#i’m devastated right now

[kimtaegis]

hi i cant stop crying... :( ngl it feels like a sign for me to work on myself as well. ive been using them as a crutch / distraction and now it feels like since they need time to grow, so do i but i kinda dont want to face it 😭😭

did I sent this to myself from another dimension

#it’s the exact same for me #I’m devastated right now #and scared af #anon #annie’s mail

[chrxnicdaydream]

Chuuya definitely saw Dazai fall out of his cell.

Trust me, I’m Harukawa’s pen

#once i saw Dazai falling get animated i knew Chuuya would DIE LAUGHING if he saw it #and then i was devastated at the possibility that Chuuya missed it so here. now it’s canon #and right after this Chuuya had to do his weird vampire growl thing so ofc it sounded strangled 😭 (i’m delusional) #pls ignore my abysmal drawing skills i just needed to see this drawn 😭 #bsd #bungou stray dogs #skk #soukoku #bsd fanart #my art #bsd dazai #bsd chuuya #dazai osamu #nakahara chuuya #skk fanart #bsd art #bsd comic

[kreuzwalt]

#tgcf #art #this piece has been plaguing me for over a year #i hated how it was turning out but couldn’t abandon it #so i tried to fix it over and over again #it was closely linked to kiss me goodbye in my head #but now i just can’t stand to look at it #it makes me extremely dissapointed but #posting it in hopes it will get out of my head at last #sorry for a long rant #i’m just completely devastated right now

[sickbromeo]

the second that first training scene with luke and percy come on i knew the edits of this episode were gonna be lethal

#i’m scared to go on tiktok and see the parallels of that scene and the betrayal #i can’t sleep knowing some 12 year old is currently cooking up the most heartbreaking jaw dropping devastating luke castellan edit know to #man with those scenes right now #pjo tv show #pjo spoilers #pjo series #percy jackson #luke castellan

[fictionaltrvlr]

I just think that-

#this show is so silly I love rewatching #and yet also emotionally devastating #but I’m choosing to forget about that part right now lol #doctor who #rose tyler #mickey smith #she’s everything #he’s just ken #barbie and ken #barbie meme #doctor who memes

[cream-and-tea]

pallas in book one is definitely at it-cannot-possibly-get-worse-than-this ABSOLUTE rock bottom but god. there is such a specific flavour to their despair in book two that only happens because of the realization they have at the end of lay me down. like. how do you move on after admitting that everything you believed in was a lie. how do you live with what you’ve done (with what has been done to you). is it possible to pull yourself up out of the pit you’ve dug. what do you do if it isn’t. what do you do if it IS. and once you look at the damage how do you stop looking. past the first layer of hurt there’s just more and more hurt and you were used by the one person who was supposed to keep you safe to cause even MORE pain and no matter how deep you go none of it means anything! it never meant anything at all!! motherfucker your worst sin is that you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#pallas’s whole arc in the first book is getting to the point where they go ‘maybe i? feel bad about all this?? actually???’ #i cannot overstate enough that it takes an entire book to get them to that point lmao #and then it’s like. newsflash buddy now you’ve gotta DEAL with that #it really is the mental equivalent of getting into a hot bath of after being out in the cold for a whole day #and the interesting thing about pallas in the first book and their status as a villian and like. their eventual ‘oh SHIT’ moment #is that pallas doesn’t need to realize that they’re a bad person doing bad things #pallas is VERY aware that they are a bad person doing bad things #it’s actually more about realizing the harm that’s been done to them? like as a human being?? #bc they very much have the attitude of ‘well of course i’m doing bad things i was born as an inherently evil person there’s nothing else #i’m capable of doing the most i can hope for is that someone points me in the right direction and i’ll be able to do the hard things #that other people cannot (and SHOULD NOT) do’ #so THATS the mindset that needs to be unlearned before they can start moving forward? if that makes sense? #less ‘shit are we the baddies?’ and more ‘shit have i been horrifically abused?’ #but then after that realization all the blood they’ve spilled is still there. and they should never have had to do that. no one should ever #have to do that. but they did and now they’re starting to see the full extent of what that means #and they have to find a way to live with it. #and it’s absolutely DEVASTATING. #wip: ghost story #pallas #i’ve been working on the book two outline. if you couldn’t tell. head in absolute hands rn.

[thechanglingchronicles]

I want hurt/comfort Mumscarian and if I have to write it to get I will

#I’m manifesting #I’m actually hoping someone else will do it #writing is hard #i just want more mumscarian #the tag is covered in smut and I’m not in the mental state for it right now #I’m just devastated I can find what I want to read #mcyt #fanfic #hermitshipping #hermit shipping #traffic shipping #mumscarian #traffic life smp #grian #goodtimeswithscar #mumbo jumbo #i miss them #I want them to have trauma and then kiss #mumbo deserves to be kissed sometimes too #i don’t even know

[yeraskier]

the way i got so attached to geralt because!! of henry, and i started to love henry as an actor because!!! of geralt and now

like that shit is just gone. it’s fucking gone.

and you know what i’m not doubting liam’s ability to play a pretty good geralt, he’s talented enough. he can get as big and strong as his brother and they’ll slap on a wig and he’ll look just like geralt in the games and have that voice and all that shit but he won’t be geralt

henry cavill is geralt. that’s it. no one else can bring to geralt what henry has brought, it’s quite literally impossible.

#ik im being dramatic but you guys … i literally got Attached to this character like badly. #they would’ve been better off canceling the show or killing geralt off and calling it the mage or some shit because what the fuck #i love love love anya and i adore joey and freya so much so so much theyre my family too #but henry is such a big part of this #he’s such a big part of ALL of this and the chemistry he has with all those characters can’t be replicated #i’m genuinely devastated right now god #the witcher #geralt of rivia

[itspileofgoodthings]

Porfiry telling Raskolnikov that at least he was honest and in one bound took the furthest leap to put his theory to the test of actual action——

#Taylor believing a man who is obviously lying to her #like. it’s fascinating to me how they’ll say anything to her and she’ll be like ‘okay let’s go’ #she’s never read Jane Austen and it shows. but that’s okay because she’s the character in an Austen novel #she has no sense of self-preservation she has no common sense when it comes to love #and the reason I have endless patience for that is because she IS different. she is extraordinary. she is WEIRD. she’s so needy #so angry so fragile so stupid so brilliant so completely helpless #like the bolter———I can’t even LOOK at it right now #because you know she was like this since she was 5 and SHE knows it #just so. Different. so strange. I mean she ruled her family with an iron fist from the age of 11 #and her packaging is so basic and she she had so much access to everything anyone could want #so there are none of the usual marks of someone being so Different #but like. people HATED her from day one. you know her own strength of personality was drawing out many people’s hatred or envy #and she’s so helpless in her own personality because she can never change #like thank you aimee? or whatever? heck yeah there was some girl who bullied her and brutalized her on the playground #and you know it devastated Taylor from day one and still does #and it’s just. I don’t know how people can’t see that someone with that extraordinary set of gifts #wouldn’t also suffer in such an extraordinary way #and ways that elicit so much scorn and non-sympathy because people are unsettled and jealous and annoyed by her #because she WILL find a way to win #but isn’t that proof enough that she is the very OPPOSITE OF NORMAL #it’s why people have to be like ‘oh she sold her soul to the devil for this success.’ or whatever the psy-op spy thing is #because there’s no human way to explain her success if she really were as basic/talentless as people say #ugh this is all so incoherent and irritating and I’m so sorry but I just. I cannot explain how protective my heart is of her #and all the many many mistakes she’s made and the prisons she’s made for herself because she’s LIVING the tragedy #of never having denied herself one time/getting everything she wants #and discovering the poison at the bottom of everything she reached for with desperate hands #like. I love her so much and I am so protective of her because she is so helpless and she is getting shot in the face every time #and she feels every blow! #whew I need to turn off reblogs and will probably delete but I just #this album is all of her spilled out and people DO hate to see it because a lot of people hate her!!!!

[asiogie]

No matter what, Asia you have been and will always be super awesome never feel bad for loving with your whole heart :) wish you the best of luck in life it was super cool that all of our paths crossed for the short time they did to enjoy things together as a community I’ll never regret it feel bad over that much love 🤍

thank you anon :’)

#i’m like Struggling a lot with every emotion right now so thank you genuinely #this community means so much to me and although i’m devastated at the way it’s ending im going to miss this safety blanket i used to feel #ask

[hollow-indigo]

decided I should practice drawing Cyn

#hollow indigo #Murder Drones #Murder drones Cyn #cyn murder drones #I could go on for ages about how much I love her #she’s so silly fr #her hair is a little weird to draw though #took a bit to get the hang of it especially in my style #also I drew the eyes with detail specifically because I hold grudges and I haven’t forgot the “ACKTUALLY THEIR EYES ARE OVALS” guy #at this point i’m just typing to type #no one is online right now so I don’t have many people to talk to. #i’m sure you know the feeling #the devastating life of being nocturnal while all your friends have normal and comparatively healthier sleep schedules 😔 #you’ve probably had to click “more tags” by now or whatever that button is #here’s a hint for my wannabe cryptic arg: I changed the title of my ask page.

[fauxspirited]

i have discovered, as i’m trying on clothes for my vacay that starts tomorrow, that i no longer fit into the shorts i own. they’re all size M. they used to be slightly loose on me. and now i’m officially a size L girl and I….. would like to cry????

#i didn’t prepare for this #i guess i’ll be dress-heavy for my vacation #i have fucked up…. #i need to reevaluate how i take care of myself this year #having been a skinny mini from age 11 onwards and now bein idk if i’m thicc or just thick. this is devastating but im trying to unlearn that #i’m healthy and that’s what’s important right??

[zappedbywho]

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#Diary #So here’s something I remember DEVASTING me for some #I was at the playground with my step sibling. and we were playing this game where we would swing and point out the smaller kids like ‘Thats #my kid’. Choosing babies basically and not much else. And this one girl was getting teased so we invited her over and she sat in my step #siblings’s lap while they swung. Well this girl chats like the 5 year old she was and I stumbled over my words or something and my step #sibling laughs at me hysterically. That hurt my feelings but I remember thinking that I wanted to be more thick skinned than I was when I #was the girl’s age so I just pushed it back and kept swinging. My step sibling had to #pee or something. so it was just me and this girl. I wasn’t as chatty as my sibling but when the girl slipped off the swing and couldn’t #Get back on. I asked her if she wanted me to help her get back on. and she was like ‘My mom doesn’t let me talk to strangers’ #Of course this confused me. because we just met and I am also a child? #She looked. like. uncomfortable near me or something and I just felt so weird in my body #Cause like. I know I’m chubby and taller than other girls but am I really scary like an older boy? #My sibling was an average size and a little malnourished and I was already incredibly insecure about our differences #Like I was wearing knee shorts and a t shirt to swim in the lake and they were wearing a girl’s bikini lol #Then this little kid gets right back on their lap when they got back and I was like ‘😬’ trying not to cry and just walked away to sit by #myself. Now there’s a picture of my clueless father sitting next to me when I’m like ‘Oh ‘extremely high kid voice crack’ sure you can sit #next to me dad😃 Please drown Em in the lake for me because I hate them and that people like them better’ from behind. #This was a pretty regular experience for kids but I was a little off and even kids sense these things lol

[kaladin-sadblessed]

Do you ever feel like you’re on the brink of going absolutely insane and you can’t tell if it’s the mental illness or the state of the fucking world

#I’m fine I’m just… really mad all the time atm and idk if it’s my job or my brain or my government or a mix of all three lol #truly fuck the UK govt #low key watching scenes of devastation 24/7 and then hearing our supposed leaders basically right out of is… #like my heart hurts my head hurts my soul hurts and I have no idea if that’s just a human reaction or not lol #I can’t even imagine what my Muslim and Jewish friends are going through right now #solidarity forever #free palestine

[crowskullls]

Oughhh. :((((

#hate them I hate them so much #they make me so sad #trios and their miscommunications and betrayal and #they all wanted what’s good but they had different ideas of how to do that #I’m gonna be wrecked when Pentar drops his video I just KNOW it #jumper and wemmbu when I catch you. #devastated right now #shakes minute and mapicc around #this COULD have been prevented #lifestealers vs being open with their teams #they fail everytime btw #crowskulls posting

[bookwyrminspiration]

i have to keep making jokes about the sokeefe/sophitz situation because if I actually think about it for more than a few minutes the visceral fury and despair will consume me whole

#kotlc #perusing Stellarlune right now and I’m going to lose it #it’s so genuinely devastating to me that sokeefitz isn’t even a considered option. that it’s so painfully heteronormative #do they /have/ to be poly? no but the acknowledgement and dismissal of that as a possibility instead of this limbo hell #where were acting like this is just the way it has to be? #WHY do I do this to myself #i make so many jokes but I have SO MANY FEELINGS #that i simply cover with those jokes #OUGH