#i’m slowly working on them

[riwooga]

Hi!! Sorry for disappearing on everyone

I really appreciate all the people who've stayed interactive and also the people who've sent me asks and messages to check upon me!! That was seriously so unexpected thank you 🥺

But I figured making a quick general post was probably a good idea to clear stuff up

So long story short... I am not dead, I am okay, and no I haven't abandoned DOL as an interest nor decided to never draw it again! I promise! I'll try to return eventually just some health issues!

And under the cut I'll go further into details about my health, so if you don't wanna hear about that, that's totally fair! <333

Be rest assured I’m okay! 💕

But.. For the ones who are curious.

I have in general been on sick-leave with stress for 2 years, mostly dealing with mental health struggles, and mild physical symptoms.

However, my physical symptoms in particular worsened slowly due to a lot of stuff that's just too complicated to get into lol,,,, but it basically all culminated here in February where my physical symptoms have stayed bad™ since, and kinda just… keep getting worse because of my own stubbornness.

Much to my own dismay, I ended up having to actually go to the doctor, which I've put off for a long time,,,, I've already been there numerous times and am also waiting on being sent to 4 different special-clinics that can hopefully also help figure it out, on top of waiting to get into therapy again

But yeah uh there's been a lot of testing, with little results.. For now we're looking at it being most likely that I'm some sort of chronically ill. Right now the suspected ones are POTS and ME/CFS.. Maybe fibromyalgia but I don't personally see the connection on that one-- but we don't know yet. (And it'll likely take a good while to figure out sadly)

My symptoms have, as I said, stayed pretty bad, and in turn my energy is hard to put onto drawing as a priority, when even just as much as standing up takes energy.

But I do still really wanna draw and I do intend to come back to it once I hopefully get a bit more stable again!

So I just wanna say please don't worry about me, it's definitely far from deadly, it's just,,, a major inconvenience and it's been a lot of strain on my mental health in turn. While I am still desperately hoping for a cure or a fix... My doctor said quite firmly not to expect either-- but that there's small chances of eventually lessening the symptoms. So that's what we're hoping! 🥲

Once again thank you to the people who’ve been checking up on me, I really do appreciate that so much 🤧💕💕💕💕

#But yes sorry again!! #I also intend to reply to people's asks eventually there's a few piled up #So just know I'm not ignoring them just need to have a bit more energy! #Personal stuff #But yeah at least I have a neat cane now to help me stay more stable when I walk #Gotta look at the plus sides! #But no I actually have like at least 3 DOL drawings that are just stuck at being WIPS lmao #I’m slowly working on them #but it is certainly slow going! #anyway just wanted to do a quick update! #I'm gonna keep this out of tags mostly due to the fact it is just a personal update!

[lyranova]

Are you gonna begin on event requests when all 30 are full or just whenever you feel like it? Just curious. Thank you.

Hiya anon!

Actually, I already have 4 of my event requests done 😁! And have had a few done since they were sent in, I have one for my “Touch me Like you Do” requests done and 3 of my “Love me like you do”. They’re scheduled to post from Aug. 21st through the 24th and beyond! Right now All the fics that are being posted are from regular requests that I’ve done the past…1-2 weeks 🤔!

But don’t worry, I’m already working and writing them (i will admit I’ve been….procrastinating a bit on them) and have a few completed, I just have them scheduled very far out in advance so that way enough people have enough time to send stuff in 🥰!

The reason my opinions are being posted more is because I can type them out in just a few minutes as opposed to a fic which takes me somewhere between 1-12 hours 😆!

Thanks for asking anon!

#asks #anon🌟 #thanks for asking #i’m slowly working on them #y’all just won’t see them for a bit 😆 #but they’re getting done!

[fuumiku]

It was Maid Day today yesterday a week ago so I got struck by inspiration to draw the worsties, and it ran away from me into a whole AU where they’re coworkers at a maid cafe. She’s a med student & this is just a part time job, and this is his depression job while he gets his life back together. He needs something he can be workaholic about to forget what it’s like having a personal life and personal issues. He’s actually the accountant, but the new hire janitor (Izutsumi) doesn’t show up for half her shifts and is a sloppy worker, so he gets the extra work of doing her job on top of his because he’s undervalued and overworked. Of course, janitors also have an uniform to keep the aesthetic cohesion as they go about cleaning the place, of course.

Senshi’s the part time cook you only see slivers off, he’s kind and warm when you do see him and have a chat but most shifts he’s in and out the kitchen without a trace. Laios and Falin are regulars because Falin and Marcille are besties & in the same med school, Laios accompanies Falin as she visits her friend at work and gets hooked on the food. Chilchuck has to remind Marcille to work instead of chatting with Falin for an hour, and next thing he knows she’s distracting him from work too. That’s it that’s the AU. Inspired by this idol AU fanart a bit <3

This was not meant to be birthday gift but well…… Happy bday Chil!!!

Read from left to right

#Dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #Chilchuck tims #marcille donato #spoilers #dunmeshi au #Maid cafe au #Marchil #Workwife marchil save me. Kabuholm in the background bc i said so lmao #i think people forget marci n chil are coworker worsties first and foremost. Ppl should capitalize on it more #The orange hair swag that makes him look like a marketable idol more #You can tell idk how to draw maid outfits. I hate those hats sm I will miku miku beam them out of existence #Marcille does change her hairstyle everyday btw #they don’t get back together btw she goes you haven’t talked to me in 4 years and he immediately goes YOU haven’t talked to ME in 4– #i mean ehem i’m sorry haha… while Marcille is like 4 years?! 4 years… #Mei only did it bc Fler has been getting jittery again kept sighing #I wanted to draw Chil with a car key at his belt but it wasn’t meant to be #idk if marchil ever gets together in this one it’s an eternal summer coworker with tension situationship au #romance is when you slowly deteriorate his work ethics so he starts skipping on his worktime to spend it at the front messing around w you #once he’s blessedly in the office and he hears this huge crash and the Marci just goes ‘…… Chiiiiiil?’ cue sigh and having to repair #the coffee machine. So many lil comics i couldn’t indulge myself to draw save me #shoutout to the time as a cashier in training at a convenience store I was left by my coworker who was supposed to wash the greasy chicken #oven but didn’t so I had to clean it for the first time myself while I was alone in the store and was also supposed to man the front #Shoutout to my convenience store’s accountant helping us with cashier duties often when there was less job to do ty ty #Understaffed struggles are so real #People also call Chil a manager because the boss is most often away so he just does everything #There’s no union but maybe one day he’ll get to overthrow the boss idk #The pay IS good at least #Modern au

[dandelion2302]

⭐️

#yayy thank u for the requests I’m slowly working on them #I don’t go there but shes soo cute #celia #harvest moon #story of seasons #a wonderful life #yi art

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

#i think 900 was my worst 🙈 #i just put things there where i’m like oooh! something i want to say something about later #and then i never do #or things i never got the confidence to post #or which i want to be able find easily later #but which then just get lost amidst everything else and way harder to find than if i’d just reblogged it #anyway yeah #i’ve been slowly working through them and whittling the number down #but it’s got me curious as to whether anyone else has similar struggles #or just generally what people’s relationships with tumblr drafts is #(these are the thoughts my brain has at 2am when i cant sleep) #polls #tumblr drafts #tumblr #lulu posts

[fishy-strawberries]

I want her, Lark 🤍

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I know I’m slightly late to the I Prefer Girls redraw trend but consider, Ilsalanna is good for my soul ☺️

(This is on my main blog instead of my art blog on purpose! It just feels better here)

#mission impossible #alanna mitsopolis #ilsa faust #i prefer girls #ilsalanna #Ilsa x Alanna #mission: impossible #rebecca ferguson #vanessa kirby #floweroflaurelin art #<- yes I’m still using my usual art tag ahaha #drew this while my laundry was in the machine #I had this feeling that if i didn’t make something lesbionic soon I would explode #and my ilsalanna fanfic is coming along too slowly now that I work three jobs #I’m posting this over here just cause my siblings follow my art blog and I don’t need them knowing I care this much about mission impossibl #ahaha

[incorrectnevermoor]

*throws this meme at you with no regrets whatsoever*

:3

REAL

#this counts as a quote #nevermoor #nevermoor: the trials of morrigan crow #wundersmith #wundersmith: the calling of morrigan crow #hollowpox #hollowpox: the hunt for morrigan crow #morrigan crow #jupiter north #ask #I’m slowly working through them I promise!!

[dadfathers]

more natsume…

#drawing #natsume yuujinchou #slowly working my way up towards more involved drawing and maybe color comps? idk I’m trying to keep at it and draw as much as I can of #these characters to see if this type of progressive workflow works for me ! but also I love them #I keep drawing matoba and natori only -__- sorry lol

[ohnoitsnoma]

this is a fucking travesty and we as a community should be more outraged.

#yes i understand ron is a difficult character to write #and yes i understand there are probably a total of 3 scenes with these guys alone #and no i’m not going to write them myself #i know i ship glenn with everyone because i’m slowly morphing him into an oc #BUT RON AND GLENN SPECIFICALLY MEAN SO MUCH TO ME #expect some angrily drawn ship art #it’s 2am and i have work in the morning #dndads #glenn close #ron stampler #dungeons and daddies

[retroautomaton]

✨ Metropolis Cocktail ✨

Here’s the first few pages of my first full-length comic with the crew, to close out the Halloween season! 🎃

pg. 1, 2, & 3

#aAH #sry I’ve been so quiet all month #with work and commissions and trying to get this out remotely close to halloween #but now it’s out!! and getting back into the swing of making comics has been so gratifying #that makes it sound so clinical haha I’m trying to say it’s like the most fun I’ve had drawing in awhile #I love LOVE doing fast paced loose lighthearted comics so much #and being able to get all my funny little creatures together and being able to write them aUGH #and backgrounds slowly starting to have more fun with backgrounds and coloring #more to come hope y’all enjoy it so far! #Metropolis Cocktail #(and just to clarify that’s the name of like. the overall comics/the group of characters) #(I haven’t figured out a name for the actual single comic/episode yet haha whoops) #comics #Halloween

[sea-jello]

i can’t be the first person to make this joke

#the idea was dinging around in my head and wouldn’t leave #so instead of working on the project due tomorrow i did this #listen i can finish it in time #them >>>> #lloyds neon ass green eyes were too funny i had to add it in #i’m slowly warming up to the idea of drawing #ninjago #lego ninjago #morro ninjago #ninjago morro #morro wu #lloyd garmadon #lloyd ninjago #ninjago lloyd #lloyd montgomery garmadon #green cousins #greencousins #my art #i guess #jellos scribbles

[cherubdulce]

hii.. is anybody here ?

#cherub.txt #my dash has been super quiet lately I miss you guys so much #🫂 I’ve been just working on comms and other works as well #also I’m slowly disconnecting from self shipping? dunno if that’s the right words but I love my fos so dearly but it’s hard to gush #about them anymore without sounding repeative :( I hope it’s just burnout bc self shipping means a lot to me and I miss talking about them

[michaels-office-hours]

Growing up hurts

#says the kid that never tried to set boundaries cause ✨I’m the good kid✨ and also ✨fear✨ #and now setting them just…. #isn’t working… #they have boundaries #I cant #cause I never have #why should I now #why can’t I just be the good little thing I’ve always been #why am I so weak and vulnerable now #maybe because I never was #maybe because I’ve been slowly dying #I wish dying was faster #animatronic vent alert

[poyopaan]

i did some applications today and gotta say? kill me

#miskipz draws #my sona #job hunting #trans #vent art #job hunting gives me such existential dread man #i have no experience which means companies don’t want to hire me but to get experience i need to work at these companies #so now i have to go and fucking call 50 odd places like a week after i submit an application and hope i don’t get rejected then and there #any connections from a professional world that my parents have graciously offered me all fucking turn me down or never respond #and my parents are baffled because they’ve seen the emails i’ve written they see the applications i put in #them slowly realizing how hard it is to get a job in this damn economy that isn’t just retail hell for minimum wage #anyway rant over i’m going to bed

[compacflt]

wip wednesday: going thru my corny arc

#OKAY im back #sorry! working overtime pre paris airshow #i think I’m going to focus on this 80k of wips right now—just get them posted by the end of the summer #but u can keep sending in prompts if u want #and maybe someday I’ll actually be brave/creative enough to finish an AU #1. the frankly inevitable sickfic #2. this shit is so fucking corny but i literally can’t resist it anymore i just want them to say it all the time #3. have been slowly realizing lately that I’ve been slacking on how much the uranium mission probably fucked mav up #4. he is afraid of getting old & dying all over again #top gun #top gun maverick #pete maverick mitchell #tom iceman kazansky #icemav #top gun fanfiction #there’s so much thematic meat to be unpacked with ice’s cancer & eventual death #and I am sacrificing that thematic meat for my own mental health. #so you’re getting my analysis of mav’s death instead because i simply refuse to engage with an unhealthy ice #i know it’s wasted thematic potential & im sorry but i like 😭😭😭😭😭😭 cannot do it #we all have our little neuroses and ice’s death is mine #sorry I’m still in my ‘italicize dialogue to suggest surreality’ phase #i can literally track the very concrete ways my writing style has changed over the course of writing this series it RULES #progress!!!!!

[adelaidedrubman]

wip wednesday on day one nanowrimo sick and twisted world

i was tagged on this extra Fucked Up wip wednesday by my loves @socially-awkward-skeleton @direwombat and @nightbloodbix! outgoing tags below cut for space efficiency + join the writing tag list here!

actually trying to do nanowrimo for the first time, albeit nontraditionally and jumping between a few projects. (yell at me about which ones if desired.) so here’s an excerpt from a bg3 oneshot on the november agenda: lae’zel and my rogue gnome girlie millie having an emotionally constipated debrief following All Of That at the crèche. no real spoiler warning for this one since they are being vague, but a small warning for idle but insincere suicidal ideation + character cracking joke on said topic 

Millie swung her legs back and forth, dangled off the ledge of the cliff.  She leaned back, palms pressed against rock, looking down at them — at the skin growing more weathered, dry and cracked by the day — rather than down into the chasm. She would wait here stubbornly, she thought, until someone came looking for her. 

If she was lucky, she thought, that would mean she would wait there forever — wait sitting right there for ages there until she grew too weak for her body to hold itself up, and she went limp and plummeted off the cliff in her sleep none the wiser, before she ever had to worry about losing herself to the tadpole.  A soft whisper of wind that never reached to brush her skin told her she was not so lucky.  Attuning her ears to the barely audible rustle of the footsteps told her everything else she needed to know — light, airy and quick, but forceful and sure.  “Lae’zel,” she noted flatly, without lifting her gaze from her own hand pressed against cragged rock. She studied the smattering of sunlight filtering through trees to create blotches of warm bronze against her skin amongst the web of shadows cast by leaves.  She’d spent so long clinging to the shadows — being nothing, nobody, anytime she wanted.  Finding solitude, oblivion in the blink of an eye, as soon the whim to disappear struck her.  Now, here she was — stuck with a camp full of companions her survival necessitated not abandoning, despite her heart crying for space. Including one companion adept enough at tracking her down Millie couldn’t even carve out a five minute illusion of having left them behind.  Hells, she couldn’t have truly held the illusion, anyways. Even with no other soul around, the idle wriggle of the tadpole tickling the depths of her brain would always be there to remind her she wasn’t truly alone.  Millie sighed, the presence of the woman behind her likewise heavily felt despite her lack of audible response.  “If you’re skulking about back there so you can push me off the ledge, make quicker work of it. I’m not that keen on putting up a fight, anyways.”  “Tch,” Lae’zel spat, single syllable stinging with the acidity of disgust. “I would not soil my hands claiming empty victory against an opponent pathetic enough to welcome death,” she replied. “I will turn my sword on you at your surrender should the tadpole overtake you. But only then.” Still not turning around, she droned, “Lae’zel, it’s me — Millie the ghaik.” “Your foolishness is normally tolerable, hardened as it is by your ferocity,” Lae’zel replied, drawn out with a hiss of disdain. “But in the wake of the embarrassment you proved at the Crèche, I find my patience for it thinned.”

no pressure tags out to beloveds @g0dspeeed @florbelles @josephslittledeputy @afarcryfrommymain @poetikat @just-another-wasteland-merc @voidika @captastra @confidentandgood @belorage @deputyash @blissfulalchemist @shellibisshe @thedeadthree @ladyofedens-blog @miyabilicious @simplegenius042 @henbased @clicheantagonist @firstaidspray @strafethesesinners @quickhacked @jackiesarch @v0idbuggy @orionlancasterr @stacispratt @8bitpizzacoupons @strangefable @shallow-gravy @roofgeese @inafieldofdaisies @corvosattano and anyone who wants to share!

#millie realizing she is infected with a mindflayer tadpole: oh well play the hand i’m given i’m sure it’ll work itself out #millie realizing she is beginning to sincerely care for someone: need someone to fling me off of a cliff asap please #believe it or not this is after they have been sleeping together for a while and this is them realizing they’re having romantic feelings #anyways. still shaky and slowly finding both of their voices #always psych myself out when switching to a new oc with any similar personality traits that they will feel too jestiny derivative #and i will out myself as a hack and a one trick pony #but we must march on #wip