#i'm so incredibly sad

[smmywinchester45]

Really enjoyed watching Good Omens 2, but obviously got very sad at the end

So to get my mind off it and enjoy some other David Tenant and Michael Sheen content, I watched the entire Staged series! Which also made me sad

And then I decided to finally watch Doctor Who for the first time ever and I-

I'm really in it now

#it's been a weird two months of content for me #I'm so incredibly sad #i came out of my room crying and my brother asked“it's just your show right?” #and yeah #but also it's so much more than that #David tenant #Doctor who #staged #good omens #catharsis

[buckyeagan]

I can’t believe I got into Succession right when they decided to end it

#succession #i'm so incredibly sad

[chrisbangs]

CHAN'S SOLO IS SO CUTE ITS SO GROOVY AND FUNKY AND CUTE AND SO INCREDIBLY SILLY OH I LOVEEEEE HIM... SO VERY LI CORE OF HIM TO DO SMTH SILLY LIKE THISSSSSS WE ARE IN SYNCCCC

#BABY!!!!!! #HES SOSOSOSOSOSS CUTE #IM SICKKKKK #I WANNA HEAR IT FULLY #😭😭😭😭 ITS SO CUTE #THE ROSES BIT OH HES SO CRAZYYYYY LIKE #NO ONE IS DOWN BAD LIKE HE IS ... #BUT I AM SO ITS OK #HWHWISJSKSSKS LET MEEEEEEEEE #i'm so incredibly sad #i love him so much 😭 #li.txt

[excavatinglizard]

Shoutout to my dad for being the funniest person I know

#mitski #dumb shit i do #lesbian #I'm turning reblogs back on but you all have to be nice to each other or you're losing Lesbian Dad privileges #would like to add that mitski is an incredible writer and lyricist and so much more than sad lesbian music. #I am. however. a sad lesbian who is haunted by said lyrics and writing

[girlonthelam]

It feels like theres a hole in my chest, that I've been trying to fill with different things and people. But nothing ever will. That void will always be there, and I'll keep trying to shove things there, trying to fill the void but it won't ever work. How do i keep going with this void inside me?? When every day, every second, it feels like it's getting bigger and bigger and I'm afraid that one day it will just consume me and all I will be is a void. A void that someone was supposed to fill but she never showed up. She just never turned up. Maybe she forgot about it

#vent #does she ever stop talking #I'm so incredibly sad #i dont understand whats so difficult to love inside me #i dont understand why she doesn't feek comfortable enough to fill my void #i promise im good just GODDD #i. ant #i feel like im so totally alone and no one will ever understand me #and im so fucking JEALOUS #im so jealous of people with parents who love them and are just THERE for them. just even knowing u can go home and they'll be there. #or u can phonr them and they'll be there #im all alone and i cant. ijust cant i cant do it i dont wantto do it i want my parents to love me so i dont have to do it

[wardingshout]

Zelda goes mushroom girl

#tloz #a link to the past #zelda #link #my art #I was happy with that first one but for some reason decided it still needed a companion piece so I spent way too long on that second one... #I don't think there was any time during the progress where I was happy with it but hfduhdfu at least I got to Attempt drawing moss hell yea #I also at some point sat in Pyu's art stream and said I enjoy drawing legs As I was being murdered by the infamously impossibe (imo) squat. #it's ok I had fun !! but I need to learn how to let doodles be doodles or I'll never finish stuff at this rate dfsuhfd #if everything in my tloz tag looks like it was drawn by different people uuuh 2023 was art crisis year ngl...... #I'm falling back into my old ways rn though #anyway I think about these two a lot I think they're both stone faced and awkward ppl in different ways but they try rly hard to be friends #like I like to think it starts out so incredibly awkward and a bit sad bc they keep stepping over each other's toes accidentally the harder #they try but idk they find comfy middle ground idk in my brain they have a very interesting friendship I wanna get around to drawing it #in a proper way that might make sense.... #if I don't write 200 tags I will die maybe it's bc I grew up on dA or smth #and yes I know how to find 1 (one) type of mushroom /I/ am not mushroom girl unfortunately smh

[yrsonpurpose]

You are not who I raised. Oh, that is all I am, mother.

#mary and george #maryandgeorgeedit #mary & george #perioddramaedit #nicholas galitzine #userninz #chrissiewatts #usersteen #usergayppl #usermegsb #mine* #mary and george spoilers #and thats on acting!!!!!! #sad pathetic little george you will always be loved #the way his whole demeanor changed throughout was incredible to watch #i need some awards to be won i'm so serious rn #and the way nick described it: having to play the manipulator and the manipulated at the same time #i Get It now. truly #not many people have that talent to make you feel that way about a inherently bad person #cant believe nick just fell into acting my god

[mads-is-tired]

Ranboo saving Charlie while he was streaming is the direct reason Charlie died I'm not okay

Ranboo said in their stream today that there were two choices that he actively made without the audience's input. One was choosing the security code on his own, and choosing to save Charlie from the brainwashing. Obviously using the wrong code stuffed it all up (which released the wire monster) but they said that because of the time it took to pull Charlie out, by the time they reached the doors the showfall media employees were locking them. Which eventually leads to both Ranboo and Charlie's deaths, and almost mirrors the final choice of episode three, choosing to live but be under showfall's control forever, or to die, only it hadn't been realised yet. 

also SNEEG!!! The poor guy tried to get out and get help again but never made it, and died alone (because of Ranboo’s choice, ouch). While showfall probably wouldn't have allowed it but a storyline where he did make it out would be insanely cool. 

Another thing, while the theory that showfall kidnapped Charlie as a kid and raised him to be their entertainer is very cool and has a lot of potential, I don't think that's the way the story would go. Showfall was(is??) going to use Ranboo until he no longer had any use to them, like all of the other actors, combined with sneeg's death suggests that raising a child and creating a whole personality and audience for slimecicle would be overly complex when they could just take people who have already done the work for them. The slimecicle channel is canon to the genloss universe now, and they likely would have had Charlie continue to stream to keep up appearances like he's not missing. Also, when ranboo finds all the streamers he recognises Charlie by name, suggesting they knew each other before showfall got to them, because iirc the name Charlie is never used in episode 1 or 2. And there is surely enough history between the two for Ranboo to want to save him, but recognises that he can't save everyone. That or he just felt bad for ripping the man's guts out. 

Anyway, I have Too Many Thoughts about Generation Loss and desperately want to know if Charlie and Sneeg are dead dead or if they'll be coming back for more generations because they were both so good in this series.

#1k #dude i feel so bad for g!charlie he was starting to remember and was so close to getting out!!!! #trust charlie slimecicle to make a heartbreaking character #actually they're all just incredibly depressing #none of them are happy i'm sad about all of them #amazing work by everyone #props to ranboo you've made an incredible series that has made everyone so invested #ranboo #slimecicle #charlie slimecicle #generation loss #genloss #gen loss #g!slimecicle #g!ranboo #g!sneeg #sneegsnag #generation loss spoilers #generation loss theory #mads makes a post #i made the meme too

[fandomunsexyman]

SVSSS is a novel with a fandom.

[ID: A Scum Villain edit of the "missing the point" meme. A bullet arcs from velinxi art of child Shen Jiu kneeling while furiously glaring. The bullet says, "People are not entirely one thing or the other and holding them to these extremes ignores the complexities that come with their humanity." It arcs over the head of a person across from it, who ignores the bullet and exclaims: "Wow!! Shen Jiu's only crime was being mean and was wrongly hated!" End ID]

#i have so many thoughts about him but he is SO mischaracterized in a lot of fics #like just 'he would not fucking say that' on repeat #because shen jiu's entire thing is that he was CANONICALLY a terrible person #yes his backstory was sad but that doesn't make him Suddenly Good #shen qingqiu is an incredibly complex character but can y'all not pretend that his only flaw is being mean #like shen jiu failed original luo binghe in every way #as his caretaker as an adult in his life on EVERY level #'the tea had healing medicine in it!!' no it did not #shen jiu poured boiling hot tea on a child as a grown man because he was jealous. of said child. #like the entire POINT of his secret backstory was to showcase his complexity!! #and to see so much fandom stuff that's just Shen Yuan in the Opposite Direction is Hm #like he's fun to analyze but let's not pretend that he wasn't a terrible fucking person #while I'm ranting shen jiu would not casually talk about his trauma either #shen jiu's entire thing WAS appearances and even post character arc i think he'd struggle to open up to others #so like NOOOO he would not just tell someone something terrible that happened to him in his past #he'd rather die #okay rant over but this phenomenon is just SO frustrating to me #svsss #shen jiu #scum villian's self saving system #original shen qingqiu

[ennaih]

Not Every Film I Watch In 2024

43. Megamind (2010) -- defs more than my eighth watch

#megamind #megamind (2010) #2024filmgifs #my gifs #i love this movie so much #and i dunno if you can tell who my fave character in it is #i love his giant blue head so much #he's so incredibly pretty #my fave animated sad boi #that moment when she says “Did you really think i would EVER be with you?” #and he says “no” #breaks me every time #“i'm the bad guy i don't save the day” #“i don't fly off into the sunset” #“and i DON'T get the girl” #also the soundtrack is just brilliant #the closing track best ever

[layla-carstairs]

no the fact we don't actually see Cecily and Gabriel grieve their son. the fact the only times they're mentioned after kit dies is like, Gabriel being in the final battle (I think) and then them smiling at the little get together at the end. not a single acknowledgement that their son just fucking died. Same with Henry since we know he was really close to Kit too.

#I hate it I hate it I hate it #the fact *charles* had one of the most heartbreaking reactions #him and Tom but that's to be expected #like not even a sad reflective moment for the fact kit's dream of making fire messages came true #like he invented something so incredibly useful and saved so many lives even though he himself couldn't be saved 😭😭 #and no one really acknowledges it #God I'm so mad #christopher lightwood #chain of thorns spoilers #cot spoilers #chot spoilers #chain of thorns

[miracle-romance]

EPISODE 110 REDRAWS

#harumichi #michiru kaioh #haruka tenoh #sailor uranus #sailor neptune #uranep #sailor moon #haruka and michiru #haruka x michiru #haruka #michiru #neptune #uranus #@%^ #PLELALSLELLE dont say it looks like danganronpa i will cry so hard #she's meditating. #this episode means so fuckin much to me man #i'm literally going to redraw all of it it's just so perfect and beautiful the imagery is incredible its so sad it broke my heart it

[captainofthetidesbreath]

[blows a kiss out to sea] for the Mighty Nein pirates arc

#I'm!! I have so many thoughts about why this arc is SO GOOD #But the short version is like #It is an arc about Fjord and identity and power and self and agency as he faces the truth of his patron and faces a rival warlock #But it is ALSO about Fjord grappling with those things bc he is ALSO processing grief and sadness and a search for direction and purpose #and grappling with disappointing disillusionment in how the world and people in your life (including maybe yourself) isn't what you thought #and about coming to resolve he has the agency and strength to not allow these things to deter him from purpose and place in the world. #And—this is why this is a PHENOMENAL arc—so is the rest of the Nein. Individually and as a group. #All of them are grappling with feelings of grief and sadness and disappointment and directionless and helplessness #just the grand malaise and relentless shapelessness of what living often is #They also as individuals and as a group together also find that resolve and strength to carry on and find self and purpose and direction #They all begin to process the very same things in their own lives and in their shared experience as The Nein. Simultaneously and together. #It's an arc about Fjord and self and agency in the face of disappointment and grief and disillusionment. #It's an arc about the Nein—individually and as a whole—and self and agency in the face of disappointment and grief and disillusionment. #It's SUCH a strong arc bc ALL of them are taking the same internal journey—structured around Fjord's very externalized version of it. #And it's got incredible vibes (pirate warlocks of a leviathan!) and some GREAT set pieces. And every NPC in the arc is iconic as is Twiggy. #Anyway. In my feelings about this arc. I said this is the short version and yet. #Critical Role things #CR meta

[inblackwoods]

I know it's incredibly late, but at last! My piece for the Yeehawgust prompt "Yee-caw."

Additionally, I have no justification for making Jack Seward cool and capable of befriending corvids. I just thought that in a high fantasy western au, purely for the aesthetics, he could be a suspicious surgeon type.

Close up because I'm trying new brushes

#Yeehawgust #Dracula #Jack Seward #John Seward #nabiscart #I usually make Jack very pathetic baby but I'm sick of that what if he were cool now #Meaning I've been thinking he might be desperate for authority #I like to think he was born a nobody and was picked on for most of his life #So he compensated for his weaker stature and lower social status by climbing the social ladder tooth and nail #To own an entire asylum at an incredibly young age #Just to feel as though he has some amount of control- authority- maybe even respect if he's lucky #He has a complex now and it's constantly battling with his emotionality and compassion #Do I be ruthless and cruel to get authority or do I be kind and risk looking like a softie #He just breaks down and looks sad and insane instead

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

I just saw the excellent post about Chuuya's loyalty and 1) how he hasn't questioned his philosophy and 2) "In a world where a "path" typically involves challenging the characters' philosophies and forcing them to reevaluate, what the hell is going to have to happen to get Chuuya to do the same?" (quoting you)

Chuuya is always used by others. He's not the only BSD character whose been taken advantage of, but it does seem to be reoccurring with him? First by the government who intended to use him as a super weapon, then by the Sheep who used him for his ability, then by mafia/Mori (getting him to join in exchange for sparing the sheep, keeping his past from him and giving him incentive to become an executive and stay in the organization). He's constantly used for his power.

Please tell me if I'm misinterpreting what you all said, but it seems (to me) that Chuuya ignores the mafia's/Mori's manipulation because they have helped him and given him a home+family, so he's instead loyal to them.

Because even though Mori has not and is using him for his power, he still allows it/goes along with it because they've helped him in the past and earned his loyalty.

So Chuuya tolerates being used.

He's now being used again, obviously, in part, because of his power. We have Fyodor referring to him as just his ability and bragging about how he can "use" him better than Dazai ("doesn't that mean you're unfit to USE a gravity manipulator")

Do you think it's possible that just being vamped and used again will cause him to reflect on his mentality? He's once again being used (but be it in far more blatant way: literal mind control. Also reminds me of Verlaine+his creator). Reflecting on how he's been used in the past and no longer accepting being used by others anymore?

Or do you think it might have the opposite affect and push him deeper into the mafia somehow

Also it's interesting that Fyodor is using him but hasn't earned his loyalty (like the sheep+mafia) and how that'll affect Chuuya

I'll get to the second ask in a bit but I'm combining these because they're related.

About the first ask: I mean, yeah, you're right about this. I don't know that I'd consider it so much "ignoring" though as "the benefits outweigh the costs so whatever", and I do want to state that I'm pretty sure Mori is genuinely at least a little fond of Chuuya (see: their conversation about leadership at the end of Fifteen), and his Mafia colleagues do respect him.

But yeah, you are absolutely right to say that there is a pattern of people who want Chuuya for his ability and his loyalty, and/or reduced him down to these traits. Playing hot potato with the escaped military lab experiment and the Mafia won (<-simplification for the funnies but still).

But here's the thing: if this was the end of it, we might expect to see some resentment mixed in there from Chuuya. He was blackmailed with the Sheep's lives. His past was intentionally locked away from him until he worked his way up to executive. That's... not great.

But instead we find pretty much only gratitude from him. Why?

Well, see, there's a reason I put the return of Chuuya's screwed up self-concept in the tags on that post, because it's kind of at the heart of his impressive loyalty. Chuuya believes that since he is the one with the strongest power, that makes him responsible for protecting everyone else, which means that he rationalizes any concern or protection directed at him as something "above and beyond", and worthy of recognition and repayment. Remember that he genuinely felt like just a vessel for power and nothing else for apparently quite a bit of his childhood, and the Sheep emphasizing that he owed them for taking him in probably did not help.

When it comes to having his back, the Mafia did this for him in a way no one else did. They protect their own, a value that aligns closely with Chuuya's own personal philosophy. The Mafia is also relatively safe from external threat, if we recall Dazai's pitch to Odasaku in Day I Picked Up Dazai - Odasaku is being targeted, but no one in their right mind would challenge the Mafia just to get to him. So, the Mafia has provided Chuuya with protection, comradery, and relative safety, which in my mind all condenses into a central need that takes precedence over everything else to him.

Chuuya's core need is actually stability.

And this makes quite a bit of sense. He started off as a kid with no memories and a whole lot of trauma he couldn't remember the roots of. One's past is a source of stability, but that had been taken from him. His position as leader of the Sheep was shaky. Even his identity as a human being was called into question. Chuuya as a kid and teen was largely untethered, separate from everyone else with no way to ground himself. Under those circumstances, something that originated as a chain could easily become a safety rope.

And once Chuuya found this stability, there was really no need for him to change anything. So he didn't. He settled into his new role and became really, really good at it, and didn't bother to re-evaluate beyond that. Why would he? That minimal core need has been met, despite the rocky beginning.

Which brings me to this second ask because it's actually incredibly relevant. Yes, Chuuya and Sigma are alike. You are not losing it anon.

Let's run a list, shall we? They both awoke with no memories and a missing history, and had their humanity called into question. They were used and blackmailed repeatedly, which they were, fortunately and unfortunately, consciously aware of. When they find something that matters to them, they become violently defensive of it. They both operate on principles of reciprocity and transaction because that is what they believe to be normal in relationships (Sigma's ability even is quite literally a transaction!). They both have pretty low standards for their assistance (Sigma hearing one (1) single person (Atsushi) be kind to him in what he thought were his last moments, Chuuya "You have helped Chuuya! Chuuya will now kill and die for you!" Nakahara).

Above all else, they are looking for stability. They are looking for a home.

As of yet, Sigma hasn't found a true home, but it seems we may be building up to him joining the ADA. The key part is Sigma's realization that the Agency doesn't rely solely on transaction. Dazai is not using the Agency, the Agency is not using Dazai. The Agency members are all helping each other. They care about each other.

Meanwhile, Chuuya has already found a place that provides his core need, but there's one caveat about the Mafia that should be clarified here - as Odasaku says in Dark Era, people within its ranks don't talk about personal matters and feelings with each other, and everyone instead keeps to themselves. If you don't talk about your issues or air them out, relations tend to stay personally shallow and dictated almost entirely by the demands and positions of the organization. This is not a conducive environment for reappraisal or self-exploration.

Unfortunately, this is ideal for Mr. Chuuya "I'll keep all my emotions right here and then one day I'll die" Nakahara.

Chuuya has found some measure of stability - solace in his own self-defined identity in spite of the initial ambiguity as to his humanity. "This is who I am", "Till those flames die down, I can't just do whatever I want", "I'm gonna do what I need to do", etc. But importantly, this identity is entangled in whichever group he happens to be a part of, which in this case is the Mafia. This kind of self-identity cannot exist without the structure of an organization. It relies on the reciprocity of a group.

Moreover, it relies on Chuuya showing very little vulnerability. Compartmentalize, and move on. He expects that of himself.

So, we've established that Chuuya has his core need for stability met by the Mafia - a relatively secure place that runs on transaction, which is familiar to him - yet it also doesn't push him out of his comfort zone with respect to emotional vulnerability and openness. What this means is that, in the Mafia, Chuuya is practically invincible, both physically (his ability, his martial arts prowess) and emotionally (personal life kept hidden and guarded as a Mafia expectation).

Unfortunately, this means Chuuya also remains stagnant as a character, which finally, finally brings me back to your original question anon.

No, I don't think the vampirism is enough to trigger change in Chuuya's character. Chuuya has some standards, and treating him like a tool (and Dazai's tool, no less) is going to seriously piss him off, but that's anger at Fyodor, and it doesn't impact his stability with the Mafia any which way. If Chuuya had've been forced to activate Corruption to escape the drowning then maybe he would've been angry with Dazai enough for something to shift (activation being his own choice is a huge theme with them), but since he didn't, I expect Chuuya will unfortunately just shrug it off and roll with it. Probably yell at him for a bit, but nothing that would have far-reaching consequences for his character unless there is something about his current situation we don't yet know.

I think for Chuuya to grow and change as a character, he needs something major to shift in his life - the threat has to come from within his place of security. He needs to be destabilized. Something needs to happen that specifically targets his tethers and his self-concept.

Personally, my money's on the destabilization of his bond with Mori, who he has the most respect for, because that might trigger development related to leadership and goals, but I guess we'll see. I think it'll probably be incredibly heart wrenching and hurt us all severely, whatever it is.

Huh. I wrote a lot. Congrats for making it to the end! I'm going to sleep now. :D

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Edited by removing the entire middle section because it was absolute garbage and probably should’ve been its own post. I hope the rest of this holds up. That’s what I get for writing things at 2 in the morning I guess.

#i hope this answered everything ok! i wanted to be thorough #your ask is so neatly organized omg. #thanks for the ask! #bsd #bsd chuuya #bsd analysis #bsd meta #bsd sigma #i hope what i'm trying to say came across properly #storyrambles #every time i think i've said all i can about chuuya i go on another deranged ramble about him. incredible. #chuuya's screwed up self-concept my beloved #(except not actually beloved it's kind of sad honestly) #also i think the flags' influence on chuuya's loyalty cannot be understated #by killing them verlaine i think actually assured chuuya would stay - he has to make their sacrifice worth it. he holds onto their memories #the entire rest of the story. and well after it too.

[bartonbones]

the holdovers has everything you're looking for this christmas season it's got a new england winter, a snowglobe, a sad old boarding school teacher, a sad boarding school student, a found family, the inherent grief and isolation of the holiday season, a sense of profound loss and the joy that counters it so harshly it aches nearly as much, after affects of the vietnam war, ancient pornography...you'll never need a rankin bass special again

#the holdovers #seriously just. a classic so good incredible hit every single button i have for movies #nearly every decision in this film i'm just like. EXTREMLY LOUD CORRECT BUZZER !! #girls when there's a sad guy referred to as “the boy” in conversations about him and his sadness where he is not present !!