#and it’s absolutely DEVASTATING.

[cream-and-tea]

pallas in book one is definitely at it-cannot-possibly-get-worse-than-this ABSOLUTE rock bottom but god. there is such a specific flavour to their despair in book two that only happens because of the realization they have at the end of lay me down. like. how do you move on after admitting that everything you believed in was a lie. how do you live with what you’ve done (with what has been done to you). is it possible to pull yourself up out of the pit you’ve dug. what do you do if it isn’t. what do you do if it IS. and once you look at the damage how do you stop looking. past the first layer of hurt there’s just more and more hurt and you were used by the one person who was supposed to keep you safe to cause even MORE pain and no matter how deep you go none of it means anything! it never meant anything at all!! motherfucker your worst sin is that you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#pallas’s whole arc in the first book is getting to the point where they go ‘maybe i? feel bad about all this?? actually???’ #i cannot overstate enough that it takes an entire book to get them to that point lmao #and then it’s like. newsflash buddy now you’ve gotta DEAL with that #it really is the mental equivalent of getting into a hot bath of after being out in the cold for a whole day #and the interesting thing about pallas in the first book and their status as a villian and like. their eventual ‘oh SHIT’ moment #is that pallas doesn’t need to realize that they’re a bad person doing bad things #pallas is VERY aware that they are a bad person doing bad things #it’s actually more about realizing the harm that’s been done to them? like as a human being?? #bc they very much have the attitude of ‘well of course i’m doing bad things i was born as an inherently evil person there’s nothing else #i’m capable of doing the most i can hope for is that someone points me in the right direction and i’ll be able to do the hard things #that other people cannot (and SHOULD NOT) do’ #so THATS the mindset that needs to be unlearned before they can start moving forward? if that makes sense? #less ‘shit are we the baddies?’ and more ‘shit have i been horrifically abused?’ #but then after that realization all the blood they’ve spilled is still there. and they should never have had to do that. no one should ever #have to do that. but they did and now they’re starting to see the full extent of what that means #and they have to find a way to live with it. #and it’s absolutely DEVASTATING. #wip: ghost story #pallas #i’ve been working on the book two outline. if you couldn’t tell. head in absolute hands rn.

[seatokki]

secret identities 🏳️‍🌈

#back for the new year with absolute garbage as always #I didn't finish an illustration during my whole break... devastated #anyways #tgcf #tgcf fanart #hualian #hua cheng #xie lian #tian guan ci fu #heaven official’s blessing

[mentallyinvernation]

Jaskier in s4 seconds after seeing Geralt:

#the witcher #geralt of rivia #Jaskier #geraskier #netflix #just because you can doesn't mean you should #henry cavill #absolutely no hate to Hemsworth #I barely even go here anymore but the loss of Henry Cavill's Hm/fuck is devastating to me #also everyone's reaction is so funny

[wispscribbles]

Ghoap sketch page

#ghostsoap #soapghost #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #cod fanart #my art #doodle #I found a new brush again and so #had to test it #anyone else sorta freaking out about mw3?? hhahahah couldn’t be me (is me) #I have fics in process that could be wildly changed by what happens to our lads #just hope it doesn’t somehow kill my hyperfixation #because this is my source of serotonin at the moment (this entire year) #I am so angry that I allowed cod to have any power over me #absolutely devastating for my pride #(said with love)

[chucktaylorupset]

I think there's something to be said for fanfiction that loves canon in a way that’s rude. Like thank you for this wonderful thematic tragedy made out of this character’s entire arc ending in death, it was emotionally and intellectually moving, but also fuck you fuck you fuck you they live, this time and every time they live, they never died, their flaws are not their undoing, actually they have no flaws, actually they save everyone, actually who cares about a story, any story, where this one dies, actually i cared about that story so much i made a new one, actually i cared so much i unmade the old one, you gave me morals and i left them for the mortal, but they’re mine now and i will never let them die, actually thank you, actually fuck you, strongly worded letter to follow

A kiss for canon and spit in its face all at once, it’s great

#my post #i use and plan to use the 'canonical character death tag' WAY too much to post this but still #fanfiction #everybody live nobody dies au #and a five #this is about your blorbo absolutely but before that it was about #robb stark #to crown him is to kill him #on the one hand he must die because there are no good kings #king of the north was the death knell of robb the good brother robb the good son robb the loving friend #on the other hand #he was the nicest sixteen year old in the world #on the other hand fuck you there sits the only king i mean to bend my knee too #what if king was just a name for a brother who loved you #love that story of thematic importance about the inherent devastation of feudalism #but fuck you he's perfect and he lives #fuck you let him be soft and let him be mine #in general im against sandpapering your blorbos but actually my blorbos are soft and round and perfect #boubas if you will #and who cares if theyre a little unrecognizable #the version of them that gets to live #resurrection and comes back wrong but with the multiverse of what if they lived fanfiction

[ihathbenobiwankenobied]

great day for the reminder that fandoms are ruined by those who comment hateful things on fanfic

writers don’t owe you anything

writers make fics for free

there is a back button for a reason

#its absolutely devastating to hear that still after so much time people choose to write hateful comments on fanfictions #writers dont owe you one fucking thing #fics are free and tagged #and there is a back button for a reason #i love this fandom but its discouraging to hear that people have to leave because of hateful comments #fanfic #fanfiction #codywan

[unreachedgalaxy]

ohhhhh I just realized the point of the fucking coffee shop AU. like, there's many points to the coffee shop AU. but...harrow in the coffee shop AU proves definitively that she would fall for gideon in any life, regardless of their relationship. no matter the circumstance - harrow would love gideon if she were nobody, if she was nothing more than a cute barista with a flirty smile. gideon, on the other hand, is quite clearly under the impression that harrow only loves her because she is her cavalier. she places being harrow's cavalier as evidence of her importance to harrow. as long as harrow accepts her as her cavalier, then she can never be nothing to harrow, because one flesh, one end.

even as kiriona, she's just waiting for the day she can swear to be harrow's cavalier again (get in line, thou big slut!). but harrow doesn't care if gideon is her cavalier at all - she loves gideon, just gideon.

#hey haha remember when I said that there is absolutely going to be a devastating scene when harrow releases Gideon from her service #and Gideon flips out about it because it's the worst rejection she can conceptualize #but harrow has PROVEN in the coffee shop scene that she loves Gideon DESPITE her being a cavalier not bc of it #hahahaha. yeah #gideon the ninth #griddlehark #harrow the ninth #gideon nav #harrowhark nonagesimus #the locked tomb #alecto the ninth #gtn #kiriona gaia #nona the ninth #alecto the first

[walleeli]

Ivan is only allowed tenderness when Till isn’t conscious. Every other interaction between them is marked by violence (anything is better than nothing at all.)

#alnst spoilers #alien stage spoilers #alnst till #alnst ivan #alien stage #their dynamic is so compelling to me #this video was just *chefs kiss* #everything was put together so gorgeously #so well crafted #absolutely devastating

[dalbit0]

shixiong!!

#tgcf #quanyin #quan yizhen #yin yu #once i read abt them i couldnt stop drawing them for a whole week i love them sm #ch 212 absolutely Devastated me i couldn’t continue reading for a while 😭

[insanity-laughs-under-pressure]

#good omens #ineffable husbands #good omens 2 #good omens s2 spoilers #Absolutely devastated

[sexy-sapphic-sorcerer]

thinking about "it's unreasonable to assume that a character knows what genre they're in" and how in series 1-3, Merlin (and the audience) thinks that he's in a fantasy adventure comedy. no one realises that he's in a tragedy until it's too late.

#I do stand by what I said literally a few minutes ago about how calling merlin a tragedy is giving the writers too much credit #but I think you could twist it and say that the writers also think merlin is a comedy and don't realise that it's a tragedy until series 4 #which makes it worse. because so many things that happen in the first half of the show are absolutely tragic but are played as comedy #the end of 'the sins of the father' where uther says that merlin is “a trusted ally in the fight against magic” THATS FUCKING DEVASTATING #but it's played as funny #and it's only when you reframe the genre that you realise how truly heartbreaking it all is #bbc merlin #merlin #merlin meta

[thermodynamic-comedian]

would've been so funny if when jonah was all "you have feelings for jonathan sims. lol" at martin he would've just smiled evilly and replied "oh but elias. so do you." because the only thing sadder than having a crush on jonathan sims is having an unreciprocated crush on jonathan sims and being that weird about it.

i mean it could've never happened because of martin's low self-esteem but the mental image is beautiful

#just absolutely devastating really. no coming back from that now is there. #tma #the magnus archives #jonmartin #jmart #tma shitpost #jonelias #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #elias bouchard #jonah magnus

[redwolf17]

Take Me To Church came out ten years ago today, on September 13, 2013.

It was Hozier’s debut single.

… the fuck?!?!?? HOW??? The talent, the vocals, the lyrics, the passion- and it’s not even the best song on the album????

Andrew John Hozier-Byrne, I salute you, sir. Truly the maddest of mad lads, a most sincere thank you to his parents and to the proud nation of Ireland, A+, no notes.

#hozier #unreal unearth #take me to church #wasteland baby! #absolute GOAT behavior #he was just 22-23 but he went OFF #thanks for the poetry and vocals and emotional devastation #bravo sir

[invisiblemonstrosity]

I bet on losing dogs - mitski // deborah williams

#i bet on losing dogs #absolutely devastating song #in every way #mitski #lyrics #deborah Williams #art #dogs #dog #painting #lyric edit #edit #mitski lyrics #mitski lyric edit #aes #aesthetic #typography #words #h8 #lyric #puberty 2 #typo

[enitsirk]

Wonderful news

#oh we’re really in it now wrackingspelt #BRENNAN!!!!!!!!! STOP MAKING ME CRY EVERY WEEK #this weeks ep was an absolute devastating knockout #another fave of faves everyone killed it w the dialogue #i cant believe we have two eps left #acofaf #dimension 20 #a court of fey and flowers #my art #d20 #fey and flowers #dimension 20 fanart #d20 art #captain kp hob #d20 fanart #KNICKOLAS PNACKOLAS HOB #screams #ruehob #wrackingspelt

[shima-draws]

I’ve watched FMAB a thousand times but Greed’s death STILL gets me every fucking time. 1. Him realizing that Ling is going to get hurt and possibly killed by Father if Greed doesn’t leave his body, 2. Greed coming to terms with the fact that he’s definitely going to get killed by Father but he’s willing to make the sacrifice for Ling, and 3. Greed discovering that what he wanted was what he had the entire time, and that was true friends who would stick with him through thick and thin, who would share the same experiences and failures and triumphs and still love him despite his homunculus status. I’m so.

Also I’m SO pissed at the fact that Pride got to live but Greed didn’t. In my brain I kept saying “Well yeah I guess it makes sense for all of the homunculi to die bc they came from Father and HE has to die” but then I remembered that Pride LIVES and that makes me so salty. Out of all the homunculi Greed deserved to live the MOST AND I JUST. FUCKIGN.

#It’s been years and I’m STILL in denial #I’m living in my fantasy Soulmate GreedLingEd AU. Don’t fucking talk to me about canon #Anyway we finally finished FMAB today. My roommate absolutely LOVED it lol #But of course he would it is The anime of all time after all ;) #Shima speaks #FMA #FMAB #Fullmetal Alchemist #Greed #Ling Yao #Also it fucks me up EVERY time that Ed and Ling are the Last People Greed sees before he dies #The last people he looks at #The two people he cared about the MOST #AND. Greed’s death is what gave Ed the final push to defeat Father #Both he and Ling were DEVASTATED at Greed’s death and I’m. SO fucking normal about it #GODDD. God. G o d