#i’m so fucking gay it’s not even funny

[mizuswifey]

my issue is the second i get a new obsession i have to remodel my tumblr (change username, pfp,etc)

like first it was ellie williams then hazel callahan now mizu

like i can’t function without obsessing over a character and if my tumblr page (and searches 😉) don’t match then i start tweaking isd

#i’m so fucking gay it’s not even funny #mizu blue eye samurai #mizu x reader #hazel callahan #ellie williams

[theoldkyokodied]

If you follow my main you had to know this was coming… anyway. Enjoy these bloodweave doodles :)

#bloodweave #gale x astarion #astarion x gale #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #baldurs gate more like baldurs gay amirite folks? #yeah sorry the themes of hunger abuse and power got to me. I’m not immune to thematically mirrors #I have so many thoughts about the it’s not even funny anymore #oh you mean to tell me that canonically gale would offer up his blood if asked and that astarion can’t even do that bc of the orb ?? #tasteful irony that the guy who would want to help can’t do that bc of a mistake he made for love. #especially devastating for someone who measures his self worth in usefulness #oh they are so fucked up and they could understand each other in ways hardly reachable to others #once I start an origin run it’s over for you guys I will be so insufferable. even more than usual

[s-3lliot]

I’m gonna scream

Seth is fucking DEAD. I knew he died or got booted from the story but I didn’t think it was gonna be THIS EARLY?? I FUCKING LOVED SETH BRO… I ALREADY KNEW HE WAS GONNA GET KILLED OFF BC HE WAS LIKE A FILLER JACKASS CHARACTER NO ONE LIKED, BUT I FUCKING LOVED HIM AND HIS HOMOPHOBIC ASS AS A QUEER PERSON. BRO FUCK THIS I ACTUALLY SOBBED, I CRIED FOR SETH YET NOT A SINGLE TEAR WHEN MY ACTUAL GRANDPA DIED. HE FUCKING DIED BELIEVING THE FOXES WOULD NEVER BECOME ANYTHING, AND HE DIED BEFORE HE COULD FUCKING SEE THEM BECOME SOMETHING THEY COULD BE PROUD OF. HE HAD SO MUCH FUCKING POTENTIAL AND I’M GONNA BANG MY HEAD AGAINST THE WALL BECAUSE WHAT THE HELL. I WANTED A REDEMPTION ARC. I WANTED A SETH AND NICKY FRIENDSHIP. I WANTED SO MUCH FUCKING MORE. I WANTED HIM TO TRULY AND ACTUALLY BELIEVE WITHOUT SOME SORT OF HINT OF DOUBT THAT JUST BECAUSE KEVIN WAS MORE WELL-KNOWN AND LOVED BY FANS, DIDN’T MEAN THAT HE WAS WORTH MORE THAN SETH. WHAT THE FUCK.

#i’m gonna scream #fuck this #I was caught off guard so bad bro it’s not even funny #all for the game trilogy #all for the gay #all for the game #all for the memes #the foxhole court #tfc #tfc fanart #andrew minyard #the foxes #andreil #kevin day #nathaniel wesninski #the raven king #the kings men #nora sakavic #seth gordon #nicky hemmick #renee walker #allison reynolds #matt boyd #aaron minyard #neil josten #dan wilds #coach wymack #abby anderson #the sunshine court #jean moreau

[humanblt]

i feel like i’m being dealt white damage every time i talk to non-pm fans and they use any variation/the original ayin grip meme bc it gets me like this and i’m trying so so so hard not to be annoying but also like,,,, DO THEY KNOW??? DO THEY KNOW?.????

#this is directed at like 3 people #i’m so fucking insane it’s not even funny #i need to finish formatting my sandwich’s guide to pm #and then when it’s done i need people to ask me about it so i can autistically ramble about this framchise and hand them the doc #i also will not apologise for any gay ramblings in it about any of the women #sandwich speaks

[mqonlighting]

real talk in the tags for a second because i have a crush on a girl and i. a hehe. ahehehe.

will be burying this in reblogs and never touching on it again

#so random disclaimer this girl is like a year older than me and in high school it’s like a nono for older and younger batch to like be #a thing so i know i generally have no chance but i like to live in my own insanity and the progression of my crush on her has been absolute #ly cuckoo bananas. so like it started out as ‘i wanna be your friend’ and progressed into ‘shit they’re really pretty’ to ‘wow ur so??’ to #‘fuck i like them’ and then it died down and then by all golly it came back but more of a hallway crush now which is bearable bc i’m #not really a part of their life?? like we know each other but we don’t wave and shit and we don’t like ever interact that much so i was lik #ok this is fine bc they literally never think of me so i’m just admiring from afar. and the FIRST inciting incident was i request them onig #and i expect to not get accepted because according to their friends they onyl accept close friends and i’m like k this is a bad idea probs #but the worst that could happen is i get left in their follow requests right?? RIGHT?? but then within like two hours of reqing. lord. #i got. ACCEPTED. and they requested back. and suddenly it’s +1 tangibility like ok?? maybe we’re not as strangers as i thought we were #i later discovered i was not that special for this but also?? cool?? anyways for a while it kind of laid dead and we never spoke at all eve #tho i was in their acc now (at this time they barely posted but whenever they did it was so?? funny like they would slap the randomest shit #on that acc) and it was still a hallway crush altho my friends r awful (/pos) people who would always make me pass their hallway and i #would run into them so often but at this point we only ever like exchanged glances and they would walk right past me like i wasnt even ther #but THEN the second incident happened which was basically we had to play instruments for this christmas event thing and bc they’re literall #y amazing they played for it and i was roped into it and. i was so gay the whole time. bc who wears a leather jacket to school and gets the #prettiest haircut ever right on the last day before a long break?? and the worst part is whenevr something confusing happened they would #turn to me and this one other person and we’d b laughing together. like we r friends. and they’re so fucking nice they were checking up on #us the whole time i was literally dying i kept dropping my pick and stealing looks AURURUGH and they’re so gen funny and interesting i just #and the first few days of holiday break i just couldn’t stop thinking abt them it was so bad? like that was the moment where i was genuinel #like is this more than a hallway crush… eventually it died back down until the next event we had to play together where they were being SO #SO much more comf w me? like exchanging knowing looks when smt funny happens and that stuff.. at this point i didnt even know what to like #think of my crush on them so i just let it be yk. atp they’re not even waving at me in the hallways at all still so maybe they’re just bein #nice! BUT NO. THAT IS UNTIL I AUDITIONED FOR A BAND (theyr in charge of accepting) AND THEY ACCEPTED ME WHICH COOL BUT LIKE A DAY LATER I #HEARD FROM OUR MUTUAL FRIEND THAT THEY SAID ‘yeaa im so happy i got (my name)’ AS IN IN THE BAND. LIKE. HELLO?? HI U THIUGHT ABT ME?? and #during the first band mtg where everyone’s all awk they kept making eye contact w me and asking if i was good and making sure i got to say #smt before anyone made a decision and it. murdered. me. i’m sorry maybe it’s the fanfic writer in me or this shit is literally nothing and #think they’re just nice to everyone but who cares bc it means they’re nice to ME too. and then last week happened. which was like the nail #in the coffin. INTERACTION ACTIVITY. I IMPULSIVELY ASK IF THEY WANNA B GROUPMATES AND THEY SAY YES. THEY ONLY TALK TO ME AND THEIR FRIENDS. #I ACT STUPID. THEY ALUGH AND TOUCH MY SHOULDER. I ASK ABT THEIR CAMERA AND THEY GO ON A LONG-ISH (cute) RANT ABT SMTH. THEY ASK WHY I HAVE #BIG ASS STACK OF POST ITS. WE TALK. THEY LAUGH AT MY JOKES. SUDDENLY. THEY SAY A FULL HELLO IN THE HALLS. THEY WAVE AT ME A DAY LATER. FUCK

[garden-of-apollo]

working overnights full time is terrible bc how the fuck am i supposed to survive only getting 2am cuddles and make out sessions where no one can interrupt us 2 times a week at most?? heresy.

#switch apollo #thinking about my bf <3 #i’m so fucking touch starved #it’s not even funny #i want it so bad #nsft #queer nsft #trans nsft #nsft concept #ftm nsft #t4t nsft #lgbt nsft #mlm nsft #nb nsft #bi nsft #bisexual nsft #nonbinary nsft #transmasc nsft #gay nsft #nsft t4t #ns/fw #gay ns/fw #ns/fw blog #mlm ns/fw #ftm ns/fw #trans ns/fw #bi ns/fw #t4t ns/fw #ns/fw post #ns/fw content

[caffeiiine]

god sometimes i rememebr i had this weird crush on my friend and k could not act normally next to her for a good month because i was having lovely internal monologues

#i was such a mess it wasn’t even funny #because i was so conflicted #every two seconds id start panicking when i was next to her like #OH FUCK does she hate me?? am i gay? ahhhhh fuck fuck fuck #the amount of times i questioned whether or not i was a lesbian during that time was insane #to this day im still conflicted over whether or not i really wanted to be closer to her or i am in fact a lesbian #i mean i haven’t had a real crush since then and that was my first real crush #aaand that was about 2 years ago? #so i’m still considering myself aroace for the meantime 🎉🎉 #i also had insane internalized homophobia about then sooooooo #real fun period of tome #sodaramblestoomuch #oh extra info #i followed her into 2 hyper fixations

[mars-ipan]

the hinata kinning is strong tonight

#marzi speaks #once again. shoutout to izuru for calling me out on that enough times for me to realize it’s the truth #crazy thing is i keep finding out how correct it is in different ways #like i realized recently. i have no idea who i am or who i’m supposed to be #i think i know who i wanna be? but i might already be that person and not even know it #and the other night i was sitting there. and i thought ‘who the hell am i.’ and then i realized that’s such a fucking hajime ass thought #identity issues moment. teehee !! #i didn’t… think i had identity issues??? but shit i might !!! #it might be genderfluidity having a moment. it might be stress. it could be anything #anything could be responsible for the way i am. if i would be likely to do anything given the right circumstances #how can i know that any choice i make is truly my own #…i need to go to bed. it might be bedtime #do you see what i MEAN though??? goddamn. i should work on getting a therapy appt set up or smth #on a more lighthearted note the whole hajime kinnie thing is SO funny in hindsight #when i asked izuru why he thought i was a hajime kinnie he just went ‘oblivious and gay. among other things.’ #and i said ‘what other things?????’ and he went ‘i’m not gonna bore myself with the details. if anyone would know it’d be me trust me’ #and well. shit! a bitch was right and that still irritates me a little. how the fuck did that fucker know that much about me #it is a super funny interaction though. izuru kamukura came to my blog called me a faggot and left. slay

[sallytwo]

the reggie list dropped today and my best everrrrr squad leader friend my number one who i would follow to the end of the universe got a really insanely good position (FOUR!!! BARS!!!!). however. maybe having an insanely close relationship with a four bar my sophomore year here… historically. might be a bad idea …? thoughts.

#people are freaking the fuck out over the list . so much drama it’s so funny #btw it’s not even going to happen to me cuz IM not the one with a stupid gay academy boyfriend. that’s my friend. #that’s my best friend and HIS gay boyfriend in this group. i’m solidly like the sito here.

[orificial]

got a lot of feelings about how people are so very comfortable with assigning people with labels that they may not personally identify with or find confining (i.e. twink/bear/other physical archetypes etc) but they may just stem from myself being transsexual and grumpy. as many things do

#i suppose i doubt myself primarily here because gay male body archetypes are just. descriptors #even if i don’t identify whatsoever with the word twink i am still a skinny/small hairless-ish gay man #so i feel like potentially it’s a stupid complaint #but i’m well fucking sick of my (female especially) friends thinking it’s sooo funny to call me that #it’s not fetishisation but it’s definitely. something #and given that i’m barely over a year on T and not even close to what my body will actually look like i find it infuriating that people who #claim to be close to me will focus on highlight and identify me with my least masculine features #you don’t know shit about my body or my relationship to it!! stop forcing shit on me!!! #whatever first world problems ig #book of jude

[gregoftom]

some of y’all haven’t grown past the treating queer ppl like shit for liking a ship you don’t take seriously stage and it shows

#i think it’s suuuuuper funny that ppl act like only straight girlies like tg lmaooooo #and they act they r the ONLY ones criticising s4 which is uh. not true lmfao #and yk what it’s ok to feel let down by the fact that s3 finale and 4.01 happened and then took a back burner #ppl acting like tg have no focus whatsoever bffr??? lmao they’re one of the favourites of the show #not even shipping perspective - just their writing and interactions you can find article after article abt them/it #so muc as i fucking hate the term bromance that wouldn’t exist in a billion articles if there was nothing #and i’m gonna say smth radical here - it’s ok to like the show mostly for tg #gasp!!!! cant believe ppl might like snth the most that resonates w them or grips them or inspires them to create art/write #as queer ppl maybe it’s nice to see in such a popular and ‘’’serious’’’ show idk. but you get what i mean #and idk man i’m just getting wae flashbacks to years ago when mlm shippers were treated like abso garbage #*war #and yeah ok there ARE some ppl out there who are shitty i’m sure not that i’ve seen any on here but ok. but like. that’s the same for any #group of ppl lmaoooo #��’’tg shippers are so annoying!!!’’’ why? bc they express frustration at seemingly loose ends of what looked like a tightly written story #abt charas they like togeyher?? no? ok then why speak your mind #and yk i wouldn’t be so skeeved out if it wasn’t ONLY the tg shippers being targeted like. yk how that looks right #literally ain’t seen shit for any other ship or chara enjoyer tbfh #ppl say they hate greg or tom but don’t come after apologists only talk shit abt shippers lol. so it’s ok if it’s not gay gotcha #you see what i mean??? anyway. #sorry for a rant but holy fuck. it’s worse on twitter than on here but 😬

[mizuswifey]

thé féminine urge to write fan fiction but being scared of the lore

#i’m so fucking gay it’s not even funny #mizu blue eye samurai #hazel callahan #i love women #ellie williams #losing my shit #absolutely feral

[karlicartoons]

Someone posted some cute Beavis x Butthead fan art on a boys fb page and all the boomers are being really toxic so naturally I give them a compliment CUZ IT’S REALLY FUCKING GOOD ART and one guy tries to get in a fight with me.

Imagine being the guy who’s arguing with a Beavis and Butthead crew member on Facebook LMAAAAOOOO

#yeah I’m bragging so what #it’s really funny #the dude was showing his whole ass #like the WHOLE thing #OH UHHH BEAVIS AND BUTTHEAD WOULD NEVER DO THAT #bitch yes they would you haven’t even seen the worst of it from me #fucking boomers are so anti woke it’s rotted their braibs #any time they see something they don’t like they call it woke #no sorry they’re actually just gay tho

[dulcewrites]

I’m writing this…. Thing lmao, and I hope I’m not horribly mischaracterizing Helaena. Idk I find her difficult to characterize at times.

Also trying to describe her dragon dreams… bc they it is barely touched on nor explained for her.

Edit: oouuu the way I really want to write hotd Alicent and Helaena related stuff bc I do feel like I could bring some new dynamics to their characters. But it’s come to the point where I just prefer writing them in a modern setting bc I feel like I can get them out of their situation 😭😭 I don’t want them to suffer

#team green in tragic in general.. it’s a part of their charm! but god writing hotd Alicent and hel is so :(( #especially in work that is centered around them bc then you have no choice but to bring up how fucking shitty people are to them #like I genuinely see Helaena as an empathetic person #partly bc of her dreams but as well as her being neurodivergent - but I think in a way it heightens all of her emotions #idk I feel like people write kind of weird (I hope I’m not one of those people) #but just off lurking and reading things: she’s either 1. fodder for Aemond and or Aegon stans to insert into a narrative (her and the kids) #2. or people just completely write her ooc #like Helaena of all people turning on her family… right makes total sense 😭🙄 #anyway Helaena is gay and should be allowed to be kind and empathetic #but also funny and snarky and angry #idk I feel we get glimmers of that at the dinner of ep 8 #I feel like if she was afraid of Aegon or consequences she wouldn’t have made that drunk comment #or even agreed to dance with Jace

[switch-bladefights]

i have an essay due on wednesday that literally the only way to fail is to not submit it. what if i wrote about the prorev fight

#yes i will not get useful feedback yes my degree is in a new academic field and idk what i’m doing BUT. #funny. #imagine having to make my supervisor read an essay about conflicting theories abt that one gay scrap they had this one time #also i don’t have time to do it properly so #fuck it prorev #who even cares

[just-rogi]

I’m moving out in five weeks and last night I snapped at my roommate who had been a dick to me all year (for something reasonable and justifiable) and ik I shouldn’t feel bad but I totally do lol

All year has been the oppression Olympics any time any of us is upset about anything and like.. I reminded him last night that he isn’t the only minority in the apartment and he was pissed

#for context he is a white gay trans man #so I’m not in any way denying that his life is objectively difficult and that there are obstacles that none of us can relate to #but oh my GOD it’s frustrating when any of us are upset about something and he brings up transphobia #like actually- no- you don’t understand what it’s like to be yelled at on the bus by a racist and then feel fear when he follows you off #when the school shooting happened this year I was crying (BECAUSE IM A PUBLIC SCHOOL EDUCATOR) and he started telling me how I was playing #the victim when the real victim was trans people and how I don’t have anything to be afraid of unlike the trans people who are going #to have this spun as a story about how they are all violent bc of T #like.. my brother… kids in my district have died to gun violence THIS YEAR #I had a kid go missing for a week due to gang violence and cried about it #yeah teachers are allowed to be scared and cry over a school shooting even if it was a trans guy who did it #every time I talk about Taylor swift he tells me to shut the fuck up because I’m annoying but he will talk about punk music for literal hour #he makes fun of anything traditionally feminine and I understand a lot of that is his own struggle with gender dysphoria but… c’mon man #anyway last night we were joking about all moving to Idaho bc we were looking at Idaho rent and it’s like $3.50 for a five bedroom house lol #and he butts in- unprompted- that he couldn’t move there because he would have no rights… #like .. ok?? we were joking obviously #but I was being a bitch and said “yeah none of us would except for (cis white male roomate who thought it was funny) #in reference to roe v wade getting overturned #he gets so many any time anyone brings up roe v wade as an example of rights and bodily autonomy being stripped away #and gets mad when any of the cis female roomates talk about it as if it’s not a legitimate concern #oh he’s fine talking all the time about all the states he can’t live in because he’s trans but the second a cis girl reminds him that #we are also losing bodily autonomy he gets angry and insists it’s not the same #you’re right - it’s not the same- but dude you aren’t the only one who has to fear for your rights being removed!!! #like bruh how are you going to look at a mixed race lesbian woman and say I don’t understand oppression #he also gets really pissy when we talk about alcoholism because his father was an alcoholic…. THREE of us had alcoholic fathers who either #died or left or became so physically inept due to alcoholism that they can’t form a complete sentence or thought #but HE gets to be the arbitrator on dad trauma for reasons I guess??? #ugh idk it’s just so frustrating #idk idk I’m just frustrated