#i'm not talking about all that grand shit either. i'm talking about just sitting on a bench and feeding birds part of your sandwich.

[cinnamon-phrog]

Had a Barbie Moment [realising how beautiful life is while sitting on a public bench]

#i'm going to document my lifes' findings #all those years i was denied this kind of freedom and i want to share it! because it makes me happy! #and i want to prove to people that happiness and living after being essentially locked away from society is in fact possible. #don't get me wrong it's hard. it hurts. it's scary. #but it's also beautiful and fun and so worth it. #i'm not talking about all that grand shit either. i'm talking about just sitting on a bench and feeding birds part of your sandwich. #picking out your own clothes that suit YOUR tastes [and budget] #even the silly tiny things like signing your returns reciept because something was too small. #i feel so much more important now and i deserve to talk about it regardless of whether people care or not. i care. #and i am so much happier- of course it has to be seen to be believed. but i am. #certainly more than i was at the start of the year. certainly more than i was last year. #the glamour might wear off but right now i'm just going to go around cautiously yet with a remarkable optimistic whimsy. #because yay!!! existence!!!!! being alive!!!! going outside!!!!!!!!! fuck you who said i couldn't!!!!!!!!!!!!! #🗨🐸

[gingerjolover]

Ariana! What are you doing here? - Julien Baker x fem!reader

Synopsis: soft!gf is doing jb's makeup on halloween and she just can't sit still (hc, soft!gf is pete 😭)

G's notes: okay like always, a bunch of requests combined! also had to throw in some switch!julien for y'all, she's a natl treasure

wc: somewhere around 1k (probs like 980)

warnings: RPF, makeup!julien, ariana grande!julien, subby!julien, soft!gf as pete, smutty-ish talk, no fundamental physical descriptors?

"You're going to poke my fucking eye out, princess," Julien grumbles, moving her head away quickly, her lips in an annoyed frown.

"Are you this difficult for the makeup artists working on photoshoots, or just for me?" you reply sassily, two fingers under Julien's chin, lifting her head up.

"Don't be a baby JB," Lucy says through the phone. Julien stares at the phone on the bathroom counter to her left, glaring at it as if Lucy could see her expression.

"Are you guys almost ready? We'll be there in like 10," Phoebe's voice carries through the phone.

"If Jay stops wiggling and actually lets me do their wings, we'll be ready by the time you get here," you grumble, causing Julien to pout.

"You're going to poke my eye out!"

"Baby, I do this all the time; I'm not gonna poke your eye out," you say, exasperated.

"We'll be there in 10, and then we'll pin her down," Lucy teases, Julien shaking her head quickly.

"No you will do no such thing, I'll-I'll stay still, I swear," Julien promises, staring straight at you, eyes softening when she makes direct eye contact. You smile softly, index finger and thumb gripping her chin as you pull her into a kiss; it's a small kiss but one you've put all of your gratefulness and adoration into. Julien feels it as you pull away; she knows how badly you want to make this costume work. Originally, she was stoked...when she thought she was going to be Pete... but the way your eyes looked up at her, smile so big when you had a plan where she was Ariana, how could she say no?

You're staring at her, a crooked smile on your face when you see her lost in thought. "I'm being still baby, just...get it over with, quickly," she grumbles again. You giggle loudly, holding her cheeks and jaw, very carefully (and expertly), drawing cute little wings on her eyes.

"Julien's being quiet which either means baby's killed her or she's finally sitting still," Phoebe snickers along with Lucy.

"Shut up, I can't move," Julien grits out, impossibly still.

Lucy and Phoebe laugh loudly on the other line, your giggles soft but matching theirs. "Don't laugh when you have that shit near my eye," Julien exclaims as you step back, looking at her face. Seeing Julien with makeup always throws you through a loop. "You look pretty," you murmur, Julien's face flushing instantly.

"Blegh," Phoebe gags over the phone.

"Shut up," Julien nags.

You grab the comb to start fixing her baby hairs, Julien's hair already fitted with extensions and a ponytail, a massive sweatshirt on her body. It's like she forgot the previous conversation because she can't stop squirming.

"Julien, sit still!" "My hair feels like 8,000 pounds, babe, my fucking neck hurts!"

"Listening to this is tortuous, you know?" Lucy comments, tone even, you giggle imagining her and Phoebe's deadpan faces.

"How did you guys get on with your costumes? Luce did you find some heels?" you ask, giving Julien a look, asking Lucy to speak almost as a distraction while you hold your girlfriend's head.

Lucy starts to talk about her journey to finding specific parts of her costume, Phoebe interjecting a few times. Julien squirms when you gel down her baby hairs.

You grab her chin, giving her a stern look, leaning into her ear. "Stop moving or you can forget about fucking me tonight, let me finish this," you sneer, voice unusually dominant. You pull back, Julien's eyes are wide, mouth parted open. You look at her with mocking wide eyes, a quick shake of your head as if to say "are we clear?".

"Yes, ma'am," Julien murmurs, both of your voices quiet enough not to be heard on the other line.

"Well, I'm glad you found them thrifting Luce. I feel like you got really lucky," you say sweetly, your voice returning to its soft tone. Julien feels like she has whiplash, her entire body heating up. First, how did you even hear what Lucy was saying? And second, why did you threatening her make her sweat? She clenches her thighs together, keeping her body as stiff as a board until you spray her hair with hairspray and clip in some barrettes.

"Okay, we are like 5 minutes away, so we'll see you?" Lucy asks.

"I'm coming in to use the bathroom," Phoebe says quickly.

"No problem, doors unlocked, see y'all soon," you say sweetly before hanging up, leaving Julien sitting on the bathroom counter as you go to grab her heeled boots.

Julien sits there stunned, watching you in the track pants and big t-shirt, hair up, big flannel swallowing your body. You come back, kneeling down in front of her, unzipping the heel.

"What?" you ask, eyes looking up at her. She can feel her insides stir, hating that all you have to do is look up at her for her briefs to be soaked.

"Nothing, I'm being still," Julien says cautiously, pausing between each word as if she's never spoken before. The threat of not ending the night between your thighs enough to keep her still and quiet.

You scoff softly, shaking your head as you get her feet into the boots. You hold out your hands, helping her hop down, letting her get used to standing taller. You start to clean up behind her, her hands in the sleeves of the sweatshirt.

"I was really still there, at the end...I-I did really good," she says, almost like she's trying to convince the both of you.

"Oh, you were being good? Is that what being good is?" you say, throwing words she's said to you before back at her. Her eyes widen again, almost comically, jaw dropping softly.

You turn around, giggling, your usually dominant girlfriend absolutely dumbfounded. "Your makeup looks pretty," you murmur, kissing her lips softly. She eagerly presses herself against you, chasing your lips. You laugh as you pull away, wiping her lips with your thumb. "Maybe if you're good tonight, I'll ruin it later."

#anon cutie requested #julien baker x reader #julien baker mini fic #boygenius x reader #boygenius mini fic #ariana grande!julien #julien lowkey a switch tho #we got subby!jules tonight yippeeee #soft!gf can be a dom if she wants to be #wait i kinda feel back on my game #i like this one <3

[sebsbarnes]

letters to a loved one || tangerine

tangerine x reader

summary: the only form of communication you and tangerine can use when he is on a mission is email, however, as the weeks and months go by, your words have been left unanswered.

warnings: angst

word count: 1.4k

masterlist

a/n: this is a lot different than my normal works so i hope you enjoy this different format

aug 5th, 2022: i know it's only been two days since you left but i miss you so much already! good luck today, kick some ass!! mwah! xoxo

aug 15th, 2022: hi honey. i hope the mission went well a few days ago! even though email is the safest way we can communicate while you're gone i know you can't always respond even if you're in a safe house. i'm not too worried, i know how skilled you and lemon are. tell him i say hi! i can't wait for you to be home, you estimated you'd be back on the 17th so i have a nice dinner planned. <3 love you so so much my sweet tang!

aug 27th, 2022: hey tang, i can't lie and say i'm not a tiny bit worried but i keep telling myself you've been gone longer before with zero communication. maybe it feels different now because of how long we've been together. i miss waking up to you and grabbing our keys and heading out for the day. if you see this message me back! even if you can't fully respond i'll settle with a smiley face if i must! haha. oh by the way i still cooked that dinner i had planned for us, it came out soooo yummy. but it took so long omg! you're lucky i love you and i'm willing to spend 8 hours in the kitchen again. it will probably taste better this time since you will be by my side. love you lots!

sept 12th, 2022: i only just saw the news of the bullet train derailment in japan on august 5th. that was your mission wasn't it? you said the 5th. i'm worried more now, i can't lie, but like i tell you every day i know how skilled you are. even though i never want to wish you are in a hospital i hope that's where you are recovering with lemon by your side. when you get the chance please email me back, okay? i love you.

sept 14th, 2022: tangerine if you see this please email or call me.

sept 30th, 2022: i wish i could talk to you just once. one word so i know you are okay. i can't reach lemon either. i wake up every day hoping you will be laying next to me. please, please give me something so i know you are alright? anything. where are you tangerine? i don't want to keep crying but that's all i can do. sit here in our empty house and cry. the walls feel like they are closing in on me. i went to our favorite breakfast spot the other day and i got that really sweet older lady with the grey curly hair as my waitress. she asked where you've been. i don't know how much longer i can keep saying you are gone for work and people believe it... i no longer believe it either. i hate typing it out. i don't want to believe something awful happened but something did, didn't it? i can feel it in my body. please reach out to me, i miss you so much and i love you so so much tangerine, please.

oct 26th, 2022: i love halloween, you know that more than anyone. decorations everywhere, piles of candy, and everyone dressing up pretending to be someone else for the night. now i feel bad about how much i bugged you about this year's halloween. my friends keep telling me to come out and join them, but if i'm being honest it's hard to do anything these days. it doesn't help that they think you just left me, ghosted me i guess. but they don't know what you do for work and i can't tell them. so i have to listen to them talk shit about you and i sit there trying to convince them you aren't this evil guy who ditched me and never looked back. maybe i should listen, maybe it's easier to believe you just left me than admitting to myself you're no longer here. i'm holding out, i'm trying so fucking hard to, tan. maybe in some sick joke you will pop up on halloween dressed in some stupid costume with a mask covering your face and in some grand reveal you will pull the mask off and i'll be in your arms again. it's wishful thinking. well, i have to go now, i'm meeting with a co-worker. love you.

dec 1st, 2022: i should be waking up this morning with your arms wrapped around me nearly crushing every bone in my body. but i didn't. and i haven't since the beginning of august. is it cruel now to admit i think you are gone. i really think you are and part of me has thought this since i saw the news of the bullet train. i feel scared. i'm starting to forget the little things about you. i can't play back the sound of your laugh in my head. i can't really picture the way your eyes crinkled. it makes me feel ill. i don't want to forget the small details about you. i crave to whisper goodnight and i love you to you. i crave just for your body next to mine. in the most innocent forms i crave you, like the way you'd absentmindedly play with my hair or pull out my chair or charge my phone when i always forget. the simple things i'm missing the most. i didn't realize i had so many forms of love until you've been gone. happy anniversary, dear.

jan 17th, 2023: tangerine, i'm not sure why i opened this email account. it's been over a month since i've checked it. maybe it was because i heard your favorite song earlier and thought of you a bit more than usual these days. i secretly hoped there would be a new message but that's foolish of me.

april 7th, 2023: Dear Tangerine, I know you won't read this email, but I felt as though I needed to explain what life has been like recently. My friends no longer bring you up in conversation which I am grateful for. I had to stop visiting our favorite breakfast place, each time I went they asked about you, even as recently as three weeks ago. I will miss their egg sandwich that you recommended to me on our third date but it is better off I no longer go there. Work has been great, a bit busy, but good. I removed your picture from my desk at the beginning of the new year. I saw the way my co-workers would stare a bit too long at it, I guess seeing it reminded them how I never mentioned you anymore. Speaking of co-workers, a few emails ago I mentioned I was meeting up with one of them. We've been seeing each other a lot outside of work, I enjoy their company. I can never say this to them but when they kiss me and hug me I sometimes think it's you. That's wrong to admit especially since I think I'm developing feelings for them, but they will never see this. They are kind and treat me well which I know you would be pleased to hear. I packed up your clothes in my house and put them in a box. I couldn't keep looking at them. I cried so much that I don't think I can cry again for years to come. I would hug your shirts and jackets so much that they lost your smell. I regret that a bit. I opened the box a few days ago and it smelled like me. Almost all signs of you are gone now that the remnants of your cologne is worn off the fabric. I think I might sell the house. It's too big for a single person now. It's too quiet in here and it almost feels like someone is watching me, it doesn't feel safe. Maybe that's because you provided me with safety. I'm not doing much today, it's actually pretty early right now, maybe I'll cook that dinner I never got to cook for you. I haven't since that day. I'm realizing how silly I sound in my own head as I type these words. Maybe I'll invest in a journal soon.

#tangerine #tangerine bullet train #tangerine x reader #tangerine x y/n #tangerine x oc #tangerine x you #tangerine imagine #tangerine imagines #tangerine bullet train imagine #tangerine fic #tangerine fanfic #tangerine fanfiction #tangerine bullet train fanfic #tangerine fluff #tangerine angst #tangerine blurb #tangerine headcannon #tangerine oneshot #bullet train imagine #bullet train fanfic #bullet train oneshot #bullet train x reader #bullet train #aaron taylor johnson imagine #aaron taylor johnson x reader #tangerine headcanon #sebsbarnes

[etheries1015]

BOOK 7 SPOILERS BELOW

I finally decided to suck it up and catch up with twst book 7, I stopped after seeing Silver cry because I'm sCARED OF BEING SAD 😭😭 anyway here's a few reactions I had to it 😭

And hearing about the update coming soon-ish to ENG servers I really need to read up

Lilia pressuring Epel like the old man he is 😭😭 I love the moments that they remind us just how old Lilia actually is and how he sees most if not all the students as if they were his children/grand children, making sure they get the most out of the party and drink...its giving "What do you mean you're not hungry? Absolutely not. Here Is at least 5 servings of whatever dish I made to help u grow big and strong."

Okay I didn't take a screen shot of it but the entire section where Lilia looked kind of guilty with Ortho about exchanging addresses because you just KNOW he probably isn't gonna check in, presumably because he doesn't want anyone to get More attached to him seeing as he is nearing the end of his life span (crying shaking throwing up)

THIS. THIS. THIS INTERACTION HE HAD WITH US. I LOVE HIM. I AM SO SILLY FOR HIM. I totally forgot I changed my in-game name from my nickname to my REAL name and when he said my name I verbally yelled "WHAT THE HELL" before giggling and kicking my feet hehehehe I'm clinically insane for him

But the fact that he acknowledged us as Malleus friend probably means we've spent a lot of time at the dorms or around Lilia for him to see how our friendship and interactions with him work, and it melts my heart hehe. Being part of the diafam fr. But honestly bro back me up, I'm tired of being called a hench-human 😭💀

I wonder just how bad we must look with everyone noticing the strange shift??? Either we REALLY made a scene (tripping over, going pale) or the twst boys are just that attentive to us and I think that is the sweetest thing ever 😭😭 Ace and Deuce is so sweet for thinking of us and trying to get us out while also being polite to the people who kindly held the party. Despite not being there long, ace and deuce is willing to skip out on free food and drinks in order to make sure you're okay and I'm just 😭😭 ANGELS. I LOVE THEM.

But also the way Lilia worries for you is so sweet 😭💜 I should write a fic of sick reader and Lilia, or reader trying to tough it out because I know for a FACT Lilia would not let that slide! (Hypocrite 😐)

I ACTUALLY DROPPED MY JAW WHEN SEBEK SAID THIS SHIT. I WAS. WHAT. WHAT THE HELL LMFAOOOOO 😭 thats fucking insane bro I actually found myself chastising him thru the phone, I would NOT let that discrimination against humans bullshit pass fr 😭 slap him right upside the head and give him a stern talking to. I like seeing Lilia get frustrated, he's so cute and UGH. Although it went in one ear out the other, Seeing Lilia mad is so hot if I'm being real with y'all rn BUAHAHA.

I didnt screen shot this either (and I can't fit anymore photos on this post smh) but Silvers nose being red and obvious he was crying but Lilia confused. DudE OF COURSE he was crying!!! You're his dad!! You raised him since he was a baby, he's just now going into adulthood and doing that WITHOUT HIS DAD who is going to a far away land! Sure, traveling is a thing , but honestly nothing beats having that support just a moments away. Silver is literally the sweetest and wants to support his dad , but who's going to support him????!?! Lilia is putting him in a position where Silver feels the need to be strong and hide his tears for Lilias sake, but of course this is hard on him, its so sudden, too! Being so close to your parent and next thing you know mere days later they are stripped away from your arms?!

I just want to give them all hugs. Lilia obviously has some issues and misconstrued ideas of love (a million people have made posts and comments on this, so I will not repeat it) and I just. Need them to all sit around and be their mediator while we go thru their emotional states.

Ugh. I was in my twst burnout stage and still low key am, but fuck does it spark so much passion in you 😭😭

#twisted wonderland #etheries rants💜✨ #Twisted wonderland book 7 #diasomnia #twst #lilia vanrouge #malleus draconia #sebek zigvolt #silver vanrouge

[aheathen-conceivably]

Anonymous OC question of the day!

If you could make a character real, which of your OCs would be:

your bestie

your spouse/partner

your secret lover!

your friendly rival

your enemy!

BONUS: do this for other people’s OCs too!

Pass the game along (anonymously or not)

Nonny! Bless you! This is is the nonsense I live for.

Okay okay we’re gunna assume they’re real but also like I’m selecting these independently, so you know when I pick my bestie’s husband as my partner I’m not causing drama…👀

Bestie

I mean come on, it’s gotta be Zelda, right? Like imma be real, maybe I would like it to be Jo, but at this point in my life ain’t no way I could keep up with her 😂

I just wanna vibe, talk about books and stories, maybe sit in silence sometimes, have some wine if I’m feeling wild. Plus I feel like Zelda has just enough of a proclivity toward the grand and the romantic that I would love to have a long winded conversation with her into the wee hours of the night.

Spouse/Partner

Welp. Sorry bestie. I’m picking your husband. It’s Antoine. Seriously, is anyone even the mildest bit surprised? I don’t think I’ve made any effort to hide that my ~type~ is the moody broken artist who you just can’t understand. Did I maybe give him some of my own IRL husband’s qualities? I plead the fifth….

But also on his positive qualities, the domestic, loyal side of Antoine is very important to me in a partner and his (newfound) emotional strength for Zelda is very attractive. Which speaking of, I mean his attractiveness is obviously a factor here too 👀

Secret Lover

Against Antoine? I have to pick a secret lover when I already have Antoine? How dare you 😭

Okay okay, honestly, I think imma have to go with Georgiana. What? I can do with some fancy gifts and maybe a few trips around the world if she’s feeling wild. Plus, she has the broken artist vibes too oops 🤣

Friendly Rival

Ya know, I think probably Rosella. I know y’all all love her, but she’s definitely got some qualities that would make me wanna be her friend but also probably shit talk and maybe even dislike her from time to time. Like I gave Rosella my love of fashion, but likewise also some of my vanity and vapidity that I’ve worked on curbing. So I think we would have a lot of similarities and enjoy a great friendship, but then also turn around and side eye the hell out of eachother sometimes.

Enemy

Low key, maybe Jo? I feel like if we crossed paths somewhere and shit went bad, it would go real bad. Like we are both stubborn as hell, sure of ourselves, and even a touch manipulative if we need to be. I also don’t think either of us really responds well to someone with similar qualities as us, so there would probably be a bit of bristling because of that too.

Can…can we make it enemies to lovers though? Or just ya know, enemies with a side of secret lovers? 🫣

-

Also, also….I can’t resist doing this for my babies the Plotts so with little to no explanation:

Best Friend: Chad (if he will have me) Partner: Ale (sad lasagna boys for life) Secret Lover: Can I deep cut pick Sade AND Chet when I'm an agent in the anachronistic 70s spy office? Yes, I pick yes. Friendly Rival: Hinoki (forever and always) Enemy: Poppy (please see the Jo energy above)

(psttt psttt @theplottdump for you my fellow potato brain)

#ask #answered #with a touch more introspection than needed sorry gang 🤣 #also thanks Nonny love ya ❤️

[ladyhindsight]

Team Good summons Azazel. As far as Clare’s foresight goes, the story also introduces the mystery of Magnus’ father, since it will be also revealed in the next and final book. considering Magnus originally wasn't a son of a Greater Demon

We can always trust Simon to narrate Alec and Magnus’ relationship issues. We can also trust Alec to have such cartoonish reactions since more is more and less is not enough for you to get it.

What is up with these ancient and/or centuries old beings harassing Alec about his relationship with Magnus. Well, in Azazel's case, probably millions or billions of years or something.

Azazel wants one happy memory from each of the participants in exchange of his plan proposition. Not the solution but an idea for one. Eventually Magnus banishes him, because they will need time to think about what Azazel said. Jordan and Maia then arrive at Magnus’ place.

Like it’s worth enough to start? Like it means necessarily anything?

→ Their cheeks were red from the cold, and Maia was wearing Jordan’s leather jacket. (I'm just bored of even the smallest things being dramatized to the max)

We cut to Jace and Clary’s grand escape from the Italian police for stealing the boat.

Related to a message I received a bit ago. Implying Jace held Clary while they escaped, because why would Clary know how to do any of that herself? It’s not like she has been trained by Jace to do anything.

They eventually return to the moving house of Sebastian who is entertained by two scantily dressed girls, one of which is a vampire. They talk shit, then Jace and Clary go up the get ready for bed. Clary goes to get a nightgown.

The idea of dressing yourself with something you father bought for your mother in hopes of her wearing something sexy. The writing doesn’t really acknowledge that so let’s not either.

I’m getting Not Like Other Girls vibes, but also far less than say, in City of Bones. This seems more good-natured musing rather than putting other girls down because you aren’t that feminine yourself.

Clary goes back to Jace, and things get hot and heavy like with every other scene with them in this book. The honestly do nothing but heavily make out whenever they are together. Which is ironic considering that Clare herself has said that Clary didn’t have a relationship with Jace in this book because Jace here was not himself but controlled by Sebastian. Which makes me question why there is so much physicality written between them then.

Plenty of reasons to stop. Mainly the one mentioned above: Jace not being Jace but one controlled by Sebastian. A reason of which Clary constantly reminds herself of, to the absolute point of being tiringly repetitive. How many times and ways you can write about Jace not being Jace because this book sure does utilize it all and then some.

Vulnerable as in for an attack with a weapon? A sharp one perhaps? :)

Glad we agree, not that it changes Clary’s behavior. It’s insane that Clare thinks that as long as she keeps writing and reminding everyone how Jace is not Jace and Clary is conflicted, it changes absolutely nothing of worth in Clary’s behavior because they keep canoodling to the end. So we enter the repetitive narrative every single time and scene they get physically close.

We cut to Simon sitting on the bed in one of the spare rooms at Magnus’. Isabelle comes to him to gossip about Maia and Jordan, because everything needs and audience and gossiping over for it to be worth something.

Why is Simon happy for Jordan? Fuck Jordan.

→ “Oh. No. No, not at all. I’m glad for Maia. This will make her really happy.” Because fuck Jordan and Jordan’s happiness. Simon was Maia’s friend first.

Then we cut to Alec visiting Camille again. In this scene, the idea that Alec visits Camille to learn more about Magnus (because Magnus is unwilling to disclose any of that information himself) becomes apparent.

This also feeds into the mystery of Magnus’ parentage and how cool and great of a demon his dad is. Compare this insistency on Magnus’ father now to the original version City of Ashes where Magnus wasn’t part Greater Demon at all.

While actively screwing up everything.

Magnus told Alec not to trust Camille but blindly trust Magnus. And then people were somehow surprised that these sucky adults both played into Alec’s insecurities and the end result was what it was? And then accountability was on no one else than Alec. I hate this storyline more so for the fact that no one acknowledges their shortcoming towards Alec but it is for Alec to carry the heavy load of his own culpability.

→ I don’t think Clare ever realized how bad it is to constantly underline Alec’s youth and age.

→ Also why are we taking relationship advice from Camille? Also consider how screwed up a situation is when the only person you can go to ask advice is someone like Camille. Do we acknowledge at least that much in the story? Nope.

→ Also sad.

I don’t believe Clare agrees with this because it is the narrative she distances herself from the further the series go, and effectively abandons it in City of Heavenly Fire. And she writes Camille, an antagonist, spouting this. But let’s not pretend that this isn’t exactly how she has written and keeps writing Clary and Jace’s relationship. They would survive every death except each other’s.

The rest is just nonsense as usual but that part stuck out. Cut to Clary dreaming her dreams.

I can’t with the scars. This book out of all the other books so far is absolutely obsessed (relative to each other) with the “ugliness” of scars that heavenly warriors as the Nephilim have and whether other HEAVENLY WARRIORS as the NEPHILIM may find them ugly. It’s such a weird mentality to have when their source of power and skill and ability is rooted in the very thing that gives them scars and makes them different from the mundanes.

This should be a nonissue, but it’s beginning to feel like obsession over how hot these specific scars actually are—the ones created by faded runes. Since unless you’re Sophie and have an actual ugly one right on your face, then the writing will go above and beyond to tell the readers how it isn’t really that ugly and she is so pretty you barely notice this big-ass thing on her face.

Her spine. Neck would suffice, especially since “her spine” is used so many times instead just ‘back’ or ‘neck’.

→ “Jace’s arms were around her, his fingers tracing a slow line up and down her spine.” → “The two of them fit together, as always, her head under his chin, her spine against the hard muscles of his chest and stomach…”

And then just two paragraphs over:

→ “She slept like that, her head tucked under Jace’s chin, her spine fitted to his body, their legs intertwined.”

Then there’s plenty more to come such as: “from the base of her spine”, “pressing against her spine”, another “heart beating against her spine”, “shudder go down her spine” and another “base of her spine”.

Which in some cases it’s fine and descriptive but mostly “her back” would suffice.

Clary wakes up and leaves Jace to sleep. She goes downstairs and sits with Sebastian.

Really, I thought he poured both for himself.

Obviously he is lying and all, but Clary was there to hear him in City of Glass and knows how it couldn’t have been accident in any way.

They talk some more, have once again the whole argument who is more like who and who is really not anything like each other (meaning either of them) which they manage to regurgitate plenty more times during the story with the exact same way and result.

#Clary Fray #Jace Herondale #Sebastian Morgenstern #Alec Lightwood #Isabelle Lightwood #Simon Lewis #Camille Belcourt #CoLS Chapter 11 #City of Lost Souls

[tapalslegacy]

GET TO KNOW THE MUN. | respond to the prompts out of character!

what made you pick up the current muse(s) you have?

because he's handsome? and he has a great personality? haha, memes aside, I love Fallen Order and Survivor. at first, I shit you not, I didn't wanna play Fallen Order because of that GIANT! STUPID! FROG! so I stopped playing but started to really love Cal because I thought he was super cute? and then I was like, "Yeah, no, I can't keep talking about him without having played the game," and was even more motivated to finish it with Survivor coming around the corner.

the reason why I chose him is because of his internal battles. (I'm trying to keep this as spoiler-free as possible!) his internal battles made his character more relatable, and him always feeling like he has to do more than he needs to, like he feels like he needs to carry the weight of the galaxy on his shoulders? i deeply related to that and I think, loving and writing cal, he has taught me to be more patient and more kind to myself. and oh my god he's so handsome.

is there anything you don’t like to write? i used to be afraid of writing action because I felt like i'd be unsure of how to write it, but I've come to love writing action! i can't exactly think of anything I don't like writing. um I'm just a little nervous about writing nsfw but I think if I'm comfortable with my writing partner, then I can give it a shot! me, writing nsfw: what position are they in again?? UHHH but I know I can write smut, I'm just a little nervous that it won't be enjoyable for both parties omg.

is there anything you really enjoy writing? ANGST. AAAAAAAANGST!!!!! AND ROMANCE!!!! i find these facets of rp so so fun. hence why I'm always happy to ship if there's chemistry! i feel like angst helps me explore the character's nature more do a deep dive into the why behind things. WHEN IT HURTS THE HEART YOU KNOW THAT SHIT IS THE GOOD SHIT.

how do you come up with headcanons? it's almost like they come to me lol. i like to think a lot, especially on the verses I am passionate for. like the grand inquisitor cal verse is my absolute favorite and it's so full of angst that it's super fun to just sit back and think about what he would be like in that verse. i just let headcanons come to me naturally while I think about my muses. sometimes I draw inspiration from media, like film or shows. the loth-wolf idea was inspired by art I've seen of princess Mononoke (which I need to watch) and the rebels show? i just want to give cal a GIANT DOGGO to tell the doggo to SICK 'EM.

do you write in silence or do you play music? both! i can do either. music can inspire me.

do you plan your replies or wing them? both. i like to plot with my partners the set up and wing the rest. whatever feels natural. sometimes I have ideas of things I want to include in my replies beforehand, but other than that it's all trial by fire, baby.

do you enjoy shipping?  YES, DUDE. i am also open to platonic ships? i just love doing fluffy stuff. i love making cal the dense dumb ass I headcanon him to be. i want him to be a gentleman too, as he is! like he'd give his jacket to his partner. AAAAAAAA I WILL FREAK OUT IF THERE'S CHEMISTRY AND I'M ASKED IF I WANNA SHIP THE MUSES

what’s your alias/name? pen name is yuki!! 雪 / ゆき!! i also go by suzume 雀 / すずめ. my actual name is micah 舞香/まいか though. silly goose. suzu. call me whatever you want. CALL ME KESTIS WATCH ME MELT

age? i am 25!

birthday? october 1st!

favorite color? baby blue, baby pink, violet, orange, white!

favorite song? this changes everyday but i really like saturn by sza rn.

last movie you watched? probably revenge of the sith.

last show you watched? BAD BATCH LETS GO i miss tech

last song you listened to? fullmoon lullaby by porter robinson.

favorite food? i love pizza (pineapples on pizza FTW), chicken marsala, nilaga (filipino dish).

favorite season? winter. i love the snow. i love snowboarding sm.

do you have a tumblr best friend? yee @ghosts-eternal-soulmate . she deals with me and my unhinged thoughts about cal. shoutout to you. ty for being so accepting of me. i also love making new friends so if you wanna plot or just chat, IM me!

TAGGING @ofmagiick @oflightsbeam @lykaiia @red-flight @pawnshopsouls @vuulpecula @wihlted @astradecays @therapardalis @gwiazdowe @eclipsecrowned and you! x

tagged by @valorums hi hi callie! ty!

#𓇻 〵 𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐃 𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐒𝐇. ( ooc ) #i yapped a lot omg #dashboad game : get to know the mun #sorry y'all had to witness me simping for cal. it will happen again. i am actually not sorry.

[terraco-07]

I'm gonna start this off by being self aware. Vriscourse in 2024 is so funny and kind of silly in a way so take as little or as much of this as you want. I think I should lead in with Vriska is divisive on purpose. Her entire story is rife with places where you can either hate her, love her, or find shades of grey. I love Vriska as a character, but I want to be perfectly clear. Vriska Serket is NOT a good person, but imo very few people are. Narratively speaking Vriska grows up on a hostile planet where she's forced to kill for her Lusus. She also has the influence of Mindfang's journal to contend with. Vriska never knows who she is, she's always living in someone else's shadow and constantly hating it. Yet at the same time she's trying to live her life by some grand formula. Let's take Tavros for example. By virtue of Karkat and the descriptions we get of Alternia we see the word pity used several times when describing Flushed feelings. Can we take it with a grain of salt and assume that Karkat a known romance over enjoyer is being an unreliable narrator? Sure, we can. That said I think that wording is relevant here. In Vriska's head she feels bad for this guy and thinks that she's the only one who can fix him. On top of that you add in that her hero was flush with a powerful bronzeblood and you've put massive blinders on yourself. She becomes so self absorbed with this idea that she ends up going way too far in her efforts to bring him around and pushes heavily past his consent and boundaries. (Looking at that kiss scene). Even after his death she says maybe 2-3 things about ahh man maybe I shouldn't say bad things about that guy anymore or am I bad for killing (another) friend. She's young but I think the lack of remorse is something that matters here when looking at her in adulthood which is what we're really trying to get to here. As for the previous murder it's barely even touched. There's an air of well Aradia killed me back so we're all good. Even though she ascended to God tier and initially Aradia was just a ghost who had to deal with it while Sollux had to cope with the fact that physically it was his body that killed his matesprit. General other beats are the arrogance, easy to anger, and lack of empathy. Which we actually get to see some development on those from pre retcon Vriska! More on that here in a second.

Holy shit Gil, you're rambling so God Damn much why do we care? I don't know, don't ask me, but here's why all that foundation matters. If we're thinking about the theoretical for any Homestuck character as a whole I feel like we have to consider who they are in adulthood. Tons of discussion and debate all circles around "well they were kids!" Okay, well lets talk about what they could be as adults. So with everything we've already brought up about Vriska, how does she act in her 20s? Personally I think she struggles post game. She has no mental purpose for a while and she's in a place where she doesn't have to fight just to live so that means tons of time to sit around and think. We've seen from pre retcon Vriska that when the stress is off she does actually consider what she's done to a degree. Do I think she thinks about Tavros or Alternian sins all that much? No. I think she doesn't like her younger self (like most people) and does what she can to avoid being like that anymore. That comes with painfully slow growth and still a lot of bridges in need of mending. Those same traits of being self centered and needing attention are there but they're a little more tempered. She can at least listen now and has the emotional intelligence to realize when she's hurt someone and actually care about that. In summary: Vriska is a complicated and flawed character and saying that she did nothing wrong but also saying she did everything wrong are both incorrect. There is nothing defensible about her acts (She fucked up bad) but we can understand why she may have done them without condoning them. As an adult she is still kind of an asshole but she's not to that same level and she gets to grow into a somewhat reasonable adult that is still a dick at times. Also if you got this far then enjoy my shameless Vrisrose propaganda. They get in fights all the time and want to beat the shit out of each other nonstop. Both of them suck and it's so funny.

#homestuck #vriska serket #Text post #Terra rambles #Look I just rambled on because both sides of this suck and there's an easy enough middle ground #And one that feels way more plausible to me

[haldenlith]

Two thoughts on reading the Unforseen Consequences loretab:

Big Yikes, Oh no.

... Really? Cayde's what he wishes he could change? Not the "I waged a genocidal campaign against my own people" part?

Anyway, further elaboration under cut:

On the first item, I'm going "OH NO!" because the last time Crow wished for something (unwittingly) with Riven around, shit went south extremely fast for him (and everyone around him), and the loretab's title does not help with that worry.

And before anyone goes, "but he was just talking to Mara" -- no honey, that wasn't Mara. The "O, brother mine" gave it away. Honestly, I'm almost surprised Crow doesn't have PTSD with that particular phrase, given that Riven has said it to him before when she was posing as Mara.

I've seen people lamenting how Mara and Crow interacted in the loretab, so that's what drove me to go give it a read, and at first I was like "ugh, Crow got cool with her awfully quick" (which I still feel) and "oh of course Mara only has regrets because her plans didn't go her way," BUT THEN they had to put in the "O [noun] mine", which is explicitly an ahamkara thing. Not gonna lie, I immediately went back up and reread stuff and went "OH SHIT" when I saw that Crow did indeed say the phrase "I wish."

As we all know, just about every ahamkara wish functions in a monkey paw fashion -- there is always either a cost to the wish, or a drawback, an "unforseen consequence", if you will. While I'm curious what that would be with regard to bringing Cayde back, I'm exceedingly worried about Crow now. Riven has twisted him up and broken him to pieces before. Hell, I think that's why she appeared here. She's the big cat that sees the canary she ate last time, and sadly that canary is still not wise to her tricks.

As an aside, if this is indeed the reason Cayde comes back in Final Shape, I will be a tiny smidge disappointed. I liked the idea of him being our Vergil, our guide through Hell, brought back by a last gasp of the Traveler or something. I just felt like that symbolism was more fitting.

Speaking of Cayde, the second note is where this gets a bit ranty. That point feels so hamfisted. I get that Crow would have regrets and shame about killing Cayde, especially since that's been why Guardians (and Amanda) treated him poorly. It's the "loudest" consequence of his actions as Uldren Sov. However, it's far from the worst thing he did. In fact, I think it's probably the most unremarkable item, in the grand scheme of things.

(Also, arguably, the Scorn were more responsible for Cayde's death -- the one guy is the one that killed Sundance, afterall, which is the entire reason Cayde got beat up and put in the situation to begin with.)

Uldren had a reign of fuckin' terror across the Reef before he even went into the Prison of Elders with his merry band of Barons. And then he continued it after breaking out, torching Mara's throne, putting many Corsairs to death, and causing a great deal of havoc. There's a reason Petra had an axe to grind with him, and it wasn't because he shot Cayde. It was because he betrayed his people to the absolute nth degree.

And what actually really gets my goat that the thing Crow would want to change being "not killing Cayde", is that we know how much he loved his people. He was severely not okay when he worked under the House of Kings raiding the Reef. It's mentioned how wracked with guilt he is over attacking Awoken. It took Riven posing as Mara and scrambling his grief (and Black Garden corruption) addled brain to make him okay with it. So it's just bizarre to me that as Crow, he'd sit back and look at all of that bullshit he committed and go "yeah killing Cayde was the line in the sand and the worst thing, yup yup."

Not to mention the whole "let me team up with the Scorn and kill everyone" thing was the actual first domino in the chain of shitty things he did in his downfall-arc, which led to killing Cayde, but okay, whatever...

Making it about Cayde feels super forced. Like sure, we The Player care most about Cayde, not about stuff that happened off-screen, but as far as the character that is Crow is concerned, I just feel like it doesn't fit him to pick that particular event (when forced to pick one thing). Granted, I feel like Crow would honestly not want to pick -- he'd want to fix everything, because he's a guilt-ridden sweetheart like that, but still.

#haldie rambles #haldie rants #destiny 2 spoilers #I'm not sure I need a spoiler tag #but putting it on anyway #I'm getting hit with a case of “he wouldn't say that” #like I'm sure he wishes none of that shit happened and he could undo it #but still #them writing that feels so hamfisted to me

[itcamefrombeneaththeblog]

Why Do I Have To Be Depressed For You To Care? - A Longpost Journaling/Rant

Today marks my 120 pounds lost. From 400 to 280.

One of the things that makes this journey I'm on hard is that I'm totally alone in it. Most of my life I have gone through alone. In 30 years I've had maybe 6 people I'd call close friends. 2 of them betrayed me horrifically. The other 4, well, Like I love them. But we're adults. We all live far away and I rarely see them. One is a mom, one is married to the love of his life, and the other two are far away.

As far as lovers go? Well when you're 400 pounds they're non-existent. The idea of someone loving you seems as probable as mystical fey creatures. Especially when you have a job as fucked up and hard as caregiving for your grandparents who have alzheimers, which I did from age 21 to 29. Nobody wants to be in your life when you go through that. I don't blame them, I didn't want to be in my life then either.

So it shouldn't be hard for me now should it? I mean I'm a fuckin' professional at being alone now. Aren't I? Is anyone ever? I'm as healthy as I've been in yeeears. I've lost 120 pounds. And I'm sitting here, in a chair, listening to the wind softly blow my curtains next me. I can hear my neighbors, the squealing of tires. It's very lonely. I'd love to have someone be like, great job babe, or something like that. Just a celebratory kiss would probably make the last ten years of my life worth it.

But here I am alone. And I'm not so much sad, as I'm just hit by the realization that I did this for myself. This person I dislike so much, I transformed them, me, into this new person. And I originally did it so I would be more attractive. Such a silly reason, but that's the truth. I started out trying to make myself more desireable and in the end I seem to have found myself. This should be a grand revelation, but it isn't. I still feel empty.

I dunno. There's desperate lonliness within me. And that's not attractive, but I feel like I really hate how we as a race of beings have normalized not caring about the lonely souls like me.

I'm no incel. I'm not a poor sad sack or a woe is me lame asshole whose sad all the time. But this blog often finds me being very sad and talking only about things that are dark and depressing.

And that's because depressing has got me a bunch of views, people commenting, and so many people have seen my work. Depression sells. Isn't that...wrong? Why do I need to be depressed for you to care? Why am I only interesting to you when I'm suffering?

Did you know I've made a bunch of positive and health conscious posts? Probably not because nobody seems to give two shits about them. But the suicide poems, the poem about being SA'd as a child, poems about death and heartache, they do *really* well.

Why have we normalized sadness? Why is it cool in these artistic spaces to be so destitute emotionally? I don't know. Part of me thinks these are rhetorical questions that can't be answered satisfyingly. Part of me considers it to be in that misery loves company vein.

Is there a point to this? Well if you read this far I hope so, so you didn't feel like you wasted your time. I hope my writing is interesting to you. The point I want to make is that I lost 120 fucking pounds. That is staggering. I lost a whole person. I should be jumping for joy with friends or a lover.

But I'm not. It's like I've been programmed, brainwashed into feeling morose all the time because I don't have this or that, but also because being morose and sad gets me the attention I so desperately crave. How fucked is that? I've conditioned myself into a state of self-destruction.

So...I guess my ultimate point is that we need way more love in this culture, as cliche as that sounds. Because I think a lot of this isolationist jag our generations are on suck. And I'm as much to blame as anyone. We need a radical shift in mood, otherwise how are we, the dreamers, ever going to influence the chamge we want to see, if we're not willing to chamge ourselves?

I want what I want. I want someone to give a shit. Just one.

And holy goddamn, that one person is harder to find apparently than 120 pounds is to lose. That is profoundly painful.

#blog #long form content #long post #introspection #introspective #gothic #sad boy #sad #sad thoughts #happy

[thekrows-nest]

normally i dont have my OCs be yanderes when I set them up with someone else's yan OC but i like the idea of a yandere primmy with krow <3<3<3 some more naughty stuff will come eventually

General Things:

Prim 100% has her hands on Krow all the time she's so insatiable 😭 (Ofc she stops whenever Krow asks- consent is sexy :lipbite:) I know she'd love to press long and drawn out smooches on Krow's lips only to nip his lip as she pulls away. Prim adores holding his hand all the time or wrapping her arms around his neck from behind. She peppers kisses all over krow's hands calling them pretty and gushes about how talented they are as an artist. Constantly compliments him on anything and everything. Prim would frame anything that Krow gifts her 🥰 She'd put little braids in his hair, transferring some of her hair clips onto him.

Prim's huge on gift-giving. I haven't specified it too much i think??- but Primmy’s not the type to just buy expensive gifts because they're expensive. (She haaates most of the popular luxury brands) She honestly puts the effort to buy gifts that are meaningful to her darling. I'd say Prim would avidly watch Krow paint/sculpt and take note of any paint/material he runs low on. As much as she would love for krow to let her spoil them with her money she understands that it can be overwhelming so she tries to be careful about it. She buys him groceries often because he probably cooks all the time for her since she cant cook for shit 😭

Yanyan things:

I don't think there's very many things that Krow would do to make her act rashly 🤔 I think they pair so well that its just unlikely jdhdbdbd

But i still wanna talk about kidnapping so lets pretend Primmy lost a few (more) screws

Krow would wake up in a plush bed, leg chained to the wall, enough slack to move around the room. Prim sits at the foot of the bed, perking up as she spots him awake. "Birdie! Good morning, love." She coos, leaping over and tightly hugging him. A sweet strawberry scent fills his senses. She tightly grips his face, looking at him with absolute adoration. "I know this seems a little scary but it's for the best. I can't have you getting away from me." She nuzzles him close, sharp nail nicking his cheek as she moves. She presses a kiss over the cut and licks the small bead of blood. Krow lifts a hand to feel his neck, a collar customized to suit him sit snugly on him. "Oh I'm so happy I have you here with me, birdie. We'll be together forever and ever." She lets out an airy giggle, lacing their fingers together.

Okay NOW I think I have the spoons to actually respond to this ndfgbld

Krow is totally fine with all the physical affection Prim wants to give him (the only time he'd really ask her to stop is when he is trying to work on some art, ESPECIALLY if it's something where he could accidentally nick her like if he was carving something). He'd definitely get a bit bashful over the compliments, but accept them in good stride. What affection she gives him, he returns in equal doses. Krow is like a mirror, reflecting the love and attention his Dove gives him in turn.

Small, meaningful gifts Krow can and does appreciate. Like I mentioned before, the more expensive and/or grand the thing, the more awkward he gets over it. Even if he KNOWS it is within Dove's price range, what makes him feel weird about it is that he cannot do the same in turn. Like, he can also gift small, cute stuff. But something impressive with a hefty price tag? Not at all. And he'll cook all the time for Prim. He enjoys it and food is something that makes him very happy. I hope Prim delights in different foods and cuisines like he does. You'll never get bored with Krow's cooking.

As for the yandere side of things hoo boy.

Like you said (and I think I did too), I highly doubt there's anything either one would do to make the other spiral into more crazy yandere acts. Prim I am sure wouldn't do anything to ignite Krow's jealousy (not to dangerous levels anyway) and I don't think Krow would do anything in turn.

But again, for the sake of the plot bunny, let's say he did.

Admittedly Krow is... torn?

On one hand, he is flattered that Prim loves him SO MUCH that she wishes to keep him forever and ever. He feels much the same! He'd love to stay forever! But also like... "Heheh, D-Dove, m-my Muse, y-you didn't have to g-go through s-such efforts. Y-you could have simply a-asked me to m-move in." And he was... never gonna get away from you?

And yet. And yet he thinks of his coworkers. Especially Luke and Jazzy. He loves the both of them too. He wants them in his life somehow. It is not like they replace Prim or are more important. Prim AND Luke with Jazzy are equally important! Krow knows he'll have to proceed with caution to convince Prim that he WILL be with them, forever and he isn't leaving them or anything. But he has some devotion to Luke and Jazzy too.

It's... a sticky situation for sure.

#krow asked and answered #krow in character #the krow's nest #dove prim #dove aviary

[crushingonthevalley]

Stardew Valley character's music taste

i'll explain why this has come up after I get through the marriage candidates, tee hee... Also a little aromantic discussion at the end

Alex- Travis Scott, or like a sports podcast, I don't think he's a big music guy. maybe Drake then. idrk.

Abigail: acts like she listens to obscure shit, but she means paramour and green day...

Elliot: Mozart, but on Tuesdays the Taylor Swift sister albums

Emily: Kate Bush.

Haley: Charli XCX, kesha, lana del rey maybe, ariana grande, hot pop girls. i would say sabrina carpenter but as a long-term sabrina fan i cant see her sitting down and listening to mona lisa or singular act 2 ya get me.

Harvey: "Chapstick Girl"-Seanie Dew, all jokes aside like ricky montgomery or ambient noise

Leah: It's either like a Ms Lauryn Hill/Fiona Apple sitch, or like Irish pub songs, or jigs, like a sea shanty.

Maru: idk something unexpected like quadeca or some shit.

Penny: Taylor Swift, or some like indie shit no one's heard of that's just people singing breathily over heavenly instrumental, oh clairo.

Sam: I can't decide, it's either like Tyler the Creator, or Kali Uchis, or Conan Gray, or like Mother Mother. Or be like me and do it all. l, too

Seb: heavy metal or goth or emo as shit. or Kendrick Lamar I see that too.

Shane: whatever's on at the pub, Eminem

Okay... so the reasoning. In my last post I mentioned Conan Gray, yeah my sister made me listen to all of his music, loving it, and when I got back to school after break... yeah I tried not to talk too much about it, especially around Crush 3, it took like 10 minutes before I mentioned Conan Gray, and when Mr Maru, Mrs Sam, Mx Harvey, looked at me, eeew, I'm cringing, I think I just crave attention tbh. But yeahhh... Anyways recently talking about Conan Gray again my friend said his music is white girl music or you have white girl energy if you like him, I said I don't think Crush 3 really gives white girl energy, and they went yeah it either white girl energy or fruity as hell... I- They're not wrong butt... Later on, they revoked the white girl comments and said it's angsty teen gay music, again not wrong, I mentioned Crush 3 cause, shut up... And they said Crush 3 is an enigma, and I said I can just ask them if they're queer, I'm making a bet that I will not ask, or if I do it'll be the last communication ill be having with Crush 3... So expect to see less of them I guess. Also went on a cheeky school trip and Crush 2 was there, yeah yeah no yeah, Leah 2.0, and a little crush but none actually.

I was also thinking about my sexuality, especially the aro spec nature of it, i still identify with aromanticism but it feels more complex than I ever initially thought. Crushes are weird, and are they crushes, do I have libido, sometimes it doesn't feel like it. I'm confused, everyone's confused. Help...

#aromantic #stardew valley #stardew bachelors #stardew bachelorettes #crushes #aroace #arospec #acespec #crush #music #conan gray #stardew update #stardew 1.6 #stardew valley characters

[brainyxbat]

TG. Venus Fun Fact: She has an Inferiority Complex

"And now, introducing our special model!" Venus feels her heart drop at her boyfriend Usopp's announcement after Brook. He can't be talking about her; she's not special. "A sexy girl that steals the hearts of all men!" Definitely not her. "Our brainy, curvaceous navigator... Nami!" She stays quiet, while the redhead struts down the staircase, as if she's hot shit.

"Nami-swan~!" She hears Sanji gush.

"Makes sense, seeing as I'm so refined!" Venus rolls her eye at that. How vain can you get?

"May I see your panties?!" She hears Brook's voice.

"Never!" She grows a small smirk through her oncoming tears, but it disappears again at the next announcement.

"Next, a mysterious and cool beauty!" That certainly didn't describe her either. "An archeologist who seeks the mysteries of history, and the user of the Hana Hana No Mi! Nico Robin!"

Robin walks down the stairs, and demonstrated her power. "I'll show you history with these hands."

"Robin-chwan, you're so cool~!" Sanji swoons.

Venus squeezes her hands together, as the cook is up next in his dominantly dark purple outfit. She isn't letting tears come out; not now. Through Franky's turn, she contemplates the idea of making herself scarce; she can't go out there, while on the verge of tears. Not after Nami and Robin were so bright and confident. Should she just leave?

As the urge to cry grows stronger, she then makes her decision. "Next up is a person... well, he's not really a person." During Chopper's turn, Venus tunes everyone out, as she discretely heads for the other side of the ship. She holds herself, as she walks, fighting her tears and quivering lips. She only hopes no one would notice her sudden absence; despite the show just being for fun, she just doesn't have the confidence to participate anymore. She isn't tall, or busty, or pretty like the navigator, and the archeologist. The show would surely be better without the homely witch wrecking it with merely her presence.

She enters her boyfriend's workshop branch office, and quietly shuts the door. She peers out the window, feels relieved when no one seemed to notice, then sits by the bench.

Little did she realize... she slipped away a little too early.

When she was out of earshot, the next model after Zoro was announced. "I know as presenter, I shouldn't play favorites," Usopp laments, hand over his heart, "It's not fair to everyone else, but... gah, I just can't help myself!" As he dramatically smacks the railing, the others have a strong feeling who was next. "Second to last, but certainly not least... the most beautiful witch I have ever seen! And trust me; I've met a lot!" He winks, gaining laughter from the others. "She longs to be the best at her craft, and I'm confident she will be someday! She's short, has long green hair, and a green eye that shines like an emerald in the sun!" They can almost see the hearts floating around his head at his corny, yet sweet description. "She hails from the city of the mermaids! She began gracing our lives in Loguetown! She puts others before herself, always! She supports all dreams! Oh, I'm such a lucky guy!" He swoons, hugging himself.

"Our adorable spellcaster, and the user of the Majo Majo no Mi! The dark, lovely, magical angel who stole my heart years ago! The love of my life: Tempeste... G... VENUUUUUS!!" He hams it up for her grand entrance... but she doesn't come out. He stays in his pose awkwardly; maybe she was spacing out, and not paying attention? "VENUUUUUS!!" He tries again after a few seconds, with just as much enthusiasm. Still nothing. "Venus?" Now confused, he peers in the room; he only sees Luffy, who glances around, then simply shrugs with a hum of obliviousness. Where was she? He frantically turns to the audience, as the captain bursts out. "She's not in there!"

"What?!" Everyone clamors over in concern. They don't get it; she was in there with them earlier! What changed?

"What happened to Venus-chwan?!" Sanji exclaims worriedly.

"We're not docked, so she couldn't have just left," Zoro points out.

"This ship's big; we should split up into groups to look for her," Nami proposes.

"Brilliant as always, Nami-swan~!"

"Split up!" Sanji, naturally, goes with Nami, to search the lower deck, alongside Franky and Brook, Luffy, Zoro, and Chopper scale the second floor, while Robin and Usopp join together to search the other side of the upper deck.

All the while, everyone calls out in concern for their missing crewmember.

"Venus! Where are you?!" - Nami.

"Venus-chwan!" - Sanji.

"Venus, it's your turn!" - Luffy.

"Venus, this better not be a prank!" - Zoro.

"Little sis! Please come out!" - Franky.

"Venus! You better not be dead!" - Robin.

"Venus! You're up!" - Chopper.

"Venus-san!" - Brook.

"Venus! Are you okay?! We're all worried about you!" - Usopp.

Robin peers into the window of the sniper's workshop, and spots a green-haired figure sitting with the face hidden behind the knees. She recognizes the blue outfit, and black gogo boots; Venus. "Usopp!" She alerts him. "She's in here!"

Usopp runs over like mad, and slows down to walk in with Robin. At closer inspection, they hear Venus sniffling, and notice her shoulders shaking. They can't see her face, but they can tell that she's crying. "Venus?" She kneels down in front of her, as Usopp silently gestures to everyone that she's been found. "What're you doing in here? It's your turn."

Venus shakes her head. "I'm not going."

"Why not?" As a surprised Robin asks, Usopp sits next to his girlfriend, and puts his arm around her shoulders.

"Because, I..." She trails off, and hugs her legs tighter, as her boyfriend's words from earlier ring through her mind. 'Special model. Sexy girl. Brainy. Curvaceous. Mysterious and cool beauty.' Anyone could see that she was none of those things.

"Because...?" Robin repeats patiently. By now, everyone is gathered outside the room; they're relieved that she's unharmed, but at the same time, are concerned about her sudden somberness.

"LOOK AT ME!!!" Venus' head shoots up, surprising everyone with her shout. She's a mess; her pale cheeks and small nose are flushed, the one marred with black mascara trails, and her eye is red. She takes a deep, shaky breath to calm herself. "'Cause... Robin, I'm not like you, or Nami."

"What do you mean?"

"I'm not tall like you guys, or cute. Or pretty. And I'm not..." She awkwardly gestures towards her rack. "B-big here, either."

"Well, not everyone is blessed with those things," Nami says without thinking it through. "We just got lucky."

As Venus stays quiet, and hides her face again, Usopp and Zoro turn to the navigator with death glares, while everyone else, sans Sanji and Luffy, give her disapproving looks. "Go keep the stage warm," Zoro orders sternly, and she walks off with bafflement, oblivious to the impact of her words.

"Venus, it doesn't matter if you're different," Robin assures, with a gentle hand on her knee, "Your unique traits make you who you are, and we all love you." She doesn't say anything, but she does lift her head back up, so her eye is above her leg. "Don't listen to Nami; she doesn't always think before speaking."

"Ain't that the truth," Usopp mumbles, as he rubs her back.

"And you think you're not cute? Of course you are; alongside Chopper, you're the cutest one here." Venus raises her head up more, and wipes her tears, leaving watered-down mascara on the back of her hand, and spreading it on her cheek. Robin frowns in concern. "You want me to get your makeup wipes? You're starting to smear a little, and it could get in your eye." Venus nods in slight embarrassment. "Okay, I'll be right back." After gently patting her knee, she straightens up, and heads to the bedroom she shares with the witch, and the navigator. "Let's leave them alone," She advises the others, and they file away to the stage.

When they're alone, Usopp rests his temple against his girlfriend's. "Robin's right, you know. You're amazing just as you are, V." She looks up at him silently, as tears keep welling up, and creating more dark lines. He lovingly strokes her ponytail, draped over her left shoulder. "It's why I fell for you; I love everything about you. You're sweet, adorable, and the most beautiful girl on the ship." She silently leans on his shoulder with a small sniffle. "Can you smile for me?" His heart breaks when she tries, but can't muster it up. "And uh, just because I said those things about Nami and Robin, doesn't mean I have feelings for them. Robin's more like a mother, or a big sister, and frankly... Nami scares me." He doesn't notice the tiny smile briefly growing, as he glances outside. "Here, I'll tell you a little secret." She looks up a little more. "Nami made me say "special model" about her," He confesses.

That doesn't surprise her in the slightest. "Figures."

"You know how she is. If it was up to me, I would've said it about you. Because I love you, and only you. You're my special model." When she grins up at him, he happily returns it. "There's that lovely smile." He turns his head, and kisses her hair. "Were you not able to hear my introduction for you earlier?" He asks curiously, just as Robin returns with the wipes.

"N-no," She mumbles in embarrassment.

"No? Well, he was practically singing praises about you. Close your eye, and keep your brow up." As Usopp holds his girlfriend's bangs up, Robin whips one out, and starts wiping her messy makeup away, along with her tears, with motherly gentleness. Her black moon beauty mark soon becomes visible. "You look a mess right now," She says delicately, "But you're starting to look better already."

"S-sorry I disappeared like that," She sniffles, "I just couldn't go out there like this."

"It's okay, Venus. Just don't scare us like that again; we all were very worried about you." She finishes wiping, and uses another on her hand where the dark smear is, as Usopp lowers his own hand; but not before quickly kissing her forehead. As stated earlier, Venus looks better than before, without the black smears. "Do you want to go participate? You'd be second last, right before the captain."

"You don't have to if you don't want to," Usopp adds. He knows he'll be disappointed at having to leave his beloved girlfriend out of the fun if she says no, but he wants to respect her decision simultaneously. He smiles when she nods. "Awesome. Do you need a minute, before we go?"

"Yeah."

"Do you want your makeup redone?" Robin offers. "Or would you rather go without it?"

"Um... without," Venus decides, snuggling up to her boyfriend.

"Okay then, I'll leave you two alone," She stands up, "See you on stage, Venus. Kill it up there." With the encouragement, she walks away to rejoin the others.

"With or without makeup, you're always beautiful." Usopp kisses her temple, as he tucks her shoulder-length, loose chunk of hair behind her ear.

"Thanks," Her shy smile grows. "Usopp?"

"Yes, darling?"

"Everything really does look good on you," She refers to his self-introduction. "You look amazing."

He chuckles bashfully. "Thanks, V. You do too." He leans in, and holds her cheeks, as they share a kiss for a few seconds. "You'll be the prettiest girl in the whole show."

"Thanks." She snuggles into his neck and shoulder. "The coolest and manliest is the presenter."

Usopp keeps his arms firm around her. "Only the best for you." He turns outside, where the others waited at the opposite side of the ship. "You ready to head over there?"

She nods. "Yeah." They stand up, and walk together, hand-in-hand.

-

Once she's ready to go, Usopp returns to the transponder snail he has for a mic. "Alriiiight! Let's try this again, folks!" Everyone watches with respectful silence, as he repeats his introduction for his girlfriend, word by word. Venus smiles widely, tears of joy now in her eye, as Luffy grins behind her.

"Don't run off again," He jokes and chuckles, as she giggles.

"I won't; no worries."

"The dark, lovely, magical angel who stole my heart years ago! The love of my life: Tempeste... G... VENUUUUUS!!" Usopp finishes.

Feeling a huge boost of confidence from the sweet introduction through Brook's jamming, Venus marches over, and walks down the staircase, as everyone cheers. She stands with her left hip out, her hand over her blue skirt, and produces an energy ball with her free hand, as everyone cheers enthusiastically. "I'll cast a spell on you."

"Venus-chwan, you're wonderful~!" Sanji gushes.

"Sorry, Sanji," Venus smiles with sympathy, "This witch is taken." She blows a kiss up to Usopp, who happily catches it. She walks all the way down, and joins the others for the finale.

"You were great up there," Robin praises.

"Yeah, you were super~!" Franky adds.

"Thanks, guys," She giggles shyly, then perks up when Brook plays more enthusiastically, "Ooh, here comes the last one!"

"And naturally, he'll be the one to close the show!" Usopp announces. "The user of the Gomu Gomu No Mi! The leader of the Straw Hat Crew!" Luffy twists his arms into spirals. "He wants to find the great treasure One Piece, and become the Pirate King!" He stretches his legs, and poses confidently with his slinky arms. "Monkey D. Luffy!"

He launches himself up to the top. "I will be the Pirate King!"

-

That night, after a long day of battling Marines, getting patched up, and retrieving a misplaced Zoro from Hand Island, the Straw Hats prepare to turn in for the night, with Franky on the first night watch shift. "Goodnight, little sis!" He calls out when he spots the young witch clad in a black nightgown.

She giggles, and waves. "Goodnight, big bro!"

Before she gets to the bedroom, a pair of arms wrap around her waist, greatly startling her. "OH!" She yelps, but relaxes when she spots the familiar, blue and white striped wristband. She feels his chin on her scalp. "You scared me," She laughs.

"What?! What scared you?!" Usopp pretends to shield her from an imaginary threat, and glances every which way cautiously. As he holds her closely, one of his arms is over her mouth. "I'll protect you, my angel."

She giggles, and gently pushes his arm off her face. "It was you who did, you goof," She jokes.

He chuckles, and rests his chin on her shoulder. "Wanna take turns pushing each other on the swing before bed?"

"I would love to, but I'm beat," She regretfully says, as she nuzzles her head on his, "Tomorrow, before lunch?"

"It's a date."

She smiles, and kisses his cheek. "I may had been sad about it at first, but the fashion show was fun."

"I'm glad you enjoyed it," He holds her closer, "And I'm sorry you felt so down about yourself."

"It's okay, it wasn't your fault."

"Well, if we do it again... you can go first."

She smiles, and nods. "Thanks. Sounds like a plan."

She lets out a big yawn, making him chuckle again. "Sounds like you should turn in, sleepyhead."

"I would be in bed by now, if you hadn't snuck up on me like that," She playfully chides him, as he soothingly pets her hair.

"You love being with me," He coos.

"I do," She giggles, adjusts herself, and pulls him in for a goodnight kiss, with her hands on his cheeks. "I love you, Usopp. Goodnight."

He smiles wider when she kisses his long nose. "I love you too, Venus. Sweet dreams."

He goes to give her a last one on her forehead, when a strong hand yanks him away. "Come on, loverboy," Zoro orders, "Less kissing, and more sleeping."

The couple pouts from their sudden separation, but go to turn in regardless.

#oc fun facts #venus x usopp #bxb fanfics #episode of luffy #one piece #one piece oc #tempeste g. venus #usopp #one piece usopp

[ofpineapplesanddawns]

Sleep well 😴

Hmmm as a prompt (of my own creation haha)

Peter x Lucian

Peter doing his show, with some rare audience participation and dragging lucian on stage for a bit of flirting or even smooching.

This may be a little shit, but feel free to do whatever you want to do with this… I won’t be disappointed whatever you do.

I don't think it's shit, I think it's interesting!

On with the fic!

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Sometimes Peter's PR team liked to host these shows where audience participation was needed for the show. These could either go pretty well with whoever got chosen actually did what they were told to do, or they could go badly and things went to shit. Or, in one case, Peter having to take a trip to the hospital because a guest struck him with a prop and knocked him off stage.

He never did find out what happened with that guest, but his people were able to take care of things. He didn't bother to ask what that meant.

Tonight was a night for participation, it often drew in more customers. The chosen seat was randomized, and if no one sat in it, there were backups.

This was also one of those rare nights where Lucian came to see the show, curious to see how different the show was when an audience member was brought on stage. Peter nearly prayed that he wouldn't embarrass himself in front of Lucian tonight.

He was backstage, getting ready for when his grand appearance would happen, when he heard the sounds of the vampires out on stage. Some of them were talking among themselves, about looking for the perfect victim tonight. The usual actress who played the victim always loved these nights because she got to be a vampire for once, so he heard her happily exclaim it was time to hunt.

There was sounds of the vampires rushing the audience, the people happily getting involved with fake surprise and horror, until the lead actress, the head vampire, announced she found the perfect victim.

Peter made his way to the lower stage, getting on his platform to make his grand appearance by being lifted upwards to the stage through a trap door. He wondered who got chosen tonight, the last seat had, ironically, been for a birthday-celebrating kid, so that was pretty cool.

However, when Peter finally got up onto the stage, about to make his big, grand speech, the words died in this throat when he noticed who was 'strapped' to the bed.

Of fucking course it was his luck that Lucian would sit in the random seat.

Lucian looked perfectly fine playing the victim, in fact, he looked quite amused. Peter cleared his throat and decided it might be time for a little improvisation.

"Wrenches of the night!" He called out, hoping his voice didn't crack. "How dare you decide to try to make a feast of my fellow hunter, Blaiddda!"

He totally ignored the look Lucian shot his way at the joke name. "Unforgivable! For he is one of the best hunters in the land, blessed by the moon herself to take down your kind!"

The actresses looked a little confused, but then excited, they were good at their jobs, they loved mixing it up. "He was an easy catch, hunter Vincent! Distracted at just the right moment for us to strike!"

"It shall not happen again!"

"No, because he will bleed tonight, as will you!" Called the head vampire.

And their 'battle' started. All flashing lights and fog, fire and fake blood splatter. Lucian watched them from where he was still tied down to the set, seeming to be enjoying this way more than Peter liked. Clearly he was getting a kick out of the show more than he normally did.

Soon, Peter slayed the last of the vampires, who winked at him when she dropped onto the foggy stage. Cheek.

He hurried up to the bed where Lucian was, speaking into the mic on his jacket. "Blaiddda, have they harmed you?" He asked, trying not to smile, he had to pretend to be worried.

"No, I'm fine, you know I heal quite well from injury, my dear hunter." Lucian replied and Peter wanted to hide his face, fuck, that sounded weirdly romantic.

"Let me take you away from here, check for wounds, you never know what those crafty beasts can do when not looking."

"Ah? Are you that worried, or is this more of an excuse to get me out of my clothes?" Lucian smirked, the audience laughed, and Peter stuttered out nonsense.

"Y-you must have hit your head, let me, uh, take care of it."

"Whatever my hero desires."

"Jesus fuck, Lucian." He whispered and Lucian looked way too amused about this.

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This is what you get for the wolf joke, Peter.

#lucian x peter vincent #john's drabbles #good omens extended universe

[rmwb-fanfics]

8 & 18 🍨

I lika lika these ask boxes haha.

8. If you had to write an entire story without either action or dialogue, which would you choose, and how would it go?

I would write about a cat walking in the rain. The sounds, how he's missing things through the downfall. The feeling of his paws on the cobblestone road. Where he's headed, why he's headed there. How it feels to be weighed down by the water, and what that means to the cat. I honestly think I could write a 5k-word thing for this damn cat.

No action is the hard part here because you can convey a lot through basic-basic action, but it's still action nonetheless. Like, I write silences a lot, and I like going into how people think and why they're thinking about it. Footsteps. Dreams. Regrets. Etc. Those all contain some element of action, technically.

Hell, the cat walking could be considered action. Hmm.

Then I'd probably write about a father sitting on a bench, thinking back on his life and how it made him feel.

18. Choose a passage from your writing. Tell me about the backstory of this moment. How you came up with it, how it changed from start to end.

My absolute favourite one doesn't happen for another two chapters BUT I have some others.

I have two (three) that I'm very fond of. So I'll only talk about one of them 😂. It's from Regretfully Uncaring and it's a similarity in description that I got all excited about.

"The magic expanded out around her, taking every brick, every atom, and reshaping it. The rock and charms of the enchanted cellar walls shifted. The ceiling disappeared in a flurry of white flowers. The wind picking them up as they soared out into the night sky." - Chapter 31: New, Crescent, Quarter, Quibbous, Full.

So, in the scene above, (which is still the coolest part of this entire story. Fuck, sometimes I reread it just to hype myself up,) Ginny is breaking out of the Riddle House. Doing multiple impossible feats of magic because she's afraid and distraught. She wants to save Harry, but this is about her. This is about saving herself. She's breaking out of more than just that cell, she's breaking out of the mental prison she's locked herself in since the diary. She's, in some part, accepting what happened between her and Tom, and is taking what he taught her and putting it into effect. It isn't supposed to be this grand heroic moment, it's supposed to shock the reader. You're supposed to feel holy shit, this is really bad because she just killed a man by draining all the water from his body to create a storm to force the world to hear her, to listen to her, and complete the animagus transformation.

BUT I use very similar imagery later with Lily's death.

"And then she was gone. Her body transfigured into thousands of white lilies. The wind picking them up and swirling them around the collapsing mindscape." - Chapter 35: Always

THIS. WAS. DELIBERATE. And I remember my dad reading it (because he reads all my chapters, love you dad,) and he was like, "Why'd you use this again," and I panicked because maybe I just didn't convey the similarity well enough or whatever but then he figured it out on his own and I was like omg bless.

Lily leaving Harry's mind, letting his werewolf bond with Ginny's soul, is obviously laced with themes of coming of age and the whole part of the Hero's Journey™️ where the mentor character dies to let the main character come into his own etc etc. BUT, he's also escaping a prison of sorts. He's leaving the protection of his mother's mind. He can't rely on her knowledge or her guidance anymore. Lily even SAYS this:

"In a sense, she was beyond pleased. Because she'd done her job. She'd accomplished the task any mother would wish to accomplish. She'd raised a phenomenal man. Someone who could truly thrive in this world. She'd brought him to a point where no matter the guidance she could provide, he could still go higher.

He could always go higher."

Lily sees herself as Harry's prison/cage/cell WHATEVER. Whether that's true or not can be debated. I don't think there will ever be a time in my life when I haven't got anything to learn from my mom, but Lily is also like... 22 here, so her insecurities still have room to be relatively naive and childish. The point is, that's what she thinks, and so her fading into a bunch of white lilies isn't just a pun for her name, it's meant to mirror Ginny escaping her prison.

(Also, the fact that Ginny thinks about all the Diary and Ginny x Tom stuff as a mental block, (literally a mental prison) is just another thing for Lily to believe of herself. She lives in Harry's mind, she's HIS mental prison. UGH this story is so damn good if only my vocabulary wasn't horrifically repetitive, and the start was readable.)

#Asks! #Regretfully uncaring

[justinmitchellfan]

ARIANA GRANDE X MERCEDES VARNADO LOVE STORY SMUT WARNING ⚠️ PART 17 of the continuation of the she's the one love story

Chapter 42 title: last show

Arianas point of view

Humming to the song playing through my car ,my eyes follow the passing scenery of San Diego and for the most part I'm in a slightly zoned out state that is until I feel the grip on my thigh tighten ,my gaze shifts moving from the window to the hand on my leg and I look up to find my fiances jaw clenching and unclenching as her leg bounces rapidly, scooting closer ,I wrap my arms around her arm and gently scratch my nails up and down her forearm "baby as u speak quietly "talk to me as there isn't really a need to ask if she's okay, seeing as she clearly has something on her mind

With a long exhale she does "I'm just nervous, which is kind of stupid cause this isn't my first show and it isn't my first show of this tour either, we been doing this for weeks and all of a sudden I'm anxious says mercedes and I make sure she's done before replying "it's not stupid baby says Ariana as she looks over at me "I'm nervous every time i perform, whether it's singing at my moms birthday, an appearance, or at Madison Square garden says Ariana as mercedes brows pinch together but she's listening "it's not stupid to be nervous, you want to perform well for your fans and it's what you love to do says Ariana "yeah I guess says mercedes

Shaking my head I say "no guessing, I'm right says Ariana and that makes mercedes chuckle, a smile tugging at her lips, which makes me smile "just like every other night, you're going to be amazing, everyone knows it says Ariana and mercedes takes a deep breath, inhaling slowly and exhaling slowly then meets my eyes again "I love you, thanks for supporting me says mercedes "always as I raise my hand to cup the back of her neck and pull her into a kiss "and I love you too says Ariana "I'd hope so, shit ,you wearin my ring says mercedes as she jokes and I know she's really okay now and laughing, I look down at said ring on my finger "and I'm never taking it off as I tell her

Her smile brightens, a breathy chuckle falling from her lips "so for your wedding ring, what if I got you like a gold rose band with diamonds says mercedes and I raise an eyebrow thinking about the idea "I'll make sure it's a perfect match with that one says Mercedes "okay as I nod, liking the idea of adding a ring to this instead of getting a new one, obviously this one is special but mercedes had made sure she got something else she knew I'd love, pearls are special to me and the fact that she remembered that is super sweet and for the rest of the drive we sing along to the songs on the radio, mercedes recording us every once in a while but only posting one video

The caption mentions our show tonight and it instantly gets replies and mercedes interacts with some of them until we pull into the back ovmf the venue and our driver gets out first, no doubt to coordinate with our security team, then taps on the window and mercedes gets out and she comes around to my side and opens my door, holding a hand out for me to take and I do ,saying a thank you to her and our driver before going inside and we both smile and wave to everyone who we pass, all the while taking to griffin and with this being the last show we made very slight changes to things, like the way we do meet and greet and switching up the songs and stuff a bit

All of our friends are in mercedes dressing room when we get there ,literally all of them and if the room weren't so big this would suck and some of them are splayed out on the couch: Victoria resting her feet on John's lap, Courtney sitting on Anthony's with Jackson and his new girl Leah cuddled up on the end. Frankie, Doug, Cass and Tommy are hanging in the corner by the mini fridge and I know Brian and Scott would be in here if they weren't off working plus my mom and Nonna are next door in my dressing room "what the hell are all you hoes doin in here says mercedes as she asks, eyebrows pushed together "bitch as both Victoria and Courtney say at the same time

My fiance looks at them "now yall know I wasn't talkin bout yall, I would never disrespect you queens like that says mercedes with a hand to her heart and Courtney smiles, bashfully looking away with a wave of her hand and Victoria nods with a smirk "I love you more and more everyday says mercedes "and what about me as Anthony adds "we been together for years and you call me a hoe as he sniffles and wipes fake tears away "awe babe says mercedes making me and Courtney frown at her and Anthony, everyone else watching in amusement "you know I didn't mean that, I love you sugarplum says mercedes and that makes them break instantly, loud laughs falling from their lips

"This chick said sugarplum, this is why we broke up says Anthony and mercedes gasps "we broke up cause you stopped spending time with me as mercedes pauses "hoe says mercedes and in the midst of them talking , my phone buzzes with a text, the driver of the car I called letting me know my guests are here "baby ill be right back as I tell mercedes with a hand on her arm and mercedes frowns "hold up, where you goin says mercedes as her hand takes mine "you know I would never leave you for Anthony, he cheatin on me anyway says mercedes and laughing, I squeeze her hand and lean up to kiss her cheek "I'm just stepping out to take a call ,I'll be right back says Ariana

With a nod, she kisses me again and I leave from there and I don't even get a chance to step away from the door and I see security walking them down the hallway, both of them smile when they see me and I wave back then holding a finger up and ducking back into the room "baby as I call to my fiance who's across the room, dressed already and taking pictures and for a second I get distracted so I have to shake my head to clear my thoughts, calling to her again "mercedes, babe come here says Ariana and her eyebrows pinch together as sge walks away from jackson mid photo to come over to me and I take her arm and pull her into the hallway, she rests her hands on my waist and her voice drops to a whisper

"What's wrong, everything okay says mercedes and I nod, biting my lip to contain my smile as they approach "mercedes says Samia and my fiance spins around at the voice that calls her name and her eyes light up with happiness "Sam says mercedes and the two siblings enthusiastically shout each other's names before they take off towards each other, Samia throwing herself into her big sisters arms and mercedes spinning the younger girl around and with them not having seen each other since Thanksgiving, they're showing more affection than usual, absence makes the heart grow fonder and all that

From Samia, mercedes moves to hug her mom and her arms wrap around her waist and she squeezes, both of them rocking side to side a little "I missed yall, for real says mercedes pulling away and throwing her arm around Samia and with their moment done I step Into a hug with miss varnado and she quietly tells me how nice it is to see me again and I return the words "how are you as I ask her, ignoring the siblings behind me that have started to pick on each other and the woman in front of me smiles "I've never been better, healthy and happier than ever says miss varnado as a grateful smile tugs at her lips and when she looks at mercedes I know why

My baby always puts her family first even when she couldn't be there physically and I know it means the world to her mom and Samia "I know you don't need me to tell you but she loves you both so much as I say also looking at the h/c woman I love "same for you as y/m/n nudges my arm "if that ring isn't proof enough, she's always talking about you ,won't shut up about how lucky she is says miss varnado and blush rises on my cheeks at her words, I know that but it's different coming from her mom, if anybody knows her it's her mother "you make her happier than I've ever seen her even if she ain't smiling, you can see it in her eyes says miss varnado

The reply I have isn't able to be spoken as mercedes and Samia comes back over and Samia instantly going up to her mom and taking her hand "mommy as Samia starts all cutely "you know how much I love you right says Samia and miss y/m/n purses her lips "child what you want says miss y/m/n and mercedes snorts and Samia says "to go to that party mercedes havin for the end of the tour says Samia as she rushes out giving a hopeful afterwards and their mom raises an eyebrow at mercedes who chuckles "it's at our spot ,gon be some celebrities there, nothin big and ima keep my eye on her of course as she adds "and she strictly on juices says miss y/m/n

For a moment it's quiet before mercedes nods "if my baby dome come back exactly how she left that's a ass whoppin says miss y/m/n "I know says mercedes as she Raises her hands in surrender and our little conversation is cut short when a crew member comes to get us for meet and greet "ight so yall can hang out in there wit ant, cass and them says mercedes as she points to her dressing room "Joan and Marjorie are next door in aris room and if any of them can help yall find the bathrooms and krafts and shhh- stuff says mercedes as she refrains from cursing in front of her mom and having dodged a bullet we wait for them to walk into the dressing room before heading off

Seeing her mom and sister puts mercedes in an even better mood than before and excitedly she scoops me up ,hands gripping the backs of my thighs so my legs wrap around her waist and my arms around her neck then she starts walking us towards the meet and greet area "hi as mercedes whispers to me ,occasionally looking behind me to watch where she's walking and I smile "hi" and whisper it back and quickly she pecks my lips then my nose and cheek and I giggle "I love seeing you like this as I tell her ,brushing my fingers up into her curled hair "like what says mercedes "happy,you've been smiling all day as my words make her smile harder and I hug myself to her

She gets us to the meet and greet room with me still wrapped around her then sets me down and we look around and mercedes nods in approval, the set up we asked for is perfect and there's still the photo area with the white backdrop except now there are props over there and the printing spot where we'll sign but now alongside the couches we have some bean bags around and we're taking larger groups now, ten people at a time and making accommodations for people who came with their friends so that we can spend more time with them, we'll still talk to them and stuff but now they get a free tour book and a dreams come true bucket hat

Mercedes came up with the Idea a few weeks ago, the book is basically a yearbook that cover the tour ,pictures of us performing, rehearsing and goofing off as well as photos of the lines of fans and three empty spots in the back for the pictures they take at meet and greet with a spot for us to sign and we have a few altered ones at the merch stands that just don't include the extra page in the back and we're working on making them available on my website and eventually mercedes that'll be up after tonight at some point "aye as mercedes exclaims as the first group of fans come in ,she's gotten a lot less nervous about meeting them, she treats all of them like they're long lost friends or something and it's cute

"Damn, those shoes dope as fuck my man, where you get em says mercedes as she asks one of the guys whose wearing a pair of multicolored air forces and her question seems to calm his nervousness and he smiles, telling her the site he got them from, expertly ,she does that with nine other people, asking questions that get them in their comfort zone and from there we all sit down and start talking, they ask us questions while we ask them questions, out of the ten of them there are three friend groups, two girls who came together, a couple and their friend ,four friends and a girl who came alone

Mercedes makes sure to make the lat girls pictures and time a little extra special and she loves it and we wave to them as they leave out with their books and hat in a special bag the call for the next group and this goes on for a few hours until there aren't any more groups left and afterwards mercedes carries me back to our dressing rooms and stepping through the door, mercedes sets me down "man, I need a mutha fu- says mercedes "say it I dare you says mercedes mom and her eyes widen and she chuckles nervously "ma I ain't even see you over there, you good, want me to go get you some sparklin water or truffles or somethin says mercedes as she feigns innocent

Miss y/m/n shakes her head "sparklin water as she scoffs "sit yo little tail down and stop cussin says miss y/m/n and sulking ,mercedes walks over to her vanity chair and plops down,mumbling about bein grown and still getting in trouble and Anthony, being the best friend that he is, while everyone is laughing at mercedes, gets her exactly what she about to ask for, a drink and the two clink glasses before downing the shot of dark liquor and once she sets the glass down, I climb into her lap, effectively getting a smile from her "so I take it yall have properly introduced, yall selves to my sister abd my momma sayd mercedes, arms circling my waist and our friends tell her yes, different replies coming from each of them

Samia slides over to us with ease, leaning down to whisper to mercedes "would it be uncool of me to ask Victoria for an autograph says Samia ,me and mercedes share a look and I chuckle "hey vic as I get my best friends attention and she looks up with raised eyebrows "samias a big fan of yours says Ariana and my best friends face lights up, she has a bit of a resting bitch face but is literally the sweetest most honest person "girl why you ain't say nothin says Victoria as she sits up and pats the now free spot beside her "cone over here says Victoria and the two dive into a conversation, all while Victoria starts to follow her on Twitter and signs her phone case

"Momma varnado, my mom and Nonna are next door of you'd like to go say hi as I tell her not knowing if she forgot and went over there already "oh shoot, let me go speak, me and joan goa a lot to catch up on says miss y/m/n and that right there is one of the best things ever, our families got along so well and when they met at Thanksgiving, y/m/n and my mom hit it off like old friends, they exchanged numbers and talk to each other almost as much as me and Courtney do, I know sometimes they gossip about me and mercedes or Frankie and Samia but they also just have a lot in common and they even talked about planning a moms trip which is the cutest shit

A knock at the door sounds a couple minutes later and I look up from the cute dog video mercedes was just showing me ,as expected, someone from the crew is letting me know that I'm about to go on so I get up and my makeup artists touch me up before everyone starts to head out, Victoria and John head next door to watch the show from my room with Nonna, my mom and y/m/n and everyone else follows Courtney and Anthony out to the pit "alright alright,gather round everybody as mercedes calls as we get to the stage entrance and listening to her, Brian, Scott, griffin, Jackson, Alfredo and the nearby crew members gather round, our arms go around each other as we stand in a circle to listen to mercedes

"First things first I want a loud ass cheer for all of yall and the hard work yall been puttin in since day one says Mercedes and sge gets it, everybody cheering happily "I genuinely gotta thank yall, this has legit been a dream come true, my first successful headling tour and I got to share it with yall dope asses, Scott, b, almost everybody, yall put up wit my crazy, sometimes overly energetic ass says mercedes as some of us Laugh at that "truly though I've made memories on this tour that I prey to God I never forget says mercedes as she smiles over at me and I agree one hundred percent "made friendships I don't ever want to lose and had the time of my life you feel me says mercedes

ANother loud cheer and all eyes fall on me and smiling at everybody I speak "another thank you, cause you guys really worked so incredibly hard to bring this tour together, me and mercedes go out there and sing for all thos people but they don't see how much effort and energy yall put into this says Ariana as they cheer and clap "the memories, like mercedes said will never be forgotten and these bonds won't ever be broken, I could never imagine a better experience than this, I love yall so much and this has been so amazing says Ariana and they all say 'we love you' back and we huddle closer to have a little prayer after which everybody goes off to do their jobs and make thos last show one of the best

Mercedes turns to me, cupping my cheek and pulling me into a kiss "go kill it baby says mercedes as she winks and stepping onto the soon to be rising platform I tell her 'I love you' and blow a kiss that she catches before mouthing 'I love you' back and I bite me lip to stop from smiling so hard and turn around to where the crowd will be "San Diego as I speak into the mic as the platform rises, their deafening cheers in my ears and ear piece but I can still hear them and myself, the platform locks into place with the rest of the stage "welcome to the dreams come true tour says Ariana

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The song fades away and the crowd cheers, mercedes smile is almost brighter than the lights in the arena as she looks out over the crowd "San Diego as mercedes exclaims which gets another round of screams "yall fuckin dope man as mercedes chuckles "I see some of yall know every damn word, i love it says mercedes as she walks across the stage occasionally making eye contact with some fans "now I know some of yall are a Lil young and that's cool, I fuck wit my fans, don't repeat that as mercedes jokingly points to a particularly younger looking group towards the front and they Laugh "if you a youngin ima need you to cover your ears on this one says Mercedes as the music starts to play

"It's a little mature says mercedes as her gaze finds mine over with all our friends and she winks "🎶I'm just a bachelor, I'm looking for a partner, someone who knows how to ride without even falling off" as she does this hip roll that I know all too well and it makes me bite my lip ,Courtney nudges my arm with a knowing smile and I shake my head "gotta be compatible, takes me to my limits, so girl when I break you off, I promise that you won't want to get off "the same move channing did in magic Mike is exactly what she does, flipping sideways and landing on her knees then grinding on the floor

It makes the whole crowd lose it ,myself included and I can see the amused look on her face and she teases certain groups as sge sings only half of the especially sexual song and her next one, 'skippin' playing instantly after, I can't even lie and say her performance skills aren't amazing because they are, she mixes her dancing, singing and crowd interactions so well, whatever it is you came to see you get it from her "alright yall, usually after teeth I leave says mercedes as boos instantly start and she fakes suprised "it's my last Song why yall mad says mercedes and they shout and that they don't want her to leave and she chuckles low into the mic "oooh yall want some more says mercedes and more cheers

She looks off to the side of the stage and I know exactly what's coming next and continuing her act, she sucks her teeth "I guess tonight is pretty special huh, last show of tour and all as mercedes head nods to all the agreements "since its a special night, I got a special guest says mercedes and the guitar intro plays as the band comes out to the stage, the drummer instantly taking his spot and joining and finally getting what the song is, the crowd goes crazy before mercedes starts to sing "🎶you and me and all that wine, loosen my tie, lie down, let's fly, every guy that passes by" and with Adam joining her on stage they scream and sing louder

"And you say that it's not right but where does he think you are tonight, does he know your nasty side, if you want me take me home and let me use you, I know he doesn't satisfy you like I do and does he know that there's nobody quite like you, so let me tell you all the things he never told you " and I can't help but shake my head at the lyrics, knowing where they came from and what they mean ,she's got me now though so it doesn't matter abd when she hits the high notes it goes straight through me, a tingling feeling all over my body, her voice Is so goddamn amazing and the break down comes and sge squats at the Edge of the stage, grabbing a fans hand

"No, I can't wait much longer, it needs to happen now, cause I spend the rest of my life chasing you around, I want to get much closer, you need to tell me now,baby, how,how, babe, cause I" as she holds that longer than in the recorded version and it shakes the crowd and jumping up energetically, she dances around the stage, Adam matching her energy with a concentrated excitement and the song ends with the two singing in the middle of the stage "San Diego, give it up for maroon 5 says mercedes as they cheer "it's been crazy, thank yall so much, I love yall get home safe says mercedes as she kisses her fingers and holds them up to the crowd before walking offstage to the screams if her fans

All of us are guided by security out of the pit and backstage, heading straight towards the dressing rooms and meeting up with mercedes. Alfredo and Jackson right behind her with their cameras, one recording while the other takes pictures and Anthony and Cass approach her first "long way from singin at some bar huh says Anthony as they clap hands and one arm hug each other, mercedes turning to do the same with Cass "dope as fuck, for real as Cass tells her with an amused shake of his head and my friends all crowd around her with a big hug, unbothered by the sweat that's definitely on her

Courtney walls up "best friend you killed it says Courtney as they both laugh and hug "siiis as Samia cheers, doing the kid n play dance with mercedes out of nowhere "I'll admit that was crazy, I need to come to more shows if you kill it like that says Samia and mercedes agrees with that, promising to make that happen and then she turns to look to me, a cute little smile is on her face, eyebrows raised in expectance as she steps closer, leaning down just a little to meet my eyes ,she asks "and what did wifey think of my show says mercedes and I wrap my arms around her neck and we rock side to side a little "she thinks you did amazing like always and she is super proud of you says Ariana

"I'm proud of you too baby says mercedes kissing me softly which earns cheers and teasing wolf whistles from our friends minus Samia who says 'ew' and mercedes pulls away from me and glares at her sister then wrapping her arm around her shoulders and pulling her closer and Samia starts to struggle immediately pushing at her sisters side "get your sweaty ass off me mercedes says Samia and gasping, mercedes let her go "you cuss now as mercedes jaw drops "I'm tellin says mercedes as she takes off towards the dressing room door, Samia chasing her and they dissappear inside abd I shake my head, going in after them as everyone else

Mercedes didn't tell on Samia obviously but she played like she was going to only to switch it up and ask y/m/n how she liked the show and her lips purse jokingly as she side eyes mercedes "doin all that cussin and singin bout sex sats miss y/m/n "Momma as mercedes laughs "I'm pushin 30, stop actin like I'm 15 still says mercedes "you gon always be my baby so I don't wanna hear it says miss y/m/n and out of nowhere, mercedes takes her mom's hand and pulls her up "🎶no you'll always be a part of me, I'm part of you indefinitely ,oo don't you know you can't escape me, oh darlin cause you'll always be my baby" as she starts to sing as they sway back and forth

"And we'll linger on, time can't erase a feelin this strong, no way you're never gonna shake me, oh darlin cause you'll always be my baby " and I can't pretend like it isn't beyond adorable watching them so I pull my phone out to record them ,I won't post it but it's cute to have and also I haven't considered seeing that song as anything other than romantic but now I see how it could be taken from the perspective of a mother to their child "alright girl, let me go as y/m/n teasingly pushes mercedes away who just laughs and plants a kiss on the older woman's cheek "ooo momma as mercedes jumps up and down excitedly "we gon dance to that at the wedding says mercedes

Y/m/n pauses to think before smiling softly "I love it baby as sge cups mercedes cheek and I can picture them dancing to that on our big day, the thought bringing a smile to my face and making me imagine that whole day in general. Me and mercedes change quickly putting on more comfortable clothes and from there we're just going to our house anyway but it's still party so we make sure we're fashionable "lemme hear you say wayo as mercedes shouts bursting through the door of her dressing room and all of the boys and Samia call back "wayo and everybody laughs and after a very brief conversation, we all leave out

The cars are waiting at the back of entrance from us, the majority of them about to head in the same direction, me and mercedes walk my mom and Nonna to their awaiting car ,hugging and kissing them with a promise of calling then mercedes walks her mom to the car waiting for her "please text me when you get in ,I don't wanna have to hunt nobody down cause my momma ain't safe says mercedes opening the door for y/m/n and shutting it once she's in "I'll have Samia home sometime tomorrow, I know she got school Monday says mercedes and gently cupping her daughters cheek ,y/m/n says "I am so proud of you sweetie, I know I've been saying that nonstop lately but you have really been making your dreams come true and staying true to yourself

Nothing majes me happier than seeing you happy says miss y/m/n "Momma don't make me cry, I got a reputation to uphold as mercedes half jokes before leaning in the window to hug her mom and kiss her cheek "I love you ma says mercedes and pulling away, she taps the top of the car signaling the driver to pull off then turns around to all of our friends "let's get fucked up says mercedes and they all cheer ,her excited energy from the night rubbing off on them, we all climb into the cars, me, mercedes and Samia getting in one and Samia climbs to the third row, me and mercedes getting in the middle and leaving the driver in the front, as he pulls off ,my fiance turns to the side and looks back at her sister

"I promised to watch you but that don't mean ima haha a stick up my ass as they both nod "I got you some lil coolers, seagrams, they bang, you can get one shot tonight anything you want, Only people allowed to give it to you are myself, ari, or Anthony and if you walk away from yo drink at any point, forget that shit, get a new, we not havin no stangers in the house but I don't trust nobody and lastly, have fun. Yes most of these people gon be famous but they just humans so keep it cool ya know says mercedes and her little sister nods, an already excited smile on her lips "got you, club rules apply says Samia and mercedes frowns "what you know about clubs girl says mercedes

"Only what I see in movies, unless you tryna take me says Samia as her eyebrows raise in suggestion and scoffing, the older sister looks away "don't push ya luck says mercedes then says "meg and cardi real excited to meet you, they been wantin to since steal your man says mercedes "hol up, meg and cardi as in, Megan thee stallion and cardi freakin b says Samia as she asks and mercedes nods "yup, you gon have fun, I promise says mercedes and she couldn't be more right