broken away from Akio
-Touga’s hair (he’s a victim of Akio as well as emulating how he controls others)
-Akio’s car, for obvious reasons
-Utena wears the red sweater as a symbol of Akio’s control over her after he grooms her
-He (maybe) kills Kanae by feeding her a red apple. She seems almost catatonic in this scene. The apple also has many other implications wrt fairytales and biblical references obviously
-Red flashing behind Anthy in several scenes when she’s in pain, the same with Nanami when she parallels Anthy
I’d really like to do a rewatch looking out for red rose borders or other significant places where the color red is used in this way
holy freakshow I tototally forgot to show off my new epic fursona deisgng
bask in her glory whyis this image so large
her name is Ruth becuausde my name is awesome and it stands for ruthless unstoppable terrorizing hellspawn . She’s 16 and wants to kill you but she can’t because she has braces and it hurts to bite. She glows in da dark because she’s really cool and her favorite food is caramel apple lollipops.
supernatural season 12 is so fun like I can not decide if bringing mary back was the dumb decision of a program that ran out of plotlines 5 seasons ago or the most brilliant idea the show ever had...
went to the best store on the planet aka barnes & noble yesterday with my heart set on shakespeare and had a crisis over whether i should get Fantasy Space Lesbian Necromancers or Man in Coma Loses Memory and Saves Human Race but with Real Physics (both of which i have yet to read but desperately want to) so of course i walked out with hamlet and the four swords manga *sighs in nerd*
Tim being a photographer vs Dick being a performer. one is always behind the camera (unseen. unknown. looking at the world and people in it but never touching, never a part of it themself) and the other is always in front of it (seen but never quite known. always acting, always reaching out and a little set apart, never a part of the crowd themself). opposites but also a little bit, in some small (poetic?) ways the same. the fact that a photograph holds the foundation and framework of their brotherhood and mutual tragedy (of their individual stories — families lost at different points in life and Tim and Dick, Dick and Tim, hall of mirrors reflections but this ain't a funhouse it's a tragedy — and their shared one, loss and hurt and TRYING and never quite understanding but there anyway). you can take the performer from the circus but not the circus from the performer. you take a kid to a circus (a tragedy) and get a photographer. (you send a son without a father to a circus and get a father to two sons who were also there in their funhouse mirrored roles. it's a small world, really, fate and God work in mysterious ways.) behind the camera, in front of it, feet on the ground or flying in the air (no nets in the alleyways of Gotham), hands on a trapeze or a camera and later on a grapple line, sons of the same father, misunderstandings and understanding, hiding in the shadows and/or dragging the light into view. only children who are brothers. a performer and a photographer, and doesn't it just make sense?
Ooooo! May I ask more about your time travel au then? I find is really interesting
Sure! Theres not much info atm aside from the fact that Narinder now lives in a time where the Lamb was yet to be sacrificed along with their family
Narinder will be aware of the events of the purging and will find himself questioning whether he should or shouldn't let it happen, I'm still figuring out the dilemma exactly
The one responsible for his time travelling would be Chemach, using one of the relics she keeps that lacked power to work, so Narinder was forced to gather it through the crowns of his siblings and the one he had just acquired from killing Lambert
Im still questioning whether I should keep the name as The Death After Life, at first I named it this way so itd refer to how Narinder met Life through the Lamb and his current self would be the aftermath of experiencing what its like to care about smtng after years of confinement and solitude.
So Death (Narinder) after the changes that Life (Lamb) caused on him. This also implies that he will be a tad bit more merciful and perhaps less hostile towards Lambert compared to his old self
Thats the info I can think of atm, but if yall have any more questions do lemme kno! Talking about it does help me figure things out xD