#idk i felt like this would be relatable

[olskuvallanpoe]

I do NOT recommend returning back to your Book of Mormon audiobook immediately after reading ineffable husbands fanfic….

#fanfic #I’m so disoriented #some dude just used he pronouns for god and I got CONFUSED #good omens #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #crowley #aziraphale #azicrow #religion #religion major things #idk i felt like this would be relatable #pls help

[lunarharp]

What led to this (orufrey comic, cw an uncomfortable/creepy scene)

#witch hat tag #orufrey #er.... i'm too tired to have anything to say..i worked several days on this. #wait.. didn't i say just recently here that i probably wouldn't ever depict 'what if alaira is qifrey's sort-of ex'. What's going on #i don't even remember deciding to draw this..it's all a blur..i'm not sure why i WOULD decide to draw delicate scenes in my head #that i wouldn't really want to share with anyone/discuss so why did i draw it... #some part of me really really wants to draw things that are more and more true to myself... #maybe because of my alienation with most romance/shipping/dynamics the rest of the world depicts. #orufrey really is perfectly suited to me - what i read in the text and what is in my head. well anyway #i am TIRED of drawing poses and angles and..maybe now i will actually take a break from drawing bc of the tediousness of Angles #btw it really is a 'stretch of time' . . . assuming witches graduate age 18-20 #well orufrey are canonically 30-ish. they've only had agott around for presumably about TWO years (?) bc she took the test age 10 #and it feels like oru moving in/unknown atelier acquisition/building (?) .. i guess that could be a year or so before agott at most #(she was the first disciple) so... ????????? What about the other 7 or so years ?!?!?!!?!?! Unemployed Brimhat Hatred era #that time is very nebulous. after qifrey went to the tower i feel like it's been implied he and oru drifted apart a little. #certainly they didn't live together at first... no way. that doesn't feel like how it is based on things oru has said about becoming Eye #idk. I'm tired now. i don't usually think of alaira as necessarily qifrey's ex and this being how things went in that 'sliver of time'. #i usually prefer the idea that they have their first kiss with each other in their 30s cause That's Just The Orufrey Lifestyle #just felt like making a more relatable alternative view of my own Cai Orufrey Canon one time. btw im a big monoshipper and it hurt a bit #let's leave it there. this is surely the most i've worked on a 'single' art - though now i realise just how much longer the fic took :')

[sheryl-lee]

idk if this makes sense. but i kind of love that the last of us makes me cry and viscerally FEEL true emotions on a weekly basis. like i cant remember the last tv show i watched that had me consistently bawling my eyes out and so immersed in a show because of the characters, the story, the incredibly strong writing, etc. and it doesn't feel manipulative. it just feels profound and beautiful and poetic but also tragic and... human.

#it's a whole spectrum of emotion!!! it's beautifully tragically human!!!! is that not what it is to exist!!!! #and it's therapeutic honestly. to spend like an hour in a world that isnt real but that you can relate aspects of your life to. #and you can just connect to these characters and their experiences and release the emotions that have been building up inside. #i'm sure that if you've played the game you feel this all the more strongly #but as someone who hasn't and went into tlou without prior knowledge #i'm just very pleased with it and idk i love watching a show that can elicit such a strong reaction from me #granted i AM what people would call 'sensitive' and 'emotional' or whatever #but even for me i dont think i've felt quite this intensely about a show - especially not right away during a first season #these are just my half baked thoughts and i definitely could say so much more but i'll leave it here for now #sameera.txt #the last of us

[cozy-the-overlord]

Seeing people complain about the Speak Now vault tracks being too teenagery …. gee, you’d almost think a teenager wrote them /s

#i feel like it’s a lose lose situation #because if they’re ‘too mature’ like on the red vault people accuse her of writing them recently #but if they’re ‘too immature’ people complain about them being not as good #i for one really like the speak now vault #it may not be as deep as red but i think it’s still really eye-opening #like the kinds of things she was thinking about but felt she couldn’t share #idk maybe it’s because i was a Small Child when speak now came out #and it was really the first album i ever became obsessed with #and as a result i idolized taylor as this beacon of perfection and grown-up-ness #like obviously I’ve long since recognized that she was still a child in a lot of ways in that era #but hearing the vault tracks really made her feel like a Real Teenager to me in a way i never had before? #like the anxiety on electric touch #the insecurity on when emma falls in love #the hopefulness tinged with self-loathing/self-criticalness on foolish one #the wattpad-tinged fantasy of i can see you #idk i feel like teenage me would have related to all that a lot in a way that i never did with her other music #idk i’m rambling #i need to go to bed #taylor swift #speak now taylor’s version

[heir-of-the-chair]

You know, when they said “you never stop learning things about yourself” I don’t think they meant five consecutive years of having a new identity crisis.

#sophomore year of high school: am I queer/aroace? yes #junior year of high school: am I trans? yes #senior year: am I autistic? almost certainly yes (that’s just me having imposter syndrome it’s definitely a yes) #last year: not questioning anything just coming to terms with being physically disabled #and now my friends are saying I have hpd and I’m like hey just because I maybe (the wording is vague and I’m autistic and I hate it) fit the #diagnostic criteria doesn’t mean I HAVE IT #it’s vague and idk how much I relate to it but I relate to a decent amount of it very strongly #but like I wasn’t even neglected as a child (that sentence really says volumes abt my friend group) I have other family issues but idk how #that would be related to attention seeking like is it really just all bc I was just a really lonely child? #like I was an only child with autism and adhd and I didn’t have a friend group I felt truly secure until fifth grade after which we all went #to different middle schools and then it wasn’t until like sophomore year of high school okay maybe this is worse than I thought saying it #out loud… #I know I have anxious attachment #I know I very much have that #but like. #I’m just a theater kid it’s fi- *sounds of me being hit with a pillow by my friends* #yeah #this is kind of a vent atp #autism #neurodivergent #disability #yeh #the heir speaks

[jilatos]

anyway follow me on twitter @ jilatos if u actually want to chat with me or ask me questions since every time i try to be open on here it feels worse than if i never posted at all :(

#ever since coming out as trans this website has felt like. much worse #like im so insecure in my transition and i didnt receive any of the love or support i needed before #just feels like im speaking into the void on here #feels really bad! im just a person too idk #maybe if i made more relatable comics ppl would help me. but that sucks #thats just how this site is now ig. sucks #jtxt

[flufflecat]

anyone else finding it really, really personally nauseating that the pjo show would remove gabes entire character and replace him with someone less abusive to make sally a Strong Female Character. like wow, im sure glad that youve proven that women who are abused are the REAL threat to feminism, and they should just try talking back more!! what a good message to send to abused kids. sorry, kid. i guess you just didnt argue hard enough and #Own your abuser into seeing how cool and strong you are. what do you mean that arguing with an abuser will only make them hurt you more? but look how snappy and cool and feminist sally is now!!! youre clearly just being abused wrong.

#pjo #gabe ugliano #any other kids who related to percy feeling a bit uhhhhhhhh like shit rn #saw a post saying how sally being 'less simpering and helpless' is a good thing #like fuck you. jesus fucking christ. #can you think about what youre saying for 2 fucking seconds. #lemme just go tell my mom that she needs to stand up for herself more brb #oh wait i tried that as a kid and guess what it got us. more abuse! #changing sallys story for the purpose of making her a 'stronger' character is disgusting in ways that i cant put into words #women dont have to be abused Well to be worthy of sympathy #and getting angry didnt fucking help me get out of being abused #this was the only story where my sister and i felt seen and were DEFINITELY not the only people who related to it #taking that away from kids who went through our situation is awful #and the fact that anyone would consider it necessary to... idk. fix how the book portrayed abuse? it hurts more than i thought it wo #fluffle talks #negative #personal #sorry im not tagging this post very well #i dont really have the energy to find the right tags rn

[olskuvallanpoe]

when you grow up in a million choirs and various other ensembles, you start to really resent versions of songs you sang that aren’t exactly how you sang it, and then there’s that moment where you’re trying to sing along to the music and it’s off and it just totally ruins your day

or maybe that’s just me

#choir kid #singing #i was in five trillion singing groups as a teen #maybe it’s my ocd actually #idk i felt like this would be relatable #songs #choir #music

[buffyspeak]

i'll say it. i'm a lexie grey stan and i like sl*xie okay but they had a lot of the same problems m*rder (another ship i'm fine with but don't adore and have Things To Say about) + Some Other Stuff without ever really getting to resolve any of it. also i hate that her last season story arc was almost exclusively about her pining after him and then she died.

#also in another world she was a lesbian. yes i am projecting bc i relate to and love her #she DID get some neurosurgery / bond with derek stuff in s8 which was nic #it's wild bc im not an anti but i feel like this relationship gets romanticized in a way that is . odd #yes i am stalling for tagging purposes #like idk it felt like at a certain point they didn't know what to do with lexie once she and Meredith had an established bond #and leaning into romance is at times a crutch for the show #also she never get a chance to run for chief resident in her class and that is a SHAME #grey's anatomy #lexie grey #slexie critical // #merder critical // #if i have to pick one it would be slxie bc fundamentally it is the ship that has my fave in it #but.

[iggy-hands]

I still can't believe ofmd is a show set in the 18th century, and they Went to a party of aristocrat's together, And we STILL didn't get to see them dance together

They did all that prep about which fork to use but no - "okay! I'll quickly show you some very basic dances just in case!"

they denied us awkward clammy hand holding, stiff jilted movements, stepping on toes, not yet familiar with each others patterns, the spinning and spinning and the thrill of finally getting it right, bodies moving as one, faces inches apart hot breath intermingling, lingering eye contact, dizzy from the spinning and perhaps something more, holding each other that second longer than needed not wanting to be the first to let go, not wanting to be the first to break the illusion because they are, in that moment, the only two people in the entire universe, distant canon fire suddenly requiring attention, a final awkward laugh and a bashful glance upward, both secretly wanting more, both hoping for a next time

#the inherent homoeroticism of someone teaching someone to dance. is what im saying #especially when those two people arent together #the way its safe and allowed contact - because it's just to teach them!! its not /real/ we're just. learning together #the extra deliciousness when a character gets to be better at something than the other person too #- stede isn't good at dancing. but he's okay! and ed never had the opportunity to be good at it #and stede is such a kinda and patient teacher. and ed is of course. after a few missteps. a natural #and stede is better than ever before as well. it was Never like this with Mary #it was never so fluid and natural. he never felt so secure - protected and protector. #look i don't know anything about dancing. idk how this would work in relation to the time period. or having to have someone lead and follow #but also. i dont think that matters #woes of emily #sorry this is written like this it's 2am #ofmd #our flag means death #blackbonnet #gentlebeard #what did we settle on in the end? #i think i need to write an actual long piece of fiction soon or this blog will continue to get worse

[fluffykitteninabox]

me at 15 reading about ocd on the internet: oh that sounds like a nightmare I don't think I could live like that, so glad I definitely don't have it

me getting diagnosed 7 years later:

#in my defence it feels nothing like the stereotypes portrayed on tv #like I had a school friend who was obsessed with the show monk #I've never actually seen it so idk if it does a good job portraying it or not but I know monk is the very stereotypical ocd character #and that friend would go on and on about the show and how relatable it felt to her #not sure if she also had undiagnosed ocd but she only used a certain type of pen #and would refuse to use any other to write #she even got me into it I bought them and we would share #they were nice pens #and she also had this little ritual where if you touched her neck you had to close your fingers #in a way that mimics that stereotype for Italian hand gestures #and then you had to huff on them #she literally would not let you do anything else after you touched her neck unless you finished that little ritual #and I never thought I had anything like that so that meant I didn't have ocd right? #but yeah now that I'm saying it it seems stupid #like just because I'm not a “neat person” and don't obsess over cleaning doesn't mean anything #I say I don't obsess over cleaning and then I proceed to disinfect everything I bring from outside into the house with rubbing alcohol #but that only happened after the pandemic so I'm often thinking if it really counts #do I really have ocd or am I just traumatised from the pandemic? #like if I know the when and how I started a specific behaviour then is it really part of a mental disorder? #I know the logic behind it so it's not really a problem #right? #can I tag this as ocd? am I allowed? #fuck it! #ocd #I'm sure people who know more about this than me can explain if it counts or not #maybe it doesn't #maybe it's just germophobia? #but then what would all the other stuff be? #checking to see if your relatives are still breathing in their sleep in the middle of the night isn't germophobia #but I know the cause of this too it's from losing my uncle does that mean it also doesn't count? is it considered traumatic? idk

[dreamsy990]

my thoughts on ddd basically boil down to "great game! kill the story with fire and sticks." which i think is about the coldest take ever. do not get me started on how nobodies having hearts is a dumbfuck plot twist i am so full of rage over that.

#it ruins roxas' entire character i swear #also sidenote soras evidence for nobodies having hearts is. hilarious #his examples are xion; namine; roxas; and axel #xion isnt even a nobody #namine is only considered a nobody on a technicality #roxas is generally an exception to a lot of nobody rules. also him having emotions and that being an abnormality is like. a plot point #and axel generally doesnt have emotions! he only ever has them relating to sora or roxas and he is genuinely shocked the first time he- #-realizes that he can feel something because of them #he literally dies saying '[roxas] made me feel like i had a heart... its funny- you make me feel the same way' #that weird ability they have to make axel feel things is a big part of why he cares so much about roxas and sora #and to say that 'he actually had a heart' is just a bad misinterpreting of what was already there #and if i didnt know any better i would assume there was a different writer for this game #its poorly thought out and directly contradicted on multiple occasions #plus you cant tell me xemnas really tricked all these people into thinking they didnt have hearts. like. at the very least VEXEN would have #also if they always felt things and xemnas gaslighted them into thinking it wasnt real #then why would axel notice anything special about sora and roxas at all. wouldnt he just treat emotions caused by them like everything else #-and talk himself into thinking they werent real? like its just not thought out #also to me it makes xemnas a less interesting villain. i dont mind his big secret plot i think its fine honestly. #but i much prefer the option of xemnas taking advantage of people who were desperate to him gaslighting and lying #its more personal taste but like. idk #also literally do not get me started on how this twist sucks for roxas' character. its just plain bad for him. #he fought tooth and nail and fucking died saying he deserved to exist whether or not he had a heart #and to look at him and go 'dont worry you get one now' is just bad! and i hate it!! #anyways. i fucking despise this games story #kingdom hearts #doodles #sora #roxas #riku #lea