#i'm gonna fall apart

[marutchi]

(more) spoiler under the cut

they are landing on their feet yet skwisgaar still ends up in tokis arms 😭😭

#my life is on the verge of falling apart and unexpectedly deathklok yaoi is the only thing saving me right now #thank you brendon #he really said I'm gonna treat you babes #wish there was more metalo stuff to buy #sadly I had to remove one gif of toki being worried over skwis because for some reason it triggered tumblrs sensitive filter #metalocalypse #metalocalypse spoiler #metalocalypse army of the doomstar #metalocalypse army of the doomstar spoiler #metalocalypse: army of the doomstar #metalocalypse: army of the doomstar spoiler #skwisgaar skwigelf #toki wartooth #skwisgaar x toki #skwiski #skwisgaar #skwistok #toki #long post #not sorry #can't believe a movie came out after 10 years #metalocalypse army of the doomstar spoilers #metalocalypse: army of the doomstar spoilers #metalocalypse aotd #metalocalypse aotd spoiler #metalocalypse aotd spoilers

[meadow-dusk]

Neil Young ©️ Orakei Marae | Auckland, New Zealand 1985

#i cant do it anymore man i'm gonna fall apart for this guy and it's all gonna have been worth it #Neil Young #❤️ #fave #loml

[lethalhoopla]

imagine you're getting a rare research-and-liquor-based sleepover with your bestie after you've had to split ways across the continent to further bear the responsibility of entire nations/peoples when your other best friend and the love of his life/literal Champion of a city-state bust in and inform you that yet another Big Bad is in fact Bad At Staying Fucking Dead

or, I finally came up with an excuse to riff on this post:

#dragon age #dragon age absolution #dragon age absolution spoilers #dai #dorian pavus #varric tethras #hawke #inquisitor lavellan #they/them lavellan #they/them hawke #tevrael lavellan #rowan hawke #pls full screen i took too much time for a goddamn joke XD #lethalhoopla art #do heart symbols even exist in thedas??? fucking sure why not #dorian and lavellan just wanted to get drunk research weird old magic for leads and talk shit for a night or two #can't thedas stop falling apart for FIVE MINUTES #i like to think that hawke is quickly brought into the fold post inquisition lmao #they're gonna need a lot more booze tonight #i'm so concerned about varric and everyone in kirkwall omfg lmao GODSPEED BABES HANG IN THERE WE'LL BE THERE SOON

[crispycreambacon]

Spice In, Time Out!

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Wanna read a semi-crack fic about Beef Boy hanging out with a bunch of puppets? Maybe even do a little ramen challenge with his little blue fuzzy nerd friend? You're in luck, 'cause I wrote 6500 words of exactly that!

Among those thousands of words are a bunch of cool stuff such as:

Puppet shenanigans! Two of them may have planned to kill their friends (disclaimer: that murder will not be shown in the fic)

Actual history??? Yeah that's right you're gonna get hit with a Puppet History-style question so STUDY UP ON THE HISTORY OF RAMEN (or not) 👹

God being the worst! Again! They may have actually killed someone (disclaimer: that murder WILL be shown in the fic)

God/Professor allegations. Whether those allegations are true or not will be up to you

Overall a (hopefully) funny and wholesome bonding time between everyone at this table. They're all friends! :]

If all of that sounds like a jam to you, you can read the fic via clicking here, clicking the title, or searching up "Spice in, Time Out!" by crispycreambacon on AO3.

I hope y'all will enjoy this fic! I'm pretty proud of how it turned out especially since I was honestly not feeling it at the start and even contemplated not publishing it at all. Even if you don't read it, I hope you enjoy the art (bonus doodles down below btw!) and I hope you'll have a schmaculous day!

#bonus points to whoever can guess what the Oar is reading (however I will be putting you on my watchlist) #currently writing this at 1 AM #i'm lowkey in what can only be described as a “disasterous mood” #my life is lightly falling apart as I fall behind on so many of my responsibilities #but it's okay I got this I'm gonna get through this aNYWAYS omg new fanfic y'all!!! #these were so fun to draw #[blasts you with my trans puppet headcanons] #[and also whatever tf is going on with God and the Professor #i haven't figured that out and I probably never will and that's fine!] #puppet history #puppet history fanart #ryan bergara #ryan beef boy bergara #the professor #the professor puppet history #fuck it lemme tag all of them #god puppet history #policarpa's sewing spool #beast of gevaudan #pile of diamonds #the gay oars #GAIDHWODBW #watcher entertainment #watcher #watcher fanart #art #artists on tumblr #chris p fried art #chris p fried writings #fanart

[artbyfuji]

shoutout to summer rose's back brace btw.

#ermmmmmmmm it's fun to draw. i like looking at it :^) #love how if you unclip the cape everything over the red dress is just gonna... fall off? they forgor to think about that i guess ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #or maybe i'm overthinking this. tell me the secrets of your outfit girl. #like what if i wanna draw her without the cloak huh? what if i find joy in drawing the contours of her back? #what if the straps across her chest make me cra- [red laser appears on my forehead.] my bad for picking apart her wardrobe logistics.

[wikitpowers]

can u imagine how happy kitty will be the first time they call each other boyfriends? i am U N W E L L </3

#like ty will be introducing kit and say “this is my boyfriend kit” with the BIGGEST heart eyes you've ever seen in your life #and kit will be smiling SO wide and he's so in love and- #yeah we're all gonna fall apart is basically what i'm getting at #kit herondale #ty blackthorn #kit x ty #kitty #the wicked powers #twp #tsc

[theoryofwhatnow]

crafting the game

(this has been in my drafts for ages)

#i've been thinking about the boys game a lot. #the event at the end of the movie that most of us first recognized as the cycle #(or at least most of whom i've interacted with after first finishing the film) #I'm gonna be honest this all started because i was making an edit #but that's neither here nor there. #Essentially i was confused about *the game* #and was wondering whether nigel won or lost before i realized i was looking at it all wrong #duh #Nigel was talking about the creation of the game that he would contribute to #not how it's played #which only became glaringly obvious to me after i'd sat there with my thoughts for almost a half hour #(give me a break i'm not stupid i've just had a rough few weeks) #Everybody played their part perfectly the schools order begins to fall apart #(alex headmaster's son leaves. nigel grandmaster's son dead alongside his parents. etc.) #the valiant hero forsakes the religious organization (McKenzie) #and everyone else takes their place unknowingly simply through existing. #Alex finds another boy and so it begins. #Finally out of death grief suffering and ruined sanity; the game starts but we don't ever see it. #start with a Jack and then fabricate the game #like minds #nigel colbie #alex forbes #murderous intent

[cinnamon-phrog]

I feel too sick to sleep right now, everything's' too cold or too hot and I can't even breathe without thinking I'm gonna throw up

#it's because i've been drinking diluted juice #i swear the shit they put in that makes me delirious with fever #ughhhh so sick wish a nice big strong mechanoid could help me rn :( real shame #gonna drink water till the middle of the night. there goes my plans for a better nights' sleep :< #i do genuinely feel awful and i have been feeling so for a while and it's all my own doing. not eating healthy. stressing out and barely- #-sleeping. i have stretch marks from losing weight and circles under my eyes. everything's fuzzy. i keep forgetting basic things. #i'm worried about my future. i'm too disabled to function with a job but not disabled 'enough' just because i can speak 'clearly' #i've got no irl friends or family to fall back on. i can only travel so far and i get meltdowns far easier now #months ago i was treated like a pet. now i'm an adult before i ever got to be a child. #i want to be held. be loved without even having to say a word to each other. not even by an f//o but by someone who'll be willing to love m #but all i am now is sick and hungry and hot and cold and tired and awake. #i can't imagine how much worse it is for other people though. i've seen awful images and they're not even a taste of how terrible it is #i worry i won't be able to afford food in the future. or have a stable flat or apartment. that social services will let me down again #this year was meant to be a break but i'm constantly worrying about the time i become 18. my autism and lack of any social life- #will impact me and i'll be fucked over easier than ever. and that happens often #college brought me panic attacks where i'd physically harm myself till i got migraines in front of people and they didn't bat an eye #i could be kicking and screaming and begging for help but they'll just ignore me or infantilise me

[pandora15]

life is cruel.

it's tragic, horrific, and unfair. it gives us the worst of things, causes us to feel and experience things that are so unspeakably painful that sometimes I can't even. I can't even.

and it seems even more cruel in those moments of pain and grief and loss when you see something beautiful, like fall colors, or the color of the sky at sunset, or how the holidays typically are meant to bring joy to people but all you can think about now is that every year when this time of year comes, you'll just think about how tragic it is.

and cruel.

and horrific.

and unfair.

and beautiful.

#grief #grief tw #so i'm dealing with grief intimately for the first time like. ever. and i'm having a lot of emotions #and i can't help but observe that the way i write it in fic feels. kinda like how i feel right now? in some ways? #but also like. everyone goes through it differently and there's no like correct way to process #for me i'm. okay most of the time when i have a lot of stuff to do #which is like 90% of the time #but i'm also just feeling a lot of things and trying to figure out how to move forward #especially with the knowledge that life is short and cruel and you just never know what might happen #and i can't just not do the things i truly want to do with my life because i'm SCARED #because. you never know what might happen #you never know when the end is gonna come #anyways i drove back to my apartment today and i saw beautiful fall colors on the way #and all i can think is ''how can the world be so beautiful and so horrible at the same time'' #''so beautiful and so fucking CRUEL at the same time'' #''and to the people who least deserve its cruelty'' #anyways that's where i'm at ig #still got two classes moving and a full time job to do while all of this is happening 🙃 #all things considered. i'm okay. not great but i'm doing my best #really in my post tpm obi-wan era except to a lesser degree #but i certainly have a LOT of responsibilities to deal with along with my grief so. yeah.

[starbuck]

#black sails #madi bs #john silver #silvermadi #(i mean. sort of.) #we love seeing relationships fall apart am i right? #we love characters fundamentally misunderstanding each other to their mutual detriment #(we actually don't because it's very sad) #i had decided not to post this because the song overall doesn't necessarily fit their relationship #but 1) i'm allowed to take things out of context (it's sexy. actually) #and 2) there's an argument to be made that it COULD apply to TI-era silvermadi if we imagine that (oof) they stayed together #anyways - i'm still very fond of this edit - i think it's really good which is why i'm sharing it! #i'm not actually 'back' - was just gonna post my fic later anyway - so i figured why not give y'all this too! #be back in an hour or so with the fic!

[cloud-somersault]

idk man, the epilogue is like this really deep...exploration of interpersonal connections and wants and desires interlaced with the complexity of circumstance and consequence and regret and guilt. and I started it as a like "haha, this is what I want! I want two monkeys being gay, haha!"

but it's so. fucking tragic, actually.

just in chapter 1, we see how defeated Macaque is, how lost he is. how he hesitates and flip flops constantly. how he says or thinks something with certainty, but then goes back on that. he tries so hard to commit to one path, but he truly is fluctuating and has no clue what to do

and wukong is just...certain of himself. he's certain of his wants and desires now after Constellations. He wants to maintain connections and put in the effort no matter what. and that..juxtaposition of them...is just so raw and hurtful in chapter 1 because we see that wukong notices that in Macaque because he knows him better than anyone.

And Macaque admits he's a little lost. he doesn't know what he wants. but he keeps walking. he wants to make his own choices. he wants to think for himself. he wants to see the truth for himself.

and as the days go by, as the weeks and months pass...as they grow and change, it's just sad. because it's not

the epilogue is not this "will they? won't they?" shadowpeach thing.

look at them as individuals. that's why i finally decided to change the perspective. because we needed to see macaque's thoughts. I've shown you wukong's; please give macaque that same level of attention.

when people write romance or relationships, they often misstep when it comes to the characters that are in the relationship. in order for that relationship to be believable and relatable and enjoyed by the audience, you have to develop the characters independently and together.

we cannot have shadowpeach until we know, with certainty, who macaque and wukong are.

#constellations fic #constellations spoilers #i know it's stupid for me to ask people to read stuff a certain way #partly bc they're never going to do that and also #that goes against sharing artwork as a whole. the different interpretations are key to that but i just #i just want people to understand what i'm doing here #and i feel like a lot of my intent is lost #like i don't know how else to emphasize how...the interpersonal aspect of these two characters is what interests me #like hell yeah i want them to kiss and bone but like #their conversations. how close they are. how far apart they are... #i love all those things too #and idk. i want others to fall in love with them to #because that means no matter what AU i write with wukong and macaque #you'll understand that you're gonna have a good time #because if nothing else? i know who these two fucking characters are #and as a result. the shadowpeach i write is going to be messy and broken and terrible #but you shouldn't be surprised. i've shown you that from the start

[reliccipher]

just ended up sending in feedback about the layout to support. But I have to say it here too, this new layout is such a pain in the ass to figure out. I hated twitter's layout for the same reason, its so annoying to use and everything feels so cluttered and squished in and distracting... it's actually headache inducing.

I really wish I had the option to switch back. I wish there was an option to CHOOSE between the two layouts. I wish I had the choice to opt out of "testing" this thing.

"If it ain't broke, don't fix it" really should have been brought up before they even tried making this. It was fine before, and now the new layout is completely different and frustrating when it didn't need to be.

If I wanted Twitter's layout, I would have just fucking gone to Twitter.

#tumblr update #tumblr upd8 #new layout #i'm so frustrated #i didn't want this at all #this was the last website I actually felt like I could navigate #youtube has become annoying to use #twitter is atrocious #i don't want to touch facebook with a 40 foot pole #instagram seems like a pain in the ass #it's slowly looking like I should just cut the line and quit using the internet altogether #but i'd lose all my opportunities to actually have a social life #and i wouldn't be able to share my art #but AI is ruining that too #and my social situation is such a complicated fucking mess #Like I want to reach out to some of my old IRLs but I don't know what they think of me or if they even want to hear from me #I deleted my discord without warning in 2020 and I feel guilty about it. And some awful shit was happening and I should have talked to them #idk. sorry for the dump. might delete the more personal tags later #it's just depressing seeing everything fall apart like this when I already feel like I have too many holes in myself to patch #or maybe this is just what my 20s are gonna be like. I hope not.

[jooeeydee]

Okay, so just a thought and correct me if my interpretation is wrong but...

When Felicity accuses Oliver of not caring about Sara's death because he was being "cold and rational" he replies that everyone is looking to him to lead and "if I grieve, nobody else gets to" which pretty much means he'd fall apart and wouldn't be able to get back up thus leaving his team to pick up the pieces and find Sara's killer. Without Oliver.

When Oliver grieved Tommy, he left Starling and lived in isolation for months.

So, if he'd let himself grieve Sara he'd done the same.

Or am I wrong and completely misinterpreting what he was saying?

#otp: i chose you / i'm gonna stay with you #canarrow #oliver x sara #sara x oliver #oliver queen #sara lance #arrow #green arrow #oliver and sara #losing Sara shattered him #seeing her dead body was devastating for him #that entire episode showed how much he loved her #he was just at the edge of falling apart the entire time #the audacity she had to accuse him of not caring about a woman he'd known most of his life and loved dearly

[brainfilehasstoppedworking]

Takaaki is way too skinny in canon to be alive. What the fuck 😨

His beta design has more meat on his bones than his final design. HOW????

I'M WORRIED????? HE'S SO SKINNY, THERE IS NO MEAT, JUST BONE...

He's still a smash

#sam's talky talks #Aki...Honey. I'm terrified for your health... #They fr wanted the “Hanging on by a thread” sorta look for him #They fucked him up in canon I'm worried #I'd still fuck him but I swear he's gonna fall apart by the first round #Taka. I think your dad needs to go see a doctor #How is this man still alive? 😭 #Kudos to this old man who's probably stubborn as fuck to live even though the only things he's living off of is probably cigs and coffee #danganronpa #danganronpa ultra despair girls #takaaki ishimaru #ishimaru takaaki

[dubiousdisco]

so we all agree that mike will almost die next season, right?

is the gang going to fall apart????? and how???

I can see how WILL is going to fall apart:

however, since he will always need mike and mike gives him the courage to keep fighting AND losing mike hurts too much, perhaps we're gonna have a cicle here and will is going to be the one looking for mike like mike did for him in s1

#byler #byeler #its byler because will can ressurect/save him #stranger things #mike wheeler #how are they gonna fall apart??? I'm worried #will byers

[taeyungie]

😺

#i haven't addressed yoongi's situation yet because i'm honestly still not hit by it i guess. like it didnt gwt to me yet #i dont think ill ever love anyone the same as i love him you know what i mean #he has been the first reason of my self development. like he literally raised me??? i learned from him how to be the person i am today #and its like im saying goodbye to a family member. the thing is i have never griefed anyone's absence like this #its like a part of my soul will be missing until he comes back #but at the same time i know what he would want for me. to move on and to become my own reason #he would want me to be kind to myself. to focus on myself and not miss him that much. #he would want that for all of us right #but i have a very hard time processing things. do you guys remeber the festa last year? when we found out theyll be going on hiatus #the reality of it snd the fact that it will be happening hit me onky after around 3 months. #thats when i first cried because i realized what it meant. ofc i knew but it didnt occur to the emotional part of my brain at that time #and i feel like im truly gonna fall apart when THIS hits me in 3 months lol #my life has never been worse and thats honestly the time when i need the reassurance the most #when i need the people i love and find comfort in the most. #but its just me and thats technically just my problem. but since i am talking about my view on this then thats okay i guess hahah anyway #i just hope he knows there are milions of ppl who love him as much as i do. and thats like extra love like forever & beyond type of shit #i honestly dont think other people ever truly fully understand how we feel towards them. especially when you really love somebody #because they have their own opinions about themselves. they debate whether they deserve some kind of treatment or not. we all do that right #and i just know he does that too. i just reslly want him to feel completely loved and cherished and appreciated. #i want him to see himself through our eyes. to surround himself with people who see him exactly the way we do. #to fall in love with somebody who will see him like we see him #nobody deserves better life than this man. and i hope that after our reunion he will live that life to the fullest 💓 i can't wait to see it #anyway. if somebody needs to talk about it or wants to get sadness out of your system - im here 💓 #please keep your heads up and lets wait for him 💓 #we have esch other and we will be okay 💓 #sorry for typos i can barely see its 1am 🤓